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potatobugxo · 1 year

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Ink demon alphabet SFW 🥰

AWWW YES

warnings: mentions of trauma, mentions of eating things alive

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

at first, bendy is not affectionate at all. he’s rather distant and hesitant to commit any form of physical affection. however, once he realized he wasn’t too good at displaying affection through words, he decided on rubbing his head against you like a cat, and then it grew to him wanting to hold you more often!

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

the ink demon has... never had a friend before. you’re the first, and he does not know how to deal with it at first. he has no idea how to even be a friend in return, aside from doing favors for you at first and talking with you. just know you can confide in him at any time!!

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

bendy is a big cuddle monkey. he loves holding you in his arms in whatever position you’re comfortable in, and will rest his head in your lap so you can give him head and horn pets as often as possible. though he doesn’t want to admit it, he’s an absolute cuddle menace!

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

he is the almighty ink demon. do you expect him to be able to cook food or clean anything? his idea of “cooking” is eating an ink creature while they’re still alive. not the most domestic thing to do. he doesn’t entirely understand the concept of even being “domestic”.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

he’d eat you lmao. if he ever deemed you untrustworthy, or if you hurt him in any way, he’d see no reason to keep you around. that’s the only way anything would end, at least

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

bendy has absolutely no idea what marriage even is. he knows the mere idea of it, but doesn’t understand it whatsoever. his idea of “marrying” you would be just to keep you by his side forever as long as you’re willing to have him. and if you wanna put a ring on it, hey, he doesn’t understand human customs but sure.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

“gentle” is the last word anyone would use to describe the ink demon. however, for you, he’s exceptionally soft. no one has ever been gentle with him in his cursed lifetime, so he doesn’t know how to be soft with you at first. it takes a lot of teaching and a lot of trust for him to warm up and be vulnerable with you.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

bendy’s hugs are like being tugged into a giant cave. he’s this huge mass of ink and bones so he isn’t the softest hugger, so he can come across as a bit aggressive when showing affection, though he doesn’t mean to, he just can’t control his strength at times and forgets how fragile you are compared to him

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

it takes him a long, long, long time before he says it. its another thing added onto the pile of things he doesn’t understand. no one has ever shown him love, so he has no perception of what it is or how it should be. he only learns it through you and if lots of affection, words of affirmation, and quality time is what love is, then yes, he’ll end up saying “i love you” eventually.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

oh boy... the ink demon has no filter when he’s jealous. usually he sees you as doing no wrong, if you’re spending time with helpless lost ones, or being openly affectionate with other ink creatures, he doesn’t mind all that much. but if one starts getting a bit too close with you, he’ll rip their head off, unless you can calm him down. as much as he hates to admit it, he’s extremely possessive and just wants to protect you. he can’t risk losing his only source of love.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

this man has no lips so he can’t exactly kiss you. he’ll boop you with his teeth and lick your face with his inky tongue, but that’s about all he can do when it comes to smooching you. your kisses however, are so soft and adorable it makes him purr wherever you decide to kiss him!

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

bendy has no idea how to deal with anyone, let alone children. he sees them as bite sized snacks, to be honest. unless you convince him otherwise, kids are frankly a waste of time and/or edible in his eyes djksgs

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

mornings don’t really exist in the alternate dimension, so whenever you wake up he just goes about his “day” with you like normal. tho he’ll probably bring you food aka body parts because he knows you’re probably hungry when you wake up djsgddf

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

same as for mornings, nights don’t exist, it’s just always dark. however, he counts you going to sleep as “night”, so he’ll make sure you’ve got lots of plushies and pillows and whatever else you need that’s comfortable for you to sleep on

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

it’s a very long time before bendy starts opening up about his traumatic past. no one has ever cared about him, listened to him, or taken him into consideration. it takes a long time for him to trust you because of this, so he won’t “open up” until further along into your relationship.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

the ink demon gets pissed off very easily, it’s frightening. though you’re the last person to make him mad, most others will irritate him if anything by their mere presence alone.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

bendy remembers everything about everyone. he can get inside someone’s mind and know each of their secrets. so everything you’ve ever told him about yourself, he has retained in his memory.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

the ink demon’s favorite moment was when you showed genuine kindness to him. it was before anything romantic ever happened, you just genuinely wanted to be his friend and to get along with him, and that moment means the most to him out of all of them. it was the foundation of your love for him and his love for you.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

the ink demon will protect you against ANY harm that comes your way. all threats will be eliminated one way or another. as for him, he doesn’t need any protection at all. he’s the ink demon. though of course, he appreciates you protecting him against any negative remarks that come his way. that’s always sweet and he never stops you from doing so

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

bendy tries his best to make sure you’re happy and cared for. he wants to make sure he’s doing a good job at being a friend, significant other, etc, even if he has no idea what he’s doing at times. this goes for no matter what he does, whether it be his idea of a “date” or giving you gifts that he thinks would mean something to you!

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

the fact that he enjoys ripping lost ones to shreds, probably. i mean, mans has to eat, what else is he gonna do? but he also does it just because he wants to so dkjghsj

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

bendy could not give two hecks about what he looks like. he already knows he’s terrifying no matter what form he takes, so why bother doing anything else?

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

it isn’t that he would feel incomplete without you, he’d just feel empty again like he did before if you weren’t there (so yes i guess, he would feel incomplete without you...?) . you fill a hole no one else could fill. he wants to protect you and love you for the rest of his life just as you do him

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

bendy purrs like a giant cat when you pet him, thank you

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

he doesn’t like anyone who despises him and who actively seeks to hurt him.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

the ink demon doesn’t have the need for sleep, however if he so chooses he’ll cuddle with you while you sleep in his arms, and has his own way of drifting off, forgetting about the world around him without actually needing to sleep.

#batdr #bendy and the dark revival #ink demon x reader #bendy x reader #sfw alphabet

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sachiko1309 · 5 months

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I will protect you - Part 1

Summary: After the kidnapping and rape of Lucy, the relationship between Spock and her strained, causing a big fight between the two. Both interpreting the actions of the other wrong.

Word count: 3699

Warnings: fight, overwhelmed Spock, confronting her rapist, mentioning of rape, emotional break down Minors DNI! this contains adult content

In honor of a good friend of mine: @mystery-star thanks for poking my brain to produce happy chemicals and therefore continuing to write 🥰

The longer my condition lasted, the colder Spock became. He never took his hardness out on me, but I could see it in the way he talked to Jim or Bones, the way his hands shook when he tried to forcefully maintain control. Maybe that was exactly what made me pull myself together and get out of bed. One day, I didn't know exactly which one, I had the urge to do something. Spock had just been called to the bridge to join Jim, so I had my cabin to myself. I got in the shower, brushed my teeth and put on a uniform. This time I decided on a version with trousers, tying my hair back in a bun.

Before I left my room, I checked again to make sure the hallway was clear. Then I set off quickly and quietly towards the prisoner track. I stalked the halls like a leper. Always careful not to be seen by anyone. My absence on the bridge had certainly been noticed by now and the additional absence of Spock had probably started some rumors.

Only when I reached my destination did I breathe a sigh of relief. Luckily, the cell hallway was empty. A single camera monitored the hallway, but I knew it would only be checked if an alarm went off. I locked the door behind me and pulled a chair in front of the only inhabited cell in this area.

When I raised my head, Hanesh was already looking at me expectantly: "Brave." Was all he said as he looked me over. "Why?" Was all I asked, not taking my eyes off the man in front of me. He just tilted his head. “Why what?” There was a slight twitch at the corner of his mouth, but I wasn’t sure. I crossed my legs and continued to look at him: “Why all this? Where’s the logic?”

My question seemed to appeal to him because he got up from his bed and slowly stalked towards the invisible barrier that separated us. “The better question would be, why not?” Was his answer. “Why not take what you can? What's the point of putting a chastity belt on yourself when everything is at your feet? It is the logic of nature. The right of the strongest. And you, my love, are unfortunately one of the weak ones.”

"I'm not weak." The defiance was clear in my voice, causing Hanesh to laugh out loud. "But of course. That's why it was so incredibly difficult to get my hands on you. The strong, untouchable Lieutenant Lucy Esteban. If so, how come your own captain would trade you for a relic? Even your race draws a line. Determines which people should be protected and which should not. And the man you call your partner... The pathetic bastard of a Vulcan, born of a lowly human woman... Guided by his feelings, like his father, he falls for the next human woman who spreads her legs only to lose to me.”

Hanesh threw his head back and cackled maliciously. He laughed so loudly that my words were almost lost in the echo: “The only one who lost is you. You’re sitting in a cell. You will be prosecuted. And if Spock was so weak, how come you lost to him? According to your logic, this should never have happened. And yet here we are.” Slowly, a small smile crept onto my lips as I saw how much my words affected my tormentor.

“Don’t you dare…” He tried to threaten me, but I sat up in my chair. “What?” I cocked my chin arrogantly, looking at him with my undisguised hatred. "What you wanna do? You have failed. Lost to a human and a halfling.”

“Did I?” Hanesh quickly regained his stillness. His eyes dripped with mockery as he spoke, “You will never be able to forget me. I will always be a part of you. Your constant shadow that makes you look over your shoulder. Who makes you see every man as an enemy. Makes every corner a danger. You will never be completely at peace. And it will eat you up. Letting you go to waste. To the point where even a Vulcan can no longer bear what his k'diwa has become. Tell me, do you let Spock touch you or can't you stand being close to him? How long do you think he will take it before he turns away? Weeks? Months if you’re lucky?”

His words brought tears to my eyes, I desperately tried to blink them down, but I couldn't. The first rolled down my cheek and dripped onto my arm. “I won't let this happen. Spock won't go. We will make it."

“If you say so, love. But I don't think you believe a single word you say." Hanseh's voice was quiet but full of hatred. He knew exactly what his words were doing. How deeply they affected me.

He voiced my worst fears. Would Spock endure what he had seen? Would he, no could he still love me after all this? He was barely able to look me in the eyes now. Every time I shied away from him, he disappeared for a while, leaving me behind. Was it his way to get away from me?

"Cam you see it now? Your decline has already begun.” Hanesh ’s last words finally made me jump. I ran, no raced, down the hall and unlocked the door with shaking fingers. His laughter echoing through the halls, following me all the way to my cabin, and continued even as I pressed my hands over my ears and fell to the floor screaming.

***

The door opened behind me and someone sank to their knees next to me. “T'hy'la. No. Don't let him win. I'm not going anywhere. I promise.” Spock. I blindly reached for his hands, letting his feelings completely overwhelm me in order to forget my own. He stiffened, perplexed, but I didn't care. I needed him and the conversation with Hanesh had shown me exactly that. Sobbing, I climbed into his lap and began to cling to him.

Spock snapped out of his trance and pulled me into a tight hug. He slowly got up from the floor and carried me towards the bed, then buried me under himself and the blanket. As if he wanted to banish the world around me from my mind. I just continued to hold onto him. Arms and legs wrapped tightly around his torso, head buried in his chest, as I listened to his heartbeat. He said nothing. Just held me tight. One arm supported his body weight while the other held my head to his chest. Only when I pressed my head against his hand did he let go of me and leaned on both arms. I wasn't sure what made me do it, but I pulled his head down again and pressed my lips to his.

As soon as he felt my kiss, Spock gave in. Sighing, he sank onto his forearms and deepened the kiss. It was beautiful and terrible at the same time. Spock's soft lips, the closeness that I finally felt with him again. But there was something else. Fear and panic spread through me and I tried obsessively to suppress them. But Spock had already sensed them.

He suddenly let go of me, sitting back on his knees as he moved away from me. “I'm sorry, t'hy'la . Please forgive me.” I was confused. What should I forgive him for? He must have misinterpreted my expression because Spock got up from the bed. He stood rigidly still in the middle of the room, unsure whether he should go or stay. He chose the former.

That finally triggered the panic in me. “Don’t!” I almost screamed, my voice cracking, as I jumped up and held him tight. "Do not go. Don't leave me alone.” Even though Spock hugged me back, I could sense how uncomfortable he felt. His voice was now as emotionless as if he were speaking to colleagues. “I’m scaring you. You don't have to suppress your fear because of me. It's only logical that you shy away from physical contact after everything that's happened.”

“I don’t shy away from your physical contact.” I contradicted him and took his hands in mine as if to prove it. "Do you see? You don't scare me. I know you would never harm me.”

"And yet I felt your panic when I kissed you." Spock continued to resist.

“But that has nothing to do with you. I…” I looked around the room, struggling for words. "I... Hanesh ... When you knelt over me like that, I was back on his ship for a moment... I don't know why..."

“Your brain processes the experience by reliving memories in similar situations to evaluate how to deal with it.” Spock rattled off and released his hands from mine again. “I won’t pressure you into anything. You need time to process everything.” He wanted to leave again, but I held him again. "Time." I spat. “It's been weeks. You sat by my bed for almost four weeks, enduring everything with me. I don't need any more time. I need you. Your hugs, your love, your touches.”

"It wouldn't be right..." Spock didn't look at me. His face was impassive. Eyes fixed firmly on the door. “Not right?” Now I got angry. "Give me one reason why it's not right for my boyfriend... husband by Vulcan law, to sleep with me?" That's when Spock turned around. “You are emotionally upset. It would be better if we talked about it another time.” His voice was cold and calculating, his eyes fixed on me without any expression.

His rejection stung me and I reflexively pulled the walls up around me again. “So it’s because of my emotionality. An emotionality that is to be expected with such a topic. And all you can think of is 'we'll talk later'?" I flippantly lifted my chin and looked at him challengingly. But my reaction didn't seem to have any effect on him. Quite the opposite. Nodding stiffly, he replied, “That’s correct.”

At those three words, everything inside me broke. My heart shattered in the depths of my grief as my body was pierced by searing arrows of anger. Somehow I managed to keep my anger in check and not yell at him, even though everything in me wanted to slap him. Spock, on the other hand, seemed to either not notice my anger or deliberately ignore it. “I don’t think it’s a good idea. Intimacy too soon could further affect you and cause long-term damage. It would be better if we took it slower so as not to overwhelm you.”

“Not to overwhelm me?” I practically screamed. The dam inside me had burst. Tears ran down my cheeks, my hands were shaking and I felt nauseous. But I pulled myself together. I took a deep breath before continuing: “I think I know better what is right for me and what isn’t. I am grateful for your consideration. Really. Because I know you only want the best for me. But I need this. Need you.” My words seemed to soften him because he visibly relaxed. But what he said next was the opposite of what I expected: “Your assessment that I only want the best for you is entirely correct. But I think your statement that you know better what is good for you in your current state is wrong. You are emotionally upset, which means your ability to make decisions is negatively affected. So it would definitely be better to listen to my advice.”

My jaw literally dropped to my feet. Did he really just…? Without thinking about it, I rushed towards him and tried to slap him. Unfortunately he was significantly faster than me. He deftly caught my hand and looked at me confused, but I was no longer able, let alone willing, to explain to him what he had done wrong. “Get out!” I yelled at him. “Just leave. And I swear to God, if you so much as set foot in my cabin, I will kill you.”

"K'diwa ..." Spock tried to calm me down, but I had had enough: "NO! I don't care what you want to say. Your presumption to think that you can decide for me... Telling me through the grape wine that I am not capable of taking responsibility for my decisions... Patronizing me so much... Enough is enough. Just leave!” I pushed against his body with all my strength, trying to force him out of my cabin, but I couldn't. Like a tree, he stood firmly rooted without moving an inch.

"T'hy'la ...I'm sorry. I didn't mean to… It was never my intention to patronize you…” But I didn't let him explain any further. I grabbed the first object I could find and threw it at Spock. “Get out now!” My voice had now reached a height where I was sure it wasn't far until I could burst glasses. My whole body was shaking, as my heartbeat was pounding in my ears and I was on the verge of losing consciousness.

Spock also seemed to notice that it would be better to leave at this moment, because he walked backwards towards the door with his hands raised. "I'm sorry. Please forgive me, t’hy’la.” But I studiously ignored his words and waited until the door closed before locking it.

I collapsed on the floor crying. I curled up in a ball and just sobbed to myself. It felt like all my strength had gone from my limbs, like the control of my body had left the room with Spock. I slowly rolled onto my back and remained motionless. With my eyes fixed on the ceiling above me, focused on the feeling of wet tears running from my eyes and into my hairline. I was cold. Not in an actual perceived temperature, it was more of an emotional coldness that slowly ate through my body, devouring me body part by body part, leaving me completely numb.

In the corner of my eye I saw the clock on my wall. 10:34 am. That meant, in theory, I still had almost seven hours of work ahead of me. I sat up abruptly and walked into the bathroom. Looking in the mirror, I took off my clothes, got in the shower and started getting ready for the day. I looked as if my body had been turned into a mindless shell, but I couldn't care less. I needed a distraction. A distraction from Spock, Hanesh, and my own mind. And what could be better than work?

With the PADD tucked under my arm, I made my way towards the bridge. As I went, I noticed people staring at me, but I ignored them. I was completely focused on the path in front of me and the feeling of the uniform pants slapping against my legs. With every step the fabric seemed to get stiffer, as if my clothes themselves were trying to keep me from working. Taking one last deep breath, I walked through the door of the bridge.

Within a split second, all eyes were on me. Spock and Jim looked as if they had seen a ghost, while the rest looked at me with looks varying from joy to confusion to concern. Without even explaining my appearance to anyone, I went to my seat and stuck the communicator in my ear. I then connected my PADD to the computer and began translating various captured messages. Apparently some messages had been intercepted while I was away and either couldn't be translated or were marked as unimportant.

Nobody spoke to me. Not even Spock, although he sat down next to me and went about his own work. After a while, the feeling that I was being watched disappeared and I heard the hustle and bustle behind me start again.

***

I didn't quite realize how much time had passed, but as the bridge emptied around midday, Spock cleared his throat for the first time. He stood next to me, stiff as ever, holding a plate of food in his outstretched hand. “I have come to apologize for my previous behavior and hope that after work we can find a solution to our problem together.”

My eyes darted back and forth between his face and the plate. “You brought me food? Why?” Was all I could come up with, still completely confused by the situation. Spock, however, seemed like he was doing the most logical thing in the world. “I have discovered over the weeks of our relationship that food contributes to your emotional upliftment. Since my last action left you upset, it was only logical that I contribute something to your well-being.”

"So, you're bribing me?" I asked, reaching for the plate in his hand. Apparently, Spock was still wary of any further outbursts on my part, so he stopped and looked at me. “Please forgive, t'hy'la. I don't quite understand how providing basic needs can be an attempt at bribery." His helplessness forced a small smile on my lips and I couldn't help but reach for his hand.

"It was a joke." I replied as I linked our fingers together. “Of course, I will talk to you later. Sorry I freaked out so much. I don't know why, and I really hope you can forgive me." Ashamed, I looked down and tried to hide the blush on my face.

"K'diwa." Spock's fingers under my chin forced me to look at him again. “There is nothing to apologize for. Even though I don't fully understand how you feel, I do understand why you reacted the way you did. I also had a very insightful conversation with my father and he made me understand what my mistake was.” I shook my head. "You didn't do anything wrong." But Spock interrupted me before I could launch into another tirade: "I tried to answer your emotions with my logic. That was wrong. Please forgive me, from now on I will try to respond to you better and make you feel like I am there for you. Because it seems that you humans value emotional support far more than a logical approach to solving a problem.”

I couldn't help but laugh at that. I placed the plate on the counter and ignored the reproachful look Spock passed between me and the plate. Then, I stood up and took his face in my hands and this time he didn't back away from me. Quite the opposite. He rested his hands on my waist and just looked at me.

"I love you." Was all I said before I pulled him down and kissed him, knowing that everyone on the bridge was probably staring at us right now. But Spock didn't seem to care either, because he wrapped an arm around my body and pulled me closer to him. Out of reflex, I relaxed and let him guide me. His lips were gentle yet firm on mine while his free hand rested on mine at the back of his neck. I immediately felt the relief rolling through his body and mixing with his love for me. Unlike usual, he barely suppressed the strength of his emotions and I clung to his uniform as my knees threatened to buckle under the force.

Only a loud clearing of a throat behind him caused us to break apart. He immediately pushed me behind him and puffed up protectively. But when he saw it was Jim and his father, he visibly relaxed and loosened the arm holding me behind him. “Captain. Father.” Was all he replied with a nod before turning to his desk. Jim looked at me with a questioning look, while Sarek just raised a knowing eyebrow.

I just shrugged and took the plate in my hand. As I ate, I went back to my work and tried not to pay too much attention to the whispers behind me. But I didn't succeed. Sighing, I almost slammed the plate on my desk and turned around in my chair: "Does anyone have a problem or a question that would otherwise burn through the seat of their pants?"

With a raised eyebrow, I surveyed the people in the room and looked everyone in the eye for a few seconds. Many looked down in shame, but a few held their ground. Sulu was the first to speak, "Not that it's any of our business, but we're all curious as to why you and Commander Spock haven't shown up for work for the last few weeks. Well not precisely, the Commander was on the bridge every now and then, but still. Some of us are worried. That's all."

I nodded and looked at him. “I understand and I’m really grateful for it. But I can't talk about it yet. And maybe I never will be able to. What I can say is that I'm fine. At least given the circumstances.”

“So, you're not pregnant?” Chekov blurted out, causing me to barely suppress a giggle. "No. I'm not. My absence is more of a psychological nature and Spock was there to support me.” Chekov nodded, his ears turning red.

“It’s a shame actually. It would have been the first Enterprise baby.” Sulu looked at me with a grin, whereupon I just showed him the middle finger. But he ignored me and turned to Chekov instead. With his hand outstretched, he said, “Looks like you owe me 50 bucks, Pavel.”

My jaw literally dropped to the floor. "You haven't seriously bet on whether I'm pregnant, have you?" Sulu just tilted his head. “Well actually, we bet on pretty much anything when it comes to you and the Commander. It’s not every day that a Vulcan is so human.” Shaking my head, I turned back. “Honestly, those who have you as friends no longer need enemies…”

“Pffff, you would be missing something if it were any other way.” I responded to Sulu’s objection with another middle finger and got a few laughs in the process.

#fem reader #star trek #spock #spock x reader #commander spock #emotional breakdown

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truefaithmp3 · 2 years

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Myztify Euphoria Fic Masterpost 🤍

💔 Angst:

- all i need in this life of sin (is me & my girlfriend) — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Lexi and Fezco reunite years later

- you had a long time, to think who you are — Cassie-centric, Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA Fezco and Lexi’s relationship through Cassie’s eyes

- all your secret wishes (could right now be coming true) — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, multi-chapter AKA Lexi struggles to get pregnant, Fezco struggles to cope with his grief

- a certain kind of light — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, multi-chapter AKA teacher!Lexi moves to Chicago and runs into Fezco

- lost in the lie of us — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter ⚠️ minor Cassie/Fezco AKA the early-2000s angsty teen drama

- can’t get used to losing you — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Fezco has an affair with married Lexi

- (oh, honey) a heart that never breaks — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA best friends Lexi and Fezco decide to have a baby

- (i don’t want to be your friend) i just want to be your lover — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA non-linear Fezco and Lexi can never quite make it work

- there ain’t no romance around there — Fezco/Lexi, Maddy/Rue, rated M, multi-chapter AKA Fezco, Rue and Lexi are roommates in LA

- my sister’s boyfriend — Fezco/Lexi, minor Fezco/Cassie, rated E, two part series AKA Lexi fucks her sister’s boyfriend, Fezco

- my bright is too slight (to hold back all my dark) — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA a soulmates AU

- (you’ve got) skeletons in the closet, my dear — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, one shot AKA Lexi observes how her husband has changed

- just some lover — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, one shot AKA Lexi and Fezco marry young and divorce

- maybe i’m too young (to keep good love from going wrong) — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, multi-chapter AKA Fezco and Lexi are broken up when she finds out she’s pregnant

- whenever i’m alone with you — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA formerly incarcerated Fezco stalks married Lexi

💕 Coming of Age:

- a strangers heart without a home — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA foster kid!Fezco moves into the Howard home

- love, i get so lost sometimes — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, multi-chapter AKA a Say Anything AU

- (i want more) impossible to ignore — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA the video store kids

- are you wild like me? — Fezco/Lexi, Rue/Jules, rated M, multi-chapter AKA a Booksmart AU

- (what i need is a good defense) ‘cause i’m feeling like a criminal — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA cheerleader!Lexi falls for stoner!Fezco

- we can make it so divine — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, multi-chapter AKA Lexi has always had a crush on her best friend’s older brother (5+1)

- (my, oh my) what a girl — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Fezco hooks up with dream girl Lexi on the last day of high school

🥰 Fluff:

- (please) be my baby — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA journalist!Lexi meets farmer!Fezco

- i wanna kiss you (until i lose my breath) — Cassie/Maddy, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Cassie gets over Nate and falls for her best friend

- i’d take care of you (if you asked me to) — Fezco/Lexi, minor Ash/Cassie, minor Rue/Jules, rated M, multi-chapter AKA a New Girl AU

- now i’m older, i’m tattooed all over — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA tattoo artist!Fezco gives Lexi her first tattoo (5+1)

- cradle me (i’ll cradle you) — Fezco/Lexi, Ash/Cassie, rated M, multi-chapter AKA Fezco’s brother knocks up Lexi’s sister

- don’t be alarmed if i fall (head over feet) — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA a friends with benefits AU

- (last christmas) i gave you my heart — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA christmas fic AKA the gang goes to a cabin in colorado

🍆 Smutty:

- heaven holds a place for those who pray — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA older!Lexi starts fucking her weed dealer

- young adult friction — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA Fezco wants to bone librarian!Lexi

- gonna set my soul on fire — Fezco/Lexi, minor Ash/Maddy, multi-chapter AKA Fezco and Lexi go to Vegas for a bachelor/bachelorette weekend

- my body is the canvas (you could be the pen) — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA tattooed!Lexi begins working at Fezco’s bar

- you know i need your love — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA good catholic boy Fezco wants Lexi

- let’s talk about sex, baby — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, two part series AKA the sexual histories of Fezco and Lexi

- girls need love — Ash/Cassie, minor Fezco/Lexi, rated E, five part series AKA the Ash/Cassie extended universe

- pour some sugar on me — Fezco/Lexi, Ash/Cassie, rated E, two part series AKA the 80s groupies AU

- the animal instinct in me — Fezco/Lexi, minor Ash/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA an A/B/O AU

- too busy being yours — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA Lexi determines whether cocky!Fezco really does have a dick piercing

- feeling too good to me — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, one shot AKA the breeding kink AU

- you’ve already got me right where you want me — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA older!Lexi is Paulie’s girlfriend

- (if you want a lover) i’ll do anything you ask me to — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA a Secretary AU

- lost in the heat of it all — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, one shot AKA Fezco gives Lexi just the tip

- (i think you should know) i think this will work — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Lexi and Fezco have an eight year age gap

🤪 Stretching the AU Limits:

- i’m a fool to do your dirty work — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Lexi is a ‘fixer’ who cleans up crime scenes

- fall fast, fall free, fall for me — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA boxer!Fezco pisses off Lexi’s gangster father

- (nobody stands between) me & my man — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Fezco chooses a life of crime and Lexi becomes a gangster’s moll

- i made a lot of mistakes (in my mind) — Fezco/Lexi, rated M, one shot AKA a The Bear AU

- got a blue moon in your eyes — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA a The Sopranos AU

- can’t nobody love you (like i’m loving you) — Fezco/Lexi, minor Ash/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Lexi is arranged to be married to Ash

- into my arms — Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA Fezco and Ash are prohibition bootleggers

👻 Spooky:

- wolf like me — Cassie & Lexi-centric, minor Fezco/Lexi, rated M, multi-chapter AKA a Ginger Snaps AU

- ambitiously vicious — Lexi, Cassie, Maddy & Jules-centric, Fezco/Lexi, rated E, multi-chapter AKA a The Craft AU

#organising the embarrassing amount of fic i’ve written #my fic

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alexcutecolly · 6 months

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I saw you also got the ask game! So I wanna know

👅👄🥰💘

Hi Rosey! Thank you for the ask! 💕

Here's what I think about:

👅: Tongues

They're genuinely such a good part of vore. Through the tongue(s) the very first contact between pred and prey takes place, and thanks to that the former learns plenty of info about the latter. For example, what they taste like, and how they react to being licked and what not.

Also in a scenario with a very willing prey, some mouthplay where the pred makes use of their tongue(s) to slosh them around inside, moving them from cheek to cheek and gently pressing them against the palate is my jam ❤️

Anyway, more kudos to tongues! They're fun and add more interesting dynamics to the very early phases of a vore sequence xD

👄: Communication

Regardless of context, communication is important! Like telling your Best Pred/Prey (™️) you're not in the mood for noms, or setting boundaries, or discussing if something is wrong or one of you is uncomfortable in any way.

Also, in the very context of vore, communication between prey and pred can get confusing and more difficult once the former has been eaten, for unnecessary physics reasons. Personally, my favorite version of this scenario is when they can still hear each other despite the layers of muscles, flesh and bones, the only difference is the prey's voice being a little muffled. But a pred being either unable to hear them at all, or too uncaring to be bothered by it, can be interesting as well imo, since it creates a sort of gap that needs to be resolved sooner or later. Or an issue that needs to be addressed :o

🥰: Willing vore

It's so awesome! And amazing!! And aaaaaaaaa

The very want of being swallowed and kept safe inside someone you really love and/or care about? Being able to say "I'm actually scared about this, but I trust you?" To allow them to see the vulnerable you, and let them take you somewhere nobody can hurt you so that you can rest and be comfortable? Or to just placate their hunger for a bit? Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

💘: Personal meaning

So uhm, vore is pretty much a comfort thing to me. I hate how it's heavily sexualized on other platforms, as if only that specific side is the only one that exists, and how some people truly believe it's inherently a kink. But it's not.

Although I like to experiment in my stories (and sometimes write about the worst bastard characters ever), daydreaming about being eaten safely and in the most comforting way brings peace to my core. Like, especially if the pred is someone I really really enjoy the company of ❤️

A stomach can also be a place for snoozing and taking a break from the mundane irl stuff, and it's so nice to see so many other people relate to this.

Love is stored in the belly, basically ❤️ (and intestines too at times)

#thank you so much again for asking me this!#and i do hope i explained myself well in the last part #vore is comforting to me #because i see it as safe and protective #safe vore #nonsexual vore #tongues #willing vore #vore communication?#vore ask game #v0re #roseytosey

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josephseedismyfather · 8 months

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(WIP) Music Monday

I was tagged by @inafieldofdaisies for today's post! Thank you friend! 🥰

The rules: Post a song that is relevant to your WIP or inspires it. I’m also including the lyrics.

Afflicted.

Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its right At the right place and right time, maybe tonight And the whisper or handshake sending a sign Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait never mind

Late night, and passing, mention it flipped her Best friend, who knows saying maybe it slipped But the slip turns to terror and a crush to light When she walked in, he froze up, believe its the fright

Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak And you leave to have a cigarette, your knees get weak An escape is just a nod and a casual wave Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days

It's only just a crush, it'll go away It's just like all the others it'll go away Or maybe this is danger and he just don't know You pray it all away but it continues to grow

I want to hold you close Skin pressed against me tight Lie still, and close your eyes girl So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close Soft breasts, beating heart As I whisper in your ear I want to fucking tear you apart

Then he walked up and told her, thinking that he'd passed And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare

They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do 'Cause there's always repercussions when you're dating in school But their lips met, and reservations started to pass Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last

Either way he wanted her and this was bad He wanted to do things to her it was making him crazy Now a little crush turned into a like And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her

I want to hold you close Skin pressed against me tight Lie still, and close your eyes girl So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close Soft breasts, beating heart As I whisper in your ear I want to fucking tear you apart

Parenesis.

Lay where you're laying Don't make a sound I know they're watching They're watching

All the commotion The kiddie-like play Has people talking They're talking

You Your sex is on fire

The dark of the alley The breaking of day Head while I'm driving I'm driving

Soft lips are open Them knuckles are pale Feels like you're dying You're dying

You Your sex is on fire

Consumed With what's just transpired

Hot as a fever Rattling bones I could just taste it Chased it

But it's not forever But it's just tonight Oh, we're still the greatest The greatest The greatest

Untitled John WIP.

Come down to my house Stick a stone in your mouth You can always pull outIf you like it too much

Make a whole new religion A falling star that you cannot live without And I'll feed your obsessions Now there'll be nothing but this thing That you'll never doubt

A hit is hard to resist And I never have missed I can take you outWith just a flick of my wrist

Make a whole new religion A falling star that you cannot live without And I'll feed your obsessions There is nothing but this thing That you'll never doubt This thing you'll never doubt

It'll feed your obsessions The falling star that you cannot live without I will be your religion This thing you'll never doubt You're not the only one You're not the only one

Bow down to me Bow down to me Bow down to me Bow down to me Bow down to me Bow down to me Bow down to me

Tagging, with apologies for doubles and no pressure as always: @wrathfulrook, @socially-awkward-skeleton, @trench-rot, @cassietrn, @redreart, @hotmessteaparty, @g0dspeeed, @v0idbuggy, @insanityofvaas, @simplegenius042, @malefiquinn, @strangefable, @noodlecupcakes, @neverthesameneveranother, @chazz-anova, @aristomal, @villageofshadow, and whoever else wants to share. Tag me! 😘

#music monday #harley x jacob #evangeline x joseph #untitled john wip #tagged 🖤#far cry 5 wip #music tag games #wip playlist #spotify #Spotify

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cable-knit-sweater · 1 year

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Hello, may I request Evanstan + 47? 🙃

Hi lovely tejodore 💕💕 Thank you so much!!

#47 is Skate by Silk Sonic (which, fun fact, Chris mentioned during Lightyear press as a song that instantly puts him in a good mood) 🥰

And I especially liked these lyrics for our boys: I never fall, but tonight you got me fallin' for you // And only you, you // I'm reaching out in hopes that you reach for me too

Clearly I’m incapable of making these short. But here it is, a little TFA era fun, especially for you 😘😘

This wasn’t the first time they’d gone out with a bunch of the cast and crew. Not even the first time Sebastian had joined them, although he’d needed some prompting. But it was definitely a little wilder than most of the other times. Maybe it was because they were so close to wrapping, and they had a long weekend break, so people felt free to let loose a little, maybe have a couple of drinks too many.

They’d started out at a pub, had a few (more than a few) beers, and at some point, someone - Chris doesn’t even remember who - suggested they’d go to a club, for some more drinks and dance. Chris had immediately said yes, always in for a good time, but to his surprise - delight, actually - Sebastian had said he was in too.

Which brings them here, to a club Chris doesn’t even know the name of, a song playing he doesn’t recognize, and a drink in his hand he doesn’t remember ordering. Not because he’s so drunk. He can hold his liquor pretty well. He’s just…entranced. By the way Sebastian is moving around the club, dancing so freely, so smoothly, so…so…He exudes pure sex. Sebastian. His soft spoken, shy, friendly, adorably nerdy costar. That Sebastian. And it’s doing things to Chris.

It’s not like he hasn’t noticed how good Sebastian looks before. They’ve spent so much time - both on and off set - together these past few months. He’s gotten to know Seb pretty well, after he broke through the initial shyness. They’d had dinners and drinks together, watched movies in each other’s hotel rooms, roamed the streets of London together on their days off.

He’s gotten to know Sebastian, with all his little quirks, his smirks and self-deprecating humor. He figured out how much they have in common, interests wise - space, books, their appreciation for their craft - and he’d gotten to love listening to Seb talk about the ones they don’t, the way he’d light up talking about his passions.

Chris isn’t blind. He’s always known he’s attracted to men just as much as he is to women, and Seb is objectively an attractive guy, with his lean built, his blue grey eyes, ridiculous bone structure and shiny brown hair that will curl a little no matter how much Sebastian tells it not to. Chris just hasn’t felt…this kind of attraction, bordering on lust, until tonight. Okay, so maybe it crossed that border a couple of hours ago when Sebastian winked at him coyly before taking to the dance floor. He isn’t sure where that came from.

Chris isn’t sure how long he’s been sitting here, staring at Sebastian, who’s clearly having the time of his life. Sebastian is laughing, throwing his head back in reaction to something the guy he’s dancing with told him, and Chris is helpless but to follow the line of his neck with his eyes, feeling a sort of hunger and jealousy and want build up in him. That feeling gets a 100 times more intense when Sebastian’s gaze slips over to him, lingering there just for a moment, biting his lip. Chris doesn’t want go imagine how red it is. He wants to see for himself.

He throws back the last of his drink - vodka with something, he’s finally figured out - and gets up out of the booth. He makes his way over to Sebastian in a couple of quick strides. Sebastian looks up at him, as does the man that currently has his hands on Sebastian’s hips, but Chris pays him no mind, holding out his hand instead. “You wanna dance?” He asks, and Sebastian nods, eyes glittering under the club lights. They both ignore the protests of the other man saying that they were dancing already.

Chris places Sebastian’s hand on his back, shivering a little when Sebastian lets it slide down a little. ��Is this okay,” Seb asks, as he leans in a little.

“Yeah, yeah- is this?” Chris asks in return, as he puts his own hands on Sebastian’s waist. Sebastian just smirks, and soon enough, they’re gliding around the dance floor together, pressing themselves closer and closer to each other. Sebastian’s a much better dancer than Chris is, and he has some difficulty keeping up at first, but at some point it devolves into something that can’t even be described as dancing anymore.

They’re grinding against each other, and Chris can feel his own heartbeat speed up as he hears Sebastian’s breath hitch. It makes him look up, first at Sebastian’s lips, then his eyes, then his lips again. He wants to ask, wants to ask if it’s okay if he kisses him. He feels like he’s gonna burn up from the inside if he doesn’t. But he doesn’t have to ask. Not a moment later, those red bitten lips press against his, and he can’t hold back the gasp of surprise he lets out, before kissing back just as fiercely.

As he closes his eyes and the rest of the club falls away around them, his entire focus on where they’re pressed against each other and the feeling of Sebastian’s tongue warring for dominance with his and losing, he thinks that maybe, maybe he’s an idiot. He’s probably been falling for Sebastian for a long time, maybe even since the day they met, and he didn’t even realize. But now? Now he knows. He sighs into Sebastian’s mouth, feeling more content than he has in months, which soon turns into excitement, about what’s possibly to come next. Both tonight, and maybe, maybe even far beyond that.

#maya tries to write #evanstan #rpf #tej 💕💕💕#ask games

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thatpunkmaximoff · 11 months

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Story: 4 out of 5 ⭐️’s Smut: 2 out of 5 🌶️

So, this book was pretty cool. Not so cool as to spend hundreds of dollars on it (seriously people, just wait for the restock), but it was definitely a good read.

Violet "Violence" Sorrengail is probably my new favorite character. And the dragons. I loved that they could talk to each other after the dragon chose its rider.

Anyway, read this book. Read. It.

There are characters you'll love, you'll hate, and you'll be suspicious of. You don't know who you can trust and by the end, you'll be thinking, "Oh shit."

It does end on a cliffhanger, so be ready for that.

Now enjoy my chaotic thoughts if you don't mind spoilers.

* Ohhhh. Family drama right off the bat.

* Wow. The mom is a total bitch.

* First chapter in and I’m getting Divergent vibes.

* Oh no. Poor Dylan 😬

* Xaden is scary, but I’m kind of into it.

* Fuck Jack. Pls let a dragon eat him early on.

* So Dain.. you’re annoying. Fuck off and leave Violet be. She doesn’t need you dictating her life.

* Ugh. Jack. What the fuck is his deal with Violet?

* I’m getting really tired of Dain’s shit. Stop trying to send Violet to the Scribes!

* Lol.. what is Xaden playing at. He says he gets the honor of murdering Violet.. but his one on one time with her seemed almost flirtatious?

* Lmao. She poisoned her opponent! 😂

* “You are not attracted to toxic men.” — This is every booktoker after they done fell for the most toxic men of all 😂

* Ugh.. DAIN! I’m so fucking annoyed with this dude.

* Aww. Poor Aurelie.

* Okay, so I’m starting to like Xaden 🤷🏻‍♀️

* Atta girl, Violet. Don’t let Dain sway your decision. Get your ass up that Gauntlet.

* She made it! And who the fuck is this Mavis chick that’s whining about Violet cheating? Gtfo of here!

* The dragons were sniffing her and everyone was scared out of their minds 😂 I want a pet dragon now.

* These dumbfucks wanna kill a dragon?!

* OH MY GOD! Xaden and Sgaeyl are there too!! Get fucked, Jack!

* So Jack ran like a little bitch and Tynan got roasted 😂

* Also, which dragon spoke to Violet?! Holy shit.

* Holy fuck?! The big scary dragon that Jack was hoping to bond fucking chose Violet! I’m so fucking happy. And what’s the deal with the tiny golden one? Lmao.

* Tairn is a dick. I love it 🥰

* Two dragons bonded to her!!!!!!!!! Oh my fucking god!!

* …and Xaden just got Dain to show his true colors. Drop his ass, Vi!

* Fuck you, Dain! First you say you won’t break rules to save your best friend and now you’re kissing her because she has 2 dragons?! Ugh.

* Now everyone’s kissing her ass because Xaden needs her protected 🤦🏻‍♀️

* Lol at Tairn teasing Violet about Xaden.

* Fucking finally! I was waiting for Violet to buck the fuck up and tell off Dain.

* Oh shit. They attacked Violet in her room. Thank fuck for Tairn and whoever he sent. And Andarna for lending her power.

* Goddamn, Xaden. You weren’t fucking around! 😂 Thank god. Oren was a dick.

* Holy shit. Andarna can stop time and lend that power briefly to Violet 😨 People are really gonna wanna kill her.

* Fucking Amber.

* Aww. I love Liam haha.

* Lol Violet and Xaden have to feel when their dragons are mating 😂

* Damn, Xaden 😏 I was loving the out of control makeout, but I’m glad he stopped it before it got any further.

* Oranges..? Lmao. Serves you right, dick.

* They stole the map from her mother’s office and all hell broke loose 😂

* They can mentally talk to each other!

* And Dain’s jealous ass needs to settle down.

* HE FUCKING STABBED LIAM AND PUSHED HIM OFF HIS DRAGON?!

* Lightning wielder. Fuck yes. And fuck you, Jack. Serves you right.

* Don’t tell her “don’t fall for me” because you just jinxed it. She’s gonna fall for you.

* Lol I can’t believe she lost control every time she came 😂 and then Xaden fed her memories of when they boned so she could unleash her lightning.

* Aww. Liam is such a good friend 🥹

* Lmao. Violet fucked up his room 😂

* Aww shit. Nothing like being under attack to ruin orgasms.

* Fucking War Games?! Ugh, I’d be so pissed!

* What. The. Fuck, Xaden 😨

* Fuck you, Dain!! How dare you read her without consent.

* Liam 🥺😭 How fucking dare you do this me.

* Are. You. Fucking. Kidding. Me! How dare you leave me on that cliffhanger!

#fourth wing #rebecca yarros #book review #booktok #booklr #bookworm #violet sorrengail #xaden riorson #dain aetos

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starrysnowdrop · 2 years

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🌧️ rain if it hasn't been asked yet! And if it has... I wanna read more from your WIPs! :D

🌧️ rain: share a sad or emotional scene from your wip!

Ohhhh yay, another WIP I get to share!!! 🥰

Now I warn everyone, this one is EXTREMELY bare bones, and I had jotted down a few lines weeks ago but I have yet to have the time to come back to it. This is in need of much love and attention, and hopefully I can get back to this after my vacation.

With that, hope everyone enjoys!

~**~

((Note: Canon dialogue lines will be fit in around my dialogue later as necessary.))

[ G’raha looks to Yume, with tear filled eyes, almost about to weep, but he is able to smile. ]

“Yume… Forgive me, but I must break our promise…”

“No, ‘tis alright. I’m proud of you, Raha. Do as you must. Do your duty.”

“I will never forget you, Yume, mea amata…”

[ Doors begin to close, and Yume can see that G’raha is trying to say something to her, but she can’t hear his words. ]

“Farewell Yume, I love you, my inspiration.”

[ The Doors slam shut and are sealed, with G’raha inside. Yume falls to the ground, openly sobbing. ]

“Raha… no…”

~**~

That’s all I’ve got for now! Thank you so much for the ask @porta-decumana, and it’s great to see you back my friend!!! 🥰💖

#writeblr asks #asks and replies #writing wip

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hhoneyribbons · 2 years

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Would you write again? I really wanna see it 🥺 A multi characters headcanons for Patrick, William and Casanova kissing reader 🥰 (some neck kisses too if you want 👀)

Williamcasanova

How the heaths would kiss you / where they like to kiss you

Ahh yay!! Thank you so much for the request I’m still new at doing headcannons but I hope you like it and it pleases ur request sorry if it’s a bit long I had a LOT of fun but yep enjoy, luv y’a . Also if you wanted the three you requested with the reader just let me know and I’ll do that as well <3

ₒ ˚ ° 𐐒𐐚 ° ˚ ₒ ∞ ° 𐐪𐑂 ₒ ₒ ˚ ° 𐐒𐐚 ° ˚ ₒ ∞ ° 𐐪𐑂 ₒₒ ˚ ° 𐐒𐐚 ° ˚ ₒ ∞ °

Patrick Verona

-on ur cheeks, a whole lot, and I mean a lot and uses kisses as a show of love always just abruptly kissing you in a fight or when ur rambling

-" How is that even fair Patrick !! you cant just do whatever you- hmm~ " you ramble and hum out as Patrick shuts you up with a kiss and an " oh but I just did girlie " he'd grin and you'd stomp off only for him to follow and give more kisses

-ur favorite place to kiss him is his hand like while ur holding hands and you hold his hand to ur lips kissing them.

William thatcher

-on ur shoulders or collarbone, most of he loved just to kiss u but ur shoulders being bare would put the knight in a puddle.

-here you sat in the grass enjoying a break from the games William played to please his dreams, him next to you rubbing ur arms happy to see you in a sleeveless gown and placing his warm lips upon ur sunkissed skin " mm my flower ur skin is the best thing my lips have touched so far " he would be in actual bliss, you would roll ur eyes but smile " oh, William so easily falling ~ "

-ur favorite place to kiss him is his forehead you adore the way his soft blond hair tickles ur face making his giving you the most heart-warming smile

Casanova

-one word . n e c k, this playful mystery of a man loves kissing ur neck especially when ur in public loving when ur cheeks turn a rose color.

-you and casanova were walking through the ball with ur mask on and started to dance case all so loved to sway into the night with you, casanova pulls you closer by ur waist giving a wide grin and leans in his lips next to ur ear " darling ur quiet the dancer if I must say mm could barely notice ur feet stepping on my toes with the distraction of ur most wonderful breast" he would kiss below ur ear making a line over ur neck, you in complete shock with a " w-what! c-cassmm" and slap at his chest blushing.. you know where that took you all.

-ur favorite place to kiss casanova is his neck as well and lips, the thought of lips on boned and veiny necks makes you both melt .

Joker

-chest, basically.. boobies ( you asked for it you nasties jk ) he loves seeing his red lipstick stains on ur chest and neck its like branding for him

-you sat at your house waiting for the joker ur friend " ben" just left after you two played cards for almost 4 hours, it was smart to be at ur house no one would think the big bad joker would visit an unnoticed girl in some apartments. 3 more hours passed you were laying on the bed hugging j's pillow as the window balcony opened and the room was filled with a scent of gun powder . " ta-da !! I'm..well home " he knew you had a guy friend over and didn't like that one bit so he moved onto the bed and attacked ur chest and neck biting here and there branding his doll " mm think I wouldn't know? thought daddy was dumb tsk tsk wrong-oo~ " you whined and the night went on.

-ur favorite place to kiss joker are his scars on his lips of course he'll give a growl here and there but deep down he loves it madly .

Note:

Also these are just my opinion nothing set in stone just a reminder ;) thanks for reading !! and yes I had to add joker he’s NEEDED and loved … what can you do when you love a madman hm?

#heath ledger #heath ledger imagines #heath ledger x reader #ledger joker #ledger joker imagines #ledger joker fluff #heath ledger casanova #ledger joker x reader #the dark knight #bts: 10 things i hate about you #patrick verona #a knight's tale #william thatcher #casanova imagines #casanova 2005 #ledgersdoll

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collinskitt · 2 years

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*click *

Hear that? That’s me turning off the radio silence.

First off, I want to say hello to you all and I hope you are living your best life!

It’s been awhile since I posted anything, and I blame that in my incapability of focusing on one project at a time.

Recently been juggling between work and personal priorities that I ended up putting In Stasis And In Space in the backburner.

Which leads me to my second point of this post: I wanna say I’m so fcking sorry for not reaching back to your lovely messages in my inbox 😭 I hear you, and I’m doing okay, and ISAIS continues on as a visual novel from here on out.

Here’s a direct link on the itch.io page!

I’m taking a risk of doing my own art despite me not having a single artistic bone in my body, There’s still a lot more room for improvement, and we’ll get there one day. Just gotta keep practicing and drink more coffee and drain more energy drinks and ql;jkdjfaopidfl;k

Look, I made a naked alien man...

Some of you were asking why I emptied my Tumblr page. A couple of reasons had led me in that decision.

Mainly, porting the title as a text-adventure game into a visual novel granted me opportunities I couldn’t do as a purely narrative CYOA game. That results to a drastic change in the plot, which is why I hid the contents of this blog so no one will get confused about it.

Some (but not all) changes I made so far:

Chapter reconstruction. The visual novel version ends differently from the choicescript version.

Characters. It breaks my heart to announce that I’m cutting down some ROs we originally talked about during its choicescript days due to my inability to fcking draw them. Apparently, I suck at drawing long, majestic beards that I can’t do justice to them at all.

Species. I don’t know why, but I’m having a hard time drawing tentacles, so I had to change the octopus-headed humanoid race into something more human-like. If I can get it right, maybe one day I can bring them back.

Species name. I came to realize that ‘tresterians’ and ‘terrestrials’ are tongue twisters. I’ve changed it to ‘tusserians’.

Spoilers. After rereading the past questions in this blog, plenty of them inspired me to put it in the VN version. I’m sending out a big thank you to those who sent me those asks, and I hope you get to see it in the later chapters ❤️

Additionally, I wanted to put this VN with a clean start. I might have driven some expectations to things that weren’t a hundred percent guaranteed to be seen in the plot, and so to avoid confusion I’ve set them all to private.

Someone also asked what would happen to the choicescript version of the game. Sadly, the CS version will be discontinued. I do not plan to continue ISAIS anymore as a CS, but maybe in the future I’ll be writing other CYOA games under the Hosted Game label if given the opportunity. Just gotta do one project at a time~!

To wrap things up, I want to repeatedly say thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for telling me that you’ve been replaying my game during the months I was gone. Whoever you guys are, please continue showing your support to your favorite authors, artists, and developers 🥰 It’s truly a wonderful feeling to be on the receiving end, and most people who would think they’ve hit rock bottom can slowly rise back to the surface with your simple act of kindness. It does wonders, believe me!

And so, am I really back on Tumblr? Meh. I’ll be on and off like flicking a switch, much like how Rex Reynolds would flick MC’s nipple with his tongue while he’s asleep and asdfl;kjqwepoingds

Take care, you beautiful person, you. Stay happy~!

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indianariesolive · 2 years

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Things I desperately need for S2 of Shadow & Bone Netflix show

* The Crows working together as a team (all 6 of them) 🤤🤩

*More Malina scenes 🧡🤌

*More screen time for Zoya (I want all the badass moments)

* The Darkling aka General Kirigan being more cruel & ruthless & intimidating as a proper villain should be (Fr stop humanizing & romanticizing him 😤✋)

* Kaz whacking the Darkling with his cane (its not a want, it's a need 🙏)

* Kaz's backstory (hopefully 🤞)

* Angsty and cute Helnik moments ❤( even better if they stick closer to those that were in the books with some improv here and there{I want more Helnik I'm so crazy for them})

* Matthias fighting wolves in Hellgate

(& the whole prison break{More of Matthias period. 😌✋})

*Alina & Nikolai's friendship 🥺💕

*Matthias calling Kaz 'demjin' (also hopefully him calling Nina 'little red bird') 🤩

*Baghra pulling the strings behind the scenes (I need her to be a genuine pain in the Darkling's ass)

*Jesper & Milo reunion 🫂 🐐 💕

*Jesper & Wylan bonding over cuddling Milo maybe 😗👉👈

*Wylan being underestimated by others at first & then him shocking their pants off with his intelligence and bomb making skills.

*Wylan & David interaction (even better if its with something science related)

*Alina being more badass & standing up for herself. 💪

*CREEPY 👏MEGALOMANIAC👏 VILLAIN 👏DARKLING 👏WITH👏NONE👏OF👏THAT👏EMO👏PRINCE👏CHARMING👏SH!T👏. He's the villain so let him be bad (despicable bad not cool bad).

*Mal being Alina's no.1 hype man along with Tolya & Tamar. 🥰

*Sturmhond's shocking identity reveal & Alina punching him on the face 🤭

*More of Inej's backstory (portray Tante Heleen's cruelty)

*Also Jesper's backstory if possible 😬🤞 (ik I'm demanding too much)

*SOME 👏TIDEMAKER👏REPRESENTATION👏PLEASE

*Nikolai's iconic 'Improbable not Impossible' line 🤌

*More fight scenes involving Matthias 💙🤌(Just wanna see him punch somebody's face. Think of all the cool & savage edits one could make out of them 😌)

* More Fedyor × Ivan

*More screen time for Genya × David. Also please highlight Genya & Alina's friendship, like what happens next.

*Jesper referring to Wylan as 'merchling' / 'Our demo man'. 🥰

*Also some scenes of Jarl Brum being a bigoted douche if possible. He's such an underrated villain he needs more hate. Needs to be more infamous among the fandom. 😌🗡

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mrs-hollandstan · 3 years

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Gonna send a few halloween ideas! Feel free to throw out any you dont like! I just love Halloween 🥰 werewolf!haz trying not to give away his secret but he planned a date with you forgetting it was a full moon that night?

So cuteeeee. I imagine the Twilight werewolves lol

Harrison picks you up, leaning against his car as the sun starts to set. His smile splits his face,

"You look gorgeous." He murmurs. You shrug,

"Thank you but… I look fine." He leans in to kiss your cheek before he's opening the car door for you, letting you duck inside.

The ride to the carnival is short and Harrison takes your hand, leading you around the grounds. You ride all of the rides, he gets you a funnel cake to share and some cotton candy, and he even wastes money to buy you a stuffed bear the size of your torso which you snuggle against. Harrison laughsat you, but there's something about the way he acts, his head suddenly tilted up to the sky,

"What's the matter?" You ask him. He shakes his head,

"N-nothing uhm… I just… I hate to do this but I think I have to go."

"What?! Why?" You pose, holding your stuffed animal close to your chest, "is it something I did?"

"Oh no love… no you were great. I just… I uhm… I remembered something just now and I… I'm gonna have to cut this date short." The look on your face breaks Harrison's heart, "I'm so so sorry, I forgot about something very important and if you can forgive me, I promise you I'll make it up to you." He takes your hands and squeezes, leading you out to the parking lot after you nod. Once you reach his car, he hisses, doubling over,

"What? What's the matter?"

"You should go." He tells you, pained grimace on his face,

"Harrison, tell me what's going on."

"I can't… I can't hurt you."

"You won't."

"Yes I will. Y/N, take my car and go." He growls before he's turning, sprinting off into the wooded area set around the carnival. You weigh your options. You could go home, question him later, or you could confront him now. You choose the latter, following the rushed steps in the dirt. When you finally come to a clearing, Harrison has collapsed to his knees,

"Haz…" He spins, and that's when you see the glow to his baby blues, his features starting to distort, "What's… wrong?" You ask,

"You shouldn't be here-"

"No, you can't brush me aside. Tell me what's wrong with you." You tell him, voice raised, "how am I supposed to trust you if you won't tell me what's wrong?" He whimpers, holding his stomach,

"I don't wanna hurt you." You stare down at him,

"I'm not afraid of you." You tell him. He stares up at you for a moment before he's squeaking, crumpling in on himself.

You hold your breath as he growls and it grows deep and guttural, his bones snapping as they extend and with one jolt, a beautiful golden wolf stands towering over you, snarling as he watches you. You hold up a hand,

"Its okay… it's okay Haz. It's just me." You watch him back off a little, hunkering down before he sniffs the air, treading closer until he turns his huge snout into your palm. You rub up over his head,

"Pretty boy in human and… wolf form then huh?" You coo. He huffs, sitting on the ground to be closer to your height. You scratch between his tall ears,

"So this is your very important errand then huh? Forgot about the full moon?" He blinks, staring down at you until you sit between his front and back legs. He curls himself around your body, huge head rested in your lap which you continue to stroke,

"At least I don't have to worry about freezing to death out here now that I refuse to leave until you change back. And to think that my roommates thought I'd be sleeping with you tonight. This is about the same thing right?" You pose. He chuffs, nuzzling into your palm.

The two of you sit there all through the night, you pointing out constellations and telling him random stories. He whines and huffs in response, bright blue eyes cast to yours. You smile down at him, watching as the sun rises and his fur glistens, the gold caught in the light. He stands, watching as you lay on the ground beneath you, watching him stretch. Once the sun has fully risen, he reverts back to his human self, knelt over you, and your hand reaches up to brush over his cheek softly,

"You really did stay." He murmurs. You smile,

"Of course." Leaning in, he kisses you softly. You caress his jaw until he pulls back,

"Sorry… I never asked."

"I spent all night with you as a huge ass dog and now you're crouched over me naked. I think the least of my worries is you not asking to kiss me." You pose. He scrambles up, finding the most effective of his shredded clothing to cover himself with,

"Uhmmm… it's just… I wasn't trying anything they just… rip." You nod, standing and brushing your dress off,

"I know." Taking his jacket from your shoulders you hand it to him, letting him wrap it around his waist, "I'm not afraid of you by the way. You're beautiful." You tell him. He glances up, pursing his lips after a moment,

"Yeah… I've killed people in that form. So beautiful."

"Hey, you protected me and that's all that matters. I was warm all bundled up in you all night." You tell him, reaching up to brush a thumb across his cheekbone. He stares down at you, eyes sparkling,

"I don't think I could… ever hurt you." He tells you softly. Moving forward, you lean up and kiss him again, hands smoothing over his shoulders. He wraps his arms around your waist, deepening the kiss for just a moment before he's pulling back and stroking down your hair,

"I'll never hurt you." He murmurs. You nod,

"And I'll never hurt you." You confirm. He gives you one more quick peck before he's taking your hand,

"C'mon. Let's find me some clothes and I'll take you on a proper date." He tells you. Wrapping your arms around his, you snuggle into his side, feeling more safe than ever.

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jrueships · 2 years

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Bestie please unredacted Jordan Poole thoughts 🙏 you pick the pairing (or pairingS 😳)

OH OK I WIL!! TRY MY B ES. T!!!!!!! .... incoming... jaren/jordan.. with a lil hints of other jordan ships 🥰 NOT EXACTLY ALL THAT REDACTED BUT... we move 🥴

Readmore my old friend it's been Years...

SO ANYWAYS i think .... it is very inch resting how MUCH poole copies steph. Even trying to copy his interview style??? When Irl that just! Isn't him!!!! He's GOOFY and nice and likes pulling pranks on men bigger than him.. thats HIM!!!! but he sees gorgeous sociologist who writes his thesis on a necessary topic in sports and interviews people on their tattoos like a little weirdo steph and he's like! I WANNA BE THAT MAN. Insane! With steph he is! Insane!

With jaren he is ALSO insane, but i think being with jaren, a living embodiment of his past, he becomes more insane in terms of playfulness? Because that's what they've always used to do? Goof up their boring ass uptight ass highschool by 'fooling around'.. his pranks upscale with more thought and his impish ways triple tenfold. And jaren just!!!!! Takes it!

How does this connect...... WELL i think hmm i think jaren sees Jordan and he's all happy like!!! Omg! Jordan 🥰🥰! But Jordan is with steph right now.... that's when jaren sees how Different Jordan is willing to become. .... and maybe he gets a Little jealous. It's easy to become jealous over 30, he's almost like a real life cheat code in the game of basketball. He KNOWS more due to experience, but experience is STUPID. Jaren's HAD experience, he lives and BREATHES basketball, whatever level steph is on that makes him soooo worthy of all this 'idolization'... jaren Wants it.

Or maybe jaren just doesn't get the concept of changing yourself when around different people? He has a bubbly, in your face personality that OTHER people just had to get used to. Even ja was a little thrown back by Jaren's emphatic sayings and clumsy antics, but he got used to it and quickly learned to love it. Jaren didn't have to change for people, so he doesn't understand the action. If you wanna hang out with a person so bad that you CHANGE for it... is hanging out really all that worth it if they don't like you for you?

Which steph DOES. He's more curiously entertained by poole's mimicry than anything. I think he wants to encourage poole's individualism more, but can't be the person to do it because poole will always see him on this pedestal. Others like Gary have to do that for him. But jaren doesn't SEE that.... he just sees, from d*llon's words.. a bunch of old bitches soon to be out of their primes, some of them already out. And here his best friend is trying to impress them all by not being himself. Unlike the grizzlies, where no one is trying to impress anyone due to collective underdog mentality! Though it's a Little (alot) hypocritical because jaren tries impressing ja with his posterizing sometimes.... a little... maybe... a lot... BUT THE POINT IS- jaren is jealous over The Warriors (mainly steph)..

SO U KNOW... maybe these feelings 'hide' for a While but show up so directly during conversations, things get called out then... Stuff Happens...... LIKE MAYBE AFTER THE ELIMINATION GAME.. jordan catches jaren after an interview and starts griddying (ja is not there or else he would've tweeted out that jordan just stomped on all the little bones in his ankles;therefore, code breaking) then laughs at jaren because he can't griddy, too damn big 😔.. and jaren is like HAHA😹 whatever 😒. Hater. AND THEY HAVE A GOOD CHAT! Talk about all the gifs they sent!!! Jaren misses his flight with the team they talk so long! He feels bad and the one word message from ja doesn't help, but Jordan says this is good because they can catch up!! He'll fly him back home tomorrow after a boys night out!

Jordan takes him to one of his favorite places to eat, it's really nice <3 they both teeter having too much manners and not having enough at the dinnertable. They kick each other under the table, jordan hides jaren's silverware, tells him to order The Among Us meal.... it's not real. Jaren embarrasses himself in front of hundreds. Jaren+Jordan eventually settle down when the food comes, they start sharing highschool stories..... take turns being the one that goes 'OH YEAHOH YEAH I REMEMBER!!' and the 'do YOU remember this ONE TIME..' IT'S REALLY NICE! Sometimes they get to a story that got a little.. intimate... maybe they were hiding around a corner from almost getting caught and they were pressed together.. a detail no one disclosed but everyone remembered in their hearts... and they have to get a little quiet and pause before awkwardly continuing with a laugh, both feigning forgetfulness when really they remember ALL too much..

AFTER DINNER DISCUSSIONS they walk back to Jordan's. Jordan is wearing classic short shorts, there's a chill in the wind.... jaren gives jordan his jacket and jordan wraps it around his waist like a skirt. Jordan really rocks a good skirt. They'd relish in the moment, but the press would destroy them if they saw this, and jaren couldn't help but notice his arm sleeves dragging on the ground sometimes even in the wrap since jordan was so much smaller. That can't do!!! If it were anyone else, he wouldve fussed and hurriedly fixed it... SO THEY HURRY HOME!

THATS when the discussions get... a Little deeper. A bit more heated. They're both really tired, team rivalries get into it... jordan says a lil smthin abt ja.. jaren doesn't rlly like it... so jaren says something way worse about steph.... jordan doesn't like That at All. Then d*llon gets brought up, which jordan HATES. They start to argue by the bed..

Jaren says something quick about change that he doesn't really mean, but it hits jordan deep because he thinks 'am I really that OBVIOUS? Do I really look that DESPERATE?' Jaren then does his signature Jaren Retreat after saying his piece, grumbling about taking the couch instead.. but jordan tries to stop him. AND U KNOW... MAYBE THEY TANGLE UP.. and accidentally maybe sorta jaren falls on jordan on the bed... catches himself so he's propped up with his hands on either side of jordan and he's leaned just Barely over him. It reminds them too much of That Close Memory and..... PASSION CALLS FOR IT... tiredness allows for it... nostalgia fuels it... THEY KISS!!

They start to make out!!! Jaren's big hands roaming thighs, up waists. Things are going well until jaren tries mentioning something sly thinking he'll get away with it.. it's regarding Steph. Smthing like 'he'd Never do this .. won't have you like the way / i'd / have you..' .... and that's when jordan turns them over. If jaren wants to make such a big deal over change, he'll show him Change.

Jordan starts sucking burning marks into the soft of Jaren's inner thighs, and when jaren tries deterring him, he's all 'just wear compress leggings over them.' Even though he KNOWS that'll make it more uncomfortable and squeeze the bruising. That's almost what he Wants. The idea of impact. He has Jaren on his back almost trying to fold him in two, the height is so difficult, Jaren's long legs starting to ache on his shoulders. But Jordan has a message to send. And what better way to send it than giving Jaren the greatest head he's ever had in his whole life?? Maybe he says how he wanted to do this since senior year of highschool and it sends jaren over the edge. But Jordan keeps going, fingering jaren WHILE expertly sucking him off. Jaren tries to worry about how well he does it, did steph help him 'practice??' Had he 'practiced' ON steph? But the sensation is getting too good and his brain blurs out. No more steph talk. Jordan has Jaren whining and tossing his head side to side on HIS bed on HIS pillows after HIS win, and it definitely gives him some Drive. They fuck with the lights on, Jordan makes jaren suck on the fingers that were used to open him up. It's hot. Jordan is really glad his cats were empaths, sensing conflict beforehand and fleeing from the room so they don't have to see 'daddy' at 'work'.

The sex is good. Of course. It has to be. Jordan using his arms to hold Jaren's legs back and press his knees by his head.. holding his hands while he does it. Forehead to forehead as he feels jaren's pants and hiccups in his face. Hurting his neck just to lean forward and swallow it all in like before. It's good. U know.. just something between Two Good Friends..

Afterwards, when he cleaned jaren up, they went to bed together. Jordan cuddling into jaren's chest and jaren passing out almost immediately. ... cue the slow wakeup and ache from last night with the classic

'....did we just-' already answered question

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fakeloveaskblog · 2 years

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Hi, me again. Hope I’m not bugging you with all the asks. I have a bunch of ones, don’t feel pressured to do all of them these are just a bunch I think would be cute.

For Remy maybe 🛁, ⛑, 🤝 or 😭

For Remus 💤, 🥰 or ✋

For Janus 🍳, ☺️, 🧣 or 🛎

all of these happened some time in the timeline but not right now since it's still technically christmas in the story. I have been going in and out of dissociation for days now so sorry if there's worse grammar than usual ig???

For Remy: 🛁: A relaxing bath⛑: Some tender first-aid 🤝 : Some help performing a basic task (This first one is much longer than the other 2)

"You need to press the X butto- oh we died again"

"Why do we even gotta like fight the colossus??"

"Beanie that is the whole point of the game"

Remus was laying on the couch with his head leant on Remy's ribs while they were half sitting, aimlessly pressing buttons on a controller. He'd brought his ps4 over to their apartment to keep them company.

Remy made the character ride his horse in a circle "I like horsing"

"This is why you suck at this. You don't have any bloodlust!!! You don't have any need to hear your victims scream in anguish!! No want to peel toenails out and put them into people's eyes!!"

"We died again" Remy replied after they'd accidentally made the horse fall down a cliff.

"I can take over. I'm the stabby stabby master"

Remus had fought against the serpent colossus about a dozen times so he didn't have to pay full attention to it. Instead he noticed out of the corner of his eye how Remy tried to subtly reach out and grab their wrist warmers. Their hands were shaking as they tried to put them on but their fingers gave out every time. They kept dropping the warmers into their lap the entire time he played.

"We won" He said "Do you want me to help you on with those?"

"With what?" They replied while dropping the wrist warmers again.

"Dude."

"It's stupid"

"Certain species of boars evolving to make their husks stab into their heads is stupid. Not this"

Remy rolled their eyes while handing the wrist warmers over to him. He mumbled a little 'thanks' while gently holding onto their wrist. For once they were wearing something long sleeved and they refused to pull the sleeves up but he managed. He put the warmers on as carefully as someone putting on a wedding ring.

"You can tell me if playing video games is hurting you, you get that right? I'm not gonna cut your head off for it" Remus said while rubbing his thumb up and down their palm.

"Some of us just aren't made to be gamers" Remy sighed it out as dramatically as they could. They could barely hold back giggling as they continued "I could never be a gamer- 'Cause- y'know- I'm not a virgin"

They burst out giggling like they'd just said the funniest shit imaginable. It spread over to Remus who tried to muffle his laughter with his hand. He lightly punched their shoulder.

"Bad joke dude" He laughed out.

"I know! I know!"

"I'm sorry beanie but I'm gonna have to kill you for that joke. Gonna take a shovel to your head. Gonna say your fibro made all your bones break all at once so you died. Very sorry" He teased with a half grin.

"Gonna say your psychosis magically took over like in the movies and tots made you kill me. Taking you down with you. Bitchass" They snarked back.

"Just two disabled fuckers murdering each other. Fun!"

"Indeed. OhohohOOohoho"

"MuhahaHAhahaAh"

"HehheehehHE"

Remus lightly bonked his head against theirs "No but really, you okay? Any way to help with the pain?"

"Baths usually help. Gets me all like warm. But I don't wanna make you like uncomfy"

"Nothings saying that I have to get in with you"

Remy almost looked a little embarrassed "No! I girl I like didn't mean it like that that!"

"I gotya"

Remus stood up and held out his hand to help them up. He handed them their cane but when he saw how they grimaced just from standing up he moved his arm behind their back to let them lean on him.

They went into the bathroom. Remus put on the water while Remy dragged off their dress leaving them in their sport bra and underwear. He was a bit baffled by how many bottles of hair dye was in the mirror cabinet but he also found a bottle to make bubblebaths.

"It's like fine if you leave y'know. You can just grab your game and leave whenever. I won't mind" Remy assured.

"It's okay" He threw some bubble stuff in "I hope there's acid in this"

"So you can watch my skin melt off??"

"I'm sure you have very sexy bones!!"

"I guess!"

Remus helped them into the bath. All of Remy disappeared under the growing mountain of bubbles except for their head. He sat down on the tiled floor and leant the back of his head against the bath's edge.

He smiled when he felt Remy form bubbles on top of his head "Whatcha doing?"

"The tower of bubble"

"OHOHO!!! You should try making a skull!! I would like having a bubble skull on top of my normal skull!"

"Honey just 'cause I've spent a shit ton of time in baths don't mean I'm some Picasso. That's your job"

"heh. PicASSo. heheh" Remus laughed mostly to himself "Is the warmth helping?"

"Loads. Here feel"

Out of the bubble mountain came their pale hand. They reached out so Remus let them take his hand in theirs. Their fingers intertwined.

"You're right. That is REally warm"

Remy continued making bubble creations on top of his head. It went a bit quiet. Sometimes Remus would blurt out some animal fact. They kept holding hands. Both silently decided to not speak about the holding hand thing. Both silently wanted it to continue for as long as possible.

"Your bones feel weird" Remus suddenly said while squeezing their hand.

"It's nothing" Remy blurted out.

"No. No, I know my way around bones. Yours feel really weird. Like it's a bit too loose"

"That's what she said. It's like seriously tots nothing"

Remy let go of his hand and was about to sink it back into the bottles but Remus grabbed onto their fingers and held them still.

"I can take a look. Maybe your fibro has accidentally caused some type of injury. I'm no doctor and I am sure you know your fibro better than I ever can but I know some stuff at least"

They let out an annoyed groan before sticking their whole arm out of the bubbles. Remus nearly flinched when he saw their wrist. Their wrist was swollen and would have been red if it wasn't for the bruises covering most of their skin. Purples and greens all mixed together.

"I can explain"

Remy threw the words out. Their eyes flickered between their wrist and their friend. They writhed around in their seat and hoped the bubbles would hide their anxiousness.

"Wow dude. You must have given the most intense handy of your life" Remus joked. Remy got so surprised they let out a few anxious chuckles "Do you have any first aid around here?"

"It's not that bad"

"If you don't let me take care of you I'm gonna have to poison you to sleep!! This is serious!!! No time for idiot thoughts!!"

"Fine. Fine. Whatever" Remy rolled their eyes "There's like a first aid under the nightstand in the bedroom. Please grab some cigs as well"

"Yep yep sure fine"

Remus quickly got up and got everything needed. They wouldn't even let him open the first aid kit before he'd lit the cig for them. They dragged in the nicotine and looked away while he took out rubber glove and filled it with warm water. He pressed it gently against the swollen area.

"Got this trick from the nurses. They were so nice" He pressed his eyes close to not let his mind dissociate to the visit to the hospital.

Remy stared down into the water "I didn't want anyone to know. I was- I was like worried you would tell Jannie and they would start going all crazy about Viv being like a bad boyfriend again. I didn't- I don't like hearing it"

Remus cupped their cheeks and turned their head so they were looking at him "I get it dude. What is said between us stays between us okay?"

"Okay" Remy took a shaky breathe and nodded "Okay. I bruise really easily ‘cause of the fibro!! I swear! So it looks a LOT worse than it actually was! I swear! He didn't mean to"

"I know. They never do" He moved the warm rubber glove away to put some creme onto the bruises.

"We were arguing. Like just y'know like normal arguing. yelling and stuff. And it was all my fault because Viv said he was going out for a smoke to let out steam but I didn't think he could like just decide when the argument was over so I like walked after him and he- I'm sure he wasn't looking at what he was doing- I'm sure he wasn't- He slammed the door shut on my- on my wrist. And then he left to like calm down and- and it hurt- And I- I might have gotten a flashback- so I like shut down and dissociated and when he came back he said the argument was past us so we shouldn't drag it up again so I like got nervous that if I told him to help me with the injury he would get mad"

"Fucking hell Beanie, no wonder playing that game hurt your wrist"

"I'm sorry. I just- it's hard to tell when injuries are serious enough to patch up- I'm just- with dad- I'm used to dissociating through it and going to school anyway"

"No apologizes needed. I only take apologize measured in blood anyway"

"He didn't mean to. It was like def my fault for trying to walk after him"

Remus took out a bandage and began to lap it around their wrist "Y'know my ex accidentally gave me bruises all the time. So you don't have to worry about me not getting it-"

"Sorry" Their shoulders relaxed a little "Sorry"

"It's nothing" He tied the bandages together and placed the warm rubber glove on top of it "Feeling any better?"

"Yeah. Thanks gal. That's- you were really good at that"

"What? You think I learn nothing from being interested in death and disease???"

Remy chuckled "Sorry"

Remus leant his chin against the bath's edge. His friend moved their head against his. "But also y'know. I only went to the hospital once during the time I was with my ex. I had to self help sometimes"

"Yeah 'cause you're a reckless fucker who can't stop trying to juggle scissors"

"True! Very true! Also y'know like uh my ex would sometimes just like accidentally open cabinets right when I passed by so they like uh slammed me in the head. Or he would uh accidentally- or I mean I would trip a lot. Stumble into a lot of walls uh and that sort. He just happened to always be there. And when uh when I would blackout from getting high I would wake up in pain or with bruises or- But he always said I was just imagining things and that it was all just misunderstanding and accidents and that I was overreacting 'cause it was nothing. And that I was uh delusional"

Remy noticed the way his hands shook a little and handed him the cigarette to stable his thoughts "Well yeah you got delusions but that doesn't mean you're wrong about everything. You know that I'm like tots hot and sexy and hot don't you. Then you can be like super trusted with knowing stuff!"

He let out a half hearted chuckle "Heh I guess. I also know what a fucking buffoon you are so it checks out"

It was quiet for just a little bit as they shared the cigarette. Remy rolled a few sentences around on their tongue before finally managing to get out.

"I know- I like remember the reason you went to the hospital that one time. You've like taken care of me so well I feel like you deserve some comfort as well. I can like I dunno kiss the scars? If that would be like okay with you?"

Remus took a deep breathe, so his cheeks puffed up like a chipmunks, and nodded.

He turned around and dragged off his t-shirt. It left him in his black binder. Remy had doodled octopuses in neon sharpie all over it.

Remy had seen the scars before, once or twice. They were all over his back. Small stripes of white and even in some places purple. Some of them were protruding out of his skin.

"I know our partners were just making mistakes but I hope to hell your ex apologized for his mistake" Remy muttered.

"Of course he did!"

Remus gulped. He was quite sure there had been apology in there. After being thrown against the mirror. After the shards of glass had gone into his skin. Between Os making him promise he wasn't going to tell any of the nurses what happened and the nurses hesitating every time one of them asked if Os was his...boyfriend..? Somewhere in there under the dissociation and ketamine there must have been an apology.

A shudder went up his spin as he felt Remy's cold lips agsinst his skin. They pressed gentle kisses against each of the scars. Several second long kisses. Like they were trying to press in how much they loved him.

For a second Remus got a thought about how it would maybe be nice if those lips were pressed against his lips instead. He choked on his own breathe and started to wheeze. Remy immediately moved back.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"NO! NO! Nothing! Nada! No problemo!"

"You still want to stay?"

"Yeah! Yeah! Claro! Of course! Do you wanna hear about monster ideas! And how I imagine they would date! And Kiss! Like the kraken and nessie??"

"Girl!!! I would love to!! I tots wanna hear all about those wonderful freaks!!"

Remus turned back to face them. He took their injured hand in his, right on the edge of the bath. He leant a little closer as he began to go on. So close so some of the bubbles stuck onto his binder.

Remy dipped their free hand in the warm water before letting their fingers run across his scars. They saw how his smile brightened as he did. How his eyes lightened a little at them being close.

For Remus: 💤: A few extra hours of sleep 🥰 : Post-nightmare cuddles ✋: A hand carding gently through their hair

Remus woke up in a groggy state. It was slow. The kind where nothing seemed real and everything was far away and he was unsure if he had even been asleep.

The moment he remembered what had happened in the dream his eyes shot open. He gasped for breathe while sitting up. A nauseous feeling filled his throat to the point that he was scared to open his mouth in case anything would spill out.

He kept forcing in deep breathes while looking for his phone. He opened the text message history with his ex but there was no new messages. He had been so sure there would be new messages. The dream had felt so real.

He tried to pull the sweaty blanket closer around himself but it wouldn't move. A sound came from behind him. Breathing.

Remus froze. His heart was beating out of his chest, nearly skipping beats. He didn't have the guts to look, instead he clasped his hands over his mouth to muffle his choked breathing. He pressed his legs together as his whole body tensed up. Every small sound made him flinch.

The time became muddled as his thoughts took over. There was a voice repeating that it was Os. Over and over. Another that told him that leaving Os had all been a dream. Just a really long dream. That Janus and Remy weren't real. That he was still in that apartment. He could see as the painted gold walls distort right in front of his eyes into yellowing whites. Into parts of paint peeling off.

A hoarse voice came from the other side of the bed "Rem? You awake?"

A scream came from deep in Remus' throat. He curled up and pressed his hands so hard over his mouth his fingernails left marks in his skin. He swore it was Os' voice.

The weight of the bed shifted as the other person moved to sit up "What's wrong? Did- Is something happening? It's me, Janus. We agreed on me staying for the night, remember?"

Remus tried his best but he couldn't stop himself from tearing up. The voices were so loud they were nearly drowning out everything else.

"Darling- Remus could you please look at me? I don't know if I'm allowed to touch you so I- I'm unsure of how to ground you if you're not looking at me"

He hesitated. It still sounded like Os' voice but it didn't sound like words Os would have said. He turned and saw Janus half sitting up, leant on their elbows, with their silly egg and snake patterned pyjamas on.

Tears rolled down his cheeks but he wasn't really aware of it. The voices switched to telling him Janus wasn't real. None of it was real. He was still dreaming. He was going to wake up soon and be hungover and half high and bruised and-

"Do you think holding my hand would help ground you?" Janus interrupted while holding out his hand "It might make reality feel more...real"

Remus nodded and let them gently take his shaky hand in their palm. Feeling their warm skin shook them out from the worst of it. The voices were still going but more distant. Instead his whole body went numb, like he was floating. His expression turned neutral and his eyes stared out into nothing. His head lolled a little to the side as even his breathing slowed down.

"zoning...dissociating....speech is...difficult" He got out as an explanation.

"That's okay" Janus replied. They rubbed their thumb over his knuckles "Did you have a nightmare?"

He nodded.

"Okay. That's good- Or I mean it's not good. But it's good in the way that I was worrying that I had triggered you somehow. I assume it was the nightmare that triggered your..your.."

"psychosis" He filled in.

"Yeah"

He nodded.

Janus shifted a little in their seat "I'm aware that sharing a bed is...a big thing for you so if you want me to leave I definitely can"

"You're comforting. warm. i. i want to trust" Remus mumbled out.

"Oh okay. Cool. I love comforting! One of my favorite hobbies truly"

"i dont....i dont want your arms around me"

"That's okay. I get it. I might have some leftover poison on my arms anyway so it's all good. You know how crazy poison glands get some times of the year. Am I right or am I right"

They laid down on their back and sent their friend a soft smile. Remus curdled up to their side with his head laying on top of their stomach. He held onto the fabric of their pyjama top so hard that their nails whitened.

"the dream felt so real" He whispered out. "i could feel it. i can still feel it. like ghost hands all over me. it's all over me"

"Well...it's not real...Even if it was some sort of memory reformatted in dream form it isn't happening anymore. That's what you should focus on. Please try and focus on right now"

Remus nodded weakly so Janus continued.

"Right now you're Remus. You're 22 years old. You're in your sister's apartment where you live. You are with me and last night we stayed up till 3 watching 70's horror movies and eating slightly burnt popcorn. You're safe"

He nodded again. He buried his cheek a little deeper into the soft fabric. He tried to focus on the feeling of it against his skin. Tried to focus on his friend's steady breathing.

Janus moved their hand into his curly hair "Is this okay?" They asked to which he nodded.

They carded their fingers gently through his hair. He half closed his eyes and let himself sink into the bed. He clambered for their free hand and when he found it grabbed their wrist and guided their arm so it laid comfortably around his shoulders.

Obviously they noticed his tired look. They let their fingers run even gentler through his hair "Being hit with both delusions and dissociation within the same morning must be exhausting, right?"

"mhm"

"I think it's quite amazing the way your brain is protecting itself. Your beautiful brain. Though I understand it isn't amazing from your point of view"

"mhm"

"Do you want me to leave? If you're going to fall asleep I mean? If it potentially was me staying over that triggered the nightmare I don't-"

"Stay" Remus opened his eye just for a moment to look at them "Please stay"

Janus nodded "Okay. Okay I will. I'll be here when you wake up, I promise"

They kept carding through his hair as he's breathing turned softer. Janus pressed a light kiss to his hair and made themself comfortable in the warm bed. Seeing his relaxed expression was enough to make them willing to wait hours.

For Janus: 🍳: Breakfast in bed ☺️: Soft words of reassurance 🧣: A fluffy blanket

Janus woke up to the smell of coffee. They stretched out their arms and grabbed onto the pillow to slam their face even further into it's fluffiness.

"Seems like someones awake" Logan's voice broke through their sleepy state.

"Ssssshut up. I am very clearly sleeping" Janus snarked back "Listen. snork mimimi. Very asleep"

"Ah yes. Excuse me. I see my mistake now. You are indeed very asleep"

Janus slowly opened one of his eyes and squinted up at his boyfriend. Logan was sitting leaned against a pillow. He was reading some Agatha Christie novel while wearing his specially decorated reading glasses. (He'd put beads on them to match his partner's hair).

"OH!" Janus suddenly exclaimed "Where's my angel baby? Light of my life? Core of my heart?"

"Right here" Logan replied while holding his hand up.

"I'm talking about Ms Carl" Janus fished around with his hand until he felt scales. She was cuddled up to his side. She was letting out snake snores that sounded like hisses "Oh there she is" He placed his hand on top of Logan's "And good morning to the second light of my life"

Logan sat his book aside and leant down to give him a kiss "Good morning to you too"

They were both under a ridiculously fluffy blanket. One of Patty's greatest finds in her opinion. Janus felt Logan's leg moving under the blanket, he gently moved his foot against their leg.

"I woke up a bit ago. I heard Patty talking to Rowan to the late hours yesterday so I thought I might as well wake up along side her and make her some breakfast"

"So i am too assume that you didn't make me shit and you're planning on letting me- your wonderful goddess partner- starve?" Janus replied sarcastically.

"Well first of I got you some tea. Lemon flavor as usual"

"Obviously"

Logan grabbed a cup of tea and handed it to him. They clinked their cups into each other before both taking a sip in unison.

"I also made some sandwiches. Egg and chicken since I know they're your favorite"

Janus got a lazy smile as he managed to move enough to kiss him again "If I eat them in small but very vicious bites they make me feel like a snake. Thanks honey"

Logan moved to grab the plate of sandwiches from the nightstand but Janus waved it off and yawned again. Breakfast could wait. Lo laid down on his stomach instead, he nuzzled his nose against his partner's neck while placing his arm over their chest. Their fingers intertwined and their legs weaved together.

"Patty is away at work, so we have the whole day for ourselves" Logan mumbled out. He was laying so close his lips tickled Janus' skin when he spoke.

"Wasn't there some new documentary about uhm what was it"

"Mathematical diagrams" Their boyfriend filled in. "Including cartesian coordinates!"

"Oh but wasn't there another one about norse mythology. The one that was a several hour long breakdown of both of the eddas? You know my soft spot for the world serpent"

Logan pressed soft kisses to their chest that made them giggle from ticklyness "Sounds like we'll have no choice but to have a very long debate to choose which movie to watch"

"Isn't getting to watch it together with your very gorgeous partner enough" Janus snarked.

"Yes of course. Now I see. I forgot the very incredibly scientific fact that my Janus is the most beautiful partner imaginable" He replied while kissing his cheeks "Most charismatic, smart, endlessly intriguing partner. And a great listener as well. Truly a well of fascinating facts"

He covered his face with his hands as his cheeks went red "Logie I wasn't ready"

"You started it"

"I'm aware!"

Logan settled his head against his partner's shoulder "How about this suggestion, I receive a few more minutes of cuddles before breakfast and in return we watch your preferred documentary"

Janus smiled "I like the sound of that"

#(im sorry its taking me so long to update this blog)#(im incredibly low on spoons 24/7 and im dissociating much more often than usual)#(and shit just keeps happening. yknow how it is)#dukeceit #loceit #resleep #remsleep #rem^2 #thanks for the ask <3

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