#I really don't know when I'll be able to draw comfortably again so I'll share this thing for now
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boothill x writer&reading enthusiast!reader!!
wc: 680
tags - fluff!!!!!, hurt/comfort without the hurt, so just comfort, this is my first fanfic EVER!?!?!?, lots of projection, probably inaccurate portrayal of boothill srrie, boothill calls u darlin'/sugar, this is really really messy oops
a/n - the story kinda diverges into them just reading a simple book written by someone else but the idea was that they'd slowly work into reading more n more complex stuffs-- which eventually include reader's works !! tbh i like to think even if boothill doesn't fully understand yet he'd still wanna know what reader is writing. i'll probably rewrite this sometime in the future with the same concept, diff execution b/c this lowkey didn't turn out how i wanted it to ૮ ྀི◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ྀིა
he feels bad and a little insecure about his illiteracy!! because he bets you're so so talented in what you do but he literally cannot appreciate what you write :((
sometimes he wonders if you'd be happier if you were with someone who was able to fully understand all of you-- all of your cute rambles about the usage of different literary devices in the books you were reading, all of the times you cried over dystopian novels and heart-crushing personal narratives and profound, emotional sentences that he just didn't have the capacity to understand.
when he sits you down one night and confides in you about this, your first course of action is to comfort him (obviously!!).
"trust me, i don't love you any less just 'cause you dunno how to read," you coo, peppering his warm face with loving kisses. "if i had to be with anyone else, i'd be sad forever knowing you'd still be out there. i love you, don't forget that, 'kay?"
you can see his worry-addled face relax a bit as you remind him of just how much you love him-- but you can still notice the crestfallen look in his eyes. you realize he has been worrying about this for a while; possibly since the first time you told him you were a writer.
you come up with a plan.
he's a little confused the first time you lay in bed earlier than usual with a book in hand, gesturing excitedly for him to join you under the covers. you usually read books on your own, no?
it didn't take him long to notice a difference between the book you were holding and the books you usually read.
he saw a few of the books you'd read previously-- they were thick, way thicker than the book in front of him now, and definitely way smaller in size. the covers also had pretty big differences. the covers of your usual books were much more mature-looking-- like they were meant to be read by adults. this book, however... had a fat, crudely drawn green caterpillar on the cover.
his metallic body slips underneath the sheets, relaxing on the mattress. he protectively wraps his arm around your waist, pulling you closer to him.
"what's this, darlin'?" he asks, pointing to the book with his free hand.
"the very hungry caterpillar," you reply, a bright smile on your face. you pause for a bit before speaking up again.
"i feel like i've been making you feel bad by leaving you out of my passion for literature-- i mean, reading, and writing and whatnot. i'm not the best teacher, but i still wanna share this part of me with you."
he has to try his hardest not to explode on the spot.
"'s alright, sugar, 's not your fault," he murmurs, gently caressing your side in an attempt to comfort you. "did 'ya get this book just f'me?"
you nodded, the solemn look on your face suddenly being replaced with one of excitement.
"this book is real simple, so i can read it to 'ya and hopefully you might learn a few things," you smile, giving him a peck on the cheek as you open the book.
since he barely knows how to read, you have to read the entire book out loud to him. that doesn't bother you, not in the slightest. in fact, you'd say it's even more fun that way.
he starts to snicker as the drawing of the caterpillar slowly gets bigger and bigger, eating food in larger quantities as the pages flip.
after you shut the book closed and put it on the nightstand, you turn to him. "how'd you like the book?"
"it was so stupid," he grins. "that [beautiful] caterpillar was still hungry after eatin' all that?"
you burst into giggles, hugging him tighter as you laugh. "mhm, i guess so. it's like me whenever you take me out to get fast food."
"oh, don't compare your pretty self to that thing," he smirks, tucking the both of you under the covers.
#⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ 별빛이의 글쓰기#⊹.(⸝⸝ ˆ ³(⁎˃ᴗ˂⁎)˚. byeolhill#boothill x reader#honkai star rail x reader#hsr x reader
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"Unlucky Draw" (Uni AU p. 15)
There's finally some fluff guys!!!!!!!!!
tw - anxiety, discussion of weed
Since Halsin's little break-up escapade happened, you actually do get the chance to see Astarion later that night. As of recent, he's been throwing himself into his thesis project more and more, to the point where most of your time hanging is spent with him looking through books and asking 'do you think this sounds right?'
"You know you can take a break, right?"
"I could, you're right, but then I'd just be wasting time. And I'm not allotted much time to work on this."
The two of you are comfortably sprawled across his mattress, like teenagers at a sleepover. You roll over and shut his laptop.
"C'mon, you've been staring at that paper for like two hours."
"And what else should I do, my darling Tav? Maybe stare at the ceiling in silence? Or scroll mindlessly on my phone until I don't feel like moving anymore?"
"Ugh, no! I don't know, take a coffee break. You're probably not going to sleep anyways."
Your best friend almost looks peaceful like this, wrapped in a cozy sweater and sweatpants, always wearing long socks because he gets cold too easily. You find yourself lingering on the thought longer than normal, wishing he could feel that comfortable warmth all the time, wondering it might be like to share in it.
"Tav, are you listening? God, maybe we should just stare at the ceiling in silence."
"Sorry, just spacing out. What were you saying?"
"I was saying, how I should probably cut back on the caffeine."
"Really? Astarion Barista Ancunín, are you turning your back on your beloved espresso machine?"
"Look, I'm not happy about it, but I've been far too anxious as of late. My nerves are on fire constantly, jumping at every little noise I hear. It's irritating, to say the least."
"I thought being caffeinated was how you dealt with the insomnia though?"
"Oh it very much is, which will become a problem soon enough, but I just can't be this nervous constantly."
It's something that you've definitely noticed, how quiet and fidgety he's become recently.
"You considered smoking weed? I know Gale says it helps him zen out, especially when it comes to art stuff."
"Nope, makes me paranoid."
"Damn, unlucky draw I guess."
"You're telling me. I smoked one time back in high school, couldn't sleep for hours, kept thinking someone was out to get me or something."
You start to get lost in the peace of the moment again, the fact that you're able to talk about shit that doesn't matter, how the light from the bedside lamp hits his eyes just right...
"Are you alright? You seem, out of it."
"Sorry, just thinking about what Halsin said to me."
"I can't believe he just broke things off like that, without a reason."
You swallow hard.
"He, he said it's because he thinks you like me? And that he doesn't want to get in the way of that?"
There's silence for a moment, that you jump to fill.
"But that's not true right? We're just friends, I don't know where he would've gotten that idea from."
"Right, I don't know either... sounds like you dodged a bullet with him."
"Yeah, probably so."
God, has he always looked like this? Damn Halsin, damn all those things he said, damn Gale for even playing into it. You remind yourself that Astarion's right, that this doesn't need to get any more complicated than it already is, that he has enough on his plate.
"Now, am I allowed to go back to my thesis now? Or do I need to have more mandatory break time?"
You playfully sigh.
"I guess you can do productive things or whatever."
"Well, in that case would you like to come read what I have?"
"I'll look at it, but you have the cool narrator voice, you have to read it to be like a professional author."
He rolls his eyes, and you go to sit next to him, looking at the thousands of words he's typed at this point. Astarion starts to read it out loud, editing tiny things as he goes, forever a little perfectionist. After a while, the voice becomes too soothing, and you fall asleep there next to him, letting your head hit his shoulder.
"Tav?"
Out of the corner of his eye, he sees you knocked out, clearly exhausted. He doesn't stop reading though, worried if he does that he'll somehow ruin the sleep he's let you stumble into. So he spends the rest of the night rereading out loud and talking to himself, occasionally asking you things that you don't answer. After many hours pass, and the wee hours of the morning arrive, along with the clock turning to say five AM, he puts his laptop aside, and asks you one final question.
"Why do you insist on pulling my heartstrings the way you do?"
And it falls on your sleeping ears, never truly getting through.
#baldur's gate 3#astarion#astarion x reader#astarion x tav#fluff#x reader#freshiau#gale of waterdeep#halsin
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His Smile
[Johnny's POV]
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Waking up this morning felt like a dream. Having opened my eyes to my future laying beside me, nothing felt real.
Of course I've been through the process of a wedding, so I knew how to go about planning. The outfits, the theme, the place, everything was in my hands, and I wanted it to be perfect.
The morning started smoothly. Cuddles, kisses, and good mornings were shared. We had a few hours before our friends were to arrive. They were to help us get ready, you know, to 'not see each other's outfits' and all.
The closer it got to the time, the more nervous we both felt. I knew it would be fine, everything was planned out the way it should be. My fiance on the other hand had no reassurance to his worries.
He worried as if the whole thing was a performance. Hell, I'd say he was more worried than I usually get before a big shoot. Having paused his own preparations, I took the chance to tell him it was all taken care of. How there was nothing to worry about, our friends and I would make sure of it.
That all he needed to do was be himself.
A comforting hug, gentle kisses, some joking around, and he was able to get himself back in the groove.
Watching him was one of my favorite things.
Knowing this is what I'll have for the rest of my life made it even better.
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Admittedly, when it came down to the dressing and being separated from each other, I began to worry a bit myself. Embarrassing if you ask me, but my best man understood my reasons. He was always one to turn down comforting someone with an apathetic joke, but I guess he had some heart for 'my special day'.
I worried about the strength of our relationship, if this would really last, or if I was just setting myself up to lose it all again.
It didn't take long for me to understand that he was different. He is the source of my comfort, the one that keeps me grounded. He doesn't know it, but he does a lot for this obnoxious movie star.
How he ended up choosing me, I had no idea, but who am I to complain. I wouldn't trade him for the world.
The entire ceremony as it stands is a complete blur to me. The only thing I remember was his face. How he smiled. He looked content, like he was proud of his choice.
It reassured me that he felt the same way I did.
-
We stood in the middle of a grand room. Everyone else had cleared the floor, allowing only us to occupy it. Some people watched, some turned away. I took his hand and pulled him close to me, leaving little to no space between us.
I guess it just took a while to hit me, but halfway through our 'dance' I suppose you'd call it, I started to cry. There was no reason to, but I did anyway.
Fortunately, my face was hidden against his shoulder. I hoped he wouldn't ask, knowing him he'd laugh at whatever I had to say, but I love his laugh, so maybe it was okay.
It took some time for him to say anything. He only spoke when I shook under his arms, my tears staining his expensive outfit.
His hand planted itself against my head, gently combing through my hair. He made sure to speak quietly to not draw attention, which I appreciated, though it’s not like you could hear through the loud music anyway.
"Why the tears..?"
I hesitated to respond. My mind searched for any cohesive thought, something to give him an answer.
"I don't deserve you," was the first thing I could think of.
As expected, a soft laugh escaped his lips.
God I love that sound.
I felt his grip tighten slightly around my waist, our bodies swaying together gently.
"You deserve more than you think," he sighed over my shoulder.
It probably looked stupid the way I held him, but I couldn't help it. I latched onto him, as if he would drift away from me if I dared to let go. I didn't care.
Despite being someone who appears clueless, he really does know what to say.
My voice melted into a river of things I love about him, everything that I felt was too extravagant for someone like me. He hummed in response to every ridiculous compliment I threw at him.
Except they weren't ridiculous, because they were true.
His smile is everything to me, the way his voice sounds, every little thing I could think of about him had left my mouth.
And he just hummed in response.
As the song ended, my tears continued.
He pulled us apart to join our foreheads together. His hands holding my face, they began working to wipe the tears away.
"There's no need to cry..."
But there is.
I need him to know how I feel.
I need him to know I'm happy.
I want him to know he means the world to me, and always will.
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It took some time for the tears to subside. When they did I was greeted with a clear view of his perfect smile. It was one of those smiles that looked sad, but was reassuring.
We made our way back to the main table, one that consisted of only us and a few friends. They congratulated us for the millionth time that day, of which we happily thanked them.
When it came down to the party subsiding and people heading home, we made sure to thank every person individually for coming. Traveling from one realm to another just for us? It really shows a lot about these people. It shows they really care.
Soon enough, we were left alone. My now husband tugged at my sleeve, my attention falling to him. Something about the way he latched onto me hurt. I could tell he was waiting all day for everyone to leave just so he could appear vulnerable.
I know it's a bit dramatic, but the adrenaline of the night had started to wear off, so we found our way to the floor.
It was off putting to hear him begin to tell me everything he loved about me, his voice shaking.
I froze in that moment, his arms locking me in place. Everything he said went in one ear and out the other, but I heard it, even if it was for only a split second.
I wrapped my arms around him in return, my eyes filling with tears again as he shared his thoughts with me. Even if it was annoying to cry more that night, I happily accepted his tears. I love it when he shows me how he really feels.
We didn't stay there long, given it was getting pretty late. It was strange to head home after all that happened. Strange to know that the man in front of me was now mine, forever. He's my future, my everything, and again I wouldn't change it for the world.
I let him in the house first, as a gentleman would, and followed right behind him. He stood and waited for me to grab his hand, despite being able to see with Sento in the other.
The way he stared when I locked our fingers together.
That perfect smile.
I smiled back before dragging him to the kitchen, some late-night wine never hurt anybody.
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He let go of my hand while telling me he wanted to go change into something comfier, which was understandable, having been wearing a more complex suit than he's used to all day. He gave me a quick peck on the cheek before bolting off to the bedroom.
A wine glass was placed on the island in the middle of the kitchen, waiting for him to come back. I stood against the counter swirling the scarlet liquid in my own glass.
I wanted to reflect on the day, run it by myself again, to make sure everything was 100% perfect. Though I guess it had to wait seeing as he had returned from the bedroom.
He came back empty handed, Sento left on its stand in the other room. He had the place memorized, so being completely in the dark didn't phase him.
We stayed silent for a while, occasionally sipping our glasses. He sat at the island, head hanging low, but a gentle smile remained. I hadn't realized I was staring until he asked me if there was a problem.
There were no problems. In fact, everything was as it should be, though I hadn’t said it outloud, leaving him to wonder what the ‘problem’ was.
Before his smile could dissipate, I spoke up,
“I’m admiring.”
He froze, his smile forming into a laugh,
“You’re ridiculous.”
“Am I not allowed to appreciate what’s mine forever and always?”
“You are,” he swirled his glass gently, “but, don’t you think you might get tired of doing it so frequently?”
“Not at all.”
Having downed the rest of my drink, I placed the glass in the sink behind me. The dishes could wait until tomorrow.
I watched his smile widen as he listened to my footsteps, my hands finding their way around his waist. While I placed a few kisses along his neck, a gentle shiver rattled his body. His hand found its way to my face pulling us into a soft, and much needed kiss.
He always made sure his touch was gentle.
I always found it ironic how much he’s softened up since the first time we met. Being bumped up to husband status wasn’t so bad.
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Kiss out of the way, I offered the idea of heading to bed, of which he happily agreed. He held my hand as I led the way, my thumb instinctually caressing his fingers.
While he got comfortable under the covers, I changed out of formal attire and into some comfy clothes. He laid there with his arms open, waiting for me to take my place. Usually I’d have to fight my way into his arms, but I guess he was in an affectionate mood after today’s events.
My point was proven as his arms wrapped around me, a light kiss pressed to my forehead.
“You’re oddly affectionate tonight,”
“Am I not supposed to be?”
He sounded confused, as if I meant it as a bad thing.
“No, no, it’s just- You should do it more often,”
He huffed a quiet laugh, his arms tightening around me,
“Maybe I will.”
And that’s all I needed to hear.
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The next morning I woke up to a cold bed. The body that was once beside me was no longer present. I started to consider the whole wedding as a dream.
“Good morning,”
Or not.
A noise of protest left my mouth as I rolled over onto my stomach. Never will I ever be a morning person.
My husband made his way to the side of the bed, Sento in one hand, the other coming to comb through my messy hair. His touch was comforting, my eyes threatening to drift back into slumber.
“Breakfast is waiting for you out in the kitchen,”
I mumbled in response, not entirely making words, but a good enough response to let him know I heard him.
Having thought he would’ve gotten tired of staring at me, I stayed still. A few minutes pass and he’s still combing through my hair. At that point, I didn’t even need to comb it myself.
My eyes adjusted to the morning sun pouring through the window. Blinking a few more times, I looked up at the silhouette in front of me.
My husband, an incredible person full of nothing but love, staring down at me, the warm light outlining his figure. I studied the visual before me, taking in all that I could before it could leave.
But it never left.
It stayed until I was ready to get up.
He never moved.
He sat content along the side of the bed, watching me with the limited sight he was given.
No words were exchanged, just a gentle intertwining of our fingers.
I looked from our hands to his face.
And there it was.
His perfect smile.
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Apologies if it sounds a bit rushed towards the end. I had a lot more planned for this writing, but nothing came out as I had hoped. HOWEVER, I like it enough to share with you all. Hopefully you enjoyed :))
#johnshi#mk1#kenshi takahashi#johnny cage#mortal kombat 1#sugameh's fic archive#kenshi x johnny#johnny x kenshi#johnny cage x kenshi takahashi#kencage
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Year In Review - Favorite Lines
Thank you to @kiwiana-writes @happiness-of-the-pursuit @anincompletelist @littlemisskittentoes @rockyroadkylers @firenati0n and @gayrootvegetable for the tags! :) I'm very excited for this game
RULES: Feel free to share your top three/top five/however many favorite snippet(s)/line/quotes/paragraphs from your published fics (or wips, I don't care!) and don't forget to share the link of course!
I only have 8 fics, so I'll just go through most of them in reverse chronological order because why not (except for my first fic, she isn't real to me) - it's mostly either a fuck ton of feelings or me trying to be funny
Gonna Give You Something (So You Know What’s on My Mind)
Alex traces his finger from start to finish, over all the points where his fingers pressed into, and it’s not until then that Henry realizes what Alex has been doing—paving his own path to follow through the points where they’ve touched, connected into a complex constellation; Henry, a celestial body, and Alex, his renowned cartographer; the North Star that Henry found in Alex’s eyes likely reflected in his own, allowing them to find their way to each other with something as simple as a passing glance.
and
It’s soft and slow, but it’s everything—the all-encompassing sensation that surrounds him like a swirling galaxy, Alex pulling him into the center of it. He can feel it, the way that Alex’s divinity transforms him, rays of warmth spreading through his entire being. It’s something wholly bigger than himself, and yet, as Henry lets his lips drift down to Alex’s neck, helpless to avoid the gravity that draws him in there, it’s also something that he thinks he could pinpoint; make tangible. If Henry has always found value in the night sky, then maybe he could find some in the place where he sucks a mark into the crook of Alex’s neck, too—swirling shades of mauve and cobalt, bursting capillaries forming the silhouette of stars.
alright one more for the comedy
Nora shrugs. “Eh, it’s fine. I just really hate the male gaze sometimes.”
At that, Alex gasps rather dramatically. “What do you have against the male gays?”
“What? No, that’s not—”
“Look! There’s one right there!” Alex cries, pointing directly at Henry. He finds Henry’s eyes, tilting his head with calculated consideration before— Christ, before crawling over to Henry on all fours.
Help Me Hold On to You
Alex is fine. Alex remains in his spot on the couch. The couch is good and soft and comfortable and fine. There’s air in his lungs and the bees in his brain are only slightly buzzing. They haven’t moved from their hive.
But then, a faint click sounds from upstairs. One door closes, and another one opens; the fault shifts, and Alex gets swept under by the flood. The bees hate water, and they hate Alex even more for getting their feet soaked, so they try to escape. They swarm about in every direction, from the crown of Alex’s head to the pit of his stomach to the tips of his toes, but it’s a futile effort. They’re trapped, and they despise Alex for it, so the buzzing grows and grows and grows until Alex is buzzing too.
Alex doesn’t realize this until he tries to move. He stands up, but his legs are shaking so much that it’s a fruitless endeavor; his knees buckle and he sinks to the floor. The bees are in his lungs too, now. They must be, because Alex can’t seem to be able to take a breath. The bees hate the water, so they try to push it out of Alex. They must be, because his throat is dry but his eyes are wet.
King of My Heart
Henry halts his ministrations and glances skeptically at Alex before picking up the jacket and reaching a hand into the inside pocket. A condom falls out, but when he pulls out a travel-sized bottle of lube, he lets out a bewildered laugh. “Have you been carrying this around all night?”
“Locker lube,” Alex says in lieu of a response.
Henry freezes. What? “Pardon, come again?”
“But I haven’t even come once yet,” Alex pouts.
Baby, You're Gonna Lose Your Own Game
The jaw that scrapes against Alex’s neck is so sharp it could cut glass; the moan that escapes him is one of its collateral shards.
and
Considering he always assumed the perfect prince was made of porcelain, he’s surprised when he sees a thin line of perspiration building up at the crux of his forehead. Alex didn’t think that the fine glassware of Kensington Palace was capable of sweating.
All of This Silence and Patience (Pining and Anticipation)
So, Henry lets Pez drag him to parties. Maybe this time I’ll go up and talk to someone, he thinks. Maybe this time I’ll find someone who will stick. But the only thing that sticks are his Oxfords to the beer-covered floor, and the only thing he finds is himself wishing he hadn’t come at all.
and
“I didn’t know that you were—” he cuts himself off, sliding a hand over his face. “I, um. Shit, sorry. I just meant, uh… Christ—”
Alex saves Henry some breath by cutting him off. “Bi? Sure am.”
“Since when?” Is Henry’s only response. Apparently, being in dangerously close proximity to pretty boys makes him a bit dim. Whatever. He’ll have time to reflect on this and feel utterly mortified later.
You Came Out of Nowhere (And You Cut through All the Noise)
Like, here’s the thing. Alex knows a lot of words. He knows he does, given the fact that if babbling aimlessly was a college course, he’d not only get an A plus in it but a shiny fucking gold star too. He’d stick it on his forehead — he’s a show-off and a sucker for praise, sue him. So then, if a2+b2=c2 and 2+2=4 (Nora is the numbers person in their friendship, shocking), then why has his vocabulary suddenly been reduced down to the likes of shit, motherfucker, and mouth.
Tagging @inexplicablymine @read-and-write- @rmd-writes @welcometololaland @everwitch-magiks @raysletters @iboatedhere @orchidscript @onward--upward @daisymae-12 @dustratcentral @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @leaves-of-laurelin @cultofsappho @cricketnationrise @nocoastposts @myheartalivewrites and @matherines
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How do the RO’s feel about an MC who has very low self-esteem? Like “Why do you like me/want to even known me” low self-esteem? (why does this hit too close to home tho lol)
hits home so hard plsssssss
(I can't stress enough how much of a dick he is so to be nice I'll give you guys a twofer on this one!) Current!Nate would fucking laugh. He might even agree. He'd say something like "you're good for something, at least" and then not talk to you for a week just. He can't have that kind of negativity ruining his vibes, man. Past!Nate is a different story because past!Nate is a teenage boy/young adult who's battling his own self-worth demons. He'd take you by the hands of hug you tight and tell you all the words he wants to hear himself. It might be a little selfish of him but if he can reassure you than maybe you'd be able to reassure him.
This is a sentiment Eva has had to deal with a lot, and even though she's grown to a place of confidence in herself, it's still something she struggles with sometimes. She's very empathetic and while she doesn't exactly encourage you to talk about it she does pull you into her arms to comfort you. If you seem particularly down trodden, she'll whisper some of her own insecurities she's faced, to let you know your not alone in your feelings.
Mica's knee jerk reaction is to remind you that they're your best friend for a reason─or rather you're their best friend for a reason─and might even insult you playfully. The second they realise you're being serious they also get serious, they'll being up memories the two of you share as examples of why you mean so much to them and will learn in to comfort you in a tight embrace as if anchoring them to your side──like a reminder that they're there and always will be.
Detective Han's response is surprisingly emotional. "Because I do." It's so short but it's a phrase bursting with emotions. They're saying that knowing you, liking you, is something they acknowledge and they like. "Because you're you." It's so sweet even though it sounds so matter of fact──like the thought of not liking you hadn't even occurred to them.
Our sunshine José, well their heart just breaks when they hear you feel like that. They know they're a little fast in the emotions part of a relationship so they instantly think your 'thoughts' had arisen because of a lack of communication so they ask to talk through it. They get more serious when you tell them that it's more of a self-esteem issue than a communication issue──they tell you that feeling your emotions is never wrong and that you're allowed to feel the bad ones too but they want you to know that you don't have to only feel the negative ones. They list all the reasons they have for wanting to be in your presence (not just as your partner) and ask you to try and talk to them every time you start feeling like you're unworthy of them and they'll gladly remind you again and again, over and over──even after you don't feel that way anymore.
With Ji Han it's a little different. He's surprisingly quiet for a while. He takes your hand and starts drawing patterns on your skin. It might be a little unnerving──since he always seems to have the answers to everything──but somehow it's just comforting. After a time of just being in each other's spaces he whispers small words of affection and affirmation. It kind of strikes him that you feel that way. He's so quiet because he's processing what he could've done to make you feel that way──before coming to the realisation that sometimes people just feel that way. Ji Han would encourage you to talk through what you're feeling with him, to work through it together. He wants to help but he doesn't want to smother you...
So Fauve doesn't really do the deep emotional talks very much, she doesn't like talking about self esteem because then she'll have to come to terms with her own self esteem issues and how she feels disconnected to her body (because she uses it as a tool rather than an extension of her being) and she... can't do that yet. She'll try to brush you off with short reassurances, she'll smother you in kisses if you'll let her but don't expect deep conversations about insecurities and emotions till you're VERY deep in your relationship.
Jackson has been closed off emotionally for a long time before you met or even got together. He knows wha it feels to think you're not worthy of the relationship you're in. He takes your hands and sits you down (on the comfy chair) to talk to you seriously──it's probably one of the first serious emotion talks you have in your relationship and Jackson takes it so... seriously. He gently asks you to expand on your feelings, and tells you his own struggles. He ends out with a statement of "lets work through this together" as a sort of promise to you and your relationship──he's not going anywhere.
??? is no stranger to self esteem issues. They might not be the most comforting person──they're awkward about emotions, especially deep ones that they also struggle with──but they try their absolute best to let you know that you're more than enough for them.
#radio kathryn if#all ros#c: nate nicks#c: eva vidal#c: mica hollens#c: detective han#c: josé danger#c: ji han#c: fauve#c: jackson lewis#c: ???
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Heya^^ I saw how your shop is open and I'd like to order a chocolate cake and a medium lemonade(just some regular relationship hcs^^) The fandom I'd like order my cake from is from BSD please^^
☾Ok some things about myself (so so so sorry if it's too much/long) Ok so for starters my name is Kristina but closer friends call me Kris, Cis fem - Capricorn - infj
☾Appearance wise I'm on the shorter side and have a dark brown pixie cut and dark brown eyes, I have a couple freckles and wear glasses
☾I tend to be more introverted when meeting new people, I can hold a conversation way better when talking to one on one so my attention can only be focused on one person and give them my full attention. One I get more comfortable with someone I tend to be more jokingly sarcastic and like to goof around but I'll always get the hint if they are not in the mood to joke around
☾I'm really passionate about psychology and painting. On the weekends or when I'm finished with work I tend to draw on my sketchbook to visualise my next painting while listening to video essays about different types of diagnosis and how they affect the brain and behaviour(my favourite video essays is Fear of forgetting by Clark Elieson, ok but srs it's so good) and my paintings mostly comsist of still life with warm colours
☾And god forbid if one of my friends lets me ramble about psychology cuz I'll turn a casual convo to a hole ted talk and go on and on until they tell me to shut up(plus I have a inside joke with my therapist that I turned the tables and her therapist)
☾That's kinda it, tysm for giving me this opportunity and don't forget to hydrate!!!!!!!!
character matchup [˗ˏˋ꒰ 🍒 ꒱ event]
hi Kristina! thanks for your order and sorry it took a while, I hope you'll enjoy and come again :)
credits at the bottom!
p.s thanks for the reminder, I just realized I only drank 1-2 bottles a day 🥲
I'm going to match you up with dazai or ranpo
for dazai, I can definitely see him taking an interest in you (similarly to how he was with atsushi)
at first he'd be curious because you're kind of quiet
however once you start warming up to him, he's curious to get to know you more
playful banter, a mixture of flirting as well, is thrown back and forth between the both of you
you're interest in psychology catches his attention too
he likes to listen to your take on how each diagnosis affects the way from how one thinks to how they behave
may or may not get into his, yours or both your mental state as well
once you start your speech on psychology, he won't stop you either
he'll sit there with you the entire time
giving you one of his signature smirk /smile
he's happy that you've been able to find your passion and drive in life
beyond that, he's glad that he can share a peice of his mind with someone else
would definitely be interested in your paintings as well
and the thought process behind it
questions you about every single detail
^ asks a lot of why questions as well
sometimes he ponders if your choice of art and colour as well are a reflection of your own mind
he likes to lounge near by and watch as you paint
falling asleep to the sound of your painting and the brush stroking on the paper
likes to call you silly nicknames such as kit / kitkat and so on
when you're both in the office, he likes to rest his head on top of yours and watch as you complete your work
he's bored out of his mind but at least you're there for him to disturb
Ranpo
similarly to dazai, he just likes to cause problems
will confidently strut over to your table and munch on his candies noisily while you're doing your work
don't expect much to get done
with you being his partner, it's like someone he can share his every thought with
(like an open diary essentially)
when you first met him, he was very pushy
always asking what you're listening to or what you're painting
sometimes likes to grab one side of the earpiece and listen to it beside you
but in the end he too, gets invested in what you're listening to and stays by your side
bratty bf
he'll joke with you back but sometimes he'll get upset
so you'll need to pacify him
preferably with candy
when you both get into deep talks he needs to at least have some form of skinship
either by holding your hand or leaning his head on your shoulder
or both
so if he's upset just sit with him and everything will be okay again
reblogs appreciated!
banners: dazai, ranpo,
#dazai x reader#dazai osamu x reader#ranpo x reader#ranpo edogawa x reader#x reader#headcanons#hc#bsd hcs#˗ˏˋ꒰ 🍒 ꒱#follower event#character matchup
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Hi all, thank you to those who've interacted on my most recent post. I probably shouldn't have responded to the ask but I wanted to put it out there that under no circumstances would I ever draw art like that, and it would've stressed me out to have left it unanswered and to have someone think of me in such a manner.
However, it's still made me incredibly uncomfortable that someone has even had the slightest inkling that my art is tcest. For that reason I'm going to stop sharing my art for a while, at least on tumblr. I'm currently striking on Instagram but from the 29th of January I will continue to share my art on there. If you wish to keep seeing my art, then I recommend checking it out if possible. I feel a lot more comfortable on there as I've been using it far longer than tumblr and know a lot more people in the community. I also post more art on there than I do here as im not fond of sharing fanart i drew for other people on platforms they don't use.
I promise I'll still use tumblr to share other people's art and I will continue sharing my art sometime soon but I'd rather not do it for now as I'm afraid I'll receive more asks in a similar vein and I don't really need another thing to deal with at the moment with everything else I've got going on. I figure I'll be back when Reticent Chapter 9 releases so my break won't be any longer than a month. (The chapter has been planned but I've been too exhausted to write or draw due to having exams all month, thats why there was such a sudden influx in art as I was finally able to draw again, there's still pieces I haven't posted)
Tl;Dr: Taking a break from posting art on tumblr, will be back within a month :)
Also, this may be an inappropriate post to say this on, but thank you all for 100 followers on this blog, it genuinely means so so much for me. I hope you all don't mind waiting for my return.
#im still fine with receiving asks btw but i wont be answering any related to tcest or proshipping or anything of the sort#ive already answered and i dont want to have to repeat that#if i do then all ill do is link to the ask where i have answered it#tcest dni#announcement#thisll also help a bit cause im exhausted from exams#so itll help me recharge a little bit 💖
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...and we're back, babies!
I’m happy to announce that I’m re-opening my commissions (again...!), with re-assessed pricing and more recent works to show you what my art really looks like these days.
all the details and prices in the text form under the cut! :)
some rules:
Commissioning process. There are few steps I’d like to follow as a rule. First, you send your request, preferably by a PM. I reply and and tell whether i accept it/how much you’d need to wait etc, and then we figure out the details. I draw you a rough sketch and send you a screen shot for you to approve of. When that’s done, I’ll ask you to go to make the paymant via ko-fi or paypal. I’ll continue with the drawing afterwards, updating you regularly. By default your art will be uploaded on Google Drive and you'll receive a link, unless for some reason you'd rather get that via e-mail.
Since I'd like to be able to share my art with my followers, please let me know if you want to post it, so that I can re-blog it; if you don't want to post it on your blog, please keep in mind that I'll do it on mine.
Fandoms! My favourite ones include Chihayafuru, MLB, FMA, ATLA… But you can be sure there’s more. You can find some in the tags, or in my blog in general - with others, just ask and confirm - there’s a big chance I at least know of it :)
OCs: Yes, I’m very willing to draw them! Please mind I’m only experienced with drawing humans, so animals, furries, mechas etc. are a no for me (and you wouldn’t like the results anyway)
Extra characters: You may ask to up to 3 characters in a single commission. The price for the 2nd character will vary - if it's a two-people pose (dancing, hugging, etc.), then the price for the 2nd character is 50% the usual; if it's two characters standing on their own next to each other, I'll charge 75% for the second one. Third character is always 50%.
Please remember that I can always refuse a commission. It may be because I’m not experienced enough or because I don’t feel comfortable with some. But remember: if in doubt, just ask ;)
|| PRICING - bust / half / full body ||
rough sketch: $10 / $15 / $20
clean sketch/lineart: $15 / $20/ $25
flat colours: $20/ $25 / $30
anime style: $30 / $35 / $40
manga style: $40 / $45 / $50
fully coloured (detailed shading and such): $50 / $55 / $60
PSSST! If your first currency isn't USD but euro, please let me know! We can figure out the prices without you having to convert for USD on pay-pal (which doesn't pay off to anyone).
Bug out, everyone!
#art commissions#miraculous ladybug#fma#atla#chihayafuru#anne of green gables/awae#lotr#howl's moving castle#manga#anime#original characters
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Hi! Hope you don't mind but may I request a #9? (Also, congrats on the 1k milestone!)
I'm Filipino but was raised in America for majority of my life. I enjoy reading/writing fiction since it allows me to escape reality, even for a slightest moment. Same why I enjoy drawing as well, as it let's be get lost in the world of possibilities and imagination.
For the most part, when I'm on my own, I'm rather withdrawn and silent. More of a listener than a speaker since I get nervous/anxious interacting with others, not to mention, it was how I was raised. When I'm with others I know and trust, I can be loud, chaotic, relaxed, feeling no need to hide, and be able to speak of my thoughts, problems, and worries with more ease. Though, I'd still need to recharge from too many social interactions at times.
I tend to hyperfixiate on stuff, jumping from one focus to another. It can get hectic, to the point where I might neglect taking care of myself with how invested I'm in it. Sometimes, it might last from a mere week to almost a year or two (longest was 4 years but it was surprisingly not chaotic like the others I've had cause it was mainly me just reading about... 4,000+ works worth of fanfics? At least, that's just a close estimation. Lost count after that).
I try to think logically but sometimes, my emotions might get in the way. Doesn't help when I tend to bottle up the more negative ones.
(Unsure if this is enough info bout myself. Hope this be enough, though!)
🎀 No.9: Ever Fallen In Love With Someone 🎀
tell me a little bit about yourself and i'll give you a rogue pairing
a/n: this was plenty to let me know who i was giving you!! the goodest boy 💚
1k milestone info!
🔞minors dni🔞 • kofi • tag: finnie1k
so first of all, the escape from reality thing hit me as something bane does, although his methods are a bit more destructive and involve copious amounts of venom, but i think he needs someone to show him better methods. creativity would be such a good outlet for him, and someone to teach him how to be creative would be good, and i don't know, from the way you speak (type) it feels like you would be very patient and giving when it came to helping someone learn a new skill
he's quiet too, i imagine. spending developemental years in a prison with no friends your own age would make you withdrawn, and a bit unlikely to strike up conversations with just anyone. but he's a big guy, so he has to put on a facade of bravery even when he can't be truly tough, but like you he would need time to power up his social battery before going at it again
the only problem is that he's a listener too, but i feel like it would be so much more beneficial to you both to sit in comfortable silence and just enjoy each other's company
he's got an addictive personality, so hyperfixations are something he could understand. but he's not lost as easily, and he's deeply soft and sensitive so it would become his favourite thing to take care of you while your brain is busy doing other stuff. and if he has to drag you away from ao3 with his bare hands he will, and he's strong, so you know he'll succeed
he's not stupid, he tries to be logical too. but his emotions, specifically his temper, get the better of him. but maybe you two could open up to each other, share in the negatives and try and focus more on the positives
i doubt he's ever really expressed the pain of his childhood, and someone who can understand bottling things up would feel like a safe person to finally open up to
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ill say, its kinda funny youve got 2 aus where Lilith just ends up taking care of a young Hunter cuz Wow You Really Like The Idea That Much (the "when all the characters you like follow a pattern" kind of funny.) but I am also obsessed cuz...the idea of Lilith with a child is fascinating, especially with Hunter. She's already so exhasperated with Eda's childish endeavors as it is, and she seems to not be..exactly good with children per se? (the times weve seen her interact with children at least.) And she also doesn't hold Hunter in high regards and so the idea of "What if Lilith raised him when he is but a small child?" is so entretaining and I think your Vampire AU explores it in a great way!! Like shes mildly annoyed at all times but its bc shes tired and hungry and stressed out and shes also in the position of basically raising him and she knows she should be gentler with him but she cant, and thats so very Lilith. Like such a very close to canon protayal of her.
Im sorry for making this very long, I was just rotating ur aus and ideas so I had to spill em out!!
ahhh!! please dont apologize i love talking about lilith and esp that vampire au lol. and it's actually a worry of mine that people think i don't understand lilith or am mischaracterizing her, simply because i happen to draw tender things!! (i say this because i don't see lilith as a very tender person, not naturally.)
thank you for saying that about my vampire au wheeze, cause i try very hard to use that au for that!! she's pretty rough with him because she's in this position where she's forced to care for something that is both a child and a predator to her. like he can literally kill her dead. but she was also a very solitary person prior to finding him and i really like thinking about her coming to the decision not to kill him and taking him under her wing. lilith is not heartless and we see that she has a conscience about others, particularly when she's not in competition for something. (when she was younger and shared pain with eda, when she hugs eda and tries to comfort her when she's crying about luz being so young and involved in all the chaos.) but she's not maternal, she's not naturally tender as an adult, she's not someone who's had to think about caring for another living thing, she thinks selfishly. she's someone who's had her focus on herself, hiding, feeding, keeping herself going all these years. and in the au, in hunters case, i kept him as an isolated character that hadn't experienced a caring guardian or parent and even though lilith is not very good at it, he doesn't know any better because of that and because he's so young. so it's almost like lilith has room for error and to build their relationship as she is because hunter just doesn't even know.
sometimes i think about the part where lilith shields luz from the stone sleeper. she throws her entire body over her, but it's all while saying ''eda is going to kill me, eda is going to kill me." this isn't to say she doesn't care about luz, but her drive to protect her is for her sister. she doesn't... like, she doesn't naturally have this instinct to be a guardian. WHEEZE, so it is the most fun and greatest of my past times to think about lilith parenting hunter in different aus. lol. I LOVE IT!!! i love her and i love him.
before i get going too long with this i'll just say thank you again and im so happy and glad that people like the aus so much. i have a human au i am really interested in sharing because it's just so cute. it's lilith with a BABY so it's very interesting to think about it all. im a little shy 'bout this one but we'll see how it goes.
i'm also going to use this ask to clarify that i don't just shove lilith and hunter together this way cause i like the idea. of course i LOVE the idea, but i do think about it as thoroughly as i'm able to, and because i love lilith (and hunter) so much, exploring her character in depth is something i just love doing. i think about her so much rip.
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I think that moving from live journal to tumblr was very damaging for fandom as a community. Tumblr is a very easy place to share images, meta, etc. but it’s not a good place to have discussions or try to form connections. Forum sites like Reddit can be better for certain fandoms, but you have to curate your experience. I’m sorry you’re seeing a lot of negativity. The best thing I can advise is to not be afraid to block people liberally. If someone is constantly posting negative discourse or going after people for different interpretations I don’t see it because I block them. As for leaving feedback on fics, there’s always going to be a percentage of any fandom that’s not going to for whatever reason. I try to be good about it if I like the story, but again it’s not like livejournal where the author is someone I know from discussion posts or participation in another fandom, etc. Their fics on ao3 are separate from their other fandom presence and that can be both good and bad. I really do miss fandom communities, tags on tumblr are just not the same thing.
I'll answer this under the cut for those who might not want to have to scroll through my response.
Thanks for the insight anon. I think you make some very valid points. I joined fandom after the end of live journal but was fortunate enough to find it along the way and meet some of the fandom community over there. It felt like there was a sense of connect and community over there and I regret that most of the height of that was before my time. Tumblr has been good in some ways and I see that Discord is attempting to bring back the notion of community being able to have real time conversations, but still it feels a lot of discord communities are a bit cliquish especially with new people coming on into an established community where as when LJ was still dying and barely hanging on and I was the too late outsider I met some really awesome people from fandom that to this day are my friends even though we've all kind of veered in different directions.
Thanks for the blocking advice. I do block those who reach out to me on Tumblr here in being nasty. If something doesn't make me comfortable I will take the time to ensure I don't have to deal with that. With VPNs it proves to be difficult, but most of the trolling comes over on AO3 where I've also taken to moderating comments on specific fics that draw in trolling. It's just sad to see that people are so set on spreading negativity or not engaging at all. I know that it's always a small percent of the fandom that do engage and I'm appreciative of those who do. It's just sometimes when you see something you've worked on gets a few hundred views and there's not a like and/or comment on it you question things like did the readers just decide to nope out on it because they didn't like it? Was it a waste of time all around or is it something that people aren't really interested in delving deeper into. Being an artist whether traditional, digital or writing always breeds a sense of uncertainty and with that I guess we have that little insecure voice at times (at least I do) that asks those types of questions.
I can understand your feeling of disconnect between here and AO3 and various places and not really knowing the author like you would've in the LJ community. I try to keep the same name everywhere if I can to keep a connect between my stuff, but I know most people don't and it's hard to get caught up in things where you know someone based on their posts, but you don't really know them. I've had people tell me we've been mutuals on Tumblr for a while and I don't think we reach out often or at all in some cases like people would've on LJ. The world is changing for sure and it's kind of sad. I have no doubts that you're great in engaging those you know since you took the time to reach out to me here, which I truly do thank you for. It's nice to hear other's opinions on the subject every now and then. Thank you for being so kind and insightful and I hope that the fandom experience is treating you right where you are! Thanks again!
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Requests: OPEN
Hello! As you can probably tell, I'm opening up requests! I find that my content has been going through a bit of a dry spurt recently in both fics and art, and I honestly wanna focus on getting back on the wagon. This blog brings me a lot of joy, and being able to share my stuff with you all has been so fun these past few months! So, to celebrate getting 150 followers, requests are OFFICIALLY OPEN!!!
Some rules for how this is gonna work:
I reserve the right to refuse any request. This should be obvious, but these requests are mostly done for fun and to help keep me inspired and to give new ways to interact with you guys! If I don't do your request, don't take it personally, and don't be afraid to request it again after some time has passed!
Your requests can include requests for specific characters, scenarios, or even fetish content outside of EUM/ENM. I accept going into this that having an ask box and doing requests like this will get me all sorts of requests from people, so don't be afraid to ask for something niche and specific. Keep in mind, my main thing is EUM/ENM tho, so the more removed from that context it is, the less likely I'll draw it.
EUF/ENF is totally fine to request! While I focus primarily on male and M/M content, I'm not averse to drawing women and have done so in the past for friends and servers I've been on. But again, my main thing is dudes, so if you want ENF content, it's inherently less likely I'll draw it from a request.
Don't be afraid to request fics in addition to art! I know the folks here on my main blog aren't the same folks I have on AO3, so while you might not be familiar with my writing, I do write too! So if you've seen my stories or a few of the drabbles I've put up on this blog, feel free to specifically ask for some fanfic too!
I do OC requests! If you want me to draw your OC in a fun and lewd sort of scenario, feel free to ask! Now, that being said, you may not be able to show me what they look like in an ask, so in the case of OC requests, I would prefer if people just messaged me directly and sent me refs of what their OCs look like. My dm's are always open, so don't be afraid to pop in and tell me about your amazing characters :D
Lastly, and this is a really big one, don't be a dick! I'm doing these requests for fun, and if people are assholes about it and stop making it fun, you'll ruin it for everybody. Dont. Be. A. Dick. Try not to get entitled about requests, be rude about how I draw certain characters, or anything that you wouldn't be comfortable saying to an artist or writer face to face. If nothing else, this is the rule you should follow MOST. Now, everyone here has been super kind and sweet, so I doubt this'll be a problem, but I wanna have this here so I can tap the sign when somebody is rude.
If we're all in agreement here, I think we can get started! Send in your requests, and I'll start my doodling. Hope to see you in my ask box soon! - Candy 🍭🍋
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hey! another rika and vanderwood enjoyer :-D! i love the semi-realistic way you draw MM characters (which is to say is an art style that is rarely ever seen in this fandom, unfortunately)! may i ask what are your thoughts on the other MM characters and/or their respective routes--or, instead, if that's alright w/ you, could you share more of your CMC Jake Park? so far, i'm interested in Bleeding Paint and I can't wait to see more of it :-)!
Anon I am kicking my legs around in my bed hugging my pillow like a schoolgirl bc this is the first ask I've gotten in this sideblog and it is literally so sweet and I'm so excited to have gotten it
Because of that you will have to endure me discussing every single topic you brought up in great detail
1. So glad to hear from another Rika and Vanderwood enjoyer. I get pretty self-conscious about liking Rika because of all the negativity, but the truth is that she's a major comfort character for me. When I realized what she meant with all of her talk about darkness after therapy one night I cried for hours LMAO it was a major milestone in my mental health journey.
And that event is actually what made me start writing bleeding paint, AND this is the part where I tell you that if you like Rika and Vanderwood, the good news is that they're the two love interests in the fic. But the bad news is that Rika and Jake's relationship is Extremely toxic. Radioactive. But the good news again is that with Vanderwood, it's the opposite.
2. Thank you for complimenting my art style :)) If my different background means I'm bringing something new to the table, then I'm ecstatic to provide.
3. My opinions on the other characters are!! Difficult to word, because until a couple months ago I hadn't played since Ray's route came out, and this year I've only replayed another story and Seven's route. I'll try my best to give you a summary, though.
Zen and Yoosung: my B plot KINGS. Where would I be without you. Adorable brotherly dynamic. A much needed wholesome break from all the angst. I would die for you.
Jaehee: her role as the Straight Man is executed extraordinarily, in my opinion, because of how often she's just tired. It's so realistic and it makes you feel for her so much. But when she's something else instead of tired, she absolutely slays, it really sticks out. AND I would like to say I think the way her voice changes when she starts fangirling about musicals is ADORABLE. I've been in love with this woman since I was 17.
Jumin: I HAVE THE MOST CONFLICTING FEELINGS ABT HIM OUT OF ANYONE ELSE. Okay stay with me for this one but I'm a hardcore anarco-communist. Which means there are multiple points in the game where, if he were in front of me, I would grab him by the neck and shake him like in that Simpsons bit. Shut up about the free market shut up about the free market. He's so privileged and his lack of empathy means he only alienates himself further and further. So on one side I feel extreme frustration and anger towards him. Then on the other, the emotional maturity of this character is unparalleled. He is, like, completely actualized. On top of Maslow's entire shit. While in Another Story, some of his dialogue has been having me awestruck. I think that IRL, Jumin and I would have the kind of dynamic where we would be able to talk until 3 AM and not realize it. So yeah man I don't know. He's on both sides of the love and hate spectrum for me at the same time.
707: what can I tell you about my bestest boy in the whole world? I would not change a thing about him. He can have my entire house and life and hand in marriage.
V: in my opinion. Okay look. God. I don't have any strong *feelings* about V. But I have very strong opinions.
If you asked me to list any other characters who display the level of emotional complexity his guy has going on, I'd have very few examples.
But the execution of the concept falls short for me.
How many days does the game have in total? Think about it: He's the MOST STUBBORN FRUSTRATING MAN TO DEAL WITH IN THE WHOLE WORLD for ALL but 3 of them, the 3 days at the end of his route. He's a goddamn broken record. Furthermore, his route is so focused on the backstory MC wasn't there for, that it forgets to tell you why you two should feel a bond at all.
It's hard for me to suspend my disbelief and look past all that to enjoy the potential he had.
Saeran: SE Saeran is one of my faves :)) he's not my type in his route, but his portrayal of mental illness matters a lot to me. I have talked to my therapist about Saeran.
4: IT'S JAKE TIME - GET ABSOLUTELY SILLY
Where can I start with Jake William Park. Well first off, he's a bitch. Second off, he had his bisexual awakening in a sasunaru forum post at age 12. Third off. See that picture? He has a septum gauge and, while shitfaced one night, put a silly straw in it. He then couldn't get it out, had a panic attack, and ended up in the hospital.
He was born in Canada. When he was 8, his parents got divorced and his dad moved back to Korea while he stayed. Now he's in Korea as an exchange student for his senior undergrad year.
He's a literature major. He's Extremely pretentious about art. He has a cat named Rodya (nicknamed Rascalnikov). He dabbles in writing horror, but is mainly aiming at becoming a professor.
His superiority complex is his most annoying flaw. He thinks he's so smart and his taste is the only correct one and he's a different grade of human being from most people. He can be mean about it (he bullies Yoosung).
The meanness ties into another flaw of his, which is that he thinks showing emotion is a weakness.
His first version was much goofier and careless and dressed a little bit differently. In Another Story, he becomes what I've come to refer to as Traumajake. The kidnapping and cult stuff really gets to him, he's almost killed or cleansed. And he decides that, if Rika wants a boytoy, then he will be the perfect boytoy until he can get out alive. He pretends to develop Stockholm syndrome - but he's not every worried about it, because he's FAR too smart to develop it for real. Right? Hilarity ensues.
By the time he's rescued, half of him doesn't even want to be. For the rest of the fic, he struggles to find a balance between emotion and reason.
There's a lot I'm leaving out, but this is already far too long and I doubt anyone will read it LMAO
5. I appreciate you mentioning Bleeding Paint a lot!! I have no evidence anyone ever read it and sometimes it makes me embarassed to keep posting sjdaskdjkjds but if just one person has given it their time of day, that's good enough for me :))
Tysm for the ask.
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For Secrets Ask 📒📔💃🐇🌜 for Yuulan, Farron, Taima, and Danica. Sorry it's so long.
(A/N: Lowkey, long asks are my fav. I just need a little extra time to finish them. 😊)
OC Secrets Ask Here
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Yuulan's Diary Entry ~ November 30th
Saw Tsunotaro again this evening. He seemed in low spirits but when I asked him what was wrong, he wouldn't tell me but he did ask me something kinda odd. He asked me if I were to have a birthday party, would I invite him. I told him my birthday already passed but if I were to have a party, of course, I'd invite him. That seemed to make him happy and we went on our usual evening walk together. I guess there was something he wasn't invited to and that's why he's feeling down. I get it, it sucks feeling left out of things and I usually feel very left out around here since I can't use magic or fly on a broom. I don't know how much Tsunotaro knows about me or my situation, but I think I'm gonna keep that to myself for the time being, who knows what he'd think if he knew how useless I really am. But I do think I'll invite him for tea sometime soon, hopefully.
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Yuulan doesn't really keep a sketchbook but she does doodle a lot in her notebook. Most of her doodles consist of drawings of Grim, random patterns and designs and Mickey.
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For reasons unknown to her, Yuulan has strong proficiency in languages. This is a holdover from her Scala training as one thing she was taught was various languages used in the different worlds outside her home. She's able to pick up on languages pretty easily and understand words only after hearing them a few times.
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Not sure how much of a "secret" it is, but Yuulan is very attached to the holiday card Malleus gave to her, ESPECIALLY after she realized the truth about his identity.
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Chewing on the tips of her braids when she's anxious or deep in thought. She's pretty good about not doing this in public but when she's back in her room, she does this a lot. Surprisingly, Grim has never seen her do this.
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Farron’s Diary Entry ~ October 24th (His Freshman Year)
I think I just made a very big mistake. That mockup I made for Vil-san’s new stage outfit, he found it. I was foolish and left it on the dressform right in front of the closet in our club meeting room, thinking no one would stop by after we were done meeting for the day. Well, I expected him to be extremely critical of my work since it was, really, ametrauish at best. But to my surprise, he said it was adequate and, even more surprisingly, that I have a lot of potential! I’m supposed to have a chat with him tomorrow afternoon, no, this is bad bad BAD! I’ve done well so far not drawing attention to myself, what if Vil-san decides I should be a part of the Film Research Club as MORE than an assistant?! Oh Sevens, I don’t want to think about it! And I don’t want a repeat of middle school, I just want to sew in peace without worrying about judgement. Is that so much to ask?
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Unlike Yuulan, Farron does keep a sketchbook, filled with designs of outfits he’d like to create in the future. He mostly draws his outfits modeled by either Vil or Sidonie.
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Singing, most of his friends know he plays piano very well but he can also sing too. (seriously, have you heard his voice claim sing?! Farron could have easily been part of the NRC tribe if he wanted to!) But his reserved nature keeps him from showing off this talent and plus he’d rather be known for his fashion design. Also, Pomefiore already has enough songbirds.
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Farron has a signed photo of Vil that Vil personally autographed for him at a fan event a few years before they started NRC. Farron is unsure if Vil actually remembers meeting him and lowkey, he kinda doesn’t want to ask since they’ve developed a very amiable, borderline queerplatonic relationship. But Farron did bring the photo with him to NRC and held onto it during orientation, as a goodluck charm since he really wanted to be sorted in Pomefiore. And it looks like the charm worked.
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Not really a “weird” habit per say, but each morning when Farron wakes up, he begins his morning by whispering affirmations to himself. He’s done this since beginning NRC in order to help with his confidence.
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Taima’s Diary Entry ~ November 5th
Well that sucked more than it had to. Classes A and D had joint P.E. again today which meant having to once again deal with the cabbage-head! Ugh! Why is he so…so…just thw way he is?! Ever since the spelldrive tournament, he has been pestering me about apologizing to him. For what, I have no idea since it’s his own damn fault Scarabia came in last! I really tried to ignore him but Ace decided to be a jackass and invite him to stretch with us. He knows we’re always at each others throats and I think it’s just entertainment for him. When he wasn’t berating me for my form, or being a human, he was openly comparing me to Malleus. Such an unfair comparison since, after all, I AM human and Malleus-sama is an all-powerful fae prince! Ugh why is he like this?! But I will admit, even if Sebek does get on my last nerve, he’s at least entertaining. And Epel let me in on a secret: Sebek is half-human himself! So I dare him to call me human again in an insulting way, I’ll have such a surprise waiting for him!
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Taima doesn’t really keep a sketchbook but she does doodle a lot in her notebook, mostly chibis.
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Taima can play the harp a little, something she picked up from her mother. She’s pretty good with it but she’s also not much for playing intsruments and would rather leave that to Lilianne, preferring dancing.
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Now, absolutely NO ONE knows about this, but Taima has a little plush frog from her childhood that she still sleeps with. She keeps it hidden in a special drawer in her room and takes him out whenever she’s stressed or about to sleep. It was a toy one of her aunts gave her when she was a baby and she’s still attached to it.
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Giving people secret names/nicknames. Kind of like how Rook and Floyd give people nicknames but Taima keeps all of her nicknames for people to hearself or in her phone’s contact list.
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Danica’s Diary Entry ~ December 30th
Today was my last day in Sunset Savanna. All in all I had a fun time and it was nice seeing Lili again. But I saw someone else there too. Me, her and Taima were hanging out in the marketplace this afternoon and guess who we saw? Rook-san! We ran into Rook! He said he was home for the holiday too, idk for some reason I thought he was from Shaftlands like me and Vil. Either way, Taima and Lilianne convinced me I should hang out with him this evening so we did. We went to his family’s villa but we were the only ones there, we talked a lot. Somehow I felt less anxious being around him like this than when we’re at school. It’s easier thinking of him as just another guy and not my vice dorm leader. I did notice him staring at me a lot. He...really has such pretty eyes, and a very kind smile. He smiles a lot, but something about how he smiles at me is very…very…
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Unfortunately, Danica doesn’t keep a sketchbook, according to her, she is artistically challenged and rarely draws.
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Danica wouldn’t really consider this a “talent” but she fancies herself something of an ameatur poet. She has a separate journal for writing her verses but considering she’s already very bashful about her known skills, she’d rather this hobby be kept to herself.
🐇- For a secret item they keep (stuffed animal, comfort object, etc)
Her music box, I’ve mentioned it once before but Danica has a music box that her sister gave to her on her 12th birthday, a few months before she died. She listens to it when she’s alone in her room and this is the song it plays.
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One weird habit Danica has is always arranging her items by color because according to her, that makes it easier for her to match things. Many of her accessories, jewelry and school supplies are set aside in separate containers based on their color.
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland oc#twst oc#oc: yuulan#oc: farron#oc: taima#oc: danica#things i've answered
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There's two major things I want to talk about this month, my annual art resolutions for 2024 and my work goals for this year.
Art resolutions!
I don't feel like I really kept to any of my resolutions last year because it was a such a trash fire I was trying to just survive. That said, I did still try to push myself in areas I'm less skilled and comfortable in because ultimately I want to be a better artist-- I just also indulged myself a lot.
Truthfully I intend to keep indulging myself, at least for the beginning of the year. I'm still dealing with frozen shoulder, in both of my shoulders now, and I've been told to prepare for that to take up to a year or even longer to resolve itself. Mentally I'm also struggling, however I'm going to make some changes I'll explain in a minute that I hope will help a lot. So I'm going to keep drawing whatever I feel like drawing, and if that includes challenging myself, I'll do it. If it's just more people heads on horses, then that's what it's going to be.
So my resolution is to enjoy the process as much as possible, which means...
I've discussing my work goals and attitude towards them on my Patreon. Again all blog posts are free to read. I know I keep doing the HURHUR read more on Patreooonnn bit with all my posts and I hope you all forgive me for that and understand why, but I think with the nature of this particular post, I will be offering the rest of it under a cut here. So you don't have to go to Patreon to read the rest of it, just find it below.
Work Goals!
I feel like I failed all the goals I set for myself. I don't think my goals were unreasonable, but I think I'm being inflexible and unforgiving with myself. I thought viewing drawing as my job was the best way to give me purpose and structure since I can no longer work the traditional jobs I had, but one of the main reasons I burned out and lead to some of my disabilities is because I always threw myself into my work. Even when my work was poor according to my standards, it was still too much, because I felt that was my worth.
I haven't been able to transition out of that mindset, so no mater how much I tell myself it's okay to not meet my goals or to make smaller ones or just count the progress I do have-- I think focusing at all growth and progress is actually hurting me more than I had realized. Maybe one day I can think about freelancing and streaming as a job, and this isn't to say I won't continue to be professional about it in my commissions and conduct, but for now I need to go back to viewing art as a hobby where my primary concern is sharing joy with others.
I'm still going to take commissions, I'm still going to stream, I'm still going to sell my work, I'm still going to be prompt and communicative with clients, I'm just going to not stream if I feel poor and tell myself to not feel guilty about it. If I need to not draw for whatever reason, to just not draw, because I don't need to make content for the sake of growth and goals and whatever. Basically I'm going to try my best this year to focus on my health and what I need to do to get better. It's taken me three years since I've become seriously ill to decide it's okay to focus on me and not have overwhelming guilt and shame for it, so I'm going to take that energy and use it as best I can in 2024.
I'm not sure what that means for the future of my Patreon. I'll never choose to stop drawing, so I can't image not keeping up with the 2 to 4 content posts a month as planned. If anything I hope focusing on my health will encourage me to draw more, bring back more polls and feedback posts for you all. So I think things, for now, will largely remain unchanged, and let's just hope in the future I can do more.
What are your creative goals for 2024? Something specific or more general? Let's make some joy together this year!
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Spreads & Feedback
At the moment the layout and indesign doc for my publication feels all over the place. Because I'm still waiting to talk to my parents (which I'll be able to do this weekend), I feel like I can't make to much solid progress. I've been focusing a lot of testing layouts, exploring inserts digitally and trying to nail down a visual style. This is been quite hard because I feel like a lot of my direction will be informed from what my parents say and the points that they bring up. After this weekend I will hopefully have a much better understanding of the content and narrative and can match my storytelling and visuals to that.
An example of a fold out test, the text will open up to show the image. I want the hands grabbing at me to feel overwhelming and somewhat scary to portray my feelings.
I have an understanding what I want to push for in terms of visual direction, but I know I wont necessarily be able to complete this all for formative. I want to try a lot of analogue collage, which I started exploring digitally, but I don't think I'll have time to do this for formative. This is definitely something I want to use a lot throughout the later chapters to keep a scrapbook feel and also be able to communicate the feelings I had.
This spread talks to my experience of wanting to try and 'run' from my disability and ignore that it was there, by going through and scribbling out my arm or self in each photo. The black paint is brought in to show how some memories become almost tainted because of the realisation that I was 'weird' to everyone else.
I've been testing a lot of fold outs a lot digitally as well and trying to see exactly what these look like so I have lots of iterations that are just the same spread in it's different stages of folding out. This has been helpful but I know i'm going to have to do a lot of work to figure out the signatures and get these ready for print.
I've also been experimenting with characters and bringing drawings of myself in to show how I feel now or how I felt at the time. This element again will be bought in later through the book when the perspective shifts from my parent's to mine. I need to figure out a way to make this transition smoothly so it doesn't feel inconsistent to just have this character appear.
character illustrations
Talking to Phoebe about this was really helpful and she offered advice on including sections on connection. I had been thinking that I wanted to add space for people to write their own experiences and stories and then pass the book onto other family and friends. Phoebe suggested that in the future I should consider creating a social media campaign or platform in which parents and people with upper limb differences can share their experiences, offer comfort and connect with others. It would give a good space for people to talk to each other, relate and feel like they aren't so alone.
She also talked about making some of the visuals more subtle and thinking of other ways to show the emotions and feelings rather than literally drawing them.
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