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still sorting out how to feel about it but fuck ncuti was just insantly beyond all expectations. King
#i feel sad his first appearance was sort of playing second fiddle to tennant and he didnt get a proper regen or anything#but i am soooooo excited for him to get started in earnest#plot wise probably my favorite of the specials but that was pretty unhinged#my full conclusion is that rtd is the most self indulgent showrunner alive which works for him but is also very Apparent lmao#doc who#doctor who spoilers#like whys ncuti feeling like a companion/side character in his own show like????#as someone who isnt a tengirl it’s like. Okay.#also as someone who enjoyed the donna tragedy SORRY#like these specials were really not For Me which is fine. but lets get going cmon 💪#i’ll just never be a happy ending enjoyer i need it to be at least bittersweet which is why i like this show lol. too happy booooo#me and capaldi being like ITS SAD. ITS ABOUT DEATH. rtd putting his hands in his ears and playing with action figures#which he has the right to do i wish him nothing but happiness also 14 and 15 sjould have fucked
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Aimé Césaire saying that colonization works to decivilize the colonizer truly lives in my head rent-free
#this is the essence of the v problematic anticolonial critique in so much 19thc literature (eg heart of darkness) right?#(and also its more modern inheritors eg apocalypse now and the Doing An Imperialism Makes Our Soldiers Sad genre of war story)#it glosses right over the crucial 'systems of rapacious cruelty are bad IN THEIR OWN RIGHT BECAUSE BROWN PEOPLE ARE HUMAN' bit#but in that one limited sense - that cruelty also brutalizes the perpetrators - it is very much the same critique#anyway i guess my brain continues to find ways to circle back round to discourse on colonialism no matter the initial topic#lit tag#no more war#imperialism#imperial violence always comes home#cultures of dissociation#aimé césaire#i am also choosing to tag this#sherlock holmes#as like solidly 98% of the stories in which the murderer is a former colonial officer or official are ROILING w this exact anxiety#(especially the hella racist ones. lol.)#i mean loads of authors in that time period are doing it but i have a tag for acd so.#my posts
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We all know how a lot of Luffy's opponents have been in some ways premonitions of the type of person Luffy could end up as if something went wrong in his life. For example Moria is what Luffy could've become had he truly lost his entire crew at Sabaody if Kuma had not saved them
And we know Crocodile is what Luffy maybe could've become had Luffy given up on his dreams and become jaded after losing to him. But like, when you think about it, that's not the only dark reflection of Luffy in Crocodile, is it
'Cause Crocodile, despite employing people for Baroque Works, did not trust anyone around him and did not considder anyone to be anything else but an employee to him. And we know he had been planning on taking over Alabasta for like 14 years (at the very least), BW being a thing for only the past four (pre-timeskip)
So like. Did Crocodile spend the last 14 years alone
Like yes he had his workers at the Casino and Robin etc, so he was like, around people, he wasn't like Brook who was in Total Isolation. But on an emotional level, has he not spent the last 14 years all by himself, completely detached from anyone, unable to trust or rely on anyone else?
That is sad as fucking shit, holy hell
'Cause then you compare him to like Luffy and like
Our sweet baby boy was so afraid of being alone that Luffy literally went through hell just to gain Ace's approval despite Ace trying to signal to him he wasn't interested befriending him
And through out the whole series Luffy reiterates time and time again how he needs and wants his friends around because he literally can't live without them, both on a literal "he can't cook or navigate or have fun by himself" level but also on that emotional level
And Crocodile just. Spent 14 years of his life, if not longer, alone.
Sweet jesus what happened to this man
And that just makes me further wonder, what the absolute fuck were Crocodile's Rookie Pirate days like?? Like did he have a crew or was he just yolo'ing it by himself???
Like. Mihawk's never been on a crew as far as we know. Kuma was a Revolutionary, not a pirate, but he wasn't like alone still. Doflaming, Hancock, Jinbei and Moria however have/had crews of their own. So what was Crocodile's deal? Did he have a crew before? Was he a captain or was he on someone else's ship? (Although surely the Government wouldn't offer the position of a Shichibukai to a cabin boy or the first mate, right)
And if he did have a crew, the hell happened to them??
Like we know Crocodile got his ass kicked by Whitebeard, I just find it unlikely Whitebeard would've pulled a Kaidou on Crocodile's crew and slaughtered them, that's not a very Whitebeard-y thing do, right?? ...Unless Whitebeard was just different 20+ years ago and was willing to annihilate entire crews. We don't know.
Or maybe Crocodile and his entire crew were like Turbo Rotten from the beginning and Whitebeard figured they deserved to get wiped out, much like how we saw Shanks wipe out Kid's crew at Elbaf. Or maybe Whitebeard saw no reason to have mercy on someone affiliated with the World Government.
That all said, if we wanted to assume Crocodile had somekind of trauma that lead to him viewing people not only as disposable but also untrustworthy, then maybe losing people dear to him like that wouldn't lead to that mindset. Like Moria witnessed his beloved crew die and that caused him to want to create a crew he couldn't die, so he wouldn't go through that emotional trauma again.
Which leaves me to wonder. If something caused him to lose his ability to (emotionally) trust people, and if Whitebeard broke his dreams...
Maybe Crocodile had a crew. And maybe they abandoned him when he lost to Whitebeard. Figuring they didn't need a weak captain who was probably going to bleed to death anyways.
Or maybe the crew tried to take his head (after Whitebeard kicked his ass), after all, he was already a Shichibukai, anybody who took Crocodile's head could maybe attempt to take that title for themselves if the Government allowed it, and if not, at least gain more fame for themselves.
Either of these scenarios would certainly result in you losing your ability to rely on others. And leave you willing to spend the rest of your life alone. Who would have in them to go through that again.
Or maybe he came out of the womb unable to trust people and he was just yolo'ing it by himself like Mihawk right from the begining, who knows
Regardless I'm just
#Moon posting#Sir Crocodile#OP Meta#Me @ Crocodile: Who hurt you#No fucking wonder Crocodile was absolutely deranged in Alabasta#Dude just spent like 14 years speaking to a wall by himself. Or maybe not who knows the walls could betray him too#This man has so much unresolved trauma#BTW if true this would also make Crocodile a dark reflection of Robin. Which is a different layer of sad on its own#Like. Both expecting the other to be the one to betray them. And in the end it's Robin who shot first.#Break week in the middle of Kuma Backstory. I am in pain.#When will our husband return from the war#I need to know what his deal is so bad. I must study him under a microscope#My derangement will not know end until then#There could've been a counterargument that Crocodile couldn't trust anyone lest his Utopia Plans got ruined#And to be fair if the Government had found out his plans would've been screwed. Shichibukai Rights REVOKED#But he still seems to carry those trust issues since Mihawk is on relatively thin ice it seems#So me thinks. This smells like trauma.#The real conclusion to this post is that the Crocodile x Daz shippers are RIGHT
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happy one year to her and one of my better opening lines for a fic <3
now, because i'm curious:
#to hell and back again#i genuinely can't believe it's a year but i guess that's how time works huh :')#anyway umm gonna leave some retrospective thoughts in the tags:#1. i hold this fic near to my heart but also have a very complicated relationship with it now-#mostly bc i feel like my writing has improved so much and it's hard for me to reread parts of this lol#2. i honestly feel like it's a product of its time? like i think if i was publishing it now people wouldn't like it nearly as much#(especially with the opening line wHICH HAS A POINT AND COMES FULL CIRCLE AT THE END OK JUST TRUST ME)#3. on a sadder note this also means it's been a year since we had to put my family's eldest dog down#i remember i was gonna post this first chapter later when i had finished another fic up#but then our dog just like. straight up started dying on my mom's bedroom floor#and my mom was too distressed/upset to take her to the vet so i had to put her in my car and take her on my own#and then had to go to work right after that#so yeah i was upset and was like 'well dammit im gonna post this then bc it's silly and makes me laugh and i am sad'#so yeah!! some thoughts and behind the scenes info for anyone who's bothered to read this many tags#idk these things just feel like Tags thoughts not Post thoughts#anyway thanks for all the love this one has gotten!! i'm glad people are still enjoying it though *will voice* it's been a year mike#byler
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I finally get a comment on my little puzzle myster two player game thing. And.
Maybe I’m just…. Idk… but this hurts? I dunno, I think I’m being touchy but it sucks as the only comment on the thing. I was already feeling rly down and stupid about these rpg games and doing that self destructive “burn it all down” thing and then to get this makes me just want to delete them. Ppl are just too cruel these days and I don’t have the skin thick enough for it.
#and like the sad part is if they’d made a funny joke about it I’d laugh#cuz they’re right it is directly inspired by the concept of the past within#in terms of how the puzzles are structured KINDA but rly just in the concept of it being offline#which is not like a concept made up by the past within#and in mh post from here about the game I even directly say it was inspired by the past within#AND ! of course a little rpg maker game made by ONE person is not as good as one made by a whole ass dev team#albeit a small one but still I’m 100% on my own here#i barely had playtesters#anywyas ppl are mean and I don’t have the tolerance for it#i should just take it down#it’s not like I’m deleting its existence just it’s accessibility to the public
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sometimes i think about the fact that rick's mom canonically didn't give a shit about his achievements when he was growing up and after his daughter died he had to encounter multiple versions of her who were constantly frustrated due to having their potential nipped as a teenager because of something that happened when they were seventeen without even knowing that in multiple realities the same event that changed their lives was also orchestrated by the same fathers that abandoned them. and how angry he must feel with everything; with the citadel, with other ricks, with himself for even leading the fucking other ricks to begin with. and just being so angry he can't shoulder all the guilt so he chooses to project it on his son in law who happens to be an incompetent, egotistical, idiot
#like imagine seeing all the grownup versions that your own daughter could've been like only to see them be ... so miserable like sure#at the end of the day beth is now choosing to be there for her kids and trying to be a good mom but she cant erase what she has done to#summer her whole life like starting to change when shes seventeen I mean you're doing something and she appreciates it but is it enough?#canonically summer doesn't have enough self confidence to admit it to herself that she is in fact a lesbian and then she found out the#version of herself that is able to come out is the one that was properly taken care of by her mother#same beth that is allergic to fucking wine#and yes she can try to do better with morty but she just seems to associate him so much with jerry she ends up just letting her dad take#him whenever#and im not saying she doesn't love her children because she does#but i also think she doesn't know how to properly love them#which ultimately ends up being linked to her upbringing and her relationship with her dad and her abandonment issues and the fact that this#rick she has right now is not hers and she doesn't even know how important that detail is because even if she knows that's not strictly#speaking her father#he also is one of the two ricks who have never abandoned a young beth#rick and morty#oh my god these long ass tags#rick sanchez#beth smith#its just... sad
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okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds
#covers mouth sorry so sorry guys#im a huge fan of beacon of positivity + good boy (elle puts a leash on emmett confirmed) + love and war (not in the demo but part of SF)#+ i liked some of the lyrics in the demo version of so much better (it called back to beacon of positivity!!! (i am insane)) such as:#I dream of your name next to my own but mine's looking fine up there alone#but i greatly prefer all the official songs we got. well. maybe good boy over ireland wouldve been fun (i think ireland is boring)#but itd play into the 'all men are dogs hurr hurr' joke that im glad they avoided. anyways. what was i saying.#right i havent listened to every version of everything yet (for example theres a SF version of chip on my shoulder i need to watch)#(and just the SF vers in general. shes hidden from me... why was emmett there before the remix... let me see their conversation)#but from what i have heard they made a lot of changes that were sorely needed. in take it like a man demo shes so much meaner??#it made me sad. it wasnt a duet + they wrung out the romantic tension (no subtext by calvin klein... sigh) + shes meaner!!!!#in the bway vers hes baffled but enjoys going along w it + she genuinely likes him even when hes wearing his regular clothes#but in the demo vers she keeps calling him stuff like ugly duckling and talking about how the geek is gone :( but she likes that geek..#the lines 'how much do you think i earn??' and 'kindly shut up :)' are funny but speak to a dynamic between the two that makes me sad...#follow me for more beautiful opinions on a fifteen year old musical#(heaves. do you know weird it is to see comments from 15yrs ago when this was actually showing. my brother is fifteen.)#god im so sorry i should be put down like a dog#lgb bootleggers are intense. i swear they got a bootleg every night or smth bc we got her shoe flying off + SF + kyle as understudy etc#go watch a so much better compilation sometime how did they take so many bootlegs?? how did you find them??#and its awesome cause these were filmed on 2007/2008 tech which means they have 15 pixels maximum#SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY
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me scrolling thru any online clothes store: this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is made for people with no ass. this garment is made for people with no thighs. this garment is made for people with no waist. this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is made for people with no calves. this garment is made for people with no waist. this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is made for people with no boobs. this garment is ma
#tops in my actual torso size never fit me well bc of my chest. do i really need to wear a sports bra under every single top and dress i own#just to get clothes that should fit me to actually fit me without weird tenting or lifting of fabric anywhere#ive had clothes fit me like a glove around my shoulders arms waist etc but still had to go 2 (!!) sizes up bc of abysmal room for my chest#as of right now i have a D cup. i have a VERY average build for my demographic.#and yet my measurements seem extremely outlandish for 98-99% of clothing manufacturers that dont charge 80 bucks for a tshirt#made this post bc i scrolled thru too many clothes i could very obviously see were not designed to accommodate any cup size#even scaled up in the larger sizes. which is just sad at this point. its almost 2024. cmon.#also i love me some boxy clothing but to get a nice silhouette in that you better not have any boobs.#woe. woe is me and all femme clothing enthusiasts#anyways i'm off to look for dresses without straps without necklines without cutouts without anything cool interesting happening up top#so i can wear a sports bra under it to have it fit me. and avoid popping the third button upon 5 minutes of wearing it#back on my bs#sorry for long post i'm utterly sick of everything for a bit
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#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan#i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch#shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else#even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress#but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside#academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project#i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send#myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it#but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or#maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something#just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there#it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so#tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing#ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position#and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle#sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux#i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices#even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany.#and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it#unrelated
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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes
#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit#and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While#like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days#we shall see#also ajr live fucks severely#the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience#like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad#like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go#so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times#notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with#and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what#idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath#much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck#so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb#the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least#meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion#prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got#taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert#so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school#and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player#and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap#like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible#which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow#her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated#like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most#and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard#fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there
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anyway my favourite thing about dead men fanfiction is the wildly different characters we all write. like. not even the ones who have been dead for years and have so little actual characterisation but even the ones who were alive in canon were probably very different one hundred, two hundred, three hundred years ago. also theyre under characterised in fiction. also we are all just having fun
#guy who barely posts about skulduggery pleasant: so ive be rereading some of my old favourite dead men fanfiction#as well as my own dead men fanfiction#and damn if we arent all writing a bunch of different fucking guys. to be fair i have gone rogue bcos like. cant be fucked w canon#dont wanna write about war#heyo what if it was pre war and everyone was still. convinced their wouldnt be one#also i love the idea of skulduggery being. just super fucking irresponsible devil may care live laugh love sorta guy pre-war#spoilt. rich parents who dont care much about him. loads of magic tutors.#i mean think about the class implications of the dead men#skulduggery. an elemental. a difficult discipline that clearly requires a level of training and scholarli-ness#his NAME is skulduggery#you come across that name if your educated. if you read a lot#this is a man who has been afforded every privilege#and like. i think a lot of sorcerers are implied to be very upper class#or like. kinda rich and fancy about it#but obviously that wouldnt be the case for everyone bcos magic isnt just genetic right like some ppl just show up with it#and like even then#dexter vex#anton shudder#like as far as im aware these are just names ppl have#and slightly uncommonly used words#disciplines which are more emotional/physical#as opposed to 'learned'#i just think its interesting#i was gonna have my dead men all meet n be friends pre war#but tbh i think them meeting and not being friends is better#i think theres a sort of tragedy in them being as close as they were because of the war#and not having that post war or pre war#its actually really fucking sad but like. evidently they didnt hang out in the interim when most of em were still alive#or at least that much#im wondering if like. they needed a couple hundred years of like. detox bcos seeing each other just pulled them back into that mindset
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honestly. i almost want to make an isat + botw au. key word being almost
#i also want to put the champions in dark worlds deltarune style but thats a different story.#i could also make a sadness siffrin au though?#like. ok i have thoughts specifically on the story of isat vs sasasa and the changes(?) made#i dunno. the thing is i dont know how id make it… work? per say?#i could just do a timeloop au (which i kind of already am) and not do anything special#plus would sadnesses take the role of monsters? would they coexist and both be ‘bad’ forces?#the stories are fundamentally different as well…#speaking of which. ive actually been thinking about a loop wild.#but once again. mehf#listen i already have a malice au which is weird enough in its own right. its not even technically a corruption arc#and that au was inspired by netflix bee and puppycat. the lowest stakes story ever#i still might draw it (isat au) but i wont take it too seriously#i should . probably do that for other aus ….. (AAAAAAAAUF)
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it's crazy to go to a gallery and see truly mediocre work being sold for hundreds of dollars and then come on here and see someone selling a stunning, vibrant, skillfully executed, meticulously detailed original piece for double digits
#shouting you are selling that piece for what one nice print of it is worth!! charge three to six times as much right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#selling prints for $4 on their kofi im gonna be sick. PLEASE make yourself some MONEY!!! your work is worth more than that!!!!!!!!!!!!#.txt#also not hating on the gallery pieces. i also make mediocre work. and you know what if someone else can have the audacity to sell their#soso line drawing with eraser marks for $400 so can i. really it's inspiring. but the degree to which artists that come up in online spaces#devalue their own work is so so chilling and sad really actually. idk maybe they're making money by making it accessible#and that is cool on its own merits but like christ above you should pay yourself more than pennies
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ok my first thought upon seeing this was that it’s probably only a new novelization as a result of whatever copyright thing has always prevented Target from ever doing a reprint of the John Peel version, like some of the other novelizations that’ve gotten rewrites recently (I didn’t imagine that right? there were like one or two that were new or updated texts in their latest releases?) and I was already ready to make the joke that, since Frazer’s writing this one and (to my knowledge) he hasn’t written any novels or original fiction but has written an autobiography or two, what we’re about to get is really best thought of as Evil of the Daleks (Jamie’s Version)
BUT if you read the article that is not a joke at all & literally what’s going on here which is kinda really exciting! The premise is the retelling of Evil that takes place in between Wheel & Dominators and sounds like it’ll include some new material as well, and I for one can’t wait to see where this goes with that!
#evil of the daleks#jamie mccrimmon#second doctor#im ecstatic guys#i was literally right about to make a post complaining that big finish still hasn't given us any details on the next 2nd dr release#(the one that's meant to come out in like 2 months or less)#and while i am still sad about that i do not think i have any right to complain about anything today as a fan of that era#Also im obsessed with how it sounds like the frame narrative with zoe will have its own plot/alien threat thing#and im like. 99.99% sure that just means a bit of new stuff set between serials#but the exact wording the description gives almost makes it sound like there's a non-zero chance that#instead of inserting a story between wheel & dominators#this book could just retcon dominators and jump into the beginning of mind robber#which again i dont think is what's happening because literally what would the point be?#but i still find the possibility hilarious#imagine it's meant to fit the continuity of the mind robber novelization lol#send another doctor + companions to pompeii why not
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I wrote a fyolai fic that shortened my lifespan by at least ten years (/j) what I mean is that I poured my whole heart into it. I included so much of my reflection on their relationship and philosophy in general and I did a lot of research and put in a ton of symbolisms and motifs…and ofc it’s not perfect or remotely THAT good but I’m really proud of the work I put into it. However, bcs the censor system on Chinese fanfic websites is rlly strict and my fic has some concerning themes (these two r Russian terrorists can u blame me rlly), I could only link that fic in my blog for ppl to read. And most ppl just. Read it and left no feedback, no likes or reblogs or whatever. I’m just so upset and discouraged like I know I’m overreacting but this is the favorite thing I have written I just feel so sad that it’s not getting any attention at all…sorry for the rant I just don’t know where else I can ramble abt my feelings but this is making me feel so bad I need an outlet
#Libby babbles#perhaps im just chronically online so I focus too much on these trivial things…#i shouldn’t stress out abt online attention#but it’s not just a fic to me it’s a thing I’ve written that I love so much#its 20k words and I considered every one of them carefully#maybe it’s just vanity….#I’m so upset for no reason at all. this is ridiculous. ppl aren’t obligated to comment on or like my work#i love fyolai - my own interpretation of them which is miles away from the popular characterization#creating content for them is a self-indulgent activity to the core#i should feel happy just because I’ve completed what I’ve set out to write…but I’m just so sad#i don’t think I can stay on this ship any longer#it brought me so much pain#I’m so lonely seeing them in a way others don’t see them as#and I know the others are right#i love their image in my head. obsessed over it#maybe it’s time I end this obsession#it must be done or else I would go insane
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Technically, every single transformer is nonbinary even in canon and here me out on this because I'm going to deconstruct a misconception.
Think about how the the majority of people* interpret the therm nonbinary. In fact, what do you see when you hear the term nonbinary? They/them pronouns, androgynous, an alternative lifestyle... a stereotype? I don't think i have to say on tumblr of all the places that nonbinary people come in a wide variety of shapes colors and personalities. But i think a common misconception is that being nonbinary is some magical third gender. And tbh that always makes me sad because can you imagine growing up thinking there's only two colors, red and blue, and oh maybe you learn that yellow is also a color and you go "cool so there's three colors", then realizing that holy shit wow there's an infinite amount of colors and shades out there! It's one of the things i actually miss about when i first started realizing because that beautiful learning feeling.
This is when I reintroduce transformers into the conversation. The meta reasoning is originallythe audience they wished to sell the cold war propaganda toys to, modeled the characters after the image they created, and only added the girls when they realized how gay the show had become. I believe the various idw comics were the ones who decided that on Cybertron the glyph(s) for he/him pronouns were considered neutral. A headcanon that I'm not sure if it's fanon or canon is that the Cybertronians came to Earth and went along with the genders and pronouns that the humans assigned them. Which I've seen many irl nonbinary people explain their genders like that "oh I'm ____ but I'm willing to let people assume I'm ____" which i admit I'm guilty of and has came to bite me in the ass.
How does this mean they're nonbinary? Well they quite literally do not exactly fit into the binary that human society has created because oh i don't know Robots who don't have the same culture as us. In a way they're all trans as they kinda transitioned from cybertronian gender to the human genders or otherwise alien genders. A character can be a man while also being nonbinary. A character can be a woman while also being nonbinary. A character can be genderfluid. A character can straight up just Not state a gender like Nightshade which is valid as hell; you don't need to sit there and explain your entire set up to nosy people valid valid. They're also you know fictional characters! You can have headcanons and popular fanon and an adopted take you saw one time. One of the major reasons I became an active member in this fandom rather than inactive is because of how much variety there is here.
*at least people who are allies because ofc transphobes are going to just. Not acknowledge us in any meaningful way and think of us in very impolite ways. They'll hear the term androgynous and think "I'll guess what your AGAB is and automatically assume you have the characteristics I associate with that and will refer to you as only that [often insert slur here]* if i have to hear the blue hair thing and the goddamn attack helicopter thing one more time i will end up killing someone and i know where i will hide the body.
#nonbinary#transformers#this take is entirely subjective and based on my experiences and interpretations in this fandom#people are allowed to see this and just. ignore it#the ''nonbinary means One magic third gender ever dever'' take always makes me sad because i want to show people how much more there is#fun fact! did you know that being queer in general at one point in history was considered another gender in its own right?#which was... certainly a take that was heavily rooted in bigotry#and i heavily dislike the take that canon took again and again that associated gender neutral with masculine.#part of a reason i absolutely love the fact that we're yassifying the nemesis in my tfp au#it makes perfect sense that they wouldn't entirely subscribe to human gender norms for the sake of the humans... being less outgoing lol#long post
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