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we all agree that quanyin = bingqiu on crack right
#puppy x reluctant cat#younger/older#shixiong/shizun thing#'i hurt him he's gonna hate me forever' *literally doesn't care*#svsss#tgcf#bingqiu#quanyin#yy#qyz#sqq#lbh#meow
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What are your thoughts on the yandere purge? :> if it’s not too much trouble, could you write about izuku and his darling, both such… obsessive people . the only difference is darling is obsessed with, you know, not dying where dekus more obsessed with the anxiety ball pacing her home an hour before the purge. Thank you!
oh my GOD the yandere purge is the hottest thing! I can't recall who originally created it but oh my-oh my god theyre so smart.
(Truth be told tho I know I'd be fine if it was a legit irl thing cause no one would want to nab me and you know what? I'm okay with that)
(And it's never too much trouble!!! literally my pleasure wink wonk)
All Izuku can think about is you.
Pretty little you. Soft, sweet you. Beautiful, smart you.
Not smart enough to avoid getting taken, but that works out in his favor, and honestly? Izuku thinks it's kind of cute. Hates that he has to stress you out so much, like a scared little rabbit in a cage - eyes wide, heart pounding, body shaking slightly in fear.
But it's all worth it.
When he gets to cradle your face in his hands, place soft, delicate kisses all over your forehead and cheeks for the first time, taste your lips for real.
Izuku cums way too fast the first time he pulls you into his lap, your wrists tied lovingly behind your back despite the fact that you're drugged ever so slightly. It's just to make sure you don't stress too much, lash out and hurt yourself in your attempts to get away. You look adorable like that too, all sleepy-eyed and mumbly, aware of what was happening but not able to stop it.
"Oh, shhhh, it's okay baby. I'm right here, M'gonna take care of you, don't worry-"
"Wait a minute-wai-w-w-"
"Shhh, don't think, just feel." Izuku always soothes, rubbing your back, petting your sides. His scarred fingers slip between your legs so he can rub thick knuckles against your clit through your panties, and it drives you wild.
"'Gonna cum so pretty for me, yeah?" He looks at you with the softest expression you've ever seen a man make. "You're so perfect, so good."
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He's so much bigger than you are, yet treats you so gently. Soft rolls of his hips as he drives a too-thick cock into your pussy, holding your hands, kissing down your neck as he whispers declarations of love into the skin there.
You try to fight, kicking and wiggling and being as horrible to fuck as you're able, but Izuku doesn't seem to notice.
"Look at me, let me see that beautiful face." Izuku is patient enough to wait for a moment, but when you refuse to turn your face and look up at him, the green-haired man grabs your chin gently, turns your neck for you. "Stop closing your eyes and let me see you." He demands.
When you refuse, he starts drilling into you harder, with more force until it hurts. Your stomach twinges with the stabbing pain and you can't help but open your eyes, already sobbing.
"There she is-" And he's slowing back down again, only putting a few inches inside, grinding at an angle until he can find that little spot inside that makes you shake and moan.
He's gentle, but only if you listen and obey.
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As time goes on you bend, accepting his affection with tired resignation. He's just so insistent, you'd never be able to fight him forever.
But you still try, whining when you feel his heat against your back, a hand on your hip holding you steady as he ruts against your ass.
"Mm, I'm tired.... please, not tonight." But Izuku keeps going.
"Just let me....." His sentence devolves into heavy panting, and the man has to swallow down a mouth full of spit before he can speak again, the soft curves of your body turning his brain to mush. "I won't be... won't be long. We'll go right back t'sleep."
And he does, right after he slips his cock inside while you wince and clench your teeth, the man immediately groaning, spasming as warmth fills you. He cums so quick, always ready for more. But you were tired, and he loves you, so he pets your hair, kisses your shoulder as soon as he regains his breath, stops shaking.
"Sorry baby, you just felt so good, couldn't stop myself." And he never can when it comes to you. "Love you."
And it burns your ears to hear it.
#yandere purge#yandere izuku#yandere boku no hero academia#yandere#tw noncon#yandere bnha#tw dubcon#male yandere#yandere izuku x reader#yandere love#yandere izuku midoriya#yandere midoriya#yandere deku#izuku x y/n#izuku x reader
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I said I would and so I did
Part one
Part two
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"I just feel constantly watched, that's it. It's creeping me out!"
"Maybe it's just the anxiety."
"I mean, the mind can trick you in many ways, maybe no one is really here."
"But what about the footsteps you and Felix heard?"
"I.. don't know yet but this place looks more abandoned than anything. it's probable some homeless people are here."
if that was actually true.
and if this mug could stop dividing his food to share with the others, it would be great.
honestly, he doesn't care that much, there's easier ways to get food and fast, the problem is that he can't right now. There's a certain follower here, which is already unusual, these weird toons following him everywhere and there isn't a place Wilson hasn't placed his stupid technology to keep him stuck in this form.
it's just annoying, that's it. he could lead them around, sure, but it's more dangerous for him than anything right now, he really hates this stupid form.
and he has no idea how to respond, in general, to them.
One asks about why he's so quiet, he tries to explain but they think he's just tired or just had..an ink attack or.. whatever. "His clothes are all full of ink!"
"The whole place is full of ink."
"Yeah but he literally has ink dripping form his hair. And have you seen his eyebags?"
such a weird observation.
what even is an ink attack? Like when he turns into the ink demon?
He wouldn't call it an attack but, sure I guess. Everybody's creative in their own way.
He needs to start being more creative because if they keep up with the cans and the lunch break room, they'll be stuck here forever.
He could wait until they are asleep, but none of them seem to be wanting to sleep.
those two dishes keep mourning over a dead body they haven't truly met before.
The girl keeps analyzing everything, and she's way more close to the truth than anyone, but it'll only drive her mad, like everyone here.
and the cat, acting sweet and kind, acting fatherly towards this demon he doesn't even know.
Either he's dumb, or something else. nothing positive though.
"Are you okay?" Are you?
"Do you need to lay down? Food?"
"Look once you feel better we can start looking for Boris." We can look for Boris right now actually, wouldn't hurt to pay a visit to that silly anxious wolf. Maybe those two can stop crying, it's pathetic really.
they don't even say why, they don't even look for comfort through the rest of the group, truly some kind of masochists.
and since no one here is gonna do anything, unless he does anything, he just got up and left.
They'll follow him like if they are little ducklings anyway.
he is not here anyway, anymore. He left. he's probably thinking of some sacrifice.
it's useless and stupid, you're not gonna get saved or spared, you're just living in an illusion created by your own mind to have some sort of comfort in this place we're all stuck here day by day until the end of time.
but it's stupidly funny how big this place is, very amusing, especially the reactions.
They are all confused and wary, especially because he knows this place despite "being his first time here", the girl is intrigued too, her curiosity will get her killed, the cat is too but he keeps to himself. Not like her.
She asks questions. She analyzes, she talks. The thing no one does here.
she points things out, she tries to find logic and reasoning behind madness and Ink. That's why she's driving herself crazy.
You can't find logic behind something that has nothing but no sense at all.
but it's not much of a problem for him, the rule here is that you are either mute, to keep yourself safe mostly, or you go mad. No in-between.
sometimes you're both too. Depends.
the more they go down, the more they ask questions, which he could answer, but he can't.
"the pipes are broken, explains the ink."
"People were surely obsessed with this joey guy."
"And bendy."
"what is even the deal with the ink demon?"
"Maybe they are talking about the ink illness?"
"Whoever wrote all of this is probably mad."
"I mean, have you seen this place? Who wouldn't be?"
they are there just not quite.
"this is probably an old abandoned studio some crazy lunatics used for either protection or just to have a roof on their head. they probably had some experiences with the ink illness, it could explain why they keep talking about this "ink demon", they could have used the word demon as a substitute for illness."
"like, when people say you're possessed by a demon when you act crazy?"
"Kind of. They think the ink illness doing is because of a demon, or think the illness is a demon itself tormenting them."
If he could sigh loudly, he would.
"why are we even exploring this place. We should go." He's right. This tall smoking cup is right. You should go.
"Because bendy has no intention to stop, and frankly I'm not leaving him here with who knows who." this cat is going to die first.
"is he looking for Boris?"
"Obviously! he's the only one that we haven't found."
"What about the others? Like Alice or..black hat, I don't know." oh? They know Alice too?
well he could do her a favor then.
"Wasn't Alice in heaven? And what would hat even do here?"
"One of his weird stupid experiments?"
"You think this is one of his experiments to figure out the ink illness?"
"Probably. He had a guy with the ink illness caged up like some animal."
He can't even tell who is talking and who isn't, they all sound the same, say the same thing. and he isn't bothering to make a difference between all of them.
"Oh my Lord!" But for the life of him he can't tune out Sammy's annoying voice.
and those finger guns again. They aren't pointing at him so he's fine, they are pointing at Sammy.
"hey! Don't you dare get any closer, ya weirdo."
A man now made of ink, willingly turning himself into a monster to please a lord that didn't exist in the first place.
"Oh, I'm so pleased my Lord! A gift just for me! oh you flatter me." The man says, holding his axe like his newborn child. A faint laugh from his lips.
"I'll make sure this time the sacrifice will make you happy." Ready fo attack, ready to slice their heads off. But how can you go against toons who can bend reality? How can you against things that were built to not follow logic?
Sammy is only human, a man pretending to be ink, he can't compete. but neither can they, truly a show worth to watch if it wasn't for that grip on his shoulder from the older cup, holding him like if he was some fragile vase that was gonna break any time soon, a friend to protect, something defenseless.
Which he was, but he wasn't in danger at the moment, not when Sammy was here, not when hundreds of lost ones have heard the chaos. Not when so many souls floating and swimming in the dark, lurking and waiting to meet the new guests.
no one is going to hurt him though, no one is going to lay a finger on him.
They all worship him, they all love him, he doesn't get why, but in times like this, he's glad.
but he doesn't want to be at the center of attention. He needs a corner, a table, anything to hide and be ignored until he can make a run for it and be finally free from this cage of a body that he's stuck with.
"I said back off!" He hissed, he surely knows how to act brave. He is not. He is nervous, he is slightly shaking. He is scared of the unknown in front of him, on his head, on the floor, kind of everywhere but he doesn't know.
"If any of you get any closer imma start shootin' and it's all over for you." But it's not effective on people whose life matters no more.
#yeah I'll prob tutn thid jnto a fic on ao3#when I'm done thoo#bendy and boris in the inky mystery#babtqftim#bendy and boris the quest for the ink machine#batim#batdr#batim fanfiction
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how do you feel abt klaroline? i always hated them together; i love the them both but i hate them as a couple
Short answer? I hate them.
Long answer? Well, apart from the fact that they're obviously a screwed up ship made only to please fans (Candice literally confirmed it) and that made Klaus and Caroline incredibly ooc, they just don't make sense and their personalities are too different. And their fans are a big no, the most I've encountered are so toxic and the major problematic part of the fandom (not all of them, before anyone starts crying).
Klaus wasn't in love with Caroline, he just had a weird obsession with her and Caroline was attracted to him in a sexual way, but she was in love with Tyler. They were never "romantic", they had a physical relationship that revolved about Klaus wanting to fuck her.
And once he did, he never bothered to check on her or even give her his condolences after her mother's death. If Klaus loved Caroline, as their shippers assure and swear, he wouldn't have treated her like shit. I mean, even when Stefan asked him if he was still in love with her, Klaus looked close to laughing imo and that should answer everything. And yeah, he asked him if he was gonna do the right thing by her, but that doesn't mean he's in love with Caroline: caring about someone doesn't equal romantic love.
And once more, after that, Klaus forgot about her again. If they were in love, one of them would have seeked the other at least in those seven years Klaus had the hollow inside, or they would have, idk, said "I love you" when he was literally dying. But they didn't, because Klaus was still in love with Cami, the woman he said he'll carry with him forever, and Caroline still wore her wedding ring and she literally said she would love Stefan forever.
So if they were made endgame (thanks god it didn't happen), canonically Klaus would still be thinking about Cami and Caroline would still love Stefan. And don't get me with the whole "however long it takes" because Klaus is always saying things he doesn't mean to get what he wants. His family was a mess and Caroline wouldn't have been able to stand that, especially because Hayley and Rebekah didn't like her, and knowing the personalities of the other siblings they wouldn't be fans of her either.
If somehow that wasn't enough, when Hayley told him she understood what he was going through after losing Cami, Klaus snapped and literally called Camille his true connection, comparing her to Elijah. The quote is literally "you want to commiserate with me, Hayley, but our experiences of grief are not the same. Your husband is dead. It hurts, but we both know the person you share a true connection with is still breathing. So you and I are not the same."
He compared Cami, who was very dead at that moment with Elijah, the man Hayley loved romantically the most. So if that isn't enough proof Klaus loved Cami the most of all his love interests, then I don't know what it is. And he literally sacrificed himself for Cami in s2 when Mikael attacked them. He didn't know the stake wasn't gonna work and that he would come back, so yeah.
I love Klaus, I don't like Caroline but still. Their characters are good, but not meant to be in a relationship. Klaus always put his family first, a family that hated Caroline; so if he had to chose and he would have to eventually, he would, without a doubt, chose his family over her.
So anyway, yes. I love talking shit about klaroline, one of my favorite hobbies.
#klaus mikaelson#caroline forbes#anti klaroline#hayley marshall#camille o'connell#elijah mikaelson#haylijah#the originals#the vampire diaries#tvd#to#niklaus mikaelson#klamille
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Hey, can you do a yandere collector x reader were the collector and the are flame twins? Since they're soul split into two bodies, they can used collector's magic?
(well, this took me a while to understand!)
The Collector goes by he/them and i'm using him
The Collector x Twin!Reader
There are 2 possibilities really. You're either energetic or you don't have any kind of energy.
Energetic Reader
All you two are gonna cause is chaos. You guys have so much energy inside and especially after going back to your human forms, you guys are worse than ever. All you do is run around like a maniac. You guys mess with anyone that you want. I mean both of you have a power that is too powerful for the your own good. Ya'll can play games all day long! You guys probably force people to join to your games as well. I mean no one can stop you guys from bothering people. The Emperor is probably scared of you two. When it's just the one of you, you know it's not THAT bad but when it's the two of you...there truly is no getting out. Ironically you like cold jokes. Sometimes you make them just to annoy The Emperor or someone else. Y'all also gossip a lot, you guys can't mind your own business. Both of you, curious. You guys want to know everything about everybody! You guys also act like each other in a comedic way. Bullying each other as a joke then doing it literally to strangers. The worst part is, both of you know how powerful you are. You both share the same power so for example you found out something new about your power, you can use it on The Collector then show him how it's done. You guys love pranks, you guys do it all of the time! The Collector hates it when you aren't with him. I mean why are you hanging out with someone else when he's there. Aren't siblings suppose to stay together forever? He often gets jealous. Whenever you hang out with someone he just doesn't shut up. He's also very protective of you. If someone does something to you, they are going to die in the most painful way possible. He truly loves you and you love him too. Another headcanon is that; you guys try new dumb stuff. Most of the time it ends with either killing people, burning the place, hurting one of y'all or a traumatic experience but it's still fun. You're never alone, there is always someone who matches your energy! Pretty solid relationship i say.
No Energy Reader
He always wants to play with you but you don't have the energy:( . You not being all that sunny isn't a huge deal for The Collector though! You do play board games with him. You're more mature than The Collector. You protect him from any kind of threat or at least you try to. Also you probably are not a bully...you kinda are. He loves clinging onto you. He never leaves you alone. You both do create chaos but you prefer going slowly while The Collector just goes right into it! He isn't all that patient y'know? The Collector watches you do stuff. Like reading, making food...yeah you get the point. If he wants to cook just like you, oh boy. He's probably going to start a tantrum if you say no so you have no other choice than saying yes. Be really really careful because he might burn down the place. He sometimes pull pranks on you to see your reaction and ngl they are kinda funny. If your someone who is always tired, he'd cuddle you or something. He tries being extra quiet when you're sleeping (fails miserably). He makes a lot of noise but i mean he is you brother so you can deal with it. He hates seeing you without him by your side. I mean what if someone catches you of guard?! He does know that you're really powerful and all but still he worries about his sibling! He's also over protective and possessive too. He want all of your attention! He even gets jealous of the book you're reading. I mean why pay attention to a book when there is The Collector. He obviously loves when you decide to make chaos with him. It's actually pretty fun when you try it out! You guys often have little talks. He trust you with his own life. He tells you anything and everything.
(as i said before it took me a while to understand the request, so i hope i did it right!)
#the owl house#toh#toh x reader#platonic#the collector x reader#toh collector#toh headcanon#the collector x you#platonic relationships#sibling reader#relashionship#toh season 3#toh au#the collector toh#the collector#toh s3
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Tired of ppl erasing Leon's flaws. Anyway, resident evil 4 remake analysis:
The funny thing with the remake is, they didn't actually write out Leon's misogyny from the og; they simply recontextualised it. He no longer says "following a lady's lead just isn't my style", but he DOES say "maybe you aren't heartless after all" to a woman who's saved his life and the life of Ashley countless of times. Hell, Ada is the reason Leon lives past Mendéz, she's the reason he finds Ashley again, she's the reason he is able to find anything in that place, and he still has the audacity to act like she doesn't care, or worse, that she's completely heartless, just because he got his wittol feewings huwt.
Leon's so selfishly caught up in making it entirely personal, even when she established that it wasn't, that he's letting his butthurt feelings literally warp his perception of her into something monstrous. He is quite literally the "one woman wronged me in the slightest way so I will distrust and despise her forever but actually it was just my entitled ass demanding more than she ever consented to give" kind of incel. All she did was kiss him in re2r, she NEVER said it meant anything, or that - fucking hell - she'd be committing to him in any way. I mean the very fact that she should have shot him to get the sample but didn't should be the biggest proof, to the audience and to Leon, that she truly cares and just didn't want him to get caught up in her work, which she actively recognises is not morally sound work.
Also, Leon never once stopped to care about or consider her own turmoil about it?? Every time they talked it was about his feelings and his sense of betrayal and "or are you just using me again", it was never about her. She cares more about him than he cares about her and it breaks my heart. He only cares about himself in this situation, he only cares about how Ada's actions affected him through his own lens, he only cares about his own hurt and doesn't stop for a second to consider hers. He doesn't see Ada as her own person, he sees her for what she could do for, or to, him. He sees her as a projection of who he wanted her to be, not as a person. And that's misogyny at its core.
And as for the fans ignoring every wrong thing Leon has ever done, and instead hating Ada for doing nothing wrong, that too is misogyny :)
Edit to add: it's most clear in how Leon treats Krauser in the exact opposite way. Despite Krauser being a power hungry maniac who killed Luis in front of Leon, Leon still appeals to Krauser's honour, he still tries to put himself in Krauser's shoes and says he "understands" the pain and betrayal Krauser must have felt. And these are all normal, natural reactions to seeing someone you used to respect and admire fall short. But the point is, he reacts this way with Krauser because he saw Krauser as a human being capable of good, whereas he only saw Ada as a projection of who he wanted her to be, and when she wasn't actually like that, he hated her for it.
Capcom's misogyny infects everything they make, and while they genuinely tried making Leon no longer misogynistic, this kinda thing still slipped through because Capcom only sees Ada as a romantic extension of Leon.
Edit again: Another thing is that just because you might think something is in character for Leon/makes sense for him to feel/act a certain way, that doesn't inherently mean he's right to. Like, Leon's an unreliable narrator a LOT of the time - anyone who has survivor's guilt like he does is gonna be. Just because you think it "makes sense" or you understand why he'd be upset, doesn't mean he's in the right to treat Ada the way he did. Leon was also understandably upset with Krauser and his actions, even saying Krauser "won't get away with this", and yet he still approaches Krauser with respect, and tries to empathise with Krauser's experiences. I just need people to understand that this double standard from Leon is obvious and misogynistic, that's all.
#leon kennedy#Ada Wong#resident evil#resident evil 4 remake#resident evil 4#re4#re4 remake#leon s kennedy#re4r#resident evil analysis#re4 analysis#this is an Ada Wong defence account#leon stans there's no hope for you is there
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BARGING IN WITH MORE SONG THOUGHTS, EXCEPT I EXPLAIN WHY WITH EVERY LYRIC THAT FITS
Losing face by wilbur soot fits bodyguard enid when she realizes that wednesday actually has -had tbh, enid just doesn't know that- something with joel >:)
Oh, let it be said, my dear
I was gonna wait for you
So this is not an act of spite
It's a visceral coming-to
reference to how long enid has been longing and when she sees them, she realizes that she literally wasted years doing this because in the end even if there was a slim chance that wednesday and her could've been something; that possibility has already left
Tonight, I'm fucking drunk
So it's all gonna be about me
Take a seat, pull up a chair
Give me one beat to fill my glass
I've lost a piece of me in you
possible relapse to enid getting back into drinking?! most likely. It doesn't help, it never does but if Enid can excuse the burn from her throat to be alcohol instead of the choking sob that wishes to escape then she'll take it
Is he better than me?
Has he seen more to this life?
Can he smoke more?
enid generally wondering just what is she doing wrong. was she too happy? most likely. Is he richer? was money the issue? maybe the social class is too grand, maybe Enid could've never stood in equal footing in the first place. She's just desperately grasping at straws and trying to understand
Can he break me?
Can he break you?
Oh, I don't know what I'm to do
Yes, I don't know what I'll fuckin' do
enid wondering what can she even do with this information. Sure, there's the protectiveness of hoping that he's a good match but what about her? What about Enid? Wednesday most likely already has a man and Enid is left the same as always, stagnant and wishing to drown.
She knows that when this trial ends and she doesn't get the job, she wouldn't learn a damn thing. All she got out of it is meaningless cash and a reminder that some things aren't meant to be
I've seen him
I've been him
I've felt the same way
But now I break against the dirt
reference to in the 2nd chap where its shown that joel clearly has obvious feelings. She sees how he lights up when Wednesday even glances at him and it hurts, because she's the same. Its like looking at a mirror and Enid hasn't looked at mirrors in forever. Its bitter and never has she ever wanted to deck something as hard as then.
I've lost all meaning
I've lost my sense of hope
I've seen him going out with you
I've seen what he can do
Here's the thing, Enid is a professional. She has taken up being a bodyguard because it means she can protect and Joel? He protects well. He's practically perfect! and Enid can't hate him, no matter how hard she wants too. He's a good guy and it makes the churning of distaste in her stomach all the more suffocating because he's so obviously the better choice.
I don't care, I want you here
As long as you're happy, I don't care
Enid is selfish, she's needy and she craves for a person that isn't hers in the first place. But as she downs that last drink, she'll close her eyes and remember that in the end, that doesn't matter. What she feels doesn't matter because even if she's jealous, even if she wishes to be by her side-
It doesn't matter, not when Wednesday is happy and that's all Enid has ever wanted.
To see the woman she loves happy even if she isn't the cause.
anyways, tell me if you want more of these bc i like doing this >:)
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need a good like 3 hour leon oral edging sesh (him edging you, not the other way around). for mental health reasons. in a dom or a sub way. any version of leon, young or older, i don't care
leon loves eating pussy. we, as a society, have established this, so when you come to him with a proposition that involves him getting to eat you out for hours? he's between your thighs in seconds, no more questions asked.
he's lapping at your clit like his life depends on it, and you only have to guide him a bit. he gets a little too goal-driven, and he's so used to focusing on just making you cum, you gotta tell him when to stop and kinda playfully push his head away (honestly edging you is harder on him than it is on you lmao he just loves to make you cum)
after about an hour, he's found the rhythm. drool and your slick is dripping down leon's chin and his jaw hurts a bit, but he doesn't mind. you taste so good, you're so soft and warm against his tongue, he's having the time of his life. he gets to where he'll suck on your clit for a second, enough to make you feel like you're getting electrocuted in the best way possible, before he lets go. and he just keeps going that over and over and over again.
when he finally lets you cum, he gives no warning. you want to protest. you want it to go on forever, but this feels too good to make him stop. you gasp and groan and twitch, and leon slides two fingers into your dripping cunt to give you something to clench around, cause he's nice like that <3 it kinda feels like you're gonna pass out, you cum so hard and for so long, and leon keeps going until you squeal your way back into full consciousness ^-^ <3 (<<is gnawing on his own arm)
- 💚 anon
IVDKDNFK everytime you send me something i go crazy you’re basically my source of leon food atp <333 ugh i need this so bad !!!!
leon thinks eating you out for literal hours solves all his problems :( whenever he has a particularly bad day he just wants to bury his face between your thighs to and drown himself in you 🥺 there’s little to no explanation given either– is a whimper. you really have no choice but to relax for him and let him take what he wants, make you feel fuzzy and nice. he hates when he pulls away from your swollen clit more than you do– he wants to feel you cum, but not yet. not right now. he soothes your writhing with a kiss to your tummy, right below your belly button, almost like an apology, before lapping at you again. this goes on for literal hours. ugh and ik your orgasm would be one that burns white hot and makes your ears ring. the kind where the only noise you make is a strangled noise before going completely silent UGH!!!
re2 leon would definitely be like you said – way too eager and focused on making you cum. so when you squirm too much he’ll ask am i… am i doing good? just reassure him he’s perfect and that you don’t wanna cum, you just wanna feel good. baby boy nods and tries to slow down, but sometimes he’ll get too pussydrunk and sucks your clit for a little too long and accidentally makes you cum </3 and he may or may not have also came as well <3
#💚 anon#thirsts tag#gnaws at the bars of my enclosure foaming at the mouth#PLEASE I WANT THIS SO BAD HNNGGGG#ok but imagine doing this while you’re high too 😔😔#HNGG
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the is that enough / she sees me parallel has been haunting me forever! I'm 100% sure they're doing that on purpose, they're not that blind to their own writing. just hate that they always leave it there (because honestly, buck and eddie can't be that oblivious. especially with she sees me better than anyone, buck would never say that to his best friend who knows him best)
Oh, they definitely are, those are some conversations that they could totally go back and repurpose if they ever decide to make these two oblivious idiots stop being oblivious idiots, and well, I will always have faith. But the whole I feel like she sees me, you know? Like she really sees me for who I am and what I've been through thing (I am not about to excuse Buck for saying that, it is a shitty thing to tell your best friend, nothing can actually make it okay for him to say that to Eddie of all people, who's been reading him like he's favorite book since the moment they met and I kinda wanna smack him for it) is that I kinda think that Buck needs someone to not think his death was a tragedy and he needs that from someone who doesn't have a baseline of his behavior pre-death. Which makes Natalia perfect for his brand of repression, since death is not scary to her and she didn't know him before, she's not gonna be affected by the fact that he died, so Buck can talk about his death in a controlled environment. Because, like, Buck is not stupid, he sees the way it affected the people who love him, and I feel dying took away his main coping when it came to near death experiences or traumatic events in general, because Buck hadn't almost died in a while, after the warehouse fire on Buck begins, the next situation that almost kills him where he is the focus, is the lightning, and even before that he's very nonchalant about the blood clots, his fear with the truck wasn't dying, it was losing his leg/not being able to work, and the tsunami he was too focused on Chris to care about himself, but now he has no where to divert the focus, he has nothing to allow him to turn around and say "it wasn't that bad" or "that wasn't about me" because it was that bad and it was about him. He did die. And the whole thing with the way they wrote him and his passively suicidal tendencies is not that he's actually trying to die by doing things and not caring if death comes or not, is just that he doesn't think it will matter if it does die, he doesn't think his life matter in the grand scheme of things. But now death is not just some possibility, something that comes with the job, something that could happen, he died, he has feelings about it, it almost broke the people he loves and he doesn't want to look at that, because to look at that he needs to look at everything else that happened to him. Natalia is a shortcut into dealing with death, because it's literally her job to make alive people okay with death, she doesn't know who he was before and he doesn't care about her enough to wonder if his death is hurting her, which allows him to be his bashful, giggly "I'll start by saying I woke up in a world that was both everything and nothing I ever wanted it to be" and make his death a cute little story in a way that would, honestly, make someone who actually cared about him yell (Eddie storming off after bucktalia talk about how awesome it is that he died 2024).
The whole thing that's going on there, in my opinion, is not that she sees him, it is that she's seeing what he wants her to see and that's the appeal. Because Buck is all "I feel like I have to try and be the same old Buck, mostly for the sake of everybody else" when literally NO ONE is asking him to be anything other than himself. If he wanted to scream, cry, break things, shave his head, grow a beard, dye his hair red, get matching tattoos, get a new car, take a month long vacation on the mountains, get a dog, leave the loft, as long as he's not hurting himself, Eddie, Maddie, Bobby, Hen, Chim, they would all be completely on board, as long as it helps him. Buck is the one refusing to talk. Buck is the one refusing to accept this big thing happened. Buck is the one trying to just go back to before. He wants to acknowledge death changed him but he doesn't want to deal with the fact that his death changed other people. Because if he decides to be honest about it with Maddie, Bobby, Eddie, he has to deal with so much more. He has to deal with Daniel, he has to deal with Eddie being shot, he has to deal with every time he feared he lost Bobby, he has to deal with the well, with Maddie being kidnapped by Doug, because if he allows himself to accept that they are allowed their own set of feelings about his death, he has to accept that he is allowed his own set of feelings about what happened to them and then shit gets too real for him.
#my repressed summer child#he knows if he looks at everything he will break#its why he doesn't#so he cant deal with his death with someone he loves#because that will be too much#but thats just me#911 meta#buck#i really need a tag for asks#anon 😌#i just kept talking huh
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Hi, I sent you an ask a while ago about Ken taking care of your wound. I hope I didn't overshare in the first part of the message. I just wanted you to know you're not alone in your feelings.
Hi sweetheart!!! No please don't worry!! I meant to respond to you (not as a posted ask ofc, but rather making a separate text post without any details/info attached for your privacy) but my depression hit me super hard the last few days and I wasn't able to get back to anyone in a timely manner the way that I planned. I got over 30 asks this week that I was hoping to answer but,,, my brain has turned into a burnt out baked potato since I've picked up so many extra shifts fjhgjfdgh
You didn't overshare, don't worry about that. I thought about you a few times this week and hoped you were doing okay, or well, as okay as you can be given the circumstances. Thank you for empathizing with my situation, and I'm very sorry for what you have to put up with. Literally as I was reading your message I was thinking "dude are we literally the same person or something??" I have gone through almost all of those scenarios, of course not EXACTLY but my god it seems pretty close. and uh. it sucks. It hurts and it sucks..... ughh. We deserve better. It will get better. It's completely normal to have periods in your life where you feel so unbearably lonely and sad -- granted, our lonely period has been. like. forever lmao but like -- we WILL be surrounded by love and acceptance and one day we will forget how it felt to be in our current situation we're in rn. It's gonna get better. It feels super impossible and really hard everyday but dude it WILL get better bc that's how the universe functions, everything is temporary, eventually something will shift and new opportunities will come, or new people who bring you joy.
In the meantime, I am mentally holding your hand through any bad day you have. Thank you again for empathizing with me, bc honestly I hear sooo many stories about how people have... great experiences with the subject you wrote about, and it just makes me feel so bitter and resentful bc like... I'll never have that. And of course I am SO sorry that you go through the same feelings as me and the same, uh what's the word [squints] situations? events?? I don't know how to phrase it. but your message brought me a little bit of comfort to know I wasn't the only person who has to deal with that. I am surrounded by so many ppl who are so, so close with their families and watching that kind of thing makes me feel so bitter sometimes, and it just makes me wanna walk directly into the ocean dfshlfhslfksdsfd
I also want to say thank you SO MUCH for telling me Ken would patch up my wounds 😭😭 that was nice of you to take the time to do that for me ;-; I always beat myself up so much after I hurt myself, bc as you are aware of uh. [gestures to our unnamed topic] I've had bad experiences where i've hurt myself and have just gotten yelled at or ignored altogether, so. I just assume my F/Os would hate me for it. I get extra sad with Ken especially bc he's a doll and he's never seen human blood before, so my thoughts are always "oh he'd be scared of me and grossed out and hate me sooo much" but you were the first and only person who said "hey actually he'd be concerned!!!" and I just. wept. in a good way ofc!! but dude I just bawled after reading that, it was something I needed to hear so badly. Especially the lines "Ken loves you, Keri" "You know he doesn't half-ass things when it comes to you" and my favorite "He would draw you a little horse on the bandage, if you asked him to (he hopes you ask him.)" Ofc I will ask him I will PLEAD with this man to draw a very sparkle horsey in a pink glittery pen :] anyway I hope you don't mind I saved that particular paragraph so I could go back and reread it to cheer myself. I read it again today while I was at work actually!
Virtually I am giving you a big hug and flowers 💐💕✨ be safe, be well. I am sending you love and stars across the internet 🌟
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For the Champion Emmet AU, whenever you mention Emmet's reign of terror, it takes a moment for me to remember that he's 'just' beating lots of trainers and crushing their dreams, not enacting a literal reign of terror. What if being Champion did give him actual political power? What kind of reign of terror would he start?
I'm gonna be honest bruv, I hate any & all politics with a deep insidious burning passion and you could not even pay me enough to willingly talk about it even in regards to a fictional character. SO instead I'm gonna turn this ask a different way -
Let me start by saying this: EMMET IS A GOOD GUY. He's not inherently evil or hateful, by any means, ok?
& now prepare below for a ramble -
Sure, Emmet in his role as Champion might be cruel & cold-hearted in battle as well as be exceptionally prone to snapping at people probing too deep into his business... but he's not a bad guy. I jokingly call his years as champion as his 'reign of terror' but honestly he's really hurting & had a number of very bad experiences that lead up to him becoming prickly, easily aggrevated, & even ruthless when it comes to battling - but bUT BUUUUT, it doesn't continue like that forever!!!
Emmet really is a good guy. Not even hidden deep down or anything, but he's genuinely a kind, passionate guy!!! But he was so hurt by the loss of his brother & how the rest of the world ignored him & treated him with such disregard that he started acting very... not like himself.
Thus, enter his Champion Emmet persona.
& also, listen. I hate hearing people shit on variations of Emmet that aren't always perfectly happy & chipper, even with his brother & best friend vanishing out of his life. So please, give Champ Em some leeway - this isn't who he truly is, it's more a way he could cope & struggle through his grief.
& trust me, coming from someone who went years without being correctly diagnosed & treated properly for multiple mental health issues, I was a snarky, needlessly cruel & rude fucking asshole more often than not. & that's not who I am, at all! Likewise, Emmet went through an extreme amount of trauma & needed professional help & even therapy to break through this harsh, cold exterior to his sweet, old self that he had hid away when the world around him was complete offset.
I'll tell the follow up story later [if anyone wants to hear it, though I strongly doubt anyone reads this or even cares lmao] of how Champion Emmet returns to his old self & ends up becoming one of Unova's most well loved public figures. But for tonight, that's as far as I'm gonna go.
So yeah, sorry I'm not answering your question, but I hope this bit of rambling is ok!!! x0
#asks#champion emmet#keeping it minimal but !!!#theres plot! i swear!#i just know no one wants to hear about my silly au so blah#sorry this is all i gots
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Please mind vomit all your stuff about the puppeteer, his relationships with his proxies, his romantic relationships outside of them. EVERYTHING
I am very NORMAL about the puppeteer :) (I'm not)
-reagan
YOU'VE GIVEN ME TOO MUCH POWER, REAGAN i will so gladly mind vomit to you because oh my god i was looking at his relationship map a few moments ago to make sure i remembered zachary correctly and i have so many thoughts about it. but hold on let me talk more about zachary real quick.
zachary hates him. zachary despises his guts. i think the puppeteer is perfectly aware that zachary holds no positive feelings for him, and he finds it a bit annoying, but he ultimately doesn't bother with it. even though zachary wants to escape the puppeteer, and is actively trying to, the puppeteer knows that he never will. zachary is doomed to stay as his proxy until he dies. the only time the puppeteer really gets upset with zachary is when emra is brought into the mix.
he knows that zachary wants emra to escape as well, and that makes his blood boil. the only reason he doesn't hurt him is because emra sees zachary as her kid, and if he hurts zachary then emra will hate him more than she already does.
OKAY NOW FIRST AND FOREMOST i need to talk about his relationship with liu because oh my god i saw it and i had to look at myself in the mirror and tell myself to be normal about it and im about to be Very Unnormal about it.
the thought of the puppeteer being interested in liu, and fascinated by his backstory makes my brain waves go wild. like... he sees liu, and he wants to break him. he wants to take his past, and he wants to use it against him, and he hasn't had any success in doing so just yet. and that just makes him crave more.
he enjoys it when it takes time and patience to break a victim down, it makes the hunt even better. every little detail he learns about liu just endlessly fascinates him, and it makes him want to break him down even more.
it's unclear whether or not liu is aware of what the puppeteer wishes to do to him. if he isn't aware, then he probably views the puppeteer as an odd acquaintance, maybe even a friend. and if he is aware of the puppeteer's intentions, then i highly doubt he really cares. liu isn't going to break the way the puppeteer wants him to. he's already been broken, and it took him forever to put the pieces back together so there was no way in hell he'd ever let himself go through that again.
and i like to think this leads to a toxic sort of friendship between the two, maybe even an unhealthy romantic relationship because why not.
then you have jane.
the puppeteer is literally scared of jane. he was gonna kill her, and then he felt her Vibes and was like 'haha i'm afraid actually so. nevermind.' and jane is completely oblivious to the fact that he's scared of her. he's afraid of her, and he respects her, and she respects him, and he enjoys her company. he sees her as a friend, and i can see him telling her about the more... personal things he keeps to himself, and jane gives him advice with no bias.
she's blunt, and she gets straight to the point. while, yes, he doesn't like being told that he's in the wrong, he does value jane's advice and even ends up having many philosophical conversations with her.
and then you have the bloody painter!
the puppeteer has a lot of respect for helen, and he honestly considers him to be his best friend. would he ever admit that to him out loud? hell no. they may be best friends, but that doesn't stop the puppeteer from feeling envious of him.
being friends with helen has made the puppeteer realize that he longs to be human again. this is a secret that he won't ever tell anyone because it makes him feel weak. just that jealousy alone is enough to send him into a rage and he has to remove himself from the vicinity out of fear that he may hurt helen if he's not careful.
helen isn't oblivious to this, he is aware that the puppeteer feels many conflicting emotions whenever the two are around. at one point, he probably even suggests that they stop being friends because it clearly takes a toll on the ghost. the puppeteer shut that idea down immediately however.
helen was the closest thing he had to feeling human these days. he couldn't lose that.
and i literally love the idea of him basically viewing sally as a little sister and just. treating her as such. love that. adore it, even.
he finds jeff to be a nuisance and actively avoids him whenever he's around nothing more nothing less.
oh toby hates him so much too man i just know it. the puppeteer is well aware that toby has a deeply dark past, and similar to liu, he actively goes out of his way to try and break him down. the puppeteer feeds off the negativity that toby ends up feeling whenever the ghost bothers him.
he has to be careful, of course, because he's well aware of the harm that toby can cause him if he pushes him into a violent reaction.
not to mention slender certainly won't be too keen to learn that someone is messing with its proxy.
i, personally, like to imagine that he, jason the toymaker, and the doll maker all are in this odd mutual respect friend group of sorts where they teach each other how to make certain things and how to repair stuff and like. the puppeteer teaches them how to make puppets, jason teaches them how to make wax figures and vine teaches them how to make dolls. it's like a really weird knitting club.
AND LIKE man. the thought of the puppeteer falling in love with someone again after everything that happened with emra... i think he would feel a confliction of emotions.
he would feel guilt, first and foremost, because it felt like he was betraying emra almost in the same way she betrayed him. but i also think that he's well aware that he and emra were never going to be a couple again, and that moving on was an okay thing to do. for him, at least.
i also think he would be confused, because after his death, he doesn't particularly feel emotions the way he used to. certain emotions, such as anger and sadness, come to him naturally but everything else feels more muted. so for him to feel love towards someone? a human, no less? it would certainly lead to him feeling highly confused.
and then i think that confusion would morph into slight annoyance. being in love means he has a weakness now, one that he knows certain people will try using against him. he tries to convince himself that he isn't in love, and yet he finds himself continually gravitating towards the object of his affection. that only serves to add to his annoyance, to be honest.
and when he finally comes to terms with the fact that he's in love? you best believe he'll try to keep his lover around him at all times.
after everything with emra, the puppeteer most definitely developed strong abandonment issues, so having his partner by his side all the time certainly helps to silent the thoughts of his partner potentially leaving him one day.
not to mention... they're human, they'll die one day. they could die earlier than needed if they aren't careful, so the puppeteer also likes keeping them around to keep an eye on them. keep them out of harm's way.
ALSO he bleeds and cries a like... golden plasma of sorts... and it dries black... and it stains whatever it touches so i have so many thoughts about that too like. the puppeteer has black tear streaks permanently stained on his face.
just think about all the endless possibilities with this knowledge. think of emra having black tear drops forever stained onto her porcelain, something she earned early on when she was brought back to life in her fragile body. just... the puppeteer leaning over her, crying, hoping that he was actually able to succeed in bringing her back.
also, can i just say that in control by nemesea is like... a song i heavily associate with the puppeteer these days?
so uh yeah. enjoy these thoughts, because they are a mess, i think.
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How would TOS Kirk react to his gn s/o being worried about his safety?
Sorry I'm taking forever writers block has been a bitch kms, tysm so much for requesting tho, I hope this is decent, it's my first time actually writing for star trek that isn't just me w/ ai chatbots💀 umm the other requests are coming along (not really) I'm trying tho I swear. um I just kinda wrote this out quickly b4 school so I hope it's not too bad bc I didn't put it in a Grammer checker
(omfg finding a gif for this man is so hard)
possible tw for Jim being insane and getting himself hurt
also this more hc type than a one shot so it's kinda short, reader is an engineer bc I couldn't really see them being anything else in this situation unless their a doctor
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"I'm fine, you don't need to worry." yeah that doesn't do anything for them, he literally says that everytime and ends up hurt
tries to get bones back him up that he's safe during missions and his s/o has no reason to worry.
mccoy is brutally honest, that he's not at all fine but that he knows Jim will do his best to get back to his s/o and that that he will do his best to patch him up so he's okay
helpful but doesn't always stop the worrying.
doesn't dare hide when he's injured, he knows it only makes it worse so everytime he's hurt and he knows his s/on isn't busy he'll have someone tell them that he's at least conscious.
does his best to push past the pain to at least give a little smile and nod, maybe grab their hand to let them know he's still there, not dead yet.
he's jokes about it sometimes, finds it cute unless they're like really worried about him. then he'll stop teasing and just try to reassure that he'll do his best to stay safe.
he plays off his pain allot and it's really hard to tell if he's actually fine or just acting, so when he knows sickbay isn't incredibly busy he'll head down to get himself checked out so his s/o can know he's fine medically
he hates it sometimes though, he feels bad for worrying them and he really doesn't like people fussing over him so he does his best to convince them himself.
if it's not too bad but he still has to stay in sickbay, he'll drag them into the bed just to hold them.
sometimes he's worried for himself too, but just having is s/o there helps him more than he can describe.
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some lil snips bc I thought this was too short 💀
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"I'll be fine, you don't need to worry about me. See look, I've been fine all these times, I'll be fine again." He reassured with a small smile, gesturing to himself. "James, your never fine, just because you haven't died yet doesn't mean your fine"
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"Bones, back me up here, I'm fine! Would you tell Y/n that I'm fine? They don't believe me." McCoy sighed, he always got pulled into these fights. He looked over to Y/n with a caring expression, watching them look over Jim anxiously, incredibly worried by the bloody state he was in.
"He's a little roughed up but he'll come around. He's gonna do his best to come back to you and I swear I'll do my damnest to keep him livin'."
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Jim was bearly conscious, incredibly tired and warn out from the fight he was thrown into. He weakly waved over a nurse and asked for his s/o, asking them to let them know he wouldn't be in his quarters and was in sickbay, and that he'd try to wake up if they wanted to come down when their shift was over.
Once they came he'd forced himself to wake up, his brown eyes half-lidded while he reached over and grabbed their hand. There was a soft, loving smile on his face when he did, glad that his s/o was alright. It always helped him get better knowing they were.
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He wasn't incredibly injured, but McCoy had instead he stay in sickbay. Once his s/o came his entire mood brightened and he scooted over so they could sit with him. "I'm not too bad, Bones said he wants to watch over me though." He sighed, wrapping his arms around his lovers waist and tiredly resting his head on their shoulder a small smile on his face just having them near him.
"Well I'm glad your not hurt too badly." They mumbled, running their hands through his hair and looking him for any other injuries. The captain just nodded and closed his eyes, his breathing relaxed and calm with the touch, more comfortable now that they were with him.
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#jim kirk x reader#james kirk x reader#this is so short#im sorry#tagging is embarrassing asf idk why😭#jim kirk x gn reader#james kirk x gn reader
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Would things have been different had I not gotten arrested this last time? Or the first time? I keep replaying those moments in my head, both times we said I LOVE YOU to eachother... Both times u told me not to go, you warned me I was gonna get in trouble every time I have, even last time I saw you we both said I love you. what happened? I've tried to fix my mistakes and I couldn't even get you to stop talking to him no matter what I did... would things have been different had I not fought for you then and now? Would you want me if I didn't want you? I still can't fucking do that no matter how much this hurts I still love you and it's literally fucking destroying me, I'm not ok n u don't care, I still love u even though u haven't called me at all, I still love you even though I kno where your staying, I want to hate you I want to pretend I never want to talk to you again but I can't stop, no matter how badly I want to just worry about myself I worry about you, and if I'm not worrying I'm remembering your smile and laugh and the cute little voices you'd do especially when we were looking at rocks for your collection. I can't stop myself from messaging and calling and being ignored, I worry if you sent those screenshots to him cuz he'll show brandy on Tuesday or Thursday and I'll go back to jail if he didn't already call her about the other night when I wanted to jump out and rage, that hurt I shouldn't have even went that way cuz I knew is see you there, I knew you wouldn't answer my calls, I doubt you'll even actually read this or even the notes I gave to you, I still have that Polaroid of your tits, the one you burned the face out of, I keep it inside my phone case, I'm still waiting for you, I can't even touch myself cuz nothing turns me on other than your pictures and as soon as I see any picture of you I cry and I hit things and sit on the floor and ask myself and whatever higher power is listening WHY, I beg saying please no don't take her from me but it doesn't matter... your gone, probably forever and I'm haunted by memories I can't sleep i haven't eaten in days I want to die but I can't do it myself, you don't care the message you sent me flashes in my brain every time I blink "the truth is" and I know you didn't wait for me and I'll probably never have you again, I don't want to see you with him but I can't fuckin unsee it I want to talk to you in person cuz maybe by some miracle you'll see I do love you before it's too late and my stupidity and feelings get me in a bigger mess or worse crash and die going 100 cuz that's the only way I've found I can escape you, until I slow down then I see you again in the passenger seat screaming at me to slow down and I do and your gone, I miss you so fucking much and I'll always love you i just wish so much was different, I wish we were together again but it doesn't matter at this point you clearly don't love me and I don't blame you I hate myself every day I wake up n see what I've lost- turned a runaway dog into the police station, turned my life upside down I hope I can move on someday as easy as you have 💍💜
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I've fully relapsed. I just want to be pretty...I just want to feel fucking pretty. I've lost 3lb in one week by starving and I plan on doing it forever. fuck it. I don't care anymore. I hate myself so much I deserve it. Because I'm not fucking good enough for any fucking thing.
I'm so fucking sad I'm so sad. I wish I could fix it but I know I can't. I know I'm the problem I'm always the problem. Why isn't he sweet to me hardly ever anymore... why isn't he affectionate with me like he used to be... he says he used to be "so excited" to be around me and now it's different..it's like he takes me for granted and honestly I don't blame him because I always have some sort of problem. I'm too sensitive. I start drama and fights even though I don't want to..I just want to communicate.....I do...but it makes him feel like a bad person so I can't... I can't... I have to stay quiet I have to keep my mouth shut I don't want him to feel bad.....
He's only lovey with me when he's fucked up.. and that hurts so fucking bad it's making me want drxgs more because that's when I feel the most loved. how did we get like this. We almost never have sex unless he's fucked up or drunk. and when we do it sober it doesn't feel as intimate... as close.. I want that closeness back ... once or twice a month is literally almost never especially when half the time it's because of drxgs that I even get that connection... he used to want me. often. he used to make it known that he was so attracted to me and I've been losing that too for a long time and I know it's because I'm fucking fat I know it's because my body is disgusting so I have to change it. I have to be prettier for him or I'm gonna lose him because I know he would rather be with someone who's hot... and I'm not......not like the bitches he used to follow. or the girls he used to heart react even when we were already together.. I'll never be that pretty how am I gonna keep him... I hate myself so much I hate myself so much...
I hate that I have these thoughts...I want reassurance so bad but how can I ask for it when if I tried it would be "why do you think all these bad things of me" or "sorry I'm a shitty person" or "if I'm so bad why are you with me" or "why do you have to start fights" FUCK IT I have these thoughts because he treats me completely differently than he used to...but I can't even approach it I cannot communicate or speak on things that hurt me I can't fix anything....so I have to keep hurting because I love him so much...and I know....I know if I was better...then I would deserve to be treated the way he used to treat me...I just have to be better.....
I want to ask about K but I can't.. why did he delete the Convo off of his messenger if there was nothing to hide...we were already together at that point... He says nothing happened so then why is it deleted.... Why did he send her those emojis letting her know how hot he thought she was if she was just a homie.... I don't want to think he's lying but he's lied about his past and about drxgs and about contacting his exes and all kinds of things to protect my feelings so what if...what if this is another lie..... But I can't mention that either he will just get mad......god everything hurts I just want it to go back to the way it was...I just want to be able to communicate....in a healthy way.... I just want ...maybe I want too much but I just want to feel like the most important woman in the world to him. I want to feel like I'm precious to him... I want to be fucking babied sometimes. I want to be kissed up on. I want him to look me in my eyes and tell me I'm so beautiful. that he adores me. God. I want to see the love in his eyes the way I used to...what's wrong with me...
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