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svogliata-mente · 10 months

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gintama said you have to live even if life sucks and it's embarrassing even if you only live for the small things even if you live day by day still you have to live. and it said when you live you pick up the burden that is caring about other people and you have to carry it always even if it's heavy even if you feel like you can't anymore even if you don't even realize you're carrying it until you drop it and you never ever want to pick it up again because what if you drop it this time too how can you do it all again but you do you always do. and it said when you care about someone else they care about you too. when you protect something it protects you back. how can this burden be so heavy when you're all carrying it together

#but also it said what if you woke up one day with a screwdriver dick would that be fucked up or what #in other words I've read it at the perfect time in my life and i will forever be normal about this i prommy #gintama #ah-ha i knew i said all of that already i have like three thoughts total #anyway @ali i was trying to say this but even less coherently #(this was in my drafts btw. in case that wasn't clear)

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high-voltage-rat · 1 month

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Actually I'm still thinking about it. Another interesting way in which RvB is anti-war is the way that the Director fills the role of a villain and antagonist (especially in the Recollections trilogy, where he's a faceless villain we never see but is responsible for everything that happens).

In his memos to the Chairman, the Director emphasizes his sense of duty and obligation to the military- he becomes irate for the first time when he feels that it's being implied that he was derelict in his duty... or that the work he did out of that duty is being criticized for being against the military's interests. He also talks about Allison's death in a way I find... interesting.

"You see; I never had the chance to serve in battle. Nor did fate provide me the opportunity to sacrifice myself for humanity as it did for so many others in the Great War. Someone extremely dear to me was lost very early in my life. My mind has always plagued me with the question: If the choice had been placed in my hands, could I have saved her? [...] But, given the events of these past few weeks, I feel confident that had I been given the chance, I would have made those sacrifices myself... Had I only the chance."

The idea of sacrifice is central to the way he talks about his wife's loss, to the way he talks about the war in general. He talks of sacrifice with a sense of veneration- that it's something he aspires to do, that he longs for. There's a few ways we can interpret "I would have made those sacrifices myself"...

-That in Allison's place, he thinks he would have laid down his life too.

-That if given the chance, he would have given his life to save hers.

But most interestingly...

-That he would have sacrificed Allison's life for the continued survival of humanity, if that was what duty called for.

...And personally, I think all 3 are true.

In most war media, the Director's perspective on sacrifice is very common. Sacrifice is glorious and heroic- to die in battle is an honour- and it's the only way to ensure the group you serve survives. This is a tool of propaganda- nobody wants to go to war just for the sake of it, you have to give them a reason that the risk of dying or being permanently disabled isn't just acceptable, but desirable. Beyond that, most people don't want to do things they think are immoral- you have to convince them it's important, a necessary lesser evil. You teach them to sacrifice their morals, too.

The way they train soldiers to follow orders and to kill, is to convince them that they, and the people around them, and the people they care about, will all die if they don't. It's drilled into your head from day one. It's the way they ensure their commanding officers won't shy away from sending their men off to die. The message is constant- sacrifice is your duty, and duty ensures your people's survival.

In the Director's eyes, the damage Project Freelancer caused was his sacrifice. He never got the opportunity to sacrifice himself during the war- so he sacrificed others, as military brass do. The Freelancers- including his daughter. The countless sim troopers. Any people he considered "collateral damage" on missions. And when the opportunity to do so presented itself, he sacrificed a copy of himself- Alpha- and he sacrificed a copy of Allison- Tex.

The very thing that derailed his life- the loss of his wife- he made it happen again. He put her copy in dangerous situations, let her exist in the position of constant repeated failure, created the circumstances that would eventually lead to her death. He put their daughter in deadly situations that nearly killed her repeatedly, provided her with impossible expectations leading to self-destructive behaviours in the name of duty, implanted her with two AI knowing they could cause her permanent harm. He was confident he "would have made those sacrifices himself" because he did.

The Director is the embodiment of the military war machine. As an antagonist, he is a warning against buying into the glorification of sacrifice. He's a condemnation of the idea that one should be willing to do anything to win a war- that duty to the military is the thing that ensures survival... All the messages that are pushed to ensure recruitment and obedience of soldiers.

He's a reminder that swallowing the propaganda leads to you doing terrible things... and in the end, you're a broken man left mourning the losses that you suffered even as you repeated them, convinced that it was all necessary.

#late nights with ali #ali watches rvb #not video games #rvb #red vs blue #leonard church #the director #director rvb #idk why I'm so fixated on thinking about the anti-war interpretation of rvb right now but I'm apparently going ham #it's just so fucking. wild to me. listening to the director's messages in S6 always has me thinking 'oh man this guy ate the propaganda up'#the OPPORTUNITY to sacrifice yourself??? homedog you sound like the kid in high school who brags he's joining the army as soon as he's 18 #to be clear: a lot of my thoughts on this stem from the fact that I come from a military family. I spend a lot of time with people who...#...bought in to the military propaganda and indoctrination. I see an amplified version of their perspectives reflected in the director.#to the military man sacrifice is the highest calling. sacrifice of your life. sacrifice of your morals. sacrifice of your wellbeing.#the things the director did were all in line with that fucked-up form of sacrifice.#and that they're portrayed for the evil they are is an important protest against the war machine's messaging.

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acciojaeyun · 1 year

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— 11:47 pm ; how sunghoon falls in love

pairing: park sunghoon x gn!reader genre: fluff (with a tad bit of crack) trope: they fell first, he fell harder

ah, sunghoon. such a classic trope for park sunghoon, it seems.

to be fair, he never knew – nor realised. just like sunghoon, himself, he didn’t even know what love was.

however, with how his family treated him, the way he was supported in his skating journey (it was really for his benefit, but it was his parents who pushed him to do so) up to his journey in being an idol, sunghoon maybe had an idea of what love is.

so, when love barged in his walls through loud banter, with you having to have liked him first (well, as heeseung told him, but who knows?), sunghoon accepted it — the thing was: he was given love, what does he do with it?

now, sunghoon appreciates the idea of someone who sees him as a potential partner. believe me, he does. but in the whole sunghoon fashion, does he tell you about it? no, he doesn’t. in fact, he was nonchalant about the whole ordeal.

too nonchalant. too nonchalant to notice that he was far in too deep.

“you got yourself matcha?” you raised your eyebrows at sunghoon who came back with a big tub of ice cream.

he snorted. “as if, i bought this for you, and you have questionable taste in food.”

“it’s just matcha?”

“matcha as is is amazing, yeah, but matcha and oranges? with chocolate?”

sunghoon wouldn’t even know he was in love, but he made sure you felt it.

“you do know you could’ve brought a hair tie with you, right?”

“yeah, no shit, sunghoon, thanks for reminding me.”

but sooner or later, you found yourself being pulled at the wrist by the tall man with no words exchanged at all. he grabbed a spare handkerchief in his bag and made a make-shift hair tie to keep your hair in place.

beautiful, sunghoon would think. and sunghoon takes a mental note to bring a hair tie with him every time from now on.

sunghoon was familiar with love, but he was only acquainted by it. considering he had spent a lot of time in areas other than it, but he was willing enough to learn it.

“what an ugly colour,” sunghoon comments as he sees you buy five phone cases of the same colour in a hue which he didn’t like. but soon enough, you’d see him buy a pen with the same shade, the same colour. writing annotations with his staple black pen and add embellishment with the oddly coloured pen.

sunghoon falling in love is claiming to despise that you add milk in your coffee when he doesn’t, but he’ll order it for you both once in a week. sunghoon falling in love is watching the same movie (which he claimed to be very boring) with you for the nth time. sunghoon falling in love was falling in love without knowing that he was.

“i might be in love with you,” he would say one night as he stared at you.

“you might?”

“oh,” he said after a pause.

he met your gaze and smiled – one that radiated warmth and safety.

“i’m in love with you.”

and in between the unfamiliarity throughout the journey, he has arrived home.

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wikiangela · 6 months

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tagged by @jesuisici33 @thewolvesof1998 @daffi-990 @jamespearce9-1-1 @lover-of-mine @hippolotamus @disasterbuckdiaz 💖💖

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It’s a good few weeks, and it feels like everyone’s back on track, settling into their lives again, figuring everything out one day at a time. Buck’s happy. He has his awesome girlfriend, his best friend seems finally more at ease, even if the divorce is adding some stress, and his other best friend is happier than ever with his mom around. Everything’s finally starting to go great.

And then it all gets disrupted again.

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no pressure tags: @elvensorceress @gaydiaz @diazass @thebravebitch @silentxxsoul @shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @arthursdent @diazblunt @911onabc @spagheddiediaz @housewifebuck @gayhoediaz @rogerzsteven @watchyourbuck @monsterrae1 @honestlydarkprincess @underwater-ninja-13 @eowon @exhuastedpigeon @weewootruck @loserdiaz @evanbegins @steadfastsaturnsrings @ladydorian05 @malewifediaz @pirrusstuff @theotherbuckley @911-on-abc @spotsandsocks @hoodie-buck @giddyupbuck @wildlife4life @fortheloveofbuddie @nmcggg @diazpatcher @jeeyuns

#the alive shannon fic #last line tag #buddie wip #buddie fic #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #clearly struggling to segue into the bombing lmao #my wips #skipped wip wednesday so have a lil line haha #thought id have the bombing written already but need to start getting ready for work so i guess writing's done for today lmao #i might be a little absent from the writing games in the next few weeks bc im just so exhausted lately lol #this scene I'm writing is so disjointed and out of order rn and i hate it i need to find more time to write it properly haha #but pls keep tagging me i love reading y'alls wonderful snippets!!#also what do we think shannon's job could be bc im trying to figure it out and have no clue lol #(also i have to actively remind myself of ali's existence and i can't wait until the break up so i don't have to anymore lmao)

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confusionmeisss · 7 months

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this is so very julian blackthorn coded

#he does not follow a normal moral code. he made up his own a very long time ago & that’s the one he follows #julian blackthorn #tsc #the shadowhunter chronicles #tda #the dark artifices #lady midnight #lord of shadows #queen of air and darkness #blackstairs #ali’s thoughts & opinions 📼

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amadeusevenstar · 5 months

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want to write touch starved lawrusso and as fun as i think it would be to write johnny as the touch starved one i know for a fact that it’s actually daniel

#especially younger lawrusso like #johnny has the cobras hanging off of him every second of every day #constantly hugging each other and wrestling and hitting and cuddling constant playful shoves and pats on the back #and who does daniel have?#definitely not ali bc they’re broken up atp #his mom? mr miyagi? sure #but his moms at work all the time and physical affection isn’t really miyagi’s thing #not to mention all the times he gets beat up so he’s basically only ever experienced violence from other boys his age #(cough cough that’s ur fault johnny u gotta make it up to him)#idk anyways #you guys have any thoughts on this ?#johnny lawrence #daniel larusso #lawrusso

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muadweeb · 1 year

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Mushroom wrote that Alys was an enchantress who bathed in maidens' blood to remain youthful.

Aemond told Daemon that it was Alys who told him where to find him, as she saw a vision in a fire.

Regis abruptly died after insulting Alys. Some claim she used magic to burst his skull.

Despite Damon's assurance that no one would laugh at the messenger's story, an onlooker did so. The messenger then choked to death in moments, with some saying they had seen the imprints of a woman's fingers on his throat.

#alys rivers #aemond one eye #aemond targaryen #hotd #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #fire and blood volume i #valyriansource #asoiafedit #ive always thought jessica looks both old and young at the same time!!!#thank god she did the character of lucille sharpe!#witch queen #harrenhal

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dungeons-and-dragon-age · 1 year

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While 'Renan is off finding the holy grail, slaying one and a half high dragons, burning the rotting corpse of the crucified king, and having a personal crisis, Noya is also having A Great Time in the Deep Roads! :) Including but not limited to fun activities such as: nug wrangling, being trapped miles under the earth for weeks on end, finding and killing two paragons, and encountering horrors beyond her imagination that will fuel nightmares for the rest of her life! <3

#i could not be bothered to draw the entire party im sorry </3 #she is with leli sten and wynne and mutton tho!#(mutt is their mabari :) )#they're taking a lot longer than expected obviously bc who would have thought they'd have to start a whole ass deep roads expedition #so renan gets a bunch of stuff done in the mean time #(well maybe not *that* much but he does return to redcliffe w the ashes & do morri's request & return to ostagar)#the plan was to regroup in redcliffe but cos the others are taking so long they decided to send a messenger & go do sth instead of waiting #oc: noya tabris #my ocs #my art #id in alt #also. i like to think that the archdemon dream happened when noya was in the dead trenches #like when noya sees the archdemon in person is also when ali & renan have that dream abt it feeling super close & like its looking at them #idk i just that that would be cool #dunno yet where i want to put the tamlen thing timeline wise yet though #bc i'd kinda like for noya to be there for that

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infected-paul · 8 months

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i call this one ali try-cry-why-try at her happiest...

#ali.art #+ also #ali.txt #i guess #ramble + thoughts follow #soooo... drawing yourself can be really good for your self esteem/confidence #ik no ones probably reading this or caring but this means A LOT to me...#my art style is kinda made for drawing ME #overalls and sweater are most accurately me btw #also this helped with practicing my art style which has been all over the place lately.#OKAY and now for fit + hair:#1) around 2021 to 2022 #otherwise known as one of the best times of my life rivaled only by fall of 2019 #is me in middle school with my bleached ends AND when i first got bangs (and never looked back)#i wore this white oversized sweater on my uniform (navy polo and khaki pants) and the whole Ali Look became so popular among the younger #girls who all copied the bangs bleached ends and white sweater and khakis I WAS a trendsetter!!! lmao #i chose that for the space buns. A signature Ali hairstyle. i did them a lot back then.#2) is back around april when i cut my hair about chin to mid neck long it was crazy layered kinda 70s punk rock look #i drew my belle cosplay as the fit bc i look pretty in it okay... i did not have it back then but i did not remember when drawing lmb #it's on my black platform heeled boots bc that's a must #3) just me with a ponytail #and!! my moon earring with just a sparkly stud earring!! my fav #4) MY MOST recent aqquired clothing THE BLUSH PINK OVERALLS #i love them so so so much #they're so cute and comfy #and my hair has grown out and i died the bottom half of it an almost burgundy a while ago #anyway that is how i look today!!#anyway tysm to anyone who's lasted through all that lmaooo #also if u want i can talk more !!! abt any if it!!! just ask me any questions!!!

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khaotungsfirst · 5 months

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i’m having so much fun with cherry magic this shit got me giggling and kicking my feet

#every time achi hears karan’s thoughts dasfgsshjhszfgd #ali watches #cherry magic th #cmth

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aliothbuzzsawshark · 1 year

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Drew these two after hearing about what’s going on currently in go rush. As a Yuhi fan, I’m having a great time.

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#yugioh go rush #go rush #yuhi ohdo #yuamu ohdo #buzzsaw’s art #go rush spoilers and my thoughts about the recent episodes in the tags but I haven't seen go rush yet #Yuhi was the character I looked at first in go rush and said “oh they’re gonna be my blorbo” so for him to just get carded with no build up #i absolutely hate it #From what I’m able to tell/expect from Yuhi’s depression or whatever he’s got is that he would go into a really fascinating character #And could even help show kids watching at home the ways you could deal/not deal with depression and sadness #But no he just got carded. And will likely get out of being carded without depression #And I don't know much about Yuama but does she get any time to grieve? Or get an arc about this?#Like I don’t want Yuama to have an arc based almost entirely around a man even if it’s her brother #But she could give a really interesting perspective about loss at a young age.#I don’t know if she’ll get that or if she’s already had an arc during season two #But I’m just hoping she’ll be able to be sad and have time before another plot point occurs.#Also if whatever I say is wrong please tell me cause I just really wanna know about these two twin’s deals after this.#talks with buzzsaw #Ali learns about go rush

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writtenmemxries · 2 years

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it........it took him three times........to get it right.........and the fourth one..........is the one that smells and tastes best........three times he practiced at home to get it right for eddie and chris........and eddie's the fourth one...........the most perfect one.........i'm gonna throw up now

#i don't know if this makes sense but like #abby. ali. taylor. three times. three relationships. and none of them worked out #and buck thought it would each time. he stuck it out with taylor because he hoped it would feel right #and then he cooks lasagne for what i imagine is the fourth time #and it smells amazing and it tastes even better and it's good #and buck practiced at home by himself because he wanted it to be perfect for eddie #because he didn't want to make another mistake. he didn't want to get the wrong couch again.#but the fourth time everything's perfect. and eddie is his fourth time.#i may have got it totally wrong and it might be just a coincidence but boy is it an amazing coincidence #buddie #911 spoilers #911 s6 speculation #911 6x01

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acciojaeyun · 1 year

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– 2:57 pm ; how jay falls in love

genre: fluff pairing: park jongseong / jay x gn!reader trope: friends to lovers

jay welcomes love the way he was welcomed with it as a kid.

and while he considers that life is indeed 100% suffering, he would take it as a grain of salt. sure, life had its sufferings, that’s why jay tries to enjoy it the way that he can – involving himself in things that make him alive.

that’s why, when jay found himself including you in his world, he knew he was in love. he didn’t even need to tell people that you were in love, just the fact that you were constantly with him was a key-teller that park jongseong has indeed fallen in love with you.

“be ready in 5,” he’d say one afternoon.

“what, why?” you’d ask.

“i kinda want to see the museum,” he’d shrug before excusing himself to answer the call when his phone rang: it was jake, the one who told him about the museum, knowing full well that jay would bring you there with him.

he never realised he was in love; it was something that didn’t need much time for him to think through and realise. for jay, you are an important someone. and that alone was enough for him to know that he was in love.

“you want to visit the coffee shop down the corner?” jay would ask as you and him lounged in his room.

“the newly opened shop at the end of the street?” you would ask as you peered your gaze away from your phone.

jay would hum in response as he would wait for your reply. and jay would understand if you bid next time if you were busy. so, instead of bringing you there, jay brings it to you.

“what’s this?” you’d ask as jay comes home with a carton cup of steaming hot coffee while he nursed himself with a cold, americano one. his arm and forearm held a brown bag in between. “just get it,” he’d whine, because, unfortunately, jay held the cup at the base, not at the expanse of the holder.

you’d chuckle and thank him, to which he’d anticipate your reaction at your first sip. it was a different order, close as if it was jay who made it. he’d say that he customised the drink for you, and he might’ve excruciated the barista a bit when he added a lot of add-ons and syrups to your drink – which you liked, by the way.

jay would go back to whatever he was doing prior going out, not before he lays down the bag in front of you whilst saying he took each pastry because he wanted you to try each. and when you asked him about his, he’d smile and say that he already ate (he hasn’t).

jay would give his all in love.

“are you cold?” he’d ask through his shivers, watching how air fogs whenever both of you exhale.

“i’m fine,” you’d reply.

“no, wear this,” and he’d remove his coat, shrugging it off for you to wear, not minding if the jumper he wore beneath the long coat was thin, too thin for the environment, as long as you weren’t cold, his heart was warm.

he will never ask for anything in return.

jay loves unconditionally, and he will continue in doing so.

#enhypen #enhypen soft hours #enhypen hard thoughts #park jongseong #park jay #enhypen jay #imagines #x reader #fluff #prompts #trope #angst #smut #— ali’s timely thoughts ;#enhypen jay x reader #enhypen jay smut

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wereshrew-admirer · 2 years

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