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harrysfolklore · 2 days

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mother's day - single dad!harry

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Harry stood at the kitchen finishing up breakfast, the sound of his daughter playing around in the living room filling his ears.

It was Mother's Day, a bittersweet day for him. His daughter, Violet, was the light of his life, but he couldn't help but feel hurt knowing that her mother was not around to share this special day.

Violet was a smart, sassy, funny and kind four year old girl, and everyone who met her would automatically fall in love with her and agree that she inherited her dad's charm.

That was what happened when YN met her.

YN had taken a job at Pleasing a year ago as the head of Marketing and Media, and she was over the moon about it.

She would never in a million years imagine that taking that job would lead her to meet Harry and completely fall in love with him, and the little carbon copy of him, of course.

YN had always been fond of children, but there was something special about Violet. She was a mini version of Harry, her intelligence never failed to impress her, and she found herself looking forward to spending time with her and Harry outside of work.

Over the past year, YN and Harry had grown closer, their friendship blossoming into something more and sharing so many touches and kisses that it was hard to keep count, YN never imagined herself in a relationship that involved a kid, but she couldn't be happier to be Harry's girlfriend and part of Violet's life.

"Daddy, Daddy, Happy Mother's Day!" Violet she exclaimed, holding out a handmade card adorned with glitter and stickers.

"Thank you, sweetheart. This is beautiful." Harry smiled, his heart swelling with love for his daughter.

Ever since Violet learned about the concept of Mother's day, she would make card for Harry and her Nana Anne every year, the entire family making sure the little girl never felt the absence of her mother on this day.

"When is YN coming? I want to give her her card too!" Violet said, holding out a card similar to the one she just gave him, but with a small drawing of what Harry guessed what her and YN holding hands.

"You made YN a Mother's day card?" Harry asked surprised, not expecting the gesture from his daughter.

"Yes, Daddy! YN is like my other mummy now, she makes me breakfast when she sleeps here and plays with me and does my hair, my friend Lana says her mummy does that with her, so YN is like my mummy!" the little girl explained excitedly, making Harry's heart melt, "So I made her a card too!"

Harry felt like he could cry, his daughter adored the girl he was in love with and that felt like if he head won the lottery.

"That's very sweet of you, darling," Harry said, pulling her into a hug. "YN will love it."

Just then, the doorbell rang, and Violet ran to answer it. YN stood at the door, a sweet smile on her face, and before she could greet them, Violet showed her the card with excitement.

"Happy Mother's Day, mummy YN!" Violet exclaimed, throwing her arms around her.

YN was completely shocked, kneeling down to Violet's level and hugging her back, looking at Harry with wide eyes, he just smiled fondly and raised his eyebrows teasingly.

"Thank you, Violet," YN replied, her eyes shining with tears, "You're the best daughter any mummy could ask for."

"Daddy made breakfast and I helped him!"

As they sat down to breakfast, Violet chattered excitedly about the gifts she had made for Nana Anne and how she had helped Harry prepare a special breakfast. Harry watched them, his heart felling full of love for the two most important girls in his life.

After breakfast, they went for a walk in the park, enjoying the weather and listening to Violet ramble about random things. As they sat on a bench watching Violet play, Harry took YN's hand in his and squeezed it gently.

"So, you're mummy YN now," Harry said, smirking at her.

"Harry! You could've gave me a heads up about that," YN spoke quickly, making Harry laugh, "I was so surprised, I almost peed myself."

"I'm sorry, love. It was a surprise for me too," he kissed the side of her head gently, "But if you don't feel comfortable I can speak to her about it."

"Are you kidding?" YN cut him off, "That was the sweetest thing someone has ever said to me, I can't believe she trusts me enough to call me her mommy."

"That's the sweetest thing, isn't it?" Harry said, smiling at YN. "Violet adores you, and I'm so grateful to have you both in my life."

"I'm the lucky one," YN replied, squeezing his hand. "I never imagined I'd find a love like this, a family like ours."

As they sat together, watching Violet play and enjoying each other's company, Harry knew that he had found his happiness. He had found love again, and this time, it was even more special because it included Violet.

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morbidmorbid · 22 hours

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daryl would 1000% come really fast. like i’m talking 3 seconds in and we’re done fast. (bottom daryl, hi, this is about you.)

i just feel that he’s so inexperienced when it comes to sex, never really being into it, or rather lacking that experience that usually creeps into the lives of young adults. he’s not seducing, doesn’t understand what it means to have another crawl beneath his skin in a sensual way, beneath his pants and in the sensations near his abdomen. that spark was never ignited, and with the world crumbling in on itself, that flame didn’t burn anywhere near him.

therefore when it does happen, when he’s open and pliant and completely there—mind not entirely shut down, but trying to blot it out for just a moment and not only for himself, but for you as well—he’s all the naivety you’ve ever seen. he’s the kiss that lands messily on your chin, chaste and predictable. he’s the calloused hands tingling along the skin of your arms, rough against the muscle before gently colliding behind your nape. he’s the willingness that’s in his eyes and his slack posture when you bring a single hand down into his pants.

with him beneath you while you tug at him and collect what he gives in return with a wet thumb, this is where you learn that he’s likely never had this. you wonder even if he’s done himself any lewd favors before—not with the way he draws in a tight breath and his chest whiffs up. not with the way he’s grunting out mere seconds after with sealed lips, averting his gaze as he releases in your fist.

i will forever put daryl, sex, and embarrassment in the same category. atleast in the beginning when he’s still getting into the swing of things and discovering all of the do’s that he’s into.

it takes a few more instances before he’s holding out well enough for you. the second time is when he’s on top, which means little with the way he doesn’t verbally ask but eyes you down for permission to continue on. your reassurance and permission comes in feet digging into his backside in an encouraging manner, which isn’t enough because he’s mumbling, “need to hear ya say it.” because daryl is always fair.

and the moment he’s inside, head dropped into the crook of your neck, it’s over. daryl can do many things, but this he can not. he can’t hold it together for the life of him. and maybe it’s the inexperience, or maybe it’s you, or maybe it’s both. it became a reason to tease him at times and daryl is all shut it and i ain’t built for that.

although he’s since been holding out much longer, making sure you’re taken care of before himself, he still has his weaker moments. when he’s completely pent up or exhausted or upset, it doesn’t take a whole lot to get him there. he’s letting you lay him out on his back and take him from above. there’s satisfaction that comes with watching him try not to break while you impale yourself on him, and that satisfaction morphs into some sort of pride when he’s lasting a minute or two at most. and he cares so much about it afterwards, but it means something to know just how much you get to him.

he’s a loser when it comes to sex ur honor and there’s nothing i can do abt it. gn i hope i heal.

#daryl dixon #the walking dead #daryl x you #daryl dixon smut #daryl dixon imagines #twd drabbles #daryl x reader #daryl fanfiction #the walking dead daryl #daryl x y/n

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robo-milky · 3 days

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“Hey, Carrots!

No need to look so offended, I’m not here to cause any trouble, you know~. No favors to ask of either. It’s your special day, isn’t it? It is! So I came by to give you a present.

…Yeah, okay, it’s not really much, but it’s a gift nonetheless. Coupon for a special pop for the birthday girl~. You have a favorite flavor or something? I’ll try making it into a pop for you. A dozen for free! I’m real kind, I know.

Oh, and before I forgot. You know Ashi, don’t you? Poor girl couldn’t make it today, so she asked me to hand you a gift bag in her stead. Proves my trustworthiness, doesn’t it? Heh.

No need to worry, I didn’t peek at it… Hold some higher standards for me, would you?”

Niko hands over the bag. It’s a cute, pink, petite bag with cat decorations on it. It holds some resemblance to the feline holding it herself.

Grabbing what’s inside, there’s a little drawing with a note attached. It’s written with words and symbols that seem impossible to verbalize, but somehow it’s easy to imagine a certain brunette bringing life to them…

Clochey! HBD fam!~ Super bummed I couldn’t make it, but I hope this prezzie has enough of my energy baked into it that it feels like I’m there! LMK ASAP ☆

I wanted to send you a cute lil’ message ‘cuz I’m real thankful for us being friends, YK? Even tho we aren’t super buddy buddy, I still totally enjoy your company. Eppy tells me enough about you that it basically feels like I’m hanging with you myself!

Anyway~ I wanted to gift smth more personalized for you, so I drew up a little drawing! It’s kinda like a postcard, but I tried putting one of your fave things on it ♡ I hope you enjoy!~

We should SO get talkin’ again soonsies! Wishin you a happy birthday and many more with a certain huntsman <3

Sincerely, Ashi ♪

Cloche hears a chuckle after she’s done reading the note.

“Wow, Carrots, your face is a little red… Wonder what Ashi stirred up for you to get you, the cold clawed kitty to get lookin’ like that. Well, privacy is privacy. Guess that’s my cue to leave.

Here’s hoping you catch a break from all the trouble around campus, hm? Enjoy your day~.”

HAPPY BDAY CHRIS!!!!!!! I HOPE YOUR DAY AND WEEK AND TBH MONTH IS SO BANGER. ITS SO DESERVED!!!!!!! 🫶 it’s been SO nice being your moot for like?? WHAT??? TWO YEARS OR SMTH??? TIME IS SO CRAZY. it’s been such a treat being able to interact n talk w you since the beginning!!! I GET SUPER HAPPY WHENEVER I SEE YOU IN MY NOTIFS <333 HBD again and I hope life treats you well!!!!! 🙏 blessing your pulls and turning them into pomepulls……….. tehepero

[Cloche’ Birthday Bash] *them referring to our dear freshmen

Okay first of all… ASHIIIIIII YOU’RE GONNA KILL ME I SWEAR !!! THE FACT THAT YOU SENT THIS SO EARLY??!?! THE INTERACTION IS EVERYTHING! I JUST LOVE HOW THIS PLAYS OUT SO NATURALLY- Fr, Niko just waltzing into Ramshackle then dipping- aND THE GORGEOUS GORGEOUS ROOKLOCHE ART- LITERALLY SCREAMING OVER THE POSE AND DETAILS- YOU SERIOUSLY OUT DID YOURSELF FOR THIS ONE! Rook carrying her and Cloche grabbing on to him to get closer- SAVANACLAW ROOK MY BELOVED- Muscle man frrrr- Ashi really caught on to the cat maid’s staring during Chapter 7 huh. AND THE DOODLES ON RHE SIDES ARE TOO CUTE- 😩

Epel yapping on about Cloche and totally not suspiciously asking Ashi about her roommate- Ashi internally sweating bullets when Epel doesn’t realize that everything he describes is the cat maid making up excuses to avoid him-

Also take this… Cloche walking up to Niko days later and asking for a bone marrow pop, and it takes Niko a few seconds to realize it was a joke 😭😭 Slow burn friendship trust-

Really, it’s so wild that it’s been 2 years- So glad to have you here and to celebrate with you again !! I think you really blessed my pome pulls with this one- seriously- man came on the 30th pull twice- Ilyyyyy If makes me super happy to see you in my notifs as well and may we continue to interact in the future!

#crying sobbing thank you #cloche’ birthday bash 🎊#oc: cloche🎊#mutuals 🎊#rookloche #cat scratches 🌸#niko cimarron #ashi tamadai #twisted wonderland #twst #twst oc #twst ocs #others ocs #twst yuu #twst yuusona #oc interactions #mutuals art

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ellenent · 1 year

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Geela aka the best healer from triangle strategy <3

#triangle strategy #geela #tristrat #gaming #fanart #square enix #digital art #my art #drawing #illustration #artists on tumblr #I want to make one more before finishing this little series of fanarts but It's been a while that I played and zelda is almost here so lol #I have many things to draw and little time ;3;

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n3ongold3n · 5 months

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Ever since i saw the thongTM i could not stop thinking about this 🐳

#käärijä #häärijä #khäärijä calendar #diary bit coming up in the tags bear with me since this is #also my diary kind of; this blog #this thing has fought me every step of the way - and it shows i know #but i needed at least /some/ tiny little crumb of standing up for myself against my own defeatist thoughts #not just drawing. just. in general there are so many tiny and medium obstacles to accomplishing tasks that i just feel #like such an idiot for not just getting rid of the obstacles and moving on #at the same time i know how very unfair this kind of thinking is towards me since i #literally have the neurodivergence of cannot set priorities for my life or coordinate several things unless under strong duress #and then i feel sad for not even living my life unapologetically #((and disappointing jere :') - you have not read this that would be way WAY too embarrassing for me)#and yes i know you shouldn't trust yourself after - what was it? - 19:00? Well. If I didn't have to struggle until 3 pm to get through #the wall of anxious paralysis we wouldn't have that problem but here we are #anyway. off to bed. for what it's worth #got to figure out how to electronically validate my ID :''') and/or call the job center - fun!#my own stuff

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turtletoria · 2 years

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a mask of my own face

#turtlearts #dr two brains #scopophobia #body horror #sharp objects #let me know if theres anything else that needs tagged!#anyways. thats supposed to be a mirror btw #also i tried so hard to fit a lot of symbolism and random shit into it. i am so willing to pick this drawing apart so if youd like that send #an ask or smth!!!!#for real i sank so many hours into this... it was supposed to be a simple colored sketch lmao #i just kept adding onto it for weeks and weeks. and all for what #looked up so many references and had to learn how to do things and tried out new brushes for this omg #like i need to emphasize that this was so hard to do and for what!!!! a silly little halloween spooky month drawing??!?!?!?!?!#even now when i look at it i hate it so much i want to keep adding things to it #i have to post it NOW or else i will be working on it for the rest of my life #pls give me nice words so i dont regret all the time i sank into this drawing </3 #if u think im fishing for complements and looking all the more pathetic and desperate for it. ur right </3 im sorry

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puppyeared · 5 months

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save me old flipnote studio MVs.......

#im going thru old flipnotes i used to watch years ago and ouggghhg so many good ones #is twenty one pilots still popular.... do people still remember the TRNDSTTER and marble soda meme.........#its like im unlocking some sort of primal part of my brain and everything is coming back to me. one of my biggest inspirations as a kid #i still remember thinking the final transmission lyrics were the coolest thing and watching =TopHat= Bee and Melissa over and over #theres a very specific feeling of longing and nostalgia looking back and watching these again years later #especially when there isnt anything genshin or mcyt and instead its either fnaf undertale eddsworld or another obscure #interest... and not even fnaf sister location its like fnaf 3 and 2. its THAT old. and a lot of oc MVs especially pokemon ocs and furries..#god but they were so creative u know. i still find it amazing ppl took this little lightbox animation on the fucking NINTENDO DS and #cranked it all the way to 11.. like if u look at the transitions and movement its so fucking fluid its insane..!! HOW DO YOU MAKE THE #CHARACTERS SPIN??? AND CHANGING CAMERA ANGLES??? and keep in mind youre doing this all with a shitty stylus #on a THREE BY TWO INCH SCREEN. you only get two layers you can go up to 29FPS and you only have 999 slides to work with #and 24FPS eats up a lot of that. absolutely insane it literally boggles my mind every time i think about it. AND SOME ARE EVEN FULL COLOR #i forgot how popular EDM was back then too...they were really good for timing beats though so you get a lot of MVs with #strobe last and marble soda. porter robinsons goodbye to a world was also popular with undertale and oc MVs. also a lot of vocaloid #someone made a flipnote abt the warner bros fnaf movie being announced EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO. it even used the stay calm audio from #the office.... i wonder how theyre doing now... i love you shitty grainy MV audio.. but i have mixed feelings abt the flashing colors #ppl LOVED animating the sans vs frisk fight. aishite and primadonna were also big ones they were SICK AS FUCK #lots of these inspired my old oc designs.. a lot of my characters had side bangs with one eye covered. animal ears and simple eyes too #now i kinda wanna try my hand at the marble soda meme cause i loved it as a kid lol.. i wonder if i should compare my old and new art here #UGHHHH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NOSTALGIA. IM SO NORMAL ABT MY SCHOOL BOOK DRAWINGS WITH SHIBA BROWS #yapping #nostalgia

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sysig · 4 months

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What your fave says about you: Sona/Undertale edition (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #So many sonas and characters lol #Ended up filling the other side of the zine with something self-indulgent :)#Actually came from the same kernal as a digital-specific idea but these are what I've ended up with in the moment!#Zine doodles end up...silly lol #I draw with pen logic! And mm... I won't say I'm Displeased with them but there are things I'd change for sure #Overall the vibe is there just not completely the execution lol #I'll get it better when I do the digital version >:3c It'll be like how I see it in my head and then I'll have both! Nice #For the moment tho doing an eight-highlight reel of the who's who was fun :)#Obviously starting with myself and my fave <3 This terrible little flower whom I love with my whole heart #I really do love him - I'd go and rewatch my fave scenes with him but the in-built guilt haha #The next was easy! My fave sona gets my second fave character! Papyrus only loses to Flowey by a hair's breadth anyway lol #Anyone in the thread remember that time I compared Charm to Papyrus lol #They both want people to like them so badly! They go about it very differently tho lol #Papyrus would be a good influence on her :) Just be nice to people! Ironically she'd probably agree more with Sans lol #Speaking of! Eli would be the type of person who goes digging around in the backend and Totally claims to like Gaster the most #Y'know because secret values and stuff! Super sneaky like! But actually their fave is Snas lol #You are Basic Eli just accept this lol #Ficus was an easy pick for Napstablook - they would absolutely lay on the floor and think about being garbage with them #That deadened gaze lol #Ulex looks so uninterested in Alphys lol they're just bad at talking - dissimilar from Alphys in that they've got the stoic thing going on #They're not awkward just not good at making friends lol #Hall of Mirrors would absolutely love Undyne lol - being friends with her and cooking together would make HoM So Happy haha #Another obvious one - Othersona already comes with spider imagery! Muffet was the clear choice haha #They are having a cup of spiders and they are enjoying it :/ Lol #And finally Holosona and original calculator-body Mettaton haha - she prefers this version over EX and NEO #She'd probably like NEO - she absolutely plays the Genocide run on purpose - except for how OHKO he is lol #A different sona likes NEO tho...#Anyhow ♪ Might talk more about their different play styles in the digital version :D When I get there anyway lol

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nishibai · 5 months

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!! no reposts/dont use for anything w/o permission !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2 THOSE WHO CELEBRATE AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO THOSE WHO DONT!! im posting this a day earlier since some of u guys are in a timezone a day ahead of me!!

here is all my presents i drew! i hope u guys like them!! aaand btw the oc i drew with u guys is my sona, sunny/nishi :3!!

in order: @yourstrulymoonanon, @biological-catastrophe, @jackpotsadgirlmafuyu (i drew lynette btw..), @lenoraven, @bednbunfast @nishibai so i can rb my own post,,

one last thing, im disabling reblogs for anyone who isnt the people tagged above. soz.

#nishi art :3 #i looove these vv much #this was hard to do cuz... so many fun christmas activities/things i could draw...#poor poor lynette. she dont wanna be here #wc is threatening sunny with a sharpened candy cane. oh lird.#< what did he do to deserve this ..#shin made zee put on that apron. btw. very silly #also someone forced onyx to wear that. i think. i hope ?#i wish i made smthng related to like. christmas lights. maybe someone getting tangled in them. oh well!#i started these on the 21st i was super stressed on being able to finish them. but alas. they were done in time #also the heights r really fucky cause i dont. actually have an official height for my sona. so it ws hard to use her as a reference #ignore how my art style looks. just a LITTLE different in each one. kinda silly #sorry. no more rambling. if u read this far then. oops thats embarrassing. but anyway happy holidays!!!

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serendipitous-mage · 2 months

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its the Good Kush she got it at the dollar store :3

#i did this! :D!#extremely unfortunately ffor my hands i realized earlier that ibis paint x has an animation canvas #rip me #sketti #doodles #animated doodles #gifs #i hate animation i hAte animation i want to do so many things its so cool 😭😭#i so very rarely have the energy/motivaation to do just *one* drawing let alone 5000 of them but Slightly To The Left #eugh #used a tutorial thing have had in my saved folder on insta for ages for the smoke #to be clear that is a ✨joint✨ not a cigarreette #my wrist hurts so much #full time hasnt been fun ive had to avoid playing games because the controllers hurt too much #trying to limit typing even and just mostly watch things when im off work #which gets boring ;w;#theres so many things i want to animate i cant even beGIN #from full on like..legitimate movie length shit from my books #to little gifs of really dumb memes #music videos etc #everything in between #i just get so frustrated at how long it takes #and am always so tiired:((((#but i!! made this:3 #in like an hour too i think #shes goin in my reactions folder #fursona

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vse-kar-vem · 1 month

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how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on #either way #im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred 💔#if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me #again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these 😭 fhskfbhsjfkg #i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever #but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do #and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying #like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative #but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me #oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you #but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't #like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it)#i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me 💔 which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable!#fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it #and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier #of my friendships #wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up #the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom)#i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a #'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order #not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i #may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me !#sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these 😭#vee rambles

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revvywevvy · 18 days

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crawls in here like a little bug. i need to scream abt random scv things dont mind me im gonna just shove my face into the tags and shriek into the void

#cell mumbles #//help i tried to do a legendary souls run in the emulator and got my ass absolutely handed to me immediately by kilik #//IVE FORGOR HOW TO DO EVERYTHING SOBBING PROFUSELY #//im so bad now LMAOOOO... at least before I was able to complete the entire thing (even if it took 90+ minutes)#//but now......................... agony and suffering #//kil(ik if i (playing pyrrha) look at u with my big ol puppy eyes will you let me 3(3)B you off the raft 3 rounds in a row pretty pleaseee #//for me? the little silly? pwetty pwetty pweeeease? im just a little guy! a silly little girlie! a little baby birdie!#//you wouldnt wanna hurt a little birdie would u kil(ik? /silly #//in better news I did an arcade speedrun on my xbox; got 2'19"330 and submitted it pending review #//could u guys imagine it? the ceo of pyrrha? having the pyrrha category arcade world record?#//i can see it now... THE babygirl connoisseur /very big silly #//thooooough the time is very much beatable bc I made many-a-mistake x_x|||#//i feel like matching the general wr time is possible if you had perfect opponent + ai rng #//like. get ae/on; yoshi; zw/ei; then sieg/fried as the randomized opponents; then have them cooperate and get hit by the 3(3)B first try.#//then speed thru beating the shit out of ti/ra and night/mare; maybe even get successful ro's on the latter #//and boom #//like. i dont think u can BEAT the current wr with pyrrha per se bc like. those runs were WILD. but i feel like u could get very close!!#//u just have to get veeeeery lucky #//OH YEAH ALSO I MADE A BUNCH OF CUSTOMS OF PYRRHA AND IMMA DRAW THEM AT SOME POINT #//i already drew 2 and will do more #//can u guys tell im normal :]

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robinsnest2111 · 19 days

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idly wondering with what experts would diagnose me if I was 100% truthful and could remember every single thing that happened to me and every single quirk I developed because of it <3

#like esp. at the start my mother would sit in on all my therapy sessions #and i didn't yet grasp what therapy was for at age 11 so i just talked about my day #and showed the nice lady my latest drawings orz #all that got me was a 'oh that kid is just shy and a little scared going to school just force him to go it'll be fine <3'#never said anything about the nefarious bullying or the things going on at home #because at that point i was so naive i thought it was NORMAL #and other therapists later on only ever focused on my weight and how sloppy i dressed. never addressing all my other issues so i gave up #never talked about all the other stuff for a while.#also that ONE situation i can barely remember but that fucked me up the most i think back in kindergarten... never told anyone about it #except a friend last year. wondering what therapists would say about that if i ever opened up about that to them #after a bit of thought it'd also explain my aversion to being touched/examined by doctors in that area. great.#ANYWAY just wondering <333 #also all the 'negative' feelings i immediately throw in the repression bin. like jealousy frustration anger annoyance entitlement etc #been told one too many times that these things are ugly and shouldn't be displayed. should stop acting like a spoiled brat #never learned how to handle any of that <333 #recently have taken to being overly analytical about it all. trying to find what triggers these emotions and then rationalising them away <3 #they do still fester deep in my soul tho <333 #good thing i'm so good at repression that i forget about it all eventually until something makes me remember and then i suffer #but then i repress again and i can live in blissful ignorance again <333333 #wish i could be a dumb silly billy more often and not think about things too much like i usually do haha #maybe that's why i'm so drawn to and fadcinated by the bimbocore subculture/movement...... 🤔#anyway anyway just thinking haha

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steakout-05 · 1 month

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ok as an artist i personally find traditional painting to be. really really annoying. like. i do not have the patience for it and i just find it to be really frustrating to set up and actually do and i end up not liking the results. i find that there's little room for mistakes and trying to fix them usually ends up with me making 50 other ones, paints can be so inconsistent and having to rely on availability and certain brands to continue making the paint is really inconvenient, not to mention expensive. spending a bunch of time trying to mix the right shade of paint, only for it to go down a completely different shade of colour and not being able to do anything about it is so frustrating as someone who likes consistency and having things just, y'know, not change colour as soon as it dries. plus, they all use different chemicals and can go off really easily or change textures and i am just not ok with having all my materials having an expiration date like food. lead and graphite pencils just don't do that and they can last for years, they're more reliable. every paint is drastically different and trying to find the right one is not only time consuming but, again, expensive, and i don't even see the point in experimenting when most of my materials end up not even getting used if i don't like using them. plus, i'm just.... really impatient. waiting for paint to dry sucks and is why i much prefer digital or just drawing something because i don't need to wait for anything, it just works. and then when i do want to take my time and work slowly for a better result, it dries too fast. it's kinda hellish trying to balance that time, especially considering how inconsistent paints are.

i like to use guidelines when doing art and i find painting straight onto a canvas to be really tricky because there's a lack of direction for me to actually paint. i'm at a complete loss at what to do when i pick up a brush because i can't map it out first without risking screwing up the paint. there's just so many things to keep track of and so much wet paint to avoid and i just do not have the mind for it. putting colours on a canvas and praying that it works just isn't it for me and requires a discipline that i just don't wanna involve myself with. painting is also just like... really exhausting and kinda painful. i got some pretty bad back issues and my arms tire and get sore easily and quickly when i'm standing in front of a canvas. it's a really physical activity for me and i just don't find something to be very fun to do at all when it's physically hurting me. i know drawing on a canvas has this issue too, which is why i prefer sketchbooks. sitting down and drawing something that doesn't break my entire spine every time i do it is much more preferrable than questioning if i should go to the doctor every time i make a brushstroke, lol

that's not to say that there's nothing i like about painting though! i can paint simple little things, and i like doing that. i like mixing colours with a palette knife and i find it fun and even a little relaxing. i painted some cute little chibi cardboard cutouts of the mario brothers one time and i found that to be really fun and i think i'd like to do that again! but apart from that, i just do not have the patience for it. i love the look of traditional paintings and i find many to be really beautiful, but i could never get into actually doing it myself because i hate the process. i'm content with just sketching and doing digital stuff because that's more fun to me and less stressful of a process to do. it's fun, it allows for more mistakes, it's easier to build up layers of shading and lines, not to mention using building up a figure with guidelines is super helpful with visualising what i want it to look like, and i can just erase something if i don't want it there or want to change something. it just makes sense to me.

tl;dr i dont like painting because it's inconsistent, expensive, time-consuming, directionless, frustrating and it makes my back hurt really bad. i'll just stick to drawing stuff :)

#vent #artist vent #i hate painting #i hate it so much and i just cannot understand it nor do i have the patience for it #i seriously had a crack at it and i just find it to be so annoying #there's so much preparation and i'd much prefer just whipping out a pencil and eraser and scribbling something down #to be fair though i do enjoy other art mediums that require more preparation #i find crafts to be fun and i really like working with air dry clay #using clay is just creating a little creature and i really quite like it a lot #making little cardboard guys is fun if not a bit tricky sometimes because my hands are so big compared to the tiny bits of carboard im usin #but it's very fun and cardboard is easy to get #clay is not so easy to get but you can get a lot of it and make many things with it #the only things i really dont like about clay is fingerprints and the fear of having your art literally explode when you fire it up #but other than that? fun!#painting? not fun!#paint is so messy and i don't like having goopy stuff getting stuck on me and all over my fingers all the time funnily enough #if i bump into something (which is very likely for me because i am clumsy) then oouuguh there goes all the paint its everywhere now #oh my god you know what i hate the most. i hate oil paints. i hate them so much.#the smell gives me bad headaches and makes me feel faint and it's hard to clean and dispose of and it's just more chemicals to deal with #it's just acrylic but more annoying #i don't think it's edible either which is. frustrating #it's also harder to clean out if you get stained with it (which is very likely because paint is messy)#i just dislike oil materials in general. they smell weird and they do not wash off. i still have oil pastel stains on one of my favourite-#-shirts despite the fact that it has been washed multiple times. and it took several days and so much fucking scrubbing to get-#-it out of my nails and off my hands completely. actual hellscape.#i know graphite and lead pencils would never betray me like this #pencils are so reliable and i love them <3 #pencils and drawing equipment in general are just more reliable and don't expire or develop inconsistent textures (except erasers for some-#-reason) and they don't! hurt! my! back!#like i'm over here needing to do the riker maneuver to sit down after i paint my back hurts so bad

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vypridae · 6 months

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i cant tell which art style i want to take inspiration from anymore

#WHY ARE THERE SO MANY GOOD BSD ARTISTS BRO IM WAILING #xanchats #no like u dont understand. it is literally impossible for me to choose #like i see art i go 'i want to draw those !! eyes' and then i see more art and i go 'OH MY GOD BUT THOSE !! EYES'#and then i see more and i go 'FUCK WHAT EYES DO I DRAW' and i have a crisis #and then i decide and then i regret what eyes i decide because either theyre hard to draw like that or they dont fit my style #and then i have to change my whole style to fit one thing #and then im like ooh i want This !! way of drawing hair #and the cycle just conTINUES #ABD IM LIKE BRO CAN I DECIDE PLEASE #i love art so much and this is why theres so many options #i think my problem is. i draw too much like one person / artist half the time #like i dont put together parts from other artists i just snatch up another artists' style and go 'mine :3'#but ineed to combine stuff to make MY art style #but thATS FUCKIN HARD WHEN NOTHING LOOKS RIGHTIRHFKVJHDSKDFG #i might spend most of tonight putting together a new art style. or ill draw siglai #we'll see yall #sorry. little mini art rant in the tags here ASJKHFGJKDFHGAK im just Going Insane cuz i look up to like five different artists rn and #i cant decide who i want to take inspiration for what from JASHAKJDFHA

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chiropteracupola · 1 year

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lady king and lady herald...

#em draws stuff #henry v 1989 #this is colored to look like all my reference photos for this movie #(e.g. A Really Out-of-Focus Photo I Took Of My Laptop Screen And You Can See My Lamp In The Background)#and it is a credit to the quality of the design of this movie that it still looks fabulous even like that #so yeah. the beast (me) is not immune to the idea of Cool Outfits and it's surprisingly easy to adapt clothing across genders in this era #miiiiiiiight do some more drawings on this concept because it was fun and there are a few things I'd do differently next time #keeping their hairstyles the same because it preserves the recognizability even though there are so many cool hats #but I truly do not want to draw all those leopards again it was Unpleasant to me. three is Enough Dang Leopards.#the rule I'm playing with here is With The Accuracy Standards of my Source Material which means If It Looks Mildly Cool #the only kind of times that I aim to have are funky times and good times and drawing this was both of those things.#this drawing is brought to you by 1) hal's face hole's cameo in the sword episode of wtyp #2) rereading my fic to see if it was any good and if I majorly overreacted (results: it was okay and I definitely did)#3) the little voice in my head that says 'butch hal butch hal butch hal' all day. hold your horses little voice. soon.

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