Do you ever get that feeling of utter lonlyness that you feel mainly when you're with other people. Like your body suddenly empty and you feel like sinking and it's so horrible and disgusting, but there is nothing you can do other than wait for it to go away? I hate it.

Trying to get sober from weed, relapsed on self harm 👍🏻

I gave my first 🧠 to a drug dealer, he forced me to swallow. Now I'm disgusted and hight af.

Ps. do not try this at home, not good for your mental health.

Another day another trauma self-made 🤞🏻

I never understood how a manic episode could be worse than a depressive episode until I lost my virginity to a stranger

I love blood it's so pretty

Today I relapsed and it felt so perfect, I forgot how good the cuts burn under clothes.

Pov: a girl saw me wash the blood out of my hands💀👍🏻

Tw?

Thinking about the past makes me want to kms, thinking about the future makes me want to kms, I can't stand the present so I think about the past or the future.

Conclusion: how do I fucking kms?

I miss how I loved everything about cutting, the blood, the aftercare, the guilt, how they felt so comfortable under a big hoodie, the way I had to hide it.

In the end it all made my life less boring.

Now it's just me and depression💀

These are actually working

Kill me

God I'm so down for grown up men. I dress up and put make up on like I have a chance with him💀

My daddy issues are not even that bad.

*starts to play "Teacher's Pet" by Melanie Martinez*

I'm not afraid of death, yet I'm so afraid of killing myself. What if I regret it at the end? What if it is too painfull? What if I have a panic attack while I'm dying or something? And what if my parents can't bear it? I don't want to die but I see no other option.

I don't wanna die, I don't wanna live, I'm too tired to think about what I want, am I even capable to desire anymore?

Tw?

Please how can I do it without feeling any pain?

I wish I could decide to fall asleep and never wake up

This

Why does no one talk about the comfort that comes with sadness, depression, sh etc. its so comforting i will force myself to go back after so much progress just because its so familiar

I hate too many things about me to love myself