Headcanon #500:

Mind is afraid that when he distances himself from or above the others, that he will be too far gone to come back down. That when his paranoia gets the best of him, he'll shut everyone else out and then be completely alone with no way back to where he was before.

Heart is afraid that if Mind is right, with the idea that what he does isn't genuine, that he's being manipulative without realizing it. Then therefore being Whole without himself there is the better option. That he'd be thrown out because his ideas would then be "not worth it" or even "vile"

Soul is afraid that no matter what he does or how good things will be, they'll always eventually split up again or even end up worse. Even then he has no clue what he's supposed to do or be during everything, and so because of that he'll never be whole. Or worse that he'll never really "feel" whole.

support group for psychotic/paranoid kids who had to watch end of the world climate change videos in school and never recovered quite right

said this before but neil’s backstory is genuinely horrifying

how the turn tables

do you ever think about how caleb was canonically honeypotting essek up to and past episode 97 and how essek likely had feelings for him (without wanting to, while knowing that caleb and the m9 were a threat to him, but it happened anyway) long before caleb had feelings for him. and caleb knew that. and his speech in ep 97 was meant to just get essek to keep his shit together so that he didn't do anything drastic in the middle of peace talks, it wasn't genuine, it wasn't hopeful, it was caleb doing damage control and fixing an issue before it started. and. probably around the time they all went to essek in eiselcross. caleb, knowing that essek was a little in love with him already, probably never had an "oh. oh" moment but instead looked at this friend-mirror-ally-threat and thought "oh, he's dear to me, i want him to do well and be well, i want to be a part of his life. i'm almost at a point where i can manage that". do you ever think about that dynamic. insane.

I could benefit from the assistance of a therapist

stop making posts that r supposed to be educating non-psychotics abt psychosis while throwing people w/ delusions you dont understand/experience under the bus thanks

look the thing is i usually dont really Care how other people enjoy characters. but i always get a little 😮??? whenever i see the "vampire daddy yessss he looks like a god" etc brand fans of astarion like wnsjsjdjdjfjfjfjf i look at him and go wow. he's such a pretty boy with his eye bags 🤩🤩🤩 and his wrinkles 😍😍😍 he has a weirdo vibe like he's acting really offputting which i find charming... he's supposed to be a deception master but he gives away his lies soooo easily?? and he doesnt really know how to hold a conversation when you push him far enough from his script?? he's also so endlessly silly like he's just a little stray cat 😌😌😌 but watch out!!! stray cat behavior is Really there like he will lash out and act like a huge bitch occasionally. again that's his charm!! he's such a bitch (im saying it lovingly). his face looks a little bit like the grinch doesn't it

in my hc the noble houses of menzoberranzan operate similarly to the houses in ice and fire where they’re constantly feuding with each other but instead of trying to take the throne/control of the whole realm they’re all fighting for lolth’s favour instead. and because they can’t outright declare war on each other (forgot the reason for why they can’t exactly do that but iirc lolth doesn’t like it?? she loves the drama I guess) and if they rise too quickly lolth casts them down so they have to be cunning about it. not to mention if they stay too long in power and do nothing about it that also displeases the spider queen so the nobility’s game of intrigue is constantly moving and working both for self gain and for self preservation.

shri’iia also plays the game but more of a pawn than a player. she’s not born from any noble house (she’s actually a commoner). the only reason why she has any foot in the game is that she’s taken in by the matriarch of faen tlabbar - one of the houses who fervently worships lolth to the point of zealotry - when they’ve heard word that she—a commoner—have managed to succeed lolth’s trials and gained her blessing. lolth blessings are rare to come and making someone a paladin is even more rare so for a zealot house, that’s a a sign they can’t pass up. so, the house matriarch takes her in and keeps in a tower where she’s supposed to pray and train to lolth day and night. the paladin oath that shri’iia swears is both for lolth and her matriarch; she swears to punish the enemies of her mistresses and forever keep her loyalty to them. her matriarch’s word is an extension to lolth’s will, so to disobey her will be disobeying lolth herself.

and ofc shri’iia being born poor with everything to give and nothing to lose, who thought that there is more to her life than a merchant’s daughter, to be known by the goddess she worship and noticed by one of the most influential houses in the city, swears herself to that oath. she never regretted that choice not even when she’s kept in that tower in complete isolation with her matriarch being the only person she could interact with.

elyse and i started rewatching homeland bc we’re down bad for damian lewis right now and this show is batshit bonkers every character is clinically insane and there is SO much sex i cannot believe i used to watch this with my PARENTS?????? 

I just started reading The Turnaway Study and not to be dramatic but this is literally my nightmare

I think liam as a character is entirely encapsulated by where he hides the nogitsune

[LAYS ON THE FUCKING FLOOR] MY MOM LEFT THE GRAVY AND BUTTERNUT SQUASH SOUP SHE MADE YESTERDAY JUST OUT ON THE STOVETOP OVERNIGHT AND ALL DAY TODAY AND THEN TRIED TO FEED IT TO US

I don’t know how to explain it but leatin is giving me the same vibe as bellarke with their low-key enemies to best friends to lovers giving each other longing loving looks and cryptic quotes about their love