I am super late getting into this show, but now it has taken over my entire life. Or maybe I came at the right time since Chaos Theory has just recently been announced. Either way, they are all my children now.
I guess you'd think it's another day at school but then, bumps into one locker as you try to reach your classroom for important matters, then bumps another, hitting your fucking foot and shoulders along the way, leaving your fucking shoe behind and letting that one particular teacher whom you've admired and respected so much witness everything. And then remembering, "I'm already 18 years old!" Yeah, that's about right. We're already 18 and some shit of a day we let that fucking happened 馃榿
I worry that our collective inability to hold space for grief is a slow hardening for all of us. In my experience the denial of pain is the denial of life and connection to the wide expanse of love, the disconnect makes it much harder to be with those around us from a place of openness. It feels like there is no priority or importance in the west for communal rituals of celebration of life or grieving and it鈥檚 only to our detriment. I hope to see and experience the revival of this in my lifetime.
the saying you cant miss what you never had is so insane to me.... like um actually i am always missing what i never had. theres so much missing... i miss everything
One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.