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idkfindingmyself · 3 months

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life is so easy and beautiful when you don’t eat 🤍

#tw ed diet #ana meal #3d f4st #ana rant #🕯️as a 🪶#disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #thin$p0 #tw ana diary #analog

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idkfindingmyself · 3 months

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i absolutely fucking hate winter with my whole heart i gain weight naturally and have to layer clothes NOW I LOOK EVEN FATTER THAN I ALREADY AM BUT IM STILL SO COLD SINCE I DONT EAT ANYTHING WHEN WILL THIS PAIN END

#tw ed diet #ana meal #ana rant #🕯️as a 🪶#disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #thin$p0 #tw ana diary #analog #3d f4st

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idkfindingmyself · 3 months

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same thing plsss

ana coach?

i realllyy want a controlling ana coach... someone who is fucking mean when i do bad and sweet when i do good. i have to send my meal plans and exercise plans... and they can modify them. preferably someone older than me. oh and no body checks

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idkfindingmyself · 3 months

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manifesting affirmations!!!!

*chakra order + positive affirmations only

, i’ve been studying spiritual wl hacks so here you go <3

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questions for shadow work

- why am i attracting weight loss?

- what happend in my life that made me wanna lose weight?

- who hurt me si much that i want to lose weight

- why did they do it

- when did it happen?

- how can i forgive them?

- i will forgive myself

- i love myself because deep down i know i can do it

- why do i have eating problems?

- where does the core of my problems hide?

- what is the origin of that core?

- i forgive them and i am letting go of ties that tie with my inner core

- why am i still holding onto this?

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CHAKRA AFFIRMATIONS

- i am skinny

- i am safe and skinny

- i am grounded and skinny

- i am healed and skinny

- i am mother earth and i can release all the weight down where it belongs

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- i am everything i need

- i feel skinny and beautiful

- i feel satisfied with my body

- i feel creative with my weight loss

- i feel free from negative weight and trauma

- i feel skinny

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- i do everything as a skinny person

- i do ear like a skinny person

- i do exercises like a skinny person

- i do see my potential

- i do lose weight

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- i love myself

- i love my skinny body

- i love how i look

- i love how i act with food and exercise

- i love losing weight

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- i speak like a skinny person

- i speak about my deep trauma core

- i speak about my wl safely

- i speak my truth about my weightloss

- i speak as i am losing weight

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- i see myself as a skinny person

- i see my results

- i see my skinny body

- i see clearly where i go right

- i see the weight loss on my body

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- i know i am skinny

- i know i lose, i will, i did and i am losing weight

- i know i am beautiful

- i know that i am powerful

- i know that i am one with universe and that i can achieve anything

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idkfindingmyself · 3 months

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MAGIC SPELL EVERYONE

💫💥💫💥💫💥💫💥💫💥

Reblog to lose 7 pounds in a week

💥💫💥💫💥💫💥💫💥💫

Reblog to weight less than yesterday

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idkfindingmyself · 3 months

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my bad habit is using 0zemp1c :0 ;)

pros:

- extrem weightloss in a short amount of time

- extremely visible jawline, cheekbones, collarbone ect.

-big and pretty bug eyes

-talking alot, being social

- not being hungry at all

cons:

-loose skin especially on face

- can‘t workout (heart attack)

- can‘t drink alcoh

- possible insomnia

- expensive

- always feeling like you’re gonna throw up

- if you stop using and go back to a normal diet you’ll gain all the weight you lost ( happened to me )

* for me using O was honestly such a dangerous but great experience, losing 10kgs in such a short time in like 1 month, got soooooo many compliments, fit in all my old clothes back, felt so much more energetic and free from all the fat

however once i ran out of it i was forced to recover ( since everybody found out what i was doing) and gained few kgs back

sorry mom i relapsed again

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idkfindingmyself · 4 months

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hey, im back

these last couple of months have been absolutely awful due to forced recovery by everyone, my mental health has gotten even worse, friends have been mean to me all the time but i finally had a courage to get back on track and install tumblr again

and holy shit i missed yall so much <3333 thank u for all the rb likes and comments :’)))

let’s make this year worth it :DDDD 2024 is the new 2014 iykyk ;)

LLA <3333

#tw ed diet #ana meal #th1nsp1ration #st4rv1ng #ed behaviour tw #tw restrictive ed #th1n$pø #disordered eating thoughts #🕯️as a 🪶

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idkfindingmyself · 9 months

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~ benefits of these supplements i found in store ( 10 kcals per 1 bag)

• kefir

- you’ll live longer

- helps with hangovers ( trust me it works like magic)

- great for menstruation

- reduces fat levels in body

- fastens metabolism

- activates digestion ( for me it works something like laxative)

• kombucha

- helps with weight loss

- energy booster

-natural probiotic

- amazing for fasting!!!!

- vegan version of kefir ( however kefir is much more better)

fiber is also good for digestion, is low in kcal, helps with weight management, makes you live loonger

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idkfindingmyself · 9 months

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~ g r 0 s s p o ~ tw!!!!!

( adding numbers in words so i dont get b4nned lol)

-i just cant get these thoughts out of my head about eating dead animals everytime i eat something:

- imagine how many birds, bugs, snakes got stuck and sl4ughtered in wheat h4rvesting / plant agriculture

- imagine how many feather & d3ad snake 0rgans are currently in food processors/ industries

- do you really think all factories are clean? at least ONE rat gets sm4shed into the food you’re eating rn

- nothing is really vegan if you think bout it

- we are literally eating organs from animals that were k1lled

- scientists still argue what is the percentage of animal field d3aths in plant productions BUT ITS NEVER 0%

- this is one of the most controversial topics amongst vegans so im not here for that im here for making myself fast longer

#grossp0 #grosspo #gr0ssp0 #tw ed diet #tw ana shit #ana meal #tw edd #3d f4st #ana rant #ana trigger #tw ana fast #ed bllog #tw gross #grossspo

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idkfindingmyself · 9 months

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day 3:

- had black coffee and watched girl interrupted <3

- also had protein coffee low kcal

-accidentally bought chocolate milk instead protein shake kms so i didnt drink it

- had vegetable broth ( they came in little blocks so i made them in water and its 100ml-5 kcal)

- found some really cool stuff i’ll make a post about it so stay tuned!!!!

* tomorrow i’ll post grosspo from last blog since yall told me to do it ( cuz i posted ALOT today )

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idkfindingmyself · 9 months

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I WANNA POST BC BUT IM TOO AFRAID MY FRIENDS GONNA RECOGNIZE ME CUZ OF ALL MY TATTOOS

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idkfindingmyself · 9 months

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i have the most disgusting grosspo thoughts but im too scared to post them

#tw ana shit #tw ed diet #ana meal #tw edd #3d f4st #ana rant #ana trigger #m3ansp0 #tw gross #grosspo #grossp0 #gr0ssp0 #tw ana fast #ed bllog

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idkfindingmyself · 9 months

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all clear liquids diet

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idkfindingmyself · 9 months

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all liquid fast week!!!

day 1:

<3 it went pretty good i havent felt hungry at all

<3 had 2 black coffees and water

<3 cons i got drunk lol

<3 nothing special :))

day 2 :

<3 at my bfs so that means no eating!!!

<3 felt little bit hungry ( i realized i just had cravings)

<3 watched grosspo, nikokado, awful tiktok american recepies and 10000 calories challange

<3 drank protein shake ( 0 sugar wooo) so as two coffees

i wish i can post pics but there is literally nothing LOL

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idkfindingmyself · 10 months

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starting clear liquid diet tomorrow!!!!

i’ll update everyday <3

long live ana <3

#tw ana shit #tw ed diet #ana meal #tw edd #3d f4st #ana rant #ana trigger #m3ansp0 #tw ana fast #ed bllog

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idkfindingmyself · 10 months

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my aesthetic- horrorcore,80s!!!

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idkfindingmyself · 10 months

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<3 discussion <3

!!?what do u guys think?!!

your thoughts on irl ed friends

your thoughts on irl friends who all of a sudden have an ed

thoughts on online ed friends

i personally dont like irl ed friends idk i feel like they think they are better than me just bc i dont rant about that stuff

but… oh god… how i ADORE online ana friends :))) <333

#tw ed not sheeran #tw ana shit #tw edd #ana rant #ana friend #ed friends #ed group chat #ed gc #ed mutuals #ana mutuals #4namia #tw ana related #🦋.txt #ed moots

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