Transfem CWilbur hcs. Now.

why anon i am so glad you would honor me with this request

i think that cwilbur would probably keep her name because she looked up like name meanings and shit and was like hoooolllyyy shit my name is cool as fuck actually. i do also like the idea of her having a name based off of one of wilburs songs though. i admittedly misremembered vienna as sienna but i think both are cute so either of those also work as names for her

cwilbur to me is very like. obviously she knows about trans people her son is trans (i also like to see cclingy as trans but ctommy would have not transitioned yet and ctubbo just doesnt think to tell anyone if they dont think its necessary) and shes very proud of him! but shes also like. well at least fundy enjoys being a man because i sure dont this is miserable and everyone within a 5 mile radius immediately raises an eyebrow. i think being in pogtopia fucked her up about it because she started seeing people as being Afraid of her and for a reason she couldnt place being a Big Scary Crazy Man hurt in more ways than one but she was spiralling too hard to really analyze those feelings

and then in limbo all she Has is her own thoughts. and she comes back and shes manic and she considers telling everyone but but but but. tommy is looking at her with a shocked expression and tubbo isnt even talking and the new kid is trying to shield tubbo from her and suddenly all the feelings from pogtopia start rushing back and shes like oh. not enough to stop the mania but enough to sting hard enough, like a pin that she puts in the thought itself for another time

i thought the utah reveal was very funny. i also wish wilbur got to talk to more people, and i think that itd be interesting for him to talk to ghostboo whos like god i was SO scared for people to know this "real me", the me that everyone would be scared of, but now that i dont care about any of that anymore im free!! and wilbur would also talk to like. idk various others including more genuine convos with eret and with all of it eventually shes able to get to a calm resolution of. i need to be somewhere else when things are good enough that i can leave

and cdream dies (<-fully talking in terms of my rewrite now) and wilbur makes sure tommy is okay and everything and Then something similar to the utah reveal but like. slightly less mentally ill happens. wilbur is still sorta vague and tommy gets panicked and pissed thinking wilburs about to commit suicide again and wilburs like oh god no i just. i need to be somewhere else to change without everyones eyes on me. i dont like this me i think theres something deep inside me thats broken and im trying to repair it but i cant repair it if im This me. and tommy talks about how its all just One wilbur, just going through changes like everyone else but tommy and the people who matter love wilbur, no matter what kind of wilbur hes being, because hes still himself and thats the person they love, no general or president or ghost from the past, just wilbur. whoever he wants that person to be yada yada

and it sort of Clicks for wilbur in a sense. oh, this is all just one me, and im in charge. and people stick by me because im me no matter how much i change. and i think i know what changes i need to make (around this point is like. i think this would trigger the acceptance of ghostbur in a sense. i have complicated feelings about the ghosts but just know he and wilbur would truly be the same person through and through now). but i still need to go away for a bit. just a little. and tommy trusts her and she leaves for a bit and takes hrt and takes a while just to know that she likes the changes and when she does know she likes the changes she decides ok. this is who i want to be. this is Me. and comes back eventually to heal with everyone else too

misc hcs: i think she would actually prefer relying on hrt and breast forms to full top surgery. also dont think hed care about bottom surgery. she would still like her big coats and sweaters but she'd also wear skirts more often. maybe not dresses though unless its a formal event. also think she would grow out her hair a bit but not that much. in general like.. she doesnt change That much. shes still wilbur soot. but shes happier now and she looks more comfortable, like this is the self that she wants to be. i think she would feel like whatever broke inside her was slowly being patched back together

(and eventually, she realizes there was never anything broken about her in the first place. and she sits on a balcony and she still gets an intrusive thought about jumping but she knows she doesnt want to, not anymore. shes alive, and shes herself, and shes making the most of it.)

*staring at myself in the mirror* do NOT think about c!wils guitar do not think about him getting it when he was little and playing it constantly do not think about him playing it for money as he traveled to the smp do not think about him playing it for the og lmanberg crew do not think about him writing the anthem do not think about him being forced to leave it behind after the election do not think about it getting destroyed in the explosion on november 16th do not think about him spending months in exile and years in limbo and just forgetting about it do not think about him getting revived and walking around singing to himself do not think about him moving to utah and finding a little music shop near his shitty ass gas station do not think about him saving up his paychecks for months and doing anything he could to save some money do not think about him sitting down in his shit apartment playing again for the first time in god knows how long and it’s not quite the same it’s not quite his but it’s good enough

hey so i fucking googled tallulah to see if it was a real name and

TNT Duo but make it Dracula-flavored

GO READ IT NOW

masterlist

your city gave me asthma series (i'm not like her)-

jubilee line- talking about london and how he got asthma and the poor people who committed suicide on the line.

saline solution- he's struggled with intense health anxiety for a very long time: health anxiety meaning that he's constantly afraid that he's sick, dying or suffering from some other medical issue he isn't aware of. the lyrics detail his constant grappling with these ideas..

since i saw vienna- visiting austrian capital vienna, while simultaneously experiencing loneliness, companionship, and the urge to keep travelling.

losing face- getting broken up with his partner and being told to wait for them, only for his ex to immediately get a new partner.

your sister was right- this song is about the singer feeling dejected and insecure in himself because he's a bad lover. he treated the girl he loved incredibly poorly despite how he feels for her, and feels guilty because she ignored the warnings from ger sister that he would hurt her.

la jolla- about a man who doesn't feel good enough and has distant dreams if leaving to start fresh somewhere different.

i'm sorry boris- singer becomes torn between leaving the united kingdom when the uk government is struggling to do good for the uk and staying home because his loved ones are there and he doesn't want to leave them behind.

I dont support wilbur anymore.

since i saw vienna by wilbur soot

Reblog if you struggle with loneliness, substance abuse, or a desperate need to escape London

CAN ANYBODY HEAR ME. HELLO.

My favourite lyrics from each Wilbur Soot song from YCGMA;

(Im so bored pls help-)

"Shout at the wall, 'Cause the walls dont fucking love you" - Jubilee Line

"If I could just break one more night, Maybe I could wake up and feel alright" - Saline Solution

"Treating my memory of you like a fire, let it burn out, dont fight it and try to move on" - Since I Saw Vienna

"First and foremost, let it be said, my dear, I was gonna wait for you. So this is not an act of spite, Its a visceral coming-to" - Losing Face

"I've lost a piece of me in you, but you've lost all your past" - Losing face

"Every time that I miss you, I feel the way you hurt" - Your Sister Was Right

"I dont deserve you, you deserve the world" - Your Sister Was Right

"You know I've tried hard to love me too. It always seems to fall in, through" - La Jolla

soz if someone else has done this but if so then we're doing it again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YCGMA‼️‼️

the cute bomber jacket youve had since sixth form adorned with patches of places you’ve been is nothing on my khaki coat i got from a roadside when i was 16 my boots are from airports my backpacks from friends im not a man of substance and so ill pretend to be a wanderer wondering leaving ascetic belongings in hostels and resturant bins the roads are my home this horizons my target if i keep on moving never lose sight of it treating my memory of you like a fire let it burn out dont fight it and try to move on its been sixty weeks since i saw vienna a bandage and a wild smile slapped across my face ill pick up my hiking boots when i am ready and ill put down my roots when im dead the distance is futile come on dont be hasty youll get that feeling deep inside your bones ill be gone then when you must be alone

Tallulah: hi :DD

Sunny: you fucking scare me

tallulah: yay! :DD

Y’all please help me melody are trapped in co with these two -flippa

id like to let it be known that I Will Never Be Normal Again