What do you mean you're lurking on tumblr Joel? Very alarming thing for you to be percieving.

every time i read an autobiographical comic about a transfeminine person practicing putting on makeup as a visual metaphor for the difficulty of Performing Womanhood i can feel my whole heart vibrate with sympathy. like. one of the absolutely most common Girl Experiences is feeling like you're never girling right or enough. there's so many rules and expectations and there's fucking makeup. i could never wrap my head around makeup!! not even for gender reasons, it's just this whole culture i don't understand. trying to grasp makeup feels like being a street urchin at an extremely exclusive high end restaurant crying because i don't know what fork to use and they won't let me eat with my hands. my seventh grade classmates tried to help me be girl by taking me shopping for nice clothes and mascara and i couldn't even wear it for a week. not only do you have to go through the intricate rituals of application but you have to remove it at the end of the day??? and everyone acts as if this arcane knowledge is something inherent to girlhood that you're just born knowing and feel naturally inclined to do??? i don't understand!!! i don't understand!!!!! people treated me as if i was being rebellious and making a statement but i just do not understand all the powders and inks and pencils and gunks and creams and brushes!! they feel bad against my face and i'll flinch from anything getting too close to my eyes. it doesn't matter how many offers for help i get or how many tutorials there are, i never wanted this for myself! i shouldn't have to do this! i can be a person without it just fine if you let me!

watching anyone trying to learn how to do makeup from scratch is like watching someone learning a new language. if you think it's hard it's because it is hard and don't let them tell you it's not, just because they've been speaking it for a long time

Shoutout to situationship f/os. F/O's who don't entirely love you, f/os you just have because they're super hot and you just wanna make out with them and nothing else. I know those aren't as much talked about but they can be fun too!

While brainstorming for this tmnt iteration I've stumbled across Weird Shit™ in my life that may be triggering to some people so I will be putting warnings on some comics, again thus iteration is quite literally just me making comics about me and my siblings' childhoods in an effort to??? Idk process feelings that I didn't realize I had <3

It was funny and I got sunglasses

(WHY DOES ANON GET TO HAVE COOL SUNGLASSES? 🕶️ )

I feel like Clark Kent now

Also it was just a joke

You may look like clark kent but to me u will always be superman

I love watching bpd gals on tik tok but it feels so unrelatable. Like you have enough money and resources to just constantly be in and out of mental hospitals then travel to 100 different countries and come home to your mansion 😭 why does EVERYTHING on tik tok feel unrelatable. Like how are you eating like this everyday? I only work 2 days a week but when I do work I am not attempting to make full planned healthy meals. If it fits in my mouth it goes in it

second(?) nonart/nonwriting post i've put in the outlast tag but i literally do not enter fandom spaces very often because bad experiences gave me extremely overwhelming anxiety which means i have no idea when a fandom's like... okay or not and not knowing freaks me tf out so—

what's the usual reaction to canon divergent aus? good? bad? is the outlast fandom nice on ao3? genuinely want to know.

ig if you're curious on details uhh... here it's abt outlast au stuff:

i can safely say i have a solid outlast au now and while there's def bits in it that are different it's the outlast 2 part that is like. the most canon-divergent. that and the murkoff account epilogue events would be different—

no antichrist stuff. idk i just didn't like it man 🤷🏾

different prophecy shit that's blood + bloodline-centric so it doesn't change A LOT of shit as far as i've worked on it??

still involves blake & lynn and everyone wants to kill them it's just for different reasons

lynn also runs around temple gate

lynn also lives

lynn & miles are siblings

walrider + miles presence

can the walrider for sure shapeshift bc walrider shapeshifting into a bunch of fucking ants sounds so much funnier than walrider possessed ants. imagine it for me.

radio tower foundations are found completely crumbled and a main power generator is destroyed. a few of murkoff's men + miriam (an oc) go investigate an hour before pauline arrives at the chapel and they find miles unconscious nearby and bring him down

basically he, lynn, and blake all get sent to elrich and get stuck there for a fairly long time. at least a month or two

only reason they even get medical attention at elrich is so they don't suddenly have any complications that render them useless too early and also they need miles alive bc he's the host of the walrider (and exactly what murkoff wanted when they funded the project) AND besides they're all equal leverage bc they're family

waylon, through a few extra hands of other people trying to stop murkoff, discovers where these three are and w/ a friend of miles + the langermann's & lisa, they go to elrich to fuck up the security footage and save them

As much as I love Frontiers, in retrospect there are some parts of it that feel GLARINGLY unfinished. I mean there's the obvious lack of polish and the pop-in issue but the more I think about it the more Rhea Island sticks out to me as unfinished.

There's so much space, so many little details and bits of ruins everywhere, but the lack of platforming structures like the ones on the other islands makes it all look really empty in comparison. There's only a few platforming sections (mostly rails) between the towers to get you from one tower to the next faster, and that's pretty much it.

It really feels like there was meant to be much more going on with that area, yet the only thing you do is go from tower to tower, have a bit of plot happen, and immediately move on to Ouranos. You aren't made to explore at all despite the ruins and such scattered about and the very important plot stuff happening. That combined with how the whole thing with Sonic's cyber corruption was resolved makes that whole section of the game feel rushed.

I just can't help but wonder what could've been, had Sonic Team not been under time constraints. It's kind of sad honestly, knowing that there could've been more planned for that area that we never got to see because of the deadlines they had to meet.

Man fuck crunch culture fuck holiday releases I want my game out when it's done dammit

I wanted to go on a blocking spree on twt but mk fans get super aggressive over that so nvm I guess

Not to be rude to the gods but y'all didn't ask if I wanted a banging bod. Like yes it's fun to be the hottest bitch in the game store but I wish the default for it was more impish uncle in a hawaiian shirt, you know???

top 5 pronouns

How do I rank pronouns like the ones I prefer or in general? 😭

Anyway hope you like this ranking 😊👍

5: I wish

4: I could be a girl

3: And really

2: I'd prefer it if you would use

1: I / Me / Myself

"...Great he's in a bad mood. No one come in my office."

okay so when i was a kid i taught myself how to make trilling/growling/purring noises in the back of my throat bc i wanted to sound like a night fury and didn't like trying to "purr" using the tip of my tongue and i have NO CLUE how i managed to do that and literally everyone I've ever met has no idea how to replicate it which makes me upset bc i wanna make a purring/trilling tutorial for otherkin but CAN'T

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no actually i have more to say about this

just because you don't identify with traditionally feminine things and that is something that defines your queerness it does not mean that other people have to feel the same way

you can feel comfortable in your identity and still recognize that queerness comes in different shapes and sizes because not a single queer person is the same

you can be out and proud but still be able to understand that being out isn't really an option for some people, and even if it were an option, it doesn't mean that everyone wants to be out

it's upsetting to me that these comments came from bi women. like. how come. how come we face so much shit already and you wanna say who gets to be queer or not (based on looks, no less). no. absolutely not.

my bad for not knowing how to take apart a printer so you can print your tax forms that wont get put to use for another month at least.

I have Soo many thoughts about the everything all of the time in my interests but I'm so genuinely bad at explaining myself and pretty much anything so I never say anything ever <3