Me: Why hasn’t he texted me?

Me after giving him my number in person: say anything that pisses me off and I’ll block you as quickly as I gave that paper to you

Me: I just don’t get it 🤔

*devalues you so you can’t hurt me even though you already have which is literally why I’m devaluing you in the first place*

Me, pained: see? I win.

Can’t believe I ever used to be a people pleaser to everyone 🤢🤢🤢

*someone doesn’t do something that I would do for them even if I didn’t want to because not everyone will do exactly what you are expecting of them*

Me: so you do hate me

People putting their triggers in their bio on the internet saying “don’t mention these to me” is so counterproductive like my guy people will tell you to kys and call you slurs if they don’t agree with you, do you really think they won’t turn around and use those against you too?? The internet is not a safe place, even your own blog has people who can hurt you in an instant like,,, why set yourself up for that

Nah I’m not mad anymore that I was abused by a narcissist I’m just mad that I was stupid enough to fall for it lmao

reminder that you were a child. its not your fault, even if it seems like it might be.

You don’t understand. I don’t care about you. I didn’t unblock you to give you a second chance, you disgust me and you’re never going to change my mind after the way you behaved.

You’re my chess game, you’re a challenge and perfect opportunity for me to manipulate you without you even knowing. I’m going to get in your head and you won’t forget about me, and you’re gonna think about the things I say because I know you don’t like me and I finally get to hurt you back and I’m going to win.

It’s my turn to make a move, and you don’t even know. Let’s play.

I want to be anyone else other than who I am right now I’d rather be anyone else than be me I am so repulsed by myself and I have to stay alive because if I kill myself my fiancée won’t have anyone and my best friends won’t but honestly they’d move on and I wish people would just give up on me so I can finally do it without having to think about anyone else I’m such a coward why can’t I just do it I want to die I want to die I want to die

I want to rip my skin off and run away from my body and I want to just fucking die but I can’t because then I’ll be dead and I just want away from my body and my brain and I can’t turn it off it won’t stop and I hate it I hate myself for being so weak and pathetic and crying I’m so disgusted with myself I’m so god damn pitiful and stupid why do I have to feel anything anymore I hate it I don’t want to feel

I hate being in pain I hate feeling it I hate knowing this is forever I hate not having energy I hate myself I hate my body I want to destroy it the way it’s destroyed my mental and physical health I want to hurt it so badly for being so god damn useless just like I am

The most bpd thing I’ve said in years lmao

Love that people write OCs but hate that they romanticize what they think sadism is (like Jason in heathers)

And then when I’m searching for actually sadistic people with actual sadistic tendencies that also are cluster b (that way I can learn and connect with others more) all I see is their wannabe watered down version aspd fictional shit all for a “hot” guy that doesn’t exist because they’re so pathetic that they have to make up a fantasy of loving someone with a personality disorder

I get so annoyed at people who bitch about their problems but aren’t capable of handling them on their own (or just don’t do it because they don’t try due of fear) because I had to grow up before I was ready and manage it on my own as a literal child so why are you incapable of working through it as an adult effectively instead of sitting in your misery and doing something about it on your own???

And then I remember that I shouldn’t have had to work through it alone, and even though people are mostly capable of just moving on, they shouldn’t have to be alone through their struggles

Yet I just can’t help but feel irritated hearing people not be brave enough or strong enough to do it on their own, especially as adults. It’s genuinely repulsive to me and incomprehensible at the same time

Giving people with aspd a kiss on the forehead you’re not a bad person ily muah

🥀 This blog is safe for people with aspd 🥀

Yeah no I’m fine baby I just feel like I’m going to ruin every single one of my relationships and to rip myself limb from limb to finally be at peace

You say you’re an advocate for mental health but are you normal about people with narcissistic personality disorder? You say it’s okay to not be okay but are you normal about cluster b personality disorder symptoms?