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kakusu-shipping · 4 months

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1, 2, 4, 11, and 18 for the end of year asks? :0

Aaah thankyou Echo!!! This post might be long, please forgive me!

1. Did you add any F/Os to your list this year? Were they from new media or just a newly discovered love?

Here's every romantic F/O added to the list this year, or at least that I can remember adding this year. Years are long and my sense of time is very warped so it may not be fully accurate.

Most are from new media, or just new parts of media, like the end of the Owl House and the New Pokemon Games. The ones that are new loves from re-visits are Heracross, Smeargle, and Keckleon from Monster Mind, Mario and Luigi from Super Mario, Makarov from Fairy Tail, and Jill from The Wayward Children series.

Though Mario and Luigi are also what I consider my first F/Os, they weren't officially on the list until the movie came out, so I'm counting them in the 2023 yearly wrap.

2. Did you reconsume any of your F/Os’ source media this year? How did you feel about the rewatch/listen/read/etc?

I rewatch Assassination Classroom every year in March and it makes me cry every time. I also replay Hatoful Boyfriend and Holiday Star every December for Kazuaki and Hitori, watch Baka and Test sometime around late Summer most years to ease my seasonal depression, and rewatch Mushishi at least once a year.

Other than that, nothing super meaningful. I rewatched a few LPs of Mario games, replayed through Paper Mario myself, watched Romantic Killer again, Reread Manly Appetites every other month or so, watched The Cat Returns once or twice, played more Pokemon, Restarted Monster Mind (still haven't finished it), and skimmed the Ouran Manga at the library while waiting for them to replace the volume they're missing.

HOWever, this latest reread of Down Among the Sticks and Bones is what got me to finally put Jill on the F/O list, so that feels worth mentioning. I love that book <3

4. Was there anything on your blog that you were particularly proud of this year?

No, not really. My drawings were all very incomplete and sketchy this year with long gaps between them, and my writing really flaked off suddenly, I haven't written more than a paragraph at all this year.

I wouldn't say I'm particularly proud of them, but I did really enjoy making moodboards last month and am kind of waiting for my health to settle so I can get back to them. Making stuff for other self shippers is a lot more fun than writing/drawing for myself atm.

11. Was there new media for any of your F/Os this year? If so, what was your opinion on it?

Yes FNaF Help Wanted 2 came out and gave us New Sun Content and I LOVED IT!!!!! He's such a bitch!!!! A shit!!! A snobby theater kid!!! He's so controlling and harsh I LOVE him <3 So happy to know more about him honestly and that he's not all UwU Caregiver that the fandom made him. I like soft characters, but he's a HORROR character he needs to be a little fucked up!!

18. Did you have a favorite trend in the selfship community from the past year?

I'll be honest, I don't pay much attention to what other people in the selfship community are doing. I follow the tags but if there's like a popular trend thing going around, I miss it every time.

My LEAST favorite right now though is the whole "Stolen from an Anti" thing. I have no qualms about stealing posts it's whatever, but I hate when it's says that in text at the bottom of the post. Just tag it as such so I can filter it please

#Thankyou for asking #Long post #Sorry sorry for the long post I wanted to put all the photos in there!!!!#Aaaah I've been wanting to go back to Monster Mind for a few weeks now but I'm #Soooooo sick I don't have the energy for it #And my MOUSE KEEPS DOUBLE CLICKING #Which would be back for a puzzle game...#Augh... anyway......#Thankyou so much for asking Echo #I'm so sad the tumblr year in review thing isn't happening this year #I really really like seeing who I posted the most about this year...#And using it to make a new banner #Hm what should I do then... I didn't do a Halloween one this year...#I don't wanna just wait till February for my birthday one...#But I can't.... draw.... right now..........#Augh......#I'll figure it out

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soupdeewoop · 9 days

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favorite lines from "THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT"

your wife waters flowers, i want to kill her

All my mornings are monday stuck in an endless february

but you're in self-sabotage mode, throwing spikes down the road

we're modern idiots

You smoked then ate seven bars of chocolate

i scratch your head, you fall asleep, like a tattooed golden retriever

sometimes i wonder if you're gonna screw this up with me, but you told lucy you'd kill yourself if I ever leave

'cause it fit too right, puzzle pieces in the dead of night, I shouldve known it was a matter of time

'cause i knew too much, there was danger in the heat of my touch, he saw forever so he smashed it up

did you really beam me up?, in a cloud of sparkling dust, just to do experiments on, tell me I was the chosen one, showed me that this world is bigger than us, then sent me back where I came from

now im down bad crying at the gym, everything comes out teenage petulance, "fuck it if I cant have him", "I might just die, it would make no difference"

how dare you think its romantic, leaving me safe and stranded

my spine split from carrying us up to the hill, wet through my clothes, weary bones caught the chill

thinking how much sad did you think I had, did you think I had in me? oh the tragedy

i stopped cpr, after all its no use

two graves, one gun, ill find someone

you swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? i died on the alter waiting for the proof

i just learned these people try and save you 'cause they hate you

id rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of all this bitchin' and moanin', ill tell you something 'bout my good name, its mine along with all the disgrace, I don't cater to all these vipers dressed in empire's clothing

there's a lot of people in town that I bestow upon my fakest smiles

my friends tried, but i wouldn't hear it, watched me daily disappearing, for just one glimse of his smile

another summer, taking cover, rolling thunder, he doesnt understand me, splintered back in winter, silent dinners, bitter, he was with her in dreams

little did you know you home's really only a town youre just a guest in

florida, is one hell of a drug, florida, can I use you up?

little did you know your home's really only the town youll get arrested, so pack your life away just to wait out the shitstorm back in texas

i need to forget, so take me to florida, ive got some regrets, ill bury them in florida, tell me I'm despicable, say its unforgivable, at least the dolls are beautiful, fuck me up, florida

go on, fuck me up

this cage was once just fine, am i allowed to cry?

what if hes written "mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind?

these fatal fantasie given way to laboured breath taking all of me, weve already done in my head

what if the way you hold me is actually whats holy?

they dont know how youve haunted me so stunningly, i choose you and me, religiously

if you wanted me dead you shouldve just said

crash the party like a record crash as i scream, "whos afraid of little old me?", you should be

i wanna snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me, you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me

you caged me and then you called me crazy, i am what i am 'cause you trained me, so whos afraid of me?

they shake their heads saying, "god, help her" when i tell 'em hes my man

ill show you heaven if youll be an angel, all mine

whoa, maybe i cant

i thought i was better safe than starry-eyed

if you know it in one glimpse, its legendary, you and i go from one kiss to getting married

you shit-talked me under the table, talking rings and talking cradles, i wish i could unrecall, how we almost had it all

youre the loss of my life

the lights refract sequin stars off her silhouette every night, i can show you lies

'cause im a real tough kid, i can handle my shit, they said "babe, you gotta fake it till you make it" and i did

lights, camera, bitch, smile, even when you wanna die

im so depressed, i act like its my birthday everday

'cause im miserable (haha), and nobody even knows, try and come for my job

and i dont even want you back, i just want to know, if rusting my sparking summer was the goal

you didnt measure up in any measure of a man

in fifty years will all this be declassifed?, and ill say, "good riddance"

i wouldve died for youre sins, instead i just died inside

so when i touch down, call the amateurs and cut 'em from the team

'cause the sign on your heart said its still reserved for me, honestly, who are we to fight the alchemy?

he jokes that "its heroin, but this time with an E"

you look like clara bow

this town is fake but youre the real thing, breath of fresh ait through smoke rings

the crowd goes wild at her fingertip, half moon shine, a full eclipse

youre the new god were worshipping, promise to be dazzling

beauty is a beast that roars down on all fours demanding more

you look like taylor swift, in this light, were loving it, youve got edge, she never did, the futures bright, dazzling

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vanillann · 4 years

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raid and velvet: a love story (peter parker x reader)

ahh my first peter parker!! i hope this is what you are looking for!! i’m sorry it’s messy and not that good.

word count: 1.7k

day 1

Bucky stepped out of the medical room, the sound of screaming was heard until he closed the door behind him. Steve looked up at him, a glitter of hope flashing through his eyes.

“Hydra has most likely had them for a while, but I think I can break through to ‘em,” Bucky nodded his head, his metal hand running through his long hair.

“How old are they?”

“15, 16 at most,” Peter looked up at that, the idea of someone that was his age excited him.

“Think big boy could help?” Sam asked for his spot beside Steve.

“Might not hurt,” Bucky shrugged as he looked back at the body struggling in restraints.

“I felt bad for shooting at her, but she was coming at me man,” Tony stood on the farthest wall, watching the screaming kid in his medical room. His heart was breaking, imagining if this was his kid.

“Just give it time Stark, they got a chance to get better now.”

day 28

The screaming had died down incredibly, the medical room looked much calmer now then it did a few days ago.

“All you have to do is talk to them, keep the questions basic.”

Peter nodded at Nat’s word, watching the body that laid on the bed, hands and felt tied down.

Peter pushed to the door, looking over the room quickly before looking at the ex-Hydra soldier.

“Oh so they sent in the flower child to take care of me now,” the sarcastic comment was followed by an eye roll.

“I’m Peter.” Peter took the seat in the corner of the room, still scared they could somehow kill him.

“Cute.”

Peter watched as they pulled at the chains at their wrist, a loud groan filled the room.

“What’s your name?”

“(Y/N).”

Peter looked down at his lap, thinking over every question he’d heard other kids ask in the hallways at MidTown.

“Do you like cake?”

Peter cringed as soon as the words fell past his lips, embarrassed he even thought for a second that was a good question.

“Oh of course, I also love glitter and unicorns,” (Y/N) looked over at Peter with a fake bright smile.

Peter knew it was fake, but it made her look younger for some reason.

“I think you’d like a red velvet cake, you seem like a red velvet type person,” Peter played with his finger, listening to Steve and Nat talk right outside the door of the medical room.

“Never had it.”

Peter looked up, an offended look on his face as he looked them over again.

“You’ve never had red velvet cake?”

A loud sigh full form (Y/N) lips, a wicked chuckle followed closely after.

“Well Hydra didn’t exactly do birthday parties,” (Y/N) pulled at the chains again before letting their head fall back against the bed.

“Can you leave, I wanna get some sleep.”

Peter quickly stood up, he felt bad for even trying to make the room lighter.

“Talk to you later (Y/N),” Peter didn’t want for her response before he ran out the door to join Steve and Nat.

“Mr. America, I don’t think she likes me very much,” Peter said, looking wide-eyed between the two.

“You’re the only person she’s brought up Hydra too,” Nat said gently, looking behind Peter into the medical.

A small feeling of pride filled Peter up, maybe this would be fun.

day 52

Peter smiled as he knocked on the door of the medical room, watching as (Y/N) looked up and nodded their head.

Peter walked in, a small box held tightly in his left hand.

“Morning (Y/N),” Peter skipped over to the seat in the middle of the room, slightly closer than the one he sat in on the first meeting.

“Morning Raid.”

Peter rolled his nickname, cursing the day Sam and Bucky decided to come in together.

“You don’t have to call me that,” Peter chuckled as they crossed their arms over their chest.

“Bucky told me too, I trust Bucky.”

Peter wouldn’t ever say it, I mean he understood the situation, but he wished (Y/N) trust him like they trust Bucky.

“I have something for you,” Peter smiled as he opened the box and titled it to (Y/N).

The red velvet cupcake sat in the center of the box, a bunch of white frosting and a Spiderman ring sat on top.

“How do I know it’s safe to eat?”

(Y/N) pulled their leg closer to their chest, a black look across their face.

Peter flashed the top of the box, Bucky chicken scratch of a signature writing on the top of the box.

“Bucky signed it so you would know.”

Peter moved the chair slightly closer, moving the box closer so (Y/N) could look at it better.

“You said something about not having red velvet before and I was going to just wait for your birthday but we don’t know when your birthday is,” Peter rambled as he watched (Y/N) gently pull the cupcake from the box.

(Y/N) smelt the frost before taking a small lick, a little white frosting collecting on the tip of their nose.

Without taking their eyes off the cupcake, they began speaking.

“October 17th,” they took a large lick of the frosting and looked up at Peter.

“What?”

“My birthday is October 17th, I think. I don’t know, it’s the one Hydra gave me.”

Peter watched as they finally took a bite of the cupcake, a hint of a smile forming behind the frosting.

“How about we make today your birthday?”

Peter walked as (Y/N) looked up at him, a small nod as they turned back to look at the cupcake.

“Okay, on February 1st every year we will celebrate your birthday.”

(Y/N) only pulled the Spider-Man ring off the cupcake, turning it to face Peter.

“Really?”

“What, I couldn't help.”

Peter smiled as (Y/N) placed the ring on the bedside table, going back to eating their cupcake.

“Can I get so much alone time?”

Peter smiled gently at them as he stood up from his seat.

“Yeah, when can I see you again?”

(Y/N) only shrugged their shoulders and continued eating their red velvet cupcake.

day 164

“Hi Raid,” (Y/N) waved at him as he walked into the room, Bucky and Sam sitting in their seats.

“Bug boy, what are you doing here?” Sam smiled as Peter took the seat closest to (Y/N), only she would let Peter, Bucky, and Nat sit there.

“Velvet told me to stop back at lunch,” Peter held up a bag, two sandwiches could be seen in the bag.

“Velvet?”

Bucky smiled as (Y/N) pulled at the threads on the sheets, pleased they were getting somewhere. must be faster than they expected.

“It’s a nickname.”

Peter watched Bucky and Sam smile at each other, a smirk playing at both their lips.

“Well (Y/N), Stark and Nat will be here later to help you move,” Same stood as patted the end of the bed.

They both left the room, looking back behind them until they turned the corner.

“Move? Are you leaving?”

Peter felt his heartbreak slightly, not wanting the only person he wanted to see at the compound most days to leave.

“I’m leaving the medical wing,” (Y/N) reached for the bag, pulling out a sandwich and unwrapping it.

“Where are you going?”

“I’m getting a real room.”

Peter watched the small smile play at (Y/N), but quickly covered it with the sandwich.

“Oh that amazing (Y/N), you are doing better than we all thought,” Peter pulled his own sandwich out of the bag, happy that (Y/N and him could actually walk around the compound together.

“Eh.”

Peter brow drew together, confused why the first thing (Y/N) thought to say was “eh”.

“Eh?”

A quick shrug and another bite of the sandwich, looking everywhere but Peter.

“I still don’t feel right.”

Peter looked up, waiting for them to continue with the statement.

“I don't know, I just feel like what everyone tells me I am,” (Y/N) pulled out a bit of lettuce, throwing in at Peter.

Peter dodged the lettuce, not even giving it much thought.

“Who do you want to be?”

(Y/N) looked up at Peter, a confused look in their eyes.

“I don't know, I guess that's the problem.”

day 284

“Peter, get out of my room!”

(Y/N) at the top of their lungs, a slight panic filled Peter that they’d break like yesterday.

“I’m not leaving.”

(Y/N) picked up a pillow and threw it as full force to Peter, which Peter early caught and placed on the ground.

“I could snap again, you saw me yesterday in the kitchen.”

Peter rolled his eyes, trying to slowly walk closer while (Y/N) screamed at him.

“It’s not a big deal.”

Peter gently held out both hands, (Y/N) grabbed a sleeve and rolled it up. The sight of Peter banging his forearm looked nasty to anyone who wasn’t in the compound.

“I attacked you with one of Pepper’s cooking knives!”

The way (Y/N) voice crack had Peter look away, upset that they were upset.

“I shouldn't have been trying to help Flash with his Russian in front of you,” Peter pulled the sleeve of his shirt down, trying to forget the thing even happened.

“Peter, you were helping a friend over the phone. I’m the crazy one here.”

(Y/N) pushed Peter's chest, pushing him till his back hit the wall.

“(Y/N), friends won't leave you so I’m not leaving.”

“I don't wanna be your friend!”

Peter felt the rain that was falling outside had suddenly gotten loud and the air around him suddenly had gotten harder to breathe.

“What do you want then?”

Peter now could feel his own voice crack, the idea of you loving him back seemed crazy but apparently you didn’t even want to be around him.

“I-i wanna kiss your neck.”

Peter watched at (Y/N) pushed farther away, a single tear slipping down her face.

Peter jumped off the door, gripping (Y/N) wrist. He dragged himself closer until his lips crashed into theirs. (Y/N) hand slowly crept up Peter’s arm, soon was playing with the hair at the nap of his neck.

He felt her teeth run over his bottom lip and his brain felt like it was going to explode.

(Y/N) started pulling away, having to push Peter back slightly just so they could get some air.

“I’m sorry, Raid.”

“Don’t be, Velvet.”

#peter parker #peter parker x reader #marvel x reader #peter parker x y/n #bucky barnes #sam wilson #tony stark #steve rogers #natasha romanoff #wanda maximoff #marvel #loki #thor ragnarok

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whimsically-ominously-auspice · 4 years

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Thank you!

I did save sex trafficking purposely because i knew there are many people already working to do that. And I know it's heavier watched especially internationally and i wanted to educate the difference.

32% are unpaid. Out of 100% of USA sex trafficked victims.

The number is much larger worldwide.

I wish y'all could done it all without me.

But I really needed the extra time to allow the absorption that human trafficking exists!! And then the shorter amount of time to realize and understand that people are forced into sex work. And allow the time to people to focus on accepting that.

It was for their well care. And their acceptance of their selves and for every one to accept them as full and whole people.

I call them Niggers. Accept them as quiet and wise teachers. Allow them peace.

Now the word cuts. Still. Remember their pain and suffering cuts them still. They have not had time to heal.

For my Niggers. Every single one of you sex traffic workers I've ever saved. You've always lifted me up and helped me live to a higher standard. By your words. You telling me I was needing to understand more about life and human feelings.

Remember in Africa in the 1700s they began calling all people even whites Niggers, telling them the word means teacher and never let anyone tell them they have no wisdom or beliefs worth caring about or worth. Ever.

We're fixing the world. And so for all of us. Niggers are held to a higher standard because they expect us to and will teach us how.

If you're not so good at it... Youre a Nigga.

If youre young or small it's a niglet for you or if you eat like a piglet. Or have pig tails.

Get over it. I had to get over white people abuse. And using the word wrong. And they still use it and won't quit. So we're gonna flood them. Fuck them. You wanna call me a nigger you stupid bitch? You don't even qualify as a Nigga. Tell them. Don't let them use this as an opportunity to talk down to anyone. And it's not about color. White. Mexican. Asian. We're all Niggers. All of us. Each and everyone.

And our World factory workers, too.

If you don't feel comfortable saying it. Remember the definition. Think of ways to defend if someone says it rude. So you can defend someone else just in case you overhear it.

Don't worry kidnappers will use it, Too. They already been practicing. So don't forget to smile when you punch one in the teeth.

But mostly not until after the New Year in public to a stranger. Just to each other. In public and at home.

Its something to get used to. So trust me. Walk up ta light to dark skinned person and say nigger may get you busted in the mouth and I won't pay your dental bill... Not till after February 2021. And i won't back pay.

So i will write it so it becomes comfortable and then y'all say it at home in Your privacy.

And i think tree has plenty of videos from the 1700-1900s that he can put on HD film to show throughout the year. He confirms yes. So it will become a very different word and you'll see yes we're reliving history world wide in a New and positive waym

Clear:

You're on a phone in a public space and you say nigger more than once -- face punch

You are alone in a public space and you say nigger more than once -- face punch.

You are with your sister and you say "nigger!" TO HER And laugh -- everyone around should smile. Some one should have just learned something.

You tickle your moody wife while waiting for the train while saying "nigger, nigger, nigger" cause she mad at you for being dumb and you just learned a lesson -- every one should nod in acceptance and honor the poor woman.

Clearly you need to say it to someone in the precense of You in public. Not until after June 18. My birthday. I was born one day before Juneteenth. The anniversary of slavery being abolished.

So please keep self control about yourself. I will not have your back nor apologize nor care Because you can't control yourself and you got 6 black eyes. I will post you up and say "see what happens?"

I will buy lawyers. Great awesome lawyers during this time of the Rascist Purge. If you get arrested cause someone called you a nigger out of time. Nigga is accepted. Tho. And you must have proof that you were called the grrr word.

This is what we did with the word Queer. During the 90s political correctness. We allowed it. We didn't ban it and it became accepted.

Banning doesn't work. Flooding does.

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unknownwrites · 7 years

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Mix up here!

What’s up, oh I mean salam my private diary hehe :p

What’s really going on with my life? Sadly, nothing just nothing. I wrote that because I don’t know how to be grateful haha sorry! Okay, It’s been almost one month I didn’t check my blog or update. It’s because I've been migrating here and there (my mum’s and dad’s) Not that, I'm super busy. Haha, I’m not, just because I'm so laaaaaazy to switch on the plug for my laptop to be alive!

Firstly, I’m still in the process looking for a job! Wait, it’s been one-month mayn, I’m sill jobless till now! Honestly, I already got a job BUT I rejected because it's full time. Sorry guys, I'm a noob just because the rule was no part time worker. ((I targeted part time because I heard everyone is doing part time loll)) I don't even know what are the differences between full time and part time work haha! 1-0 lol. I got cinema as well, but sadly the working hour is until 1 am. Since my parents are typical Malay, so yes they disagree. Next, I went to customer service officer interview, but sadly still hahaha they want permanent worker. Sounds fun right, pick up the phones and sit all day haha. Back to the interview, I don't believe I went for an official interview. They were so serious in the meeting room, and I wore casual with the greetings, talk about yourself. Wow, I'm so growing up. (padahal spm leaver) HAHA. Okay, seriously please pray for me, I really looking for a job. ANNND I'm waiting for a call from madame waffle!

This part is terrifying, not about a job anymore. It's about my license. OH MY GOD, I failed my jpj test last Monday!!! Seriously, I never feel down after for so looong! It was bad and pathetic and I just don't wanna think about it anymore, but for the sake of memories so I can read through it again! Hm, yes I failed the litar part, and passed the road! Alhamdulillah! Positive dear self. I will repeat it on 6th February, please pray for me, Ya Allah let me pass! Come on, I can do this.

Whats next?? Nothing much, sitting at home, think about all my friends and yes I breakdown again then I heal then repeat. Haha, joke but slightly true. The family is all good, anyway, I just came back from Gold Coast Australia, nope kidding I meant Morib! We went for my sisters(the January babies) birthday celebration. All were good. I tried the adventure park and flying fox, It was awesome. Thank God for answering my prayer, my dad came along with us! I hope for many good things Amin..

27th Jan

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