I just had to block a bot called "contaminated-fairground". I know like ten people who'd kill to be called "contaminated-fairground". This is a fucking crime. >:(

so, it seems israel is indeed going to invade Rafah, the "last relative refuge" of 1.4 million people (that's three times the population of our capital city, btw, Lisbon, and two thirds of the entire population of gaza), "despite intense opposition from its closest allies, including the US". ha. intense

"The IDF confirmed on Tuesday it was buying 40,000 tents to prepare for the evacuation of hundreds of thousands of displaced civilians", but "the US state department said it had still not been briefed in detail on Israel’s “plans for evacuation or humanitarian considerations’’" forty thousand, for 1.4 million? or is that the number of expected survivors

"Benjamin Netanyahu brushed off calls for restraint and said his country would make its own decisions" "while also claiming he will flood Gaza with aid and ensure that civilians and aid agencies are given ample opportunity to flee Rafah". come on. absolute filth.

meanwhile, we the eu will be applying sanctions to iran, who in this conflict has killed ....mm.... zero people, while cheering and selling weapons to israel who have killed 34000 and plan to kill many more, their purpose being to actually ~cleanse~ the lands they want... will there be a time soon when we look back in fondness to when it was just 34 thousand? yet another spring of our collective shame

the americans seem to be treating israel like the overprivileged son who can do no wrong, was never held accountable for his actions, always excused, problems disappeared, and one day he takes daddy's assault rifle and kills all his classmates. that's how they raise their rich white boys, why would raising a rich white foreign gvt be different. but i digress

mr. joe biden. you might be one of the only people outside israel who can stop this. and you are choosing not to. we will remember that. you deserve to lose your elections over this. your electorate does not deserve that. because your legacy might not just be the failure to prevent the extermination of a people, but also as the last president of a democratic usa. and no one in the world deserves the chaos that would bring. so, sincerely, fuck you.

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Every day I wish the fourteenth doctor wasn't real not gonna lie

I know logically it would have been out of character, but I'm still butthurt that they never found a reason to get Noel to play piano on the show. I think Ian seeing Mickey playing piano would have made his head explode.

I have many headcanons on how this could have happened I think the writers were really slacking.

Still not over it and I doubt I ever will be, but I’ve found time has lessened the sting. At least until I’m suddenly reminded. My husband was watching soccer (sorry, American here) last night and I happened to notice it was on Apple TV. I haven’t been in there since June 1st, after the Ted Lasso finale. Talk about flashbacks. A week or so I was in the car riding with a friend and Bad Romance came on. I instantly thought of Beard singing this in karaoke and I have never wanted to turn off music so fast, but it wasn’t my car. When will it end?

Ok just to catch us all up plotwise: we've been in fey realm for the last 10 chapters, during which protag made a few half hearted escape attempts before pivoting to trying to send a letter to her family, which also consisted of gathering information about the looming blight because it might spill into the mortal realm and threaten them

TURNS OUT tamlin already MANIPULATED THE MEMORIES of her family in order to ensure that they would run and be safe if the blight spilled over

So NOTHING in the last ten chapters has actually served to advance the plot at all bc tamlin already TOOK CARE OF IT and now protag gets to fully indulge her painting hobby without being weighed down by such trivial concerns as, idk, the wellbeing of her family or her own fucking safety in a realm beseiged by magical sickness

It’s 3:30 pm(ish). Three hours ago I got back from a 20 minute walk with my dog. I told myself I was going to go for a run, then get some coffee, then go ride my horse.

Um. I spent 3 hours on my phone lol. What a fucking waste. I’m just so fucking tired. I worked for another 11 hours again yesterday and I’m just exhausted.

Im 15 hours into a 36 hour fast. Just survived a wave of hunger but I can smell that my sister just made popcorn.

I wanted to go hard on the fasting and the exercising but I’m so tired. I don’t want to waste my whole weekend. I can at least do SOMETHING.

I think I’ll switch to doing a hot girl walk instead of a hot girl run and go walk to get some coffee, then go visit my horse, then come home and sleep early and try again tomorrow I guess.

people are really out here like "i cant believe caleb cook made the character who uses a ridiculous amount of slang to the point where she sounds weird in japanese use a ridiculous amount of slang to the point where she sounds weird in his translation" like,,,,

also his is superior for the use of unalive in todays internet slang climate

Okay, I know I'm super late to the party but I just found out Blizzard shut down all Overwatch 1 servers to force all players to move to the second game. I want my fucking money back.

yeah

Oh I didnt know ecigs used lithium batteries.

I am extremely upset about this and I really hate vapers now.

this, followed directly by a lawyer secret, a sending nudes secret, and an other woman secret felt a little too on the nose today. 

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Tonight I've been remembering everything I would be going back to if I left right now to my little beat-up shack in Coamiles.

I remember the grapevine and the strawberry trees and the banana circle and the bamboo and the coconut palm...

I have an unsettling suspicion it's all been tampered with in my absence.

I want to leave this fucking house and these stupid cute little cats.

I think I might even take them with me if I could get a solar panel setup, a windmill and enough batteries.

I just hate how long it's been and how many empty promises I've been given and how much of my life I'll never get back. How little anyone cares about how much they cost me and take from me and how little they value and validate it and me.

I think I could insulate the walls well enough with cob.

I just know they won't leave me alone there, just like before. Just like they haven't here.

I can't cry. It hurts somewhere I can't express. I can't explain. Nobody cares enough to try to care. Understand.

I do so much and it's worthless to anyone else. They would cheer for themselves for a fraction of what I've done, they'd give medals to themselves for the shit I've survived and accomplished.

They look at me plainly, already over me before they even read me.

Why won't they just let me go then?

one of the things about being an educator is that you hear what parents want their kids to be able to do a lot. they want their kid to be an astronaut or a ballerina or a politician. they want them to get off that damn phone. be better about socializing. stop spending so much time indoors. learn to control their own temper. to just "fucking listen", which means to be obedient.

one of the things i learned in my pedagogy classes is that it's almost always easier to roleplay how you want someone to act. it's almost always easier to explain why a rule exists, rather than simply setting the rule and demanding adherence.

i want my kids to be kind. i want them to ask me what book they should read next, and i want to read that book with them so we can discuss it. i want my kid to be able to tell me hey that hurt my feelings without worrying i'll punish them. i want my kid to be proud of small things and come running up to me to tell me about them. i want them to say "nah, i get why this rule exists, but i get to hate it" and know that i don't need them to be grateful-for-the-roof-overhead while washing the dishes. i want them to teach me things. i want them to say - this isn't safe. i'm calling my mom and getting out of this. i want them to hear me apologize when i do fuck up; and i want them to want to come home.

the other day a parent was telling me she didn't understand why her kid "just got so angry." this woman had flown off the handle at me.

my dad - traditional catholic that he is - resents my sentiment of "gentle parenting". he says they'll grow up spoiled, horrible, pretentious. granola, he spits.

i am going to be kind to them. i am going to set the example, i think. and whatever they choose become in the meantime - i'm going to love them for it.

God, nepotism really does take away the desire to actually try and to be good at something