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wwwurbunnygrldotcom · 2 years

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The Spring After Winter- (Jungkook FF)

Chapter 1-

“Top 3 Shameful Acts”

I have a Top 3 list of all the points in my life where I have felt this amount of shame. The type of shame that rips apart your chest and makes your fingertips numb. Peeing my pants at my 13th birthday party, keeping my mothers affair a secret from my father, and laying underneath a boy I haven't talked to in 2 years whilst another blows up my phone.

Even if I had scrubbed my flesh in the shower for hours, until my skin is burning and a bright red, I don’t think the filth I feel on my skin from his touch would ever go away.

“Are you feeling okay?” He muttered into the crook of my neck, the heat of his breath washing over me. His hands were gripping my waist, moving up to my breasts. How do I answer a question like that? I had put this facade of a confident dominatrix up until this point, I'm not so confident, I'm weak. This was all a show to me, there was never an idea in my mind that would ever think I’d get this far. I did this to prove a point to Payton. I wanted to prove that I can make my own grown decisions away from him.

4 missed calls. Maybe this was all a mistake. “Uh let me just check that really quick, it could be important”, I had my eyes fixated on the window on my right as he removed the weight of his body off of mine. I could feel him staring at me but I refused to allow him to see any emotion in my eyes, I couldn’t face that type of embarrassment. I grabbed my phone sitting on the pillow directly next to me, my home screen was a picture of my best friends Damen and Jordan, oh what I would do to be with them instead of dealing with this.

Baby?

Why aren’t you answering me?.

Bunny?

What the fuck are you doing?.

Can you answer my fucking calls???

You’re dead.

My breath caught in my throat, the adrenaline rushed to my stomach, the hormones ruining through my veins making my eyes double. I’ll just tell him I fell asleep or something. I made sure to hide the sight of my screen away from Jeremiah’s view. Rule one of committing shameful acts - never. I mean EVER, let the people involved in on what's going on. Most importantly, in on each other. I say this because Payton and Jeremiah don’t know about each other.

I never said I was a likable person, I know that I'm the opposite. I’m not going to sugar anything, by the end of this I expect you to hate me. I don’t blame you either, I mean, who plays the man who you're supposedly in love with for a one night stand? I feel like scum. A part of me wants to justify my actions. Though, no matter if I tell you about the screaming, the fighting, the cheating on the other end, nothing could make any of what I'm doing okay.

Payton isn’t a good person, I’m not a good person. I think that’s why we look so perfect together.

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addicttopandas · 6 years

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Razones.

No hay.

O trato de que no haya

e inútilmente fallo.

Porque hasta para respirar

o dejar de,las hay.

Las hay como tantas

estrellas existen,

como humanos por el mundo vagan,

como patrones en las letras crean

o persisten...

Me preguntas "por qué"

y ni yo sé si existe una respuesta,

si hay una verdadera razón

o si sólo...

¿Busco la pertenencia?

Razones faltan o sobran,

a veces ninguna es suficiente.

Casi nunca es suficiente

porque pareciera que siempre

faltan y,nunca sobran.

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