Part 3! And the season one is finished

Part 2 (ep 7-9)

Part 1 (ep 1-6)

I like how sketch for ep.10 turned out. But ep.11 was the toughest one. It took too many tries before I figured how a want to draw it. The episode itself is such a rollercoaster of emotions. Hell of a ride.

On one hand I want to add a lot of little details, but on other hand, I want to capture emotional associations. Usually I choose one phase or object that gets my attention in episode.

If somebody wants to ask more about why I choose what I choose, I will gladly tell. :)

The best man ever

Can I hear more about your hospital? I love your writing and I absolutely adore the stories vibe so far. So can I ask for some miscellaneous info about either the hospital it self, characters, or the doctors? :)

Omg! Yay! Okay, I will give a little information on each of the three topics!

TW: Hospital Setting/Doctors, Chronic Illness, Medication Mentions/Medical Procedures, Age Regression Due to Trauma

🏥 So, for the hospital itself... The outside world(s) sees it as a mysterious place where people just... pop up. Some go there willingly to get help. Those who don't are usually those from other worlds. They tend to, quite literally, fall from the sky. Derek and the narrator from The Hall of Addiction are two of these people who fell out of the sky. Whenever somebody tries to escape the hospital, the halls shift and change, causing the escapees to get lost.

🏥 Dr. Victor Cogsworth was created to be "the closest thing to human". Humans are seen as mythical creatures in the world where the Iolite Hospital resides. They have emotions, intelligence, and more! He has emotions, but just... can't figure out what. He suffers from Alexithymia, which isn't a condition, but an inability to identify and describe your own emotions. It usually is seen as a symptom of other conditions. He can feel the physical sensations of emotions, and tries to use them to describe how he is feeling because he KNOWS it is an emotion, but can't figure out what. Due to him not knowing how he is feeling, he often has an emotionless expression and monotone voice, due to his programming saying to only show emotions based on what he is feeling. He doesn't know it, so he just... Doesn't show it. He does cry automatically when feeling an emotion that would cause it, thus, confusing him as to why he is crying. I have kinda decided to use him to represent the USA healthcare system, in a way. Taking a medical class in high school and having a retired nurse as the teacher really lets you know how much of a struggle it is for both patients and healthcare workers. The system kinda treats most patients the same, even though the doctors, nurses, and other staff are aware that every patient is different. They are also taught, usually, to try to not show anxiety, fear, and other negative emotions to keep them calm. Everything is locked inside. So, on the outside, he is meant to be robotic in his movements, with his music box being the main clue as to how he is feeling (it kind of works like a heartbeat. Quick = anxious, nervous, angry. Slow = Calm, collected, tired), like the healthcare system itself and the habit of hiding distressing emotions. Meanwhile, inside, he feels so much but simply cannot explain it, like the actual workers.

🏥 Aluminum is my most near and dear character. I created him to represent my experiences with my own condition, Eosinophilic Esophagitis (which is symbolized by both EoE and EE, depending on the hospital/facility). I try to write for him the most, simply due to how I have the most experience with my own condition. I made him mostly because I have never seen a single story about my own condition besides patients talking about themselves. Usually, they are put in ads for specific hospitals/healthcare facilities or medications. That isn't to say I am not grateful for that representation, though! I am so glad they had the courage to speak about it! It is just... Who is going to watch an ad/patient story besides other people or family members of people with EoE? So, I made Aluminum! He is terrified of needles (ahem like me), and since he cannot swallow pills due to his esophagus being narrow, he must take dupilumab, which is an injectable medication. He age regresses due to the trauma of his diagnosis, using it as a way to go back to the time when he was blissfully unaware of his condition. It was a very rare occurrence. Ever since he has started dupilumab, he has been regressing more often. Derek has decided to try to take care of him in the moments when he regresses. It is ironic, because he has always wanted to work in a daycare and has always wanted to seem mature and "adult". He has started to bring around a pacifier, not because he regresses to that young of an age, but because he stims by chewing on soft things specifically, and a pacifier is the best thing he can get his hands on. He stole it from the neonatal (newborn) ward, and either nobody has noticed, or nobody cares enough to get it back.

🏥 Derek is, of course, mute, as mentioned in the story. It was caused by him having apraxia of speech, which is usually caused by damage to the brain that allows the vocal cords to move, ever since a very young age. It was before he learned to speak that the damage occurred, and it was difficult for him to learn how to speak with his condition, even as he got older. So, he decided to live his life mute. He uses writing instead of sign language because he finds that, while many people do know sign language, not everybody does. So, it is more accessible. Especially since there are many different types of sign language, as well as the fact that there are people from whole other worlds in the hospital. So, there is no reason to learn, even in the hospital. Though, he does find it odd how all these people from all these different worlds seem to know the one, shared language of English between each other. He is probably the most "I don't care" guy there, as he just really doesn't care how different you are from him. He will mesh well with you, as long as you don't like kill someone or do something horrible.

good morning texts >>>

My linguistic professor was really something else today

Her: Did you ever come to any of my lectures? I haven't seen you before.

Me: I've come to every lecture, actually.

Her: Then, answer me this-

why the FUCK did this accident happen and why the FUCK won’t the guy answer for what he’s done

when regina spektor sang; "I'm becoming all alone again. Stay. Stay. Stay."

I FELT that in my bones.

one of my favourite past times as of late is just scrolling through the notes on a funny post and clicking on some random blogs to see what they live like. what thoughts are making the rounds through that funky head of them? what comments or blorbos make them enjoy life a little more? it brings me so much joy

the epic highs and lows of comp sci student drama............

a good experience more people on this website should have is confidently bringing up some leftist talking point you picked up from tumblr around family members, only for them to ask extremely basic and predictable followup questions/rebuttals that you have no response to because you just internalized the three-paragraph post with 3k notes. this only needs to happen a few times for the lesson to stick and the sooner the better

you cannot understand how excited i am for this

ok so i'm going to say something pretty problematic reguarding a/b/o or omegaverse for a second. please don't send me threats after reading this please.

i won't lie and say that i've never read omegaverse or any part of media that uses a/b/o dynamics in my life because let's be honest, I HAVE. and i've read a fair share of them as well.

i never put too much thought into it but for some months now, i have been avoiding reading any type of fics and such which contain a/b/o. the main reason is because i just feel like omegaverse is rooted in such heteronormative depiction of the world.

like yes, it allows queer people to explore and experiment with ideas that allow us to gender bend and also allow queer mlm/wlw otp(s) to have children who are gentically inherited by them and whereas that is an amazing and freeing way to use omegaverse,

i think people (mainly strictly heterosexual women) just use it as an excuse to push down the idea of heteronormative sex down our throat. because truthfully, so many of these omegaverse bl are written FOR and BY people that love toxic or non-con tropes but they just hate women so they try to complete their own fantasies by using a genre where they can satisy their kinks without getting any women involved in it. aka good old fetishization of mlm right? nothing new there

not to mention, a/b/o genre is HUGELY transphobic and also promotes the act of being FORCED to love your "mate" forever or you will suffer dire consequences such as touch deprivation and pain but unsurprisingly, these conditions only occur to omegas and alphas can do whatever the fuck they want no matter what. (sounds familiar right? gee, i wonder why.......)

I want a second season of prehistoric planettttttttt

does anyone have tips on how to get through the whole phase-3-ending /original-avengers'-lineup-isn't-going-to-act-up-together-anymore because it really is hitting me after watching avengers:endgame and i'm not handling it well

i would die, and without regret i'd offer up my life because i'm a SOLDIER

can anyone explain to me at what point rose tyler was "unbelievably stupid". was it when she was inventing transdimensional travel