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estrophore · 10 months

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Signalis Post (barely coherent thought vomit)

So I finished signalis on Monday and i think ive just about recovered enough for me to make a gush post about it on tumblr dot com, which i think i have to do cause i dont think any other game has really hit me as hard as this one. Spoilers obvs.

Being pre-transion, with that associated depression and closing off from oneself, ive always found it difficult to get out my feelings, even in private with just myself, and yet signalis has filled me throughout with its beautiful romantic melancholy and left me genuinely sobbing for the gay robot and her space girlfriend (almost worried that if id played this game on estrogen it might actually have just killed me on the spot). the only other times i can think of where i really cried were playing We Know The Devil near the beginning of the year, which really fkin hit the part of me that struggles to accept myself, and that time i rewatched the last episode of she-ra after reading the ‘Word War Etheria’ fanfic, which brings the characters so much more to life i fell for them all over again.

Signalis is a game that calls back to a lot of classic horror like resident evil and silent hill, which i havent got round to playing any of yet, but i think nostalgia works both ways sometimes and i’ll be playing them sooner now. sometimes horror gets stereotyped as all death and violence, some games fill themselves with skulls and corpses, and big ugly monsters and basically shout ‘DEATH!’ in your face repeatedly and it all just comes off as a bit garish and ridiculous and not actually very scary really. Signalis sits at the other end of that scale (with some of my other fav horror games like soma, cry of fear) where its environs are most usually just… quiet. Still. Muffled. Sad. just as often as theres tension or creeping fear because of this i find theres a strange kind of comfort too. Maybe its just that in most other genres of games theres so much of music, UI elements, pickups and interactibles with vibrant design. Here, theres room for your mind to just occupy the space. A soft fog. A dimly lit room. An empty train. Snow out a window. Liminal spaces that dont expect anything from you.

Signalis is a game thats just simply, unapologetically gay, and i dont think i would have been quite so invested in Elster and Ariane’s relationship if they were a straight couple. Its why representation is important, if art’s way for us to explore our emotions then its important to have media that we can relate to. Even Adler’s role isnt typically masculine. Our replika characters are manufactured, designed for certain roles in the base. Notes from the tough Stars and Storchs in the shooting range, the dollish Eules with the fairy lights and music player in the dorm. I couldnt help but think of groups of Eules sat around chatting, together, and im yearning for that feeling of togetherness, of understanding a friend that closely. I somehow missed the couple in the mineshaft (next playthough, ill find you v_v ). Despite the harshness of life in the Eusan nation (especially for the gestalts) the characters in it are defined by their feelings of belonging and hope. With the obvious parallels to east germany, i think of posters of cosmonauts and space travel from the time. Propaganda, sure but also made with the genuine belief in something greater. When the events of the game take this away, well, we find the last Kolibri, whod rather lose herself than lose her [ah. Im not sure theres a word here to properly describe the relationship they embody]. Its a game defined by loneliness.

We dont lie up at night scared by some corrupted android. We arent stuck with horror at the flesh everywhere, not on its own. We lie awake thinking about Elster and Ariane’s love for each other, the horror of their decline, the futility of trying to hold on forever. Its existential horror done perfectly. It shows an ending postponed and stretched far beyond its limits, and so squarely reminds you that you do, in fact, have to die one day. You’ll break down. One day you’ll say your last words to the people you love and you wont even know you have. Ariane’s final few diaries arrive with the full force of the narrative behind it, like a spear through my heart. For the record, I got the promise ending. Im still sad. It's a game about raging desperately against an unfair ending. I might think about this game for the rest of my life. I would sincerely say its an artistic masterpiece, by the sure definition of video games as art.

I like that the story leaves a lot open and abstract. I think it makes the emotional themes takes centre stage more. And i havent had nearly enough time to sift through it and come up with my own takes, we’ll need a few more playthroughs for that. And theres so much more to say that cant go in just these few paragraphs! Signalis is a game about two girls who had to run away from everything to find someone they belonged with. The universe may be cold and bleak, but you have to try, you might just find something beautiful, even if it doesnt last forever. I think if anything, we should all have the chance to find love and happiness like that, and we shouldnt have abandon a world that doesnt work for us to do it.

#signalis #lgbt #lesbian #long ass emotional ramble post #fuck im nearly crying again #horror #liminal #signalis spoilers #elster #ariane yeong

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petrichoremojis · 3 months

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could you make some transitioning symbols?

- medical transion

- social transition

- name change

- detransition

- bottom surgery

Thank you!

ID: A drawing of a light blue circle with a white cross on it across from a pink square with a white cross on it. A pink arrow points from the circle to the square and a blue arrow points from the square to the circle. End ID

ID: A drawing of a light blue circle next to a pink square, both in a speech bubble. A pink arrow points from the circle to the square and a blue arrow points from the square to the circle. End ID

ID: A drawing of two nametags, each with different symbols representing different names. There are two black arrows pointing from the first to the second. End ID

ID: A drawing of two nametags, each with different symbols representing different names. There are two red arrows pointing from the first to the second. End ID

ID: A drawing of a light blue circle to the left of a pink square. A pink arrow between them points from the circle to the square, and a blue arrow above them points from the square to the circle. End ID

ID: A drawing of a pink square, light blue circle, and light green triangle in a diagonal line. A blue arrow points from the square to the circle, and a green arrow points from the circle to the triangle. End ID

ID: A drawing of a pair of boxers across from a pair of panties. An arrow points from the boxers to the panties and another arrow points from the panties to the boxers. End ID

ID: A drawing of a pink pair of boxers across from a light blue pair of panties. A pink arrow points from the boxers to the panties and a blue arrow points from the panties to the boxers. End ID

Here!! The first is 'medical transition', the second is 'social transition', the next two are 'name change', the next two are 'detransition', and the last two are 'bottom surgery'!!!

There's another variant to bottom surgery but it'll be posted on its own as it contains nudity

The first detransition symbol is meant to show detransition that's seen as going back to your original gender, and the second detransition symbol is meant to show detransition as another transition. We know different detransitioners see it in different ways so we wanted to make sure both were represented

#Emojis #Custom emojis #petrichoremojis #trans emojis #queer emojis #detransition #medical transition #social transition #name change #bottom surgery #Requests #Long post #Idiosyncrasy's tag #verbs #nouns

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lilithtransrights · 11 months

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Are you ok Lily? You rebloged middle school transion manga 5 times

It's just so beautiful

Makes me cry every time ♥️

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heartofhubris · 7 months

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WIP Tag game

Got tagged by @dlishpencils - Thank you!

RULES: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

Gotta put this under a read more, so going to tag @zorgishborg @overlookedfile @writingkitten @curbitkirby and anyone following me with WIPs!

Victorian AU

Andres & Fi | Gun Kink

Andres |Cane E

Angels Lives

Armand/Riene-marie/reader one

Adutodale

Boris + Special fluids???

Buck/Harding fuckin

Cliff the steal IVF

Doctor who

Edy | underwear + chain

Ford Pines & Reunion

Ghoastie quentin and acedia

ghosts

Harding | Blood and sitting on a lap

Harding | Food Love + food restrictions

Harding | Fucking machine?

Harding | Morning Texts

Harding | Transion Kink

Harding | Voyer + priest Kink

His assistant; rainy morning accidently fallasleep together

Important Rickya nd red panties

Insomniac Olympics | Drank/James

Max & Vik after the Eradon the unreliable

Maxim | Piss Kink

Maxim Horvath Romen Era

Misc Hand kisses

Misc sex snip to use

Mullet stan gangbang

Otto | Drunk texts

Otto | Trans reader, T

Otto norman | reader dom fight

Pac rim

Silco and reader

snidley |Crossdressing

Stephen | van sex + pick up line

Werewolf ford for beta

Z Armand | 3 some and reine-marie dom moment | cool epic thing hubris is doing

z Ghostie | Acedia kissing ottos forehead

z lucius needful | magic dildo

z Maxim + fuckin in a blanket fort | in our bedroom (after tehw ar)

z Maxim | blood blood blood blood | plotted

z Maxim | sex pollen | plotted

z Otto Rosie Reader realing they're all together | Plotted

z Snidley | plotted, drabble

Portrait of a lady - au

Ford's fucking his hand and pillow

#I might be culling some of these tho since there's so many #clearly i dont know 45 people so #writing

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shantechni · 9 months

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The character I wanna talk about is Zog! Crazy that they break your heart with both his iterations in similar but different ways

03 Zog. I love this guy. Granted that’s only because he appears to be permanently loopy from too much oxygen, so he remains on our side after getting his breathing apparatus fixed. Even still, he’s a great help to the team, he’s loyal, even in his intro narration says the “recom team” are great warriors he’s proud to fight with 🥲

And then Shredder injures him, and then he grabs hold of Shredder to try and take him out while sacrificing himself 😭. Which didn’t work. 🤬

Side note: in his narration he says the attack on Shredder’s ship is in preparation for an invasion. Ever since I first saw it I was like “Prep for what now? 😐” And then the invasion happens in S3! And I guess I made up in my mind that Zog had called them with his location bc I can’t find anything saying that, but at the time I was like “Zog, no! You screwed us over!”

Now 2012 Zog! Oh boy. Need to rewatch but I remember the gist and skimmed Turtlepedia. Same basic set up. Separated triceraton a little loopy from too much oxygen, joins the turtles, in this instance Raph specifically bonds with him. Helps turtles discover the kraang are back on earth, but loses the loopiness when his nitrogen supplier is fixed. He turns on the turtles, says he’s not mad at Raph for lying 😃, but only bc he expected that kind of thing from earthlings, oof 😬. Now this Zog does call the triceratons to invade AND blow up the earth bc the kraang are there! He rejects Raph’s friendship as they fight, and when he’s offered Raph’s hand to save him, he let’s go. 😨

Yeah they really twisted the knife with each version, huh-

It's hard to determine which story was more tragic honestly. He remained an ally to the turtles up to his sacrifice in the '03 series thanks to his lack of mental clarity, but the turtles had to face his eventual betrayal in the '12 series (and Raph had to once again witness the fall of someone he grew to care for, this time a fall to their death). I wonder if we'll ever get a version of him that doesn't die😭

I think that line in the '03 series about an invasion was pertaining to them infiltrating the ship the Foot clan and Shredder were on, not Earth lol. He believes Splinter and the turtles are fellow Triceratons and they convinced him that they're entering a Federation stronghold to take the Federation down. The only reason the Triceratons invaded Earth was because they traced the Fugitoid's transionic particle trail to the planet, which led them to believe he was taking refuge there. They assumed the trail resulted from the use of the teleportal to escape capture, but it actually resulted from the Utroms using their transmat to bring the turtles back to Earth.

#answering your asks #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2003 #tmnt 2012 #tmnt 2k3 #tmnt 2k12

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genderqueerdykes · 2 years

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just learned the term salmacian its when someone wants to have both genital sets and it makes me so happy this is a thing theres a word for how i feel!!

now if only people would stop saying its a fetish or calling it intersexist or "transitoning to intersex" no i do not claim to be intersex and i never will be intersex calling "transioning to intersex" is intersexist but the term itself is not please can people use critcal thinking skills :/

i agree, that's not intersexist or fetishistic to want that, that is a very trans experience! i've known many, many people who want both sets of genitals, that's actually one of the many things that lead me to realize i was trans. like yes, i am intersex and now i realize why i specifically wanted both sets of genitalia, so it would be more "obvious" as to why i'm like this. but nobody needs a "good reason" to want to have both sets of genitals.

that's a perfectly fine and normal expression of transsexuality or transness, whatever term you wanna use and i agree, people struggle with critical thinking skills. the only time it's a fetish is when you dehumanize people who have gone through procedures to get that, or, were born with ambiguous or traits from both sets of genitals. wanting that in yourself is not dehumanizing to other people, you are your own person and have the rights and autonomy to do what you want with your body.

have a good day, take care, and i think you're very cool >:3

#asks #answers

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medicslover · 1 year

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In Your Bedroom

THIS IS 18+ !!!! NSFW !!!!

Cross-posted on AO3! The reader is very clearly a self-insert of myself, so be nice! these are MY personal headcanons for Tommy, in which she is transfem and a lesbian, sorry man likers. Do not envision a genderswapped Thomas when reading this please!! My version of Tommy is not going through a transion besides growing out her hair and is happy with the way she looks. Think of canon Thomas with longer hair instead. Have fun!!

Summary ~ Tommy and the reader cuddle while they play Splatoon 3 and then bone.

Warnings: Breeding and sickeningly sweet fluff

Word count: 1647

Dry Texas heat sticks to your skin, even with the ceiling fan on full blast you are no match for the sheer amount of heat. Thomas, the gentlelady she is, crept downstairs to get you the strawberry Monster you had brought over earlier today to share. The little game system rests in your hands as you wait to be placed into a match, quiet music falling upon deaf ears. You lean back, looking up at the decorations hanging from the walls, and you notice Ozzy staring into the inky depths of your oh-so-edgy soul. Giggling at that thought, you look back at the game; a little pinging noise rings out, Finally!

The internet here sucks ass, you had to have been waiting for at least 5 minutes, but that doesn't stop you from trying. (even if you get kicked out and temporarily banned for an hour.) The match starts, and you can hear the creaky bedroom door open, and the trademark heavy footsteps mixed with the shuffling of their feet against the floor.

"Welcome back Pookie!" You squeal quietly as she sits down next to you on the bed, placing your respective can of Monster on her side table. her face crinkles at the nickname you bestowed upon her. They start typing on their phone, so you go back to killing other players with Aerospray spam, successfully team-killing all four enemy players.

"RAAAAH!! eagle emoji, eagle emoji, eagle emoji, fire emoji, American flag emoji!" you exclaim, making sure to be careful with your voice to not wake up Ms. Luda Mae in the next room. A robotic feminine tone rings out into the quiet room shortly after your outburst,

"Shark attack in the aquarium, shark atta- shark attack in the aquarium, sha- shark- shark attack in the- shark-" you look up at Tommy, her phone in her hand, spamming her TTS app. She looks so proud of herself, a smile playing on her lips like she wants to laugh. They look so pretty like this, leather mask abandoned from her face, scarred cheek on display, you can see into her mouth through the hole. She's missing her nose but it doesn't seem to take away from her beauty. her scarred cleft lip twitches as she notices your staring, smile faltering for a moment.

"Oh! I'm sorry, I didn't realize I was staring directly at you." You exhale, feeling the warmth of fresh blood rush to your face, you can only hope that the red fairy lights strung from the ceiling can hide it. Looking back at your game, you check the map. The opposing team managed to infiltrate your team's base while you were AFK. With only a few seconds left, you accept your defeat and place the Switch down on the bed next to you. You look back up at Tommy, she's watching you carefully, "You're just really pretty, sometimes I can't help myself, and I space out when I look at you. You know I think you're the prettiest person I've ever been with, right?" you clarify, you lean into her, pressing your face into her meaty shoulder. God, I love this woman. you think, inhaling her honey-like scent.

"You're too sappy. I love you." The robotic tone spits out. Tommy's large hand wraps around your wrist, the one with the matching half-heart pendant to hers. She brings your wrist, and attached hand, up to her face, Pressing her lips against the back of your hand. She begins their little routine of treating you like Morticia Adams, herself playing the role of Gomez. She trails kisses up your arm feverishly, only stopping momentarily when she gets to the sleeve of her T-shirt. You laugh, letting yourself be manhandled by your girlfriend. She reaches for her phone again, "Nice shirt." The monotone voice rings. The voice was right, it is a nice shirt, especially because you stole it from a very pretty lady. It hangs too big on you, even being a bigger person yourself, like a dress more than a shirt, it has the Slipknot logo printed on it.

"Thanks! You'll never guess where I got it," You giggle. Thomas continues her kisses up your neck, craning down to meet its height. She moves up, kissing where your face meets your ear, trailing to kisses all over your face. She lets out a dramatic airy sigh, placing their final kiss on your lips. You lift your leg and use the hand that is holding your wrist to create the momentum needed to fling yourself on her lap. You wrap your thighs around her hips as much as possible, fitting together like a puzzle piece. Your head is right at her chest level because of the height difference, so you lean forward and pretend to sleep, your head in between her very muscly and meaty breasts.

"I'm so in love with you, Tommy." You lift your head to look at her, a small smile playing on your lips. Her eyes light up, and she softly wraps her arms around your waist. She stares down at you for a few moments, tilting her head as if that would help her read your mind. She tests her luck, rolling her hips in an attempt to grind into you. "Oh, um, if you're asking if we can do that then it's a yes!" you squeak, quickly adding, "Only if you want to though! I didn't mea-" You're cut off by her face smooshing against yours.

She rolls you onto your back, towering over you as she takes off her tightly fitted shirt, and slips out of their jean shorts. They grab their phone again, scrolling for a little bit before the red stereo blinks on with a "Bluetooth connected!" She smiles with her teeth, showing off her bigger-than-average canines. You're a mess, giggling and blushing and rocking side to side from where you lay, giddy with excitement and sheer love for the dork on top of you. Custer by Slipknot comes on before quickly Tommy lets out a nervous yelp, quickly changing it to No More Tears by Ozzy Osbourne.

"Nice save," You giggle, Tommy is quick to glare and bare her teeth, pushing up your (her) shirt and biting down on your plush stomach. You let out a yelp, attempting to cover your stomach with your hands, but Thomas is quick to catch them. Grabbing both wrists in one hand, she takes off your (her) shirt carefully, making sure your hands can't escape her grasp. She uses one hand to slide your pink and white skull-and-crossbones shorts and underwear out from under you by lifting you. All the while you just can't stop giggling, She's so cute when she's like this.

She places her open hand between your legs, finding your clit with two fingers, she swirls around it gently for a few seconds before checking if you're prepared for her. She deems you adequate and lays herself on top of you very carefully, treating you like glass. She keeps their hand on your wrists, holding herself up some as she finds your entrance with the head of her penis. She pushes in with an audible whimper, burring her head into your neck and biting down hard. Her hair spills over your face, but you're too focused on her being inside of you for you to notice how it tickles your nose and cheeks. She groans into your neck as she starts rocking her hips, rutting into you. Her back is extremely arched so she can even reach your neck with her face.

She removes her face from your neck, lifting herself so she can hump into you better. She isn't even pulling out much, just chasing her pleasure inside of your tight walls. She's shaking with pleasure as she begins to finally pull out and push in normally, taking her open palm and covering her mouth to stop herself from moaning. Hot breaths escape from the hole in her cheek, and so do some soft, high-pitched, and whiny sighs. She grabs her phone in a shaking hand, and over the music, you hear "I want to breed you." in that same monotone voice. You know exactly what she wants to hear.

"Please? Will you breed me, please?" You whine, bucking your hips to meet hers. She quickens her pace, and soft slapping flesh sounds surround your ears. She lets go of your wrists and lifts your legs to her waist, motioning for you to keep them there. She slides her knees underneath your thighs and ass, holding you in a Breeding Press. You can feel your release approaching, but she looks closer. Tommy catches onto that fact at about the same time, rubbing into your clit softly with their open palm.

You grab onto the sheets tightly as an orgasm wracks through your body, and Tommy places her hand on your throat with a gentle squeeze. She rocks into you, and something warm spills into you as they keep going. When she's sure she's filled you enough, she collapses on top of you, soft belly pressing into your ribs and abdomen. She's quick to roll off and wrap her arms around you, grabbing her phone once again.

"Are you okay? did I hurt you?" she asks, nuzzling her face into my hair.

"Yeah, I'm okay! Are you?" You sigh with contentment, and she nods, almost purring as she curls around me, cuddling like a human pretzel. I turn my head to face her, placing a few kisses on her face. Her phone still in her hand,

"You looked so pretty begging to be bred, I bet you'll look prettier with my baby inside of you." The monotone voice mocks like it doesn't even know what it's saying.

"God you are such a lesbian, Tommy." You giggle, finally burying your head in her neck and falling asleep.

#thomas hewitt x reader #thomas hewitt x you #thomas hewitt x y/n #thomas hewitt #luda mae hewitt #x reader #self insert

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