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the-peak-tmnt · 2 months

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Hey The Neon Void readers, quick update from the author's sister!

(art commission by @kaysdenofchaos)

Hi readers of The Neon Void fanfic. This is the author’s older sister. She’s been getting a lot of fan art and asks lately. She’s sent me screenshots of a few unanswered ones looking for advice on how to respond.

While all the love and support of TNV is genuinely appreciated, my sister @sugarpasteltmnt is not equipped to respond to a small handful of these asks/comments that are, quite frankly, inappropriate.

Sugarpastels is not a therapist, and she’s certainly not an internet stranger’s therapist.

She’s an adult with an extremely demanding and stressful job for a very large client. Some of you have already experienced and enjoyed her work IRL without knowing it. Her company is close to finishing another project that will bring a lot of joy to hundreds of thousands of people every year, but working on a project of that scale is extremely stressful.

She is writing this fanfic for fun. TNV is a way for her to decompress and put her creative energy towards something other than work.

What’s not fun is coming home to asks/comments from readers who are projecting their own struggles/mental health onto TNV, and even Sugarpastels herself, and demanding some sort of attention from her over it.

Let’s be real: it’s fun to watch our blorbos suffer! So much of fandom is just us putting our favorite characters in Situations because it’s fun. Simple as that. But I think another reason TNV has resonated so strongly with readers is because of the way Sugarpastels writes the internal struggles of these characters.

We are both aware that TNV deals with mental health topics. Since the early days of “modern” fandom, fanfiction has been a way for people to explore complicated, difficult and sometimes even taboo subjects. There’s no shortage of complex feelings being explored in TNV, which is why we’re all having so much fun reading it.

But that’s all it is; an exploration. Sugarpastels is not a mental health expert. I’ve read a handful of books on PTSD and mindfulness for research while writing my own fanfic, and I would never consider myself prepared to help someone else.

It’s okay if you relate to things from TNV. I know I do! Again, fanfic has always been a way to read about things rarely dealt with (or handled poorly) in published fiction/tv shows/movies. I will always argue one of the greatest things about fanfiction and other fanworks is being able to see ourselves and our own struggles through our favorite fictional characters.

But Sugarpastels is not a fictional character. She’s a real person. Most importantly (to me at least) she’s my little sister, and this big sister cannot handle watching some of her readers expect more of her than is appropriate.

So I’m asking you to please be mindful of what you ask/say to not just her, but literally everyone on the internet. Unless you’re chatting with someone regularly, they do not know you. Whether it’s friends, family, teachers, coaches, etc, there are people in your life who know you personally, and are therefore better equipped to help you than a stranger on the internet.

Sugarpastels is so full of empathy that it’s hard to not feel for you when you send things like this. But it just isn’t fair to put that kind of unnecessary pressure on someone who is, at the end of the day, just trying to have some fun writing about ninja turtles bein’ sad.

(That being said, PLEASE DON’T BE SCARED TO SEND HER ASKS AND FAN ART!!! They make her day every single time and are seriously so, so appreciated. She’s texting me about it constantly how much she loves all of TNV’s readers. This whole post is really directed at an extremely small percentage of her readers, but there have been enough I felt something needed to be said.)

#ok back to writing about sad turtles!#tmnt #the neon void #the neon void fic #the neon void tmnt #tmnt fanfiction #tmnt fanfic #tmnt fic

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cariadlovescodwomen · 6 months

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listen, i get it, i really do, i get that there is a lot more male characters in the game to obsess over, buy could ya please acknowledge the women? pretty please?

i’m scared of annoying people with repeating myself so much, but this is my blog??? 😭 i’ll post about this as much as i want, lmfao

i love them so much that it’s killing me, or the lack of content for them is

re-reading the same four headcanons, two fanfics, non-stop checking one blog over and over again

i’m happy for ghost/soap/price/könig stans… i am not at all envious… not at all… (but why do some of you guys exclude gaz from 141 stuff??)

i’m fed when it comes to valeria, thankfully, but that’s about it (any cod writers that write for valeria, kate, and farah, i love you so much, but i’m way too scared to ever make an ask, even anonymously)

(does anyone else’s social anxiety extend to the internet?? i find posting these things incredibly nerve-racking, i could never ask a STRANGER ON THE INTERNET to maybe write something for me)

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surfinminho · 6 months

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Kinktober day 31- corruption w/ minho

⤷ warnings: sub!Minho, unrealistic circumstances, past trauma(?), innocent minho, chan is mentioned, wounds, handjob, cum eating

⤷ word count: 1,2k

⤷Taglist : @greysweaters-blog @hannie-bees @ashydoinwhat @chansbabygirlsstuff @hiddlestandom @stanskzsstuff @mal-lunar-28 @leeracha @linos-kitten @bonateukna @ihrtlix @conwunder @jazzyluuv

⤷ permanent taglist: @iadorethemskz @iluvseungie

*sorry this was so late, but this concludes Kinktober 2023!!*

*please dm me if you want to be added or removed from the taglist.*

You had friends, friends come and go. It's a cycle. But when you meet minho you felt as if everything changed.

You met him in the spur of the moment, you were walking home from a late night class. The trains running too late for your liking so you decided to walk home. You passed an alley way and heard crying, maybe you were stupid for checking but curiosity got the cat. You had the police on speed dial, street lights illuminating the empty streets.

You were really second guessing this, praying you weren't going to get kidnapped or something.

What you saw surely stunned you. A male sitting with his head inbetween his knees, there was visible bruises aligning his arms some fresh and bleeding while some were old and turning yellow.

You slowly creeped over, trying not to startle the boy.

"Hello?" You put your phone flashlight on, keeping a safe distance between you and the stranger.

He looked up, eyes red and glossy. He was shaking and looked like he couldn't trust anyone.

"Hi, I'm here to help you, okay?" You crouch down, touching his arm, but you heard a yelp come out of his lips.

"Help?" His voice wasn't that loud, hiccups interrupting the silence.

"Do you want me to call the police?" You didn't expect thay reaction, someone in this situation would be adamant to get help but he isn't.

"N-no thank you"

"You're bleeding sir, you need help" you were conflicted, you wanted to call someone to help him but you didn't want to scare him off.

You sighed, rubbing your temples before getting up.

"Get up" holding out your hand for him to grab.

"Where are we going?" Surprisingly he takes your hand, feet wobbling.

"My place."

When you got to your apartment, you brung him to the bathroom telling him to wait there.

You stepped out to call your friend.

"Chan? Are you busy?"

"No? Why"

"Okay I did something, but you can't get mad" you were speaking fast, heart beating.

"Can't make a promise, go on"

"I was walking home and this kid, no older than you I hope all bruised up so I kinda took him home but I have no clothes for men so I was wondering if you could come over and help me?" It felt good to get that off your chest.

"It's always you, I'll be over in 10"

"Thank you channie, I owe you"

You heard him mumble something along the lines of sure before he hung up.

You walked back over to the bathroom, checking up on the stranger.

"Can you sit on the sink? Your wounds look nasty." He gave you a nod, looking down.

"Can you tell me what happened to you?" You got some rubbing alcohol and bandages, some miscellaneous things as well to clean his cuts.

You were listening intently suddenly feeling bad for the boy. He ran away from wherever he was, explaining how he didn't have much freedom even as an adult.

"And— shit," he winced, eyes shutting.

"Sorry sorry" you put the bandaid on, moving to another spot.

"My mother I guess didn't want me to leave, I was kinda homeschooled. I didn't have Internet access, I don't have much knowledge on things" he went quiet talking about his family, you could tell he was skipping parts of the story.

Your phone rang, caller id reading "chan". You pick up, telling him the door is open, once again telling minho to stay put.

"You don't think sometimes you know." He shakes his head handing you some clothes.

"You're a live saver, thanks" sometimes, you didn't know what you would do without him.

"Where is he?"

"In the bathroom, I was cleaning his wounds." you say, walking back towards your bathroom door.

Chan tells you he's gonna chill on the couch as you finish with the boy. You didn't mind the extra company anyway.

"I'm coming back in" you warn, before pushing the door open.

"Here's some clothes— it's pretty late I think you should just change for now" you look down. Was he always this cute? You shouldn't be thinking like this, he's in pain and probably scared. You snap out of your thoughts when he mutters a thank you hopping off the counter.

"When your done, I guess you can sleep in my bed with me? If you don't mind if course"

"Only if you're okay with it" he spoke as if something was chasing him, almost how he sounded earlier that night.

"Then it's settled" you open the bathroom door, leaving him to change his clothing.

You walk into your living room once more to see chan slouching on his phone

"He's cute."

It doesn't take long for chan to leave or for you guys to end up in a bed together. Your bed is big enough for two people to fit so it isn't so uncomfortable.

You heard him wince when he lied down, curling into himself before breathing out.

You couldn't help but feel for the boy, ending up in the middle of nowhere and now sleeping in some strangers bed. Though, you decided to sleep on it before moving forward.

You were awoken from cries coming from your left, you checked the time 2:34 am. Minho didn't tell you about another wound earlier? So you wondered what it was.

You turned your body to face his but all you saw was his back. Nonetheless, you tapped his shoulder before whispering.

"Is everything okay?" he jumped, moving his hands over his eyes to wipe them off before turning over to you. He went silent again, looking at you before looking down.

"You need to communicate with me Minho, a conversation works two ways" you sat up, leaning over your bedside table to hand him a glass of water.

"It hurts" is all he said, you couldn't see much but you could see the red tint of his cheeks due to the moonlight.

"What hurts min?" You didn't expect him to shake his head. Confused on why he wouldn't tell you.

"No? Come on I'll help you" he hoped you didn't see him tighten the hold of the blanket.

You sighed, grabbing the end of the cover.

"I'm gonna take it off okay?" He couldn't even get a word in, you quickly took the cover off.

"N-no!" You were surprised honestly, you didn't expect to see him popping a boner after dark.

"That hurts minho?" He probably woke up with it, of course it'll hurt.

He silently responds, nodding his head.

"We can fix that, if you trust me of course" smiling to yourself, you sit in front of him hands in his sight.

"I trust you."

It happened fast, soon after your hand was down his pants rubbing him slowly.

"Remember what you were dreaming about?" You question, maybe it was just 'morning wood' or whatever men call it.

"I- I can't tell you" he brung his hand up to his mouth, biting down on it.

"You seriously don't know why you woke up like this?"

"I-I don't! I mean, it never hurt this bad." You knew he was about to cum, he twitching in your hand.

"I feel- im-" he was cut off by his own moan, thighs tensing up and his eyes were tearing up, droplets dripping down his cheeks.

You removed your hand from his pants, sticking them in his mouth.

"Suck baby"

#surfinminho #stray kids #skz x reader #skz x you #stray kids smut #kinktober 2023 #sub skz #sub!minho

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bringbackdas · 11 months

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Lyrics I wish I wrote:

- “you couldn’t have stuck your tongue down the throat of somebody who loved you more” Moon Song, Phoebe Bridgers

- “For the lovers who found a mirrored heart, they just remind me I’m without you” mirrored heart, FKA Twigs

- “From strangers to friends, friends into lovers, then strangers again” Strange, Celeste

- “It’s always on the tip of my toungue. I read an article on the internet told me that’s how you know you’re falling in love” hate to be lame, Lizzy McAlpine feat. FINNEAS

- “The funny thing is I would have married you if you’d have stuck around” doomsday, Lizzy McAlpine

- “I wanna make you fall in love as hard as my poor parents teenage daughter, she’ll be the best you’ve ever had if you let her” waiting room, Phoebe Bridgers

- “You said Scarlett I don’t need to be responsible for everything you’re feeling. You’re an emotional grim reaper I feel bad for you.” scarlett, Holly Humberstone

- “I can see it now the wedding of the year I can see it now he stands up there and wipes his tears. I can see it now when all my ghost disappear.” all my ghosts, Lizzy McAlpine

- “God rest my soul I miss who I used to be. The wound won’t close, stained glass windows in my mind…I regret you all the time.” would’ve could’ve should’ve, Taylor Swift

- “And honest I can tell you now I love you more than my future spouse” I’d have to think about it, Leith Ross

- “where you came and I laughed and you left and I cried. Where you told me even if we die tonight that I’d die yours” a house in Nebraska, Ethel Cain

- “I lie to her and say that I’m doing fine when really i would kill myself to hold you one more time” a house in Nebraska, Ethel Cain

- “Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere” New Year’s Day, Taylor Swift

- “Give me a lifetime of promises and a world of dreams. Speak the language of love like you know what it means” Simply the Best, Noah Reid

- “I’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror” Anti-Hero, Taylor Swift

- “After everything would you let me in and love me now” would you love me now, Joshua Bassett

- “No one wanted to play with my as a little kid so I’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since to make them love me and make it feel effortless” Mastermind, Taylor Swift

- “You don’t get to take all of me, set me free” Set me free, Joshua Bassett

- “It’s been a fucking year” Set me free, Joshua Bassett

- “Who I am made it all worth the while and these scars will be stories I tell all in due time” all in due time, Joshua Bassett

- “I know my love should be celebrated but you tolerate it” tolerate it, Taylor Swift

- “You’re good at the giving too much then getting scared. You’re good at impersonating someone who cares” decode, Sabrina Carpenter

- “Do something babe say something. Lose something babe risk something. Chose something babe I got nothing to believe unless you’re choosing me” you’re losing me, Taylor Swift

- “I wouldn’t marry me either. A pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her.” you’re losing me, Taylor Swift

#taylor swift #you’re losing me #lizzy mcalpine #doomsday lizzy mcalpine #joshua bassett #fka twigs #song lyrics #set me free #tolerate it #mirrored heart #moon song

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livebloggingmydescentintomadness · 2 days

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TW addiction. I relapsed. And I feel so much better even though I know this is bad for me. And that makes me feel guilty. And I'm really going to get clean, I AM, but it's so much harder than I realized, and the only person I can talk to about this is my therapist, and I just. Feel like such a mess. And I don't know how to feel. How I'm going to go through withdrawal again. How I'm not going to use again. It's really scary.

of course it is, sweetheart. if addiction was simple or easy to deal with, it would never ruin anyone's life.

this is a big scary monster you're wrestling with, so of course you're scared, of course you're going to get beat up in the fight, of course you're going to lose some rounds. it wouldn't be an addiction otherwise, would it?

but you're trying. you're fighting, and that matters so much. figuring out how to get back up after you've fallen down is every bit as important as figuring out how to win. you're not going to get out of this without a black eye or two (or ten), but that doesn't mean you've lost. this was never going to be a bloodless fight.

i really appreciate that you trusted me enough to come to me with this, hon, but i do want to be totally clear - i have no qualifications to actually guide you, here. i have no psychology training and i don't have any personal experience with addiction, so i'm probably just not the best one to give you advice. but i'd like to give you my addiction tag and my relapse tag, as those might offer some practical tips and some encouragement from people who've been where you are.

also, i'm really really proud of you for going to therapy and working with a professional on this - that in of itself is a huge achievement, i promise you. but i do want to ask you to reconsider talking about this to at least one other person in your life, because i do know that support networks are crucial when you're trying to overcome addiction.

i know that the shame and misery makes that sound unbearable, that you desperately don't want anyone to know, but i hope there's a decent person in your life who genuinely loves you and wants to see you happy, even if that means getting their hands a little dirty. you deserve support in this, i promise.

even if the answer's no, just think about it, okay? i'm a stranger on the internet who doesn't even know your name, and i don't think less of you for struggling with this. you are not unlovable in addiction, i promise.

please take care of yourself, darling. you have a long way to go, but you're going to wipe the blood from your nose and stand back up, and it's going to matter.

#addiction #addiction tw #ask #anonymous

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hypnofantasma · 10 months

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"Where's the Ulterior Spectacle remake?"

I know i've gotten this a ton of times, and seeing how it's been a couple years since i said it'd exist, i decided i'd give all of my reasons why it's taking So Damn Long. hopefully, this'll reduce the amount of... hate? judgement?? i keep getting regarding this song.

1) The only reason I SHOULD be giving: the simple fact that I am working on an immense universe

I'm not working on JUST Stars Below, and even THEN, a remake has the lowest priority of all when it comes to new Stars Below songs, character development, design solidification, etc. I'd rather solidify the world and story FIRST before making a remake that might swiftly become outdated once again if I rush it. This is also why songs IN GENERAL have been slow; I'm refining the story. It's a HUGE WIP.

I'm not a company, I'm One Single Person with OCs on the internet. If I don't work on one singular aspect, I'm sorry? I guess? That leads into...

2) I'm so immensely stressed at the moment that I'm having physical health issues and can't reliably/consistently work on things

Like I still CAN draw, but completed PVs are so high-effort (and risk), low-reward for me right now that I have to make smaller things. That's why I'm focusing on Artfight for now. On top of that, I'm gonna try to get another term of college this year so I can accomplish something tangible in my life and get a degree. (College is ALSO why stuff's been slow)

If you want to know WHAT my health issues are, all you need to know is that I've got visible ribs yet my weight is constantly depleting.

3) People keep reuploading my stuff

People keep taking things from my Discord server and reuploading them on sites like Youtube. If I don't upload something, I do not want it uploaded, plain and simple. No, I am not free game just because I'm on the internet. I'm just an independent artist and not a company, and this is breaking several boundaries of mine.

If you claim it's "out of fan love" or "giving me free promotion", it doesn't change the fact it makes me (and even my community) exceedingly uncomfortable. The big one being reuploaded was Tundra Lens, and while I did make it public again, it was solely to appease the reuploaders. Please don't reupload my stuff.

It's killing my motivation and drive for the Ulterior Spectacle remake.

4) Multiple abusers in my life

I won't dive into this one but just know that, behind the scenes, I have been treated like a goddamn ragdoll. I have been treated like an object by both strangers and people extremely close to me, and I'm drained, man.

These events have been adding to my current status of being physically ill and chronically fatigued.

5) I am currently being stalked by a group who hates me and intentionally mocks me

A certain group of individuals (who will remain unnamed) are currently stalking me, gathering my creations, and making a complete mockery of a project that intends to break all of the universal rules I have crafted. I don't mind if you don't know everything about my universe; it's a lot, after all, and I'm more than happy to educate.

However, this group intends on making a complete mockery of not only my universe but also my art. It is out of malice and not parody. Due to this, I'm almost too scared to post anything, really. I don't want this to stop me, but damn it does it sting. I'll ride this out with god-rivaling perseverance if I have to.

Now....

While all of this is there, I'll also say the remake IS NOT cancelled. I'll be dead before it's cancelled. But I just wanted to give some perspective a little bit, and maybe- if you're someone mad about the lack of the remake so far- you'll understand why a little more.

Just please respect my boundaries for things, don't drum up drama with me, and leave me in peace. That's all I ask. One day this song'll be completed, and it'll be a day where I'm no longer treated as some soulless machine.

Thank you.

#kenopsia #vanishing world #vaniwo #kenopsia vanishing world #stars below #update #transparency #health update

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existingispetty · 2 years

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thank you!! •~• anon, i'm back - i struggle with ftm dysphoria and anorexia, and i was getting better for a few months, however stress and depression have led me back down the back of relapse and i'm really scared. could i have some comfort (scenario, headcanon, whatever you're comfortable doing) of kaeya, ayato, and scaramouche (separately, please!) comforting their partner about that and maybe trying to get them to eat? thank you so much again •~•

Hello! Thank you so much for the ask and I apologize for the wait! I would like to add that I know an internet stranger's words may not affect you, but keep fighting! Fight for yourself and not the people around you. I hope you can recover. slight_smile

P.S thank you so much for the Scaramouche ask because I love him so much. +++++++++++++++++++++++++

Prompt: The reader struggles with anorexia and due to stress has an unfortunate relapse

Characters: Ayato, kaeya, Scaramouche

Type: scenarios, angst with comfort, fluff

!! Warnings: mention eating disorders and implied self-harm!!

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Ayato

You take one quick glance at the food that was placed in front of you by Thoma and you quickly look away in disgust. Ayato frowns he knows that you’ve had a lot on your shoulders lately and he’s worried about the past catching up especially… Thoma frowns and walks over to the chilling man and gives him a sad glance before walking out of the room. Ayato wants to approach you but he doesn’t know what to say just yet. You attempt to look back at the food that lets off a tempting aroma, but after you stare at it for just a moment your stomach quivers and you look away once again.

Ayato approaches you and gently puts a hand on your back. “Love, do you want me to postpone everything on your schedule before the next week?” See, because you were Ayato's lover you went with him to most essential places so postponing. Your schedule was the same as delaying Ayatos own schedule. Guilt hit you like a tsunami. Ayato quickly noticed and added to his previous statement, “Most of the meetings this week are personal and not professional so it wouldn’t be a burden if we were to postpone them…”

his soft tone made you look at him curiously. Ayatos eyes were filled with so much love, it was clear his only desire was to make sure you don’t fall into your old grave.

Tears began to build up in your own eyes as he became more concerned. “Please love, remember the big celebration we had when you finally overcame this terrible demon? Thoma ate that terrible hot pot? We could do it again if you wish to?” He smiled gently but you could still see the worry hidden deep beneath his perfect façade. You looked at the food one final time before looking at the love of your life again. “Please me dear eat. you can take it slow, eat small bites then take bigger bites. You can do this, don’t let the terrible stress catch up to you.” He shook his head gently. His loving words enticed you. The pristine man took your hand gently within his own as he guided your chopsticks to the meal Thoma had prepared. You parted your lips slightly purely on instinct as Ayato drove the food-holding chopsticks closer to your mouth. As the delectable taste of Thomas's cooking takes over your mouth Ayato has a genuine smile. You chew as tears begin to streak down “I’m so so proud of you dear.. Thoma? May you please cancel all of our meetings for the rest of the week?” Ayato calls for The tall ginger, who pokes his head through the door frame, a large smile graces his face, as he calls back “alright! Do you want me to start the hotpot?” Ayato quickly nods as Thoma turns away.

Kaeya

Kaeya lacked the knowledge of your past eating disorder but, he did recently notice the change in your diet. You could feel Kaeya’s unwavering stare as he placed your meal serving in front of you. Kaeya quickly sat down with his own serving. You picked up your food on your fork and began to raise it towards your mouth hesitating. Kaeya watched closely but continued chowing down on his own food.

A few hours earlier, Kaeya mentioned that your lack of eating is very suspicious. As soon as your taste buds touched the food that you had raised to your mouth you began to gag. Your own body was resisting the food you were offering it. Seeing this Kaeya stood up quickly and walked over to you putting about a foot of space in between the two of you. Kaeya lightly grabbed your chin and forced you to look up at him. “You know you are the most beautiful amazing person in the world, right?” He was so bad at comforting that a giggle escaped your mouth. “Love if you need to break please do, I don’t want you to hurt yourself like this.”

Kaeya continued to encourage you with a soothing tone. Your stomach went against your brain and growled. Kaeya let out a loud chuckle. “You are obviously hungry, you don’t have to eat all of it… just 3 bites, please. I care about you and seeing you like this hurts me.” Kaeya didn’t let the concern out with his voice but his eyes showed it all. Kaeya inched toward you slowly as if hesitating.

You saw him smile slightly before he consumed you into a loving hug. His arms traced your spine and Kaeya whispered into your ear softly. “I love you so much, I know you wouldn’t be happy later on that you didn’t eat the meal I worked hard to cook…” you could hear his mocking tone while saying the part about him working hard to make the food. “This is your choice my love, but one choice is the better choice.” He finally freed you from his arms and left the room.

Scaramouche

Scaramouche had once again been working all day and it had gone on longer than expected. For weeks now you have had dinner alone and it has destroyed you. Scaramouche would constantly make the empty promise of being home earlier although, he never was. Currently, y oh we’re at the dining table picking at your food that was quickly growing cold. You heard the sound of a door opening from another room, you were on edge of your seat just waiting for someone to attack you until you heard a distant “I’m hungry…” it was Sara! He has finally come home! He walked into the room and groaned at the sight of food.

“Hello darling, thank you for waiting for me…” Sacra spared you a small smile before sitting down and stuffing his face with food. Scaramouche may be here now but he hadn’t been for weeks, you were hanging on by an already splitting thread. You had been stressing. For about two weeks now you had been stressed over the question of ‘is Scaramouche going to leave me?’ The man finally noticed that you weren’t eating a bit of your food, just looking at it. He frowned and chews the food that was in his mouth quickly before saying, “Are you okay?”

He didn’t sound worried at all. You didn’t aw see and Scaramouche relaxed his muscles. His eyebrows furrowed as he tended, your lack of answers caused tension to thicken within the dining room. “ answer me, or are you a deaf bear?” He glared at you but he was obviously confused. You continued to avoid eye contact and did not reply to any of his questions.

Scaramouche stared at you with a look that just read ‘talk to me or I’ll force answers out of you. Still, you were silent. “This again? Are you worried about something? Only a fool would once again resort to starving oneself.” His words sounded mean but they were filled with good intentions. He quickly noticed that you weren’t making any movement to west your foot, so he looked at you with one final glare before getting up and saying in the calmest tone ever, “ I refuse to eat with you until you choose to actually eat.” The man cleaned his plate beginning to walk out of the room causing you to finally meet his eyes, "Darling, I love you, you should know that. Eat please I'm taking work off tomorrow." He said in the most sincere tone you've heard from I'm before he left the room.

#genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact angst #kaeya x reader #kaeya x gender neutral reader #genshin kaeya #kaeya angst #kaeya x reader angst #genshin ayato #ayato x gender neutral reader #ayato x reader #ayato angst #ayato x reader angst #scaramouche #genshin scaramouche #scaramouche angst #scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x reader angst

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id-rather-be-home · 15 days

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Oh I wanted to say something about this but I didn’t want to come off as I’m pushing my opinion into you bc some authors take it that way but after seeing your last ask I kinda am just sharing my opinion too now lmao.

Ok when you said that the fic will be bottom Will from now on I remember feeling so sad lol bc there are hundreds of bottom/sub Will fics and not bottom/sub mike nearly half of that. This fanfic literally felt like what the bottom/sub Mike enjoyers have been waiting for all along and after so long we finally got what we wanted and got it waaaayyy better than we could have hoped for. wwtwcs and maybe one other fanfic was our reward for patience almost, it is sacred. And i really love your writing (the characters AND the smut especially the way you write dom Will). Anyways then the Will in the fic said that he prefers topping and I remember literally shrieking with happiness lmao. I also enjoy the few chapters you wrote with Will being the bottom but still being the one in charge, like I said you write beautifully whatever it is you write. (Like i really don’t like reading sub/bottom Will, just something that’s not for me but you sure SOLD ME on it lmao it was beautiful 💜)

Anyway again, this is your fanfiction and you get to do whatever you want with it. I mean isn’t that how we got here and it became my favourite fanfic in the first place? Also just because there are so little solid bottom/sub Mike fanfics doesn’t mean you’re responsible to contribute to it even though you are one of the lead authors of it right now. I didn’t write any of this to pressure. not like you’re gonna care what a stranger on the internet is going to say but I’m just saying this as a person, like a little child I am🙄, who’s scared that one of the key elements in their favourite fanfic is going to change drastically (not your problem either obviously) I wasn’t gonna say anything but after your last ask, I wanted you to see the both sides of your own little fandom :)

this doesn't come across as pressuring to me so don't worry about that at all!

to be completely honest, when i got that comment on the fanfic i was worried that people actually weren't going to enjoy the sub!mike direction that it was taking me and so i tried to shift gears to bottom/sub will but it didn't really work out because i just... can't really write him very well??? top/dominant will just comes so much more naturally to me because for whatever reason that's what i feel would make sense for his character i guess

however, i've clearly gone off on my own for the fic by this point and have been doing what i want and what i think feels best for the flow of the story as well as the natural progression of the characters. and i have been genuinely SO SURPRISED by the love and praise that my work has gotten. i have literally converted some people to loving bottom/sub mike and i absolutely love that

that being said - i cannot imagine this fic taking any drastic turns from where it is already progressing! when i mention bottom or sub will appearing in some of the chapters, i'm referring to things that i've kind of already explored in previous chapters because will is NOT going to get much more submissive than what has already been seen

like, the chapter i'm working on now that i mentioned in the last ask - he's more 'submissive' because he gets eaten out and then wants mike to fuck his thighs because mike loves them, but will still controls a lot of the pace. also we get a bit of a glimpse into will's oral fixation but he can still be in control even with mike's dick down his throat lol

i don't think that will's preference for fucking mike in the fic is going to change because that's my preference to write which i guess is really what it comes down to at the end of the day

and when there are chapters of will bottoming (because i do have a couple planned) he's still very much in control while mike is submitting and just doing everything he can to please will and be good for him. like in the riding chapter i mentioned at some point, will literally makes fun of mike and taunts him by saying "you're whining like you're the one getting fucked"

so i do want to reassure those of my readers that come to this fic and love it because it is primarily submissive/bottom mike - that isn't going to change. it's going to still be primarily that with some bottom will sprinkled in where i have already planned it but it won't be anything drastically different

i have 3 bottom will chapters definitively planned and i doubt that the number will get much bigger than that if i'm being totally honest because writing him bottoming is always a struggle

i really do want to please both sides which is why i've been going back and forth on more bottom will appearing, but with each chapter i write, it's just less and less likely to happen so it really should be marketed as a bottom mike/top will fic since that's what it mainly is

and, anon, you do have a point that there are a heck of a lot more bottom will fics for people to choose from, so i am more than happy to provide something for the submissive/bottom mike lovers out there especially because it's something i love as well

i'm sorry that this was ramble-y or if it sounded a little harsh at times??? it isn't at all directed at you anon, or anyone else! i guess this is just me finally realizing that 'when we touch we are caressing stars' is going to be most enjoyed by those who enjoy submissive/bottom mike and that bottom will truly won't make too many appearances

#byler #spicy byler #when we touch we are caressing stars fic #answered 💌

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rainbowvamp · 1 year

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2k into the dragon hatcher au, and I've given Hob the screen name "HobBobRob" because I thought it was funny.

Also, Morpheus is so full of angst it's disgusting what is wrong with him?

Also also. Plot that is not just "dreamling get together" is sneaking in here and I don't like it :(

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There were two comments beneath the listing.

LupeG78: Dude, are you serious? Reported for spam.

HobBobRob: Haha, course he’s not serious. It’s probably for a role-play thing or something. Sounds like fun. Might check it out :)

HobBobRob had also sent him a private message. Morpheus didn’t have much hope for it, considering the comment, but sighed, took a bite of his dinner, and opened the message anyway.

Message from HobBobRob - 8:09pm Hey, that ad you’ve placed is Jobs is going to get you hurt. I would consider taking your address down. It looks like that’s a residential area and if that’s your actual house, giving out the address isn’t a good idea.

Morpheus rolled his eyes at the message and responded just to be polite.

Message from OfTheEndless - 10:24 I have never had a problem before. I doubt it will be an issue now. You need not be concerned.

HobBobRob - 10:26 Yeah, well, between you and me, that sounds like a big fat sack of coincidence, and not something you should be depending on. Someone could literally google maps this and show up at your house in the middle of the night and rob you. Or kill you. Aren’t you scared?

It was almost touching to see this total stranger's concern. Where usually Dream would have ignored such a message, he responded again, feeling that it might bring him some amusement.

OfTheEndless - 10:27 Only the worthy would be able to find my domain, let alone enter it. I have no fear. I would never put my charges at such risk if I did.

HobBobRob - 10:28 Way to commit to the bit, I guess, but I’m serious. This is not safe. I’m a total stranger, and I’m looking at your house on google earth right now. I can see your cat in the window.

Morpheus smirked to himself. He did not have a cat. He hadn’t had a cat since at least 1850.

OfTheEndless - 10:31 I see. Well, if you’re so sure, come and find me then.

HobBobRob - 10:31 Dude, what the fuck? You can’t just challenge people to come and find you.

OfTheEndless - 10:33 I believe I just did. Speak friend and enter.

HobBobRob - 10:35 There aren’t even dragons in the Lord of the Rings. You’re just having me on.

Morpheus smiled to himself. Food half forgotten, mostly being eaten out of pure rote habit than anything else. Every once in a while, people amused him.

OfTheEndless - 10:35 A dragon is the main antagonist of The Hobbit. Or did you only see the movie?

HobBobRob - 10:37 I’m serious. I’m going to come and show up at your house and if I do, I need you to take your address off the internet. I’m not interested in your weird role-play thing, and anyone who is can ask for your address somewhere private.

OfTheEndless - 10:38 Please do. I’m sure you’ll prove me right.

HobBobRob - 10:39 You’re insane. I mean, good for you, have fun, but you’re full batty.

OfTheEndless - 10:41 May I remind you, you are the one of us promising to come to a stranger’s address in the middle of the night.

HobBobRob - 10:42 If I show up, unworthy me, will you take your address down?

OfTheEndless - 10:43 If you make it through the door, I’ll delete the whole post.

HobBobRob - 10:46 You’re on.

#dragon hatchers anonymous au #dreamling

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qumiiiquinnquin · 4 months

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okay

question

is it bad to not want your parents and/or relatives to put your picture online? even those from when you were very small, even a baby? i do not mean this as feeling embarrassed by it, but more scared that my face from throughout my entire life is being put on the net.

both my parents do it, most of my family does it. it was on facebook, so mostly other relatives or family friends, or just friends of individual relatives, would see it. but on facebook you can find profiles of literally anyone, and total strangers can find your stuff.

i remember i asked my mom to please take those pictures down in my freshman year because i really didnt want those pictures of me out there without my consent. my mom did it but got mad at me, and later started doing it again, which also frustrated my sibling and they have since been asking her multiple times to stop.

im a bit of a hypocrite i suppose, since i have shared my own face with others. but that i was willing to do. nobody put it out there without my permission, i gave myself my permission. i feel like im overreacting though, since mostly family and friends saw what was on facebook, and the likelihood a stranger would see it was probably minimal. but it can end up in image searches in google, possibly get reposted elsewhere by someone else without my mom knowing, etc. which makes it a bit dangerous for me to do it myself too.

i rather keep my face mostly confidential, or at the very least not have my life on display without my permission on the internet. i really rather she would just ask, and accept no.

is any of this valid or understandable?

#kind of a vent

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soulbondinghelp · 10 months

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Revisiting this blog now that we have had time to grow and heal

Hey guys, I am the host for the people who used to post on here and I have recently decided to revisit this blog since I have seen some people talking about it again in a positive light. After reading through all of the posts on here, I have come to the realization that a lot of us (including and especially me) were kind of being assholes when we made this blog, even if our intentions were to help people and we did some small amount of good at the time with collecting resources and advice.

The bottom line is, we were judgemental dicks who tried to tell people how they should or shouldn’t handle their spirituality, something very important and close to the heart. Our impulsiveness and misguided desire to help others I feel like did a lot more harm than good. And the only thing to do about that is to apologize and promise to be better people as we try to move forward with our lives. I suffer from paranoia due to PTSD and when we are not on our meds I am an insufferably horrible person to be around.

I was constantly fighting and seeking drama without even realizing it because I thought it was normal. When every single day you get fifteen phonecalls that have people screaming at you/gaslighting you and you also grew up surrounded by family who would do similar things, fighting and lashing out becomes the norm because it’s all that you really know. In these situations, nothing can help you but yourself and taking the drastic actions you’re too scared to do in order to finally take your life back. I was an idiot and I thought that I was fine because I had a therapist and I was “getting help” when in reality, I wasn’t really being helped at all and I was just spiraling and spiraling into more denial because my therapist couldn’t really keep my abuser away from me and any progress I made in therapy was pretty much instantly undone the second my abuser tried to call me or sometimes break into my house uninvited. And it was a catch 22 because no one wanted to be around us for very long when we weren’t medicated and it was hard to find real support or connections for very long since we kept fucking it up in some way and none of the experimental “system rules” we came up with ever seemed to do any good with preventing it.

But that isn’t normal. And I shouldn’t have let myself or anyone in our system become this kind of person. I honestly kind of hate my past self even reading some of the things I wrote on here and typing out this post lol.

Also, I felt like we constantly had some invisible bar we had to reach to ever be accepted by anyone which is part of why we had such a unreasonably strict approach to this blog. When everyone leaves you because you are a toxic person to be around and you are aware that something is wrong but you don’t know what it is, it makes you try to people please in the desperate hope that it can make you less of a broken person.

So again, I want to apologize to everyone we hurt with this blog. We can act like adults now and we are in a much better place. We have mostly retired from the internet lately and I think this trend is probably going to continue since it is just better for our mental health when we don’t post things that thousands of strangers can see and be hurt by if we fuck it up. We have finally managed to cut our abuser out of our lives for good in a way where we can finally feel safe and not feel like someone is going to come after us at any time or stalk us even if it took years to do.

But I’m done with fighting people all the time because the truth is, it doesn’t help anyone in the end, especially not with online discourse. All it does it make things worse and get people hurt. Hell, I’m even done with the community itself because I can’t trust myself not to fall back into the same patterns and fuck it up again. From now on, we are going to put all of our newly found energy and time into becoming the best people we can be and just existing away from the online soulbonding community and most online communities in general.

No more people pleasing. No more being on edge all the time. No more blogs. No more telling people what they should or shouldn’t do or what is or isn’t going on. This is soulbonding. No one even knows wtf we are really dealing with or a lot of the hard gritty things behind why soulbonds are a thing in the first place. All we have is theories and our theories aren’t better or worse than other people’s theories. Even if people don’t see soulbonding the way we do, in the end that is no longer our business because soulbonding should be a personal thing that people should explore themselves.

So while reading through this blog, please take everything here with a grain of salt. Yes, there are bits of good or helpful information here, but some of us were assholes and I 100% admit that and want to not be one anymore.

#tw abuse #very personal post

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vammppyre · 6 months

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intro to me xoxo

whaddup my name's Eli, im 19, and I never fuckin learned how to read.

Anyway, here's some surface-level blog shit before I get into the nitty gritty im comfortable with sharing to strangers on the internet:

fandoms

tv/youtube:

good omens

loki (series)

supernatural (only through season 2! don't spoil pls x)

sherlock

staged.

the good place

dan and phil

music:

taylor swift

boygenius & their solo music

my chemical romance

fall out boy

panic! at the disco (pre-brendon grossness)

paramore

nirvana

foo fighters

apple music profile

spotify profile

books:

pjo/hoo

magnus chase

kane chronicles

carry on trilogy & fangirl

perks of being a wallflower

six of crows/shadow and bone

please don't intentionally spoil! haven't watched/read/listened yet:

dr who

our flag means death

what we do in the shadows

chalice of the gods

trials of apollo

intro continued:

I'm nonbinary & lesbian, (still a little confused sometimes tho). I love reading, watching my fav shows, and doing all types of artsy shit--though I tend to impostor-syndrome myself away from it most of the time. it takes a lot of balls for me but I do post my art on occasion!

speaking of posting - here's some shit about that: I do post really sporadically, mostly reblogging things I enjoy, but occasionally pitching in my own stuff; if its my own art or words or whatever, i put all that under #vammppyre's posts, so if you wanna see all my og content, go there :)

a little more about myself: cats are my fave animal (I have a lot and grew up with them--they're the way to my heart lol); my fave colors are black, gray, and red; I love nerding out about my interests (why else would I be here lol); and I'm happy so long as I'm around a cat, a loved one, or doing one of my favorite things. On the other hand, I'm a very anxious person--the lexapro helps a bit lol, but I still have a hard time doing the things that scare me--even if that thing is something as little as making an important call, texting a friend I miss, or doing something I really need to do. I'm currently on my own journey to getting to where I can function again, and I'll definitely post about any major point in that for me.

one last thing I have to say - if you're a mutual and you wanna talk to me, do it!! chances are I've thought about it a lot and just don't have the guts. bonus points if you're from east TN or close to it--finding people with similar interests near me makes me ecstatic lol :)

to me, this thing is a diary filled with my handwritten entries, magazine clippings, lyrics, and quotes all from things close to my heart. enjoy <3

#intro post #vammppyre's posts #blog intro #introductory post #introduction #pinned post #pinned intro

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rachelsfav-queer · 5 months

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Anon, I appreciate the sentiment, but I have no idea who you are. You’ve sent two asks now telling me the same thing but I don’t know you. Honestly, you’re beginning to scare me.

I’ve said this a few times before but I don’t have good experience with relationships and I know I don’t talk about it a lot but that’s cause I just want to forget it all. But, if it’ll help you understand why I’m currently rejecting you for the time being, then I’ll explain a little bit.

The last & first & only person I’ve ever been in a “relationship” with was extremely toxic. It was someone I met online and I had rushed into the relationship, not really spending time trying to learn who he was. Because of that, not only a couple months into the relationship, I started to see firsthand how toxic he was but it was too late. I was so taken by the glamour of being in a relationship for the first time that I looked past so many red flags. It was awful and he treated me awfully. I still have trauma from certain things he put me through.

The only reason I left was because he tried to convince me to move out of the country and that was a mistake. Even then, I had bonds way too strong with my family and so I never would’ve been able to leave even if I wanted to. So I was finally able to escape and a few months later, I realized how toxic all of it was. The relationship only lasted around 5 or so months, but it still wrecked me and I needed a lot of time to recover.

So please, understand that I will never rush into a relationship with a stranger on the internet ever again. If you are truly interested in me, then please let me get to know you first. I can’t ever go through that experience ever again, I refuse to.

I hope that you will understand cause I’ve deleted both your asks because they made me really uncomfortable. And I am genuinely so scared about posting this.

#rachel talks #rant post #boundaries #anon

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