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jeellshobbies · 2 years

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SKZ songs I've listened to so far part one

I can foresee how long this thread can get, so buckle up

this is how I used to journal- since I'm not good at putting my feels into words, I often turn to songs for some help hehe. Maybe one day I'll create playlists with a post that explains why I added it hehe we'll see x)

so I present to you, SKZ songs and what and how much they mean to me part one

these 5 songs are really special to me cuz they're the first 5 songs I heard from skz TT3TT so I naturally also have the most to say about them

a major thanks in advance for the english subtitles and those vids where they put the lyrics on screen along with the english translations. I can't speak, read nor write korean so it really helped me in understanding the meaning of the songs better

also like omg, the amt of inspo I got from skz for my sims series HAHAHA I can't wait to come back from my hiatus and get to those parts where there's skz songs added weeee

Red Lights (Bang Chan and Hyunjin)

this song gave me so much inspo for my future sims series HAHAHA I love the darker tones they used for this song- and the lyrics can be easily interpreted into ANYTHING.

is the subject they're referring to a thing? a person? a job? heck, even a hobby?

it could be anything. And that's what I love about it, and it's probably the reason why I listened to this song on repeat the longest.

when I first heard this song, I was either studying or working on my sims story. At first I thought it was just really catchy (since I don't really know what the song is about yet entirely) So like what I do with any other kpop songs, I search up the meaning (just nice their music videos have english translations hehe)

and BOY when i saw the translations HAHAHA OMG.

Sometimes I feel like the song is a conversation between you and that subject you're obsessed over. Because tbh if my hobby could talk, it would probably say this-

"Tell me you hate me. "I can't handle you anymore". But I know, you and me, there's no other way."

I guess for me it's the relationship I had with my storytelling hobby in sims. It pretty much consumed almost all of my time ever since I started. If I weren't working on poses or building lots, I was on insta interacting with other simmers. I love it, don't get me wrong, but my introvert self can only take so much socializing. Plus the weekly all nighters on fridays took a toll on my body too.

It has a sexy and rough tone to it but if you look deeper it could also be about that one thing you're obsessed with- for my case it was the sims HAHAHA. I usually spend my friday evenings making poses, taking screenies, editing until the next morning. I'll sleep for like, 3 hours and then get back at it before I do my other responsibilities.

So yeah, that's red lights to me for ya.

God's Menu

"No one can copy us, our own game. From the start it's all ours."

That line. That friggin line. I don't know how to explain it without going off in a rant.

There's also a point where my sims friends were all getting copied by other people. Hence why this line's impact is pretty strong

you'll hear me talking about this topic a lot throughout here, but just bits and pieces of it

"Just put everything in. Don't mind the other, put more. Don't hesitate, pour more. Mix, mix" "Yes, sir and ma'am"

I haven't really watched any of the behind the scenes so I'm not sure if they explained what they meant with this part but to me it's a form of encouragement to give something your all and don't care about what others would have to say.

Thunderous

Okay as I get to the songs I realized why I love them so much

it's a shoot back at the h8ers and naysayers in my life HAHAHAHA. It also gave me LOTS of ideas for my simseries

"I don't care how they look at me. I'll say what I have to say ptui ptiu ptui- thunderous."

I realized after listening to this song a lot I was a bit more outspoken when it came to people in my life. The past few years I've just been quiet and to myself and even if people cross the line I would usually just smile it off

but lately I've been calling them out.

could it be I'm just reaching my limit? could it be I just want a change for once? either way I love it. I welcome this change.

I've been lately feeling the urge to change a lot of things in my life because I want to see improvements- or just something different tbh. Not tolerating unnecessary toxicity would be one of them.

I guess that also explains why I no longer talk to a lot of people I used to talk to HAHAHAHA.

"I was born crooked, my voice can go against a hundred. If I don't like something I can talk back until I'm satisfied."

That's the goal folks. I don't necessary want to talk back to everything that goes against me. Sometimes if it's better to just walk away that's what I'd do.

Cuz tbh not everything is worth your energy and effort. What we can get out of this line is... I guess knowing that you CAN fight back. And you WILL fight back until you're good.

But if I were to take it further with this line, you CAN fight back, and you WILL fight back until you're good- because it's worth it.

But if it ain't worth it then... HAH, CHEESE.

Cheese

tbh this whole song is an entire mood. I'd be quoting every line.

I love it. The vibe of the song, the attitude that comes along at the delivery of the song.

It makes you feel empowered in that weird way (at least to me)- especially with Thunderous.

in the current company I work in, I'm the youngest despite working here for 3 years already- you'd think every year someone younger would come along. there was once someone did, but they left because they hated the environment. I can't blame her tho, I would too HAHAHA.

So can you imagine being the generation gap? From the way I dress, the things I eat, the way I look the things that interest me

pretty much everything

I'd probably go deeper into it another time but one of the things that stuck with me the longest was how they constantly picked on how I look- I did competitive sports since I was a kid and I guess i got my mom's side's metabolism- which is super strong. So I had very little body fat, which also means I'm not gifted in the boob department :')

so guess what aside from being constantly told I'm stuff that I'm not, I'm also constantly teased and told to wear push up bras or even consider boob jobs just to fit what's good to them :)

I knew it's just trash speaking trash but overtime if you hear it almost everyday it can start to get to you :) For a while I found issues with things I didn't have issues with to begin with- like my body at that point.

if you search up Alexandra Trusova that's pretty much my body type when I came in HAHAH that's when I was still active in training, also keep in mind I'm 153cm. i was mostly muscle and very little fat. And I was only 20 then, where my metabolism is still on full speed. now at 23, I don't train at all anymore so naturally I gained a few kilos. I still pretty much look the same despite eating the same way I did back then- with hotpots and kbbqs from time to time.

ngl I did have this thought where "hmm i gained weight maybe they won't bother me anymore"

but they still do

So now I'm just... "HAH, CHEESE."

Their songs just speaks out everything I'm feeling perfectly like that's it. That's the whole tweet HAHA.

It doesn't bother anymore, thanks to 21 and a half year old Jeel who managed to talk herself out of that dark place.

tldr (sorry for blabbing, I got way too passionate there) words can hurt and sometimes people say hurtful things KNOWING it's not a good thing to say.

and there's nothing we can do anything about it, sadly- since we can't control other people's actions. It will hurt- like it did for me. and that's okay to acknowledge. tbh I only started making progress on making peace with it when I let myself really feel how it wants to feel about the situation- journalling helped on my end. having a rant page in my bujo helped. and then overtime, with the help of other songs I found that helps say out how I really feel, I slowly made peace with it.

AND OMG PLS THAT LINE WHERE THEY STARTED MENTIONING THE FINGERS HAHAHAH THAT'S A BIG FUCK YOU TO THE HATERS OUT THERE HAHAHAH

this is the disstrack of the year for me

Wolfgang

"Plowing through the storm, yeah I know. A continuous brutal and suffocating feeling. Even if I try to escape, now I know. This is a competition I can't avoid."

At first it kinda gave me the same vibes as "Dancing with a Wolf" by all time low, just a bit. Idk if it's because wolves are also mentioned. There's also "The Wolf" by the Simple Creatures. But after seeing the english translation not really- they're definitely not about the same stuff HAHAH.

Wolfgang, while it still have that line of eating you up, feels more like an anthem amongst your long-time friends. The kind of group you get your strength from in really dark friends.

the kind of people you'd want by your side against it all.

Wolfgang is pretty much dancing with a wolf and the edge of tonight combined for me. Like the sentiments I have for these songs especially.

this also makes really great camp cheer songs. Like imagine the camp theme was musicians and your team got Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart HAHAHAH.

imagine the campfire cheer for your group, it'll definitely win best cheer x)

but yeah, wolfgang- unlike the other songs, has a lighter meaning to me. it's one of those songs you'd jam to with your friends during a long drive. the kind your friends would sing and dance to during karaoke nights.

I mean I've never done that since my friends and I have different music tastes- to so my fellow stays who are close friends with fellow stays please live this dream for me and tell me all about it TT3TT HAHAHAH it's one of the reasons why i want to make a separate account for this

#skz #stray kids #jeells hobbies #stray kids songs #stay skz #STAY

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jeellshobbies · 2 years

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Back again - Quick update + SKZ and Sims

HAHAHA at this point I don't even know anymore- I get occupied by something and I forget to document it because I'm that immersed in that something. which totally takes away the whole point of this blog, since I WANT to document my happy pills.

but anyhoo lately I've been really into Stray Kids hehe

I first discovered them in one of those playlists created on youtube- Red Lights was the first song that played (and the first SKZ song I've heard)

and the rest was history

okay but for real, I listened to that song on replay for WEEKS. that's how much I loved it. No other song did it for me HAHAH- it's one of those stuff I do with songs where I can only be at ease if THAT particular song was playing.

But after a few weeks of Red Lights, I searched up even more of their stuff, and that's when God's Menu happened.

COOKING LIKE A CHEF I'M A FIVE STAR MICHELIN~

Amazing. The experience was amazing.

And then I got even more into it after watching their chaotic moments in youtube HAHAH they're hilarious!!

They always make my day, but sadly right now it's final exam season for me so I can't really enjoy their content in peace. (So I can't wait for it to be all over, so I can do what I'm doing now just with no stress HAHAHA)

Last paper's on the 26th so after that I'm probably going to binge watch (I say binge watch because I want to watch the MVs where there's translations for the lyrics, it hits more like that trust me) their songs and their content

Which also brings me to another thing I've been really into this year- sims HAHAH

I've been playing the sims and doing storytelling with it since last year so that's pretty much what took my time

I don't know if I should create a separate blog for these two- especially Stray kids but I really do want to meet other STAYS to interact with and fangirl with cuz irl I don't really have anyone to share this joy with (except maybe my sis who's a kpop fan as well) I don't really know how these things work since I'm pretty new to it but I am very excited!

Maybe a twitter account? I've been considering that a lot. As for insta I follow a lot of skz accounts with my personal account HAHAH so I might make one for that too

I don't know, I'll figure it all out after my engineering ethics paper (oh yeah did I mention I'm working full time and just recently starting doing part time uni? HAHAH)

#stray kids #skz #jeellshobbies #life update #the sims #sims 4 #ts4

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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A full circle?

So... When I was a kid, my dad would always buy my stickers because I loved to collect them - aside from stationery (my mom gets me those)

After I migrated to Singapore, the hobby continued until I was around 4th grade? Where my time got completely conquered by school and sports (I was a huge bookworm I read through a lot of Magic Tree House books my Mary Pope Osborne ( I still remember the author’s full name, HAH!)

I have no idea where all the stickers and stationery I’ve collected went, it probably got thrown out by younger jeel along with her medals when we moved over to our new house.

Funny right? How now I’m high key obsessing over stickers again, except honestly this time the stickers and stationery items i like or want to buy are definitely of a higher price point?

I’m planning to take a break from the skin care shopping I’ve been doing/wanting to do, the upcoming trip to sephora is probably the last one I’ll be doing in a while? The next beauty related stuff I’ll probably tackle would be make up since I am in the process of de-cluttering the stuff I have here and yeah.

It just feels like a full circle, now that I’m back to the very first hobby I could remember, like ever- which is collecting stickers.

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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I drew until my hand was swollen HAHAHAHA

Inspo: Bridget Satter Lee by Tamara Williams

Medium: 0.38 Dark Blue Muji Pen on Dotted typo planner/notebook

#artists on tumblr #art #quick pen sketch #short sketch #sketches #pen sketch #tamara williams #bridget satter lee #muji pens #muji pen #muji stationary #typo planner #typo notebook

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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Fun fact: I was listening to "Lovely" by Billie and Khalid on replay whilst sketching this. Anyone else listen to one song on max vol while doing art/math?

Inspo: Billie Eilish's Vogue Australia Mag Cover

Medium: 0.38 Dark Blue Muji Pen on dotted Typo planner/Notebook

#billie eilish #Billie Eilish fanart #quick pen sketch #pen sketch #fan art #artists on tumblr #art #sketch #muji pens #muji pen #muji stationary #typo planner #typo notebook

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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A quick sketch, I'm on a roll today with the drawings because the haze in here is getting pretty bad and I rather stay at home cozed up in my room to recharge my introverted self so that I'll be more fresh when the new work week starts!

Here's a quick tip I remembered from my sec school art teacher when it comes to sketching- you can screen shot the photo, jack up the saturation or contrast to max and there we go- an easier picture to refer to when it came to shadows! (At least for me)

Inspo: Moya P by Tamara Williams

Medium: 0.38 Dark Blue Muji Pen on dotted Typo notebook/planner

#jeells hobbies #jeellshobbies #pen sketch #quick pen sketch #muji pens #moya p #tamara willians #art #artists on tumblr #my art #muji stationary #typo planner #typo notebook

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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A quick pen sketch of Liza Soberano :)

I realized I like to draw faces that are a lot more structured because it's slightly easier to draw compared to drawing someone with softer features (I'm still practicing, hopefully in time I'll be able to show you guys HAHA!)

Check out @jeells_ on Instagram to see snippets of my other blogs x)

#art #liza soberano #pen sketch #quick pen sketch #fan art #artists on tumblr #muji stationary #muji pen #muji pens #typo notebook

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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It's been a while since I last drew something man- I miss it dearly actually. I never knew I did until I started picking up the pen and sketching.

Follow me on Instagram @jeells_ !!

#liza soberano #art #quick pen sketch #pen sketch #drawing #sketching #sketch #jeellshobbies #jeells hobbies

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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I wanted to post it separately (I posted it on the thread because I wanted to give credits to the picture that inspired me to sketch this) and here you go x)

#chloe #dbh #chloe dbh #detroit become human #detroit; become human #jeellshobbies #sketches #short sketch

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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I did a quick sketch (cuz I was in the mood) and this was my inspiration x) it looks a little different in terms of her face angle but this was the picture that got me sketching!

ChloeeeeeEEEEE

#chloe #dbh #chloe dbh #detroit: become human #detroit become human #jeellshobbies

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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First book in a while: Better than Before by Gretchen Rubin

So it's been so long since I last read a book- like ever since I started poly my reading time has exponentially decreased as my trainings got more and more frequent and my school work load directly and proportionately increased.

I kinda regret I didn't try harder to ensure I had time considering reading kept me sane- i could tell as whenever I read my study material I feel completely at ease. Weird huh.

Anyhoo, since I'm no longer training in TKD like at all i figured instead of just wallowing myself in the post TKD syndrome I should find new things to occupy myself with that wouldn't- and reading just happened to be one of them.

Feels like returning to an old love huh woah

But yeah what more to kickstart the habit by reading a book about habits?? (I know the cover says about breaking habits but breaking old habits gives way to new ones amirite) And plus, I'm certain this is beneficial for me considering now that I'm self sustaining and living on my own, I gotta really get myself in check to ease my transition into adulthood.

I dont know if I'll be posting mg thoughts here or on my main blog but I guess we'll see? I'll go by chapters and summarize what the points are and what I've learned. Hopefully that'll be helpful.

And of course hopefully in time I'll buy me some young adult books too huehuehue

#jeellshobbies

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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Detroit: Can Relate

The thing about this game and why I love it so much is that somehow I can see myself in all of the characters. And being able to see a part of myself in them is the reason why I feel super attached to them x)

Connor: we're both just lost and we're both just still trying to find who we really are. As for me, I spent all my life so far trying to do well in this, do well in that not necessarily cuz I want to, but because I want to accomplish everything I'm given well. Being tested, having a goal or being part of a competition gives me purpose. We're both just trying to do well in whatever task that's given to us but we never really fully figured out what we like.

Also, I can get a bit robotic sometimes. That's when I emotionally shut down just to get things done well.

North: when something doesn't go your way, or someone pisses you off or gets you angry- North is that devil voice in your head telling you to react violently. It's like it could be an entitled old lady cutting the queue when everyone is just trying to go home and then the bus ends up full and now there's a chunk of you left in the bus stop thanks to the amount of degenerates present who shoved their way through. Your head is pounding and you're super tired and your emotions are getting the best of you. And now you just wanna light the bus on fire or wish it explodes or meets an accident.

North is someone who can make you think- sometimes, violence is the answer. Because people don't stop when it comes to pushing their boundaries. And having that tiny drop of you in North makes a whole lot of difference between being a total pushover or being able to draw the damn line.

But of course, if you were North, there's no such thing as a healthy dose of aggressive.

Josh: Josh is usually me when a friend comes to me with their problems. I'd want them to focus on themselves and into making themselves feel better and recovering and remaining peaceful before I turn into a North and feel the anger and frustration with them. Always reaching out for the greater cause with all the peaceful methods and usually those turn out well for us. Usually.

Simon: the way simon treated and looked at Markus reminds me of how I treat my hubby HAHAHHHAA. Like omg he's always by Markus' and he was that ride or die person (I'm not gonna say friend. Because THEY HAD SO MUCH POTENTIAL AS LOVERS HUUURR)

Kara: kara is protective of Alice like how I am protective with my sisters like idk what occurred to me but throughout the years my sissies and I just got really close.

#detroit become human #dbh #connor #kara #markus #simon #north #josh #alice

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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Jeellplays: “Restaurant Paradise: Sim Builder”

I’ve always been a big fan of simulation games ever since i was a little a kid and nothing much has changed in terms of my taste in games- the simulation category is still my favorite and go-to category aside from the usual adventure, horror, romance and etc.

So with that I actually have a couple of games installed on my spare phone (I started using it again only for the sole purpose of having games because my main one right now is running pretty low on memory, I guess we either gotta get it a memory card or so some late spring cleaning)

Therefore I present to you- Restaurant Paradise: Sim Builder!

It’s created by a developer called Happy Labs and it was released on 11 Jan 2017. Happy Labs consist of a group of indie creators who are based in Singapore- just scrolling through their other games available for you to play, most of them are casual games that are pretty easy going and fun. So far I have two of their games installed and I guess once I’ve reached that pretty stable stage in these two games I’m definitely gonna try their other games.

Anyhoo, this one is pretty fun and simple. The tutorials are pretty short and sweet and then it lets you do whatever you want on your own. I actually discovered this after another game made by the same developer so I was a lot smarter on how to go about this game- I’ll go in more detail with that probably in another entry so I can do a combined “Tips and Tricks” since this game and the other game is pretty similar.

But yeah, you pretty much just have to keep tapping the coin icons to earn money to buy decos and the new shops available for you to purchase whenever you expand. There’s also this “Fever” thing where if you collect enough starts you get to activate this mode and it’s pretty much just gonna rain coins and profit galore!

Considering I had a pretty good headstart, I’d rate this game a good 7.5/10 in terms of experience because I feel a lot let stressed playing this compared to the other one where I dove headfirst with a blindfold. It’s a pretty good game to play to kill time- considering some of the stuff take time (like levelling up).

In terms of in-game purchase- I haven’t really purchased anything. I feel that this game really makes you feel at home and at ease considering you don’t feel pressured to spend big bucks just to have an enhanced experience (I really need to give this to the developers, kudos to you) Like, from experience, one of the reasons why I stop playing games that I used to play aside from boredom is the consistent pressure I feel to make in-game purchases just to get this and that. That’s why it would seem like I’m over-glorifying this part but no seriously, I’m HAPPY this game doesn’t make me feel that way.

With that being said, like most of the other games I’m going to post about next, this is a game you can play anywhere and anytime- especially if you don’t game all the time or you’re not on the phone all the time? You might want to give this game a try- especially if you like casual simulation games.

#jeellplays #restaurant paradise #happy labs #simulation game #simulation

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jeellshobbies · 5 years

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Long Hiatus

This always happens here, and to those who have been here with me since day one knows that.

I'll be super active at one point obsessing over something and then disappear for a while (usually a long while) and then the cycle repeats itself? Yeah that's pretty muxh the nature of my blogs and yeah.

Yeaaaaaah.

I just didn't acknowledge it till now but before I started typing this entry down I was actually looking through my old posts and I'm pretty happy that I never really changed much over the things the spark fire in me or really make me happy. It makes me happy that even though bade stuff happened over time and I know as a person in general I changed drastically in terms of perspective and etc, I'm grateful my passion and level of excitement towards the things that made me happy never really changed.

I'm still that goofball who will cry over Jem, Will and Tessa and their adventures beautifully written in a trilogy, I still sometimes wonder what happened after Day said Hi to June, I still relate to Connor who throughout the game was discovering and finding himself bit by bit- and so much more.

I love it, I love this. This is probably why I'm never really gonna change the outlook of this blog- just keep posting them. I feel really sentimental over it, which is something that's super rare HAHAHA cuz I don't really put sentimental value on anything. This blog is pretty much one of the homes to my happiness and I hope through this you guys would also discover yours or reignite and old flame in you.

Different people find their happiness in different places and I hope you have one with you, and take great care of it- cuz no matter how small or big, just having one alone is more than enough :)

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jeellshobbies · 6 years

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Venom

so it’s been a while since I last came back with a movie review and I've actually watched quite a lot of movies I just didn’t review them (I’m so sorry) but hey, I’m back with venom.

don’t worry there won't be any spoilers, I promise. I think my format changed overtime and now I just don’t really Talk about its happenings (no more discussion part, kind of?) but more on my opinion and feels about it.

So yeah, here we have venom.

I’ll admit, I don’t know much about the comics so I’m talking about how I think and feel about the movie SOLELY.

Overall I enjoyed watching the movie, like really. The humour was on point and the pacing was just nice. My fiancé who knows a lot more about it than I did said it was alright too- I guess he’s just judging it from how the movie is like solely as well.

I’d rate it a 7.5/10. Since I really enjoyed it but not to the point where like, I enjoyed it where I’m like OMG THIS IS THE BEST MOVIE EVER LIKE YAAAAS kind of enjoy.

You know what I mean?

This was definitely worth the 8.5 bucks man HAHAHA and it’s one of those movies where I don’t mind watching it again x)

#venom #marvel #movie review #jeellshobbies

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jeellshobbies · 6 years

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Detroit Reacts

Ever since I started using the gif feature here on Tumblr and Twitter, I can't stop. It's like I have a gif for every mood or reaction I have and it's amazing.

Here are some.

How I usually am with people around me because I'm shorter than average- specially with my hubby, he's 40cm taller than me #shortiepatootie

Me walking towards my destination when I have upbeat music playing on max vol through my earphones.

When someone you're not really fond of jokes with you.

When you're done and you don't want to argue about it.

My friend, after seeing how he/she knows I could have said something back so toxic and ducked up it would completely end everything but decided not to.

When life fucks you over and over again and it's showing but you're still soft on the inside as fuck.

When you sense something fishy.

When you finally cut or end or gotten rid of something toxic in your life.

This can be applied on to so many things.

When you know or heard something you shouldn't have

HAHAHAHAHAHA THATS IT

Most of it is connor I know but like yeah. There's a lot of like, reacts or mood in one gif but like, here's the much more used often/ probably hopefully obvious ones. HAHA.

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jeellshobbies · 6 years

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The Novelist by Satirrian

Okay so I found another gold bar here and daaaaaaaaamn I'm really happy I found this.

It's really captured the chemistry between Connor and Hank as DPD Partners and with a hint of sassy smart ass Connor- everything was perfect.

I think I'm gonna keep it this way with fanfics- no discussion section for this because... because.

Well, it keeps the feels safely into the box you're about to unbox and who gets 100% satisfaction from unboxing an already opened box?

Idk where I'm going with that but what I mean is that I want you all to experience then same good stuff I did fresh. Not tainted with my spoilers.

Anyhoo, this fanfic is pretty much just about connor and hank investigating the deviant cases (yes that era) and yeah, I really love it because it's very funny.

That's all I can say, I don't want to reveal more but if you want more hank and connor father-son moments then this is the one for you. I highly recommend you to read this xD

Check out the awesome sauce here

Alsooooo just an update!! The author has a Tumblr blog! More awesome sauce here! @satirewrites

#detroit: become human #rk800 #connor #connor rk800 #dbh connor #dbh rk800 #dbh hank #dbh lieutenant hank anderson #dbh hank anderson #fanfic #dbh fanfic

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