i think regressing to your middle school self in college should be more normalized. im meant to be listen to mcr and playing undertale while neglecting my finals!

I need a ren faire but on womyns land or something. No men allowed in my fantasy medieval land. Just women dressed in ahistoric outfits and fairy wings and drinking ale and playing harps or flutes and weaving on a loom and I want delicious soup served to me in a bread bowl and the queen is paraded around. Sorry for all the peasant posting lately btw, I get stuck in these modes sometimes, it'll pass and I'll be back to neolithic ukraine soon enough. Middle age england never keeps my attention for long, even in an anachronistic, recreational setting. But I do love hildegard of bingen. And classic medieval art styles. I hope to visit a castle someday.

I'm going to share something extremely silly that happened to me today and that made my whole "back to work day", bearable and amusing!

I shared this OMR Beauty post in my instagram story, thinking I was only sharing it to my "close friends" aka my sister but accidentally posted for everyone to see and got more comments on it than whenever I post a personal picture lmao

My message was "LOOOK AT HIM!!!! 😍😍" (in Spanish) and the comments I got were like "I AM LOOKING" and "I CAN'T STOP LOOKING! 😍" lmao

Didn't know so many of my instagram acquaintances had such good taste in men, to be honest, but even my more conservative friend was like "Who is him and where can I find more about him?" LMAO

My friend who rewatched Young Royals with me also told me she always forgets how beautiful Omar is until she looks at him again? lol I don't know how she can forget about it, I think about Omar being the most gorgeous man in this planet all the time 🤭

Ohh and my sister's actual comment? "Okay I get it. I don't share it but I get it. And showing skin in the middle of winter, wow Omar Rudberg wow" lol

I tried crochet for the first time. How am I doing?..

I read a fanfic last year that inspired me to try knitting. I decided to reread it, and this time it inspired me for this. What's next? I'll start writing?

i love using the operator as a religious symbol!

when i was like… nine and making a marble hornets (and by correlation creepypasta) oc i literally named him “the disciple”. he’s a character i’ve recently re-adopted from myself and i’ve been working on making him “better” (he might be the character i use in my story wip).

but the idea of viewing the operator as some messed up deity! you definitely don’t worship him, but the sickness consumes you, body and mind so what else can you do besides surrender?

he is not kind, but he keeps you alive.

you lose minutes, hours, months of your life but it keeps you alive where anyone else would die, it heals you. so you continue to lose more time. but as it goes on, you become more plaint. the lines blur about what he’s making you do, and what you’re wanting to do.

We like the future spouse readings. Others make us feel bad for wanting them, and say we’re desperate and need to use tarot for self improvement instead. But we truly enjoy the FS readings and appreciate all that you do.

And on top of that shit…..each one of any FS readings explains that you need to work on the SELF to manifest your person, goals etc. We just can’t tell you through a fuccin general reading what PERSONAL SELF WORK that pertains to the person specifically that’s what private readings are for, we can give a general outline but then again if you want to read about love to raise your vibe why shouldn’t you! ESP if it helps you with self awareness and esteem! NOBODY SHOULD MAKE YOU FEEL BAD AND DESPERATE FOR WANTING LOVE! That’s MAJOR growth to the self too! Give yourself the love that you crave to manifest it! I LOVE YOU FOR LOVING THE WORK! I honestly don’t want you guys feeling fuccin bad and desperate for believing in a concept that’s glamorized for being fake and unrealistic! I’m not stopping the love readings I promise!

DO NOT EVER FEEL BAD FOR WANTING LOVE READINGS IDGAF IF THATS ALL YOU CRAVE! At the end of the day this is YOUR LIFE YOU’RE ENTITLED TOWARDS WHAT BRINGS YOU JOY!

FANTASY OF APHRODITE DAUGHTER

We are touching and talking when I look at her lips and touch her face to get her red hair out of the way and kiss her. She kisses me back and grabs me by the waist, bringing our bodies closer to each other's chests to excite us. I can’t control myself and I go down to a breast, kiss it, and nibble on her nipple. My fingers travel down to her hips, as I grab onto them, I trace her inner thigh with my fingertips giving her goosebumps. She reaches for my breast, gropes it, and takes it to her mouth while with her other hand, she runs it down my butt to squeeze it. So as she has my breast in her mouth, one hand full on my ass, the other finally made it to my center to move my undies to the side so our wet lips could kiss. I became desperate, so I held her hand and made her put it inside me so I could feel her closer. That's when I search for her lips with my fingers and the game begins slowly and with gentle movements, although again desperation wins and I go quickly. In that desperation, I kiss her body and settle down between her legs. I'm tasting that sweet juice that she emanates and listening to her moan, it turns me on some more. We have already cum so many times and now we are lying on each other sides giving each other love and cuddles.

Hi all, sorry I've been a little absent lately. Work has been a little hectic with the new trimester and trying to wrap up before Christmas break, I got sick, and this time of year is generally weird for me (explanation under the cut). But Christmas break is almost here! So hopefully some updates are coming your way soon. Thanks for sticking around ❤️

Christmas time is weird for me the last few years. The day after Christmas in my senior year of college, my parents announced they were spitting up. I spent that Christmas break on the couch with my mom, doing a lot of crying and comforting ourselves with Star Wars. Last year was weird because I was low contact with my dad and didn't see him; this year, we are no contact because he got married without even telling me he was engaged. So my mental health is in a funky place this time of year, which sometimes makes wanting to write hard. Again, thanks for your patience and for sticking around ❤️❤️

Why is it that people get so mad when someone has a different opinion than theirs? I don’t express my opinion to force it on you, I express my opinion to share my point of view

I know some relationships just aren't meant to be, but that doesn't mean I don't miss the weight of his ring on my finger or the feeling of belonging

Twas a good day

i love my girlfriend so much i could talk about it forever and not get bored and i love her

I come into work, doing my daily affirmations as you do like "I'm a great server, I'm real tough, the dining floor is a battlefield, nothing can phase me" and then two older vegetarian lesbians tell me it's their 43rd anniversary and that I'm sooooo good and their new favorite waitress and they're gonna come back to see me again and my sweetiepie heart goes bum bum bum (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)

Welp.

Gonna be slightly dramatic under the cut.

Finally scheduled a tentative Last Date with partner one later this week. Am I panicking? Maybe. Could I bring myself to say anything other than "Hey, do you have time for dinner sometime this week?" with no further context? No, of course not.

I know I've spent a good while alluding to things not going well on here. I know this is the right decision based on two years of increasing insecurity and decreasing communication. But damn if it doesn't feel like maybe a mistake. Maybe I'm just being ridiculous. And it's my fault anyway, isn't it? I haven't been specifically telling them it's getting worse. Maybe we could've saved something if I kept talking about it.

But it's so hard to keep talking about it when you feel like you want to die and then don't get a response for eight hours. When you need someone to spend time with you because you're going to hurt yourself otherwise, but they're busy. When you all but beg to do the things you used to do; that helped quiet your brain, and those things only happen immediately after the conversation and never again. Maybe it isn't my fault. But it feels like it.

Nothing has even happened yet and I'm a melodramatic mess. Not that I've been anything different for the past few months.

Oh my god... I just realized... that the universe wants Kurtbastian to be. Just, look:

Kurt Hummel → portrayed by Chris Colfer → who also played Carson Phillips → who was struck by lightning.

Sebastian Smythe → portrayed by Grant Gustin → who also played Barry Allen → who was struck by lightning.

What are the odds?!

...I know, I know. I'm seeing things that aren't really there. But! I don't care! I love this coincidence anyway 🤷🏼‍♀️😂