Vent post ahead that may change your view on me and that may sound dramatic (NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE, THIS IS JUST IN GENERAL) Mostly just to get out my feelings. I only ask that if you look, to be kind and understanding and patient. Also the tags are silly and id appreciate if you read em. id appreciate if you didnt ask me anything on it
I feel toxic sometimes because i can get so jealous i borderline gatekeep things and I always feel so bad because its never intentional but then I end up hating myself because I know its unhealthy and irrational but I cant help it, and I know im so lucky and have a lot in many senses of the word, but at times it feels like they can be taking everything, because when I like someone or something, they tend to matter a fuck-ton to me. Im sorry to anyone ive lashed out at a bit for them wanting what I have, I really am. Its not coming from a place of hostility, rather a place of trauma responses and hyperfixation that stem from my adhd and autism but like when I try something and it goes great, and then someone else is like "OOH thats awesome I wanna do that too" It feels almost like when Im finally happy or excited or proud to have something, someone comes and takes it. Usually Ill play it off as a joke, but in reality, its complete honesty that im trying to soften so I dont upset anyone, especially when its over fiction or a person, because I do NOT own them and I know that, but it bothers me when someone swoops in to do the exact same things or even one-up especially when its really soon after me, and since my self worth is already abysmal, it just makes me feel worse, like I should be lucky to have what I do to begin with, but I feel the need to hold it close to me and protect it so I dont lose things that make me really happy.
Recently Ive even started reverse gatekeeping in response to others, where ill just tell myself I cant or dont deserve to have anything special because I'm not, and only others can enjoy this. But thats why people making me ship content makes me so happy. Its dumb to get jealous over others selfshipping with a character I like. Its dumb to get upset over someone I know copying or taking heavy inspiration from one of my ideas. Its dumb to get possessive over someone else trying to befriend my new awesome friends or wife/wives. I rarely selfship anymore due to my reverse gatekeeping and instead serve the others who simp or enjoy content. I provide since I feel I cant take. It makes me happy and distracts me. But the moment someone else does something similar to what is my toxic coping mechanism for my toxic coping mechanism, it only hurts worse. Thats why sometimes, for example, I get a bit snappy when someone else provides gummybunny (that and also shipping jealousy sometimes). Thats why I get snappy when I make a friend someone else super cool and then another person comes in and wants to befriend them (No darken, this wasnt directed at you, its happened more than once with more than one person but I know how you tend to assume). I LOVE giving but I hate sharing, because all my life whenever I shared, I lost something.
Introduce a friend to a friend? They leave me behind for eachother. Let someone wear my fitbit because they wanted to feel "rich"? It got stolen. Give money to someone in a "rough spot" who promised to repay me somehow? Never saw them again. I was always so trusting and understanding, and I always made excuses for others. Always so naive and gullible. So much so, in fact, that in elementary I kept letting my bullies pretend to be my friends when they claimed they changed, and let them destroy any ounce of worth I had whatsoever. Things that make me happy I CHERISH because of all the things ive lost and all my experiences. Ive never been hit, not once, but the abuse all my life came emotionally and mentally, and I only recently realized through therapy. Now its hard to trust people in certain situations. Sorry for my probably hard to follow and melodramatic rant.
sorry im dumb haha
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Pet, Doll, and Baby for the ask game with your current main f/o!! (I forgot their name (โฅ๏นโฅ))
That would be Starlo, haha!
Anyways, onto the questions under the cut!
Pet - Are either of you big on physical affection or do you show your love in other ways?
Oh, where do I get started on this one? Starlo's very cuddly. Like if gift giving wasn't one of his main love languages, the other would definitely be physical touch. Sometimes he likes to wrap his tail around my hand and arm like a snake, or my hip if he's feeling extra clingy. (He does the same for the others, as well!)
As I mentioned above however, Starlo mostly enjoys gift giving and quality time with me and everyone else. Most of the time I see him spending a lot of time with Ellis or Wheatley, mostly the former. He's also given at least everyone a gift or two throughout our relationship, and I think it's sweet of him. :)
Doll - Do either of you collect anything?
Not that I'm aware of, but I might be wrong! Starlo doesn't seem like the type to collect stuff, but I wouldn't be surprised if he does with one of the others.
Baby - Do you want/have children with your f/o? what about them?
Starlo's thought about it before, but ultimately he doesn't feel ready to be a dad. Last time he took care of a kid, they ended up sacrificing themselves for the sake of monsterkind, and that's kinda haunted him since.
The others are quite the same, so kids are a no-go. ๐
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Halloween/Autumn Themed Selfship Ask Game!
I wanted to try to include asks for multiple types of F/Os specifically as well as romantic, since I feel like non-romantic ones don't tend to get as much love sometimes :3 I know a lot of them work for more than one F/O type but I tried my best, so feel free to just use whichever for whoever lmao
If you reblog this I'll try to send you one! Feel free to send me some too if you want, but no pressure! ๐
Multiple/All F/O Types:
๐ - Do they like Halloween, or do you have to force them to participate?
๐ - Do you enjoy carving pumpkins together?
๐ท - Do they enjoy being scared? What scares them most?
๐ซ - What is their favorite candy/treat?
๐ค - What is/was their very favorite thing to dress up as?
๐ - Do you enjoy decorating for Halloween together? Do you decorate inside and outside, or just one? Neither?
๐ - Do either of you enjoy listening to/telling scary stories? Who does the listening and who does the telling?
๐ป - Do either of you believe in ghosts/the paranormal?
๐ - Whats their favorite scary movie? What's yours?
๐ชฑ - Do they celebrate Halloween in their canon? Is it called something else?
๐ผ - Have you ever drawn/commissioned Halloween themed art of them before (selfship or just in general)?
๐ญ - This is probably uncommon but, do you have any Halloween themed merch of them? Official or fanmade, either count!
Romantic F/Os:
๐ - Do you enjoy watching scary movies together? Do you end up cuddling by the end?
๐คก - If you HAD to do matching couples costumes, what would you pick? Would you both enjoy it?
๐ - Would you two be the type to make a date night out of one of those murder mystery case solving games?
๐ - What would you two think of a haunted house as a date?
๐ข - Would you two ever spend a night in a haunted hotel?
๐ฝ - Would either of you go all out and make a Halloween inspired meal for the other? Or do you just keep it simple?
Familial F/Os:
๐ฌ - Did you ever trick or treat together when you were younger?
๐ - Do you have any family Halloween traditions you like to do together?
๐ข - Would you or have you ever taken a family trip to a haunted amusement park?
๐ฅง - Do you enjoy baking pumpkin pies or apple pies together? Maybe something else?
๐ต - Do you enjoy going to the pumpkin patch together?
๐ฝ - Have you ever gotten lost in a corn maze?
Child F/Os:
๐ญ - Do they enjoy trick or treating?
๐จโ๐ - What will they be dressing up as this year?
1โฃ - Is this their first Halloween?
๐ - Are they the type to enjoy Halloween crafts?
๐ฅ - Do they enjoy trading candy, or do they usually enjoy keeping what they already have?
๐ฅค - If they're older, do they enjoy Halloween parties? Do you let them go?
๐ช - Are they old enough to watch scary movies? If they enjoy them, which one is their favorite?
Platonic F/Os:
๐ - Do you enjoy going to Halloween parties together?
๐งป - Would either of you be the type to TP a house?
๐ - Do either of you enjoy going apple picking together?
๐ฅธ - If you two had a costume contest, who would win?
๐ฟ - Do you enjoy having scary movie marathons together?
๐ - Do you like making piles of leaves just to jump in them?
Pet F/Os:
๐พ - Do they enjoy autumn walks?
๐ - Is autumn their favorite season to be outside, or do they prefer a different one?
๐โโฌ - Would you dress them up in a silly costume? How would they react?
๐ฅฎ - If they're a species that can safely eat pumpkin, do they enjoy it?
๐ฉ - Do you give them a special treat on Halloween?
๐ฅฉ - Do they have any Halloween/autumn themed toys?
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Hello, Loves~
My name is Bunny (She/Her)! I am 18 but this blog is for everyone (adults can check at the bottom if you want content only for you). This is my selfship blog :3, I really hope you enjoy your time here~
Please, please, please, donโt be shy about interacting, I would love to meet and interact with you guys!
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Tags legend, F/O list, DNI and one more thing under the cut!
Tags key:
Bunnys dreamy ideas - f/o imagines by me
Bunnys babbles - random other things, might be me talking, might be a โstuff forโ post, some arenโt f/o related but some are.
Bunnys grumblings - me complaining, most of the time it is not f/o or self ship related
Bunny headcanons - headcanons, most are about my F/Oโs but arenโt really self ship related, mostly just personal ideas about the character. Might open myself up to doing characters Iโm familiar with but donโt f/o someday. These will be updated with time, they are always growing posts.
Bunnys rebloggies - pictures and such I reblogged, nit other imagines but just more personal things
Bunny gives stuff - stuff for posts, which are posts where I show a character and 9 things I would give them or just things I think they would have
Bunnys favorites - my favorite posts ๐
Self Indulgent Additions - these are additions to my reblog games that are really just self indulgent pairings for my F/Oโs
tw ___/cw ___ - this is how I tag posts that have potentially upsetting content, I use both
Not an imagine - exactly what it says on the tin, these are posts that arenโt imagines, though they can be F/O related
Personal gush/ f/o gush - how I tag me gushing over my F/Oโs, whether theyโre pictures or me babbling about them
Not F/O related - this is what I recommend blocking if you are only here for F/O or self ship content
Not technically an imagine - not imagines, but are things that could be used to aid in your imagines
Romantic F/Oโs:
๐๏ธ - Vil Schoenheit (TWST)
๐ - Azul Ashengrotto (TWST)
โ๏ธ - Leona Kingscholar (TWST)
๐โฅ๏ธ - Jamil Viper (TWST)
๐ฅช - Arven (PKMN)
๐๏ธ๐ท - Lucifer (Obey Me)
๐ต๐ฆโโฌ - Mammon (Obey Me)
๐โโฌ - Satan (Obey Me)
๐ - Belphegor (Obey Me)
๐ซ - Barbatos (Obey Me)
๐ซ - Simeon (Obey Me)
๐ฟ - Xiao (Genshin Impact)
๐ฆฆโฒ๏ธ - Neuvillette (Genshin Impact)
๐๐ - Kazuha (Genshin Impact)
โ๏ธ๐งช - Albedo (Genshin Impact)
๐ฐ๐ค - Pantalone (Genshin Impact)
โญ๏ธ๐ - Kaveh (Genshin Impact)
๐ค๐- Jing Yuan (Honkai Star Rail)
๐ฉธโค๏ธโ๐ฉน - Blade (Honkai Star Rail)
๐๐ - Dan Heng (Honkai Star Rail)
๐ด - Hajime Kokonoi, Bonten era (Tokyo Rev)
โ - Ran Haitani (Tokyo Rev)
โญ๏ธ - Rindou Haitani (Tokyo Rev)
๐ซ - Hanma Shuji (Tokyo Rev)
โ๏ธ - Sebastian Michealis (Black Butler)
๐ท- Chuuya Nakahara (BSD)
๐ธ - Kaoru Sakurayashiki/Cherry Blossom (SK8)
๐ - Jaal Ama Darav (Mass Effect: Andromeda)
๐๐ - Adaman (PKMN)
๐ค๐ - Geto Suguru (JJK)
๐ฟ๏ธ - Cashew (Blush Blush)
๐ณ๐ฒ - Poe (Blush Blush)
๐ง๐ซ - Anon (Blush Blush)
๐๐ฆ - Aki (Blush Blush)
๐ค๐ฅด - Haru (Blush Blush)
๐ง๐ฅฎ - Fuyu (Blush Blush)
๐ช๐ - Howl Pendragon (Howlโs Moving Castle)
๐ญ๐พ - Faust (Yuurivoice OC)
Familial F/Oโs
๐ฐ - Luke, Son (Obey Me)
๐น๏ธ๐ - Miya Chinen, Son (SK8)
๐๐
- Bennett, Son (Genshin Impact)
๐ก๏ธ๐ธ - Yanqing, Son (Honkai Star Rail)
๐ค๐ - Cold Rice Shrimp, Daughter (Food Fantasy)
๐ธ๐ - Jiuniang, Daughter (Food Fantasy)
๐ฅ๐ - Nanako Hasaba, Step-Daughter (JJK)
๐ฅโซ๏ธ - Mimiko Hasaba, Step-Daughter (JJK)
๐ - Eri, little sister (BNHA)
๐ค - Lian, little brother (PKMN)
๐ฐ - Sam, big brother (TWST)
๐ฎ- Saiki Kusuo, big brother (DLOSK)
๐ฌ ๐ฆ - Gwen, big sister (Spiritfarer)
๐ถ๐ธ - Zhongli, father figure (Genshin Impact)
๐ - Baizhu, father figure (Genshin Impact)
๐ฅ - Peking Duck, father figure (Food Fantasy)
๐งช๐ชก - Divus Crewel, father figure (TWST)
๐พ๐งฃ - Shouta Aizawa, father figure (BNHA)
๐๐จ - Professor Hassel, father figure (PKMN)
๐๐ - Cyllene, mother figure (PKMN)
๐ฅ๐ - Palina, mother figure (PKMN)
๐โ๏ธ - Irisviel von Einzbern, mother figure (Fate: Zero)
๐ฟ๐ธ - Atul, uncle (Spiritfarer)
๐ผ๐ - Summer, aunt (Spiritfarer)
๐ฉต - Shun Kaidou, cousin (TDLOSK)
๐ฒ๐ธ - Astrid, grandmother figure (Spiritfarer)
๐๐ฅ - Giovanni, grandfather figure (Spiritfarer)
๐ฑ๐ - Mozus Trein, grandfather figure (TWST)
๐๐ฆด - Director Clavell, grandfather figure (PKMN)
Platonic F/Oโs
๐ฆ - The Leech Twins (TWST)
๐ - Epel Felmier (TWST)
๐ฆ - Asmodeus (Obey Me)
๐ - Leviathan (Obey Me)
๐ - Beelzebub (Obey Me)
๐ - Cater Diamond (TWST)
๐พ๐ - Kenma Kozume (Haikyuu)
๐ฅ๐โโฌ - Grim, also sorta little brother/pet (TWST)๏ฟผ
๐ฅ - Nemona (PKMN)
Pet F/Oโs:
๐ - Sylveon (PKMN)
๐ซ - Polteageist (PKMN)
๐ฌ - Galarian Rapidash (PKMN)
๐๐ - Applin (PKMN)
๐ฅฉ๐ฆด - Dogmeat (Fallout 4)
๐ - Sprinkles (Blues Clues)
๐๐ค - Duchess (The Aristocats)
๐๐ค - Marie (The Aristocats)
๐ฉต๐ - Lady (Lady & the Tramp)
๐พ - Dug (Up)
๐
- Rajah (Aladdin)
๐ท - Jenna (Balto)
๐ - Sir Pouncelot (Genshin)
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Visit me @the-funnest-passion-is-ours
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