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braineater444 · 10 months

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“To Be Better”

Big Brother!Yoshida x Gender Neutral Reader

(Tw: Sexual Abuse, Rape, Incest, Mild Smut, Mental Health, Suicidal Ideation)

A/N: I told myself I would finish this today and I did against my better judgment. This is not fully proofread and a bit different in comparison to other things I’ve written. Not heavy on the smut but definitely heavy. Idk. This isn’t good. Goodnight <3

Your older brother Yoshida is the brightest star to ever shine in your family. He got into all of the top universities (and every school he applied to for that matter) he’s smart, he’s attractive and everyone loves him to pieces, even those he’s only said one word to. He’s that type of guy. Too charismatic for his own good. A revolving door of people interested in being with him. Not a single flaw on his pretty skin.

Then, there’s you. You’re born second, but that doesn’t make you any where near close to second to him. Somehow, even with there being only two of you, you fall further down. You’re not placing in a race with him. You graduated two years after him, but no one from your extended family showed up like they did for him. You had a few friends, but were otherwise known as Hirofumi’s younger sibling. Your existence felt like an inconsequential blip when you were so eclipsed by him in every aspect of anything you did. He is the sun, but to say you’re the moon would be a lie.

So, it felt nice to graduate. To leave the school where every one knew you as a his shadow and the comparisons never ended. It felt nice to go to a community college where no one knew you and forge your own identity.

Even with him out of the house two years before, you still weren’t as free from him as you have been recently. You’re healing as of late. His winter break visit has come and gone and you’re getting better. This summer will be better. There’s just you and sure, you still live with your parents who always compared you to him, but now your lives have almost completely diverged. They have to, after all the work you’ve put in to getting better about being his shadow.

Of course, it’s not as simple as him having disappeared at university forver, though. It cant be your happily ever after. He comes home over his breaks and this one is no different.

The summer air is hot. It’s unpleasant and almost inescapable. There’s three popsicle sticks on your desk and the ceiling fan of your room is going as fast as it can go. It’s working desperately to cool you down with its gentle whirring, but still, you’re sticky with a light cast of sweat as you lay silently on your bed in wait.

You know he’s here. His voice flows proudly all through the house as he greets your parents and asks where you are and why you haven’t come to see him. You can hear him padding down the hall. Your brother has a distinct walk. It’s heavy and light all at once, like he’s waltzing his way to your door. A distinct feeling of dread punctuates each and every step.

As the door to your room swings open, you’re greeted by that same gut punch of a smile that you hadn’t been unfortunate enough to see since winter. This time it’ll be longer. The summer is too long.

“What?” It’s not really a question. Just something to make him go away.

“What?” He repeats back to you. “You’re not excited to see me?” Hirofumi… his voice is like silk; like he’s got it all figured out. It’s no wonder he’s got everyone fooled.

…

Usually it’s the summer heat that keeps you up all night, but tonight it’s him. You can’t see him, but you know he’s there and for that reason you haven’t left your room all day. His presence is an ache in your brain and the dryness of your mouth. This was supposed to be easier.

For the first time since he’s been back, you walk as quietly as possible out of your room praying that he isn’t awake. When you pass his room there’s no light coming from under the closed door and not a sound to be heard.

He’s asleep. Thank god.

You take a breath of relief and hurry yourself through the house, but as you round the corner into the kitchen the lights are on and he’s there. Closing the cabinets after putting up one last dish. And there it is. That sickening smile as he spots you.

“You didn’t eat dinner with us.”

You ignore him and pull open the refrigerator. All of the foods been neatly wrapped up and nicely stacked in small containers. You don’t check them to see what’s inside. Instead, you pick at a bunch of grapes and shovel them into your mouth one by one. There’s nothing to be said. You’re dealing with this well enough.

The grapes are ice cold and pop deliciously in your mouth. This is the best thing to happen to you all day. You needed this. You deserve this. Until, it’s interrupted by a large hand on your shoulder.

You stiffen.

“Don’t-” You turn and smack his hand off of your shoulder.

“Why are you acting like that?” He asks. He’s trapping you between his body and the ice cold inside of the refrigerator. He’s so close. Too close. You can smell him. He smells so fucking good. It’s sweet like fresh cut grass and natural like the wind traveling over the sea. It’s sickening. He’s making you nauseous by being in your space. A headache is forming. He shouldn’t be this close.

Your hand shoots out between the two of you and pushes at his chest before you even realize you’ve moved. You retract your hand like you were burned. “Move.” It’s quiet but stern. He doesn’t budge in the slightest. A look of confusion paints his face.

“What is your problem?” He steels himself.

For a second you almost believe him. You almost believe he’s truly lost and he doesn’t know why you’re acting like this towards him.

“You were fine when I came back over the break in winter.”

Right. Winter. You don’t even want to think about it.

He pulls you away from the refrigerator with a tight grip on your arm. You here it click closed and your brain stops working at the sound. He’s been treating you like this forever. Like a rag doll. For a second you let it happen. You have half a mind to let him do what he’s always done, but with the better half you pull away from him. His hand feels like it should’ve left burn marks in every spot he’d touched.

“Leave me alone.” You want to scream but it comes out as a hushed cry. Your nails dig into his forearm and he lets you go. You stumble back into the counter and you don’t even feel the pain that accompanies it.

“You don’t like me anymore?” His smile is confused. His eyebrows are furrowed. He pretends not to know what’s wrong.

…

You’re dealing with this the best way you know how.

He’s not here, in your room, but somehow he’s everywhere. His smell lingers in there air. Somehow it feels like his hand is still wrapped around your arms. You can’t get rid of him even in the quiet of your own room.

You lock the door. You unlock it. You lock it again.

You flick the light on. You flick it off. You flick it on again. You leave it off.

You start to try to lay back down, but you can’t bring yourself to touch your bed. Not with Hirofumi all over you.

The only solution is a shower.

The water burns just right against your thigh as you step in. You needed this. You weren’t ready to see him again.

Your body is trembling. How long have you been like that? Are there tears in your eye? You can feel your throat tightening up and wetness streaming down your face. Why are you crying? He didn’t do anything to you.

Maybe you shouldn’t be treating him like this. You liked him in the winter. You liked what happened then. You’re fooling yourself into thinking you’re the victim. After all these years, you’re not the victim.

Like a bullet in the chest it hits you all at once. So many years of him fight to the forefront of your thoughts.

Even as you scrub your skin you can feel his hands all over you. You’re sure the soap smells like him. You hold the soap to your nose and the thought goes away. It doesn’t smell like him.

You think about the winter. Your unlocked door. An invite for him to come in. You scrub at your skin.

You remember the heat of his body against yours. When you would beg him to stop. You scrub.

His hands gripping at your chest. Your quiet discomfort as you let him. The tears that rolled down your cheeks and the the way he kissed them away. You’ll clean him off of you even if your skin turns raw.

You can’t breathe. The tightness in your throat is getting worse. You’re sure you’re bawling. You want this to end. To go away. You need to go away.

Your knees buckles under you and when they crack against the shower floor the world becomes clear again. You can hear yourself sobbing. You can feel that the waters too hot against your skin. It’s too much.

A knock on the door comes as you rush to turn the water off.

“Are you okay?” Hirofumi’s voice lingers on the other side. You can smell him again. “Y/N~” He sings your name out with the beat of his second round of knocks at the door. “Do you want me to come in there?”

You’re still crying. You can’t catch your breathe. Your pleads for him not to come in are stuck in your throat.

You hear him say your name again. Then, the door starts to inch open. He can’t do this. He can’t. He can’t. He can’t.

“GO AWAY!” You scream out before you knew you could speak again. The door clicks shut. Footsteps sound further and further until they disappear. Relief. You melt in to the wall of the tub. He’s gone.

There’s no telling how long you stayed there; a mess of sopping wet hair and skin, but you eventually pull yourself together and rush to get your pajamas on. The long pants. The long sleeves. They tug against your wet skin and make you sweat already.

You look in the mirror; into your bloodshot eyes.

You can never brush your teeth enough. It’s like his tongue is always in your mouth. The taste of his breath lingers. The inside of your mouth feels like his. Too much like his. Your lips are so chewed up trying escape the feeling, they crack even more when you brush your teeth. You brush until your gums bleed. Until your mouth feels as raw as your skin. Until the taste of iron replaces him. Until you can sleep at night. The taste of him will come back. It always does.

…

Your parents don’t sit down for breakfast unless he’s around. Your mom doesn’t cook unless it’s for him. You don’t exist outside of him.

You push your food around your plate and tune them out. He’s sitting across from you and you’re not looking up unless you have to. You’re not hungry this morning. You don’t want to be here.

“Why don’t you want to learn how yo drive?”

The question sounds pointed at you. You stop, to listen again.

“You know…” You stop hearing his voice, but you’re sure he’s still talking. You keep looking down at your plate. “…really, I’m your big brother I should.” You can hear that fucking smile in his voice.

“That would be great, wouldn’t it, honey?” Your moms hand rubs soothingly over your thigh. You almost get the urge to cry again, but you can’t. “Hirofumi could be a great person to teach you?”

You look at her, confused.

“He can teach you how to drive. You should really learn. And maybe look at his new car.”

“It’s really nice.” Your dad cuts in.

He has a new car.

“It’d be great. To make new memories and stuff, right?” Hirofumi looks so endearing. The sun coming in through the window surrounds his body in soft morning light. Of course, he’s glowing. He casts a shadow over your breakfast plate.

“I’ll learn to drive on my own time.” You stuff your mouth with eggs.

Your mother insists that you let Hirofumi teach you. She’s like that. He’s her favorite. He does everything right the first time.

You leave breakfast early and leave them to their golden child.

You lock your door. You unlock it. You lock it again. You check the handle. It’s locked.

Your pajamas are suffocating you. It’s only going to get hotter from this point in the day, but you can’t change. You turn your ceiling fan on. You can breath.

You open a book and try to forget.

By the afternoon, the house falls silent. You leave your room and check all around the place. For each room you flick the lights on and of again and again. Not a soul. Tension relieves itself in places you didn’t know you had it. After checking all the locks, you sprawl out on the couch. Let them be gone forever.

…

You’re burning up. You’re sweating. You have a headache. The tv is on, but there’s some other noise. The couch suddenly feels too small.

“Do you want to go in my room?” Hands tap your cheeks to wake you. Your eyes struggle to open. Your mouth doesn’t move. Again. “Do you want to go in my room?” His face is far above yours, there’s brightness in his eyes, but they remain pitch black. His bangs are still too low. “It’s cooler in there. You’re sweating a lot. C’mon.”

He grabs you. Hoists you in to his arms and you latch on to him. You let him carry you. He loves to carry you. You’re so easy. So so easy. Why are you letting him do this.

“Hiro-”

Nothing.

“Hirofumi…”

“Hm?”

“Please take me to my room. I don’t want to do this.”

“It was fine a couple moths ago. Wasn’t it?”

You shake your head. You never liked it. That time you thought if you tried to enjoy it you’d hurt less. If you finally smiled and gave him what he wanted willingly it wouldn’t be as bad as all of the times before. It worked in the moment, but like every time before it came back to haunt you. You can’t do it again, but you don’t argue.

You let him lay you down on his bed. You go limp. You can’t run. You’ve never been able to stop this.

You think you say his name out loud, but if you do, he doesn’t answer. You ask where your mom’s at. Nothing. Your pajama pants are off. You hear yourself say stop. His hand smooths over your underwear.

There’s a moment of darkness and suddenly you’re both naked. You’re pushing at his muscles. His mouth is leaving wet kisses down your body. You swear you’re begging him to end this. There’s something of a cry for help in there. He can’t do this again.

“You wanted this last time, remember?” He breathes over your sex and drags his tongue across. Your body reacts as if you were struck by electricity, but you feel nothing. There’s just a strange wetness between your legs.

He can’t seem to remember the times before when you said no. All the times that came before the winter. When his hands traveled down in to your uniform. When you told him he didn’t need to kiss you before his graduation speech for good luck. When you said you didn’t want to know what he’d taste like. There were so many rejections, but he just can’t be a good brother.

He can only remember when you begged for him at the park last winter. When you let him climb in your bed and rub himself against the curve of your ass. When you licked his semen off the palm of your hand and kissed him hungrily. He can only remember last winter.

You were so scared. You thought you could face your demons head on.

He’s inside you. He’s so deep inside you. His tongue lick’s at the salty tears and sweat on your cheeks. His lips interlock with yours and you don’t kiss back. Not this time. You feel nothing and everything. Every vein dragging in and out of you. Every fingernail digging into your waist. The muscle in his chest where your hands aren’t pushing any more. Every breath he steals from you. But you don’t feel it.

You’re trapped eye to eye under him. His bedside lamp is dim, but you can see his face so close to yours. He’s tearing you apart from the inside. You have to be dying. You want to die.

“Hiro… I’m going to kill myself.” You manage between tears, broken moans and unstable breaths. “Please stop. I’m going to die. I’m going to kill myself.” It all pours out of your mouth like a flood.

“No. I’ll take care of you,” He says as he lays kisses along your throat.

“No. I’ll die.” You sniffle. “I’ll just die. I promise. I can’t do this. Please stop.” You might be screaming. There’s no way for you to tell. He’s slamming in to you harder. You can see it. You can’t feel it, but you know it hurts. Then it all stops. You can’t see anymore. There’s nothing. Again.

He’s there. Laying on your stomach when you come to. You feel sticky. Like your body’s covered in slime. Gross. Like you’re wrapped in spiderwebs. Like your brother’s been inside of you. Like this has been going on for as long as you can remember.

You try to push him off of you. You’re still naked. You don’t want your pajamas back anyway. You just want the shower. You push at his head and try to slide your body from under him. His scalp is wet with sweat.

You just want to shower. He won’t budge. His smell is seeping deeper into your skin by the second.

He turns to face you.

“Mom and dad are out all night. We have time.”

You give up. You’ll never be clean again.

#my head hurts.#man idk I was kinda venting when I wrote this #tw: noncon #tw: rape #tw: abuse #tw: trauma #yoshida smut #yandere yoshida #chainsaw man smut

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animeyanderelover · 1 year

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Here are the Gintama Hc’s as promised. You actually did surprise me, I was 100% sure that under the 5 requested characters would be Shinsuke.

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, manipulation, guilt-tripping, sabotage, gaslighting, stalking, sadism, paranoia, threats, bullying, violence, abduction, death,

Yandere Gintama Hc's

Sakata Gintoki

🍨He lazes around a lot and is known to get excited to see random beautiful women. Chances are that he brushes his initial feelings off as something similar for his darling. He doesn’t take his emotions seriously and hangs around you with this conviction. It takes him a good while before he realizes that this might be more than a random crush and that’s when Gintoki suddenly pulls back. He’s suddenly scared. His whole ridiculous personality is a way to cope with his trauma and he feels insecure all of a sudden, isn’t sure if he wants to risk love. All of a sudden Gintoki is more distant and unsure around you, sometimes even downright rude and sadistic with his remarks he makes. He’s aware at one point and is even more afraid of his darker emotions, tries to make himself as unattractive as he can so his darling leaves him before anything can happen. He could never make you happy after all. He’s broke, lazy and doubts in his capacity to protect those he loves after Shoyo’s death.

🍨Gintoki is heartbroken though whenever he has to push you away even if he tries to hide it behind his childish facade. Sometimes he appears to be more thoughtful and serious though, a distant look in his eyes. Desperate attempts to push you out of his mind fail miserably and instead he has a whiplash effect. The more he tries to forget you, the more you consume his mind and his heart hurts with longing he knows he shouldn’t have. Gintoki is due to his past trauma extremely protective and most likely ends up weaseling his way somehow back to you even if just via stalking. He can’t really forgive himself for his mistakes of the past nor for his obsession but he could never accept his darling getting hurt either if he can prevent it. Whilst the silver-haired male might appear dumb sometimes, he’s actually quite good if he decides to manipulate you. He’s just not the type you’d expect it from and does it so discreetly with his comments and behavior that you barely notice.

🍨There’s a possessive side inside of the former Joui rebel, something Gintoki tries to tone down as much as he can. Jealousy ends up being a way where he lets his lingering emotions shine through since he slips up. Admittedly, he often ends up acting more like a bratty child than a grown man but that is because he doesn’t want his s/o to realize initially that he likes them nor does he want them to see his less childish side. He’s sarcastic, blunt and downright ridicules someone, is occasionally even petty enough to bring Kagura and Shinpachi along since chaos will be ensured and so it doesn’t look like he’s the only one acting strange. In an established relationship he acts differently, not shy to throw an arm around you, be more touchy and give the other person a forced smile, asking who they might be and not sparing them from his sarcasm. He sometimes still acts like a damn whiny child though who ridicules himself and the other person too.

🍨He was called White Yaksha for a reason and looking into the Anime, he snaps when someone seriously harms his s/o. He just loves you so goddamn much, feels occasionally like he doesn’t even deserve you due to dwelling insecurities and fears to be traumatized somehow again. His district is a wild one, Gintoki knows that. There are certain ruffians lurking around corners. He usually threatens people with showing them a bit of his strength and skills which might just be enough to scare them, not to mention that you’re loved by all his friends too. If someone actually hurts his darling, Gintoki loses his shit for a while. He’s deadly silent and just attacks without a word. Chances are that he’s completely blinded by his rage, can’t think clearly and if his opponent is strong and skilled enough, they might manage to flee somehow even if not unharmed. Gintoki is not vengeful but this is one of few times where he itches for revenge.

🍨Being a part of it and being the unofficial fourth member of Odd Jobs means that you can fight in your very own ways. He doesn’t want to disrespect that yet he frets for your safety and when a real crisis arrives, he almost begs you to stay away or at least don’t wander around alone and instead stay with one of his friends. He trusts his friends, knows that they’re strong and spirited. I’d say Gintoki wouldn’t kidnap his s/o simply because he can’t. Where is he supposed to hide them anyways? He lives basically together with Shinpachi and Kagura and probably lacks money to provide you with the things you would need if he would permanently take you. Instead he has another shameless method which is somehow ending up invading your space when he feels like it. Otose, Catherine and his friends often scold him for leeching off on you like this because he makes himself at home in your house and even if he acts like the usual jerk, Gintoki believes their words.

🍨Sort of selfish when it comes to his beloved sweet things but he probably ends up mellowing out enough to share them with you if he’s in a good mood, which he is mostly when he is with you. It’s likely that he manages to do nothing to help you with yet somehow he does. He often lazes around and nags to you when you ask him for a favor yet somehow he manages to do it even if he manages to get in all sort of problems beforehand. Gintoki does a lot behind the scenes which you don’t even know about unless it is mentioned to you. He handles things his own ways after all. Being in a relationship with him means having to endure everything with him so Gintoki feels simultaneously bad for dragging you into all of the troubles as well as feeling grateful for enduring it. When he’s drunk he most likely laments about the fact that he’s too broke to have a partner and even ends up admitting among all of the whining that he sometimes thinks that he doesn’t deserve you.

Hijikata Toshiro

🚬Toshiro is extremely stubborn once he gains feelings for his darling, veils all of them behind a annoyed and rude mask which often leads to you believing that he just plainly dislikes you. Just like Gintoki, Hijikata feels too insecure due to his own past. He couldn’t protect his brother, pushed Mitsuba, his first true love, away and thinks that his lifestyle isn’t fitting for you since you deserve someone who can make you happy. He believes that avoiding you is the best yet similar to his addiction of chain smoking and mayonnaise, Hijikata’s weakness is quitting his obsession. No matter how much he tries, you claw at his mind with immense force and somehow seeing you being happy with someone else leads to a jealous and possessive reaction which he tries to burn down by fleeing from the scene and smoking multiple cigarettes. He is a strict individual with a planned schedule and the piled up stress he has because he can’t forget you leads him to slip ups.

🚬He’s desperate and his mask sometimes cracks yet he refuses to let anyone find out about his growing feelings. He reaches a low point when he starts stalking you, patrols a lot around the district where you live in. Toshiro is very protective and places immense importance into getting rid of all trouble makers and problems in your streets so you are at least safe from troubles. He never dares to initiate small talks unless the situation calls for it and acts tsunderish when you end up conversing with him a bit. Yet such small and seemingly insignificant encounters and moments stay in his mind and he obsessively recalls even smaller details you probably forgot within the same day. A relationship takes awhile but reveals some of Toshiro’s not so charming aspects. He’s very controlling and strict, has an established set of rules he believes to be needed in order to have a harmonious and safe love life with him and can be very possessive at times. He’s not deaf and is a bit open to listen to your wishes but has troubles shaking this behavior of his off.

🚬He’d never want to admit to anyone when he feels jealous and always denies it if someone asks him yet he can be quite ridiculous with his attempts to hide it. From excessive smoking, ugly smiles and silent glares, hidden violence, petty and very obvious ‘accidents’ such as spilling his beverage, letting his sword slip, trip someone up to coughing to disrupt an interaction that went on too long or was too intimate for his taste. Really everyone can sense and see his boiling jealousy at one point yet he continues to deny it vehemently even if he ends up interrogating you later on about the person and the relationship between you two. He refrains from PDA or too much affection in public since he wants to keep his image yet he probably will end up pulling you closer and glare at someone who won’t get a hint. If someone bluntly flirts with his s/o and makes inappropriate comments, chances are that he pulls his sword out and asks them if they want to be killed by him.

🚬He abuses his reputation as the Vice-Commander of the Shinsengumi quite a bit and he probably doesn’t feel bad for it. Hijikata is sometimes a bit paranoid in regards of your safety and his overprotective and possessive side tends to trigger the darker aspect of his love. He doesn’t feel guilty when he cuts someone down who hurt you nor does he feel bad by arresting someone and putting them into prison if they troubled you. If he gives someone a warning, he expects them to either understand the situation and back off or bear the consequences. He’s named the Demon Vice-Commander for a good reason and isn’t above being a bit sadistic when it comes to manhandling everyone he labels as threats ruthlessly.

🚬Hijikata ends up memorizing your schedule so he knows most of the time where you are and what you’re doing and it gives him a feeling of relief. He’s paranoid, fears rebels might kidnap you and use you against him. When something is going on, he either pesters his darling to stay at home or give him a call or message him every hour so he knows if they’re fine. Forgetting it once can already end in him worrying and spamming you only to scold you harshly for concerning him over nothing as soon as he reaches you. You know that something is messed up when Hijikata ends up snapping enough to turn a bit more delusional and start defending his actions of locking you inside the house or even using his police position to force you into house arrest by threatening to take you to the police if you don’t do as he says. Whilst he won’t go as far as kidnapping, he is willing to restrict your freedom under certain circumstances.

🚬The other Shinsengumi members eventually find out, either because you two are at this point partners or because someone, let’s be honest and say it’s Sougo, had their suspicions, spied on Hijikata and spilled everything to the other members. Kondo congratulates him, Sougo just wants to mess with Hijikata by using you which makes Hijikata on the other hand a bit paranoid. Sougo acting nice and trying to befriend you is a red flag yet Sougo always manages to make Toshiro look like the crazy one in the end. Which is why Toshiro probably doesn’t really want his s/o over at headquarters too often. It’s likely that Toshiro feels bad for Sougo though because he accepted you but rejected Mitsuba back then, fears that Okita might dislike you secretly for that reason and apologizes for it since you shouldn’t have to suffer because of him. Toshiro is privately more affectionate than he is whilst under people as soon as he has relaxed enough.

Okita Sougo

😈Sougo is a certified sadist so he gives his darling a little taste of hell every time he appears. I’d actually label him as lucid so he guesses that he is obsessed with his darling but he winds up simply not caring about it after some time. Due to his sadistic nature he’s surprisingly clingy, he stalks you and follows you only so he can bump into you by accident when he feels like it and make fun of you a bit. It’s likely that he’s gone too far a couple of times already which made you angry and brought you to tears yet you’re the only one who snaps since Sougo stays calm, the usual deadpanned expression on his face. Sougo is oddly enough aware when he’s gone too far though and most likely gives his s/o some time to calm down, times where he’s somewhat nice. He has always some ulterior motives behind nice gestures though so as soon as you’ve somewhat recovered, the cycle begins again.

😈Sougo is manipulative and cruel with his words. He manages to twist your own words against you and make them sound like something entirely else. Guilt is always put on you and worst is that you’re the only one who always loses their self-control which only leads to enhanced mocking from his side where he chides you for letting your temper get the better of you. Sougo is enough of a jerk to search for some dirty secrets and if you threaten to leave him and tell the Shinsengumi about him, he simply holds them above your head and tells you with a little smirk on his face that he’ll let everyone know about it. He’s a possessive bastard so he won’t allow his darling to leave him and maybe that steams from the fact that he already lost his sister Mitsuba. Despite that all, Okita is also protective. Granted, he doesn’t allow others to hurt you since you’re pretty much his so he’s the only one who has the right to do anything to you. He also knows about the discrimination against humans from aliens and about the rebels so you have a potential target on your back due to being his partner.

😈Sougo is already the undefeated champion when it comes to humiliating and ridiculing others but he’s extremely terrible when he is jealous. He never outright says that he’s jealous but his rude and sarcastic comments increase. He either mercilessly picks the one apart who makes him jealous, and in the worst cases he actually uses his sword to give them a minor injury as a warning, or he completely humiliates you if you show any reaction of being flattered or enjoying the attention. He ruins your chances with anyone of you haven’t accepted him yet by scaring competition or spreading rumors about you which make you look more unappealing and even lies to others that you two are a thing or have already slept together, might even forcefully kiss you. If he knows that you harbor feelings, he might even try to make you jealous in return by flirting with someone else as a sort of revenge just to see you going a bit possessive. He wants an apology if he got the impression that you enjoyed everything and you might have to literally go down on your knees.

😈A walking menace, a living devil. Everyone is screwed when they trigger Sougo and he is especially happy to display his sadistic tendencies when someone messes with his s/o. We’ve already established that he sees them as his possession so no one else has the right to touch them if they don’t want to lose their hands. Even someone courageous tends to run when Okita pulls out his sword and has that excited glint in his eyes, his insane bullying is enough to make a grown man ball his eyes out. If someone hurts you though, they’ll probably lose a limb or two and might barely make it out alive. If someone tries to kill you, they’re dead within the blink of an eye as soon as Sougo has tracked them down. He shows zero hesitation and mercy for anyone, they’re all cut down.

😈Surprise, surprise but Okita Sougo won’t kidnap his darling. He doesn’t see the need too, mainly because he thinks that it would be too much work to find a place, keep it a secret from the other members of the Shinsengumi and because you might wreck havoc in his house as some sort of way to blow off some steam. You’d make too much trouble. There is a tight leash the Shinsengumi member keeps on you anyways so that’s the second main reason he doesn’t feel the need to abduct you. A sadistic part of him thinks your reactions as long as you think that you are free are funnier anyways, especially when he can ridicule you in front of people. Your facial expression when you find him in your house where he makes himself at home is also worth gold.

😈He expresses his affection the only way he really can and that is sadly by annoying and teasing you until you go insane. Sougo just can’t help it. He punishes his s/o too by gagging them, tying them up or simply revealing a secret that you don’t want anyone to know. Somehow he always finds a way where you have to crawl back to him since he’s the only one willing to help, if you repay his kindness of course. Probably buys a pretty collar to wear so everyone knows who you belong too and calls you pet names. Treats his darling somewhat endearingly when they did good for him and punishes them when they made troubles. Okita just can’t shake that side of him completely off and it probably needs a darling with extreme patience for him to be more genuine with his affection.

Kamui

👊Kamui is quite the sadist himself and that is mainly to blame for the fact that his darling is a itty bitty human. They’re weak and Kamui despises weakness yet that clashes with this fatal attraction he feels for them which results in this mean streak of his. He’s constantly mocking his darling, scares them with his brute strength and just bullies them for their weakness, all with this closed-eyes smile on his face. Very possessive and violent because even if he dislikes your weakness, he can’t bring himself to kill you since you stir something up inside of him. The simplest solution is keeping you and he’s willing to use all means to fulfill that goal of his. Kamui is physically violent just as much, willing to leave bruises or break bones as methods to teach you to not run away and know your place, which is under him.

👊The Yato man is also fully convinced that someone weak like you needs someone strong like him to protect you. The earth was overrun and conquered by the Amanto because humanity didn’t have the strength to fend for themselves, his darling is no different. They should be grateful that he decided to take them under his wing. He expects gratitude and wants you to admit that without him you would die within a few days and he rubs it especially under your nose when he did save you from someone or something. He attempts to make you worship him a bit and really see him as your savior. Somewhere deep down he just wants to feel like he can actually protect someone since he hates himself for having failed to save his mother and sever the emotional tie with his family.

👊Kamui is trigger-happy and in the best case he swings a fist and sends someone flying through the walls. It’s likely that he just looks down on anyone he doesn’t recognize as strong which applies to a good bunch of living creatures in the universe. His disgustingly possessive side forbids anyone besides maybe Abuto to really interact for longer than a few seconds with his darling. He normally pulls you closer by your hip with a bruising grip, the usual smile on his face before he uses his terrifying strength to smash their face with only one hit beyond repair. You aren’t safe from him either, in the worst cases he’s yanked you by your hair to expose your neck only to shower it with blue and purple hickies to show anyone that you belong to someone already, him.

👊He enjoys fights already so he enjoys it just as much to beat someone who flirted with you or tried to save you. There is less fun when someone actually got through him and managed to hurt you though since Kamui already failed to protect his family once so that stirs this unpleasant feeling of failure up. Of weakness. In that case his smile falters and he stares at his opponent with murderous eyes and if he sees his darling being nearly killed right in front of his eyes, he completely snaps and lets his Yato blood take control. He can neither control his searing wrath nor his strength and probably snaps out covered in sticky and red liquid with a mess of smashed bones and flesh in front of him. A body that has been annihilated by him. Kamui is spiteful after, blames you for your own weakness even if he looks out more for you and still cares for injuries.

👊Kamui kidnaps his darling at an early point. He’s a space criminal after all and travels through space. He can’t leave you behind to roam unprotected and freely on earth. He doesn’t tell anyone about his plans either. Kamui simply walks one day to you, greets you with his smile and tells you that you’ll come with him before he knocks you out. Abuto can stare flabbergasted at best when the captain returns with a human over his shoulders and announces that he’ll take them with him. When you wake up, you have a massive headache accompanied by a huge bump on your head. You’re shackled and alone in a room until Kamui eventually returns and explains with a slight grin on his face that you belong to him from now on.

👊He can’t regulate his strength at times so even if he tries to be affectionate, chances are that he ends up bruising you with his touches. Kamui doesn’t feel too bad about it in retrospect though, sees it as signs that you belong to him. By the way, the man is very touchy with his s/o and shameless about it too. Abuto is pretty much the only one from his crew he actually really trusts and Abuto is the one who winds up feeling bad for you somehow. When Kamui is in a bad mood and hurts you, it’s Abuto who tries to explain why the boss is acting like he does. Kamui doesn’t want his s/o to know about his past since it’s his weakness and he fears that after all the talk of him being the only one who can protect you, you might make fun of him. It’s a sensitive topic in general for him.

Yoshida Shoyo

💔He’s a split personality of Utsuro who has managed to gain control of the body and has resigned to a peaceful life where he can teach children. What Shoyo doesn’t expect is falling in love and yet he does. His mind often wanders to you as he wonders what you’re doing at the moment and a blissful, small smile graces his lips as he gets lost in thoughts of you. His students catch him sometimes and wind up teasing him and asking him who his crush is. Shoyo wavers with his decision to be with you though since he isn’t who you might think he is. He’s immortal and his past selves have slaughtered thousands. He doesn’t know if he deserves his darling since the Shoka Sonjuku is a way for him to atone for his past sins. The man is very protective though, asks you constantly how you’re doing and reminds you to take care of yourself. He’s observant, usually senses when something stresses you and quickly offers his help.

💔He’s good in remembering the little things about you and constantly surprises you with it. He’s caring, very caring, often brings you small treats and presents he can afford or made himself to make you happy. Shoyo can be just like a mother hen, very coddling. Despite his attempts to hide his affection, it is extremely hard for him since his heart hurts with longing. He’s never loved someone before in his entire life but now he has his adorable students and you and his heart is bursting with joy and infatuation. The way he occasionally brushes his hands through your hair or the way he looks at you are telltale signs of his feelings for you. Due to his very kind nature he might appear to be very manipulative from time to time simply because he draws people to himself because of his philosophy and kindness, his darling probably never suspects him and that makes him feel guilty. He knows that his love tips into the unhealthy kind.

💔Honestly, Yoshida is far too patient and lenient to fall easily into the temptation of jealousy. It isn’t like he doesn’t feel the small needle of pain when he sees his darling happy with someone else but he’s good when it comes to suppressing his dark urges and wants his darling happy. The moment his students find out they’ll probably be the ones who try to interfere as they fall into a shipping fever. They want that you get together with their sensei and Yoshida scolds them later on for behaving that way in front of you and making you and the other person uncomfortable even if he knows that their intentions weren’t bad. If he is in a established relationship with you, he feels reassured and trusts you. He isn’t even really hostile against someone else if they understand the hint when he laces his fingers with yours and presses a kiss against your temple. If someone still won’t take a hint, he is more sturdy and reminds them that he’s already your partner and that you’re happy with him. He might not even be completely mad if his students come to his help in this case too even if he still belittles them later on.

💔He’s killed for centuries without an end, has become wary to take lives again. Yoshida desires a peaceful life even if he still won’t hesitate to grab a sword and defend those he cares about. He wants to solve problems without having to resort to murdering someone so he usually threatens and warns someone he actually sees as a serious threat despite his more kindhearted nature. He wants them away from you if they torment you physically or psychologically and don’t have any intentions to stop and/or apologize. If a situation escalates into a fight, he opts to hold back and knock the person out or immobile them somehow. He holds back too because let’s face it, if he would go all out that person would be dead. If he somehow succumbs to his darker emotions and nearly kills someone or really murders them, he probably feels a bit guilty and ashamed that he lost control just like that.

💔He’d never abduct his darling or restrict them unless they’re injured and need to rest. You probably end up assisting him or even teaching in his private school yourself so a big time of the day you’re anyways with him and his students. Considering the fact that Shoyo is a really good partner, it might be a mutually agreed decision to live together at one point in the relationship. Shoyo is joyful with that decision since it means that he can see you nearly the whole day. He provides you with everything he can give you too out of sheer gratitude for returning his feelings and overwhelming love. You never really understand since you don’t know his past and Shoyo isn’t sure if he really wants you to know either out of underlying fear that you’ll leave him if you’d ever find out the truth.

💔Has to keep the bunch of students away that swarm around you as soon as he introduces you to them, especially Gintoki, Takasugi and Katsura. Although he loves watching the children and you interacting since all the people who make him happy are together. Shoyo is most likely starved for affection due to never having been loved before but tries to control it a bit. He greatly enjoys it when his darling tells him that they love him, care for him or show him physical affection. He wants to marry his darling really badly too and just do everything he can to make them feel loved and happy. The constant fear deep inside his core that Utsuro might one day return stays with him though.

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