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they should invent being a nun. But for agnostic Jewish dykes
#Every day I think about how good I would be at nun life#if it weren’t for the whole Jesus thing#ik there are other kinds of monasteries but I feel weird abt the idea of being a white person who goes to a Buddhist monastery to#~find themself~ you know#There’s also the kibbutz but I am not going to do that for very obvious political reasons#so really they should invent being a nun but for me specifically
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— YOUR LOVE.
(Alhaitham x Reader)
Your love was as passionate as the golden light shining through the open windows as you and your lover both lovingly look at each other in the morning. It was like this every single day. No amount of anger, fights, and pettiness could dissolve such wondrous moment from both of your life. You loved him, and he did too. He alone believed that it was an unbreakable fact.
He also remembered how much you loved every other little things in the world. The way your eyes would shine brightly at the sight of a cat. Your cat, to be exact. You always said that its grey fur reminded you of him, even the cat's stoic-like personality was similar to him as well. It was funny, really. He never liked it when people speak nonsense, just like what you did then, but oh boy, did he fell deeper in love with you after you said that. It was truly funny. Love had always been such a foreign concept, yet he tried to learn it as best as he could. He wanted to love you as much as you do to him. But with you now gone, who will be the one to teach him?
He can't let another have a go through his heart. You were already enough. It was only you who could fill that empty abyss of a heart. Knowing that there was no way of bringing you back, he fell into a lonely road of remembrance. He missed you all too well. He missed you every time his consciousness returned after being woken up from his slumber. He missed you. Your warm embrace was now left with him only trying to gain warmth from the sun's light.
From the start of the morning till the end of the moon shining, he missed you. It was just you, you, and you in his mind.
You just loved too much, and it hurts him. The blues, the greens, the greys, and even him. He, who you said was one of the most insufferable men that you've known, was loved by such a charming person. He was loved by none other than you. So, with you now gone, he couldn't quite imagine how hard the pain would inflict itself on him. Ironically enough, it went beyond the imagined.
Maybe that was why he stayed coop up inside his house after the announcement of your death. Maybe that was why all the mirrors inside his house was thrown away into the storage room. Maybe that was why he couldn't look at himself normally anymore. He, himself, reminded him of you. The way you would always compliment his cat-like eyes, his grey hair, and his cold yet warm approach made him stayed in that particular past—not wanting to move into a future where you did not exist. He did not want to exist.
All he wanted now was to be by your side, yet that was impossible. After all, he promised you. He promised to live well, even if you were gone now.
"I tried to live as best as I could, love, but it's hard. With you gone, I feel like the whole world has stopped working too. It was all too sudden, and I was forced to try and accept it. But, I just can't. Now, I'm sitting here on our old couch, looking through the window as the light of the sun hits me once again. Yet, there's something missing. After looking around, i found the problem. It's you, my dear. You are not in my arms, and it pains me to realise that. I cannot live without you, but you made me promise that exact reality. I have to go on living in this pathetic world with you not in it. Ah... I miss you, love, and I miss your love."
- Alhaitham, your beloved.
#reli-writes#genshin#genshin impact#genshin x reader#genshin impact x reader#alhaitham#al haitham#alhaitham x reader#al haitham x reader#alhaitham fic#alhaitham angst#tbh i was only picturing the idea of someone so sad that it pains them to see their reflection on the mirror because they got reminded of#their beloved every time they see themself so in the end they just put away every mirrors in their house to stop themself from getting hurt#i don't know if this is good tho#i hope everyone likes it qwq#ah yeah#the last line is from haitham's diary#he tried writing one ever since you died#btw i did not checkt for any spelling grammar mistakes so if you do find one just go shhhh
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big kibby suns and their momdad spearirator (name pending I'm really bad at naming iterators even if they have a theme)
next post? maybe hunter and siggy idk depends if motivation doesn't fail me.
#rain world#scugerator swap#seven red suns#spearmaster#gave the kitty more fluff and one less pair of ears because despite finding it cool it's a bitch to draw sometimes#also they are probably also a test tube baby like original spearmaster so they were prolly never a pup but still#hella cute and tiny sun spiral because I saids so#also I know big paw doesn't really indicate size but I remember hearing it once and thought it'd be cute#tiny sun with big fluffy paw#also final thing they can't groom themself properly because either test tube baby or no mouth idk haven't really decided yet#alri I go draw other things now hope you like :3
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Today's Daily Degurechaff is… hangin with other peepaw
#something about rudersdorf just gives me the vibe that hes like the most irresponsible grandparent in the world#like to the point its a miracle the kid isnt injured any time he has them#the kind of grandpa whos like “can i have the kid on new years i bought some fireworks i want to do with them”#and knowing him youre like “...fine BUT theyre not allowed to handle the big ones got it? they can watch but no messing with it themself”#and you think thats a sufficient boundary. but later u find out he brought the kid to the gun range to set off explosives#no winning.#dailydegurechaff#youjo senki#the saga of tanya the evil#tanya von degurechaff#kurt von rudersdorf#rudersdorf
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Arlecchino's whole deal is unbelievable
Arlecchino: Huh I wonder what's causing my weird powers? I can't really worry about that right now tho, I've gotta become King and then kill my "Mother".
*Kills Clervie and "Mother"*
Arlecchino: Huh I wonder why I was able to defeat a Fatui Harbinger when I'm like 17 or so? I can't really worry about that right now tho, I've gotta be in jail and become a Harbinger.
*Is in jail for a while and becomes a Harbinger*
Arlecchino: Huh I wonder why I am-
Pierro: Hey what's up hello, anyways you're descended from the Crimson Moon Dynasty of Khaenri'ah. I'm sure that this is a lot for you to take in so-
Arlecchino: Ok.
Pierro: ...You're just cool with that?
Arlecchino: IDK maybe? I can't really worry about that at the moment, I'm a father now. This orphanage full of children I love (who also are child soldiers and are not allowed to leave or else I'll execute them except maybe now I'm just gonna wipe their memories IDK I'm morally complex) isn't gonna run itself.
*Runs the orphanage/spy recruitment initiative*
Me, the fucking player: WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU ARE KHAENRI'AN? WHY WASN'T THIS BROUGHT UP IN YOUR FUCKING QUEST?? OR ANYTHING ELSE????
Arlecchino, talking to me through my phone: I honestly don't know why you care, I'm too busy to give a shit. Anyways, I'm gonna go fight fate itself I guess. I'm sure that I don't share any thematic parallels with any other Khaenri'an characters (particularly as it relates to acting and family angst) and that I haven't made the idea of 'curses' on Khaenri'ans and what they entail even more complicated than they already were. See ya.
#arlecchino#genshin impact#pierro#WHY IS THE GAME FUCKING GLOSSING OVER THE FACT THAT SHE IS KHAENRI'AN?!#Not only that but she is the first Khaenri'an we've met (that we know of) who's from the Crimson Moon Dynasty#I'm so fucking confused#Did Celestia place a DIFFERENT curse on members of the Crimson Moon Dynasty?? Or is this stuff all of them can do???#HELP#She also seems almost...uninterested in the fact that she's descended from Khaenri'ah. Which honestly I think is interesting.#I don't know if I like it yet but when every other Khaenri'ah character has one of their major traits being that they super fucking#care that they are Khaenri'an (whether that be Kaeya with his paranoia/destiny/duty or Dain with his guilt over his failure/desire to#prevent our sibling from fucking with anything too much or whatever the fuck is going on with Pierro)#having a character who is Khaenri'an but doesn't seem to particularly be invested in that part of themself is different#she cares more about the curse and its effects on her then she ever really cares about the Crimson Moon Dynasty or the cataclysm#IDK I think it's neat from a character writing angle. or at least it has the potential to be if the writers do a good job.#But from a 'I like maybe 3 things in this game and one of them is Khaenri'ah' perspective it SUCKSSSSS#That part of the plot is already suffering from chronic live-service storytelling disease where people just straight up don't tell you#shit that they logically SHOULD BE TELLING YOU because the game needs to save plot points to build hype around#so for one of like 4-ish (depending on how much we count Albedo) Khaenri'an major characters to give us literally 1 and 1/2 voicelines#kinda sucks ngl. but again it's also interesting and realistic for Arlecchino and from that angle I like it#she doesn't care about what fate says her place in the world is. she's gonna carve her own and being Khaenri'an isn't relevant to#the life and identity she has built for herself. she isn't the type to look for answers she doesn't need. she's practical and efficient.#at the very least it's better than when Albedo 'I want to find all the world's truths' Kreideprinz doesn't let the audience in on his stuff
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this may be a weird-ish thing to ask but I was looking for some cool official art of Colette and stuff on here and found a post of yours with official-looking art, but it wasn’t the full image. do you have/can you find the full image of this? this is an entirely voluntary request you do not have to answer this ask!
Not weird to me :> This is that picture in its entirety!
And, I feel like I should make this a Coke master post while I'm at it! Because once I made an incomplete compilation for Fang and someone liked the fact that all the neat Fang pictures were in one spot.
So here you go! Colette may not be the focus in all of these, but she's in every one! I'm not completely sure if it's all of them though.
💝 Bonus:
A lil loop with her buying stuff!
#Colette#Brawl Stars#Master Post#BS#this was fun!#I think I'd like to do this again. ;0 I'll accept requests for other characters but I cannot guarantee getting them out too fast.#Also sorry but no Carl. ;0 You'll have to find someone else for that.#I know you didn't ask for the compilation directly but like I said I've been considering doing so anyway.#So I hope you don't mind being the ask i used to do so!#If more Colette pics crop up I'll probably just reblog this and go from there. I didn't include screenshots where she's in animations.#but I don't think that's necessary anyway. just go to youtube <3#this is also like. a tribute to my Bestie. the Colette Kinnie themself. <3 Hii Bestie hi! Surprise! Lol. Hope I got 'em all :3#Also this girl is fruity and this is all the proof there is lol
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doing figure drawing studies because i know thats what i should be doing right now but also ive been in a very insane deranged state for the past 2 months that leaves me like this whenever i look at a man for too long
#talkys#im gonna say some more stuff here which is i dont think its ever going to happen for me which is like#it should be fine right...i dont think im even meant to be in a relationship it sounds exhausting and like another#constant neverending performance...#but its like that one post...''im happy by myself but also where's the love of my life''#ykwim...i wish i could at least make an informed decision#but that would also be tragic as it'd require me to go thru more heartbreak so i could know for certain#is it better to do it or not do it at all...#anyway ive also been having a hard time putting this into words#but. i like my alone time! i can live with myself. + nothing will ever beat the peace and romance in my brain#but. it also feels so weird to think this way. in the sense of like. yeah. you're only thinking this way because you Have To.#because that's your reality. other ppl don't have to think this way because they are capable of finding love.#other people dont have to reaffirm themself of this in the wake of not ever being desired and valued....#does that make sense...? it feels really weird.#like of course u have to like being alone and spending time with yourself. you have no other choice lol. you lost.#and also... idk. idealized romances in my brain better than anything maybe i would like to be held just once by another living human being.#🌺
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The Doctor needs one of those classes they give to expecting/hopeful parents but for humans. Get their ass enrolled in a parenting course. And everytime they get a new companion he has to retake the course.
#doctor who#dw#the doctor#inspired by the deleted scene of her just pushing amy out of the tardis doors into space#while amy was having an anxiety attack. YOU CANNOT DO THAT!#they have access to all of time and space the doctor has to be able to find a human parenting/caretaker course#bonus points if he ends up taking one for human children.#imgine youre travelling with the doctor and he leaves and comes back one day and says they enrolled themself in a human management course#and youre like 'oh thank god finally'#and then she just starts bubble wrapping the entire tardis and locking off entire rooms and giving you coloring sheets and stim toys#when you get bored#and starts taking you to like. fucking parks to play with other humans.#and starts carrying like fucking snacks like lunchables and shit everywhere and giving them to you at regular intervals#and you're like 'hey what the fuck.'#and you ask them what the hell they're doing and you find out they were learning to care for human TODDLERS.#and you're like. jesus fucking christ. explains so much. mildly disconcerting how much stayed the same though.#and so obviously you ask 'do you see me as a child?' and the doctor is like. ah. interesting question.#you know what else is interesting. OOOOOOO TELETUBBIES LETS LOOK AT THE TELETUBBIES OOOOOO EDUCATIONAL GAMES OOOO!!!!#LOOK AT THE SMALL HUMAN ON THE SCREEN WHICH PAIR OF SHOES MATCHES THE DRESS??? CHOOSE FAST!!!!!!#this could also open the door for an amazing bit though#where you start doing all of the same things back to the doctor and it works even better on them than it did you.#turn their ass into an ipad kid. they start arguing too much put his ass on minecraft pocket edition.#she just sits there for 1-3 hours. dead silence. you walk over like. 'hey. um. you good.'#no answer. you look ove rher shoulder. she has recreated ancient rome in minecraft in exact replica and is the reigning emperor.#they are roleplaying the roman senate with sheep and villagers. okay. can you please save the world now. please.#this is not to infantilize the doctor. he is old as shit. they are an adult. but by god can they be easily entertained.#not to mention that a key factor of the doctor IS their eternal childishness.#but they ARE a fully grown adult. beyond that even. ancient 'were you alive to see the dinosaurs grandpa?' ass motherfucker.#they are just also a masive loser. who would love minecraft pocket edition and lunchables. probably. who doesn't though.#bangers
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why is his words always cutting so deep lol
#fgo spoilers#damn you may be the last master of mankind but i still have yet to know if youre worthy of#being entrusted with the human order... like what!!!! have they not done enough!!!#almost everyone is testing guda no matter the situation...making them prove themselves always... exceeding expectation yet still#making them prove themself.. sjdjdnxn#still he just said he has yet to find out sjdbdbd
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Another thing that I've learned as I have undertaken my craft is just how satisfying it is to use what you make - to have known that you made it. Even now as I make my big project, the fabric is big enough that it's warming my lap up as I make it - even that is satisfying.
People want to make an effort - even small ones. What people don't like is pseudowork - bullshit jobs. Honestly, it's partly tragic to think about, partly infuriating.
#politics#that's why i'm unsympathetic toward the Lazy Worker archetype#and i have even known some people who - in the context of My Work - are lazy! but that's not what defines them#anyway. time to be a stuck-up crafter (joking)#like do you know how satisfying it is to crochet with warm yarn on a cold night and the fabric is draped down your lap?#i am cozymoding to the MAX right now and that is satisfying#people generally WANT to feel useful in ANY way - even if to themself#also this is why the people who are like 'have fun finding people to work for you if capitalism is abolished🫵🏻🤪' are funny like#if i could sustain myself completely and wothout worry on art and writing and maybe even medicine do you think i wouldn't??? are you KIDDIN#like. what planet are you living on and can you move back there because what.#the medicine part being because i'd want to still do medicine shit even if now it's lucrative
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Dude I don’t know where you’re getting this information that 13-14 guys can’t be tall at all. Literally every guy in my freshman high school grade (13-15 year olds) were all 5’6-6’0 at the beginning of the school year and they were all actively growing taller as the year went by. Letting people think Nico is average height or tall is not hurting nobody and you are still entitled to your opinion that Nico can be short. I believe all of Nico’s of various heights can coexist peacefully.
I did say "average" height and was only referring to the fact that Nico's canon height is never explicitly stated. Anyways allow me to rephrase:
my grievances only lie with the wiki for being baselessly wrong. tall nico headcanoners i have no beef with you understand i am simply being silly goofy on my blog mwah mwah
#ask#Anonymous#i just think it's fun to acknowledge that people have gotten taller in recent generations#so Nico's generation is short by comparison#nico grumbling that he's average height by his standards#and like. idk in canon he's short. whatever. do whatever you want. i ignore canon all the time#quite frankly Rick wrote some lame-to-terrible stuff at times that i do not wish to acknowledge#some of it because it is blatantly offensive. some because he is simply Wrong. others because i just feel like it#that is the beauty of fandom and i will never tell anybody what they can or cannot do#except for people trying to insist something is canon to prove themself correct when it's not. cause that's rude#nico's height is canon is a vague ''shortish'' but also char heights are wildly all over the place anyways#theres no numbers it could mean anything. just scale Michael appropriately in comparison#so who fuckin knows. go wild. i'm not your boss#im just here. i just go here.#there's a reason i differentiate ''coded'' vs ''canon'' (heavy quotation marks) vs ''headcanon'' vs ''theory'' vs ''extrapolation''#which is a whole fascinating literary analysis vs fandom thing you could get into but i am probably the only one who finds that interesting#short version: canon is simply a liminal state do whatever you want forever#and please never take anything from my blog as strict fandom law or something i'm just saying shit. i just do this for fun.
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Update: bloodmoon is back and he has a knife
also he can drive now
well they cant do that now th eyre fucking dead
#i know you sent this a couple days ago im sorry i forget when people send me asks sometimes#but they are fucking dead and i hate that fact cuz they were my like#3rd favorite character?#and they were so scrunkly and silly and i loved them but now no more#sun and moon show#sams spoilers#sun and moon show bloodmoon#also i was typing bloodmoon so i could find the tag i use for them and i just say bloodmoon x reader#1 who ships themself with bloodmoon and 2 whos writing that??#/j i dint care that you ship yourself with bloodmoon
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I hate the cultural emphasis on "empathy" not only because it's an emotion, not an action, and is not universally experienced, but also because of the sheer arrogance of it.
You *know* how I feel, regardless of the fact you've never endured anything remotely similar?
No the fuck you don't.
You need empathy to motivate you to action?
How convenient that you only feel empathy for those that belong to your in-groups.
Basing your worldview on the things you already relate to is self defeating, you are reinforcing your own prison. By definition of the fact you are an individual, there are going to be more things you do not relate to than things you do.
Ie: I don't know what it's like to be a non-white person in a white supremacist society. It would be arrogant of me to assume I did. emotionally, I experience sympathy, and my values drive me to act with compassion.
If you're basing your values on the fleeting sensation of empathy, you will fail.
It is not sustainable to build or contribute to a movement based solely on emotion.
#if you've never read something so far outside of your experiences that its borderline incomprehensible#then after learning and growing you revisit it and it makes so much sense#i highly recommend it. you don't know what you don't know so put some effort into finding out#bex talks to themself
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Genuine thought as a fellow trans dude, I’ve seen a lot of (obviously non-serious) questions on other blogs about characters’ genitals such as “how does it look like?” and similar, and I think we all know & understand that such questions are extremely inappropriate to ask and (I hope) no one would actually go around asking these questions irl. Idk, I think we should treat trans characters just like cis ones, without any special “precautions”, so to normalise them and not make cis people treat them like fragile boxes, a thing which happens to a lot of us irl. Hope this doesn’t come off as an attack or anything lol.
no worries, i didn't take this as an attack at all. i actually agree with you, that's why i mentioned feeling conflicted about it and also mentioned that i've changed my stance on how i felt about handling Noel and Clementine in game and in explicit intimate scenes.
however, for me the problem comes from the fact that people... don't ask these kinds of questions about cis characters? i suppose people do get cheeky "who is the biggest 🤪" asks but i would hardly compare the two. to be a bit crude, no one is going to be asking if a cis character has a dick or not, or "what does it look like". of course it's natural for people to be curious, and i honestly encourage the open discussion and am happy to see trans bodies being talked about more in a positive way, but not everyone is going to be comfortable with it due to the inescapable transphobia online and in the community. sending me that kind of ask is like sending out an invitation for a debate or a discussion that i don't necessarily want to have. i also just don't think people should default to asking a random IF author on tumblr dot com to describe what bottom growth looks like.
and with most of these asks typically coming from someone who is anonymous, i have no way of truly knowing what the tone is, what their intentions are or why this is being asked - is it another trans person? or maybe someone who is just genuinely curious? or, more likely in my experience, is it someone who is going to immediately follow up this message with something transphobic after i answer? do i want to roll the dice and find out?
so while i agree with what you're saying, it's important to consider the context and the reality we live in. the IF community is not kind to trans people or trans characters. and as a trans person, my first priority is protecting myself and my mental health. so what i mean when i say "precautions," is that those precautions are for me, because i've had to deal with transphobic harassment here for years now, and i try to mitigate it as much as i can. it's also for my personal comfort - again, to be blunt, i'm simply just not comfortable discussing a trans character's genitals with anonymous strangers on the internet. it makes me feel vulnerable.
also i do want to say i didn't mean for any of that to come across as a dig at other authors - if you're comfortable answering those kinds of questions, that's really only something you can decide for yourself. like i said, this is just coming from my own experiences in IF and for my own personal comfort - i have previously talked a lot about trans stuff and gender and sexuality here, when i'm feeling up to it, but it is something that is very draining for me and can also be very upsetting.
basically: i do agree that it's important not to other trans characters or treat them any differently than cis characters, but i also think there are ways to do it that don't require me answering invasive questions or questions that i don't feel comfortable with as a real life trans person, you know what i mean?
#hopefully this better explains what i was trying to say#again no worries anon i've had this exact conversation before with other trans people#and it's something that i don't think has a perfect solution esp with the current... climate#and especially online with the anonymity it makes these topics really touchy. you don't know who is reading this or who is interacting#if it's sincere or in bad faith#things have changed a lot in the IF community for the better but it's still not safe and i always advocate for an author to protect#themself first#back when i started tnp it was not at all common for ppl to list characters as cis#really it was only nb or trans characters that got listed in that way#and it's why i chose not to do that and why i wanted the player to find out lea and merry was trans at the same time as the hunter#same with noel and clem and their privacy#giving them that agency was important to me#and it's still important to me now#but i got a lot of harassment because of that. the lea reveal didnt even end up in game it was on the blog and it was weeks of harassment#afterwards that still makes me anxious to this day whenever i talk about lea's transness#so basically like. it comes down to what someone is comfortable with and what they're mentally able to handle#edit: thinkin abt it more &im going to be honest if someone sent me an ask that said ‘what does it look like’ i would be very Not Happy#like cis people & cis characters do Not get treated that way so why would i allow it for my trans characters#so i stand by saying that these asks are inappropriate like. i obviously dont know the context of what ur referencing#but that’s a hard no from me personally either way#to me as a trans person that question in itself is othering and objectifying#ask#anonymous
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#lela swift understands something fundamental about my psychological condition. which is to say. age gap fucked up couples on the stairs.#love is contained in the convo across the banister where i tell you to leave my house <3 muah.#burke/liz tag#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure，miss winters.#compilation tag#okay. a)#the parallels between vicki and burke as the dark-headed poor kid that finds themself subject to collinses & Collins-ness & everything that#it represents. vicki who follows in his footsteps as imprisoned – endangered – almost *ran over* for the sake of the family.#who; perhaps despite their better judgment; *do* enjoy the charm; the noblesse oblige; the aura of...#call it doom. around the collins siblings.#(and as we know. ''devlin has a tremendous range.'' in terms of torch-carrying)#but the romance isn't precisely my point even if i'm more than willing to believe in b/e and r/v#but an older collins – one who is perhaps not directly involved in their ruination but a participant in it.#b)#while i was looking at the scene of burke on the stairs i was struck by a feeling of ''hey you shouldn't be up there''#and immediately was like. no let's unpack that.#the stairs are one of the most-traveled parts of the scenography other than perhaps the drawing room window or the sofa BUT it's excluded#to the in-group – the family; their intimates. you don't (or shouldn't) be ascending the stairs as a stranger; an enemy.#because it traverses the boundary between the public and the private – where the drawing room is already host to secrets;#to scandal; to a type of metaphorical undressing;#the upstairs is a different realm entirely. upstairs is bedrooms; bathrooms; the tower room. sleep – intimacy – privacy – death.#burke is already trespassing in enemy territory by being in the foyer – to go on or up the stairs peels back another layer of skin.#(and worth noting that liz successfully stops him from doing so)#there's so many good r/v scenes that involve the stairs precisely because it represents that boundary between the intimate and public;#between the idea of the house as a home and house as monument.#... which is a key contention between both b&e and r&v. burke who wants collinwood as conqueror wants the castle; a monument to victory.#elizabeth who sees collinwood as her home – as the place of her childhood – as the bricks and blood of her ancestors.#vicki who is desperate to find her home there past and present. roger who sees it as monument to collins misery –#to ancestors that look down on him with undisguised hatred – to his own inadequacy – to imprisonment – to the tomb.
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the figure in bysmuth -> the demeaning and invasive process of treating ADHD
chine the cleaver -> the symptoms of ADHD, untreated
#ruminating#listened to the most recent drawing maps equivalent and dre talks about the figure's relationship with clem#explicitly in terms of mental health treatment and i just...am ruminating#broken record voice#always thinking abt marrowcreek where austin asks what chine does about his friends wandering off#and dre says 'if i'm having that good of a time i've probably forgotten about them'#that's it that's ADHD babyyyyyyyyyyyyy#and then figure's self-flagellation - in the habit of revealing themself to authority#the way that they cannot acknowledge even the potential of finding treatment elsewhere without having their provider cut them off.....#ruminating!!!!#chine genuinely dedicated to being a parent to It but getting so wrapped up in the momentum of action that the best they can do is#offload the responsibility to somebody else before they fuck it up completely?#huge sigh of defeat#somebody should have put chine on wellbutrin and vyvanse and it would have turned out totally different is all i'm saying#that and i can't wait to see the figure destroyed and/or destroying#i really like friends at the table did you know?#laughing because sangfielle includes the horror of privatized healthcare so even in a world where depression/adhd meds existed chine#probably couldn't afford them#RIP
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