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Bones of Payment || Van & Jade
TIMING: end of november.
LOCATION: at van's old elementary school.
PARTIES: @highoctanegem & @vanoincidence
SUMMARY: van needs bones! jade can help her get them!
CONTENT: none~
Van wasn’t sure what she needed to dig up a grave, but she knew she needed an accomplice. When Jade had arrived after delivering a few pizzas and the end of both their shifts was drawing near, Van considered her options. She didn’t want to disturb anybody’s grave, not really, but she knew where her third grade class gerbil was buried, and if Regan wanted bones, then she would get bones. Maybe she could have outsourced them, but where would she even get them? She’d seen a Tik Tok about bones and how they were usually inhumanely dispensed across the United States. Van didn’t want to contribute to that economy.
So she waited and watched Jade carefully, only speaking once the other looked like she was getting ready to leave through the back door. “I need bones. Will you help me dig up my third grade class pet so I can get bones?” Van couldn’t remember if she had told Jade what the bones were for, but she was almost positive she had. “It’s for Dr. Kavanagh.” So maybe it didn’t matter if she hadn’t, because she was explaining what she needed them for anyway. “For rent. She wants me to pay her rent with bones and I don’t have bones except for the ones in my body and she says she wants those, too, but I told her I’m getting cremated, so she can’t have those. There are bones at my house, I think– my next door neighbor had a gerbil, but there’s goo, so I can’t get those bones. Help me get the bones.” The words came out in one big breath and she felt a little lightheaded as she watched for Jade’s reaction.
Jade was really loving life as part-time for Sly Slice. Don’t get her wrong, the unpredictability of food delivery apps was like, so her tempo but something about that steady paycheck was doing it for her. Maybe that was growth, maybe that was maturing. (Ruby would be so proud). Jade could only hope it didn’t turn her into some boring old lady. Like Van already thought she was. Speaking of Van, she looked a little twitchier than usual when Jade entered the shop after she wrapped up her last order. She smiled at her anyway, cause she knew the girl loved running on a few hours of sleep, so maybe she was like… tired, not nervous.
Jade absolutely did not expect the word vomit that came out of Van as she readied to call it a night. She stopped in her tracks, giving herself a little time to fully process what she’d been told. Right, yup. Nope, she actually heard that right. Van needed bones, again. She knew this was a recurring issue, apparently. “Oooh, yup. I can…” Hearing the name Kavanagh didn’t elicit some sort of Pavlovian response in her, no way. (She did wipe her chin, just in case). She didn’t expect Regan to be a landlord. That was like, a little problematic of her, actually. A bit of a turn-off, if she was being honest. Like, traitor much? But she had her own red flags to care about first, before she could judge others’. (Like double texting, nothing else). Regan being a landlord aside, there was still Van’s issue, which mattered more than whatever she felt for the doctor. But maybe… if word got out that she was the person who helped Van get those bones, that could work in her favor too. From all sides, this looked to be a win-win situation. Maybe not so much for Van, though. Who was like, being bullied by a greedy landlord. But for her gay agenda? Totes.
“I can totally help, babe!” Jade got out as quick as she could before Van could faint. Her eyebrows pinched together, her head tilted, waiting to see what was coming next. Nothing, apparently. That was all the girl wanted to say. Her hand circled around the room. “Is um… is that anywhere close? Your dead pet’s grave, I mean. We can go on my bike if it’s not. I have an extra helmet. You’re not…like, scared of Roxie, are you?”
Instead of looking distraught, Jade seemed contemplative. That was a good sign… right? Van held her breath a moment longer before her chest heaved. She took to leaning against the wall, not really sure what had gotten into her. She should’ve just told Dr. Kavanagh she would have paid like normal people did. Why did she want bones, anyway? Couldn’t she use money instead of bones? After learning that she was a medical examiner, it made more sense, but wouldn’t she be covered in bones? Van was ignorant to most things happening across Wicked’s Rest, but she wasn’t dumb enough to ignore the death count. It was unusually high, which meant that Dr. Kavanagh probably had access to tons of bones. It was obvious she didn’t care about the legalities of any of any of this.
Jade told her that she could help and Van felt the weight (literally) lift off her shoulders. She slumped against the wall and nodded, thankful that she didn’t need to do any more convincing. Their conversation online had told her that Jade would’ve been the kind of person she could trust in a situation like this, but it was still a weird request to begin with. At her question, Van nodded a little too enthusiastically. “Um— not far, like— maybe fifteen minutes?” She counted on her fingers even though there was nothing to count. Van knew that her old elementary school was goo-less— it was one of the locations they’d set up for temporary shelter. “There might um, be some people here? Because of the displacement or whatever, but…” Maybe it wouldn’t be that weird, Van could lie about losing an earring. She would make sure to take one off, just in case. “Roxie…” The bike, right. Van shook her head. “I don’t— no, I’m not afraid.” A little afraid, but it should be fine. “I’ve never… ridden one before. You’re not going to kill us, so it’s fine, right? I mean, if you do, then she’d get her bones.” Was that the intention? Jade wouldn’t kill her, would she? Van eyed the woman suspiciously for a moment before pushing away from the wall. “Do you also have a shovel? If not, we need to get one.” Why Jade would have a shovel on her, she wasn’t sure. She didn’t exactly have access to one at Dr. Kavanagh’s apartment.
Jade let out a tiny, delighted laugh, looking at Van visibly relax against the wall. She was a little pissed at Regan for making this girl so stressed, actually. And for what? Bones? It was kinda ridiculous, in her opinion. (Alright, fine. She understood Regan a little too) (Her landlord price would be Crunchwraps Supreme, which by all accounts, were far superior to bones).
She clapped with similar enthusiasm, already bouncing on her feet. “Well let’s do it then! Fifteen minutes is nothing!” her eyes sparkled encouragingly, but Van stayed in her spot, despite it, clearly having some doubts. That was okay, not everyone was ready to jump into action immediately, like she was. “Roxie! Yup. Oh, it’ll be so fine, you’re gonna love it. I’ll make sure it’s not a bumpy ride. Stop that, you’re not gonna be bones. Pinky promise.” She’d had several people on her bike before, and not a single one of them had complained about her riding skills, so she was confident she could make Van’s first experience a good one. At least, her argument was convincing enough to get Van moving this time. Except, not really… cause she also had more questions. (And actually? It was a good thing someone was asking the right questions) (Had it come down to her, she would’ve been at the school five minutes ago, and decided there what she wanted to do).
Jade bit the side of her lip, shaking her head in disappointment. “Um, nope. No shovel. Maybe if I had like, known you were planning on this. I bet I would’ve found one,” her eyes widened when an idea crossed her mind. “Ooooh, it could’ve been a whole girlies trip! With snacks and…” she trailed off, having a smidge of self-awareness to understand Van was not in the mood for that. She cleared her throat. One of the best things they had going for them right now, was that Jade was zero distracted by… gay stuff. Cause Van, as beautiful as she was, already felt like a little sister to her. So she could actually put the wonderful brain she had to good use. “There’s a hardware store near, I’m like… positive. Something with a ‘W’? I pass it every time I come here!” she twisted around, her thumb pointing behind her as she could simply determine which way the store was. (A sense of direction wasn’t exactly one of her talents, but that didn’t stop her from believing!). “I mean, they have to have some, right? OH—Or! Maybe they have gloves, and we can dig with our hands.” She beckoned Van to follow her outside,” come on, we’ll make a quick stop there”.
Jade seemed confident in her abilities, so that should have, in theory, put Van at ease. She couldn’t help but feel like her life was turning into a very stupid movie. The kind that were lost to under the table releases, and only film guys named Timothy knew about them. It was a silly thought and she knew it, but her head was full of silly thoughts lately and it was hard to expel them when things like this kept on happening.
Things like this being full grown adults trying to convince her of their worth. Van blinked at Jade before giving her a small nod. “Okay, no shovel, but we can um, we can probably find one.” It shouldn’t be that hard. This was a town with shovels, she’d seen plenty. Maybe they could break into a gardener’s shed, or the custodial shed. Would she even really remember where the gerbil was buried? She hoped so. This all seemed like a loss, in all honesty.
“A girls…” Really, Van wasn’t quite sure what Jade was trying to get at, but she did seem excited to help, and shouldn’t she be grateful for that? She wanted to be grateful for that, so she sucked in a breath and nodded. Jade was devising a plan for a shovel and Van shook her head, “don’t you know anything about committing crimes? We can’t leave a paper trail.”
She thought about Debbie, for a brief moment, and her stomach twisted. She wondered if she was bones now, or if her body was still decomposing in the pit. Guilt settled over her quickly and she felt her mouth fill with iron, anxiety pulling at her seams. “We can— a shovel should be at the shed, um, you know how to pick locks, right?” Jade looked like the kind of person who did know how to pick locks, but that was none of her business. Van nodded before pushing away from the wall, following after Jade. “You don’t think we’ll get in trouble for this, do you?”
Jade’s eyebrows pulled together as Van dashed all her wonderful (half-baked) ideas. Well, okay… better not suggest anything else then. She didn't understand what was happening very well. But Van was anxious, that she knew. She could totally be patient with the girl as she navigated her thoughts and feelings. She was twenty at some point, too. (Her twenties were so fun though, she couldn’t relate). Calling this a crime was totally pushing it, though. “I thought we weren’t… doing anything illegal. How’s looking for your old guinea pig wrong?” Like, it was hers, technically. “Do you mean potentially entering somewhere closed? That’s cool, I can totally flirt with whoever and get us inside, no need to trespass”. Her eyes narrowed for a moment, regarding Van with respect. “What do you know about crime, babe? Do you also get all your knowledge from TV shows? Cause, same”.
So the shovel was a no, for now at least. Not a store-bought one, but possibly they could find one in a shed. Jade didn’t argue with Van’s logic, it tracked. And they would need to pick locks, potentially. She beamed at the girl’s assumption. “Oh, totally. I once dated a guy who taught me all about it,” and by that she meant, she watched him do it for twenty minutes, bored out of her ass, and then made out with him against that same door when he failed to pick the lock. But she knew the basics, okay? She had this, she was super confident she did. How hard could it be anyway? They made it look super easy on TV.
Once they made it to her bike parked outside Sly Slice, Jade reached for her extra helmet, helping Van with it. “I’m positive we won’t get in trouble, babe. It’s not like we’re digging up a real… person, are we?” She mused, adjusting the chin strap. Her hands squeezed Van’s shoulders gently, grinning proudly at her once she was good to go. “You look so badass” she chuckled, spinning around and reaching for her own helmet. Safety first and all. Regan would probably be pissed if she let anything happen to Van. (Well, actually) (She wasn’t sure. Those bones would be up for grabs, wouldn’t they?) She climbed onto her machine, leaving enough space between her and the delivery box for Van to fit with no issues. She was part of the short club too, so they were gonna be super comfy. “I’ll go slow…ish, so you can give me directions, okay?” Jade did not wait for confirmation that Van was on board with the plan, as soon as she sensed the girl behind her, she started the engine. Her voice rose above the noise. “Hold on, but try not to strangle me okay?” There was a time and place for that, but she was not going to joke about it with Van. And with that thought out of the way… they hit the road.
Jade reassured her that there was no crime to be committed, that they would be just entering a place where flirting might ensue. The thought of having to watch Jade flirt with whoever it was that might catch them made her head spin. Van wasn’t sure what having an older sibling was like, but this sure felt like that. At Jade’s question, she nodded slowly. “I mean, yeah– I don’t like, go out and commit crimes or whatever.” She definitely did. The most heinous one was beneath her belt, even if she repressed the memory as best as she could. Still, she wasn’t about to explain to Jade that she had committed two murders already– that was for Van to know and for Jade, or anyone else who hadn’t been there to never find out.
Van nodded, glad to know that at the very least, Jade would be able to get them into a tool shed, need be. She wasn’t sure why she was following through with this plan, or why she wasn’t questioning Dr. Kavanagh more about her need for bones, but she was feeling extremely pressured to follow through with her end of the bargain. What somebody could want with bones over money, she couldn’t be sure, but she wasn’t going to complain about giving somebody something else other than money, that was for sure.
“No, no not– it’s a gerbil, I swear!” The last thing she needed was for Jade to think that she was running around digging up all the graves, but then again, she seemed pretty chill with what they were about to do which, if Van were smarter, maybe she’d question that, too. Instead, she was just glad that somebody was willing to help her. She could have probably asked Nora, but Nora lived in a literal crypt which meant that they’d probably dig up real human remains, and she wasn’t ready for that kind of thing, especially not when it was for a doctor who would definitely know that they were not animal bones. Van felt like a child as Jade put her helmet on her. She wobbled beneath the weight of Jade’s hands, and even though they were within like-height to each other, she felt so much smaller. Van looked at the back of Jade’s bike apprehensively before finally getting on, gripping the back rack to steady herself. “Okay, I mean– yeah, that’s fine.” She liked to skateboard, and she liked to go fast, so this wouldn’t be that much different, would it? The bike started and she could feel the thrum of it in her chest, and in the pads of her fingers. Jade was shouting over the noise and Van opened her mouth to ask what she was saying, but instead the bike lurched forward and Van found herself grabbing onto Jade’s waist.
They moved forward and instead of the anxiety from before, Van felt exhilarated. She wasn’t sure if that was a good sign or not. The noise of the bike mixed with the wind in her face felt freeing in a way she hadn’t experienced since Debbie died. She… liked it, if she were being honest with herself, but she still held onto Jade tightly, even while leaning forward to shout out directions to her old school.
They arrived safely, which Van was grateful for, despite her newfound love of motorbikes. She hopped off, a little sad that she’d need to take the helmet off. Her fingers felt numb, but not in a way that meant they were cold, just that they’d been resting on something at a constant vibration– she could feel it in her legs, too. That was slightly less uncomfortable than the latter. She turned around to look at the fence, then to the big tree that she knew the gerbil was buried under. “The fence doesn’t look like it’s locked…” The tool shed to the left definitely was, though. Inhaling sharply, Van took off the helmet and nodded. “Are you um– are you ready?”
At this point, Jade wasn’t sure if it was a gerbil, a guinea pig or something else entirely, (all those little things looked the same to her. Was that… problematic?), but in the end, it was all irrelevant. She was here to help Van, not get specific about which animal was dead and buried. As long as it wasn’t another one of those metal-eating rats, she was totally Gucci with whatever they found.
She and Van were so alike, actually. In the sense they both didn’t like to go out and commit ‘crimes or whatever’, so with that important detail out of the way, she was happy to guide the girl to her bike and introduce her to Roxie. It was a super fun ride, all things considered. She was used to jitters from first-time riders, but Van did so well. She wasn’t even yelling in her ear (except for the instructions, duh) nor was she gripping too hard like the people who freaked out on her usually did. It went so smoothly, that they even made it to Van’s old elementary school in less than the estimated fifteen minutes. (She would’ve bragged a little more about how good a ride she was but like, the circumstances or whatever).
Climbing off the bike, she removed her helmet and followed Van’s gaze, smiling at the observation. Luck was totally on their side, it seemed. “Sweet! One less thing for you to worry about, babe.” She wasn’t sure if that was actually true. If anything would be ‘one less worry’ for Van, but Jade couldn’t help being extremely positive. (That was good though, right? Balanced energies). She locked the motorcycle, reaching for Van’s helmet once she took it off, putting it away inside her delivery box. “I’ve been ready since like…you first asked me, yup” She nodded, marching toward the shed.
“You wanna go check and make sure there is something in there for us to dig?” This wasn’t like, a crappy horror movie where the villain was lurking in the shadows, so they could totally split up, right? Nothing would happen to them. And if it did, she was carrying that knife strapped to her ankle. But that was a break in case of emergency type of situation. “I’ll go unlock that shed for us” she spoke confidently, reaching inside her jacket for a bobby pin. Score. She flashed Van one of her brightest smiles before heading left of the field, eyes on the prize.
Really, how hard could it be? Jade could always use a little of that… enhanced strength in her if it came down to it. As long as it didn’t look, you know, like someone forced the door. (She was smart too, alright?) Before she even touched the shed, she made sure to look around for cameras. They were pointed towards the building, which would keep her concealed if she succeeded at breaking into the shed. (Which was kind of a bummer? Because she looked pretty hot. It should’ve been immortalized in tape, really). She inserted the pin and prodded aimlessly, gaze lifting to follow Van.
“Yeah, I guess.” Van looked at the fence, no longer sure if this was a good idea or not. Why was she even doing it in the first place? It was so dumb! She could get arrested! She could get Jade arrested, and after telling her that she didn’t go and do illegal things, that seemed like the opposite of what should happen. But Jade seemed sure of herself and so Van took a deep breath, allowing for the confidence in her company to dissuade any of the anxiety she felt begin to creep up.
“Um…” She looked at Jade, confused as to how she’d do that without actually digging things up. “Do you have like, a bone device or something?” That seemed like a dumb question. But maybe there was a sign of some kind– after all, they had gone all out for the funeral of the little thing. It’d been years ago now, and Van had to wonder just how many other things had been buried along with it. The thought made her sad, but time passed just as it always did, and things were bound to die, weren’t they?
She took a deep breath, watching as Jade sauntered away towards the shed before she headed in the direction of the tree she remembered gathering beneath to bury the gerbil. She paused for a moment, noticing that there were several more headstones. Was she going to go to hell for this? Or whatever variation existed? Maybe she was already in hell. Maybe this was penance for all that she’d ever done– Diana and Debbie included. At least the gerbil’s name didn’t start with D. God forbid there be a triple D situation on her hands.
After confirming that the gravesites were still there, she headed towards Jade, avoiding the distance of the cameras. If she remembered correctly, they barely even worked. Van cleared her throat, jutting a thumb in the direction of the large tree and the animal graves. “I found it, and I think that there are probably like, a lot of bones.” Would Dr. Kavanagh want all of those bones? It still seemed silly that she wanted them at all, and Van wasn’t even really sure why she was humoring the situation in the first place, but it was a little late to ask too many questions. “Did you find a shovel?” She peered into the shed, squinting past the darkness. There were a few different items hung up on the wall, and if Van were being honest with herself, it looked like something out of a horror movie. “I hope Jason doesn’t kill us.”
“Nope! No bone device in me. If anything, my bone device is chilling in the morgue right now,” Jade smiled sweetly, blinking away the dreamy look on her face when the words sank in. “For fun! I mean, she’s not dead. My bone device… meaning doctor Kavanagh,” she clarified, before Van could like, freak out. (Not that it was a hard thing to achieve, mind you). Anyway, Van did as she was told, and both of them focused on their respective tasks for a few minutes. She had zero doubts they would be like, a dynamic duo. A dream team, of sorts. They beat that one metal-eating rat after all. The lock was picked just as Jade heard Van’s footsteps heading her way. (See? The movies never lied). She did a short victory dance, before walking straight into the darkness. She had the advantage of night vision, she knew she’d be able to see if spiders or rats were chilling inside. And thankfully, there were only tools. And a Bigfeet mug, that she was almost tempted to steal.
“I found it yup!” she turned back to Van when she came in, reaching toward the nearest wall and grabbing the rusty-looking shovel. Jade pushed it into her hands, picking up on her concern. (At this point, she wasn’t sure if that was the way her face looked all the time) “Chillax. I’m not gonna let that happen.” She squeezed the girl’s shoulder, giving her a comforting smile even if she’d struggle to see it. “I’m too important to the plot to die in a tool shed,” she shrugged at her flawless logic, turning around to look for trash bags. “I do have like, a knife if we have to fight a classic horror villain…” she mumbled absently, focused on a different task. If Van mentioned there might be more bones out there, they should grab them all. It could be worth like, several payments. She wasn’t sure if it was a one-bone per-month type of deal or… How did that work, anyway? If they found a femur, was it worth more than a finger? “This should be enough,” she decided, waving three bags in Van’s face. They wouldn’t use them all, she didn’t think. “Lead the way!”
Jade didn’t remember ever shoveling. If anyone ever shoveled back home, it would’ve been Onyx. But that was the fun part, wasn’t it? It was like, unlocking a new useless skill set. Life really was just like The Sims, wasn’t it? They walked over to the giant tree with the tiny headstones, and something sad bubbled in her chest. She didn’t wanna think of Lullaby like this, ever. She just got her, and she was supposed to lose her one day? It was messed up. Her eyebrows pinched together. “What was their name? The Gerbil’s, I mean”. She took the shovel away from Van and sank it on the spot. How hard could it be to scoop up dirt? Not too hard, but definitely ‘a few attempts needed first’ hard. “You should tell me about it, if you want. Do you miss it…them?”
It was hard to believe that there wasn’t anything between Dr. Kavanagh and Jade with the way they spoke about each other. Jade, with confidence, and Dr. Kavanagh, with a hint of uncertainty and frustration. That seemed like a textbook crush, if Van had any say in it. Instead of commenting on any of it, however, Van stayed silent, mind working around the possibility that they were just two private people who wanted to keep things quiet until they were ready for some kind of debut. Though, Van couldn’t imagine a world where Jade was private at all– she seemed the exact opposite.
Still, they had a job to do, no matter how strange it was. Van realized a little too late in the game that she could have gone about this in an entirely different way, but she was well past turning back now. She was grateful, however, to see that a shovel had materialized. She looked past Jade, further into the shed. She thought about the lunches she had had in there, all when the other kids decided they didn’t want to be her friend anymore. She wondered if the initials she scrawled into the metal with a screwdriver were still there. Deciding not to check for the sake of embarrassing herself with something that might no longer exist, she nodded at Jade’s comment. “You’re right, and we’re um, it’s too early for that.” In her life, or in the day, she didn’t bother to amend. “I wasn’t allowed to have knives.” The comment was absent of any real emotion– a story she’d told a dozen times. The responses were varying when it came down to it, and she figured that Jade would fit in with the rest of those who were bewildered.
Van took the shovel from Jade and led the way to the spot beneath the big tree. It looked a little barren, but the grass was greener where the dead things were buried, despite the bitterness of winter as it crept over the town. She stared at the plots for a moment before she felt the shovel being taken from her and she looked up. “Um, its name was Daffy.” What if Jade thought she was obsessed with Disney? “We couldn’t choose a name, so some people wanted to call it Laffy Taffy, and others wanted to call it Daisy, so we ended… there.” Van shrugged simply, as if the story made the most sense in the world. When Jade asked if she missed the gerbil, she shook her head. The dirt turned over on itself, clumps of weeds and some worms visible from the pile. “I don’t think so, I mean, it was like, the closest I ever got to having a real pet, and it was cool, but…” She shook her head, “I don’t think I miss something that wasn’t ever like, mine, you know?” Van crossed her arms over her chest and watched as Jade worked, jumping slightly to the sound of the metal of the shovel thunking against a box.
“Wait, I think you hit it.” Uneasily, Van crouched down and swallowed thickly. She smoothed her hand over the top of the box– an old thing with signatures and stickers and photos taped to it. She saw her classmates faces with bright smiles as they stood in front of the still alive gerbil’s cage. “This is it for sure.” She dug the box out the rest of the way and put it to the side, hesitating. “You don’t think he’s like, going to come to life like from that one episode of Fairly Odd Parents, do you?” Did Jade even know what she was talking about? Probably not. She seemed too old to remember Fairly Odd Parents.
Jade tilted her head, surprised by Van’s comment. Why wouldn’t she have a knife? She was old enough. By like, almost ten years, right? She was… she didn’t remember. Lots of those early hunting memories were super hazy. But it probably didn’t matter, ‘cause she grew to love knives, didn’t she? (Why was there a strange sensation setting in her stomach?) Her mouth stayed in a perfect ‘o’ shape, until she snapped out of her own memories associated with knives. “Do you want one? I could give you one… isn’t it a little unsafe to live in this town, just like… rawdogging it?” she took a quick breath, anticipating a potential anxiety-induced response coming from the girl. “I don’t think you’re gonna be out there stabbing people, fyi. But I mean, like… if you wanted something in case of an emergency. I have some retired ones that are still sharp enough. No pressure” she tacked on, unsure how effective the clarification would be for Van.
It was nice that Van at least wanted to share something with her. As silly as a story about a third grade pet was. Learning anything about anyone in this town was like pulling teeth, she’d take what she could get. (And sure, maybe it was her own interest in emotionally unavailable people that kept drawing her to the wrong crowd, what about it?). Her eyes were bright as she listened, picturing a much younger version (probably not much taller) than Van as she shoveled. “That’s so cute,” her nose scrunched up in delight, taking away her gaze from the hole she was digging and glancing at the girl. Not having any pets wasn’t like, super strange or anything. Her family had that one guard dog that left for the farm upstate a few years after she was born. But Jade’s smile shortened into something pensive. Having Lullaby was like, the best thing that’s happened to her in years. How nice would’ve been to have someone back home to play with while everybody else was too busy hunting? “That’s super smart” she replied, realizing she’d slowed down with the shoveling. “I miss things that were never mine all the time.” She shrugged nonchalantly, digging with more ease now that she’d picked up a better technique.
It resulted in her hitting the box a few moments later. “I sure hit it” she smirked, looking into the hole. Van was the one to reach out for the box, and Jade’s heart melted a little (a lot) looking at the picture of adorable tiny kids. She was so demanding Van to show her which one was her. But right, there were still bones to find, based on the headstones and Van’s memory. She got back to it, barely feeling the exertion. Actually… Would chicks dig shoveling? She could totally turn it into a way to show off her muscles. ‘Cause normally they weren’t super showy, but if she were to flex… Wait, Van was saying something. She cackled at the faint memory, “I don’t think so… Daffy’s been dead too long, he would’ve come back years ago” she reassured, entirely too confident in her logic for someone who’s seen some wild things coming back to life. But what good would telling Van about it do?
She didn’t know what else she dug up, but Jade managed to find a bunch of other tiny bones. She picked up everything she could, (maybe even grabbed some things that weren’t even bones) grimacing all the way through. The things they (she) did for Regan. Yuck. It turned out three bags were like, way too many for all those little bones, but whatever. They got what they needed, the gerbil packed exclusively in one bag and the other findings shoved into another. Jade handed everything to Van, wiping her hands on the empty one. Ew. She’d need to scrub for hours to feel clean again. “Okay!” she panted, glancing at Van with a triumphant look. “I’ll shovel this back super quick so we can skedaddle.” Was it gonna be a perfect job? Nope, but she’d at least make the mess look like there were dogs playing around with the headstones, and not two grown women searching for bones. “Wasn’t this so fun?” she sang, patting down the soil with the shovel. “We should do it again!” One look at Van’s tension-filled face, had her regretting her words. “Or! Maybe we can do something more chill. I’d teach you to ride my bike for sure. We’ll… we can figure it out,” she laughed, wrapping her arm around Van’s shoulder and strolling back to the shed. They would leave everything as it was. No one would ever know Daffy was no longer buried. And like, no one else would care enough to go looking for him anyway.
Van flinched at Jade’s offer, shaking her head. “No, I don’t.. need one.” If anything, she was the unsafe thing. She already had two kills under her belt. Sure, the first hadn’t been on purpose, and maybe she didn’t drive the knife into Debbie’s skull like Nora had, but did that really matter? Wasn’t the intention what mattered? Or the power she couldn’t control? As Jade further clarified, she felt her skin prickle. What would happen if she had one? Would she accidentally hurt somebody? Even if Jade didn’t think she would, she was accidentally hurting people with her magic all of the time. “I think I’ll stick to like, butter knives. You know, for spreading jam and stuff.” She offered Jade a stiff smile, not wanting the older girl to think any differently of her for denying the gift of a knife.
She felt a little exposed, recounting a story from her childhood the way she was. It wasn’t intimate or anything, but Van felt like it should have been by the way that Jade was looking at her. It reminded her of the way parents looked at their kids when they’d done something cute– not an emotion she saw flit across her parents often. She was sure that there was more depth to Jade’s words, I miss things that aren’t mine all the time– because Van missed things all of the time, but mostly the things that were hers that she couldn’t have anymore.
The box was in her hands, which meant that they were closer to leaving the scene of their self imposed crime. Jade’s reassurance that Daffy wouldn’t come back to rip her throat out made Van feel a little better.
She watched as Jade continued to dig, more boxes and more things unearthed from their supposed-to-be permanent graves. She felt guilty for digging them up, but it was too late to turn back now. Dr. Kavanagh needed the bones for whatever reason, and Van couldn’t afford to get kicked out. The items she held in her hands were quickly disposed of into the bags that they had brought with them. Maybe she had misremembered just how big gerbils were, or whatever else had been buried alongside them. “Again? I don’t– I mean, we could like, go roller skating or something, but I don’t think that doing this again would be fun.” She looked down at the bags with a frown, “I really hope she’s happy with what we found.” If she wasn’t, what would happen? Would she come and throw both Van and Thea out? Would she make Jade do it as punishment for not finding the right or best bones? The more she sat with these thoughts, the more confident she was that Dr. Kavanagh might have been some kind of dog shifter with wings. Those could exist, right? Bears did. “Riding your bike would be much cooler.” Scarier, maybe, she realized. It was too late to take it back, though, and Van simply followed Jade away from the scene of the crime– a bag in tow and the shovel stowed back to where it belonged.
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Hi, i'm sorry this is so out of the blue but would you mind sharing sadomasochistic literature recs pls? I love your other rec lists<33
yo not out of the blue at all. i realise i post a lot of content related to sm.
for fiction: besides the obvious bataille, you should look into colette peignot's collected writings under the name laure.
for some rewritten material on her there's kathy acker's my mother demonology. but everything by kathy acker relates to the subject: blood and guts in highschool, empire of the senseless.
(sidenote from an interview w kris kraus on her biography: According to Eleanor Antin, Kathy worked at a massage parlor in Solana Beach for a while, and she did not give massages. [...] She was also, at the same time, tutoring Latin. / If she didn’t give massages, what did she do? / Well, hand jobs, probably.)
another classic but story of o written by pauline réage plus its beautiful illustrations by leonor fini. it's actually said her fantastical owl masks inspired the character of o + she was really close to andré pieyre de mandiargues, whose one story la marge was adapted by walerian borowczky in immoral tales. then there's sacher masoch's venus in furs. you've probably already heard of anais nin's delta of venus.
i specifically highly rec mary gaitskill. bad behaviour is a great short story collection - one of the stories specifically inspired the film secretary (2002). her essay, the trouble with following the rules, on rape culture and agency published in harper's bazaar (later repub in somebody with a little hammer) is one rare occurrence of nuance and grace accorded to women who've had sexual experiences that are difficult to categorise. it gives a rundown of the ways she personally relates to feminist scholars on the subject too.
there's problems by jade sharma. for a more modern story of the eye, try ryu murakami's ecstasy.
for non-fiction (disclaimer that i mostly haven't read these but they are on my list):
gilles deleuze, masochism: coldness and cruelty ; avgi saketopoulou, sexuality beyond consent ; virginie despentes, king kong theory
if you're similarly interested in boundary-pushing experiences, the limits of the body, attraction to the horrific (i getchu) this is moreso sociology, aesthetics, psychoanalysis focused:
elaine scarry, the body in pain ; anne dufourmantelle, in praise of risk ; sylvère lotringer, overexposed: perverting perversions ; umberto eco, on ugliness
other media: the podcast drunk church, the director catherine breillat.
hope this is of help & if you read anything tell me how it went. i'm always looking for more stuff on the subject too.
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OH MY GOD???? I already love them sm
I literally edited a new profile for them for this cuz the old one was outdated BUT YEAH IDK IF THIS WAS AN INVITE TO INFODUMP ABT MY JAMIAZU FANKID BUT IM USING IT AS ONE
Btw I can only wish to achieve your level of snake knowledge I thought my reptile hyperfixation went deep but yours is deeper I wanna know your ways
But that isn’t relavent YEAH HERES MY JAMIAZU FANKID HI TUMBLR *lets them out like you would a spider under a cup*
So I have a shit ton of Twst fankids btw! They kinda swim around in my brain but only a few ppl I know have gotten the info dumps lmao
Skye was the first one I made I think (actually it might’ve been Rico (florid) but eh oh well who’s counting)
But yes this is Skye Ashengrotto!
They’re my older Jamiazu kid, I do have two. The younger one is my octo boy Akram :) he’s funny I wanna pinch his cheeks but he’s not the point here
So Skye! It feels weird publically infodumping abt my OCs like wtf am I even supposed to put here
They’re a half mer, which do work a lil different than normal mers in my lore. Half mers can transform without a potion but it’s still a long and generally painful process, esp going from mer to human. I kind of switch between calling them a snake mer and a naga but there’s lore there- Nagas exist in my lore outside of sea snake mers, there are also fully terrestrial Nagas. So the terrestrial nagas wouldn’t be considered snake mers but the sea snake nagas would be a type of mer while also still being a naga ITS CONFUSING DONT ASK (actually do. Ask everything so I can roll more of my fankids out like marbles)
Skye was created by a spell, I haven’t quite worked the details out 😔 but Jamil is part gorgon in my lore which is why they have the hair snakes which isn’t a typical naga trait. And to elaborate on the hair snakes: they are alive, the one w the bigger stripes is Flora and the smaller stripes is Jett. Skye can communicate w them telepathically and their eyes glow which is kinda neat. They’re kind of Skye’s version of floatsam and jetsam (unless u count Rico (florid) and Lilac (treyjade) which is like their ver of the twins- IDK ITS COMPLICATED)
idk what else to put here so LETS THROW SOME FHARACTER DYNAMICS YEAH and also mentioning some of my other fankids! They all have profiles (except my Malleus kid I’m sorry Aihan I can’t think of a design for you) but I’m probably gonna save those for another post-
So jamiazu in my lore live in the Shaftlands in a beachfront place and also live pretty close to Treyjade, however Florid live in the Queendom. The octatrio and their spouses is a close group so they’re essentially a big family. My treyjade kids are Maren (older) and Lilac, then my Florid kids are Rico (older) and the twins Mary and Eliza.
Skye saw Lilac more as a kid cuz they lived so close together but also saw Rico a lot when flrd would visit or they’d go to visit them. Rico is an agent of chaos and Lilac is Skye’s 2nd in command so their dynamic on a surface level is pretty similar to the octatrio, but there’s still a lot of differences once u get into the meat of it. Tho Lilac and Rico are Skye’s best friends and basically like siblings to them.
Outside of jamiazu Skye is particularly close with Jade, they share a love of tea :) he’s their cool but also slightly unsettling uncle
THEN THERES SHENZI- Shenzi is my younger kaliruggie kid and I am not gonna get into her here bcuz she rlly needs her own post w all her trauma but good lord these two do not like each other. Shenzi’s really nice but she’s not quite as nice as Kalim so after about 5 months of trying and failing to befriend Skye in their freshman year she just gave up and now their relationship is nothing but hostile (which was not helped when Shenzi and lilac started dating)
Speaking of that tho- so my idikei kids :) Ember (named after the pokemon attack) is the older one and he’s basically that “Jock idia can’t hurt you he’s not real Jock idia:” thing as a person he has the Fire hair n shit but he plays basketball and is heavily extroverted but no one gives a shit abt Ember this is NOT ABT HIM this is abt his sister! Her name is Zelda because you know Idia would name his daughter Zelda- she got all of Idia’s social anxiety lmao. She’s extremely shy and there’s a total of like 4 people in the school she can actually talk to without melting into a small stain on the floor. She’s an Skye are both in board games club and sometime in early freshman year she falls on her ass and knocks over a bunch of stuff which Skye happens to witness and cue the most awkward interaction known to man bcuz Skye can’t talk to pretty girls and Zelda can’t talk to ANYONE but they end up walking to the mirror hall together afterwards which becomes a routine. Except they’re both awkward as fuck take like almost two fucking years to get together bcuz neither of them are gonna do anything abt it BUT THEYRE VERY CUTE!! I love them
Also my ashengrotto siblings are very wholesome I need to write some stuff w them- Akram is a little shit and he loves pissing Skye off but at the end of the day he admires them and Skye loves their brother a lot :)
Anyway good lord I’ve yapped too much okay OH YEAH Skye has a Russian blue cat named Mariana who they just fucking found on the side of the road and thought it was a mouse so for like 2 years Azul thought Skye was gonna eat the cat
OK HERES RHE ACTUAL PROFILE these aren’t as chaotic as the other ones all the other ones are more meme than profile ALSO RHEIR UNIQUE MAGIC DOESNR HAVE A NAME AT THE MOMENT IF ANHONE HAS AN IDEA FOR ONE PLS SHARE I HABE NO THOUGHTS
(If you recognize my art style from instagram no you don’t also THEY DO HABE EYES I JUST DONT DRAW THEM CUZ MY STYLES WEIRD)
But yeah I love them I hope they explode (affectionate)
#Skye ashengrotto#they have a tag now I guess#twst ocs#fankids#twisted wonderland#jamiazu#shaking as I post this#wHY IS SHARINF UR OCS SO NERVERACKING I WAS LIKE THIS WHEN I FIRST POSTED MY YUU OC TOO#maybe that’s just me#ash-OCs
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hellooo! I'm Pongonn! But you can also call me Arma/Sunny/Scout/Rigby!
Series I like!
Sonic(HUGE FAN SINCE I WAS LITTLE OMGG)
FNAF
Omori
Pizza Tower
Object Shows
MLP
The Stanley Parable
Wii Deleted You
Bugbo
Hazbin Hotel(kinda)
Helluva Boss
Sugary Spire
Regretevator
Phighting!
Dave And Bambi
Rayman(every game)
Ultrakill
Lethal Company
TF2
Deltarune
Undertale
Smiling Friends(omfg I love Smiling Friends sm)
Sam & Max
Lethal League(and Lethal League Blaze too)
Murder Drones
Raggedy Ann and Andy:A musical adventure
Toilet Bound Hanako-Kun
OFF
Law of Talos(OMG OMG OMG I LOVE LOT SM)
Endzone(I LOVE ENDZONE SM TOO)
Welcome Home
Spooky Month
Sally Face
NITW
Newsies the musical(underrated movie fr)
All Mean Girls movies
Castle Crashers
ENA
Wander Over Yonder
DSAF
Tattletail
BattleBlock Theatre
DHMIS(I started tweaking when they posted a whole season)
South Park
Vs.Sonic.exe(IM STILL PISSED IT WAS CANCELLED IT WAS AND STILL IS MY FAVORITE MOD EVER)
Sonic.exe in general
Mandela Catalogue
The Walten Files
Dialtown
Cuphead
Shovelware's Brain Game
Lucky Star
Gravity Falls
aannd that's all I can think of!
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Musical Artists and people I like!
Will Wood(IM A HUGE FAN OMGCXG)
Oingo Boingo(RRAAAHHHHHH I LOVE OINGO BOINGO SM THEY'RE SO UNDERRATED)
Rio Romeo
Jschlatt
Flamingo
Mitski
Graham Kartna
Jack Stauber
Lemon Demon
Weezer
AJJ
Caravan Palace
Crystal Castles
System Of A Down
They Might Be Giants
H!tex
6arleyhuman
Odetari
Kets4eki
Nuvfr
ICP
Vertigoaway
Malice Mizer
Tv Girl
MSI(I DONT SUPPORT WHAT JIMMY DID)
and that's also all I can think of!
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Character's I love!
Sunny(Omori)
Basil(Omori)
Rayman
Ramon
N(Murder Drones)
Mari(Omori)
Home(Welcome Home)
Barnaby(Welcome Home)
Poppy Partridge(Welcome Home)
Streber(Spooky Month)
Ethan(Spooky Month)
Leon(Spooky Month)
Bon(Walten Files)
Sha(Walten Files)
Banny(Walten Files)
Henry(Wii Deleted You)
Pico
Infected (Regretevator)
Randy Jade(Dialtown)
Wally(Welcome Home)
Oliver Swift(Dialtown)
Karl(Law of Talos)
Climber(Endzone&Law of Talos)
Chimbley(Endzone&Law of Talos)
Cat Butler(Omori)(I LOVE HIM SM)
Glamrock Chica
Hanako-Kun(TBHK)
Mitsuba(TBHK)
Bandu(DnB)
Dave(DnB)
Sonic
Amy Rose
Knuckles
Scorbunny(Pokémon)
Blaziken(Pokémon)
Goh(Pokémon)
Sally Face
That fucking robot on Caravan Palace's MVs and Album Covers
Cuphead
Red Guy
Benzene (LoT)
Shadow the Hedgehog
Dipper Pines
Pest(Regretevator)
Bill Cipher
Slingshot(Phighting)
Broker(Phighting)
Mae(NITW)
Gregg(NITW)
Angus(NITW)
Phone guy(FNAF)
Dave(DSAF)
Crem(Regretevator)
and that's about it!(there's more I can't think of)
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DNI and INT!
DNI:
Andy and Leyley fans
JustAMinx fans
basic dni
INT:
if u like any of the stuff I like!
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Anne With An E Rant❤️
My fav AWAE Season Is Season 3
Moira Walley-Beckett, creator of the show, weaves a tapestry of both the nostalgic and contemporary. The result is a masterpiece, with the idyllic and charming small town life of Avonlea a perfect contrast for the weighty issues the show tackles, issues that are particularly relevant today. The young but talented cast, led by Amybeth McNulty as Anne, Dalila Bela as her best friend Diana Barry, and Lucas Jade Zumann as Gilbert Blythe, bring the story of Anne of Green Gables to life.
The major theme of the show is its message of acceptance, beginning with titular character Anne Shirley’s struggle to be seen as something other than a ragged orphan who is up to no good.
When Matthew and Marilla Cuthbert (played by R.H. Thomson and Geraldine James respectively) take Anne into their home, they are unprepared for what’s coming. Her big ideas, matched in size only by her big heart, take the little town of Avonlea by storm at first. But the Cuthberts, along with the rest of the town, soon grow to appreciate Anne’s imagination, creativity, and kindness.
Not stopping there, Walley-Beckett introduces Queer characters, Aunt Josephine Barry, and Season 2 newcomer Cole (I fucking love him sm), a classmate of Anne’s. When Cole is shunned by his classmates and family for who he is, he contemplates suicide. It is only Anne’s intervention that saves him from a terrible fate. He eventually finds his place living with Aunt Josephine in Charlottetown, a more progressive town than Avonlea.
Walley-Beckett goes on to bring racial prejudice into the mix as well, with the introduction of Bash, a funny and lovable man who hails from Trinidad, and befriends Gilbert Blythe, Anne’s love interest, while they work aboard a steamer together. Bash goes on to become Gilbert’s business partner, and moves to his farm. It is Gilbert, Anne, and the Cuthberts who make him feel welcome in Avonlea, despite the initial rejection he faces by the rest of the town.
The fight for women’s equality comes into play as well, in the form of Miss Stacy (MY QUEEN) , the new schoolteacher, whom Anne calls a ‘kindred spirit’. An independent woman with radical ideas, Miss Stacy scandalizes Avonlea by donning trousers and refusing to wear a corset.
Season three is as funny and charming as it is heartbreaking. Taking place right when Anne turns sixteen and is busy preparing for the Queen’s College entrance exams, the season deals with acceptance once more: of our fellow man, of identity, and of growing up. Anne’s desire to find her birth parents speaks to all of us who have wondered where we come from. Marilla’s fear that Anne will leave her if she finds out about her blood relatives rings painfully true. It is here that Walley-Beckett teaches us that family is family, by blood or otherwise.
The racial prejudice theme is prevalent once more in Season Three. Bash, his wife Mary, and their child Delphine try to find their place in Avonlea, who is quick to spurn them based on the color of their skin. A new storyline featuring a Native American tribe, the Mi’kmaq, living in the area, sheds even more light on racial issues. The townspeople view them with disdain and fear. Predictably, Anne does not follow their example, and befriends Ka’kwet, a young indigenous girl. (I love their dynamic sm 💕)
With the Mi’kmaq storyline, Walley-Beckett does not gloss over the more unsavory parts of history, but instead brings things out into the open with Ka’kwet’s enrollment in a new school set up by the government for Native American children. What follows is a glimpse into the shocking events that occurred in that era, with the violent kidnapping of these young children, and their forced assimilation. The school turns out to be nothing short of a prison, where Ka’kwet’s beautiful braids are chopped off, and her Mi’kmaq heritage ripped away from her and her fellow classmates, starting with their being rechristened with English names, and forbidden to speak their language. Ka’kwet eventually escapes, but is taken back by force. Her desperate parents are threatened and shot at when they try to get her back.
Anne and her classmates stir up controversy in the town when they fight for freedom of the press after Anne writes a strongly worded editorial about equality. When Josie rejects Billy’s sexual advances, he spreads false rumours about her to ruin her reputation. When nobody looks at him as being in the wrong, Anne is indignant enough to write an editorial about the events that occurred. She comments on the double standards that seem to exist when it comes to gender, and the importance of spoken consent. The town board is infuriated, and retaliates by giving the paper a pre-approved list of appropriate topics to write about. They stipulate that the newspaper will be shut down unless they follow these guidelines, and fire the instigator of the controversy, Anne, from the paper. I'm proud that Anne did this.
Anne brings her classmates together to protest, and in a moving scene, they stand together, mouths gagged by handkerchiefs, and silently hold up a hand painted sign emblazoned with their message: Freedom of speech is a human right.
With this storyline, Walley-Beckett succeeds in addressing many of the issues we discuss today; freedom of speech, media censorship, consent, and gender equality, all without seeming too forced or unrealistic. There is no magical solution for all the problems, but small triumphs recognized as steps to making a major change that the world will one day be ready for. It is richly satisfying and simultaneously accurate for the time period, as women back then still had a long way to go in the fight for equality.
Finally, Anne and her classmates face their biggest challenge: entering the adult world, and dealing with the heavier problems that comes along with. Plans for the future are discussed, preparations made, and farewells exchanged. Matthew Cuthbert struggles to deal with Anne’s leaving for college, a familiar concept to any parent. Anne is left with second thoughts about leaving Green Gables, and cries in Marilla’s arms for the childhood she leaves behind. Diana Barry, meanwhile, makes the decision to attend Queen’s College, rebelling against her parents’ plans for her to go to finishing school in Paris. The right to and the importance of education for women as well as men is addressed here. Diana is eventually successful, and comes to join her classmates at Queen’s.
And finally, Gilbert and Anne confess their feelings for each other. They wave goodbye to each other as they go off to their respective schools, and the credits roll at last.
With all the topics Anne with an E fearlessly broaches, it is as surprising as it is dismaying that the show has been canceled. The season ended off with hints of a burgeoning romance between Miss Stacy and Bash, a multi-racial couple, and the beginnings of a possible public exposing of the nefarious nature of the indigenous school.
Ka’kwet is left languishing in the classroom, while her parents set up camp in the nearby woods to wait for an opportunity to get her back.
We are left with the promise of more that will not come, thanks to the show’s cancellation. Poor viewership was blamed as the cause, though outraged fans have already started petitions to keep the series running. In 2020, with corrupt government, fake news, and a general outcry for change, Anne With An ‘E’, with its messages of acceptance and truth, is more important than ever.
The show had a mere three seasons, consisting of less than 30 episodes, whereas medical dramas like Gray’s Anatomy, and sci-fi shows such as Supernatural, have well over 300 episodes. The Simpsons is in its 30th season, despite declining viewership over the years. But ‘Anne With An E’ is gone. Which leads me to wonder: Is the world not ready to speak about the truth?
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episode 9 reactions hdhhskfhshfhd (spoilers!!!!)
the cicadas
RANDALL BETTER NOT DIE OKAY I STILL BELIEVE HE CAN LEARN TO BE NORMAL I STILL BELIEVE IN HIM
i'm like 99% sure julie won't die so i'm not worried about her but omg tabitha is going through so much right now with her child in pain/danger and being unable to help... T_T
i felt really bad for mari when she said she doesn't want to be like this 😔 she deserves to get better and to get to be fully herself. she's getting a lot of hate in the fandom that i feel is unwarranted, we've only seen her being really sick and even then she's always been trying to help the others
this should be its own post but i'd like to see a jade and marielle friendship, she would probably get REALLY serious with him if she hears him casually joke about how much he's into party drugs like he did around kenny, and tell him that he should count himself lucky to still be able to just get away from all that consequence-free. i also want a boyd and marielle dynamic, he's good at adopting troubled girls
team tabby
i don't need a lot to be happy. jade sitting as autistically as possible on the kitchen counter means everything to me. he's just so easy to love, like a cat. also i really appreciate the way the show moved heaven and earth to make jade and tabby end up alone together for the night. the matthews house getting demolished + the new horror making it so that no one can be alone at night + jim leaving his family to go on his crazy adventure at the RV... im grateful i truly am
jade really took the supportive role to tabby's lead in the investigation and i love that for them. there's something so special to me about this dynamic, we're so used to genius guy detective + layman sidekick, seeing it flipped is so special to me. tabby is so awesome that the rich genius guy is actually her sidekick! love them sm
victor, tian chen, julie and ethan were so so sweet i'm literally heartbroken about what ethan said to victor!!! now that jade just learned to be normal istg this poor man can't catch a break???? he's a kid and he's scared i obviously don't blame him but i bet victor was so hurt T_T still im really happy to see him be more social. he's in good hands with tian chen. i swear the new "can't be alone at night" horror was engineered in a lab to socialise the loners against their will like feral kittens and i'm so down with it LMAO like yes you can bet i'll write jade fanfic about this
EDIT LMAO POSTED BY MISTAKE HERES THE REST
jim... jimmy... jimbo...
what is he doing!! what is he doing!!!!!!!!!! fighting the rifle guy at colony house istg this man LMAOO tabby did the same thing when she just arrived they're so like that... like now you wanna get back to your family i get it but if you go out there you're gonna die. he looks so cute in that jacket btw now i'm officially simping for both tabitha AND jim just like jade
kenny and sara
im really enjoying these scenes even if i'm suffering so much for kenny and i just want to yoink him out of this depressing plot they got him in, he belonged in that room playing board games with victor the kids and his mom istg!!! but all the sara scenes are extremely compelling and omg kenny is just so !!! i need to hug him. he went through that to keep everyone else safe SIGHS
sara's got a... way of dealing with the whole thing that's for sure. she brought up like the worst possible conversation topic when looking at the map LMAO i just couldn't believe it was possible to screw up that bad. i kinda have a bit of paranoia specifically about going crazy and killing someone and then having to emotionally deal with that (just my brain being my brain dont ask) so her plot fascinates me because i've mulled over how i'd feel and how i'd deal with a situation like that so much. but i draw the sympathy line at hurting kenny and she's still hurting him so !!!!!!!! girl just shut up when he asks you to shut up it's not that hard arghh
really good insight about the place and peoples fears though. was she saying that the place gets stronger the more people it manages to kill? thats a really nice explanation for all the mix-and-match weird horror stuff going on together at the same time tbh, i like it a lot if it's like that. if khatri was afraid of god's punishment or something like that then i guess they're royally fucked (some of victor's drawings showed the place getting flooded...)
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Hey!! There isn’t enough Harper family content out there. This is unacceptable! I will fix this.
#young justice#red arrow#cheshire#jade nguyen#will harper#lian harper#my art has been getting a lot of attention lately idk why but thank you all sm??#Anyways still in LOVE with Dad!Will and honestly still a sucker for Cheshroy-- cheshwill?#Straight up the most interesting characters in the show sorry it's just true#the fact that Will literally doesn't exist in any other DC media also makes me really invested tbh#Now when I see comics Roy I just kinda get sad cuz Will doesn't exiST BRO#marie draws sometimes
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hi! i’ve been so inactive lately and wanted to post something today, and i realized i haven’t made an appreciation post for my moots in a hot minute—so hey hotties, here’s some cute words about uu. oh and this isn’t all of my mutuals, just the one’s i’ve spoken to outside of the discord lol asjfdkl
@hesthermay —❥ you’re one of my best friends and ilysm and i hope that we get to meet in person one day, so you can endlessly hear me talk about how much i love jimmy woo. also i want to get matching marvel bracelets or smth, gonna look on etsy later for us ajskdlf
@probablydisgusting —❥ you’re like actually so funny and sweet, whenever you pop in the gc on snap just to say goodmorning or goodnight—it really makes everyone’s day and we love having you around. plus, you were one of the first people to pop into my inbox when i was an atla blog and i think that’s so nice.
@imarizaki —❥ i literaly love you sm mari, like you’re adorable and i want to give you a hug, i feel like you give rlly good hugs. and congrats on 400!! you deserve it and i hope 500 comes rolling around fast so you can hit another milestone in the near future ajskfdl
@tsukishumai —❥ cam i swear i know your name like I SWEAR I DO! you’re like an older sister to everyone in the discord and you bring such a comforting presence like it’s so nice to have you in the chat whenever you choose to pop in. you’re quite literally the calm to our insanity
@fukurodianthus —❥ dani you’re asleep rn but when you wake up and see this i want you do know that ily wifey. pls i love it when you harass me in my inbox, i think it’s so funny AND IM GOING TO FLOOD YOUR’S EVENTUALLY I JUST NEED TO BECOME ACTIVE AGAIN ASDJKL
@missmorosis —❥ you’re literally one of my favorite moots ever and you’re always so sweet to me and everyone else around you, it’s so heartwarming to see your positivity and happiness on tumblr and how hard you work! pls ilysm
@ray-ofmoonlight —❥ I LOVE TALKING TO YOU ABOUT THE BACHELOR. i haven’t responded in a hot minute, but dw i’ll answer in a bit i have to go through my messages jaksfld. you’re so nice and fun, and literally the sweetest ever
@diorzumi —❥ hi rheya! i’m so glad you took the time and all that hard work to make the server, like that’s insane and i still can’t believe you did all of that. pls the amount of effort you put into keeping it up is so evident and amazing!! also ur rlly pretty, like RLLY pretty
@luvoikawa —❥ gigi!! my face literally lights up whenever i see you in my notifs or on my dash pls. i love your energy sm and the presence you bring to the discord. like idk, you just seem really cool to me, does that make sense? like you have cool girl energy.
@sugas-cookie —❥ hello rissie. you should be sleeping rn, but ily and you’re my favorite and only child, and no matter what i say i would never bring you back to the ditch. but like...the frogs? i fucking hate the frogs, abolish all frogs they make me physically cringe i cannot.
@kei7ime —❥ CHLOEEE!! every time i see your theme i feel so satisfied, like it’s so pretty it rlly is. you’re so fun and i love talking to you or just popping in your inbox to say hi. omg hi chloe!! ok ok ily
@pxnk-velvet —❥ angie your drawing of us are so cute and i love them sm, and i can’t wait to read the story that you’ve been writing of our gc as a volleyball team, like pls i’m so excited. also the line “just shut up already, angie” lives in my head rent free
@miyalove —❥ hi dylan! i haven’t popped in your inbox in a while but i just wanted to tell you that i love u and you’re so nice and sweet and ilysm. you give off hot girl energy dylan, like for real, you rlly do.
@iwaizoom —❥ HI JADE. you’re so nice and your blog is so pretty, like the light green jaskljl PLS ITS SO PRETTY. i love the vibes you give off like you’re so chill and so easy to talk to sjakljdkl pls ilysm
@kageyuji —❥ lore i love you. like i love you. every time i talk to you i just feel happy like idk it’s this overwhelming feeling, you just have this gift where people feel comfortable when they’re talking to you. and your blog is so pretty pls asdjl
@hikariakaashi —❥ you’re one of my favorite moots, firstly bc of our interactions on tumblr in the early days of the discord and now on snap too. you have rlly good style, like rlly good style—and whenever you do your voice asks, your voice is like rlly pretty! girl you have a rlly pretty voice!
@ceci-chan —❥ hi twinnie! pls i think it’s so funny that we have literally the exact same nose, that’s actually wild. it’s so fun to watch your blog grow and your events are so cute and ily
@nekomabvc —❥ i buried you in here so you’d have to search for your part. literally going to say nothing i’m tired of writing about you goodbye. you called me a whore this morning. that’s not very swag of you, i’m going to report you to mab and cancel you on corpse tumblr.
@bellesowl —❥ hi isa! we haven’t interacted all that much, but in the times we have you’ve been so kind. and you’re rlly pretty, just sayin. you’re blog is also super aesthetic and i literally live for it, pls the muted tones are everything ajsdlk
@gellysticks —❥ angela pls you’re actually so funny like you’re so funny. every time your tiktoks come up in my suggested they literally make me laugh pls—but the frogs are terrible. abort frogs. this is a frog slandering blog. me and all my homies HATE frogs.
@cafemiya —❥ issy you give off such hot girl energy (and you are a hot girl anyways) and your energy is so contagious, like idk how it just is. you bring this positivity to the discord just by being there and i know everyone is so thankful that you’re so interactive with us jaskfdl
@biqherosix —❥ DANIZA I HAVEN’T OPENED YOUR SNAP YET BUT I RLLY WANT TO HEAR YOUR BAND PLAY. pls that’s literally so cool, like i wish i was in a cool band with my friends jsakdljkl. i love talking to you and we’ve been friends for like a good three months now which is crazy
@velvetfireworks —❥ rach i literally never read fics but yours are so good and they live in my head rent free. PLS THE SAKUSA ONE FOR THE BROKEN HEARTS CLUB AUDHS. you’re so nice and so talented and i reread your masterlist OMG I JUST REMEMBERED THE MOB AU ONE THAT ONE IS PERFECTION.
@hajiswife —❥ hi gabbie! your blog is gorgeous and your so nice pls!! like i literally can’t believe we’re mutuals it hits me like a brick. i love your works and your energy sjaklfdjl i’ll probably be popping in your inbox later just to say hi lol
@svgashi —❥ NIKE!!! omg we’re literally sister wives. you’re the first moot i had on tumblr that understood how great sugawara is and it’s like a breath of fresh air from the constant slandering my friends give him. ILY
@sexy-bee-juice —❥ aja!! i love getting your messages and just saying the most out of pocket things with you, and your reblogs make me laugh so hard like you’re rlly funny. also my broken french is terrible but i’m glad it makes you laugh ajskfdl
@koutarousangel —❥ MICKEY PLS YOURE SO FUNNY. I LOVE YOUR VIBES AND EVERYTHING LIKE YOURE FUNNY. and ily too. just putting that in there in case i haven’t said it in a while <3
@hvnlydmn —❥ hi ains! congrats on 5k!! that’s literally so insane like omg you must be reeling rn jadskfl you really really deserve it tho, everyone sees how hard you work and how much content you produce in such a short amount of time CONGRATS ILY
@akaashi-bby —❥ victoria you were the first person i talked to teen wolf with in like three years pls. i’m listening to a song from the show atm and it’s making me sad but ilysm and i love talking to you about literally anything
@laineywritesstuff —❥ LAINE!! hi! you’re so pretty like you look like you give the warmest hugs and i feel like if i ever met you in person i’d just get engulfed does that make sense? you’re so nice and ilysm and i hope you’re have a fantastic day!
@kiyoalex —❥ you’re rlly funny. like rlly funny. and i feel like we match each other’s energy pretty well in pms. pls my insanity is too real back there BUT IT’S OK I THINK BC YOU SEEM TO UNDERSTAND IT LOL ILY
@shoutamajiki —❥ hi nana!! you’re so nice and i’m so glad you joined the discord! and i’m so sorry i added you to my terrible private story on snap pls it’s so bad i’m very very sorry about that jksalfjdl
@sunacity —❥ nea i love your works so much like literally they LIVE in my head. you’re so talented and i can’t believe we’re mutuals that’s literally insane bc i love your stuff pls. and on top of being talented you’re so nice, like the nicest jaskdflj i can’t
ok ok i think that’s it for now, this isn’t all of my mutuals—but it’s the one’s i interact with the most and if we are moots and i didn’t include you pls my inbox or pms are always open to just like go insane in. ok have a great rest of your day!!
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omg hi!!! hi bestie!! i am a huge kinnie of most of the dreemaer's dilema cast and they are my uwu soft baby skrunklies, except for sachi because she is ew!!! i love your blog sm and i want to know if u have any sexuality headcanons for the entire deedee cast! thysnm bestie! mwah mwah kith
Mwah mwah! I'm so glad you like the cast but I love all of them a lot! >:3c I think Sachi is just misjudged a lot but to each their own!!
I have a lot of hcs for sexualities but I'll try to list them in order for you!
Ae-Ra - I guess in my head I see Ae-Ra as Aro-Ace :0 but I never really thought about it before! I still think a lot of ship content for her is cool though! She/They!
Ban - Lesbiromantic Asexual! also SHE/THEY/HE BAN FOR THE WIN! I very much like NBLW Ban >:)!
Dimitri - MLM!!! I'm not a big fan of Dimitri x F, but that's just me maybe! He/They/It!
Ducky - Panromantic Asexual! :3 I think Ducky is super cool, and they canonically use all pronouns, which is cooler!
Flynn - Pan king!!! I think Flynn likes everyone he meets a lot, and I think he's a hopeless romantic just a lil too :3! He/Him
Fran - In my head I see Fran as Aro-Ace! They still super-love everyone, just a little hard-hearted, yk? :3! Any/All!
Harry - I know that they stated he was canonically Gay, and I agree with that! >:3c I think he takes the cast to pride. He/Him!
Jade - Bisexual! I think Jade is just silly goofy with her romance choices, in my head she has a fem lean :3! She/They/Sea
Jessie - I can never decide on wether I see her as a lesbian or bisexual, so I guess in general I just have a wlw heacanon for Jessie! She/Her
Jolene - Lesbiromantic Asexual! Can you be named Jolene and not be sapphic??? Lol! She/They
Justice - Bi king! Agender in canon, I like him the way he is! He/Him, but sometimes I use They/Them.
Kanna - Lesbian! I think she's very sapphic and lovecore :3c! She probably wears pretty lipstick that makes the other girls swoon! She/Her!
Katsuo - Panromantic Asexual :0! I think he thinks everyone's got a little part of them that shines through, even if he's too grumpy to admit it. He/They, because law has no gender >:3!
Madoka - Aro-Ace! Madoka is ghost gender and we respect her for it. She/They/It/Dead/Ghost
Mari - I don't have a specific hc for Mari, actually! :0! Most ships with her are good though, so maybe in my head she's pan or something, lol! She/He/They/It!
Ollie - They're canonically Asexual, but I think they're Biromantic too :3! They/Them
Pon - Lesbiromantic Asexual :3! I also think Pon uses neo pronouns! She/They/Frog!
Sachi - NBLW! Sachi is very lesbian coded! It's like they're doing it on purpose! :0! She/They
Tavasillion - A lot of people hc him as MLM and while I agree I think he's more NBLM! He/They Tavasillion rights!
Viola - Bi Queen! Though I think she canonically has a masc lean I like to think of her with a fem lean! She/They for the win!
Yukihiko - Ikko is NBLM and we support it! He/They!
Yunemi - Lesbian! She's just silly goofy! She/They/It/Dirt
Zea - Lesbian!!! Zea is so lesbian coded it's ridiculous!! She/He/They!
#ae-ra#ban#dimitri#ducky#flynn#fran#harry#jade#jessie#jolene#justice#kanna#katsuo#madoka#mari#ollie#pon#sachi#tavasillion#viola#ikko#yunemi#zea#hcs#sexualities#thank you for asking!! i liked listing them out! >:)!#ask#anon
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What were ur thoughts on this ep? I hated that bedroom scene sm . Tbh I am a former brio shipper, though part of me still
wants them to be together , but not like this. Like?? I did miss a couple episodes earlier in the season so maybe I'm missing something?? I just don't understand why Rio would still want to have any type of sexual relationship with her at this point considering their history .I hate that this is turning into a lets distract Rio kind of situation. Which is a just gross. I don't know if I'm explaining it right. I just feel like they're doing Rio and Beth both a disservice for not addressing their HUGE issues in their relationship or whatever they are . Would love to hear your perspective.
So....yeah....I was not a fan. It was weirdly placed. There was the unnecessary intercutting with Dean. The moment didn’t feel narratively earned. A good portion of the scene was shots of the books that Beth needed to straigthen, reminding the audience of why they are even in the position they are in (i.e. Beth is trying to bust Rio for the Secret Service so she and Dean can be absolved of their crimes). And it also felt a bit fan service-y. Which seemed to have worked. I’ve been seeing a lot of discussions about why Rio denied his pleasure for Beth’s (or however you want to phrase it), but you know he could have just moved her hand and left. Like that was an option. And if they were trying to callback to 2x04 with basically only showing Beth’s reactions, they really screwed themselves (heh!). Because all the comparisons show is how weirdly still Rio was for most of it. Like creepily so. Like if someone I was with seemed that unaffected, I would be concerned. But then again, I wouldn’t do that with someone I called a psychopathic dirty thug serial killer. So, you know? Different strokes and all that.
I also agree with a lot of the points @jade-marie makes here and - while I’ll still think the scene was weirdly placed, unnecessary, and all the above - getting some insight into where Rio’s head is at (which may be happening with the flashback episode) would really help. Last episode it seemed pretty clear he was setting her up as his “fall guy” and this episode he’s fingering her in front of his grandma’s prayer hands and Grishams. Which is just downright disrespectful!
Edited to add: I did like Whole Life by Perfume Genius but that’s despite the scene not because of it.
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i just read your recent post of knt and ohmygod. oh god. i really feel like crying :') it's gonna end soon and they all are gonna part ways. can't wait to see the ending esp for the side couples!! anyway, i'm really into friends-to-lovers stories, can you recommend some animes/mangas that are based on that? i need to distract myself from knt ;-; thank you sm for bringing us updates and everything!!
Hey @chokokonhanbin!! I’m sorry for replying so late!
I’m crying right there withyou!! Even though the story has been winding down for about a year nowthis announcement really makes the impending conclusion seem real… While I’mgoing to miss the series a ton, I really can’t wait to see how Shiina wraps everythingup for our main characters! She’s been working on this series for over tenyears, so I’m sure she’ll take great care with the ending. And hopefully we’llget that heavily foreshadowed timeskip epilogue so that we can see them allworking and married and having babies (omg!!).
Friends-to-loversstories are the best! I’ve compiled a list for you of some anime and manga thatI think fit that category, although some of these might be a bit of a stretch.I tried to pick series in which the relationship isn’t mutually romantic fromthe very beginning (of course, sometimes one harbors secret feelings for theother, as in the case of Ryu and Chizu :D). Many of the series I’m recommending are not “romances” but they do contain romantic subplots and relationships.
Theremay be some small spoilers in here, but I’ll try not to give anything majoraway - just enough for you to see if you might be interested.
Let’stalk more under the cut…
ANIME
1. Akatsuki no Yona (Yona ofthe Dawn)
Thisseries is a really popular shoujo about a sheltered young princess, Yona, whois forced to flee her kingdom after her father, the king, is murdered. Shenarrowly escapes with the help of her childhood friend / bodyguard, Hak,and the two set out on a long and dangerous journey…
I’veonly seen the anime adaptation, but the story is really great; Yona grows a lot and hasexcellent character development. Her relationship with Hak is also reallywell-done - if you like protective male love interests who would die for the girls they love, I think you’ll enjoy this!
(Bonus,she collects a lot of male friends throughout the story, so if you’re intoreverse harems…)
2. Gosick
Ifyou’re a fan of mysteries with a little gothic flair, you might really enjoyGosick! The story is set in the first half of the 20th century at a fancyacademy in the fictional European country of Sauville. Kazuya Kujou, a bulliedstudent at the school, meets a mysterious, doll-like girl in the library - thetwo lonely teens gradually become friends while unraveling all kinds of mysteries.
Thisseries has some dark elements, although I don’t remember it being too graphicor intense. The two main characters come to rely on each other, and theirrelationship is really sweet.
3. Kiznaiver
Ican’t say too much about this one without getting into spoiler territory, butit’s about a group of teenagers, all from different backgrounds and social circles, who arebrought together as part of a secret experiment. The story is literally allabout feelings (literally haha), and there’s a lot of falling in love and romantic angst. While I would say the story is primarily focused on the natureof friendship and empathy, there are a few friends to lovers pairings…
4. Shinsekai yori
Thisis an incredible, thought-provoking story, and I highly recommend it for that.If you like dystopian / sci-fi settings and themes, this will probably appeal to you -again, I don’t want to give too much away, but there are a few friends tolovers relationships. Though I wouldn’t call this series a romance, it does explorehuman relationships, and consequently, romantic relationships do receive a fair amount of focus.
5. Toradora!
Toradorais, in my opinion, one of the best romance series out there. The two maincharacters are both outcasts, for different reasons; Ryuuji is a kind, gentleboy with an intimidating face, while Taiga is prickly and aggressive in spiteof her small stature. These two unlikely friends unite to help each other findlove - Ryuuji has a crush on Taiga’s best friend, Minori, and Taiga has a crushon Ryuuji’s best friend, Yuusaku. Their relationship is developed really well,and there are a lot of really emotional moments. Can’t recommend it enough!
6. The Rose of Versailles
Anoldie but such a goodie! This series from the 1970s takes place in pre-revolutionaryFrance and follows Oscar de Jarjayes, a girl from a noble family who hasbeen raised as a boy from birth. The only biologically female guard at court,Oscar is assigned to protect the newly arrived future queen of France: the verykind, but very naive, Marie Antoinette.
Thisseries is completely amazing. Oscar is an incredible and complex character whowrestles with her gender identity while kicking ass and thwarting all kinds ofassassination plots. Plus, there’s a pretty complicated relationship with herbest friend since childhood, Andre… If you like history, drama, courtscheming, sword fights, old school bishies, sparkles, and tons of angst, I think you’ll enjoy this. I will warnyou, this is not a happy or light-hearted series (French Revolution) and it’skind of on the long side (40 episodes).
MANGA
1.Hotaru no Hikari
Hotaru is a young woman in her late 20s whose social life is practicallynonexistent; she loves nothing more than lounging around at home in casualclothes, eating junk food, reading manga, and sleeping. She finds herself living in a house that is owned and occupied by her handsome 40 year-old boss, Takano; though he likes to pick on her for being a “dried up woman”, he always helps her through the problems in her messy love life.
Hotaru and Takano are at very different points in their lives, but they become such good friends over the course of the series; they feel completely relaxed and at home when they’re together. Will this unconventional friendship blossom into something more…?
2. Omoi, Omoware, Furi, Furare
This manga is by the author of “Ao Haru Ride” and “Strobe Edge” and is currently serialized in Bessatsu Margaret, alongside “Kimi ni Todoke.” The story revolves around 4 high school students, two girls and two boys. One female protagonist, Yuna, is a shy but sweet girl who loves shoujo manga and has a very idealistic view of love. The other, Akari, is a bit more jaded and has had experience with relationships, giving her a slightly more cynical, realistic perspective. Rio is Akari’s stepbrother, and though Yuna has a crush on him, he’s secretly been in love with Akari since before their parents started dating. Kazuomi is Yuna’s childhood friend, who despite his seemingly carefree nature, has a lot going on under the surface.
Both pairings begin as friends and are still building towards romantic relationships. It’s interesting to see how the characters change through their interactions with each other - it’s a great high school shoujo, and I think the characters are fairly complex for teenagers.
3. Koiiji
This series is a pretty mature love story. The main character, Mame, is a 30 year old woman who has harbored unrequited feelings for her childhood friend, 35 year old father and widower, Souta. Throughout her life she has confessed to him, only to be turned down; still, she continues to love him.
The story is not sugary or idealistic - it feels very grounded in reality, even if that reality is complicated and at times disappointing. Souta doesn’t magically fall for Mame, and her love may come to nothing in the end. But the story is really interesting, and the characters are pretty well-realized - they’re always capable of surprising themselves and the reader. If you want a more realistic, bittersweet story, then I think you might enjoy this.
I hope some of these series interest you! Looking at this list I realized I don’t actually watch / read too many friends to lovers stories - but I do really enjoy them, and these in particular had relationships that stood out to me. I saw that you liked another recommendation ask I published recently - I would also recommend all of those manga series to you as well! Thank you so much for reaching out to me, and happy watching / reading!! :)
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