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notes after rewatching fallout s1 ep7

• the beginning of this episode shows two characters dressed in gear that's very ncr [new california republic] and to me, it's a very fallout: new vegas scene and fallout: new vegas thing • a father and son of lead farmers. depicted as honest, humble folk. oh cooper's here sitting at their table in their house eating their dinner 💀 • the man, adam, calls for his daughter, sandra. cooper continues to eat the delicious, nutritious meal. adam has a horrified expression on his face • sandra, a young girl, walks over and gives cooper something to drink. she... appears unafraid of cooper. she appears to treat him as one would a guest. cooper says "thank you, darling"--- i almost forgot about this but this was the nicest thing he has said post war to anybody in this show

• lmao the wasteland thinks so little of ghouls, this guy thought this man had cooked and eaten his daughter 😭 • "oh, wait... you thought...? come on now." cooper responds as he laughs at the thought, the wasteland and ghoul perception is that bad omg help • adam tells sandra to go outside. tbh i am starting to believe the theory cooper is much more nicer to women and girls than he is males but i digress anyways • cooper seemed to genuinely laugh and say a nice thing for once to someone here, the lucy juice must be working • "lead farming, huh? why, hell, i probably still got some of your lead in me somewhere." i cannot understand what cooper is talking about here. i was trying to figure if they knew each other like that but i wasn't connecting enough and feel like i am missing information again. • cooper and adam may seem to know one another but cooper came to ask adam about moldaver • "i'll tell you anything, as long as you leave us in peace." sigh

• adam looks like he has a scar on his face, wonder where he got it from • cooper inquires about how many kids adam has. adam reveals the oldest ran off to be apart of moldaver's movement and calls moldaver "that madwoman in the hills" • cooper asks adam if his oldest is named roofus. adam mentions he never said his oldest's name and cooper deduces the young male beside adam is tommy • tommy looks afraid and looks like he gulps as adam asks him "what did you do?" • cooper saying "well, you see, daddyo…" has got to be like the fifth time he says "daddy" in this show 😭💀, like what is his obsession with referring to people's fathers this way [time to hurt? probably because he's been searching two hundred years for the person who use to call him that so that word is always on his mind anyway 😞]

• cooper unfolds the letter and is it revealed to have a blood stained hole in it, adam's older son roofus got adam's youngest son tommy mixed in with moldaver's dealings, roofus was the one who sent tommy caps to pay a courier to transport siggi safely to moldaver • "but my problem is, by the time i got this letter off your brother, it was a little bit hard to read." cooper says holding up the bloody letter hole as he uses an eye to peer through it--- cooper you scary mf 😭 • "now, you give me the location, and i'll be on my way." cooper states. tommy tells his father sorry. tommy is so young. adam begins to plead with tommy to tell cooper the location. tommy replies "i didn't want to spend my life digging through dirt. i want to build something and we have the chance…" before tommy can say anymore, adam implores tommy "tell him what he wants to know! he's gonna kill us all! including your sister." [don't think i believe that last part but] • my question is… i wonder why the letter wasn't written in code… • "she's at the observatory" tommy says in the calmest sounding voice. moldaver's location is revealed just like that • how did cooper that tommy would want to come after him? has he seen this movie before? • i suppose revenge is an obvious motivator for tommy getting revenge on cooper killing roofus but it not also being something adam or even sandra would pursue is interesting as well [they're not mixed in with moldaver and she's a young child he has to care for] • adam saying he won't ☹️ • before tommy can grab the rifle, cooper shoots ihm. cooper slowly gets up, reholsters his gun, gathers his things, puts on his hat, and departs without another word • weirdly not convinced tommy is dead, it looks like a shot to the shoulder. he just doesn't seem like it but i digress • adam is left crying with his son's choices, being left only with sandra

• cooper continues his journey in the desert, his expression is a little enigmatic to me but. he inhales a chem under the baking sun • found it so curious cooper had the thought to take his hat off when entering someone's house? this was the first time. it got knocked off at sorrel's outpost and stayed on for all other indoor scenes. parallel this with him pre war going to moldaver's meeting at hollywood forever cemetery with a hot on and taking it off by the time the meeting starts [such a gentleman! 💀] • as cooper treks across the wasteland, moldaver speaking in the meeting in pre war is overlaid. almost as if he was remembering it • "what's it about california that we all came to this place?" i don't know but that place fucking rocks • cooper goes into moldaver's meeting with preconceived notions to begin with, he's already squirming in his seat when she begins her speech • "when you think of the promise of the american dream, you think of california. but it is just that a dream. it's not real. we were told the atom bomb meant the end of war. that didn't work out, did it? we were told america's always getting better. it's always moving toward a better future. but the future is getting closer, ans we can see it. their "better future" is a cliff's edge. and it's coming up fast, isn't it?" moldaver talked for a few minutes and told not a single lie. not a single one. • moldaver's quote in particular "their "better future" is a cliff's edge" is one of the most realest meta statements in the show, it's too good--- • "these soldiers that we're fighting abroad, their families, we have more in common with them than we do with the people here in power, the real enemy" is the final straw for cooper. he decides it's time for him to leave. but not before quipping "that's about all the horseshit i can take." • moldaver pauses her insightful and real ass speech to ask cooper what he said. so he repeats himself. moldaver hits him with a "i didn't realize america's favourite gunslinger was so sensitive". this draws a laugh or two from the attendants. it's poking fun at that manufactured hollywood persona of him being this manly man i guess. what i do take notice is that yes, cooper is sensitive. we know that. he is both sensitive about his principles and sensitive about the principles of others and the critique of such [i.e. the next conversation after this meeting ending up being about him figuring about him spying on his wife because moldaver asks him to interrogate his morality and barb's] • cooper then says "i have my principles, miss williams, that's all." isn't it crazy that cooper use to be someone that even when he disagreed with someone fundamentally, he was still respectful and decent? he had a whole argument with barb and she raised her voice more. compare when cooper got mad at lucy when his vials got crushed in the bait scene. he yelled then pulled his gun on her. lucy literally had to explain how absurd he was being in doing that because her not wanting to be bait and her using his bag to defend herself was not unreasonable. the gap is almost astonishing. that's the same guy. use to be. • [moldaver use to go by the last name williams, i see]

• cooper keeps responding but attempting to leave while he does but again moldaver pokes and prods. "uh huh. and those principles of yours, how much did vault tec pay to take them off your hands?" oh he's getting flamed now • lmao they show the meeting attendants playing tennis watching cooper and moldaver go back and forth • "well, this is america. everyone has a sponsor and, uh, i'm not ashamed to earn a living." "vault tec is the largest company in america. there's a lot of money in selling the end of the world." "well, i'm sure there's a lot of money in selling a political ideology that ends in breadlines." "fascist" is this not my college sociology class, good god--- • subtitles coming in clutch again! because the camera pans so i can't see why says it but i full well assume it was moldaver who called cooper a fascist, didn't even hear it the first watch • no wonder charlie intervened. it got a little heated forreal. didn't even know they made a near direct wwii? reference like that idk • charlie is so embarrassed, he says "this was a mistake. we'll be leaving" 😢

• if not for the "fascist" statement, i would've thought this was another tuesday afternoon for moldaver. but she thanks charlie for bringing cooper. then drops the plot twist that she knows barb like that • i do not! know! why they made cooper smile in this scene, but thank you director • cooper and moldaver take a walk and we discover that barb's division at vault tec acquired moldaver's research company. and before all this, they were developing technology that was hard to monetize. the cold fusion. the infinite energy. the reason for the entirety of season one after the bombs drop. still. • "that's what i was on the verge of achieving when vault tec swept in and bought up every company i'd ever worked for" [spooky af, fellas!] "every one of them? so what are you, a millionaire communist?" cooper sarcastically replies with. • moldaver then says "hypocrisy is like violence in your movies. if you only let the bad guys use it, the bad guys win." cooper then goes on "yeah? i, uh i got a little showbiz secret for you. a good bad guy doesn't see themselves as the bad guy." this show is sick because this could go for cooper, barb, bud, hank, lucy, maximus, the brotherhood of steel, vault tec, china, i could keep going, help

• moldaver says something else i find unsettling "america has been locked in a resource war for over a decade. vault tec bought the means to end that war, the same war you fought in. so they could put it on the shelf. all because it didn't fit into their business model." the revelation is nutty • moldaver basically asks for cooper's help in getting the resource back [by spying on barb] • actually super crazy how easy it was to get cooper to spy on barb but at the same time... he's been questioning and doubting. we all already know she keeps stuff from him. plus the "no dogs allowed in the vaults" was the topping point • the way cooper looked at the listening device and his bewildered? smile slowly fades from his face once he realizes the implications • him responding with "good luck with the revolution" was funny gldldl • moldaver reveals the real reason people are being called communists "i'm not a communist, mr. howard. that's just a dirty word they use to describe people who aren't insane." • this whole scene still got me wanting answers for so much. i still want to know how moldaver made it to the wasteland and how is it that destiny placed cooper to help her get he resource back pre war but now in the post war wasteland, cooper is bounty hunting her. wouldn't be surprised if there's more moldaver flashbacks in future seasons

• lucy is unknowingly fucking up the rotation in vault 4. overseer benjamin [in a move that maybe should've happened to begin with 😭] shows lucy the rape of vault 4's experiment • "we let you into your home. tended to your wounds, gave you food and water." birdie informs lucy. second viewing makes me feel so bad for all that havoc they caused these already traumatized and victimized people like • "but you had to go to level 12" please somebody write them a review, a change how y'all handle this for newcomers 😭 • lucy thinks the residents of vault 4 are taking people and experimenting on them. but she is wrong. she got it all wrong • overseer benjamin and birdie had to kinda retraumatize themselves and be vulnerable for lucy to get it • as the tape plays, lucy asks "what is this?" "your history" birdie says--- oof • lucy getting another disillusionment dose this time as a video of vault tec's fucked up experiments

• lmao the tape is so fucked up but funny--- doctor lloyd and doctor cassandra hawthorne are clinically insane scientists with no moral compass and a villain complex. ironically they starred in the vault tec vault ads with cooper, their vault being the one where they run a sort of scientocratic technocracy in the wake of nuclear warfare. their experiment did not succeed. or... maybe it did but not because of them but because of vault 4's victims and shady sands survivors • doctor lloyd begins the tape with "ok. overseer hawthorne. final log entry. at this point, it would be irrational of me not to acknowledge that these may be my last words" he looks scared but also frantic, like something is coming after them [and it so is] "but despite our results here, i want to reiterate that a society governed by scientists..." he is interrupted by doctor cassandra trying to barricade the door. she calls him "honey" hehehe "really is the ideal social structure.." it is not. 💀

• doctor lloyd, what he's saying, is like farce. how is this, a society governed by scientists an ideal social structure? when they are being revolted by the very people they experimented on • "what happened here should not be used as a case study for what happens when scientists are given unregulated control." lmao we know it is though • some of doctor's lloyd's final statements being vault tec corporate managerial evil "and hybridizing humans with radioactive resistant species still has potential. our test subjects were less compliant than we expected" they could've used an ethics oversight committee but anyways 💀 overseen benjamin's great uncle peter ate doctor lloyd and doctor cassandra tf up • almost wonder if great uncle peter was the same gulper that swallowed siggi's head lol

• overseer benjamin is saddened by rewatching the footage as lucy expresses confusion between the tape and the scene she saw herself on level 12. "i don't understand, in the lab, i saw your doctors..." lucy trails before birdie finishes "trying to ease the pain of the poor souls your people lured into this place." now the operative word in this statement is "your". does birdie know what vault lucy is from and what it means and what they've done there? or as a shady sands survivor wastelander is she talking about people born in the vaults who got there because of vault tec? • birdies goes on "his ancestors were used as lab rats. by the original residents of vault 4. until the lab rats rebelled." • lucy feeling really stupid and bad apologizes immediately. lucy tells them her vault is simply not like this. overseer benjamin asks lucy what their vault experiment was. lucy states there is no experiment. again i say, vault 31, 32, 33 experiment is a success--- overseer benjamin and birdie exchange glances. every vault has an experiment.

• "your ignorance cannot excuse your cruelty. you have infected our home with violence." is such a banger coming from birdie, it's so therapized • birdie tells lucy she'll pay the price for all this, guards come and seize lucy, put a black bag over her head, and take her away. as lucy is hauled off from storage, she pleads with her captors "please, please, i'm a good person" look how slippery this slope has gotten • lucy wants to do the right thing. and yet. has found herself being the offender in this situation. • maximus is in the lap of post apocalyptic luxury as he sees lucy being lead down the hallway in front of his unit. he wordlessly vows to do something about it 🥲 [ok knight in shining armour] • the way maximus is eating the popcorn in this scene lgdgldlf

• meanwhile! a secondary character is in possession of siggi's head 😭 • dogmeat is pulling on the squire equipment thaddeus is dragging because siggi's head is in it 😞 • thaddeus has been hobbling across the wasteland with dogmeat and this squire pack, he stops to sit inside the trunk of a rusted car. the full extent of thaddeus' injuries are shown as he carefully exposes his mangled as shit foot • "oh shit. i'm gonna fucking die" thaddeus says realizing his foot looks so goddamn bad lmao 😭 • dogmeat being a dog starts licking thaddeus' eviscerated ass foot, to his disdain • thaddeus starts? berating? dogmeat? 😭 "you know what? if you were a person, you wouldn't have any friends, you realize that?" not a bully talking like thisss • thaddeus pulling out siggi's head "this stupid fucking thing. oh, you want this too, huh?" everybody wants this. guess what? it's mine." and not for long • "you think everything's for you. it's pretty selfish, actually, you know that? bite what you want to bite, go where you want to go. it's always something." why is thaddeus talking to this dog like this, like how lucy was talking to that mr. handy 😭

• i do not like that thaddeus stuffed dogmeat in the nuka cola dispenser leaving her to die--- this show had somebody eating another person's uncooked flesh but this move upset me because dogmeat ain't got opposable thumbs 😭 • sure thaddeus made sure dogmeat could breathe but he was annoyed with her, he so wasn't coming back 😭 like that's a baby • thaddeus' plan is to contact the brotherhood of steel about the head and gain glory from it • you know what's wild about thaddeus putting dogmeat in the nuka cola dispenser is that dogmeat could have easily attacked thaddeus and killed him before all this. so it's really so much she got stuffed in that thing, she was whimpering and everything, please--- • it's so curious that in this scene, it looks like it's both snowing and raining

• lmao so lucy thinks she's about to get executed for her crimes against vault 4 • also can you blame her? they're all chanting in a room with her restrained in the center across from a mf scimitar 😭 • while the audience is chanting eating popcorn, lucy is pulling at and gnawing at her rope restraints lgdgldfl • birdie begins during this time "we are all survivors here. lucky enough to have found this sanctum of peace. of tolerance. it doesn't matter where you come from or what you believe. you deserve safety. unless... you threaten that peace." looking back, birdie told not a single lie and again • overseen benjamin pucks up the huge scimitar, raising it "for causing harm to a fellow survivor, you are hereby sentenced to death... by banishment." lucy flinches but then realises as overseer benjamin slams the apparently dull scimitar on lucy's restraints. this was all ritualistic and ceremonial gdldlldg • noticed the doctor lucy burned earlier is also shown in the crowd cheering, he has a patch on his face, he seems ok 💀 • lucy expressed surprise at them letting her go, them not exactly realizing where she's been and maybe assuming she's only just been mostly in her vault. "you'll be killed almost immediately on the surface by lord knows what." lmaooo "that's why we're giving you two weeks of supplies to take with you" 😭 • lucy is being banished and given supplies, it's so crazy like • [overseer benjamin thanks the vault dweller for handing him the supplies, so less of a jerk here lol] • they want lucy gone immediately tho 💀 • lucy realising by association for maximus so she says "my friend really likes it here. and he's a good person. he deserves to be somewhere nice and safe, like this. i know i'm not really in the position to be asking for favours but... can he stay?" lucy is really thoughtful and selfless here. but y'all knew that 🥲 • ironic that lucy is banished and attempts to vouch for maximus' character, meanwhile, maximus steals that whole vault's fusion core to rescue lucy--- guess who else getting banished 😭 • why is the room to the fusion core not guarded though fsgkdkg • lucy tries to warn maximus but he goes on a mini rampage in vault 4, causing chaos, throwing people around, wasting food, having residents cowering in fear. all this because he thought lucy was in a pickle 😭 • all maximus has to say for himself is "oops" and "sorry" and "maybe somebody check on him" and the guy is not moving lmao • out on the surface lucy and maximus argue about maximus taking vault 4's fusion core. backup power would only last a few days and lucy demands he return it. maximus' explanation is he needs the fusion core to power the power suit. lucy tells him giving it back is the right thing to do. maximus explains he can't be a knight without the fusion core. lucy pointedly tells him he's not really a knight if he steals anyways. • maximus wants to use the armour to help lucy and in relinquishing the fusion core back to vault 4, it may mean not finding hank. without a single moment's hesitation, lucy says "if my dad found out that i destroyed an entire community to save him, that'd break his heart."--- how cruel the irony and parallel and reverse • it makes her reaction at the observatory that so much more soul crushing knowing hank didn't think twice bombing shady sands. that he wrecked a whole community in regards to her. that she never even considered it meanwhile he's done it at least twice • lucy talks maximus into doing the right thing ™

• back in the hawthorne institute building, maximus drops the fusion core back to vault 4. lucy asks maximus "thinking 'bout those oysters?" "mhm". it feels like lucy wants to make it up to maximus, this whole thing. lucy's vault doesn't have oysters but they have canned tuna and she thinks maximus might still enjoy it. maximus isn't really thinking about what she's saying in the same way she is until • "i was supposed to marry a stranger from another vault. it didn't turn out so good." ☹️ • lucy continues to tell maximus "i don't have the best luck when it comes to strangers... i can honestly say you are the best stranger that i've ever met. you're a good person, titus. and if you wanted to, when all this is over, you could come and live with us in vault 33. with me." this scene is painful because, before the finale, it's all well and good. but maximus' web of lies and then the brotherhood of steel having cold fusion and on top of norm uncovering the crime of the century in vault 31, 32, 33 means this all was a pipe dream. it was so sweet. but vault tec is evil ☹️ • maximus finally breaksdown and tells lucy the full and honest truth. "my name isn't titus. it's maximus. titus is the name of the knight who owned this suit before me. he was threatening me, so instead of helping him i watched him die. and i took his armour and i lied to you." the way before maximus did this, lucy told him to "just say yes" to her asking him to come stay at her vault 😞 • maximus doesn't think he's a good person. then lucy reveals she splashed acid in an innocent man's face. nothing stays clean up here • even after all this, lucy still asks maximus to come live with her in her vault 😢 • lucy been in this mf for two weeks lmao

• ok so i get why thaddeus was at the post apocalyptic radio station, because dj carl had a signal [and some pre war music] • thaddeus is listening in an i only noticed now that dj carl said he does not receive visitors to the station and this explains why it was booby trapped 😭 • the next shot is the snake oil salesman putting a gun to his mouth ready to put himself on a shirt. wild. he sees thaddeus and immediately runs after him to sell one of his disturbing little drugs to him • "don't kill me! i'm a doctor. i can help you." 😭 insane • the snake oil salesman called thaddeus' fucked up foot a "tattered tootsy" gfldgldgd • as the snake oil salesman explains his repertoire, thaddeus pulls out and cocks his gun, the snake oil salesman can see thaddeus do this in the reflection of the mirror on the mantelpiece. oof. "what's stopping me from just killing you and taking your whole thing of drugs?" thaddeus blurts out. somebody come get this mannn. snake oil salesman really has to tell thaddeus that only he knows which elixir will cure or kill him, thaddeus is crazy for pulling the blicky out like this

• thaddeus trading a fusion core for idk eternal life is somethin'. what is the snake oil salesman gone do with that? hmmm • i think the snake oil salesman gave him the real deal because a fusion core is like high payment • the concoction is like regeneration but tastes bad. almost thought thaddeus got poisoned he was coughing so hard, thaddeus' foot heals very well [but still appears broken] • the snake oil salesman tells thaddeus the radios station is near shady sands but thaddeus is like? it's radioactive there the snake oil salesman is like "well, you don't have to worry about that anymore, do you, buddy boy?" ayyy lmao what did he give him? did he give him some super mutant? ghoulification? thing? why did he say this??

• back in vault 33, norm is feeding the imprisoned raiders everyday. then i notice they repreise "what a diff'rence a day makes" by dinah washington, same song used in episode 5 when vault 33 enters vault 32 where it's all been cleaned away, it's the coverup song • veronica is blamed for the raider prisoners being poisoned but i didn't understand why she was implicated, she didn't make or serve the food [sounds like a coverup] • but. rat poison is often slow acting. so this is why i think the raider prisoners were poisoned over time • "what did i tell you, norman?" words have meaning" overseer betty tells him. i don't particularly think she had anything to do with this. steph on the other hand... • but isn't it wild overseer betty starts the "resettlement initiative" before hardly leaving the mass casualty event • [this is forced resettlement btw] • this show is real for realistically showing recovering from that baby by having steph icing her private area lol

• norm goes to visit chet and registers that chet has been moved to vault 32 [norm is losing a cousin and friend 😭] • i say step was strategic with getting with chet because of the conversation norm and chet go on to have • norm asks chet "so you're gonna forget about everything we've seen?" then chet "i feel like this is a good moment for a fresh start." "you think so?" "someone obviously does." and i wonder who that is • norm is obviously, naturally, and rightfully upset at this. "you're a coward. you know know that, chet?" chet returns norm a smile laced with fear and astutely surmises "we all are, norm. that's why we live in a vault." chet closes the unit door ending the conversation with norm. • chet giving a succint response to the state of affairs for vault dwellers that even norm himself can't escape still has me

• cooper is a bloodhound. he comes upon the dilapidated red rocket gas station thaddeus was at, sees some blood on the ground and tastes it. what for, your guess is as good as mine 😭 • cooper hears whimpering from the nuka cola dispenser 😭 he lets dogmeat out and says something unhinged "alright, let's go find your daddy" i can't tell if he's already dropping the accent here but 🥲 • in the past, not only are we greeted with another radiation king but also a scene directly related to cooper and hid dog, roosevelt • cooper is taking hits off his old fashioned smoking pipe, reading a magazine, roosevelt laying in his lap. king starts eying barb's unattended pip boy on the counter • cooper bugs that bad boy while barb is none the wiser

• colour analysis time again! because they're wearing the same [and maybe the exact] colours and outfits from episode 5, barb is in all blue [no reds or pinks] and cooper is in his signature blue and yellow. janey appears to be in blue and yellow in this scene too! with mostly yellow like cooper. interesting. • cooper has full blown started spying on his wife but gets cold feet after gazing at roosevelt. "you're right, roosevelt. what are you thinking." cooper says, a mix between talking to his dog and himself 😢 he throws the listening device in the trash. cooper loves and trusts barb so much. too much. • the scene transitions to a dichotomy, barb restfully sleeping in bed, again none the wiser, not a care, it seems. then there is cooper--- nursing a cigarette, watching the vault tec vault 4 ad he filmed for the ill fated doctor lloyd and doctor cassandra. cooper cannot sleep. this is a metaphor for their individual consciences.

• cooper is outside now in the witching hour with roosevelt sifting through trash looking for the listening device. "no dogs in the vault, huh?" cooper says after finally finding it. cooper loved roosevelt so much, he was willing to upend his marriage and discover a corporate conspiracy over him, i could cry 😭 • cooper lovingly kisses roosevelt on the head and no sooner does the scene cut to post war cooper refusing attention from dogmeat telling her "i'm sorry, dogmeat, but you ain't him." cooper has but dropped his accent when speaking this to dogmeant, his sad and hurt mask slipping • i guess dj carl was only booby trapping for angry critics because he let thaddeus use the radio to hit up the brotherhood of steel lol • thaddeus asking about the critics of dj carl's music "oh, people get fully mad." 😂 now that thaddeus is healed, he's much nicer, even acting a bit cute lol • refinement and taste for the arts still being in the wasteland tho gdldflgdl • "great job on these bobby traps, by the way" 😭 and it's still got bodies in them, help 😭 • thaddeus points and says "that one's crazy", tears in my eyes. really is some shit out of the fallout games • dj carl goes "critics." shaking his head with thaddeus ironically saying "yeah. people just, uh, can't be nice" 😭 same guy almost shot the snake oil salesman before he cured him

• dj carl sees lucy and maximus walking up and asks thaddeus if they're his ride. thaddeus takes out his gun and dj carl is like "guess not. ok." and closes the window to his radio station quick lmao • the signs around the radio station say "no visitors", "no requests", "keep out", and "no tresspassing violators will be executed" 💀 • lmao idk if he was panicking or what but thaddeus starts shooting and unloads his entire clip--- lucy and maximus are so fucking confused, checking to see if they've been hit, "god, i suck without a scope" thaddeus shot like fifteen times 😭 • lucy and maximus raise their hands after all that, lucy informs thaddeus she was the one who cut siggi's head off • thaddeus forgets where he is because he walks backwards into a booby trap and a whole. arrow. goes through his neck 😫 lucy is mortified and so am i ❤️ • when thaddeus tries to talk, it sounds gurgley, he doesn't get why he's not dead but takes the arrow out, lucy and maximus look like they want to vomit gldgldfld • idk how they can see from that distance but everyone notices thaddeus' wound heals up. maximus thinks thaddeus is a ghoul now [maybe a super mutant instead?] • "aw, i'm so stupid" i should've never trusted a doctor that smelled like that." please?? • dj carl opens the hatch to see the brotherhood of stell approaching then promptly closes it • lucy asks "the brotherhood is the good guys?" tell me why thaddeus and maximus was like "uh, it's a complicated organization" not them knowing this faction is 💀 • i realized thaddeus did a 180° on wanting to give the brotherhood of steel siggi's head because maximus convinced him he was some type of altered person [whether ghoul or super mutant] the brotherhood of steel discriminates against both • maximus lets thaddeus flee, by taking the head--- thaddeus is so? because why did he tell lucy and maximus "uh, i'm sorry about... a lot of things and i didn't mean for... ok, nice meeting you. bye!" i cannot even explain how funny it is to see maximus pull a pacifist speech check by getting everyone out of that alive fldgdlfld • maximus buys lucy time to take siggi's head to moldaver while he uh lies to the brotherhood of steel to give her time to get hank, he gets a head from the radio station fdlgdlf • "find your dad. go home. that's what i want for you" ☹️ • "they're never gonna stop looking for the artifact" the brotherhood of steel always find out • lucy and maximus kiss like they'll never see each other again. the two heads in their respective arms also lock lips 💀 lucy and maximus kiss twice [this one's for you vaultknight] • dj carl opens his porthole and smiles. i am howling. • maximus is given something he's probably not had since childhood but anyways 🥲 • kind of a diss for overseer betty to say the people selected for vault 32 from vault 33 have "been chosen for agreeability, stick-to-itiveness, and all of the other qualities that make for a successful pioneer" what about the ones not chosen from vault 33? sheesh • woody gets cold feet, he doesn't want to go live in vault 32. but it is not up to woody--- he is stopped by vault guards. there is no choice [this is a dictatorship i guess] • they treat woody's desire to not be forcefully moved as an outburst by him. they wait for his dissent to turn back into compliance. it is crazy.

• who would have guessed steph would become overseer of vault 32 • norm has had enough and leaves the ceremony, the last glimpse of chet's face not unlike woody's had been • not sure how norm gets to slip by but he decides to play detective again at a terminal • under the guise of being overseer betty, norm pretends there's a problem as an excuse to talk to overseer 31 • this is fallout's version of the internet lol • noticing norm is talking to a brain in a jar, bud askins, is crazyyy--- idk how often overseer betty and him talk but bud fell for the bait quickly • norm posing as overseer betty goes to vault 31, watching it open as he once again is able to open a door with a lock he didn't even have to pick

• one thing about this episode i want to talk more about is the fact that yes, the wasteland is cruel and unforgiving and even still it can also be warm and loving and has evidenced by the survivors of vault 3, they were weird but nice. just like maximus said about lucy. they went out of their way to help lucy and maximus and those two could've spent the rest of their life there, probably. thank goodness the test subject victims revolted. they turned a hellhole into a home. • any other place, lucy would've been harmed for hurting an innocent person and the fact is that they banished her to the surface, let her live, gave her supplies 😭 vault 4 was the nicest, most compassionate people in the show. i really loved seeing a flower in the desert like that • vault 4 prospers not because but in spite of doctor lloyd's and doctor cassandra's experiments • i hope to see more of vault 4 • another thing i wanted to touch on was something i noticed for a few episodes now and addressed last episode. and it's that poc in this show are the canary in the coal mine, the alarm system, for the going's on with vault tec and the larger societal conspiracy of greed and power grabbing through war. charlie, moldaver, birdie. to name a few. i could make more cases. but anyways, poc being on the ground trying to tell the world about self cannibalizing systems we live under falling on deaf and delusional ears are not lost on me

#fallout #fallout show #the radio #cooper #the ghoul #lucy #maximus #thaddeus #ghoulcy #vaultknight #text post #my meanderings

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'It isn't fair.' She thought, looking on through the window as all the other children laughed, ate, and played with each other while she was left outside.

She shivered, rain soaking through her hair and clothes as she brought a hand up to try and wipe away both the tears and the rainwater threatening to fill her eyes.

"What are you doing outside, Charlie?" Charlie looked up at the sudden lack of rain hitting her body and the voice that called her name.

"Uncle Will!" She beamed, turning from the window to face the man as he pulled out a napkin and bent down, not caring for the water soaking into his pants he wiped face with the cloth.

"What are you doing outside, Charlie?" Afton repeated.

"The other kids locked me outside, I didn't even say anything mean to them uncle Will!" Charlie sniffed, more tears gathering in her eyes as she remembered the mean names the other kids called her after just trying to be their friends, tears that were quickly whipped away by her uncle.

William sighed and got up. "Children can be cruel, Charlie. Just don't let their words get to you for in the end, they are only words." He stuffed the napkin back into his breast pocket, reaching into his pants for his keys.

"Okay uncle Will." Charlie nodded her head as William paused, looking down at her with dark eyes for a few moments. Charlie shifted, tilting her head. "Uncle Will?"

William continued to stare down at her, hand in his pocket, before he sighed. Closing his eyes, he took a few even breaths, before opening them. "Do not refer to me as 'Will' beyond this point, Charlie."

"But dad calls you Will." Charlie pointed out.

William nodded. "Indeed, he does and only he will refer to me as such."

"Then what would I call you?" Charlie put her hands on her hips as she looked down in thought, before blinking. "Your pants are dirty."

William looked down and hummed. "So they are, Charlie." Afton shook his head, fishing out his keys from his pocket and sliding the right one into the keyhole. "Let us get you inside, as I'm sure you don't want to be stuck in the rain for much longer and so I can get a change of pants."

Charlie smiled and nodded her head energetically. "Okay Uncle Afton!"

William paused slightly, before a smile crossed his face. "You truly are a wonderful child, Charlie. It almost makes one sorry for what I did to you back then." He unlocked the door and placed his keys back into his pocket.

Charlie tilted her head with a confused expression. "Sorry for what?"

William shook his head. "Nothing but the ramblings of an old man, don't worry about it. Now," William opened the door to his establishment, petting Charlie on the back. "Off you go, Charlie. I'm sure your father is here somewhere."

Charlie stared at her uncle for a moment, before nodding and walking inside.

William watched her until she disappeared around a corner, before turning his head and staring down a familiar alleyway drenched in rain. The twin phantasmata of a puppet and his host stared back at him.

He kept his eyes fixed on them, and only turned his gaze away when they ceased to exist.

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William didn't quite care much for human laws.

Both before, and after spending decades as a rotting corpse trapped inside his own creation, and even further spending an uncountable amount of years trapped in hell with that disgusting little-

William gripped onto his steering wheel tightly as he thought back to her. That despicable, disgusting little brat that stepped out of line far too many times than he was pleased with. He breathed, held for a few seconds, then breathed out.

Right, yes. He didn't care for human laws, except for when they were most convenient for him to use. The consequences for breaking them aren't of much concern to him, either, so long as he doesn't get caught.

His past misdeeds were a prime example, and he chuckled at the thought.

As of right now, however, he was speeding down a highway. A very empty, and dark, highway. He saw an opportunity when it presented itself, and he isn't and never will be above breaking the law for the sake of his own convenience.

Although this does strike an odd case of deja vu in-

His car thumped.

Not once.

But twice.

He cursed and hit the brakes, coming to a quick stop a distance away and getting out. He took a flashlight out from his pocket (one he always carries with him, fun fact) and flashed it down on the road, a small frown on his face.

The potential lawsuit of running something over depends on what it was, for example, if he ran over a child-seeing as this time it was unintentional- the likelihood of him going to jail is low, but the amount of money he would have to pay is not something he would be quite keen on fulfilling.

If it were a child, he could always just throw them off into a nearby ditch to avoid the potential lawsuit, after all a child running on a road with a car speeding down is its own fault, and to even do such a thing on a night such as this means the parents wouldn't exactly care for them either.

He fixed his flashlight on one area, seeing a pile of brown fur laid out on the ground.

"Ah, so not a child then." William concluded. "Not even a pet." William wrinkled his nose, the thing was in quite the pitiful condition-and not because of being run over, really, though it does indeed add to it- and he checked for a collar just in case.

He took his hand back in mild disgust as it got back up, or tried to, at the very least, before falling back down. It let out a series of pained whimpers, sides heaving rapidly and breaths shallow. William propped his chin up with a gloved hand as he stared at it.

"Well, I must commend you for your willingness to live, at the very least." William murmured, as he watched it try to stand once again, only to fail due to its injured and failing body. It seemed to have a harder time breathing the longer this went on, and William should most likely be looking to call animal control to put it out of its misery by now.

But it seemed to be more of a waste of time, in his opinion.

Perhaps, if the circumstances were different, and Henry were the one to encounter this situation, he would try to save it.

William continued staring with half-lidded eyes as its struggles slowed, before sighing. "Well, I suppose this is a good time to try something new."

He reached into his pocket and took out a case, and from that case came a syringe filled with a purple liquid that seemed to glow in the darkness of their surroundings.

He inserted the syringe into the dog's neck and injected the liquid. Not all of it, of course, but just a quarter of it.

"Live." William whispered, a deceptively kind smile on his face. "Live and let me see if this gift was worth the cost."

William then got up and walked back to his car.

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William didn't expect to see it ever again, if he were to be honest. He didn't quite know how it would have reacted to anything other than a human, and if it did work, he expected it to run off and never be seen again.

Not in his establishment the following week.

It looked remarkably better than it did the night he ran it over, previously matted fur nice and tidy and a nice little collar fit snugly around its neck. Though, its body was deformed a bit from being run over, not as bad as it was, most likely thanks to the agony more likely than not.

But that wasn't what he cared for, truly.

Instead, its eyes. A curious color, brown that seemed to fade into purple, not noticeably really, but when the light hits it just right.

'What a fascinating result of a whim.' He thought, various thoughts of trying to replicate this so he could test various factors and see their end results crossed his mind.

But alas.

He placed a hand on one of his employee's shoulders, a kind, easy going smile on his face. "Let it stay for now, it wouldn't do make a child sad in a place such as this, no?" His employee nodded and left.

William turned his gaze towards the oh so familiar figure of a child, blonde hair, a recognizable red boy tied into her hair and a purple shirt.

Susie, if he remembered correctly.

He smiled down at the girl when he caught her eyes, and gave a little wave before going back to work.

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"Daddy," Elizabeth pulled on the edge of her father's shirt, trying to get his attention. "Can I go see Circus Baby?"

Her father froze and turned his head down to look at her with wide eyes, much to her confusion. She blinked, and his face lacked so much emotion that she questioned if she imagined it. Her father bent down to her level, placing a hand on her head.

"Elizabeth, sweetie. What exactly do you mean by Circus Baby?" Her father asked, and rubbed her foot against the ground. "Well, it's this really cool and pretty robot you made for me, right? She was the leader of the, um." Elizabeth paused for a moment. "Funtime animatronics, I think?"

Her father blinked slowly once, then twice. "The Funtime animatronics do not exist, Elizabeth."

Elizabeth tilted her head in confusion. "Yes they do, they're at Circus Baby's pizza world."

William shook his head softly. "That location does not exist either." Elizabeth pouted and crossed her arms in frustration. "Well I remember them existing, so they exist." She grumbled.

William tilted his head. "Are you sure you haven't just dreamt them up?" Elizabeth scowled slightly, before vehemently shaking her head. "Nuh uh, I know they exist, I've seen them!"

"And where have you seen them, my little princess?"

Elizabeth opened her mouth, before stopping short. She stayed quiet for a moment, before looking down with a pout and gripping her skirt. William chuckled, placing his arms around his daughter and standing up, carrying her in his arms.

"Can you make them for me, Daddy?" Elizabeth hesitantly looked up at her father, gripping onto his shirt and giving the most intense puppy-eyed look she could muster. William stared back at her for a moment, hming and huming as he mulled over it.

"I don't see why not." William shrugged. "Although, it would have to wait a bit before I could get to it."

"Aww." Elizabeth pouted again, intensifying the puppy-eyed look to try and sway her father. "Now, now." William reached a hand up to boop his daughter on the nose. "Patience is a good trait to have, young lady."

"Okay Daddy..." Elizabeth gave up, resting her head on her father's shoulder in disappointment.

"How about some ice cream for now?"

Elizabeth let out quite the loud shout of agreement at that.

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William both liked and disliked children.

He liked them for they were simple, predictable, and so utterly gullible. A few sweet words, the promise of a reward and a smile or two would get them to move exactly how he wanted them too.

But that was about the only thing he liked about them.

His dislikes far outweighed the only good thing about them. They were loud, painfully obnoxious, cried at the simplest inconvenience and so on and so forth.

Children were not something he enjoyed, despite owning a restaurant targeted towards them so they could persuade their parents to give him their money.

Unlike his co-worker, he wasn't in this business for the enjoyment of the little brats.

Again, William disliked children, especially the ones who wailed for no reason just to inconvenience everyone else or to get what they want.

So it begged to question why God (if there ever was one he never answered) decided to bestow him a child in one of the exact flavors he disliked the most.

He breathed in slightly, held, and exhaled. Then looked down at his son, somehow the smallest of his three children despite being the middle child. Red, puffy eyes with dark (almost purple) bags hanging under his eyes stared back up at him with thin limbs holding onto a golden Freddy plushie (how childish) tucked into his arms.

His son was small, frail. Both mentally and physically, one hit would knock the boy down the floor and cause him to cry as he would try to curl up into a ball to lessen the pain of blows to come with tears streaming down his face as broken sentences of pleas and apologies spilled from his mouth.

A corner of his mind replaces his son with a different boy that looked far too similar wearing more prim and proper clothing, the bear replaced by a rabbit and hair a lighter brown with eyes a darker color. He quietly shoves it into a box and locks the key.

A smile graces his lips, one perfectly calculated and perfected to put a child at ease. For some reason, it always seemed to have the opposite effect on this one.

"Yes, Evan?" He tilted his head, hands behind his back as his eyes analyzed the child in front of him, picking apart every minute detail he could find. "Was there something you needed?"

His son squirmed underneath his gaze, and William waited patiently for him to gather the words he wanted to say.

"M-Micheal tore the head off of Foxy and," His son gulped, eyes wetting with unshed tears that made William clench his hands, nails digging into his skin. "And he won't give it back."

This didn't involve him and why don't you get it back yourself are words he wanted to say, words he already said in the before. Words he knew would cause the boy to stumble over his words trying to persuade him, only managing to work himself up into a mess that got him nowhere. Which inevitably lead him to tears that only added onto his mess of a request.

Just thinking about it made William feel a certain way, and his smile almost slipped off his face before he caught himself.

He reached a hand to pat his child on the head, eyes crinkling the tiniest amount. His son's shoulders relaxed minutely, some of the tension leaking from his small body.

"Go grab the sewing kit for me, won't you?'" William took his hand away as his son nodded, already walking down the hall. "I will get your friend back, don't worry."

A few minutes later, and William finds that his son had quite the affinity for sewing. Something he never knew until that moment.

How quaint.

The way his son's face light up when his friend was returned right as rain lifted something from William's chest, and he found his perfectly crafted smile just the ever so slightest amount realer the rest of the day.

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"Michael. Afton." William smiled at his eldest, hands behind his back. Apparently, he held more of a grudge than he thought he did.

His smile was tight.

"What do you want old man?" Michael glanced at him, leaning back on the wall behind him with one hand crossed over his chest. "Not busy enough so you came to bother me?"

"First of all," William tilted his head, smoothing his smile back into perfection. "What did I say about smoking, young man?"

Michael clicked his tongue, holding his father's stare for a good few moments before scoffing and dropping the cigarette down to the floor and stomping it out.

William tracked the movements carefully, before slowly turning his eyes up to look at his son, who scoffed.

"Can you quit staring. already?" Michael asked, before he muttered under his breath and looked away. "You look goddamn creepy when you do that..."

Michael sighed, shaking his head he pushed himself off the wall and placed a hand at his hip and tilted his head upwards. "Well, what do you want old man?"

William's mouth thinned into a line, and Micheal smirked. "Stop bullying your brother, Micheal."

"Oh?" Michael turned to face William. "And why should?"

"Micheal."

"No, no. Tell me why I should after all," Michael stepped closer. "You've never tried to stop me before, why do you suddenly care now, hm?"

"As his father, I have certain obli-"

Michael barked a laugh, making a move to place a hand over his mouth in an attempt to block his laughter before giving up. He laughed for a few good and hard minutes, before suddenly cutting off and bringing his face back down.

"You're being serious. Aren't you?"

"I do not joke, Michael." William's hands tightened behind his back, and he finds himself thankful he chose to wear gloves for this particular conversation. "You of all people should know that very well."

"Well you're certainly a joke of a father, so maybe I didn't quite get the memo."

"Watch want you say towards me, boy." William shifted his stance the slightest amount, fingers digging into his palm.

"Why? Because you can't handle the truth?" Michael asked, and the look in his eyes told William it was a genuine question.

William inhaled sharply, held, then exhaled slowly. "Michael, I won't say this again. Stop bullying your brother and maybe, just, maybe." William hissed. "I can start to see you as someone worthy of respect."

"I don't need your respect, so how about." Michael looked at his nails for a moment, pretending to think hard about his answer before throwing his head back to look at William. "No."

William's hands tightened.

"You disappoint me, Micheal." William tilted his head to the side, a smile on his face that was neither kind nor easing. "You frequently bite at the hand that feeds you and fail to follow even the most simple of requests asked of you."

Michael chuckled humorlessly. "Wonder who I got that from then."

"Truly a mystery, it would seem."

The temperature of the room seemed to plumet, as both of its occupants stayed silent. Michael's stance remained defiant, as he stared William down.

William sighed, bringing a hand up to fix his tie. "Until after his birthday," William checked his watch. "Stop bullying him until after his birthday, Micheal."

"No."

"I am trying to compromise with you, Michael." William sighed, bringing a hand up to rub his face. "Stop bullying him until after his birthday, and if you can, you will have my respect."

Michael scoffed. "I thought I already said-"

"If you succeed, I'll give you ten thousand."

Michael's eyes widened in shock as he stepped back a bit. The next moment his eyes narrowed.

"I'm not lying, Michael. After all." William's face eased back into that perfect smile. "I always keep my promises."

Michael scowled and rolled his eyes. "Fine, I won't bully him until after his birthday."

William stared his son down for a few moments, before nodding his head and leaving.

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"Elizabeth, my little princess."

"Yes Daddy?" Elizabeth swung her legs back and forth from the edge of the desk, turning her attention away from the complex blueprints she tried to make sense of.

"Can you be a dear and keep an eye on your brothers for me? You're the only one I trust enough to do this."

Elizabeth beamed and nodded her head. "Of course, Daddy!"

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'It seems Michael truly will hold up his end of the compromise.' William thought. Over the period of the next few weeks both his own observations and Elizabeth's proved that Michael acted on his word when Evan stopped being bullied and such, cried significantly less.

William even found himself extending the smallest tendrils of trust towards his son, and with that trust came the expectation that he stopped his friends from the bullying as well.

The day came, and William woke up to find himself at ease. It was a rare feeling for him, the impending weight of his mortality and thoughts of Henry somehow irreversibly fucking up clawing at the edges of his mind, so much so that he had to consciously will his body to relax to maintain his facade.

William was-dare he say, happy on his son's birthday and he found that not even the thought of his mortality could weigh down the pep in his step. Which was much, much different than how he acted before, but he couldn't find himself disliking the change.

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