Sometimes I think it would be easier to end it all, then keeping all my shit together.

I just want to leave this psychiatry, go back home, get a job again, have a purpose in life, finally hold my doggo in my arms and give it cuddles, just feel something like "happiness" again... It is all so damn senseless and hopeless.

#wokeuplikethis

Feeling disgusting

ugly

Extremely hungry

Exhausted

Not able to get out of bed

Anxious about the day

And wanting to die the moment I opened my eyes.

I am addicted to animal crossing, bc there I am not a failure, there are no social anxieties and everyone just likes me. It's the perfect little world.

I feel so guilty. I binged a whole glas Nutella, I cutted my arm and my belly fat again and I still feel like the worst mistake the whole wide world could think about. I wish I just could disappear without anyone ever noticed.

Little not so cute BPD things-

-uncontrollable fits of rage -screaming at everything -substance abuse -hypersexual!!! Sex repulsed!!! - I love/hate/love you! -do you love me??? Why haven’t you messaged me?? What have I done wrong?? -I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m so- -fuck off why the fuck are you even near me! Wait come back I didn’t mean it!!!! - self harming when distressed -self harming when bored - better put myself in dangerous situations!!!!! -they’ll finally notice me if I do this *insert potentially life-threatening situation here* -IM SO ANGRY IM GOING TO SMASH MY ROOM UP -I cannot do this basic task without constant motivation from Favourite Person -IMPRINTING!!!!!!! - I ADORE YOU!! FUCK OFF I HATE YOU!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! FUC-

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