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lady-lycany · 1 year

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The list with my most important and noticable identities that I've mentioned yesterday. I knew it would become more text so feel free to read only what interests you the most :}

Let's start with the Werewolf which is the most common here. There was a time in life, where I heavily tried to deny it but never really succeeded. But in that time, it was more the desire to howl and to be on all fours. To be free. But I dealt less with phantom limbs like ears and tail (which are now again almost always there. Especially the ears) I count my multiple fantasy worlds into this one section cuz, yea it's all wolf. Doesn't matter if it's Wolf's Rain, Wolfblood, Teenwolf or the story with Mark, that I've going on for about half a year now lol. As I got older, I noticed, that not only I definitely don't want to be in the alpha role, but also, that I was wrong with only wanting to be a wolf. That's the problem of being a werewolf. When you're too long in the role of a human, you'll eventually need a break, but so the same with only being a wolf. You'll always need both in your life, but at the same time you'll never really belong somewhere.

InuYashas Wife. Yea, it's stupid to be in love with someone fictional, I'm aware, but even tho, I still can develop crushes on other guys, my heart still somehow belongs to him. He saved my life and spent so many ears on my side, that when we went different paths, it felt like a part of my soul left me. It got so quiet in my mind (so quiet, and lonely, that I became depressed again). I still miss him and wish I wouldn't have fcked it up (which was more the fault of my ex bestie, but I realized that a bit too late). Two years ago, I fought my blockage and spoke to him for the first time again, because he came up to me with the information, that he has a daughter now. I instantly developed mother feelings for her. I still hope, that we'll get closer together in the future again, but right now it's probably for the best if we stay apart. It hurts, but I pretty much got used to it. I still can't really rewatch the anime or amv's. It's not as bad as it was a few years ago but yea. The feelings are still there and there's still a part of my soul missing that he took with him.

Then we have Invisible Vectoria (short VEC). Some people might heard of her before. She's my OC kin and a mix between Laughing-Jack and a Diclonious. Just as I miss to run on all fours and have a tail and ears, I miss my vectors pretty badly. She was the part of me, that pushed my werewolf-self aside and made me deny it. She was the one, who was my salvation and my curse at the same time. Because she was there, I could let out all the madness in my mind without actually living it out (Even tho, she wanted to do it so badly). She was the main character of my stories that I wrote, where she could do everything she wanted. Now I'm in a state, where I try to deny her again, but it's just not so simple. Violence still kinda turns me on. I don't want to feel like that but yea... Just as I never really got rid of being a werewolf in the times where I tried to, I can't get rid of her.

Then there's the Shinigami (Kuroshitsuji) part of me. The only dream job I felt like was made for me, was being a shinigami. If I had the validation that, just as in the anime, suicide would turn you into a shinigami, I wouldn't have hesitated at all. In that time I met Eric and Alan, which are still the most important beings in my life. It already hurt when Inu left me. But if these two would leave me, I wouldn't know how to stay alive. ((Grell was my best friend back then until my exbestie forced me into a relationship with him. So he was the reason, why I felt like I cheated on Inu. Stupid huh? I know. But that's how loyal I am.)) I spend many years in the Shinigami role, and I truly miss it. I'm thinking about rewatching the anime, but I know what will happen- I will have shifts of that personality for a looong while again and many many bittersweet memories will flood my mind. I can bet on that lol. Oh yea, also, for the first time, I was glad, that I had glasses myself. The werewolf side always hated them and their unnatural feeling and so, when I was a kid, my mom had to train me, to keep em on. Every evening, when I kept my glasses on for a day, I got a little toy figure. Like a dog gets a treat when he did what he was supposed to lol. I still wish, that I wouldn't need them, but the shinigami part of me was proud and happy and I could accept them for the first time.

And also the dragon(rider) from httyd. I would say I'm more of a rider but I still wonder, where my phantom wings come from, that I have from time to time lol. I had already multiple dreams of riding on the back of a dragon and also own two Skrill dragons. Well, one is more like a good friend who visits me often but still lives free. And then there's my Skrill kiddo, that hatched from an egg in my presence. She's completely pink (the underside of the wings and her chest are light pink. I already posted a pic of her here) but her eyes are more blueish. I called her Nyssa (which translates to Fairy) and she's not the best when it comes to flying. She's still very clumsy, but I think she'll get better the older she gets. Me and Dagur were best friends and he also teached me how two write in ruins. I also miss this world a lot cuz I rarely spend time there.

And last but not least we have Spirit (stallion of the cimarron). To be honest, I still don't know if he's an actual kin of mine, but I still have a strong connection to him, the movie and the soundtracks. Every song fits perfectly to me or a situation I was in. His whole life story kinda happened in my life as well. Of course not in the literal way. More theoretically. The song "get off of my back" was translated into "bleib bloß von mir weg" which means "just stay tf away from me" in german and so all lyrics could also connect to my werwolf side.

There are also still some other things like the whole thing with the fallen angel, something zombie like and the phantom wings but I still can't seem to figure them out.

All these things are still a big part of who I am, but in the last years, I always put my werewolf-self in the front and put anything else back. And I'm not able to connect them all. I mean how would I? But it annoys me, that if someone would ask me "hey I can send you into a reality that you want the most" I couldn't respond and wouldn't know which one to pic. I want the body of a werewolf, but so I want vectors. I couldn't live without Eric and Alan but also would forever miss and hate myself for not picking Inu. And watching my little dragon grow up and live a life so free on the back of a dragon, who would want to miss that? I really couldn't decide.

#otherkin #fictionkin #ockin #otherkin community

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kkahii · 4 years

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(i don’t listen to as much kpop as i did back then, but) here’s my fave 2019 girl group tracks before nye:

nine muses - remember (2019)

i love namyu, i think about them a lot. like a lot lot.

i sometimes spend my time crying over namyu while watching their stage mixes hbu.

aoa - queendom perf version of songs (miniskirt, egotistic cover, sorry), new moon mini album

i cried when i saw them as 5. i cried when i saw ot5 miniskirt, i cried when i saw their egotistic cover, and i cried when i saw sorry. (i’m a very emotional person lol.) but i mostly cried bc they’re a 2nd gen group who’s fighting to stay in the industry, you know? even apink eunji cried while watching them heh

and i watched queendom as it aired, it was very overwhelming, especially sorry. like. nobody tf knew it was gonna be a yeehaw, nobody knew chanmi was going to do the thing. sorry, man, sorry.

they immediately had come see me after queendom ended and i personally think they did great with their performances and variety show appearances despite the song not getting a music show win and despite the promotion period getting cut short.

apink - eung eung

When apink said they were so sick of their fairy idol status, they meant it and followed thru with their current concept/vibe with eung eung (not exactly girl crush and not exactly fairy/cute, it’s in a perfect blend in between that apink was able to achieve). if aoa hadn’t made a comeback and i wasn’t a namyu stan, eung eung would have been top of my list tbh.

Idk if it's the concept change or if times have changed and their previous fans have moved on to newer groups, but their physical albums sales (wc is considered a measure of fandom power) took a deep dive, if i’m not mistaken.

despite their fandom losing steam over the past few years, they’re still a great girl group and one of the few remaining 2nd gen ggs active rn (together with aoa, brown eyed girls, and sunny hill from the top of my head). mad respect.

exid - me & you

Their last korean comeback before they officially went on hiatus. i like exid enough, i know a lot of exid things and watch a lot of their variety shows but i wouldn’t call myself a stan and i actually don’t keep track of their schedules (unlike how i am with namyu and clc, now aoa recently), so i was just happily watching their mv and comeback stages not knowing it was their last ....lol

i only found out when i saw news of hani getting signed to another agency.....

ANYWAY. They said they're not disbanded, but who knows when their nxt kr comeback is gonna be tbh. all five of them have their own thing going on tho, mostly youtubers i think, but whatever pays the bills.

baek yerin - square (2017)

her unreleased track from way back 2017 only got released earlier this month and yes, I still haven’t been able to stop playing this song. sometimes on loop, like how aoa jimin is with into the unknown.

also, "I'm so so broke like someone just robbed me" speaks to me on a spiritual level because i'm both broke emotionally and financially.

clc - no, me, devil

clc had a great year tbh: finally managed to get 5k+ hanteo sales with no.1, got their first win, and released music at a relatively good pace within the year. All members have also had schedules or something except seunghee (???? I hope she's been busy).

Sorn kinda fcked up towards the end tho, but i'm hoping she learns and makes up for it. ONE THING tho. i know stans would do anything to protect their faves, but it was very disappointing seeing cheshires ~defend sorn by making shit up re: the timestamps of her posts. ppl be asking what happened and yall be like, “NOTHING she posted that one pic before the other and stan twitter just overreacting” please don’t do this. please don’t distort facts like timestamps of posts and all that. let her speak for herself and own up to it herself.

dreamcatcher - and there was no one left

i like that dk are doing their own thing with their kpop rock and elaborate choreography and mvs and all that, unfortunately, i am not into the genre...BUT THEN i saw someone say ‘hey this sounds like a city pop song (it’s not)’ so i gave this song a listen and now it's the only song ever? yes.

taeyeon - gravity

taengsic. hahaha, jk ......................unless??

lovelyz - moonlight / oh my girl - guerilla

i lumped these two together because i really like these songs but sometimes when i think about them, i can’t remember what they sound like for some reason. (sorry.)

aa team - instagram

hyejeong was so awkward lmfao remember that scene minnie was going to go for a hug but then hyejeong was like...not. dead. ALSO. hyejeong kept saying how minnie got hurt because she was rejected twice....but there she was not chosen at all :(

anyway. i’m a sucker for vocal/tone combinations like theirs. like say namyu hyemi + keumjo/sera/kyungri or clc seunghee + sorn/yeeun/yujin or taengsic (lol) ya know what i mean?

special mentions:

twice - feel special, beg - wonder woman, sunmi - lalalay, omg - destiny cover, g-idle - uh oh, cherry bullet - q&a, berry good - oh oh, wjsn - as you wish, ariaz - moonlight aria, rainbow - aurora

#my life

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urulxce · 6 years

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BACKGROUND INFORMATION:

vaashkír was a dragon who was dying when ryan was dûrion, in his past life. the war with the lich ( ry’s fantasy / canon verse ) was going poorly, and vaas offered his strength / draconic abilities and, in turn, dûrion had to allow vaas to possess his body and allow vaas to leech on his soul for strength / healing reasons. dûrion agreed. when dûrion was killed anyway, he reincarnated into Ryan Grayson, and Vaas’ soul came along for the ride, still too weak but getting stronger by the year. vaas resided within ryan until he was twenty-four years old.

WHILE THEY’RE TOGETHER IN ONE BODY .

okay so most of Ryan’s life, he never felt like he was truly alone. there would be a couple of times when Vaas would ‘’’’wake up’’’’ and speak to ryan, telling him he was worth more than anything on this planet because he was blessed with a god in his belly, telling him not to give up and fight and shit like that. vaas was a twisted sort of role model in a sense that he was always there for ry when he was going through the shit with his parents. he was never dealing with it alone. he definitely heard Vaas less whenever the serum was fresh in his system, but the longer he went without it, the louder vaas was. for a while he thought he was going crazy, but then he just kinda learned to accept it.as ryan gets older and his body grows use to the serum, vaas gets louder. this is also due to the fact that vaas himself is getting stronger, and the illness / wound that threatened to kill him is healing / going away. so naturally he will be louder. this also causes ryan’s pyrokinesis to grow stronger, and for some of vaashkír’s personality / dragon traits to bleed through into ryan. he starts becoming more self confident, arrogant, obsessed with being beautiful and beautiful things, hoarding riches / making money, power, chaos, etc. this only increases the stronger and stronger vaas gets. where vaas gets stronger, ryan is slowly but steadily getting sicker as his life force / soul is drained. this causes some resentment from ry to vaas, but vaas assures him that it won’t be much longer.

WHEN THEY’RE SEPARATED / IN TWO BODIES .

so we all know about the arc where ryan collapses on his daughter one day, forcing her to call riley ( she knows better than to call 911 since he’s a ‘’’’mutant’’’’’ ). we all know he slips into a coma that day. the doctor’s don’t know but it’s vaashkír finally waking up. he gets so excited about being healed he rips himself away from ryan to return to space, but this leaves ryan half dead. his skin begins to bruise, blossoming over all parts of his body like little galaxies, and his heart rate jumps up and stays in that state for a couple hours before dropping dangerously low. he’s really, really hot to the touch, and the fever nearly kills him, but the doctor manages to bring the fever down.

vaashkír actually returns to earth like a month after ryan is in his coma, but he doesn’t heal ryan. not yet. because he wants to see how long ryan can last. how strong he is. how many ‘’’tests’’’’ he can endure before his mind breaks. it’s a simple form of chaos that is really messed up but vaas just really wants to see how things play out. but he also won’t let ryan die either, so he’ll definitely wake him up when he feels like he’s on the cusp of death. ry and vaas are still connected — when vaas broke free, it was a jagged edge and it left pieces of him in ry and vice versa. he wakes ryan up 7 months later, and his ‘’’apology’’’’ reward is granting ryan the soul of a dragon, which vaas himself believes to be the highest praise, for a dragon is a god and what better thing to be than to be a god?

afterwards, ryan and vaashkír’s relationship is pretty fcked. part of ryan resents vaas for everything he did - for possessing him in a past life, for being so hard on his body and soul, for waiting so long to save his life when vaas knew he or another dragon was the only one that could do it ( and any other dragon wouldn’t give a shit unless there was some personal gain ). there is a part of ryan though that worships vaashkír, which is a natural ability of a dragon. they are beautiful, like nebulas and galaxies and the bright colors of space in general. people are naturally drawn towards them and ryan is no exception. he seeks out vaashkír’s approval, grooms himself and obsesses over his appearance when he knows vaas is going to be around. vaas also has a strange affection for ryan and would actually literally slaughter anyone who tried to lay a hand on ryan ( which plays a part later when necromancers start coming to earth to hunt vaas and ryan down ). if there is no ship, a se xual relationship between them occur. it’s the only way they both feel whole again; the curse of living in one body with their souls attached to each other for so long. :/

#ooc.#hc.#i need to make up my tags rifp #bUT I LOVE TWO BOYS #lmk if toni looks whitewashed dont want that !! sjkfjdfkj

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chocolatemillkk · 6 years

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Request: Can you do an imagine where the readers pregnant? And she doesn’t wanna tell joe? But with a happy ending 😂

Here it is! 💙 The request was a little vague but I did my best.

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I had been working late the last week, making up excuses so I wouldn’t have to face Joe. It’s not like I owed him anything, he wasn’t even my boyfriend-but I missed him and based on his texts, he missed me too.

Only for your body, the negative voice in my head reminds me.

It was complicated-isn’t that the premise of every cliche romance ever? But it was complicated! Joe and I knew each other for years, we were clearly attracted to one another but one of us was always in a relationship when the other wasn’t. When Joe finally broke up with his last girlfriend and showed up at my door with puppy eyes, I comforted him and that comforting led to the bedroom and that led to our secret relationship. No body knew-we’d always been close so if anyone did show up unexpectedly in the mornings, they just assumed I “slept over.”

We decided it was best to keep the relationship without any titles, even though deep down I wanted to be exclusive. I knew that Joe broke up with the girlfriends who didn’t break up with him first, because things were getting too serious. He always told me his career was important to him and I took that into consideration the first time we slept together. But now, somehow-no, probably the night we were too drunk to remember protection-I found myself pregnant. Pregnant with someone who didn’t even want me to be his girlfriend, who probably would not be able to handle a baby right now because he had one of his own-his Youtube channel.

My phone dings again-“what are you doing at work on a Friday?” Joe.

“Just busy” i quickly text back

He doesn’t respond for a while and I assume he’s dropped it until I get another text.

-Come down to the lobby

I panic “why?”

-Idc if youre busy i’m taking you out and then maybe my place after?

My heart beats erratically and I put my hand to my chest. Then it slides down to my stomach, there was a baby in there. Our baby. I feel a tear slip down my cheek before I swipe it away and respond-“be down in a min”

There was no way I could avoid this. I gather all my courage and take the lift down. I see Joe chatting with security, both of them laughing, and I want to cry all over again. I wish things didn’t have to be so complicated and I could laugh with them.

Joe catches my eye first and his face lights up, “Y/N!”

I embrace him and wave goodnight to the security guard.

“You look beautiful as always, I’ve missed you.” Joe wraps his arm around me as we exit the building and into the chilly evening air. “Are you alright?”

“Yeah!” I say quickly. “Are you alright?”

Joe ignored the question as he looks me over, “Y/N, were you crying? You sure you’re alright?”

I fake a laugh, “Crying? No of course not I’m fine…just stressed out I guess.”

“You need to come home more often, I might be able to help with the stress,” Joe chuckles as he pulls me in and kisses my forhead affectionately.

“I guess, yeah.” I fight back more tears, this baby was making me too emotional.

We end up at a bar, as I feared, and Joe orders me my usual alcoholic beverage. I take it from him so as not to raise suspicion but as soon as he goest in search of his friends I run to the bathroom. The sweet smell of alcohol made me hurl and in the process, I drip my drink out. When I find Joe, he’s talking to Caspar.

“Hey Y/N! Long time! Are you alright you look a little pale?” Caspar leans in for a hug. I assure him I was fine and join in on the conversation. Conor shows up out of nowhere in the midde and shoves a drink in my face.

“Y/N I know you like fruity drinks try this one! I bought it for a girl but I was rejected,” Conor pretends to look crushed but I’m unable to laugh because my gag reflexes suddenly decide to react.

“Y/N?” They ask as I run out into the streets and gulp in the fresh air, leaning over the curb just in case. I’m trailed by the boys, concern etched on their faces.

“Y/N drank one too many drinks?” I overhear Conor behind me, he and Caspar laugh. There’s a series of patting on my back and they tell me they’ll meet me inside. I don’t intend on going back.

“Hey,” a soft voice behind me says. “Y/N, look at me.”

I slowly turn towards Joe, I’m still feeling woozy and my cheeks are flushed. “I’m gonna head home.”

“Y/N,” he says sternly. “Something’s the matter.” I try to deny it but I can see his agitation rise and suddenly so does mine. Why did I have to deal with this? I loved Joe! Why couldn’t we just be together? It took us five years to finally get together and when we did, it would tear us apart.

“Just don’t worry about me!” I explode. “Actually, Joe…just leave me alone altogether!”

“What are you on about? Why don’t you just talk to me?! There’s been something wrong all week that’s why you’ve been avoiding me-I knew it.” Joe’s shouting by now and the veins in his neck stick out.

“I don’t want to talk about it! We’re done Joe Sugg! Whatever fcked up thing we had between us is over.” I cry without meaning to-hormones, I curse.

Joe grabs my wrist and pulls me back to him, pushing the hair behind my ear gently. “What we had wasn’t fcked up, what we have is amazing! I don’t understand why are you saying all this right now?”

“I’m pregnant Joe!” I blurt out. His face goes slack-jawed and I push away from him. “We screwed up and now I’m pregnant and you don’t need this right now and I get that-”

“When?” Joe asks.

“Who cares?” I throw up my hands. “I already know how you feel about all this! We’ve talked about your plans and kids aren’t even in it until you’re 30 remember?” I turn but Joe pulls me back once again.

“Y/N,” his face looks concerned as he cups my face in his hands. “I love you.”

My reaction is physical, I jerk away from his touch and I can feel myself backpeddle away. “How dare you? After all we’ve been through you had a million chances to say those three words and now when you think it’ll calm me down-you’re manipulating me with them?! If you loved me Joe you would have made us official the second we slept together! You said you wanted to keep the relationship open, so it’s not ‘weighed down with expectation’ and that’s what we did! how can you love someone and create a relationship with them like that?”

I’m a crying, stuttering mess and I’ve lost what I’m trying to say in the midst of it. Joe keeps trying to talk but I forge on, I had to let it out. When I’m done he looks at me with tears in his eyes.

“I was scared,” he says simply.

“Well maybe if you weren’t we could’ve done this the proper way. Maybe then we wouldnt have to wait to be drunk or secretly away to sleep together. Maybe then I wouldn’t have your baby growing inside of me!”

I storm off and Joe calls after me but he doesn’t follow. I think he knew me well enough to know I needed time alone. I didn’t want to see him. Or talk to him. When I make it home I cry my heart out, this baby was happening whether Joe liked it or not and it was time to focus on me and her. Or him. Gods.

•••

Two weeks fly by, I start waking up with morning sickness and my baby bump is still quite invisible but I like putting my hand on it. I still cry all the time, I missed Joe. He was my friend before we slept together and not talking to him meant having no one to text during the day about the stupid things. He texts me the morning after to talk but I ignore it. I don’t pick up his calls or return his messages so he texts me every morning. He sends one thing he loves about me. It starts out like this:

-You were the only one who laughed at my joke the first time we met and that felt like my greatest achievement

-You genuinely listen to all my creative ideas and tell me when theyre absolute rubbish

-You like the cream filling in the biscuits where I like the cookie part

-You never complain when I cancel on you for work-you supported me from the start and continue to

-You wear your hair up when you’re ready to work and tug at it until it pools around your shoulders anyway. And then you complain about getting your hair cut shorter

-You cry at puppy videos

-I can be myself around you

-Cuddling when I’m feeling under the weather

-You’re selfless and kind with a heart of gold

-Even when I was a complete arse and suggested a casual relationship because I was too afraid what loving you meant, you agreed because you thought it would keep me happy and us healthy

-I could never see my life with anyone but you. I’ve digested what you told me and screw my five year plan. I want to face life with only you by my side.

The last two texts are sent on Sunday. I spend the whole day rereading them, I would be an idiot to think Joe was lying or trying to manipulate me. He could have just told me to deal with it and never seen me again, it’s not like we worked together or lived together. But he loved me and if he says all these things…

-I don’t want you to just be saying this because you think you have to, I text.

-I love you Y/N. I love you I love you I love you like crazy, woman!

I laugh to myself, I could imagine Joe saying what he texts and my heart beats for him. Maybe we could make this work. But this was also terrifying: we were two children trying to be adults-how were we gonna become parents.

-I’m scared whether we can make this work, I text him

I watch as the three dots appear, then disappear. Joe writes another text, and then it disappears. I sink into my pillow, what if he was having second thoughts? But instead, he proves me wrong again.

-We can make anything work as long as we work it out together. Please, love. Just come home.

And in the end, it’s not the three words I thought I wanted to hear that drives me back into Joe Sugg’s arms. It’s those three words he texts me last that makes me pick up my phone and finally ring him.

“Home sounds really nice,” I say when he picks up. “I’ve missed it.”

“It’s missed you,” Joe replies smoothly. “And it’s ready to grow for one more person.”

I can’t help but grin as I place my hand on my belly, “I like the sound of that.”

#joe sugg imagine #joe sugg #thatcherjoe imagines #thatcherjoe imagine #joe sugg imagines #youtube #youtube imagines #fic #caspar lee #conor maynard #butterqueue

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taeyangdyb · 7 years

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Giving love a shot part 55

After waking up from my nap, Jaebum was still out, it’s not late anyways. I’m starving as if I haven’t eat in days. I swear I have a third kid in my stomach, I should really get that check. It’s like it was hiding behind the girls, and now the third one is ready to come out.

As I was making my way out of the bathroom my phone rings.

Jae: hello?

Yori: hey, what are you doing?

Jae: nothing I just wake up, You?

Yori: getting ready

Jae: For?

Yori: dinner date, Loco and them went out. it’s a Saturday I’m not staying in

Jae: aren’t you pregnant?

Yori: so does everyone else that’s going, get ready I’ll send you the address *hangs up*

Great. Finding something to wear is much harder than she think. After 30 minutes of looking I finally found a blue satin long sleeve romper, I ordered online that was too big, now it fits perfectly, pairing it with a metallic silver heels.

*45minutes to the place*

Getting there all the faces I seen makes me somewhat refresh and happy. Some of our friends from high school.

Ian: damn you look hotter pregnant

Bobby:*elbows him* hey Jae, or should I say Mrs.Park?

Jae: Jae’s fine

Ailee: okay can we please go inside, I’m starving.

*Yori’s Views*

As we making our way upstairs to our table, we find all of our husbands having dinner party, while we their pregnant wives are siting at home? Loco got me all the way FCKED UP *deep breaths* calm down Yori you’re not in high school anymore, you’re a married woman with class.

Jae: are you okay?

Yori: I’m great. *smile*

Byul:*whisper* someone want to tell her that she looks creepy smiling like this?

I feel like I’m turning green, like the incredible hulk is coming out of me, if it does come out I’m gonna have a lot of things to pay for.

Again I have a lot of class.

Bobby: isn’t that you guy's husbands?

Jae:*looks around and finally see her husband sitting in between two of his #1fans Lina and Yuri*

Ian: how come you guys didn’t get an invite?

Jae: because they’re not my friends

Bobby: what's that gonna do with anything?

Jae: the girl on his left is his ex the one on the right, birthday girl has a crush on him since forever.

Nat: and you’re not going to do anything about it?

Jae: have you guys even seen me chase a guy? Even if I married him, I’m not going to chase him around. Also I’m carrying 3 kids, it’s not like I can’t fight anyone. Besides I’m too hungry to go fight.

*All laughs*

Jimin: aren’t you having twins?

Jae: trust me there’s 3 kids in there.

I know she’s angry I don’t know why she’s playing it off.

Yori: I don’t know about you guys, but I’m going to say hello

Ailee: Yori don’t start anything it’s the girl’s birthdays

Yori: the main reasons to go say hello, you know wishing her a hellish birthday

Byul: oh no

*meanwhile*

Chacha: this is not good

Loco: What?

Chacha: turn to your right

Loco:* looks over and find one pissed off Yori glaring at him*

Yori: *walks towards him* when I asked you where you were going, I thought you said that you were going to the bar with you friends?

Loco: babe look- baby listen

Yori: nuh put the whole baby shi-

Jae: Yori, could you not- I’m really sorry about that-

*seeing how much Lina glares at her*

Jae: *raise her brows* wait, what am I sorry for I didn’t do anything. She has every right to go off, I don’t have the right to stop her. The only reason I’ll stop her, it’s because me and my kids are hungry, if she goes off we’ll need to find another restaurant. If it was up to me I’d just walk by and not even checking for anyone, but the incredible hulk over there couldn’t keep her mouth shut. As for you with the fake plastic Tiara, you don’t have to glare at me, I’m not here for Jaebum okay, don’t glare at me as if I knew he was going to be here I’d suggest somewhere else, since we're already here let’s just act as if we didn’t see you guys here. As for you Yori, can we eat before you break everything here? *drags her away*

Ian&Bobby: still hot even when she’s pregnant *walks behind them*

Jay: *angrily glares at them ?

Back at our table I’m still furious, but I’m not going to ruin everyone’s mood.

*15minutes later*

After ordering appetizers I feel better I guess I was just hungry 😆 like them snicker bar commercials.

*2hours later*

As the time goes by, it was actually fun, we eat, talk about old time, It feels great. After we eat we couldn’t hang for too long, we had to go home, well the pregnant ones

In the parking lot we find all of our husbands waiting.

Yori: I don’t feel like driving

Byul: me either

Jimin: I’m stuffed

Byul: should we ride with them?

Jimin: the way our pride and ego set up, not gonna happen.

Ailee: but you can go you’re heavier than all of us.

Byul: what make you guys think I’m not angry as well?

Jae: are you?

Byul:…

Jae: I’ll call you a driver.

Within the next hour Jaeha called 3 people one to drive her car, one to drive Byul home and the next for her to ride home. I guess they were waiting for us to ask them for rides, but we all drove away in our cars.

Loco got home 20minutes after I did.

Loco: hey can we talk?

Yori: no

Loco: look about-

Yori: I..Do..not..want..to..hear.. it.

Loco: babe-

Yori: Honestly I’m full I’m going to shower and sleep.

Loco: if I told you that I was going to her party you were going to get upset.

Yori: you think I’m happy right now?

Loco: can we not do that tonight?

Yori: do what? You’re the one still talking.

*Jae’s views *

I stayed out for an hour before I get home , I didn’t wanna deal with him, but as soon as he get home he wanted to talk.

Jay: can we talk?

Jae: no

Jay: Jaeha look I’m sorry

Jae: congratulations, while you stay here feeling sorry for who knows what, that I actually dont really care for anymore, I’m going to clean up and sleep, my kids are tired.

After freshen up, she picked up her phone.

*Jae calls dad*

Dad: hello?

Jae: hey daddy, we’re you sleeping?

Dad: no, just having a cigar

Jae: at this time? Long day?

Dad: yeah something like that, how about you?

Jae: my day? I’ve been feeling funny all day, but besides that I’m good

Dad: did you call the doctor?

Jae: no I don’t think it was that serious

Dad: how are the babies?

Jae: well they just here kicking me for no reasons, I will flick the first one that comes out.

Dad:*laughs*

Jae: but something’s strange

Dad: what?

Jae: I feel like there’s a third one

Dad: third baby? But the doctor-

Jae: daddy doctors can be wrong. I feel like it was hiding, but now getting bigger and ready to come out

Dad: maybe you’re-

Jae: dad I’m not crazy, I can feel something different, like two extra kick. Maybe it’s an introverted baby, and he start kicking cause the girls are annoying him.

Dad: him? You think it’s a boy?

Jae: yup

Dad: that’s fantastic *sounds happier*

Jae: I’m offended that you sounds happier to hear a boy, what’s wrong with my girls?

Dad:*laughs*

Jae: DADDY

Dad: okay okay, I’m sorry. I’m just happy if you’re right it’d be great to have a boy running around, you know a bit more blue and less pink.

Jae: shame on you dad. I hope you take care of you health cause you’re going to need energy. And enough with the cigars

Dad: okay I’ll ease up….starting with the next cigar

Jae: *lol* okay dad. I’ll let you go back to enjoy your cigar. I know it won’t be the last one to.

Dad: Jaejae

Jae: yes dad

Dad: thank you for calling, I was having quite a depressing day, but now I feel much better

Jae: you’re welcome, hey dad?

Dad: yeah

Jae: do you wanna go on a date with me?

Dad: a date?

Jae: yeah, you know just you and I….just like old times.

Dad: I would love that

Jae: okay I’ll see you tomorrow, love you dad

Dad: I love you to Jaejae

After hanging up the phone with my dad, I couldn’t help but feeling emotional. I love my dad, we always spend times together, now that I’m married and about to have children, I missed being my dad’s little girl. 😢😭

*next day*

*Jay’s View AOMG office*

Gray: did you get cursed out last night?

Jay: I wish

Loco: I slept on the couch last night, not even the comfortable one.

Simon: Jimin got me running in the middle of the night to get her some gross stuff, I know she did that on purpose.

Lina: hey what’s up with the long faces? I wanna thank you guys for last night, I had fun.

*All looks at each other*

Jay: am honestly the worst person on this planet, I’m the worst husband. It sad that after all this time I’m still hurting Jaeha.

Simon: look that doesn’t make you a bad husband

Jay: you don’t get it, the night before I doubted her…. over Aaron. And the next day that happened.

Gray: what?

Loco: come on man, thats stupid

Jay: I don’t deserve to be with Jaeha. Before we would argue, but now, now it’s not even worth the argument anymore. I’m afraid one day she’s just going to get up and leave just like last before.

Simon: where is she?

Jay: spending the day with her dad

Gray: look you guys went through much worst than that.

Simon: look tomorrow we’ll invite you guys over and figure it out

Jae: I doubt she’ll go

Gray: just ask Mark to bring her, she’ll never say no to him

I got home late, I found Jae fell asleep with her head on his lap.

Jay: how was the date?

Mr.Han: more fun I’ve had in a while. Did she always eat that much?

Jay:*chuckles* it doubles now, or should I say triple.

Mr.Han: thank you

Jay: for?

Mr.Han: making my little girl happy. I know she’s not so little anymore, but you’re about to be a father, you’ll understand soon. You’ll see no matter how old they are, you’ll always see them as you little girl, even if they’re pregnant with kids, and a little too heavy for you to carry to bed. Thank you

So she really doesn’t tell her parents about anything that’s going on huh? If he knew, he wouldn’t be having this conversation with me WORST HUSBAND EVER.

*next morning*

I dranked all night, waking up my head is killing me, Jae’s not on the bed, walking out of the sitting room, she’s watching T.V. with a bowl of fruits in front of her. It’s sad how one thing can lead to so many other things.

I shouldn’t have gotten angry over Aaron, I shouldn’t have gone to that dinner in the first place knowing exactly who was going to be there.

Jay: hey

Jae: morning

Jay: you up early

Jae: I was hungry

Jay: you had breakfast?

Jae: yeah

Why am I asking her that? Of course she did.

*phone rings*

Jae: hello?

Eric: Mrs.Park

Jae: please don’t call me that

Eric: why? You guys are married-

Jae: WHAT DO YOU WANT?

Eric: okay first of all, I told you several times, do not talk to me like that, and second I wanted to talk to you about something, so watch your attitude, I’m on my way out get ready I’ll pick you up.

Jae:*rolls her eyes*

Eric: keep rolling your eyes and they just might get stuck in the back of your head. GET READY!

Jae: *mumbles* idiot

Eric: I heard that

Jae: I KNOW!! *Hangs up, and starts getting ready*

Well I guess that cancel me spending the day with her. After Jaeha left I stayed home, I didn’t even bother answer answering my phone.

The only person I love or even want to talk to in this whole damn planet, I can’t treat her right, so why bother even talking to anyone else.

☆Eric’s Views☆

Okay so I had plans today to talk to the girls about having a Maternity shoots, ideas for them, but I got attitude from all of them. I’m used to getting it from all the girls, but once I see it includes Byul, who’s the NICEST one of all, there’s a problem.

Joon: dude you better have a good reason to come to my house. *looks in the back seat and sees Mark* why are you here?

Mark: he’s paying for lunch

Joon: don’t you have money?

Mark: I love free food

Joon: you love free everything

Mark: that’s not true-

Eric: can I please run you guys over?

Mark: just get in.

Joon:*opens the front door*

Eric: sit in the back, I have to pick up Jaeha

Joon: why?

Eric: something’s going on with these women and they won’t say. They’re all in their feelings

Joon: well duh, THEY’RE ALL PREGNANT AND MISERABLE.

Eric: I’ve never gotten attitude from Byul before.

Joon: maybe it’s-

Eric: Do not tell me that it hormone either. Forget about everyone else, would Jaejae tell us if anything was wrong? I know something is wrong, I just feel it, but she won’t say anything, now why would she do that? Because she doesn’t want us to get pissed off at him.

Joon: and what makes you think she’ll say anything

Eric: she won’t

Joon: can you say something?

Mark: when are we going to eat?

I swear those two makes me sick half of the times.

*1hour later*

Jae: why’d you tell me to get ready early

Eric:*gets out and open the door for her* cause you always late.

Jae: what are you two doing here?

Mark: free food

Jae: don’t you have money?

Mark: still, free food

Jae: and You?

Joon: he dragged

Jae: oh

The second I started driving, she zones out. She didn’t even hear me, even when I offered her food.

*Eric’s house*

Jae:*struggles to get out the, but can’t*

Mark:*went out to help her*

Jae: thanks *walks away*

Mark: I really dont want to go hit anyone today so please let it be hormones, or else one of you guys are gonna have to bail me out *walks inside*

Later when the rest of the girls came, none of them would spill anything about what’s going, or what happened. Jae is in a whole new planet.

Eric: can you guys wait for us here I need to talk to these guys *all 3 walks out*

*meanwhile inside*

Ailee: your phone’s ringing Yori

Yori: who cares

Jimin: it’s your husband

Byul: Jaejae are you Okay?

Jae: I dont know

Ailee: did you guys talk?

Jae: about what?

Byul: about the other day?

Jae: I don’t have anything to talk or say about it.

Jimin: you’re not upset?

Jae: about what?

Yori: Jay leaving you home alone to go party with Lina and Yuri?

Jae: what do you guys want me to say? I’m not 25 anymore, look at me look at them.

Ailee: you look like that because you’re pregnant, nothing’s wrong with how you look

Byul: so you’re just going to give up?

Jae: *stands up* ERIC?

In the end Joon ended up taking Jaeha home cause if Mark or I went I swear I would’ve hit hit him.

*Jay’s views*

Jaeha came back quicker than I expected. The second she walks in I can feel something is wrong.

Jay: hey you okay?

Jae: why wouldn’t I be?

Jay: well you don’t really look too well

Jae: I’m fine

Jay: Oh okay

Jae:*starts walking away*

Jay: hey

Jae: What?

Jay: wanna have a movie night?

I just know that she’s going to say no, but I guest it’s worth the try right?

Jae:*stares at him with a frown on her face* it’s 3PM

Jay: *shrugs* but-but if you’re tired you don’t-

Jae: you have movie food?

I did not think that far ahead, I was expecting a no

Jay: uuuh, what would you like?

Jae: how long have you known me?

Jay: I’ll grab my keys

Jae: and some clothes while you’re at it

Jay: what’s wrong with-

Oh right I’m not allowed to leave the house in Gray sweatpants.

Jay: I’ll be back

♡Jae’s views ♡

While Jay left to go wherever I’m just going to change to something more comfortable. Am I mad at him? Of course I am Why did I agree to watch the movie with him? Because I love him and I miss him, regardless of how much I want to hate him right now, I can’t.

I just can’t help it, I both love and hate him but the love surpasses the hate. I can’t hurt his feelings even if I honestly wanted to, it might happen accidentally but never intentionally. Even if I did intentionally the guilt would kill me.

I think the whole restaurant thing was just a bad coincidence, because when he went out, I was getting ready to sleep. If I have to be honest I really don’t like the Luna or Lina girl, if she still hits on him even if I confronted her, many time. I think she has something under her sleeves and I don’t trust her.

I’m not worrying about Yuri cause she knows better, but why was she there? I wonder if she and Jay still talks? Why do I still feel insecure about this? I don’t have the habit of checking or “snooping” in his phone, but I wonder if they talk? How long?

Do they hang out….alone? Maybe deep deep down he still feel something for her, like I do for Aaron. It is not the same thing, Aaron is not a threat, he’s gone, and he’s never coming back.

Am I over reacting? Maybe it’s hormones.

Jay: hey I’m back

Jae: hey

Jay: I didn’t know which you wanted so I bought these *Pizza, chicken, fruits, ice cream*

Jae: nice

Jay: I’ll go change

Jae: okay

I’m sitting here waiting for Jay to come out, his phone started ringing. The caller ID said “Unimportant”. We answer each other’s phone, I have no secrets from him and him for me, well at least that was before. Now I’m afraid that I might see or hear see something that I’m not suppose to see or hear.

Jay: was that my phone?

Jae: yeah

Jay: did you answer it? Who was it?

Jae: no, it said unimportant

Jay: oh, what are we watching?

Jae: you’re not going to call back?

Jay: nope the name speak for itself

Jae: You sure?

Jay: positive. So we have everything

Jae: except for the movie.

☆Jay’s views☆

It didn’t take long to find a movie, thankfully she’s not a huge fan of mushy movies, we spent the rest of the day watching movies, no interruption. At time I caught her zoning out.

I want to talk to her but I can’t, I don’t know how Things can go from zero to one million, in just a short time. I want to fix things, I want to make sure everything’s okay with her. I want her to know that I still care, I still love her, even more than before; but I have no idea where or how to start. I want to fix things before our kids born.

The following days, we went to Karaoke to hang out after fooling playing and singing anything. Everyone sings, even most of them could use singing lessons

Simon: Jaejae your turn

Jae: not really in the mood

Eric: the main reason for you to sing. It’ll help you relax, you know let lose a little.

Jae: I can’t sing

Joon: you are not as bad as Ailee

Ailee: rude

Jae: *sigh* fine

Even with just us she’s nervous

Mark: just close your eyes and let it go

The song she pick us “Mercy, by Shawn Mendes”

🎤🎵 CHORUS: Please have mercy on me Take it easy on my heart Even though you don’t mean to hurt me You keep tearing me apart Would you please have mercy on me I’m a puppet on your string And even though you got good intentions I need you to set me free

Please have mercy on me Take it easy on my heart Even though you don’t mean to hurt me You keep tearing me apart Would you please have mercy, mercy on my heart Would you please have mercy, mercy on my hea

I’m begging you for mercy, mercy Begging you, begging you, please, baby I’m begging you for mercy, mercy Ooh, I’m begging you, I’m begging🎤🎵

Everyone literally got quiet after that.

Jae: I sounded that bad? *tries to play off the fact that she’s hurt*

Simon: would you like to be a member of AOMG? I’ll sign you

Jae: let me think about that after I give birth

Simon: I’ll be waiting, I know where you live

Jae:*smile*

I still haven’t been able to move myself or say anything. I was stuck like that until it was time for us to leave.

Joon: Jaejae, Eric said that your maternity shoot is tomorrow so get ready and get enough sleep, don’t be late

Jae: okay, and Joon-

Joon: I know, I’ll make sure they get home and one piece.

Jae: okay, love you guys

Joon: we love you too Jaejae, more than you think.

Jae:*hugs him* no more drinking, go home.

Ride back home is of course quiet.

*next morning*

I had zero sleep last night. I left home early because Simon said that he wanted to talk to me.

Jay: I thought we had a meeting?

Simon: we need to talk

Jay: what’s up?

Simon: what’s going on? I know it’s your personal life, but the way these women circle set up, it all for one and one for all. When something’s wrong with Jaeha, it affect all of us.

Jay: what are you talking about?

Simon: Jimin asked me what’s going between you, Yuri, and Lina.

Jay: what?

Simon: I know it’s your personal life, but it’s affecting all of us. I’m not the only one being questioned about that either. Whatever it is fix it,

Jay: what do you want to do? I can’t fix what I don’t know?

Simon: did you guys had an argument or something?

Jay: no, the previous night I asked her about Aaron

Simon: why would you ask her that?

Jay: I don’t know, I wanted to know if she still has feelings for him.

Simon: come on man, you’re at fault for that one. Why you always bring that up? How did you feel when she was in that mini coma two months ago?

Jay: like hell

Simon: okay, how would you feel if she didn’t wake up? Would you want people to keep asking you about her? It’s the same for her. How do you want her to move on, when you constantly reminding her of him? And the next she found you sitting in between your ex and a woman who’s after you even though you’re married. The husband of the year award goes to you Sir Park Jaebum.

Jay: you mean award for the biggest jerk.

Simon: where is she?

Jay: right now she should be getting ready to go to Eric’s

Simon: you going?

Jay: no, they all hate me now. To tell you I dont blame them; after all these years, all I’ve done is hurt her.

I stayed out the majority of the day, when I got home they were all there.

Jae: hey

Jay: hey

Jae: where’d you go?

Jay: out with Simon

Jae: all day?

Jay: yea

Jae: just..the two of you?

Jay: yes, just Simon and I. We were talking and I guess the day just go by.

Jae: oh okay-

Ian: hey Jaejae we’re going to play a game you wanna- *notices Jay* you

Jay: me

Ian: were you at some wo-

Jae:*elbows him*

Ian: hey what was that for?

Jae: go away

Ian: hurry up, we’re waiting on you.

Jae: sorry about that.

Jay: don’t apologize for that

Jae: do you want to join us?

Jay: no, you can go have fun.

Jae: you sure?

Jay: I am

Jae: okay *walks back over to her friends*

*meanwhile eavesdropping on their convo*

Jae: you’re a jerk you know that?

Ian: what did I do? I was just telling the truth.

Lia: all this guy’s ever done to you for the past what? 10 years, is hurt you.

Jae: this GUY is my husband

Lia: well tell that husband of yours to start treating you like a wife. One that he actually cares about.

Jae: he’s not as bad as you guys see him to be

Lia: what if he’s cheating on you?

Jae: he’s not. Jay would never, I’m not going to accuse him because of “what if’s” I want to see it for myself.

Ian: and if you do?

Jae: as much as I don’t want to think about that, if I do catch, him pregnant or not, we’re done. Immediate divorce, I’ll put a restriction order on him so bad that he won’t even be able to look up my name on the internet, let alone know what his kids look like.

Joon: are you 3 finish?

Mark: speaking of kids, don’t you think you need another car?

Jae: not really, why?

Mark: you need a family car, how are you going to fit car seats in your two door cars.

Jae: that totally slipped my mind *groans* can we go back to high school

Joon: the good ole times.

Eric: classes used to be fun

Joon: you mean hitting on the teachers? My business teacher was hot

Ian: the one you got fired

Joon: technically she quit

Jae: before or after you slept with her?

Joon: what makes you think-

Jae: it was after.

After her hearing their conversation, the guilt I feel is indescribable. Why did she take my side? I really don’t deserve to be with Jaeha.

I want to make this right, I want to make her happy. I have no clue what to do.

*bedroom*

Jae: you okay?

Jay: yea, why?

Jae: well you’ve been drinking every night for the past few days and that’s very unlike you, is everything Okay?

Jay: no, is everything okay with you?

Jae: what you mean?

Jay: is everything okay? With you?…..with us?

Jae: everything is fin-

Jay: dont tell me that everything is fine when it isn’t Jaejae. if I’m doing anything that’s hurting you, you have to tell me.

Jae: you should stop drinking

Jay: I’M NOT DRUNK

Jae: okay, you’re not drunk. I’m going to get ready for bed.

Jay: Jae

Jae: mhhm

Jay: are you mad at me?

Jae: mad at you for what?

Jay: I don’t know it feels like everything’s changing. It doesn’t feel the same anymore. And yesterday, the lyrics to that song makes me feel like the worst person in the whole planet. So if I hurt you in anyways that I’m not aware of you have to tell me.

Jae: okay did you do something? Anything you know that would hurt my feeling?

Jay: if it'sabout Aaron I’m sorry, I know what he meant to you, I never should’ve said anything about him. If you’re upset about the whole Lina dinner thing, I’m sorry.

Jae: *sigh* it’s not just about the dinner, it feels like a whole other Yuri again, I can’t compete with another woman again Jaebum. Ever since I met you years ago, all I’ve been doing is compete with other women. I got it, being with you meant that I have to deal with all of the women hitting on you, I know it was all part of the package and I accepted it. I thought that things would’ve gotten at least a little bit better after we got married, but it not. I can’t compete anymore, I’m tired. Being almost 8 months pregnant, that’s not the kind of conversation I wanted to be having with you, my husband. *tearing up* that’s not what I want to worry about, I want to talk to you about our kids, their future, i know that’s too soon, but I don’t want to be worrying about that kind of stuff. so I give up, with my bad history of stress and depression, I can’t lose my kids over things like that and… and I really love you Jay I dont want to end up hating you, over a matter that could’ve easily fix. You know despite everything that’s going on, I always take your side, because I know, we went through much worst than that, but one thing I’ve realized, is that in the only who always does the fighting, I’m the only one getting hurt like you dont care about me. Jay I love you, with all my heart, and everything I am, I don’t want anything between us, but I’m now, beginning to get tired *walks out of the room*

#Giving love a shot part 55 #kpop scenarios #aomg scenarios #aomg imagines #Jay park fiction #Jay park scenarios #Jay park snaps #jay park imagine

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