I dont think I ever posted this here. But if I did, oh well. LIl scribble of JV inspired by video game mascots. 

On a personal note. Been going through old blogs and realizing how much more I used to interact with people. Work and life get busy of course but I think its also because I felt like there was a lot less shame around it? Nowadays I worry reaching out and asking questions or prompting interactions is difficult because I think about how much people are going through. I dont know though, maybe it’d be nice for us all though to connect like that again. Couldn’t say how much I can do because things get busy and then dont but its a nice thought. 

i’d love to hear about your fuga sailing stuff \o/

HII ^_^ awesome. ok. so atm i have one silly racing au that i rotate in my head and one fic in the works which takes place directly after fuga when guaxinim, pac, and mike leave the island together on the boat. this one is heavy on the hurt and lighter on the comfort and is essentially just pac on one massive spiral now that he's starting to process everything that happened in prison and the island. lots of pac feeling guilty about cell's perceived suicide and struggling with his anger at mike for getting them into this mess. he's very much an emotional wreck LOL. hes been through so fucking much man. also going from being enclosed in a prison for a year and a half and then being out on open water and the crazy anxiety of being in such an open space is. well. its really getting to him. i'll leave some snippets of it under the cut 💪💪💪

the racing au is really just silly⛵💪💪🔥🔥🔥the nature of the sailing autism being that i always need to take some guys and throw them on a racing team, all of their insanities included.

when i talked about this au before i said that they sailed j22s but im upgrading them. they now sail Melges 20s. its official. ill put images under the cut. god. gorgeous boats.

the general idea is that JV and cell are two sailors looking for new members for their respective crews. felps is already on cell's crew and guaxinim sails with JV. probably at some point jv was on cell and felp's crew and now they have some kind of crazy beef. anyways. cell is just as weird and gross and intense as he is in fuga and he really wants pac and mike on his crew and having nothing to do with JV. obviously mike is skeeved out by the weird gross guy who looks maybe a bit too hungry sometimes and tries to get pac to join JV's crew with him. unfortunately pac is way too enamored with cell's negative rizz and cell proposes the idea to pac that tazercraft splits ways and mike can join JV's crew on his own. Mike is understandably upset at this but still ends up joining JV and guaxi's crew. the two boats have insane tension and pac is torn between pretending none of this happened at all and ignoring mike/sending worlds saddest eyes back to mike. mike is hurt and pissed off at pac and cell and felps and does his best to pretend that they dont exist at all while also needing to beat them in every regatta ever or he'll DIE because maybe if he wins against them enough times it'll prove something to pac. what will it prove? i dont think even he knows lol.

cell is actively trying to drive a wedge in between pac and mike and JV is doing the same thing on the other side. felps is purposely looking the other way during all of this and guaxinim is watching it all go down with some sick sense of fascination. definitely just hanging around to watch it happen like a long drawn out car crash.

cell in this au is especially fascinating to me. squeezing him like a stressball. he's ten ways fucked in the head and the reason why he started sailing in the first place is because his therapist told him to get a hobby and it was downhill from there. anyways cell tells his therapist about pac and the next time cell sees pac he walks up to him and says "my therapist says that we need to get coffee together and have normal interactions so i stop thinking about eating you" and pac just goes. oh! and its the hottest thing anyones ever said to him

obsessed with them, frankly

^^ sexual images fr

ik we are in the minority of not caring about the monarch crew to the extent of other people . i genuinely love them dearly (malcolm + shiela) but not with 21 thrown in to the point of overriding the ventures so s6 was like amazing quality and etc etc but lacks my personal taste in charm. and also in the minority that it's not saved by P+B joining regular cast (love them to bits as well) we have high Venture bias i will admit it . but s7 really blowing out of the park w my Venture bias it's the Careers In Science (s1!!!!!) -> Arrears In Science and also ref to Past Tense (s1!!!!) the explanation of the Pyramid Wars, Brock learning for the 5th time that the OSI is a sham and will always lie to him, the Bot Seeks Bot tie in . everything explained w Blue Morpho + JVS . JVS charismatic as all hell friendly to his friends but so quick to stab them in the back for his own gain. his pure anger and hatred at the Blue Morpho for not letting him kill him and take his life, Rusty surrounded by TV + his dad and the relations there . how everything in the series ties it all up to here how it's all a cycle of keeping what should be dead alive how JVS wanted to clone himself back to life . saying goodbye to dads you dont really know but still miss . complaining about your dad to no ends but wanting him back more than anything . family beyond and despite blood etc etc

Uhhhh little rant about smth that happened today, feel free to ignore I just need to get this shit out before I bury it down

Ok, so I play basketball. I'm not great at it, I'm aware, but I'm not bad when I actually try. Today was ouR second game

By "our" I mean just the starters and like 2 other girls. The team consists of 14 players. 5 of them, I think more, are failing one or more of their classes, meaning they weren't allowed to play, some aren't allowed to play for 3 weeks because of that. The ones who are passing are mainly the ones who are on both JV and Varsity, like me and like a little less than half the V team.

Unfortunately the head coach doesn't care about the jv team. During practice she'll use as as practice dummies for her old team and starters. This means that we don't get the same opportunity to learn and practice the plays we're supposed to do.

Now, the reason I need to rant is because of what those girls who are failing said. We told them that they need to get their grades up. Then they said that we depend on them too much and that we should know the plays because we have the same practices.

NO DUMBASS WE DONT. WE DONT KNOW THE PLAYS AND WE DONT KNOW THE WEIRD ASS POSITIONS. YOU ASSHOLES GET PRIORITY IN THE COACHES EYES AND WE GET SHIT. WERE TRAINING DUMBIES FOR YOU SO WE DONT GET THE SAME AMOUMT OF PRACTICE YOU GET FOR ANYTHING. YOUR ALL FUCKING FAILING SO WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU JUDGING US?

I literly got less than 30 seconds of playing time at the very end because the coach didn't want to get in trouble and I was confused as all hell bc I had been sitting on the bend the entire game. They fucking used me to full up the players water bottles when they began to get emptied. I'm sorry, but I didn't see this last year in jv when we literly only had 5 girls on the team playing the whole time with the only breaks being the time outs and half time. Someone to fill waterbottles would have been great for us then.

Istg I didn't even want to join basketball this year because I do not like the coaches. One doesn't even play basketball, and somehow she's been more help than the actual coach when it comes to actual moves. I know I'm not the only one who feels like this bc while the game was going on, me and another girl who got about a minute were talking about this. Like miss, we don't know how to trap well, we don't know where you want us to go when the play falls apart, and we don't know what you want us to do when no one is open and we can't dribble.

I know where gonna get in trouble when we go back to school on monday, but I better not have to do anything because I played for less than 30 seconds. I love basketball, it's really fun for me, but the coach pisses me off and I feel like the girls who weren't in jv last year don't see how they get a better coach than everyone else. Idk why I even go to the ga,es if I don't get to play. The first game I didn't play at all and I was still expected to show up in full gear. I know it's probably normal and this happens in every school, but it just passes me off that I and a bunch of other girls are being held to the same standards as the girls who get much more practice than us.

The jv team is larger than last year which I'm thankful for, but most of the girls in jv are in Varsity too, so the practices are merged. I thought this mean that we'd get more practice but apparently not.

This shouldn't piss me off this much but oh well, I just needed to get this out, please ignore

More Starwars shenanigans after waiting ages? You can find the previous here Today we are looking at the Ryloth arc (season 1 episodes 19-21) (skipping a lot of season 1, I know but... it's a lot)

Premise is set, the Seperatists have invaded and occupied Ryloth, and the republic is trying to take it back, makes sense. Ahsoka leading a squadron of fighters by herself? Is this a good position for a padawan? Are the jedi really trained well enough to lead such operations? (Contribution from JV) The droid fighters being able to wait on the hull of the ships is so interesting though? they can launch without needing to worry about a hangar.

I am still confused by the logistics of Hyperspace, how can they join the blockade, seemingly coming form the direction of the planet and not crash into it? shouldn't the gravity well of the planet at least be an issue? Wait, did they send all their own fighters on the offensive, and not leave any near the back to defend? Jedi really should not be leading their military, even I would know that's bad strategy. Anakin does seem to somewhat know what he is doing, at least based on how he's talking to Rex. He seems to have a good sense of the logistics involved.

So they are turning the Defender (the flagship) into a battering ram/fireship? that actually kinda makes sense, but I'm unsure about making sure it actually succeeds without being blown up before getting that far.

I get that Ahsoka technically outranks Rex, but would it not make more sense for Rex to be in command here? It is a lot of pressure to put on her, a teenager, in the war.

"I wish general skywalker had discussed this plan with us." YES putting aside with the fact I don't agree with putting Ahsoka in charge, the rest of the fleet's leadership should have been informed on the plan in time, so they could prepare accordingly.

While I get the plan of Anakin using his surrender (and the pride of the seperatist commander) to create an opening... isn't a false surrender a war crime? And aside from the geneva conventions not existing here. a major risk, because it will make the enemy less likely to accept future surrenders even when they are genuine causing a more disastrous loss of life?

I do largely appreciate that Ahsoka is thinking in three-dimensional space here by angling the Resolute. But why is this not done more often? Not a critique of her of course, Just wish this was done more often.

also, Admiral Yularen coming in to support and back Ahsoka's authority is appreciated. and it makes sense he didn't take command since he was unconcsious, and is not properly informed of the plan to be able to take over yet.

The seperatist leader retreating without alerting the rest of the army of that just... does not make sense. even if he doesn't value the droids lives, sounding a retreat could still salvage valuable equipment and manpower.

Seeing Ahsoka's plan work out so well is very cool storytelling, and it is nice to give her this growth. But she is still a teenage soldier!

"that reminds me, pick up master skywalker." imagine if he was actually forgotten about and left behind after the battle

Episode 20: Innocents of Ryloth (I also have a pizza baquette for a snack now)

so the opening narration is just a recap of last episode. And now Mace Windu and Obi-Wan are preparing to invade so they can liberate the planet.

And the seperatists are already using Twi-lek shields to deter the enemy forces. more warcrimes YAY (though this time it's the villains doing it, so I don't complain about it)

Obi-wan stressing how they are there to liberate, and not destroy the planet is a good touch (making sure they dont damage homes and cultural sites and such. but isn't that ALWAYS the plan? Do they sometimes bomb some homes?

Isn't it nice and convenient that the seperatists never destroy any of the big ships that have the Jedi on board?

One of the troopers is called "Wooley" and I think that's a cute name tbh.

Proud of the girl for biting that trooper's finger tbh.

The young girl being so worried honestly makes me a bit emotional. I do really hope all the civilians get out safe.

Oh and now as they are trying to go back, the carnivorous creatures are released, I get it.

Awww they left the toy behind.

Is obi-wan mindtricking the animals? does that... work?

It is also a nice touch that Obi-Wan knows the Twi-lek language and is able to direct them to safety.

and the distraction so they can get the civilians out safely before returning fire, actually good tactics!

Okay, I actually really liked that episode! had some good emotional moments, the tactics made sense to me, could track the action well! good stuff!

Episode 21 Liberty on Ryloth

I'm guessing based on the name, they liberate Ryloth in this one

So now that the republic ships could land, with the village Kenobi liberated, Mace Windu is going for the Capital, to take out their leaders and force the seperatists off the planet.

Shoutout near a canyon, some nice action to start the episode.

Okay, so they are going to recruit local resistance fighters for reinforcements. And try to capture Tambor. Makes sense. I do question if having a single bridge to go into a capital city is... a smart position. Unless there used to be more and the seperatists destroyed them.

So Dooku wishes to destroy the city, to send a message, but wouldn't this cause issues? ruin domestic support for the war? The seperatists are a independence faction against the republic, surely the politicians and people in seperatist worlds would not support such a move? Wouldn't it cause a lot of unrest that would be detrimental when trying to maintain such a large war.

We are meeting with the Rebel Leader now! And it is nice to see some more of what the Twi-lek life is like!

I'm glad the rebels are working together, But I really wish that the twi-lek people can be free after this, and don't get occupied by the republic forces.

They're all working together and getting along! how nice! I just hope the republic carries out their promise, I don't exactly trust them to leave Ryloth alone after this.

Wat Tambor staying behind because of his greed is so telling of the seperatist army, but he fully deserves it to be taken down because of his own hubris.

Okay, the muffled audio with Mace jumping over the droid flying-thingies was really cool!

The clones and resistance fighters are in the city! whoo!

And they are destroying the city anyway, RIP tambor I guess.

Nevermind, Skyguy to the rescue I guess

Interesting end to it. Honestly, but I think I liked episode 20 the most, 21 felt a bit like the story was rushing in the end. Next on the watch order list is S2 episodes 1-2-3, but that's for another day!

This last episode combined with KJ's new interviews put a little cloud on my Varchie heart dont know if KJ knows anything but I guess he knows up until what they have filmed so far so around episode 14/15 maybe? Sounded like Varchie will only remain friends? Also I didn't like they had Archie say he and Veronica aren't a good match that's like the wet dream of the antis...what are your thoughts? Do you think Varchie stands a chance as of now? I know you like Jeronica and I have nothing against them but it just feels too late in the game. I guess I just want more Varchie before it's all over and if they don't end up together I want lots and lots of content.

i feel exactly how i felt before, everyone has a shot of being something. they've explored varchie but haven't closed that door; they'll explore ba soon and even with varchie being friends, something else could go. in the meantime it looks like everyone will date everyone. our chances are "almost equal" as they've been, but at the point in time where kj is shooting, ba are prob going on, which we knew would happen.

i do like jv but i don't think this is about them being endgame or something. i will enjoy their little scenes though, i love their chemistry.

i do think varchie will keep getting content here and there until they are revisited, which i still think they will be - could be as friends or not, but still content, still implied.

so my feelings regarding our chances haven't really changed. que será, será!

I Lost You Forever.

Last time i seen you i lied to you. Last time. I Look back everytime, in my dreams. I remember the times we were happy. when we were strong. when we went on our crazy adventures, almost getting stuck inside a park and somehow i broke through the gate and we left, the times i would see you at work and surprise you, the times i was stressed and you were there to take care of me. The young me was happy but in my mind i felt for some reason i wasn't enough, and that i was never going to be enough for you or your kids. I wanted a family but i didn't think i was enough to be part of yours. i saw myself as a bad influence and your father was right, i thought of what he said so many times and it hurt me to think he was so right about me and i just kept making mistakes after mistake and now looking back at it, you had the right to go to my house and confront me, you had the right to leave, you had the right to move on. but if it wasn't for my mistakes we probably would still be together... for some reason i dream of you... maybe its my stress talking since i havent been happy, everyday i wake up depressed and alone. Karma is real and its hitting me. But i see you moved on, not that i was going to text you anyway because i just know you never want to see or hear from me again and i respect that... always will.. i was never worth it.. i wish i could have changed.. everyday i wish i could have been better.. i took you for granted and i took my life for granted. now i been on the bad. was homeless for awhile, lost my job, families died from sickness to diabetes, currently in a motel.. Why? how? because i wasn't shit and i still ain't shit. im a drug addict, my mental health was been wild and i use pills and dopamine to calm myself down but gives me these dreams of my past and reminds me of my mistakes.. thats what i get. Now im a changed man, i go to church everyday, i dont steal no more, i been clean for a month but it still itches.. i still dream of the past.. i still am alone. everyone has turned their back on me and i dont blame them. now that im alone i have nobody to tell my problems to, i have no friends around to talk to me. This is what i deserve. and as much as i try and change it as much as i try and get a job and start working it all ends due to me being homeless or me trying to sleep in the parkinglot of jobs. always something... i wish i could have been better for you and for myself.. I will always love you no matter how you feel about me. Forever. I still owe you. Love you Forever M(no longer C)...

-JV. aka Batman.

Dec. 2023

half of the college application videos are unrealistic but also some of them just don’t do it right. i was watching hannah meloche’s months ago and i was literally shocked at how lowkey dumb she was being. like dont get me wrong when i applied i literally had no clue what i was doing and i didnt know everything ab the school i was applying to but she da chose half of the schools based on where her friends were like?? she j sounded rlly unprepared

we’ve actually talked about this exact video before! hannah’s video pissed me off to no end lol. i understand everyone makes mistakes but she made a TON for her app process. although i am glad she is seeking to get a degree and is aware that social media and youtube may not always be an option. you need to apply where you WANT to go. not where your friends go. not where theres some sort of influence. it’s huge. she had so many big name schools and then she went to a local one i had never heard of before i think? im pretty sure she applied to msu too. but anyway, the college app videos are SO unrealistic. and they all apply to the same fucking schools!!!! all the uc’s, all the ivies, all the well known schools honestly. and they’re all like “this is gonna be a REALISTIC college video! i had a 4.8 gpa, i was president for 8 clubs at my school, played 3 varsity sports all four years of high school, i was in 30 clubs, national honors society, 1500 on the sat, 45 hours of community service a week, a part time job” LIKE FHSDKHSDKJLHSKDH WHAT. 

so. in case anyone wanted to know, here are my stats. 

may i present to you. a realistic college application.

gpa: 

3.4 weighted, 3.3 unweighted.

i got honor roll almost every marking period of high school!

ap’s:

1 ap class junior year - finished with an A, did not take the national because our teacher didn’t prepare us good enough and i wasn’t going to pay for it lmao

honors classes:

4 honors

extra curriculars:

i wasn’t in any clubs. literally none. my school has crappy clubs.

- varsity hockey manager

- attended 2 leadership conferences at university of pennsylvania soph and junior year

- attended a business summer camp up in williamsport

- ambassador for my school for said summer camp

- girl stem fresh year

- attended rotary youth leadership awards conference this year

- business competition at a college fresh year

- 3 years of a school wide event that we practice outside of school multiple times a week

- spoke at a school board meeting about saving a program/class i’m in!

- jv/varsity bowling soph year

test scores:

LMAO 

fun fact v and i were in the middle of a really big fight when i was taking my psats....... and i was really sad and couldnt concentrate on my test.

i got a 960 on my psat.

out of 1600.

not my finest moment honestly.

letters of recommendations:

i asked my “in school mom” to write me a letter of recommendation! i had her as my teacher freshman and currently right now in my senior year. she has seen me grow through all 4 years and we had an instant bond my first day freshman year. it’s a 4 year class i took, and while she wasnt my teacher for that class sophomore and junior year she was still super involved with me and making sure i was doing good! then i asked my honors english teacher from freshman year, who i had then and then also had junior year for the same class the other teacher taught! make sure you build really good bonds with teachers - the ones you’re the “teachers pet” for will write you incredible letters of recommendation.

any other questions, feel free to ask:)

Ok I’m angry and I’m sorry in advance so if you want to see, it’s under the cut.

Ok so this week I started basketball practice and in total we have 16 girls. For those of you who don’t know you need 5 on the court when you play. So I was like ok we could make this work. Apparently not. We still haven’t split up into varsity and jv but the coaches don’t think we have enough people so their letting the 8th graders, from our middle school, join. When I heard that I didn’t think it would be bad, I even thought it would be good because there are some(2) girls who are pretty good. Oh and I’m not a perfect player. Just thought I’d point that out. Anyways, today at practice the 8th graders joined us. I want to quit now. I really don’t want to be mean. But I forgot that they dont take it seriously. The mess around and yeah theyre ok. But in the middle of one play( and I mean right when we started getting the drill) the girl got the ball and stood there going “ wait what team am I on?“ We had to start all over because she couldnt remember what team she was on, when each team had different colored jerseys on. White and black. It’s not that hard. And things like that and not knowing where your supposed to go all during practice. So yeah. I know I’m going to be on jv but I really don’t want to be on a team with them. And I’m really trying hard to not be rude but.... AHHHHHHH

BNHA Modern Gang AU

*I got bored on a car ride and kind of got overexcited imagining and planning out this AU inside my head so uh, yeah. I should also note that I ultimately decided they would not have quirks in this AU*

General Stuff: - I’ll be referring to the gang as Gang X for now - The kids would go to school and everything like normal kids but after school would have gang training (physical and in weapon use (instead of having quirks)  - I want all of the major events of the show to still be incorporated in the AU, in some way - And I want all the kids to have the same personalities and relationships, because its not a BNHA AU if all the characters have different personalities (also I love my babies so) - Everyones “Hero Names” in the show are now their gang names - Instead of striving to become the #1 hero, they’re striving to eventually take over and become the head boss of the gang (at least Bakugo, Deku, and Todoroki are)

School: - So I was imagining the kids would go to a nice private school paid for by the gang - Also a major sports school - It would have mostly normal kids but have 2 classes (in each grade level) filled specifically with the gang kids (like the hero course; the normal kids would be based off the general track in UA) - There are rumors that the school may have gang ties, but no ones ever really been able to prove it - The school nurse (they call her Recovery Girl because it seems like she can take any injury in 15 minutes flat; she even takes care of broken bones and major injuries) and the principal (Nezu; not sure what would be unique about him yet, as he obviously can’t be a mouse in this one) and the gang-class teachers are all aware of the ties to the gang and are in it  - So to properly encompass and justify Class 1-A and Class 1-B’s relationship, I was thinking both classes could also be in sports(maybe volleyball,baseball or basketball(require a lot of  teamwork) but anything would probably work)?(it would be mandatory as physical training and to strengthen their bonds) - I can’t decide whether I would have Class 1-A be varsity and class 1-b be JV of the same sport or both varsity of different sports. 

Support Course/items: - So.... this wouldn’t be an extra class physically in school, but the kids training to work on support items would go to the same private school - Hatsume is still the prodigy - Support tailors weapons and sometimes clothing/other stuff to fit specific people  - Like they can tailor a specific gun to fit your hand, and can lower how much the gun kicks. They can do the same for knives, tailoring them to be the perfect length and weight for the user, as well as fitting perfectly in their hands. This goes for all weapons as well

“Gang Training”: - This is basically training to be able to be a competent gang member (most kids that get into the private school end up being higher ups) - They do basic physical training (I mean in hand-to-hand combat it helps to be strong, but also to handle the kick from any gun) but also with basic weaponry - The guns they use for training look, feel and have the actual kick of the gun they’re using but only actually shoot paintballs (Mr. Aizawa is a tough teacher but it’s not very rational to kill off all of your students lmao) - They train with all kinds of guns and ammunition, to get a feel for what each one is like and what they like. Aizawa requires them to train with all anyway though, as he believes you should be able to pick any random gun off the ground and shoot it with perfect efficiency and aim.  - There’s safety measures for swords and knives too, but I haven’t trained with those so idk what those would be lol 

All Might: - I was imagining he would be the boss, or head of the organization, since he’s #1 hero (at least in the beginning) - Like in the beginning of the show, he is secretly sick from an old injury and can only fight for so long before he starts coughing up blood.  - He’s still revered as not only the best gang leader ever but also one of the most amazing fighters the underworld has ever seen - But, as he gets older he still needs to find a worthy successor, as he’s definitely not immortal - Believes the boss should still be actively involved in the gang, fighting alongside his men and while some people think it’s foolish, everyone respects and likes him more for it 

All Might & Deku: - Obviously, Deku is still his secret chosen successor (or the one he wants to succeed him anyway but it will, in the end, go to the best candidate no matter what) - Deku was (distantly), probably through his father who’s in America, related to Gang X. His grandpa told him about it before he died, and all about All Might, the most impressive man in all the underworld, and has wanted to be just like him ever since - Soooo......I’m not entirely sure about how this part should play out, but I’m thinking maybe Deku was sick? And just couldn’t afford the really expensive procedure? (I’m pretty sure in the show Deku is middle class? So we’d keep it that way) - He by chance meets All Might and asks if he could ever be like him, even with his sickness, and All Might says no - Not sure what would go on to change his mind, but something happens, and All Might decides to pay for Deku’s hospital bills, heal whatever was going on, and personally start physically training him. Probably would make him clean up the whole ass beach still lmao - After the “entrance exam” (the physical part which happens after the standard school written at a secret location), Deku gets in by the skin of his teeth

Endeavor&Todofam: - uhhhhhhhhhhh........ - So he’s always wanted to be gang leader, but has always been behind All Might - He’s even tried duking it out with the boss a couple times but never wins - Not sure if I would make him head of the second most powerful branch of the gang or second in command - Either way he still not-so-secretly hates All Might, although he does grudgingly respect him - Wanted to become better than All Might, not get the top spot from All Might weakening, so he’s still pissed when All Might has to retire and he’s technically the boss now  - So, I haven’t been able to decide what Rei had that Endeavor wanted(since no quirks) but I still want it to be a fucked arranged marriage. Maybe she came from “good bloodlines” (like notoriously strong and smart /or people, whether her family was arranged in gang stuff or not) or maybe she was just very pretty and when she refused him, he literally bought off her parents? - Still raised Touya and Shouto specifically to be All Might’s successor - Touya still wasn’t good enough for some reason and something happened to him (weak bones maybe?) and he’s still dead in this AU (or is Dabi whatever the truth really is) - Rei still had a psychotic break and burned Shouto’s eye with boiling water and is in a hospital

Top 10 Heroes:  - So I want the top 10 heroes to either be the leaders of the 10 branches of the gang, or the top 10 members of the gang (they have a council or something)

Work Studies: - So in my old high school we were allowed to have a work study class, where we left campus for that hour and worked somewhere of our choosing, - Work studies were a big part of character development in the show so I’d like to keep those if possible - To make things less suspicious, work studies are required for all students (I mean let’s face it of entire classes all had work studies and others didn’t it would be weird). Also, since it’s a nice private school, I can totally see where they’d want the kids to go out and have “real world experience” before leaving high school - I would probably keep the fact that first years typically don’t have work studies (our school didn’t let freshman have them) but they’re trying something different this year - Of course the gang classes would be sent to various gang members (I think they’d still get to choose who, but idk maybe it would be more interesting if the teachers chose for them? - The general classes would go to whatever work study of their choosing, probably based on the careers they want to go into

Sports Festival:  - Literal school sports festival  - Limited only to those school students, i think - Gang members interested in work studies would come watch and scout - Would it be as internationally famous as the UA sports festival? i dont know tbh

Summer Camp & The Wild Wild Pussycats: - Not sure if here they would be purely working on physical ability and maybe martial arts or on weapons and stuff too - It would depend whether or not the Pussycats knew about the whole gang thing(or if they were involved in it) or were just regular physical trainers with no connection or idea about the gang thing - Kota......I think I would have his parents die in a gang-related accident and, obviously, hate anything to do with gang activity (which is normal anyway). If the Pussycats were not gang-related I’m not sure how the whole Deku-saving-him thing would go down but oh well - The League of Villains would be attacking still, to kidnap Bakugo (for whatever reason)

League of Villains (Gang Y) & All for One: - In a world where there are no “heroes” and “villians”, they obviously can’t go by that name (I mean I guess they can but I feel like that would be kind of stupid and odd) so we’ll go with Gang Y, for now - All for One can’t be immortal in this one, so maybe the gang name just keeps getting passed on from successor to successor? Or he’s just stupidly old(like 100 years old and still kicking ass)? - So, in the underworld, obviously no one is really “good” so to speak, I assume Gang X would still be involved in basic drug deals and stuff like that, but think Gang Y would be involved in some really fucked up shit. Like slave trade stuff maybe? Blood money? - Gang X and Gang Y have been top rivals since both of them started (around the same time) - Gang startup story would be the same as the beginning of the AFO and OFA rivalry in the show (2 brothers with different ideals) - AFO still ends up in jail after the legendary battle in Kamino Ward  - So......I’m having trouble with Shigaraki’s backstory since quirks aren’t a thing. Like obviously it would still be a horrific accident but.....yeah you get the point (haha it sucks trying not to spill manga spoilers) - Toga’s backstory would pretty much be the same I think - Spinner would have some deformity or something (since he can’t be a lizard) justifying his backstory - Twice is hard for the backstory thing.....but I would still have some traumatic event that caused him to do the contradicting voices thing - Nomu’s would maybe be like, brainless humans? Still look like flesh and blood humans but essentially be brain dead and only do what AFO tells them to do? Not sure but I’d still like them to be the result of human experimentation. - In Kurogiri’s case.........not sure tbh we’ll work on it  - Speaking of Kurogiri, he is like, get away driver/escape artist of the millennia. It’s like him and the rest of Gang Y just disappear into thin air. Even the police have tried to track him but? he’s just....gone? He’s still team mom, by the way, and really the only reason the Gang Y survives tbh (Credit to @tears-of-an-otaku )

Stain:  - Goes after and kills gang members (especially higher-ups) that he deems “corrupt” (ones that sit back and make underlings do all the work; rapers; betrayers; ones that are only really in it for the money; etc) - Puts chemicals on his weapons that immobilize his victims; The blood-type thing is still the same (works longer/better on specific blood-types) - Iida still goes after him for disabling his brother, and Deku finds and follows him, and Todoroki ends up coming as back up. - They still don’t get the credit for defeating him “for safety reasons”

Chisaki & Eri: - From a rivaling gang - Not sure how they find out whats going on but they do - Eri, at the very least, is still severely abused, but it would be cool to be able to incorporate using her blood to make some kind of drug  - Not really sure about much in this story arc tbh it’s so quirk-based it’s kind of hard to incorporate without them :/

The Licensing Exam: - Another sports festival, but this time with other major sports schools - Gang members come to scout as well  - In this one though, the other kids are just competing in a sports festival, but the teachers of the “gang classes” are also watching to determine whether or not their kids are ready to take on more “hardcore”/serious work studies (or even internships), where they would be able to experience what it’s actually like to be in a gang a little more in depth and practice real world fighting (and of course their special skills) - Special thanks to @tears-of-an-otaku for helping me figure this one out!

The Kids: - Like I said I want all the kids personalities and relationships to be the same - Jiro is still super into music and can still play (at least a little bit) a bunch of instruments; She has unnaturally good hearing too.  - Bakugo obviously can’t explode things with his hands anymore but has a dangerous interest in explosives (he was actually recommended to join the Support team but he rudely declined); still tells everyone to die on the (way too) regular; also still has the best reflexes in the class - Deku is super strong. Our sweet boy doesn’t look it but is strong af - Koda, still quiet as ever, is super good with animals (but afraid of bugs) - Momo is super good at designing and creating stuff and is very inventive(can always find a solution to a problem); She was also recommended to help in support but she (politely) declined; Still team mom - Iida’s a great runner (probably best at long distance but good at jump about anything)! Back in middle school, he was an absolute track star, but now-a-days with school, his class sports, and gang training, he doesn’t have time for track as well :( ;Still class president and team dad - Kaminari is still our lovable dumbass but is really good with electronics and wiring anything.  - Shinsou obviously can’t actually mind control, but he’s a super smooth talker and can convince almost anybody to do anything for him, so it can kind of seem like he controls people.  - Kirishima is an icon when it comes to defense training, he can block almost anything. He also never seems to get bruises. The rest of the class lowkey hates him for it because while, at the end of the day, they’re covered in bruises, Kirishima’s got maybe one (but usually not even that). He dyed his hair because he thought it made him took tougher and less boring - Aoyama is still into the ridiculously shiny, which is horrible for stealth practice, but he has this trick where he (maybe with a bracelet or something? Or a belt bc of his iconic belt in the show) can blind his opponent with the light reflecting off the metal and go in for an attack in that moment. It’s surprisingly effective.  - Oijiro may not have a tail, but he still excels at martial arts.He even rivals Bakugo (he might be able to win if Bakugo played by the actual martial arts rules that Oijiro was taught but he won’t) - Sugar makes Sato really energetic really quickly! (and for some reason makes him focus better). He’s still a super good cook and baker - Shouji still wears a mask all the time (he has a medical condition with his mouth that’s kind of gross and tends to scare people). He “talks with his hands” using sign language! He’s been teaching the rest of the class, as Aizawa said it was a very useful skill to have, especially in a situation where they need to be quiet but still communicate. - Hagakure, for whatever reason, is amazing a stealth missions! She’s somehow really good at blending into the background and even Jiro can’t hear her when she walks (unless she’s really focusing on it). Top of her class in it, actually.  - Mineta still isn’t that good in actual battle but is really good at simple immobilization (sorry the only thing I could think of for him even a little bit related to his quirk). - Ururaka (while not as strong as Deku), is surprisingly, incredibly strong. She can pick almost anything up and make it seem like the thing’s totally weightless (even when she’s actually struggling, something Deku can’t do) - Sero is the master of Duck tape really good at fixing stuff! It seems like he can fix almost anything; Him and Momo team up a lot when something breaks (which, in Class 1-A, is surprisingly often *cough* Bakugo *cough*); (Sorry, couldn’t really think of anything for him either but tape=fixing things? maybe?) - Mina is really into chemistry, specifically corrosives and hazardous mixtures. Her and Bakugo once teamed up after school and tried to make something - Aizawa said if they ever teamed up to do anything in the chemistry lab again they were going to be banned from it; Mina still has pink hair - Tokoyami has a pet raven that follows him everywhere-literally everywhere. It was a problem at first, but the school eventually decided to let Tokoyami keep it as long as it wasn’t making a mess anywhere and not attacking students (everyone else is lowkey mad about it like why does he get to keep a pet? Nezu tries to pass it off as an “emotional support bird” but everyone knows that’s bullshit); The bird (whom Tokoyami’s emo ass named Dark Shadow for some reason) can actually attack on cue! Actually, he kind of constantly has to be watched otherwise he might attack someone on the random (it’s happened; he seems to pick up on Tokoyami’s emotions somehow and if Tokoyami gets mad well.....; He has in particular had trouble Aoyama and all his sparkly things); The bird can actually send messages too! Tokoyami refuses to say how or why he trained his bird to do this but since no one expects such an old fashioned way of sending a message, it’s extremely useful for high secrecy messages (and packages; actually the actual gang has used it a time or two, a fact Tokoyami is secretly proud of). (Credit to @agaxso) - Todoroki is, not quite an expert, but has a weird amount of knowledge on arson and burning things (not sure why a gang would really need a skill like this except to burn bodies beyond recognition but Endeavor specializes in it so it must be useful somewhere); He also has an extensive knowledge of using  polyoxacyclobutane mixtures(liquid nitrogen definitely and maybe some other things?) to freeze things at whatever temperature (I think he’d probably shoot bullet-like things out of a modified gun; Freezing the target when it hits. Here’s a link explaining basically how polyoxacyclobutane works); He has practice with the modified gun from training with his father, but his mom was the one that originally taught him how to make and use the bullets properly.(Credit to @agaxso) - Monoma can do anything almost perfectly after watching someone else do it once. Unfortunately, he has a really horrible memory so he only retains the information for like an hour then has to watch them do it again. Still an annoying asshole - Kendo is tough as hell! Specifically has really tough hands/knuckles. The One Punch Man of class 1-B, she is literally known for being able to knock people out in only a punch or two. She once smacked Monoma and he had a wicked bruise on his cheek for 2 weeks. She still maintains that she “didn’t even hit him that hard” - Awase is an amazing welder! He was another candidate for the support team, but after some consideration he declined - Tetsutetsu, like Kirishima, has ridiculously tough skin that never bruises, and has amazing defense - I don’t really know enough about class 1-B to finish this unfortunately - Aizawa and Vlad actually put special time aside for the kids to practice and hone their specific skills and learn how to put them to use in battle. After all, you should use everything you have in your arsenal in real battle, and unique/special “skills” can be extremely useful in battle and often pack the element of surprise and can easily but you above whoever your fighting, (especially if they don’t have any special attacks)

Soooo......if anybody would like to write out this AU for me and help fill in the blanks I would love you forever and also probably owe you my life because I have absolutely fallen in love with this AU. Also let me know if I missed anything or you have ideas for the stuff I couldn’t fill in and I’ll put it in (and credit you of course lol) @todorokitops I know you’re a pretty well known Tumblr fanfic writer so......know anybody who might be up for the challenge?

Midnight Diary: Entry 02 - 1/1/21. I’m ALIVE and crying.

Before anything else, I want to greet everyone who will be able to read this, a HAPPY NEW YEAR! I know this last year was full of surprises, grief, sorrow, and changes, but let’s also take this opportunity to be grateful for all the good things we have received last year. I hope despite the darkness you’ve been through in your life last year and over the years, I pray that as you welcomed the new year, you have found the light, and if you have not yet, I pray that you will find it soon. :)

Now, let’s go to the real deal haha. As you can see in the title, I’m alive and crying! Crazy! I never planned to welcome this year crying, but I guess it can’t be helped. Last year and last year and last year-- too much of last year, but I’ve been welcoming the new year with a cry haha. It looks like I have made this as a tradition. Lol. 

Like what I have said, I never planned to welcome this year crying. In fact, I’m so happy and giddy preparing for the New Year’s Eve. I tried making a pizza for the first time, I wrote a short note for special people, and I did a year-end dance cover unplanned! Everything was going smooth and cool, not until a situation had to ruin it. While I’m having a simple and peaceful dinner with my mother, I noticed that my mother was not in a good mood until suddenly she started crying. From then, the entire night went downhill and got spoiled. Of course, seeing my mother in that state hurts me. For a moment, I don’t know what to do. I’m confused and slightly panicking. How the hell will I cheer the mood back to bright? For someone who’s not so expressive and empathetic, I surely don’t know how to comfort someone. How do you console your mother? I have no idea at all.  When I learned the reason, it didn’t shock me. A relative questioning my mother for not able to send money to my grand parents and reasoning out that my mother has an old son, working and earning money, that she can ask for some money. Let me just express my anger...

FIRST OF ALL, MY BROTHER DOES NOT HAVE ANY RESPONSIBILITY TO SUPPORT OUR GRAND PARENTS. YES, WE’RE A FAMILY. YES, HE’S A GRANDSON, BUT FOR PETE’S SAKE, MY BROTHER IS NOT AN INSURANCE COMPANY FOR THEM TO REQUIRE HIM TO GIVE! IF HE WANTS TO GIVE, THEN FINE! BUT, IF HE DOES NOT WANT TO, IT’S STILL FINE. IT SHOULD BE FINE! WHY DO THESE FILIPINO FAMILIES (ESP BOOMERS) THINK THAT IT’S OKAY TO PASS THEIR RESPONSIBILITY TO THE YOUNGER GENERATION OF THE FAMILY? IF YOU CAN’T SECURE YOUR LIFE UNTIL DEATH THEN PLEASE DO NOT BEAR CHILDREN? FOR F*CK SAKE, WE DON’T DECIDE WHETHER WE WANT TO BE BORN, BUT IT’S SO WRONG TO OBLIGED YOUR CHILDREN TO SUPPORT YOU. HOW DARE HIM OR MAYBE THEM CALL OUT MY MOTHER LIKE THAT? AND YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO BE SARCASTIC? I SWEAR I WANT YOU OUT OF MY LIFE. NOT TO DISRESPECT, BUT I RESPECT MYSELF SO MUCH THAT I DONT WANT TO HAVE ANY TOXICITY IN MY LIFE. YOUR AGE AND YOUR POSITION IN MY LIFE DO NOT GIVE YOU A FREE PASS TO DISRESPECT ANYBODY. IDGAF ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE. IF YOU’RE TOXIC THEN FUCK OFF!

Okay, I’m a bit calm now. Going back, my mother was hurt by that which is understandable. I mean she’s a mother after all and her son being obliged like that when them (my parents) try their best not to ask for any support from him because they want him (us) to start and build our life without burden and then a relative will have the guts to say shits? the fuck. 

I don’t know what else to say, I’m already sleepy maybe because it’s already midnight and of the wine as well so I’m going to sleep now. What I want to say is that despite everything, I’m still grateful that I’m alive in 2021 even though I don’t know what’s to come and no matter how fucked up this world is. I never learned how to appreciate life not until last year. Little things amidst of emptiness and little light amidst of darkness; A few things I learned to still be grateful for. 

Again, Happy New Year, everyone! Keep going and soar higher! <3

Gratitude 2021 

1/1/21. I’m ALIVE and crying!

Isaiah 40:30-31

-JV

~3:55

fuga sailing au where tazercraft are moving from racing 420s together up to racing j22s bc of two j22 sailors looking for crew members and jv and cell still have the same fucked up weird beef and cell wants pac e mike on his crew and jv wants pac e mike on his and mike is like "pac i dont like that cell guy. lets race with jv." bc of course mike doesnt want to sail with the guy pac obviously has the hots for. but of course pac is like "noooo i think we should sail with cell :(( he seems so nice ^_^" and cellbit proposes the idea to pac that he splits ways with mike and they get cell's friend felps to join the crew and felps has sailed with him before and theyve won a ton of races so it will make the sponsors happy. so pac says sorry to mike and starts sailing with cell and felps. mike is understandably upset at this and tells jv he'll join the crew but pac is out of the question. jv reaches out to a sailor he knows that works at a marina as a boat mechanic (guaxi). anyways what im getting at is their two crews have insane weird tension and cell still wants to eat pac's leg. pac would still let him

My review on Enter the Florpus,

I thought it was really good, it got some laughs out of me and the animation is really damn good, the music still had that Zim feeling to it, and the voice actors did an amazing job repraising roles. And maybe my expectations were high but I still kinda wish we saw Tak in the movie and maybe Professor Membrane actually believing in his son and said "Yeah ok, Aliens are real" and then maybe get hit on the head again and then play the "this is imaginary " card but this is just nitpicking.

I'm still very happy and glad that Invader Zim came back at all and maybe (and I know this is kinda wishful thinking) but hopefully Nick will see that Rocko and Zim did really well on Netflix and maybe give the rights to Netflix to get the old shows put on Netflix and make the new shows on there so people can see them, because honestly Zim and Rocko have a lot of adult fans so putting it on Netflix is a safer idea then putting them on TV and them getting low ratings then cancelling them but again, it's very wishful thinking because I honestly dont know if Nick would do it, it took Nick almost what 16 years for Zim to come back (But also again JV had decline some stuff from Nick cuz they didn't give him a big budget to work with) but who knows, in the future we might see these two specials becoming two amazing shows on Netflix.

werd. it meme, kayla, with yet another muse. this is my bad bitch josie, lets get to know her shall we

「 ISKRA LAWRENCE, CISFEMALE, TWENTY-FOUR, JESY NELSON. 」┈did you read that latest viral gossip issue on JOSIE PRYOR? she is the VOCALIST in ETHEREAL, one of my favorite POP groups. they’ve been releasing music for ONE YEAR now, but viral gossip has only been talking about them for the last YEAR. get this, i think i heard SHE MARRIED A STRANGER IN LAS VEGAS. they’re known as the THE CATACLYSMIC of the music industry, since they have a rep for being BENEVOLENT but TENACIOUS, but who knows. maybe that will change once they become #1.

firstly im gonna apologize if this is all over the place. im gonna try to organize it but i cant make any promises.

BASICS

full name is josephine iridessa pryor, but goes by josie for the most part

named after her maternal grandfather, joseph.

originally from tallahassee, florida. ur basic suburban middle class white family. one older sister. her mom owned her own bakery and her dad was a paralegal.

ex high school cheerleader

one tough cookie

AESTHETIC

leather jackets, skin tight jeans, fishnets, roses with the thorns still on the stem, red nail polish, fangs, messy hair, scars covered by tattoos, the moon at midnight, high heeled boots, dancing like nobody’s watching, and structured handbags.

HEADCANONS (?)

literally ppl are always like “josie can’t sing. she’s inconsistent.” or “she’s the ugly one” or rlly mean Ugly comments about her body and just general ugly body shaming. like she Knows she’s not the same size as her bandmates but like ???? she loves herself??? it took her a long time to get to this self love level and she loves her girls so she’s always telling people to fuck off

literally gets in trouble with management for telling body shamers in her comments or ppl that are generally rude to her and/or ethereal to fuck off. probably has blocked some accounts (even stan ones sdscdcs) like jesy has

cute but will 1000000000000% fight u if u make her mad, say bad things about ppl she cares about, or start body shaming

body posi, self love, and self care activist and supporter of the #metoo movement as it relates to her past

since her mom had a bakery, she worked there in hs and knows her way with cupcakes

hates wine & has never done hard drugs

i rlly cant stress enough how she will fight anyone and everyone for being an asshole

Straight (shes like my only straight character it’s Wild)

never had a serious relationship because she’s always been guarded but she has been in love, or at least thought it was love

curvy > plus sized bc she is by no means “plus” and knows this. by measurement/fashion standards she is between straight size and plus, so just go with curve/curvy

DETAILS (?)

TRIGGER WARNING FOR BODY/FAT SHAMING & SEXUAL ASSAULT:  josie’s curves developed faster than other girls her age, so even in like 6th grade ppl were calling her rlly ugly names because her hips had grown and saying things about her, even going as far as slut shaming and oversexualizing her developing body like gross. around this time someone she thought was a friend would repeatedly touch her without her permission (also she was like 13 and knew absolutely no better than ‘uh he’s my pal so i guess it’s alright if he touches between my legs when i dont want him to). it rlly tore her down and she felt like she was nothing. that low self esteem rlly followed her into high school. the bullying kinda morphed more into unwanted glares from boys, girls calling her a sl*t, and ppl just being generally mean because of her body shape. her sophomore year she tried out for the jv cheerleading squad bc she really just wanted to be involved and have school spirit, plus she had a friend who was doing it. things were rad, she made the team, all was good, she rlly liked it and even wanted to go out for varsity the next year. junior year came around and she was on jv again, but their coach ended up quitting so the trainer stepped in. he was nice to all the girls bc he’d known them and was working with them but rlly this was just grooming tbh, like he kinda made it seem like he was hte only one in their corner if they were having problems. she got a weird feeling from him but folks were just kinda like “eh you’re over-reacting, it was just a hug” but when they went away to cheer camp it was like damn what a change. he got a little bit violent and ut was just generally a Not Fun experience, like yelling at the girls and embarrassing them to the point where other coaches and such were like “uh he needs to chill tf out”. to make everything worse one of the nights he knocked on the door of the room josie was staying in, saying he wanted to talk to her, she let him in and long story short he got handsy. when she told school authorities what happened, it was her word against his, but after testimony from teammates about his behavior at camp and everything, the school gave him an ultimatum: resign or be fired and go to court.. lmao guess which he took. so basically he got away with molesting her and being an abusive bag of dicks. END OF TRIGGER

for a long time she blamed herself bc she thought she was too naive or maybe if she hadn’t opened the door, or it was all her fault and she let it happen. sometimes she still has self doubt moments where she thinks about “but what if....” or she says “at least it wasn’t as bad as...” she’s very passionate about the metoo movement tho, and abusers being held accountable for their actions (no matter their gender or sexuality)

she doesnt really talk about what happened in detail, but she has been vocal about the metoo movement and she stands with her #MeToo sisters because she’s been there

since cheer was like “aha nop never again” senior year she got involved in the drama club. she’d sang in church choir before, but nothing Super Serious. but the fall production of grease really caught her eye, so, she auditioned and voila, Sandy. 

after graduation, she started community college in musical theater, still working at the bakery but she fuckin wanted to leave florida (dont... we all??) so she used the money she saved from the bakery, bought a one way bus ticket, and ended up in austin texas... not exactly where she wanted to be, but it was out of florida.

she started singing at bars and trying to get involved with local small theater productions/companies, but that really just was not cutting it. so she asked her dad for some moolah and she moved to los angeles. for a long time she lived in a very very shitty apartment complex (if u rememerbr YEARS ago there was a show on the cw called the complex... it was about struggling young actors/musicians living in one place.. lowkey it was good but it got cancelled before season 2 wow shocker amirite) her agent was kinda bad, like joey’s from friends, but the one thing he got right was booking her an audition for a new girl group that a label was putting together. and boom, ethereal.

AS for the vegas thing lmAO.... i’ve been feeling like it was kind of recent. like, ethereal had already formed or was right at the beginning of the four girls coming together. (i still gotta work out those kinks) but essentially she went to vegas and on a Wild night, married a stranger. all she remembers from the memory clips are they met at the casino, there’s a chapel, back in her hotel room, a charge on her credit card for the honeymoon room service package, and the next morning she woke up alone in bed with a huge fuckin headache and a cheap ring on her finger. she was 22 and dumb. but aint we all?? she’s still technically married, but does NOT wear a ring or talk at all about having a husband because she doesnt know the dude. like literally can’t find him lmao, can’t find him to get that shit annulled or file for divorce. therefore, technically married.

SOME WANTED CONNECTIONS

i dont have a Ton but some that i’d love to have established are a mentor (probably someone who is older or more accustomed to fame), a roommate or ex-roommate (could be multiple), a celebrity crush (again, probably more fmaous), someone she tells everything to (they’d probably know about the vegas thing and her history regarding sexual assualt)

other than that, hmu or like this if u wanna plot??? im down for anything????

for the flower ask thing: jasmine, poinsettia, and hibiscus

JASMINE: What color looks best on you?

dark blue or purple

POINSETTIA: Favorite holiday dish?

my family has a super good christmas cookie recipe,,, also peppermint mochas

HIBISCUS: Did you ever play an instrument? If so what?

i played the flute in middle school bitches and u kno what??? never below 5th chair,,,+ in 7th and 8th i was in the higher level band class (not that that counts for much since, you know, middle school)

(of course if we count color guard, well,,, 

did that shit from 7th grade through senior year of hs

havent totally decided whether or not to do independent winter guard but i totally could if i really wanted to

was on (b) rifle line as a freshman in fall guard

freshman year winter was on sabre (jv)

was in varsity as a sophomore (one of four sophomores)

was on varsity 3/4 years of hs

actually the only seasons i didnt spin sabre were freshman and junior fall (junior bc they put all 10 seniors on sabre) (well, 10/12, the other two were dance soloists bc it was the ballad)

spun rifle all through hs

my junior year winter i actually spent most of the show on rifle which i loved

had a rifle “solo” this past winter (aka there was a ripple and me and my friend both tossed fives) (which honestly, we weren’t the best guard, esp senior year bc ngl our director kinda gave up on us which sucks, but still)

(yall i dont think u understand just how much of a hoe for the spotlight i am)(i tried not to be jealous but i always wanted a real solo and never really got one but at least i got to do all of the things i did??? like, one of my friends was totally snubbed and was never on varsity, only did sabre for like a hot minute senior year fall even though she had been promised to be on sabre for so long and had been doing guard for the same time as me, but,,,) (that sadly doesnt make me any less petty for the spotlight its one of my biggest flaws really) (wow this got  d e e p)

went to a national camp for guard (mfa camp) for two years

whiCH MEANS I GOT TO LEARN RIFLE WORK FROM CAROLINA CROWN UM YES

we were scholastic a and at worlds junior year we were super close to making semis which isn’t that impressive but it was definitely one of the prouder moments of my life

so yeah i could ramble about guard literally all day)

surveys 053.

do you sing in the shower? oh every single time. Its something I look forward to. 

do you think money makes people happy? As someone who currently relies on birthdays and holidays as her income, I can tell you it would relieve a bit of stress from me to even have like 100 bucks a month.

what's your relationship status? single.

what time is it? 12:25 am

what emotion are you feeling right now? I’m all over the place. Tonight Kile and I were messaging back n forth in a consistent manner which we haven’t done in a long time. Things were a bit romantic, which was extremely hard for me to deny participation in, and then it ended with me saying bye. boy it is hard to let go of him

do you have netflix? I do.

have you ever traveled outside your home country? no. Sadly, without a shot I will not be getting, I’m unsure of how I’ll be able to until the restrictions lessen.

coffee or tea? teeeeeeea pls.

shower or bath? Shower unless the bath is deep enough to cover my long self. 

what's your favorite pizza topping? depends on what kind of pizza. For instance, Jacks just GETS how to do supreme. some places nail the pepperoni, or fresh garlic or whatever. 

what's something that makes you happy? thinking about decorating my own place one day.

do you have siblings or are you an only child? I have 2 brothers and 1 sister

what's your favorite instrument? Piano, cello, drums

what's your favorite food? today it is fruity pebbles.

what is something you are always losing? I am pretty consistent on things going back to their original spot. I suppose if I’m losing something maybe it’d be like a scrunchie.

are you good at spelling? a good amount of the time.

what is one goal you have? all my goals are shifting.

did you get a flu shot this year? Nooo. never have. 

what's your favorite Disney movie? oh boy. i am not good with narrowing down those. are you bored? Not really, I’m just trying to keep my mind occupied until I’m sleepy.

what are you listening to? serendipity, bennys tail hitting my pillow, and my fans.

what's your favorite foreign language? I think it depends. are we talking for the way it sounds? or one that I’d want to learn?

what do you do when you can't sleep? this, read, find quotes, do puzzles, stare at the ceiling.

do you like cats or dogs better? this is one of my very least favorite questions to be asked. why would anyone want to choose between the two? both are so great.

do you have any piercings? Just my ears

what's your favorite vegetable? Potatoes

do you eat meat? Yeah.

what's your favorite season? any of them minus summer. Honestly, probably winter. 

do you still write letters? I love to, but I no longer have anyone to write to. 

what would make you really happy right now? i think a distraction that comes from having a crush.

what's your favorite song? ooo this changes but right now i’m into a lot of blue october.

are you good at giving advice? so, I’m the person you go to for advice if you want the moral, behaved, “you won’t regret this later” type advice. I’m great at giving that.

what's your favorite hobby? Right now, this.

do you prefer to talk or text? That is going to depend on the person. almost always text. But some people.. their voice is just intoxicating.

what's your favorite pair of shoes? I’m going to have to trash all my shoes for ones with heel support. 

how often do you read? (as in books) usually daily, but I’ve fallen out of that lately.

do you have any pets? I have 2 cats currently. I really want a golden retriever, but hey.

what's your favorite day of the week? they’re all similar at the moment, but probably saturdays

are you in college? I’m in the inbetween. Finished 2 bachelors, but am waiting for grad program

are you/have you ever been in a long distance relationship? I have been,

how do you typically listen to music? I use Spotify. either thru my headphones, my bluetooth speaker, the kitchen google, or my phone.

do you like going to the beach? I do so long as I have shade or the water is good to swim in.

did you make any new year's resolutions? I think pandemic NY resolutions were all about survival thru mentally exhausting times.

how old are you? 29 yrs young

do you know anyone who is blind? I do

who is someone you admire? My mom

do you have a good singing voice? when I was a kiddo, preteen, and teen yes. not any longer.

are your nails painted? Nope. I just wanted a break from keeping up with them.

Are you an extrovert or introvert? I’m an introvert but I can behave very well with the extroverts.

what are you having/had for dinner tonight? I had some tacos.

do you ever write in a journal? I would like to begin again, but this is a decent makeshift option

if you could time travel when/where would you go? I mean I’d love to go back to some great memories, but I worry that could be painful beyond repair.

what's your favorite animal? whales.

what's your favorite kind of cereal? honestly my cravings for cereal are for any kinds that I can no longer have. so dont ask.

how was your day? I’m only 44 minutes into it.

do you ever listen to classical music? I do. Clair de lune is one of the best 

what inspires you? learning. learning always inspires me.

how many pillows do you sleep with? I have like 20. OK huge exaggeration. I believe the true number of sleeping pillows is 4 large, 1 mini. 

how many hours of sleep do you need? I typically run off of about 3. I’ve had sleep studies done regarding that. But If I’m getting good oxygen and the temp is coooooooold I sleep so good.

do you have big or small feet? I have pretty average to slightly bigger. 

what's the weather like where you are? It’s been in the upper 80s.

what's the most interesting thing you can see out the window? just the reflection from my TV. it’s real dark out.

does/did your high school have a school song? no.

what month is your birthday in? July.

what's your dream job? the brain.

are you excited for summer? I’ve had a lovely summer, truly.

what foreign country would you want to live in for 6 months? switzerland.

did you have to go to school today? No, no I have not.

win a million $$ or never have to pay for anything again? Never have to pay for anything. Why would that even be a question. do you throw coins into fountains? when I was a kiddo

do you have a trampoline? Nope

what's your favorite song lyric? what if we could put our lives on hold and meet somewhere inside of the world, I would meet you... would you meet me? 

what did you eat the last time you went to the movies? Ill be honest IDK if we even got food.

do you ever measure time in songs? only if I’m in the shower. I’ll be like ahhh I’m 4 songs in.

do you know how to play chess? I’ve been taught MULTIPLE times. have I retained any of them? na.

what's your favorite game? (any type) right now I’m digging skipbo, trionomos, rummykub, and trouble.

do you enjoy traveling? I love it. so much.

do you tend to wait till the last minute? nope. I’m almost always 2 weeks prior

have you ever owned a goldfish? Yep!

how do you relieve stress? go on a drive. 

without looking it up, guess the outside temperature? I’d guess maybe 70. lemme see how close I am. 68!

now look it up - how close were you? woops. 68! two off.

do you prefer digital or analog clocks/watches? Digi. 

do you prefer to shop in stores or online? I almost always prefer online, but in store has its own perks like seeing the quality of things.

do you enjoy coloring? oh heck’n yea do you like to dance? I do!

have you ever owned a horse? my family did, yes

do you take selfies? oh i do. MUCH less now, than I did before. before I used to send kile like 10 a day. now I might take 2 per week.

do you ever listen to music in languages besides English? Not often, but on occasion

have you ever cried from listening to a song? absolutely.

do you prefer headphones or earbuds? so I appreciate how headphones are safer for the ears, but i typically wear earbuds.

can you speak Spanish? Very little. like a few words

what's the last thing you watched on youtube froggy freshhhhhhhhh dunked on now what time is it? 12:57. Im getting sleepy. --------- ok now it’s 859 am. I passed out last night.

do you ever watch musicals? sometimes. it’s not my favorite thing

do you know anyone who's a twin? Yeppp

do you ever get carsick? oh heck yeah, i do love the windows open

what's your opinion on wolves? I really never had an opinion. check back.

when you're sad do you prefer sad music or happy music? sad. indulge me

do you like seafood? Nooo. i wish

do you enjoy going to the zoo? no. i really dont. are there any celebrities from your hometown? uhhhh not that I know of

do you shower in the morning or at night? morning if I was great hair. If I want meh hair, night

do you prefer to work alone or in a group? Alone. ALWAYS.

do you go to the gym alone or with a friend? I don’t go to the gym. < problem solved.

do you like coconut? I like the scent but not the food. <<< SAME who is someone you're jealous of? JV for her abs

what's your favorite place to go out for breakfast? eggheadz

do you still have your christmas tree up? nah. its a tickle early (july)

do you have a favorite type of bird? cardinal.

have you ever had an overnight flight anywhere? yup. plenty of times.

if you use them, tell me 5 of your recently used emojis heart eyes, disappointed looking off to the side, sad face with eyes closed, hearts all over the face, and rolling eyes.

do you know anyone that plays the violin? yep. 

how much money is in your wallet right now? I would need to count

anything you're looking forward to tomorrow? having been done with packing lol

have you ever auditioned for anything? yeah I used to do auditions all the time for plays I was in.

did you have a webkinz when you were younger? No.

how would you describe your aesthetic? airy, comfy, inviting, warm

have you ever been told you look like a celebrity? yeah a couple times but its like not even a tiny bit close.

when was the last time you rode a bus? i have never.

if you saw $50 on the ground what would you do? is there a wallet attached?

do you know how to play any unusual instruments? yeah. don’t ask me. I’m not pleased about it.

are you an early bird or a night owl? kind of both. 

have you ever had trouble understanding someone because of an accent? oh yes. But the more time you spend talking to those individuals who have accents stronger than what you’re used to, become very easy to understand over time.

do you ever go to Massachusetts? I’ve never been but I’d love to go.

do you personally know anyone who is transgender? yeah a few people I’ve met through school. 

do you remember anything from when you were 5 or younger? yeah a few very small memories. 

do you need to do laundry? yes I desperately need to pack and I’m waiting on the laundry for that to happen. 

do you know anyone (including yourself) who actually enjoys math? NOT ME. not even close to me. Kile seemed to like it. 

do you have a favorite poem? the one written for meeeeee

if you were from somewhere else, would you visit your town on vacation? I don’t think i’d think of it, it’s not near anything specific.

where would you spend $100 if you had to spend it all in one store? amazon.

would you rather go to Japan or Greece? Greece.

now what song are you listening to? Gilmore girls, text notifications, fans

what are you wearing right now? shorts and a blue teeshirt. Bout to just be in a short shorts so I can tan. 

any fun plans for the weekend? travelingggggg.