So I have some good news regarding my mother โ she should finally be able to come home soon! Naturally, this means I will be moving in with her soon as that's always been the plan, and I've been preparing for that and making sure we have everything we'll need for our place. I'll be a bit scarce and slow to get to things, but it's all falling into place at last! I'll still be working in the background when I can both here and on my other hub, but don't expect too much at this time haha.
EDIT: The official day is Tuesday the 27th!
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Love when Tumblr doesn't give me notifications... Sorry about the late follow backs to anyone who's followed recently! Wanted to say this sooner, but I didn't actually have my laptop with me till today and my phone doesn't do Tumblr well. Yesterday and today were also busy for me โ and tomorrow will be, too. We're preparing for my mother to come home soon from the nursing center she's at ( finally!! ), so we've been getting things organized! I'll be slow, but around when I can be!
EDIT: The official day is Tuesday the 27th!
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the set up โ rafe cameron
๐๐๐บ๐บ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐: you've been one of the pogues since childhood, and your loyalty has always lied within your friend group, who is practically your family. when a threat by the name of rafe cameron begins to threaten the pogue's plans, they assign you to gain the trust of the dubious kook and keep an eye on what he's up to. however, now it's been six months since your friends set you up to spy on the kook prince himself, but what you didn't anticipate was to fall head over heels for the boy. your relationship had soon become inviolable shortly after your guys' first exchanges, much to your friends' dismay, and you two became practically inseperable. that was, until rafe discovers the truth.
๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ป๐ถ๐ป๐ด(๐): angst, cussing, mentions of alcohol use, some mentions of violence
๐ฎ๐๐๐ต๐ผ๐ฟ'๐ ๐ป๐ผ๐๐ฒ: she's a bit of a long one so bare with me. there will likely be a part two!
It was 9 o'clock at night and your phone was abnormally barren and noiseless. Nightfall was creeping up on you before you knew it, distracted by the long day of galavanting at the chateau with your best friends'. On a typical day, by the time the sun was setting your boyfriend, Rafe, was eager to call you and maunder about his day. It never mattered what his schedule consisted of, whether it was golfing with topper and kelce, or working with his dad, he made it a part of his routine just to call you and hear your voice before the day was over.
However, this night was different. It was unusual for Rafe to not at least shoot you a text letting you know he wouldn't be calling for a bit, something he usually did when he was busy. Perhaps he was caught up in family matters with his dad and couldn't get to the phone? You thought. But it was still out of character for him not to find a way to contact you, even if it costed him being scorned by his dad.
You sat cross-legged at the foot of your bed, pondering. You began to feel an itching urge to text him and ask if everything was okay, but you hated feeling pushy and your pride was always one to get the best of you in most situations. The idea of texting Sarah soon came to mind and seemed like the best route to take without disturbing your boyfriend in the chance that he genuinely was extremely busy and couldn't get to the phone. You unlocked your phone and went straight to the iMessage app, immediately finding Sarah's contact and beginning to type out a quick message. But, before you hit send, your body began to feel hot and your hands went clammy. Your mind was beginning to get the best of you as it started to race with unnerving thoughts that clouded over your prior hopefulness. Despite how close you were with Sarah, you feared that if you were to ask her what Rafe was up to, she'd become aggravated at your nosiness. But by the growing hour, the urge to find out became overwhelming.
Your fingers shakily typed out a short, to-the-point message followed by them instantly hitting send.
*Y/N: hey, i haven't heard from rafe all day and i'm getting a little worried tbh. is everything okay??*
Your eyes flickered over the delivered message for what felt like a million times as you found it harder to sit still with the nimiety of anxiety coursing through your veins. Your foot tapped vigorously while you bit at your brittle nails. You couldn't seemed to get past the thought of something bad happening to the boy you loved so deeply, and the mere cogitation of the scenario made you feel sick to your stomach.
*SARAH: hey! that's odd. i have no idea, i haven't heard from anyone. maybe stop by my house and see what he's doing? i know wheezie is there, she'll let you in :)*
You breathed out a sigh of relief at her response, thanking the girl mentally for providing you some sort of response, although clarity was not fully provided and the answer as to what was up with Rafe still remained undetermined. But Sarah's message was enough solace to muster up the strength to head over to the Cameron's household, hoping with everything inside of you that your boyfriend was in there. Enough time had passed to where you didn't even care if it was just him ignoring your texts, you just needed to know if he was alright.
After a brief interval of stalling out of pure apprehension, you finally coaxed yourself into driving over to the Cameron's estate. Your legs sped down the stairs hurriedly, making your way passed the coat rack as you snatched the car keys off of it before sprinting out the front door without acknowledging your parents who watched you exit the house with an alarming haste. Their attempts to call out to you and ask where you were going went ignored as you were too focused on one specific thing - Rafe. You wanted to get to him, you needed to get to him.
The fifteen minute drive felt like two hours as you sped to your boyfriend's house, so eager to locate him that you barely realized the speed that you were going down residential areas. But you couldn't care less about anything else than the boy that was prominent in your mind, the one that you spent nearly every single day and night with over the last six months; some of the best in your life so far. Tears begin to prick at your eyes as you gave attention to the thought of losing Rafe, hating how vulnerable and manic you felt in that moment during the drive. Memories of the boy flooded through your thoughts, ones of him holding you as close as he possibly could while you two fell asleep entangled in one another, peppering soft kisses on your face and neck during early mornings just to wake you up because he knew how much you despised getting up before noon, and all the times he would go out of way just to make you happy. Everything about your relationship with Rafe was perfect, regardless of how much your friends' hated the fact that you were together, considering he was at the top of their enemy list.
Once the visual of the enormous white mansion came into view, your heart began to feel as if it was going to pop right out of your chest. Your foot nearly slammed into the floorboard as you raced onto the property's driveway, wasting no time to put the car in park and scurry up the steps that led to the front porch. With three swifts knocks at the door, you were quickly met with the familiar face of the beloved youngest Cameron sibling, Wheezie.
"Y/n! What are you doing here?" Wheezie questioned, a vaunting smile present on her freckled face.
"Hey Wheeze, have you seen Rafe anywhere? I haven't heard from him all day." You confessed timidly while you attempted to keep a calm composure around the adolescent girl, fearing that you'd alarm her if you expressed your true state of distress.
A noticeable frown grew on Wheezie's face in response to your inquiry, which automatically planted a nauseous feeling at the pit of your stomach. Her eyes averted from your gaze and fell to the ground in avoidance to your burning gaze of worry, "Rafe is.. In the kitchen. He got home a few minutes ago, but I feel like I should warn you before you go see him." She admitted diffidently with her stare still pinned at the ground just before your feet.
"What is it, Wheezie?" You catechized due to her visible hesitancy, a state you had only seen the young girl in once when she witnessed Rafe in a yelling match with is dad, one that nearly resulted in him hitting Ward straight in the face.
"He doesn't look very good, Y/n. When he came home he.. He looked like he was on something and he had blood on him. His eyes were all bloodshot, too. I've never seen him this angry before, I think something happened. I don't know what's gotten into him." Wheezie admitted hastily, displaying a sense of urgency that sent goosebumps across your chilled body.
"Okay, okay, it's alright, Wheeze. Just listen to me," you crouched down to meet her height, gripping onto her shoulders with a light squeeze, "go upstairs and close your door. Turn a movie on or play some music, yeah? Just promise me you'll stay in there until I come get you, okay?" You asserted earnestly with your first priority to remove the innocent girl who had fear plastered all over her face. She simply nodded in reply to your request, wasting no time before turning around and heading up the stairs. You waited until you heard the sound of a door closing before stepping foot into the household, your feet feeling like a ton of bricks as you approached the kitchen with caution.
Upon entrance, you were met with the sight of an extremely disheveled Rafe, worse than you had ever seen him before. His eyes were glossy and accompanied with a bloody red appearance over his scleras. Your eyes trailed down to the noticeable blood splatters stained onto his grey polo, an observtion that took the air out of your lungs and your mouth go dry.
"Rafe?" You mousily called out to the fretful boy that was pacing the kitchen while he ran his fingers through his hair in distress. The sound of your soft voice cause his body to come to a halt, freezing in place with his back still turned to you. The sound of a dry, menacing laugh erupted from your boyfriend's throat that broke the defeaning silence in the air. Your eyebrows furrowed, sensing that his hostility may be aimed at you.
"What do you want?" Rafe subtly scoffed in response, still refusing to turn around and look at you.
"I came to make sure you were okay," you spoke up with a timorous voice, "I was worried cause I haven't heard from you." You folded your arms as you stood in place, displaying an evidence lack of confidence in your body language.
"As if you care." He spun around which took you by surprise, getting a better look at the state of disarray he was truly in. The bags under his eyes painted a deep shade of bluish-purple as though he hadn't slept in the last 24 hours. To make matters worse, dried blood was present on his mouth and chin, seemingly from the laceration of an open wound on his bottom lip. You shivered once you noticed how his normally soft features were replaced with a look of anger and resentment.
"What are you talking about? You know how much I care about you, Rafe." You stated, defending your point as he seemed to question your fidelity towards him.
"Cut the bullshit, Y/n! Haven't you lied to me enough? Aren't you tired of keeping up with all these lies?" Rafe squinted his eyes down at you, pointing at you in an accusatory manner that made you flinch. He had never been aggressive with you, far from it. Truth be told, it frightened you to see him like this, especially with the stench of alcohol exuding from him potently.
"Rafe.." you squeaked, feeling small and powerless under his tall stature, "You're scaring me. I don't know what you're talking about. You need to calm-"
"Our whole relationship has been a fucking lie, Y/n! Even down to the moment we met, you and your little piece of shit Pogue friends had this all planned out. I bet you've told them every single thing I've told you, I fucking trusted you! I should've known you Pogues were no good. All you guys do is stick your noses in places they don't belong." Rafe spat at you causing you to stumble back from him some, your back hitting the wall as he cornered you against the wall.
"You can thank your beloved 'friend' JJ for telling me. Boy's got a mouth on him," Rafe snickered as he shook his head in disbelief as he recounted his interaction with the blond Pogue, "ran into him at the golf course and he was running his mouth as usual. Guess I pissed him off so much that he blurted your guys' whole plan out, trying to get a reaction out of me or whatever. Got the shit beat out of him instead." He snarled.
Tears formed in your eyes at the revelation of Rafe finding out about the foolish plan you and your friends came up with months ago. They were always suspicious of the unpredictable Kook, rightfully so, but their mistake was setting you up to gain the rapport of the unknowing boy, who couldn't help but to melt at the sight of you. It was an easy operation, with Rafe falling under your spell within the first three weeks of meeting. But, what they didn't anticipate was you falling for him just as much.
He scoffed again, interrupting your fit of choking sobs, "No, don't cry. Do not stand here with that look on your face like you're the victim in this. You have no idea, y/n, no idea what it did to me when I heard that, and from all people, JJ fucking Maybank."
"Rafe, please-"
"Stop! Stop," Rafe's voice began to break as his words trembled in sorrow, tears escaping his azure eyes, "I loved you, y/n. So much. Never in my life have I opened up to someone, gave someone so much, as I have to you. Every damn day I woke up, only wanting to talk to you. You were always the first thing on my mind, first thing in the morning, last thing at night. You.. You were everything to me, and to think this whole time it's been some fucking sick game to you. Running back to your worthless Pogue friends that are nothing but trouble. How could I be so stupid? Trusting a fucking Pogue like you." His words put wounds in your chest and tore at your heart from the pure hatred for you that exuded from them. You never imagined you'd be at the other end of Rafe's spiteful outbursts at the end of it all, but there you were, looking up at him with a cold look in his eyes.
"I'm sorry, Rafe. I'm sorry, okay? I know that doesn't fix this but I didn't plan for this to happen. I told them it would only be a month and I would be done, but then I fell in love with you. I didn't spend all that time with you because of them. Our agreement was only-"
"Our agreement," he scoffed at your words, "do you hear yourself? You're unbelievable. You think that makes me feel better? Oh, you were only supposed to manipulate me for a month? How generous of you." Rafe mocked back at you, the high levels of alcohol in his system causing him to slur his words some.
"I-I know, I know that nothing I say will make this better. I know that you'll never trust me and you'll hate me forever after this, but I'm so sorry, Rafe. I didn't mean for this to happen." You looked up at him with sincerity, a pleading look in your eyes.
"I don't hate you. That's the fucking problem." He muttered.
"What?" You questioned, confused at his admission.
"I don't hate you, y/n. Believe me, I wish I could right now, but I don't. You think after everything we've been through that I could just hate you like that? That easy? Y/n, you're the love of my life. Don't you get that? I wouldn't be in the state I'm in right now if I didn't love you. I don't know what to do, and I'm at a war with myself because one part of me needs you, and the other can't even stand to look you in the eyes right now." Rafe sighed as he combed a hand through his dirty blond hair. His harsh demeanor was beginning to slip as his features softened and was replaced with an appearance of sadness and void. It was clear that the boy was completely shattered, and it broke your heart. Your mind began racing in that moment, unsure of really what to do in order to comfort the heartbroken boy. Do you leave him be and rip the bandaid off? Was that too cold of you to do? Or were you supposed to hold him and tell him that everything was going to be alright, despite the uncertainty that things would be.
"Rafe.." Your words trailed off as you watched Rafe's bloody lip begin to tremble. He closed his glossy eyes at the sweet sound of your voice, only hurting him more to realize that he'd miss that beautiful noise. He hated how much he craved you, how much he needed you, because he told himself a million times than he could never trust you again after JJ's confession. But he couldn't bring himself to push you away, although you put him in the position he was in. Hurting him worse than anyone has in his entire life.
"I don't wanna think about it right now, okay? I can't.. I can't stand the thought of waking up without you, y/n. I mean call me fucking crazy, but fucking hell, I still love you. I don't know what's wrong with me." Your boyfriend broke down in sobs, tears streaming down his bruised face.
"There's nothing wrong with you, Rafe. You didn't deserve this." You shook your head at his insecurity, assuring him that none of this was on him.
"Please stay with me tonight, we can talk about this in the morning or whatever, but please." Rafe pleaded, looking down at you with a pitiful look on his face that made your heart swell. His hand was placed at your waist, with a fistful of your shirt in his grip, pleading to your with full sincerity.
"Of course I will."
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๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ป๐ถ๐ป๐ด[๐] : ๐ณ๐ถ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐บ๐ฒ ๐๐ฟ๐ถ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ถ๐ป ๐ฎ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐น๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐บ๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐๐๐ !! ๐ผ๐ผ๐ฐ ๐
๐ถ๐ฎ๐ผ (?) , ๐ฆ๐น๐ผ๐ ๐ถ๐๐ต ๐ฏ๐๐ฟ๐ป, ๐ ๐ฎ๐ ๐ต๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ฝ๐ฒ๐น๐น๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐บ๐ถ๐๐๐ฎ๐ธ๐ฒ๐ !!, ๐ผ๐ฃ๐๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ก๐ช๐๐?? , ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฅ๐๐ค๐จ๐๐ฆ๐ง ๐ฃ๐๐ญ๐ญ - โฐ
๐ข๐ธ๐ฎ๐ , ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ถ, ๐๐๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐๐ฝ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฟ , ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ต๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ๐๐,,, ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐บ๐ฎ๐ป ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐
๐จ๐ป๐น๐ฒ๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ถ๐ป ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ป๐ด๐ฒ๐ฟ , ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ถ๐น๐น ๐บ๐ผ๐๐ ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ๐น๐ ๐๐ฟ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ๐๐ฒ๐น๐ณ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ผ๐บ ๐๐ผ๐. ๐๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ฒ๐๐ป'๐ ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐ถ๐ป๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต " ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐๐ฎ๐น๐ "
๐๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐น๐ ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ, ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ธ๐ฒ๐ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ ๐ฎ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐น๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐บ ๐๐ฝ ๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ถ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ,,,,๐ข๐๐๐ฃ๐ก๐ฎ ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐๐๐๐ฟ๐'๐.๐๐๐๐.๐๐/๐๐
๐๐ฒ ๐บ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ป๐น๐ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐บ ๐๐ฝ ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ด๐ถ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ต๐ถ๐บ ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐๐, ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐ค๐ถ๐ป๐ด๐
๐ถ๐ป ๐ณ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐, ๐๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐น๐ฟ๐ , ๐๐น๐บ๐ผ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ง๐ผ๐ณ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ท๐ฒ๐๐น๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐๐ฟ๐ถ๐ป๐ธ๐ฒ๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐'๐ฑ ๐ณ๐ถ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ด๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ.
๐๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ป๐ธ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ , ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ฐ๐ผ๐บ๐ฝ๐น๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐น๐ ๐๐๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐ผ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ฏ๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ๐น๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ด๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ ๐ฎ ๐ฑ๐ฎ๐ ๐ฎ๐ด๐ผ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ ๐ฃ๐๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐บ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ฝ!
๐๐ณ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐บ๐ ๐๐ฝ, ๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ฑ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ป ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ. ๐๐ฒ'๐น๐น ๐ฎ๐๐ธ ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฟ ๐ด๐ผ๐น๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ป๐ผ๐๐ถ๐ณ๐ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐ถ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐๐ ๐๐ผ ๐น๐ผ๐ผ๐ธ ๐ณ๐ผ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐๐ถ๐๐ถ๐๐ ๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ถ๐.
๐๐ณ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ ๐ฎ๐๐๐ฒ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป , ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ป ๐๐ฒ๐น๐น ๐ต๐ฒ๐ ๐ต๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ป๐ผ ๐น๐ผ๐ป๐ด๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ฎ๐ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐ฐ๐ผ๐บ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ.
๐ฎ๐ณ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ฎ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐น๐ฒ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐น๐ถ๐๐ฒ๐ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐น๐,,,,๐ผ๐ฑ๐ฑ,,,๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐ถ๐ฐ๐ธ? ๐ต๐บ, ๐ป๐ผ ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ณ ๐ป๐ผ๐,,,๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฏ๐? ๐ป๐ผ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐น๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ฎ๐,,,๐ฒ๐ป๐ท๐ผ๐๐ฎ๐ฏ๐น๐ฒ?..
๐๐ฒ ๐ด๐ผ๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ญ๐ต๐ผ๐ป๐ด๐น๐ถ ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐พ๐๐ฒ๐๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ป๐๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฑ,,
๐๐ฒ ๐ด๐ผ๐ฒ๐ ๐ผ๐ณ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐ฏ๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐น๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ฐ๐ผ๐ป๐ณ๐๐๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ฎ ๐น๐ถ๐๐๐น๐ฒ ๐๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฑ.
" ๐๐ฎ๐ [๐ป๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ] ๐ด๐ถ๐๐ฒ๐ป ๐บ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ?"
๐ญ๐ต๐ผ๐ป๐ด๐น๐ถ ๐ฐ๐ต๐๐ฐ๐ธ๐น๐ฒ๐, ๐๐ถ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ผ๐บ ๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฝ
" ๐ซ๐ถ๐ฎ๐ผ , ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐น๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐๐ฐ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ถ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐น๐น๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ" "๐๐ผ๐๐ฒ!?-"
๐๐ฒ๐ ๐ด๐ฒ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ๐น๐ ๐๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐ฏ๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ ๐ต๐ฒ๐ ๐ถ๐ป ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ. ๐๐ฒ ๐บ๐ผ๐๐ ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ๐น๐ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ๐๐ฒ๐น๐ณ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ผ๐บ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ป ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ป ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ.
๐๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ๐๐น๐น ๐ด๐ฒ๐ ๐ต๐๐ฟ๐..
๐๐จ๐ง ๐ง๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ง๐๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐
๐ฌ๐ผ๐ ๐ป๐ผ๐๐ถ๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฎ๐ฏ๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐น๐ ๐ถ๐ป๐๐๐๐ฎ๐ป๐๐น๐ , ๐ต๐ฒ๐ ๐ฎ๐น๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ป ๐ฑ๐ถ๐๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐๐ถ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ฐ๐ผ๐บ๐ฝ๐น๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐น๐ ๐ถ๐ป๐ด๐ผ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ผ๐ !
๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐ต๐ผ๐๐ด๐ต๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ฟ๐ผ๐ป๐ด,, ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐ฐ๐ผ๐บ๐บ๐๐ป๐ถ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป ๐ถ๐ ๐ธ๐ฒ๐, ๐ป๐ผ?
๐๐ผ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฎ๐น๐ธ ๐๐ผ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ.
" ๐ผ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฉ๐ช๐จ ๐๐๐๐ค !" ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐น๐น๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ผ๐๐ ๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ป๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ
๐๐ฎ๐ถ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฒ๐น๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ผ๐. ๐ ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ ๐บ๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐ป๐๐ ๐น๐ฎ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐ฟ๐ป ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ผ๐๐ป๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ฉ๐ถ๐ด๐ถ๐น๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ธ๐๐ต๐ฎ, ๐ซ๐ถ๐ฎ๐ผ, ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ฎ ๐ก๐ค๐ฃ๐ ๐บ๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐ป๐ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐๐ถ๐น๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ ... ๐ฎ ๐น๐ถ๐๐๐น๐ฒ ๐ฉ๐ค๐ค ๐น๐ผ๐ป๐ด.
"๐ช๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ต๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ป? ๐ ๐ต๐ฎ๐๐ฒ๐ป'๐ ๐๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ถ๐ป ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ... ๐ฎ ๐บ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ต ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐๐๐ผ !" ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ถ๐ฑ, ๐ฝ๐ผ๐ถ๐ป๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฎ๐ ๐ต๐ถ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐พ๐๐ฒ๐๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ต๐ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ธ๐๐ต๐ฎ. ๐๐ฒ ๐๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ผ๐, ๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ ๐พ๐๐ถ๐ฐ๐ธ๐น๐ ๐๐๐ฟ๐ป๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ผ ๐น๐ผ๐ผ๐ธ ๐ฎ๐ ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐ป๐๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ฎ๐๐ป'๐ ๐๐ผ๐. โ ๐ผ๐ข ๐จ๐ค๐ง๐ง๐ฎ ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ ๐ฌ๐ค๐ง๐ง๐๐๐" ๐๐ ๐ง๐๐จ๐ฅ๐ค๐ฃ๐๐๐, ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐ง๐ค๐ช๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฌ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ค๐ค๐ ๐ค๐ฃ. "๐๐ค๐ง๐ง๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฉ?-" ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ฆ๐ช๐๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐๐, ๐ฉ๐๐ฉ๐ก๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐๐ช๐จ๐๐ค๐ฃ. "๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ ๐ฌ๐ค๐ง๐ง๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐ค๐ช๐ก๐ ๐๐ช๐ง๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช" ๐๐ ๐ฅ๐ง๐๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ก๐ก๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐๐๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ง๐๐, ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐ก๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฃ๐๐๐ง๐ก๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐จ ๐ฌ๐ค๐ง๐๐จ ๐๐ฌ๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ค๐ง๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ค๐ช๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ง ๐๐ฉ.
๐๐ค๐ช ๐จ๐ข๐๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฉ, ๐ฎ๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐พ๐๐๐๐ฟ ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐- ๐ฝ๐๐๐
๐ฌ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐๐ง๐ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ก๐ช๐จ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฉ. ๐๐ฉ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฎ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ง๐๐ ๐๐๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐ฉ.
" ๐๐๐๐ค , ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐จ๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐ผ๐ ๐ผ๐๐! ๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐, ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช'๐ซ๐ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ก ๐๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ง ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ ๐๐ซ๐๐ง"
๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐จ๐๐๐ , ๐ฉ๐ง๐ฎ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ง๐๐ ๐๐๐จ ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฃ.
๐๐ ๐ก๐ค๐ค๐ ๐๐ ๐ช๐ฅ ๐๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช, ๐๐๐จ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ก๐๐, ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐๐ข๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ค๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐จ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง ๐จ๐๐ ? ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐๐ข๐จ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ข๐๐ญ ๐ค๐ ๐๐ค๐ฉ๐..
๐๐ค๐ช ๐๐ช๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐ ๐๐๐จ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐จ , ๐จ๐ข๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐
" ๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ค๐๐ฃ?-"
" ๐ ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช , ๐๐๐๐ค."
๐ผ๐จ ๐จ๐๐ก๐๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐๐จ ๐๐ฃ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐๐ ๐๐ช๐๐ก๐๐๐ฃ๐
" ๐...๐ ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช..๐ฉ๐ค๐ค?.."
๐๐ ๐ฆ๐ช๐๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ ๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ ๐จ๐๐๐ , ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ก ๐๐ ๐ง๐๐๐ง๐๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ? ๐๐จ ๐จ๐ค๐ข๐๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐ฃ? ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ ๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ง?
๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐ข๐ช๐๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐๐ค๐ง๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ ๐๐จ๐จ๐๐ ๐๐๐ข..
๐ผ๐๐ฉ๐๐ง ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐จ๐จ ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐, ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ ๐ง๐๐๐๐๐ง ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ก๐ค๐ง ๐ง๐๐ ๐๐ฉ๐จ๐๐ก๐-
๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ค๐ช๐ก๐๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐๐๐ก๐ฅ ๐๐ช๐ฉ ๐ก๐๐ช๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฉ.
"๐พ๐๐ฃ...๐๐๐ฃ ๐ ๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ค๐ฉ๐๐๐ง ๐ค๐ฃ๐?-"
"๐๐๐๐ฉ?- ๐ผ ๐ ๐๐จ๐จ!?-" ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ค๐ ๐๐, ๐ก๐๐ช๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ช๐ฃ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ฌ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ช๐ฉ ๐ค๐๐ ๐๐ฎ ๐ญ๐๐๐ค ๐ ๐๐จ๐จ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช.
" ๐ข๐ธ๐ฎ๐ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฏ๐ผ๐.."
๐ข๐๐พ๐ฝ๐!!
๐ง๐พ๐บ๐ฝ๐พ๐๐ / ๐ป๐บ๐๐๐พ๐ - @๐๐๐_๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐พ๐๐ !!
๐ฃ๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐ - @yanderelovlies @davinaslove
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Hello !!
I dont know if you are taking request rn but i was wondering if you could do that tiktok trend thing that is "he needed more than me" with draco x reader where draco slowly falls out of love with reader and inlove with astoria and then blablabla((you can decide what happens here), then a few years she moves on and then she meets him again and then yeh you can decude the rest from there. THANK YOU AND HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY OR EVENING !!
He needed more than me.. โ draco malfoy
เณโโท ๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ป๐ถ๐ป๐ด(๐) : angst
เณโโท ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ป๐ด : draco malfoy x fem!reader, draco malfoy x astoria greengrass
เณโโท ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฎ๐ฟ ๐ถ๐ป๐ณ๐ผ : 7th year, pansy using muggle slangs
เณโโท ๐ฎ๐๐๐ต๐ผ๐ฟ๐ ๐ป๐ผ๐๐ฒ :omfg this idea makes my heart ache sm. ๐ Also u have a wonderful day too babyy<3
You and draco always loved eachother, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Your felt connected to eachother, like you were meant to be. It was written in the stars.
Your relationship was like a fairy tale, draco treated you like a goddess even worshiped you like a goddess.
You guys were destined to be together.
Now.. You and draco weren't together, because of Astoria Greengrass.
โ 7th year, September 5 1997.
7th year arrived, you and draco finally had a fresh start from all the chaos and war, now you both would have calm lives like you both used to.
When you two sat down in a cabin in the train, it went swell for a few minutes, But a girl knocked on your door.
โhello, my name is Astoria Greengrass May I sit here?โ a girl who looks like she was in her 6th year introduced herself.
โyeah sure..โ draco patted the seat next to him, since he saw Astoria his eyes lightened up..
You thought nothing of it and dozed off to sleep.
When you woke up you saw the two of them sleeping together, astoriaสผs head on dracos shoulder. Her silky brown hair decorated his back.
Your heart broke at the scene, you wanted to be Astoria even though draco is your boyfriend...
๐ต๐ฒ ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ป ๐บ๐ฒ .
You were patrolling the halls as usual, and you see a 1st year crying in a corner, You were concerned for the boy so you kneeled down at him.
โhi little guy, what happened?โ you asked comfortingly, โi-I...I don't know where to go... I'm lostโ he sobbed, โoh don't worry, please stop crying first, I'll take you to your common room..โ you hugged the boy and he felt comforted.
"Thank-thank you Ms. (yn)โ he thanked you, โno problem, after all that's what prefects doโ you winked at him as the both of you walked the halls until you arrived at his common room.
โgoodnight little guy.โ you smiled warmly at him, โnight Ms. (yn)โ
๐ถ๐บ ๐ณ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฑ๐น๐, ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐๐ต๐ผ๐๐ด๐ต๐๐ณ๐๐น.
โyay! Happy birthday (your friends name)โ you hugged your friend as you handed your present to them, โaww thanks! Your the only one who knew it was my birthday...โ they chuckled nervously.
"it's no biggie, your my best friend after all!โ you giggled happily, โthanks (yn) I appreciate it so much..โ they felt super grateful to have you as a friend.
You were the only one who remembered their birthday, which made (your friends name) smile.
๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐พ๐๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐๐ณ๐๐น๐น๐ ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐๐.
People were complimenting you for no reason, around the halls you heard (yn) is gorgeous! Look at her, she's so beautiful I wish I was her!
You smiled at the whispers, and silently thanked them, it boosted your confidence, people really thought you were a princess.
โgirl, you literally glowing right now! Your so stunning!โ pansy said with adoration laced in her voice.
โthanks pans, hey your using the muggle slangs!โ you pointed out, "yeah, I do muggles do make their lives easier or making their talking easier.โ she chuckled.
๐ฏ๐๐ ๐ต๐ฒ ๐ป๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ฑ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ป ๐บ๐ฒ.
โdraco, what do you mean?!โ you cried, โI'm sorry (yn), I just don't love you like I used to the spark that used to be there for you was gone..,โ he confessed.
โnow that stupid spark is for Astoria now isn't it?โ you mumbled through your sobs, โyes, I'm so sorry (yn), I wish we can still be friends though..โ he held your hand looking at you with pleading eyes,
โi-I'm sorry I don't wanna be your friend even after this..โ
"(yn)..โ
โgood bye draco.โ
It hurts that he needed someone else and that someone isn't you.
โ years later..
โoof-I'm so sorry!โ you nervously gather your items from the floor, โno worries-wait (yn)?โ draco was stunned and shocked. โoh... hi malfoy..โ you said, no interest in talking to him, โit's been so long (yn)! How are you?โ
"I'm doing.. well.. how about you?โ
โwell, I'm doingโโ โMOMMYY!โ your son , hayden screamed, โyes darling?โ you turned your focus at him. โdaddy is being mean again!โ he hugged your leg as theo came with a goofy grin, but that grin slowly faded when I saw draco.
โhey..malfoy..โ he said, โhello nott.โ
โwell it was nice talking to you draco, were gonna leave now..โ
thats when he realized that he made a mistake all those years ago.
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Another update for you all โ I am going to be moving very soon. If all goes well, that'll be happening sometime around the end of this month / beginning of September, and I'm already busy packing. There's definitely going to be a bit of an adjustment period for me, but once I get into a routine and settle in, hopefully I'm able to be truly active here again. I'll keep you all posted.
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Got Capsaicin as my guaranteed super epic! Was hoping for Stardust or Crimson Coral, but at least it was one I didn't have! I also didn't even really pull Mercurial Knight, I just got enough of his soulstones while trying to pull him on his banner ( annnd now I'm broke whoops. ) But I FINALLY managed to get White Lily's costume!! I almost lost faith. ;o;
I've been loving the second half of the update so far honestly. Shadow Milk Cookie is absolutely fantastic and I hope we get to see the other beasts soon!
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the set up โ rafe cameron; part two
๐๐๐บ๐บ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐: you've been one of the pogues since childhood, and your loyalty has always lied within your friend group, who is practically your family. when a threat by the name of rafe cameron begins to threaten the pogue's plans, they assign you to gain the trust of the dubious kook and keep an eye on what he's up to. however, now it's been six months since your friends set you up to spy on the kook prince himself, but what you didn't anticipate was to fall head over heels for the boy. your relationship had soon become inviolable shortly after your guys' first exchanges, much to your friends' dismay, and you two became practically inseperable. that was, until rafe discovers the truth.
๐๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ป๐ถ๐ป๐ด(๐): cussing, slight angst (?), topper being annoying, some flirting, possible mentions of drug use
๐ฎ๐๐๐ต๐ผ๐ฟ'๐ ๐ป๐ผ๐๐ฒ: thank you guys for all of the love on the first part of this story! genuinely, it means so much to me that you guys enjoyed it. pls bare with me as far as adding some of you who asked about being on my taglist, i've had tumblr for like 11 years now but i've never posted my writings on here before so i'm figuring things out to keep it all organized! it's also likely this will become a series, bc there's so much more to tell w this story. let me know if you'd like to be added! anyways, thank y'all again. mwah
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๐บ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ต๐ ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐น๐ถ๐ฒ๐ฟ-
The plan was finally set in stone. After many weeks of scheming and devising up a strategy with the help of Pope's unparalleled intellect, and JJ's bizarre inebriated ideas, you and your friends eventually came to an agreement. You had one month to gain the trust of none other than Rafe Cameron, Kook prince and vain asshole. You knew ahead of time that the task itself was not going to be an easy one, especially after Sarah had warned you of how untrusting her brother was with everyone, besides his dad. What made it even harder was that Rafe already knew that you were a Pogue, his number one enemy in the world. But despite his wariness and bitterness towards your kind, at the end of the day, Rafe was no stronger than any other man when it come to his desires and urges.
Sure you were a Pogue from the Cut, but you still knew how to clean up exceptionally well, and regardless of how much he loathed people like you, Rafe couldn't resist you when you'd show up at the golf course he frequented, dressed up in your short pink tennis skirt and a white polo collar crop top. You knew that the fastest way to the Kook prince's heart was through cajolery and the use of magnetism, so when JJ scored you a job as a bev cart girl at his work in order to be in direct contact with the Cameron's son, you transformed your appearance to that of a temptress.
You had been employed at the golf course for about a week before you had a proper interaction with Rafe. Before that, you were mostly being occupied by his best friend, Topper Thornton, who made it his mission to chat you up during your every shift that he was there for. It was a minor displeasure to have to endure Topper's desperate attempts at flirting with you, but you reminded yourself that you were there for one reason - Rafe.
"Y/n! Hey!" You heard a familiar, grating voice call out to you, stopping you in your tracks immediately. Topper.
"Hey Top," you masked your irritation through a forced smile as you quietly sighed to yourself, mentally preparing for the exchange you were about to have, "what's up?"
Topper flashed you a small, genial smile in return at the sound of your soft-spoken voice, "Was hoping I'd see you hear today, the other bev cart girl kind of sucks." He joked in his typical monotonous tone, shaking his head as he let out a half-hearted chuckle.
Behind him you heard a deep, dry laugh approach the conversation, catching you off guard at the sudden noise. Your eyes shot over to the direction at which the sound was coming from, and once you discovered just exactly who it came from, your heart skipped a beat.
"What a simp," the smoky voice of the dirty blond Kook teased as he nudged Topper's arm, "flirting with the damn bev cart girl."
You could feel heat rise to your, now, flushed cheeks at the low-pitched tone that sent vibrations down your spine. You found yourself peering up coyly at the tall stature in front of you, soon being met with a piercing set of blue eyes that locked with yours. His stare felt rather domineering as he eyed your half-exposed figure, which only made you feel more vulnerable than before. As if that wasn't enough, your breath hitched when you noticed the way he bit down on his lip subtly while his eyes found their way to your mini skirt. The feeling of Rafe watching you so intently had your body heat rising gradually, an impuissant energy coarsing through your veins as you watched him tower over you.
"I do have a name." You interjected, deriding Rafe's comment that felt as though he was reducing you to nothing but a beverage cart attended, which had you rolling your eyes internally at his ignorance. However, in order to refrain yourself from catching an attitude with the boy, and quite frankly because part of you was scared, you pressed your lips together in an attempt to keep what composure you had left in you.
Topper chuckled in regard to your statement, finding it amusing that you had the guts to, somewhat, stand up to Rafe Cameron. Something very few people did, and the ones that did, barely lived to regret it.
"Well excuse me," Rafe tilted his head condescendingly at you, an arrogant smirk forming on his lips, "why don't you tell me your name then? Don't think we've had a chance to meet yet." His words sounded welcoming but his tone told another story. You could tell by his burning stare and snarky timbre that he was trying to get a rise out of you, this was a game to him. But it was his mistake for misjudging the kind of person you were, because you had just enough stamina to give it right back to him.
"Y/n," you stated matter-of-factly, "I've only been here about a week now, but typically I'm the one delivering the drinks to you and your friends. Which seems to be often." You satirize back at him, your voice remaining at the same soft and subtle pitch it's usually at, which only throws Rafe off even more at your remark. You could feel a sense of chagrin radiating from the petulant Kook as he momentarily glared at you, only to be set off even more once Topper erupts in a brief fit of laughter, patting his friend on the back in a teasing manner.
"See, told you she's better than the other girl." Topper bantered at his moody friend, whose glare hadn't left your figure since you spoke last. Part of you felt like withering away the longer Rafe burned holes into you with his scowl, but you remained in place, refusing to let him get the best of you.
After another minute of Topper basking in the humor of the situation that had just occurred, he finally walked off back to the rest of his friend group that accompanied him to the golf course, all of course being Kooks. Your confidence seemed to falter following the absence of the preppy teen, now having been left with the irascible Kook who seemed to have inched closer to you since you two had been left alone. You gulped quietly as you broke eye contact with the dirty blond, keeping your eyes glued to the ground as you felt him approach you closer and closer.
"You know I will say, even though you are a Pogue," Rafe lowered his voice, the sultry tonality of it purring in your ear as he brushed your hair aside, "you are pretty nice to look at." His tantalizing words setting off fireworks at the pit of your stomach, feeling as though your knees were going to buckle beneath you.
Then suddenly, an idea popped up in your head. You were there for a reason, and that reason was standing right in front of you, the perfect opportunity right at your feet. Play along with him. You told yourself.
You looked up at him through your eyelashes, an innocent facade casted over your dewy-eyes. Your body language relaxed a bit, shoulders dropping as you attempted to invite him into your company before you spoke, "I don't see you doing anything about it, Cameron." You whispered softly, voice barely audibly to anyone besides you and Rafe. Your comment seemed to have taken him by surprise since his eyes went wide and his eyebrows raised instantly, but you could see a glimpse of amusement in his azure irides. A sense of victory washed over you as you realized Rafe was slowly, but surely, falling into your trap.
"Trust me," Rafe hummed to himself, looking your physique up and down once more, "I've thought about it."
You smirked up at him in response, "Why's that?"
"Because for the past week, I've seen you parading around this place like you have no clue in the world how these men look at you. So naive to the way they all gawk at you. I can't tell if it's just you playing dumb, or that you genuinely have never been told. But if that's the case, I'll gladly be the one to show you." Rafe whispered fondly in your ear, his body so close to yours that the smell of his cologne clouded your airways and put you in a daze.
"What would you show me?" You asked naively, acting as though you were blissfully unaware of the way that those putrid old, rich men gaped at you as you strolled around on your golf cart, hoping they could get a better view up your skirt as the wind blew while you drove by. Truth be told, their goggling made you feel queasy and uncomfortable, but you had a promise and a plan to stick to for your friends' sake, even if it was at the expense of your amenity.
"I'd take you out of that hell-hole of a place you Pogues reside at. Show you what it's like to be a Kook for once. With your looks, I think you'd fit in just nice. A Kook princess." Rafe's eyes began to darken with a strong urge to covet you to accept his offer, except little did he know, it was exactly what you wanted to hear from him.
"So prove it to me."
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"No fucking way." Kiara expressed in disbelief at the recount of your interaction with Rafe Cameron earlier that day. Proud was an understatement to describe the feeling your friends' had towards you once you had told them just how the boy immediately fell for your tricks. In all honesty, the Pogues, yourself included, assumed it would take a bit of time to weasle your way into Rafe's interest, but in reality all it took was a short tennis skirt and flashing your doe eyes at him. It was almost comical how fast the leery Kook fell for it and you.
"So now what? Where do we go from here?" You asked, walking over to the dilapidated couch where your best friend, JJ, sat with a joint in his hands. As usual, you found your seat right in JJ's wide-open lap as you gently snatched the blunt right from his fingers and putting it in-between your gloss covered lips. The blond frowned at the theft of his beloved joint, but his sorrows were soon erased as he watched you inhale, becoming entranced in your movements, unbeknownst to you.
"Just keep things going with him," Sarah added, "keep him interested. Rafe's usually the type to use girls and disregard them afterwards, so you've got to keep him on his toes."
You sighed in response, taking in the magnitude of how difficult the plan your friends' conspired may be. "Alright, sounds easy enough." You replied sardonically.
"He's not going to be an easy one to crack, but we've got to do this. If this doesn't work, we'll all be fucked." Pope chimed in with his typical state of panic and distress.
"It'll be fine, Pope. Y/n has got this." Kiara reassured, flashing you a small supportive smile as if she could sense your own self-doubt radiating off of you.
"Well I'm going to bed, it's been a long day," John B announced as he stood up from the armrest of the couch, "good job with everything you did today, y/n. Knew you could do it." He smiled as he approached you, giving you an encouraging high-five before ruffling up your hair some. Behind the brunette came Sarah, who followed him back to his bedroom once she said her goodnight's to everyone in the living room.
"I think we're gonna head out, too. Pope has been stressing me out about this damn plan all day and my head hurts." Kiara commented shortly after Sarah and John B exited the room, "I'll see you guys tomorrow." She gave a soft smile before dragging Pope to the spare bedroom of the chateau with her. With the new absence of your coupled-up friends, you found yourself sitting in a comfortable silence with your blond best friend, JJ. You sat slouched horizontally across his lap, feeling his warm fingertips trace gentle lines across your exposed thighs.
"Y/n?" JJ muttered, his blue eyes somewhat hazy from the high he was experiencing.
"Hmm?" You hummed tiredly as you turned your head to face him.
"You're not like, actually gonna date him.. Are you?" The boy asked with all sincerity in his voice, which made your heart flutter.
"Of course not, that'd be crazy." You laughed, shrugging off JJ's evident concern.
"Okay good. Yeah I just, I don't know, that dude is crazy. A girl like you shouldn't be caught up with someone like that." JJ stated, scratching the back of his head as the feeling of awkwardness crept up on him while he approached the new topic.
"What do you mean by that?" You raised your eyebrow at him in confusion, lost by what point he was trying to get at.
"Well you.. You're you, and Rafe, he's just insane. Dude gets in fights every other week, I mean he's definitely got to be on something. No sober, right-minded person acts like he does and he just-"
"What about me?" You interrupted the blond's endless tangent, which could have went on for hours if you let him keep talking.
"Oh. Well you know, you're important to me and I just don't want you getting hurt by him. He's not a good guy, y/n. And if he ever did something to you I'd kick that son of a bitch right in his-"
"JJ," you stopped him, laughing at his blethering, "that's not going to happen, I promise you. So don't worry about it." You assured him, shaking your head lightheartedly.
"Just sayin'." JJ added as he shrugged, his back beginning to sink further into the couch as his body grew more relaxed. You found comfort in that moment with your dearest friend, watching his chest rise and fall gradually as he breathed. You felt yourself growing more and more drowsy as the mixture of silence and a comatose state washed over you. Ignoring the fact that you were still sat in JJ's lap and not having the energy to care to move off of it, you allowed yourself to rest gently against JJ's chest, his warm skin heating you up like a blanket. He accepted your gesture and gave you room to snuggle up into him, nuzzling your face into his neck gently. Before sleep could fully take over, you felt JJ shift a bit as he leaned over to grab the nearest blanket next to him, throwing it over the two of you just before shutting his eyes and dozing off to sleep himself.
It was safe to say you felt a great sense of accomplishment at what you had managed to achieve that day, with Rafe seeming to so easily give in to his desire and invite you into his life without much question. However, it was just the beginning and you still had an entire month to gain his trust and keep it. It all seemed so easy, but anything involving Rafe Cameron was bound to be complicated.
But nobody could have anticipated what was to come.
๐๐ฎ๐ด๐น๐ถ๐๐: @bibliophilewednesday , @sublimepenguinpeach-blog
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Alright so... update for what has happened within the last three weeks ( related post. )
My mother made it through the worst of it. She is no longer on a ventilator or the ecmo machine and is on her old dialysis schedule. She was out of the ICU briefly and placed into a regular hospital room, but was put back in the ICU due to her port starting to bleed. She... has to have surgery again ( sheโs been opened up three times now, once for the original reason; replacing her heart valve, once to remove blood clots in her chest, and once for blood pooling up inside her, so this will be the fourth time ) in order to deal with blood pooling up inside her for the second time. I can say sheโs doing a lot better โ sheโs breathing on her own and her heart has picked back up its job obviously, but as Iโve said in my original post, this is going to be a very long journey of recovery. There is still a lot of uncertainty. Iโm not sure how much longer sheโll be in the hospital, but even after sheโs released, sheโs going to have to go to a rehabilitation facility for at least around a month. Weโre not out of the woods quite yet, but things are definitely a lot better, and despite having to opened up for a fourth time, hopefully things continue to head in the right direction.
As for how I am doing? Poorly, admittedly, for this reason and more. I again donโt really wish to talk about this subject anymore than I have to, so please do not bring it up with me. If I bring it up with you, thatโs different, but for the most part Iโd rather focus on other things. Iโm probably not going to be anymore active than I have been lately however, on Tumblr or in IMs. Despite being home, I have no break from this matter or other things Iโm too tired to get into right now, so Iโm pretty much a zombie running on autopilot. I apologize again.
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Sorry for the continued radio silence on my end.ย Iโm just going to be honest: things have still been chaotic for me and my family, and Iโm struggling very heavily with my mental health on top of it all.ย Iโm bouncing back and forth between feeling like I can keep myselfย somewhat together and just very plainly not, so itโs hard to get motivated to do much of anything, let alone be active here or talk to people.ย When I manage and feel like it, Iโll be in the background working on things and hopefully at least accomplish little things where I can, but itโs going to be inconsistent.ย Thank you all again for your patience.
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READMORE TRIGGER WARNINGS: hospitals, medical, mother mention, terminal illness.
My mother, along with everything else she had fighting against her, was diagnosed with congestive heart failure. So if the osteomyelitis doesn't kill her first, this absolutely will. Every time I've tried to get an answer from the nursing staff about what stage of heart failure she is in ( she had heart surgery in April, I don't see how they could've missed it at that time, so maybe it isn't that far along โ I don't know how it works ), they know fuck all about it and kept telling me the doctor will get in contact with me. I've been hearing that for days, and now that my mom is back in the skilled nursing facility ( her vitals were stable, there was nothing more they could do for her supposedly, and all her antibiotics can be given to her there ), I doubt I will get a call. This was also a different medical staff that we were dealing with ( she transferred hospitals ), so it wasn't her usual team, and they honestly were awful. I'm hoping I can get some answers from the social worker. I just want to know how much time we have together and to get her out of there and back home so she doesn't end up dying there...
Admittedly, my depression is killing me on top of all this, it's been horrible lately along with my chest pain, and even now I've been trying to cut out my emotions in this post and just state the facts, but things have been really hard. This has been one of the worst years of my life for me and my family and I'm just tired and beaten down. Usually, in the past, I would have run into the arms of rp to help me cope, but I've just been so frustrated with my writing that it's hard actually to write anything โ it's like I have no confidence left. And worst of all, I know I can't continue like this. I have to do something for myself. When my mother was on life support back in April, her surgeon told us one of the most important things we needed to do was take care of ourselves, now more than ever. If this year has taught me anything, it's how true that is, and I've been failing at it. I'm going to try to pull myself up by my bootstraps, reach out to people, take care of my own heart, slowly get back to writing again, etc. It's going to be hard, things aren't exactly going to be easier from here on out, but I'm going to make an effort to do so. Sorry again guys, and thank you for sticking with me this far with all of this happening.
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Hey guys... I, uh, got some bombshell news regarding my mother today. Recently, she had to go back to the hospital due to chest pain and some concerning vitals. As far as we knew at the time, she only had a RSV infection, and was still on track for hopefully being able to come home soon. Today, they told us that she has osteomyelitis โ an infection of the bone, and that she will need to be on antibiotics for a minimum of six weeks in order to treat it. Both the infectious disease doctor and heart doctor saw her and agreed that she could NOT be put through anymore surgeries, they fear it would just make it worse that this point, so if these antibiotics don't end up working, hospice is her only option. I don't know what's going to happen, my feelings are everywhere and I haven't exactly been feeling too great myself either lately, so I'm sorry again I'm not around and not exactly being talkative, but... thank you all for continuing to understand. I can say I have a lot of confidence in the doctors that have been helping my mom, and hopefully I'll have good news to tell you all soon.
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My mother did have her surgery to replace her heart valve. While the surgery itself went well for the most part, the doctor discovered my mom had fixed pulmonary hypertension during it, and an incredibly extreme case of it on top of the other things. She has been in the ICU since her open heart surgery. Sheโs on... various machines, including a ventilator, dialyser, and ecmo; and is sedated just enough to make sure she doesnโt attempt to move around too much. Sheโs been able to open her eyes, squeeze our hands, and shake her head yes or no, but the doctor gave it to us straight... She has a 50% percent chance of surviving, and that hasnโt changed despite it being almost four days now. I can say that she had been very stable and there have been tiny increments of improvement since being in the ICU, but sheโs going on these machines for at least 5-10 more days at the least ( theyโre monitoring progress by the day, so this is just an estimate. ) And while she has been stable, that still doesnโt tell us how her body will react when they slowly start pulling her off of support and all these medicines. Thatโs the real determining factor. Even if she survives, her recovery journey is going to be a very long one.
Things basically went from okay, to bad, to worse... I went with her to the ER on the 19th and just got home today. I... donโt really want to talk about this with anyone- Iโm already dealing with the subject 24/7, and itโs been rough. I can say that my family has been an amazing support system, so please donโt worry about me. Obviously though, a lot is going on right now and I probably wonโt be around much, but I am probably going to cope through my characters as I always have. Sorry.
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