i lost 6 lbs hurray

im bored out of my mind it is going to drive me crazy.

i finally have a hobby i can dedicate my time to. i forgot about food when i practiced it’s amazing. my journey begins now*🎸*

heh i think my arms are getting smaller… must endure>:D

i hate my life but at the same time i feel like i need to start romanticizing it in order to get shit done. i wanna look like my favorite song

if it was a person. that just makes me think she would be skinny and beautiful. wwjd? no what would angelina jolie do! l o l s

Watch made in abyss season two. it will make you not want to eat… episode 7 to be exact. just watch season one too bc it’s so good but…

absolutely grotesque and beautifully wholesome.

i don’t think I’ll be able to forget the scene help me oml. terrible, will make u want to throw up bro. disturbing but so good. mentally brutal basically as the episodes go on.

i watch made in abyss on animixplay.

currently binge watching…

╰► The feelings of easily refusing something you love to eat is satisfying ♡

i took a break for 2 months thinking i would stop smoking but since school started I’ve been smoking abt everyday like I used to and I’m able to eat a full chipotle bowl… AND OTHER THINGS AFTER. i thought i was gt explode but my thoughts after are excuses to make me feel better abt binging or how I can start tmr like… shutup bruh. i need to stop being a fatty. munchies r scary and I need to fix this sigh.

TW: ed

i am not pro ana. I am only pro for myself. Please do not enter if you are not comfortable with triggering content. Stay safe i<3 you.

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✦ = success

✧ Gw1:125

✧ Gw2:120

✧ Gw3:115

✧ Gw4:110

✧ Gw5:105

✧ Gw6:100

my holy grail.

this was2 yrs ago when i would run like crazy to reach my gw… i just want to go back. my 2-3 egg white and 3 rice cake everyday had my weight dropping. i was working hard to lose weight to gt school skinny bc I knew my crush who had gone to a diff school moved to my school. it was his last year at the time. however, I was switched to digital bc my parents didn’t want me to get Covid. i got depressed and developed bed and it’s been on and off with ana. i lost all my motivation when I lost all my progress and now i get on the treadmill 1-2 times a month now… i think my Ed caused me to lose my social life bc everyone seems to wanna go out and eat so I would end up canceling. i just wanna die but I cant bc im too scared to kms so my last resort is to just reach my ugw and see how it goes from there : )

im gt stop purging… as much as i don’t want food in my stomach, I don’t want a puffy face sigh.

i ended up sleeping the whole day and had dreams tht I ate and idk what to believe

i had to eat dinner with family. im too scared to purge bc everyone is home& it’s 12:36am. im just sick. sick that there’s sm fuckign food in my stomach i want to cry. i just wanna rip it all out if i could.

drinking cokezero hi w mint gum in my mouth. it tastes like dietcoke but idk if they had put a dietcoke instead. or mayb it’s just cokezero.