random bullshit

Dude what the fuck is Art School?

so many things i want to do and so little time and energy 💖

a fun game to play when you have adhd is “is my hyperfixation fading or do I just need a long nap” “is my hyperfixation fading or am I just burnt out” “is my hyperfixation fading or did I just forget to eat again” “is my hyperfixation fading or is this actually depression” etc etc.

Love characterising nishikiyama as a booze hound drug hound meth addict high every day body mass 75% alcohol hands constantly shaking literally spacing out while driving fifty over the speed limit using elderly folk as speedbumps one hand on the wheel and one hand free to do more drugs and coming into work while functionally deaf and blind and he is still leagues more competent at his job than kiryu

i need friends /gen (slight rant in tags)

Also guys, if you've sent me something in Discord, I have not seen it. I've had Discord closed for several days now because that app just makes me feel worse when I feel socially withdrawn, and in general I am mostly offline these days (you could tell..) . (I also got like 10 asks about ships....... I will get to them but huge amount of positive engagement makes me feel shy)

The Art of Chill but with Brooklynn and Ben post-island

Aaah Mia I was so excited to see that you watched Barbie! What did you think of it?

Alright, I'm gonna put this under the cut for anyone who wants to avoid spoilers!

Faye, would you believe me if I told you that this was very out of my usual comfort zone? :D Because it was! I never really watch movies like these. Actually, pretty much the only movies I make a point of checking out nowadays are horror movies. Especially indie horror movies! (A24 my beloved) I don't talk much about my love for horror genre on this blog, since I know it's definitely not for everyone, but I am, in fact, a huge horror fan. That aside, I went to see the Barbie movie mostly for the aesthetic of it. I honestly didn't have any expectations for it, and that's how I like it. We're all there to have a good time! It doesn't have to be groundbreaking or anything. (I'm looking at you unnecessary internet discourse, I am shooing you away with a comically large broom!) And... I had a good time with it! Had quite a few genuine laughs, was very impressed with the production of it, and the acting was great! This movie was made with love, and you know? That's what I appreciate the most about it. We don't get that often nowadays, sadly. (Definitely not the fault of the creators, the movie industry right now is absolutely horrendous with the way it treats its creators)

I even cried! Wow! But, uh, that's not that impressive, since... I cry at everything. Show me a video of a cute cockatoo snuggling, and I will sniffle away. Well, I do have two specific scenes that are definitely stuck in my head. In a good way!

I couldn't help but think about that scene where Barbie asks permission to be herself, and then she gets told that she doesn't need permission for that as I got back home. That no one can give her permission to do that, because that's just something you start doing yourself. I definitely thought about that scene for some time.

But, oh, my absolute favorite scene was something else.

The moment I cried was when Barbie was admiring the old lady sitting next to her on the bench. Because that's what it means to be human and that's what life is. And she saw her imperfection, and aging, and realized that it was beautiful. Barbie was so afraid of being imperfect, of getting old and dying, and then she saw that all of this could be beautiful too, and she cried, and I cried too.

Overall, I recommend it! It's a heartfelt movie that you can laugh at, cry at, and just have a good time with it. I can see myself rewatching it when I need a pick-me-up :)

What about you, Faye? What are your thoughts on the Barbie movie? 👀

I've said this before but as much as I was screaming at my screen, this is an opportunity for ttj to raise roots somewhere that not only includes the love of his life but also relationships without ridonkulous power imbalances among a supportive community and a new way of life outside the expectations set upon him since birth. who knows, maybe he'll choose to embrace his devil god fate lord knows the tension would not only be palpable but sexy af or maybe he'll become the supreme ultimate botanical sword master but he finally gets to be an active agent of his own life, choosing people, values, and goals for his own future, and hopefully, his journey (and lss's own growth returning + learning her identity) will reunite them knowing they're stronger, happier, and simply uplift each other when together. ttj's enduring love surmounted death and five centuries of agony to bring him to her place in the immortal realm, now it's up to them to figure themselves out and truly make it their home.

i might have to ask my chaucer prof for an extension on this assignment and fucking god i really don't want to. i REALLY don't want to

i've already had to email him to get the details on literally every single assignment and quiz we've done for two different classes bc he keeps forgetting to give them to us on time, so he definitely knows me by now and i am TERRIFIED it's getting annoying even tho i know it was fully justified. i also recently had to ask him to move my presentation date back for this class (bc he didn't fucking give us the topics for weeks on end so i couldn't have started it early even if i hadn't been too busy to try) which he did do

but i am Going Through It rn w my brain. it's getting really bad again. whenever i open the doc w my essay i just have this wave of anxiety and i can't start writing it. there's only five days left until the deadline, it is five pages and i've written two sentences of the intro + have no sources, i do not have time to procrastinate on this i barely have time to finish it as it stands rn

if you order one of those new frozen refreshers from sbux you're going to hell

My anxiety is getting out of control and I can't stand it, the feeling of anxiousness that can arrive at any moment and cuts my appetite and makes me feel like I'm about to write an exam is, well frustrating.

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I have a migraine 🤪

hi!!! i was wondering, when are u going to update your momrry fic?? tsm!!

hi anon!

i’m assuming you haven’t seen the updates i’ve been giving, but: every fic wip i have currently standing will be finished, but due to extenuating circumstances ie having a lot on my plate in several different areas, i cannot give an exact time frame!

very happy to hear you’re enjoying! it’s the first thing on my docket to finish right now, but the second chapter should be done soon 🩷