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yourmidnightlover · 1 year

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pairing: xavier thorpe x gn!reader

summary: readers never had a new years kiss and xavier wants to change that. (VERY SHORT and sweet :)

warnings: a kiss? i think that’s literally it. it’s so short but i wanted to get this out of my system for the new year

a/n: a teensy tiny little blurb about new years. definitely mostly just abt the new years kiss w xavier and reader

can we also just imagine if you were the one kissing him like this?!??!?

you had never had a new years kiss, learning to not even expect one as each year came to a close with the promise of a new beginning.

sure, you had flings and small romances, but none of them were serious enough or stuck around long enough to be that special kiss to kick off the new year with.

this was no different as your friends from nevermore gathered on the rooftop of tallest tower in the building. it was intimate, only involving you, enid, wednesday, ajax, yoko, bianca, kent, and xavier.

everyone knew enid and wednesday would seal the deal of the new year by each others side. ajax had yoko, bianca and kent would merely hug as friends, and you assumed xavier wanted to do the same with you.

“y/n,” xavier waltzed your way as the clicked showed one minute on everyone’s watches. “i was wondering…” his voice was wavering, nerves clearly getting to him.

“xavier?” you turned to face him weather than the beautiful starry sky. “you alright? if you don’t wanna hug or anything it’s fine, i-“

“it’s not that,” he assured you as he reached to hold both of your hands. “i wanted to do more, actually. would you mind if i-if we-“

you were interrupted by the infamous countdown of the night, everyone’s voice joining in unison. “10…9…8…”

xavier still hadn’t finished asking whatever he was going to ask or say. but, you brought your hands to his shoulders as you began to join in counting.

“5…4…3…2…”

before you could get to one, xavier’s hands went to cup your cheek and waist. now, you’ve been kissed enough to know when someone’s about to kiss you, and you were overjoyed by this. he leaned down to connect your lips, which were smiling.

one of your hands went to hold his that was holding your face, the other cupping his neck right below his ear. as much as you loved how often this guy made you smile, you really hated that it was nearly ruining the kiss.

regardless, you couldn’t help the little groan of excitement that left your throat. with a chuckle, xavier reluctantly pulled back, connecting your foreheads to one another.

“happy new year,” he now pressed a kiss to your forehead before resting his there once again. his breath was minty as if fanned over your face.

“quite the happy new year, indeed,” you nodded as you swung both arms around his neck. “is that what you were so scared to ask me about? to be your new years kiss?”

“well, i don’t want it to just be a new years kiss,” he shrugged as you somehow ignored the fireworks going off all around you in the sky. “i want this to be real with us. i’ve always wanted that.”

“i would love nothing more than to spend the rest of this new year with you.”

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cigsafterly · 1 year

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xavier thorpe x reader

mentions: fluff and little bit of kissing!

today was the day you were going to talk to Xavier. No more waiting today you’re going to talk to him.

all your friends even encouraged you and gave you the confidence to talk to him.

Luckily Xavier was your partner for herbology class. You finished your first class and now it was time for herbology.

You got to your seat and luckily he was there sitting. “ hi Xavier.” you spoke. “ Hi y/n. How was your first period?”

“ Boring I’ve been waiting for this class it’s less dull.” “ Tell me about it. I think Thornhill is making us do a project. So I was wondering if you’d wanted to come to my dorm so we could finish it?” he asked.

“ sure, what time?” you replied. “ I have a fencing match a 4:00 so maybe around 5:30ish?” he said. “ oh okay sounds good.”

after Thornhills lecture you had your other classes as well. When you finished you went back into your dorm room and got changed into your best clothes. You got your fluorescent perfume and sprayed it on to yourself.

you told your friends ( your roomates) that you were going to be with Xavier for the evening.

You knocked on his dorm, he opened his door. “ you made it. Come in.” You went inside to smell the aroma of plants. “So like Thornhill said we have to take care of this plant and make sure it’s well taken when we give it back to her.” he explained. “ Yeah so the materials we need are…” you read out the materials.

“ Should I get them or we could go together if you’d like?” he asked.

“ yeah I think it’s best if we get them together.” you responded.

You guys headed to the classroom to get the materials. He grabbed them and you guys were back on your way.

For an hour you and Xavier nurtured the plant.

“ so I know I only came here for the project, but I’ve been wanting to get to know you better. I hope that doesn’t sound weird.” you added. “ no that doesn’t sound weird at all, I as well want to get to know you too.” he smiled.

“ What’s your favorite color?” he asked. You replied with your favorite color and asked him in return what was his. “ Green, it’s such a pretty color.” he said in response.

You guys shared giggles, laughs, most of all you guys enjoyed each others company. You never wanted to leave, he didn’t want the moment to ever end.

“ I really enjoyed talking to you today.” he said as he was walking you to your dorm.

“ I enjoyed talking to you too.” you added.

“ Look I know we just started talking, but I want to take you out.” he suggested. “ On a date?” you said. “ Yes.” he returned. “ I would love to go on one with you.” you coincided.

He lowered his face to yours and kissed you softly. “ Well I’ll be seeing you, tomorrow.” he gestured. you waved bye to him and closed your door.

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cleosven · 1 year

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There's just something about a 10 year old Xavier thinking that during a game of hide and seek with Wednesday that it was a good idea to hide inside of a coffin with a dead body lol.

Lol, I bring this up all the time! Xavier is just so casually dark. But it's nowhere as near as dark as Wednesday, so it's like she just thinks he's normal lol. And therefore, I think as an audience, we sometimes forget it too

Like he hid on top of a dead family member and thought nothing of it. They were playing games at a funeral(!) and in a morgue!!

Then he draws that spider (which I find creepy, but he doesn't even bat an eye). And he draws the ravens in the quad, which aren't creepy per say, but they are dark in a different way

And then the Hyde? He drew it like a million times, and he drew all the horror of it, and he didn't like, have a full mental breakdown that kept him from classes or anything. He was just like, 'I've been having some dreams about this scary thing' and then he just keeps going

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nymphie-mama · 1 year

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handsy

paring xavier thorpe x reader

summary ⬇️

warnings smut finger fucking etc

request okok… so xavier abusing your hand kink/fetish right? what about him shoving his finger down your throat - anon

i no longer support percy hynes white and i do not write for xavier thorpe anymore.

“knees,” xavier said, pressing on your shoulders. you didn’t question, just kneeling for him. you rubbed up and down his thighs, waiting for him.

what you didn’t expect, though, was for him to hold your face. his hand brisked the side of your face and he brought his thumb to your bottom lip.

as you opened your mouth to let his fingers in, he pushed his index and middle finger down your throat. and you loved everything involving his hands, so he was genuinely surprised when you sucked on his fingers.

“oh my god,” he gasped, his own eyes rolling in the back of his head.

needless to say, shoving his fingers down your throat was one of his new favorite things to do.

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luveline · 1 year

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#hope i dont sound ridiculous but as soon as i saw him i thought he was a great fancast for fred #wednesday #wednesday netflix #xavier thorpe

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fangirlies · 1 year

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Fwb xavier

Warnings: minors dni!! sexual themes mentioned. fingering. possessive!xavier. rough handling. curse words. slapping. dirty talk. (please let me know if I should be aware of anything else)

Now picture Fwb Xavier enraged when seeing you and Tyler at the weathervane. He resists the impulse to grab you by the arm and drag you out of the coffee shop since the two of you have agreed that you are nothing more than a hookup. Ajax is snickering in his ear, reminding him that Xavier’s down bad. Xavier's face is the deepest shade of red anyone has ever seen, and his leg is bouncing uncontrollably.

“You’re fucking whipped man,” Ajax’s laughter was the last thing he heard. He approached the booth where you and Tyler were seated without giving it a second thought.

“I’m leaving,” Xavier’s eyes were cold and sharp staring directly at yours; not even acknowledging the jackass of the barista. Your face is completely blanketed with perplexity as you turn to face him.

“Okay?” You responded, which just drove Xavier angrier.

“You’re coming.” Before moving toward the door, he spat. You knew xavier loathed Tyler. You knew he’d be furious if he saw you interacting with the barista. But you also knew you’d get fucked senseless later that night. You gathered your bag and got to your feet while grinning proudly. You figured Xavier would be eyeing you through the window so you laid a tender goodbye kiss on Tyler's cheek. And the long haired boy certainly was, his jaw nearly breaking. As you finally left the coffee shop, Xavier was waiting for you with even more rage.

“What’s your problem?” You inquired, being well aware of his problem.

“What’s my problem?” Laughter escaped his lips before his angered expression took over again. “You’re my fucking problem! You think this is a game, huh?” His voice now spewed poison. His tightening hold on your hips caused you to shiver in place as he leaned down toward your ear. "I have a better game for you in mind,” he took your hand and led you back to Nevermore after that. No other words were spoken the entire way home.

Later that night, he fucked you senseless, just as you anticipated. Except it didn't happen just once. Or twice. It was three times and was now preparing for another.

“You think you’re so smart, sweetheart. Two can play at this game.” He grabbed your chin and jerked your head up to look at him. Xavier was amused by the fucked out expression you had on your face. Your chin was dripping with saliva, mascara smudged in the corners of your eyes, and tears streaming down your flushed cheeks. With his free hand, he squeezed your face even harder, as his other pumped ruthlessly inside you, aiming to elicit your fourth orgasm. “You’re a slut you know that? Did you forget you were my little slut at the weathervane?” You twitched around his fingers and moaned aloud when his fingers curled and hit the spongy spot inside of you.

“Say it again.” He demanded. You felt a sting on the side of your face when you took too long to find the words he desired to hear.

“You-you win, xavier!” A satisfied grin appeared on his face once more. Although he despised seeing you with that normie, he had to admit the sex was ten times better when you toyed with his emotions like that. You also had to acknowledge that, despite the fact that you two were merely "friends," you enjoyed when Xavier’s possessive side came out. Xavier relished in the fact that he had something Tyler could never lay his hands on — you.

#shut up jealous xavier is my fav #i would fold immediately #sobbing but also blushing in bed right now #any more jealous xavier thoughts welcomed #xavier thorpe blurb #xavier thorpe smut #xavier thorpe x reader #xavier thorpe #wednesday netflix #percy hynes white #xavier thrope imagine #fangirlieswriting

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blueberrypancakesworld · 10 months

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Perv!Xavier Thorpe~Headcanon 2

warning : minors don't read, interact, obsession, yandere behaviour, kissing, stalking, non consensual touching, kidnapping, reader is female

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Part.1

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°It had been a few weeks since she had arrived at Nevermore Academy. Not only had she learned to love the place, she had made friends in Xavier, Bianca and Enid, and by her standards she was getting on well with Wednesday. Because the Addams already had murder plans that she could commit with the paper skills. But her relationship with Xavier was strengthened by their artistic nature.

°What was for her an artistic friendship, was for Xavier a deep connection, an artistic muse, an obsession that should be his. Which is why he had been trying to get closer to her ever since he saw her at the lake. Between endless meetings for homework, projects and an exchange of art ideas, he slowly got further, further and further. With each passing day, the thought matured that he needed you for himself. A muse to use anytime, in any way.

°Which is why he almost cried out in delight when Headmistress Weems announced that there would also be a painting competition at this year's festival, in which the winner would have to choose a fellow pupil as his muse, along with another scholarship, to celebrate the beautiful side of being different. His gaze, which was on Weems, suddenly went to you, who was standing so innocently next to Endi and was pleased that the blonde werewolf seemed to already have ideas.

°Waiting a little until the meeting had dispersed, he walked over to you with a confident smile. He knew her timetable by heart, had it hanging in his hut, knew where she was at all times. It was easy to memorise it and run into you whenever you went to the different classrooms. ,,Hey, I wanted to ask you about the painting competition," he started and saw you looking up from the notebook. You are perfect he thought and he was sure you could hear his heart beating.

°He saw you nod which told him he could continue before he said ,,I want you to be my muse, my model for the competition, in short you should be the exhibition". He watched her face grow more touched and geared with each word he said. He knew she was flattered, knew she liked it when he complimented her. He seemed to feel the warmth in her cheeks. ,,Thank you Xavier, that means a lot to me...do you have any ideas yet or do you want to draw something first? she asked innocently, not suspecting what he had in mind.

°My pretty one, you have no idea how beautiful you are going to be he thought and felt the anticipation rise up in him at her acceptance, not that he had given her a choice. ,,Just come to the hut this afternoon or early evening, I know exactly what it's going to be," he replied curtly before he left to buy a few things he needed for the preparation. Because besides immortalising his masterpiece, there was more than just the painting he had to do. The thought of finally having it, owning it for himself, seeing his inspiration in person. An excited sigh crossed his lips as he realised he no longer had just the paintings, her clothes, his imagination. He would be able to put his hands on her, to see her in her purest form, to touch her.

°The hours of the day passed and the artist was already in his hut when he heard the knock of his muse. To open the door for her and let her in, he closed the door and turned the key, but she didn't seem to hear. ,,This is an interesting and pretty environment, I like it," he heard her say and felt his lips twist into a smile. ,,You don't know what this means to me. Here some lemonade" he thanked her and held out some of the lemonade.

°He saw her take the glass and take the first sip. ,,This is good," she murmured and took another sip before sitting down on the chair he had set up a few metres away from his screen. ,,Like a supermodel," he quipped, even though it wasn't a joke and she giggled anyway before making herself reasonably comfortable. ,,Wait, I'll position you," he said, walking over to her. Gently he put his hands on her clothed body, handling her like a doll. Touching every bit of her skin he could get before he finally put her in the right position.

°He wanted to touch more of her, she was so precious and yet he wanted to dirty her. To have more of her. Before he forced himself to go back to his canvas and he began to paint on the pre-painted background. From time to time he looked at her to see if it was already having an effect. ,,What kind of background will it be?" he heard her ask, and saw her break her posture to wipe her face. Finally

°He continued to watch her for a moment before he said, ,,A background that suits you, it holds your beauty," he replied and put his brush back on the paint palette before he saw her make a slightly anxious noise. ,,Xa-Xavier" she said his name and rose from the chair as she stumbled to his table as her legs seemed to give way and she went down on one knee.

°A short laugh at her awkwardness crossed his lips as he walked to her. ,,You're going to be fine, you still have to model standing, my dear," he crooned and saw how she didn't know whether she should push him away or let him help her. With a jerk he had her back on the chair and let his hand wander over her body. Finally I have you he thought and felt the warmth of love flowing through him. It was no longer a fantasy, he finally had her to himself.

°His hand clasped hers and brought it to his lips, kissing her and seeing her misty eyes through the means in the drink. ,,You are beautiful...two artists together forever...ever since I saw you" he murmured and took a strand of her hair between his fingers and put a hand on her cheek. Warm and soft how would you sound?" he wondered, moving away from her but feeling the wave of excitement going through his body.

°Picking up the brush again, he began to continue the actual painting. To finally paint what he had lured her here to paint. With a few final brushstrokes he finished the painting and reached out his hand to make the artwork real. Before the golden cage formed around the chair and imprisoned her.

°Despite her fogged mind, she seemed to realise what had happened and rose from the chair, swaying, before going to the bars of the cage and trying to open them somehow. ,,Don't be afraid, my heart, I'm here," he said, slightly worried, and walked over to her cage where he wrapped his hand around hers and pulled her as far as the cage would allow.

°She seemed to want to say something but only an indistinct murmur came out before his other hand took hold of her jaw and gave her a kiss. The kiss he had been hoping for for so long. The kiss he knew he wanted more of. Before he broke away from her and saw the last of her strength drain from her body and she collapsed.

°Moving into the cage he held her upright knowing if he let go she would fall to the floor. ,,Finally you are mine and together we will create a masterpiece" he murmured before he took her in his arms and let his hands wander over her body. He ran his hands over her arms, belly and breasts, feeling her shape underneath. Before he snuggled against her and looked at the camera lying on his dresser.

°Despite the darkness surrounding the hut, the flash was illuminated by the camera's shutter. Positioning her body as he needed her before placing her used body on a painted bed inside the cage. Covering her naked body with a simple blanket, he brushed a strand of hair from her face and gave her another kiss. ,,Don't worry, I'll be right back," he said and turned off the light in the hut before going out and locking it. His leisure was finally his.

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eidolons-stuff · 9 months

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Xavier: "Why?"

Bianca: "Why? Are you serious?"

Xavier: *dumbfounded look*

Bianca: "Were you not there for the shitshow that just happened? Not to mention you constantly harassing Wednesday when she CLEARLY likes Enid"

#YESSSS #TELL HIM BIANCA #TELL HIM!!!#maybe finally he will learn #even though i thought #he learnt his lesson before #guess not #unfortunately #at least this time #he shall hopefully get it in his head #wednesday likes enid #and not him #bianca #bianca barclay #xavier #xavier thorpe #wenclair #wenclair cult

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burtonbabygirlguster · 1 year

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people be like “omg why can’t Enid and Wednesday just be friends 🙄” well why can’t Wednesday and the boy who was [manipulating her the entire time about a series of murders and attempted to kill her friend and told his partner/master information that almost led to another friends death and was also being told to do things, and did them, for the outcome of all Outcasts to die] just be friends. hm. suspicious.

#also i just added the weird indent parenthesis thingys because i thought it was confusing since it was so long #and i wanted a clear indication of where his description started and ended #wednesday show #wednesday addams #enid sinclair #wenclair #tyler galpin #thing #eugene otinger #sheriff galpin #xavier thorpe

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dimicomi · 1 year

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I don't even ship Wednesday and Tyler like that, and of course y'all can focus on shipping Wednesday with whomever, but saying that she gave Tyler no signals at all before that scene in episode 4 and that it's completely out of left field...isn't all that true.

I know we're shown things mostly from Wednesday's point of view and she frequently expresses her desire for solitude and not companionship, but let's also remember that 1) she's very obviously unreliable when it comes to her own feelings, so that should be taken with a grain of salt particularly because she disproves it later and 2) she says this to Enid multiple times as well (which I've seen a lot of wenclair shippers conveniently ignore or excuse), despite doing things that suggest the opposite. It's a pattern for Wednesday.

And yeah, "signals" don't inherently mean anything because they depend on context, but nobody communicates objectively. Tyler, like everyone else, draws his conclusions from his point of view. After watching the season once alone and then again with my little sister I'd say that there are at least THREE distinct moments up till then where it would've been reasonable for Tyler to assume Wednesday's interest in him specifically.

The first and second are actually in the first episode, regarding the video call and then the festival. From Tyler's point of view, Wednesday is a girl he just met who does not own a phone and so relies on him to get her to the train station because he has knowledge about the town and also a ride out of it. At this point he's just some random guy. So when Wednesday ends up leaving in the middle of his shift, it would've made sense to assume she'd get help elsewhere and that he wouldn't run into her again any time soon. But then Wednesday sends Thing all the way to his house with her name and a phone number written on his palm just so she could speak to him. That's a lot of effort from someone he just met, even if she would say she's only using him to her own ends. That eventually leads to him giving her the sheriff's file on Gomez, upon which she acknowledges that she "isn't used to people engaging with her" and that he's doing something others don't do with her. She explicitly singles him out and regards him in a way that's different from others. I'm sure both of these things would seem significant to Tyler.

The third is on Outreach Day at the coffee shop where Wednesday asks Tyler about the original Pilgrim meeting house. This might seem insignificant because it looks like Wednesday's just using him for information here, but realistically, going to the Weathervane was completely unnecessary. Sure, the woman leading her group didn't know where it was, but Wednesday was out in the middle of Jericho during an event where townies were out and about everywhere. She could have asked anyone else - possibly even other Nevermore students since they've been there longer than her - and likely would've gotten the same information. She could've even asked Xavier when she got to the shop! It's unlikely that Tyler, a teenage Jericho native, would have special information that other townies wouldn't, but still she sought him out specifically and even said as much when Xavier asked. From Tyler's point of view, why wouldn't that signify interest?

This last one is more subtle so I'd call it an honorable mention but it's actually right before Tyler accuses her of giving mixed signals, just after Wednesday talks with the sheriff at the station. When she sees Tyler, she immediately cautions him to avoid his father. She might just be frustrated with the sheriff, but that doesn't really have anything to do with Tyler directly. However, she does know that the Galpins don't have the greatest relationship (particularly since Tyler was seen arguing with him in public at the festival, he has no problem stealing the file on Gomez, obviously distrusts his father enough to stalk him in the woods, and also sees Kinbott on a regular basis), so letting him know that the sheriff is in "frustrating form" is oddly considerate, especially given that Wednesday isn't known for being so and he knows that. In fact, the only other people to whom we see Wednesday show that kind of unprompted, unconscious consideration by that point are Enid and Eugene. It's not something that happens often, so it's significant.

I wouldn't call these examples romantic per se, and I'm not really defending Tyler in a general sense given what we learn about him, but it's not unreasonable at that point for a guy with a (probable) crush on a girl he's spent some time with to assume that she might return his feelings given the above. In fact, Wednesday doesn't even refute his assumption about her feelings in that conversation like she normally would with Kinbott or Weems. She deflects (like she does with Enid and sometimes Thing) and says she needs to prioritize instead.

It isn't "random" or "bad writing" just because y'all don't like the character or the ship. The groundwork was there since the first episode.

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yourmidnightlover · 1 year

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i just know that xavier would give the best massages.

once he notices how you’re always cracking your neck or trying to rub out a stubborn kink, he would offer to help you out himself.

“right there?” his fingers would be massaging the target area as you nod eagerly. “if you need me to stop just tell me.”

he would be able to find the exact spot that’s been annoying you for weeks in a matter of seconds or minutes, using his already skilled, dexterous fingers to work your neck back into perfect condition.

“that feel good? too hard for you?” he would ask. just to make sure you were comfortable.

not to mention how he would get turned on by how much you enjoy his hands on you

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perhapsblues · 1 year

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Not to make this about me, but I am having a full-blown panic attack now.

WEDNESDAY 1.06

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cleosven · 1 year

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Post inspired by @lilitblaukatz post

Quick recap: Xavier definitely has the misbelief that no one wants to help him, and that he isn’t worth anything. And that played into his obsession with Wednesday.

Was it the obsession really about??:

Like yes, there was the crush, but he also really wanted to save Wednesday from Rowan. He knew how it felt to be thrown across the room, and he also has a very empathetic heart.

But most importantly, I think he also held the memory of 10 yo Wednesday in his brain, and he wanted to protect that image of her.

That 10 yo Wednesday was one of the few people who acted like his life was worth anything, and he loved that. He desperately needed more people to act like his feelings mattered.

So when he protects Wednesday, I think he really just wanted to protect the idea that he is worth caring about.

(Also, like I wrote a lot again, and it’s all goin under the fold cuz it’s long vvvvv)

His anger and fear:

Also, Rowan must have done some crazy shit to get Xavier as mad as he was in that flashback.

He was way angrier there than we see in almost any part of the show, except maybe the point where he kicks Wednesday out of his shed because she’s tearing up his feelings.

Being thrown by Rowan was reinforcement that Xavier get’s hurt when he expresses his thoughts and fears, and that probably ties into his misbelief that no one, even a roommate who he may have started to trust, is on his side. And that I think is another reason he didn’t share his Hyde paintings with anyone on purpose, even after bonding with Wednesday over saving her life.

He was always hiding things out of fear, like his paintings and his feelings, and even his anger until it bursts. Which isn’t healthy, but is interesting to note, especially if you want to write as him. He gives into fear first, and then only when he’s truly and surprisingly hurt, does he lean on anger as a tool.

Gargoyle and saving:

With the gargoyle falling, he actually did manage to save her. Which was great for his self confidence.

He was so surprisingly happy and confident right after that, and also easy going in his conversational style compared to some of his more awkward conversations later on.

It was like he had physically solved his problems with Rowan and Wednesday just for a moment, and he could just answer whatever was on his mind, like the comment about puberty. He was so open and trusting to just answer, and not over analyze his thoughts or sew in jokes to cover discomfort.

But saving her that time it wasn’t enough, because Wednesday kept saying there was still danger. I think he wished Rowan was expelled, not killed, because that would mean his duties of saving her would have been over, and he could just let his emotions get used to the idea that he could be worth saving. But he didn’t get that luxury.

When he realized Rowan was dead, he had to jump back into the role of trying to protect her, the one person he thinks could treat him like he is worthy of living.

He shows this by going after her that day in the rain. Even though he knew the monster was out there, and he’s not very powerful. He says something along the lines of ‘do you have a death wish?’ and I think that spoke more to Xavier than Wednesday’s action.

He thought the woods were scary and possibly deadly, but he also was there. So maybe he did kinda of subconsciously have a death wish.

Not actively suicidal tho:

But he didn’t actively want to die. He just didn’t seem to put as much weight on his safely as he did others.

Like he could have died trying to push Wednesday out of the way of the gargoyle. And he could have been killed by the monster he knew was in the woods anytime he was out in his art shed.

And even in the end coming in with a bow and arrow to give what little he had to the cause was very heroic, but also revealed that he didn’t out grow the misbelief that he isn’t worth as much as others. So I hope that get’s addressed in s2.

Putting himself out there:

I think he was very afraid of putting himself out there as anything but a protector or a flirt, because those are two good excuses he had for himself to be around her. Unlike the real reason, which is he’s trying to figure out if he has any self worth.

Like Bianca was trying to get at when she visited. She knew he wasn’t just around to be her protector, and she also doubted he had real feelings for her. Which wasn’t great, you shouldn’t doubt people’s feelings like that in person, but as a me who’s just talking about a fictional character, I’ll say I really don’t think that his crush was the only reason he stuck around her.

And I also think that if he was sure he did deserve love, he’d have picked someone else to be his benchmark for if he’s worthy of being cared about. But he didn’t, he literally picked one of the most unpredictable, logical, not very emotional people around.

She was always going to break his heart, and I think some part of him knew that. She was nearly the definition of unattainable. At the same time as he wanted to believe he was worthy of love, he also didn’t believe it. And that’s another reason why he put all his hopes on her. Because ehe didn’t want to see what the other side was, where he had to actually start caring about himself as a person who’s worthy. Because it’s scary, and it’s a lot of work. And maybe it’s easier to just get turned down.

His awkward joking and phrasing:

When he was around her, and he was trying to start up conversations, he would fall into this uncomfortable jokey place.

Like about the packs of pandas, or the comments about the dance in biology. I think he felt strange trying to seek out what he thought of as a person who could care about him.

Another point for how he wanted to be cared for, but he felt like he didn’t deserve that. He felt awkward asking for affection, and he fell into a resigned “of course” at the end when she would almost always reject his advances. And I think he also kinda liked that too? Because it reinforced his belief that he wasn’t worth love. So he kept going back for more.

But when she finally did appear to be reciprocating, and she asked him to the dance, he was smiling like an idiot. He finally felt like someone cared. All of his efforts caring about her(about himself via her) were worth it.

But he said that he thought she’s ‘never ask’. Because he didn’t have his hopes up about it. And he made her say it, because he didn’t want there to be any interference from his side. If he asked her and she said yes, he would doubt that yes way more than if she asked him.

Heartbroken:

And when she broke his heart by turning her into the police, it was like confirmed in his head that Wednesday was never going to care for him.

I think that’s what his snarky comment was about when he said he wished he hadn’t saved her from the gargoyle.

I think he wished he didn’t give himself the room to think he could ever be cared about, because he feels so hurt now, and he feels like he’d rather have been numb the whole time and he shouldn’t even have tried.

Benchmarks:

And I think he finally realized that he can’t use her as a measure for how much he cared about himself. Or at least, that’s what I hope.

He still gave her the phone because he’s needy and want’s attention over break, and he still risked his life for her, which was mostly just a gesture. But at the same time, he was so much more confident in that last scene where he gave her the phone.

Like he didn’t fall into that pit of awkward jokes. He just said jokes just for his own amusement, like ‘do you even know what a text is’ and all that. Like he seemed more ok with just doing whatever, and not waiting for her ‘permission’ to smile at his own jokes. and I want to see more of that confident, not as dependent of Wednesday’s reactions - type Xavier isn s2.

S2 & Tyler:

I don’t think he fully learned the truth that he is worthy of love though, just that he can’t tie it to Wednesday.

So he could easily tie his self worth to someone else’s treatment of him. And then he might try to be their ‘protector’ again, because that’s the role he’s used to falling into. And yes, because tylorpe, I think it would be cool to see this with Tyler.

Like Tyler already devalued Xavier’s self image with the assault and mural, so there is already a link between Tyler’s actions and Xavier’s emotions.

If he finds himself in the position of choosing to help Tyler or not, I think he would help Tyler, because of this. I think Xavier would think that if he saved Tyler, then Tyler would see him as important and worthy and all that. He’d get a new bench mark for his self worth. Of course, during s2 he’d need to learn to break away from that benchmark idea.

But if Tyler showed Xavier that he shouldn’t need to tie his worth to anyone (by getting closer and proving he’s worthy of love inherently) then maybe Xavier could get over that issue he has.

But it’ll probably be difficult. And Xavier would need to exhibit a lot of confidence and emotional maturity by the end os s2 for that to really sink in as real character growth.

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Anyway, yuuuup. Here’s another full-on essay where I over analyze literally everything about Xavier because... I can and I wanted to... and yeah :)

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