i miss using tik tok to connect with my friends and i miss keeping up with trends and holding onto my youth but holy shit deleting it is doing wonders for my mental health.

LET THE BOY HAVE AN EDUCATION

officially at the point where we're starting to see where it's all headed and I am just going NYEEHEEHEE in delight at it all. ahhh...next week can't come soon enough...

This is Ditzy Doo’s strongest warrior speaking, how may I help you

a strange infatuation

"Halsin shouldn't be that big or muscular or look middle aged because he's an elf and the lore sa-"

I actually think he should be bigger and look more middle aged, personally.

Angst time :D👍

You can read my rambling about her in the tags

im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn

Ok bitches listen up. I need at least *one* Hazbin Hotel writer to do this scenario

Reader is a hellborn(idc what species except for hellhound because this is my request fuck off) and homeless and she got knocked up and baby daddy ditched so Charlie being the angel she is offers reader a room.

Fast forward to episode 5 (whoever starts this feel free to do the whole series but this is mainly focusing on ep 5(OMG WHAT IF READER GOES INTO LABOR DURING THE FINAL BATTLE IN EPISODE 8 FHUXHEHDJ. Chille anyways-)) and the reader is ready to pop any day now. Charlie is introducing the hotel residents to Lucifer and they get to reader and he's just wanting to touch the belly and looking at it with almost child like wonder lookin like this emoji: 🥺

Normal hotel shenanigans ensue. Thanks for coming to my TED talk UwU

At this point the bully has become the bullied but he keeps coming back for more??

You know. I'm personally not that annoyed with allo people who are obsessed with romance. Yeah, romance is an emotional need for the majority of people but not me and that's okay

I now have an obsession with Fyodor so have him getting absolutely destroyed! :D. (Also I can't be fucked to indent, suffer.)

Content warnings: Fyodor is his own warning, OOC Fyodor, Violence, Dubcon, little prep, degradation (If I need to add more tell me but I think that's it.)

The funny thing about being in a relationship with Fyodor was that everyone knew him as domineering and cruel. So they expected that to carry over to the bedroom as well and in a way it did. Though not how most would expect.

Fyodor had come home stressed and pissed off. Something about Dazai and the ADA, it didn't matter what did matter was the way he grabbed you to kiss you. It was rough and angry. You returned the with an equal amount of wrath. It eventually turned into a wrestling match. One that you easily won due to Fyodor's weak and frail constitution.

You had him by his pretty black hair with his wrists in your other hand. He snarls at you, trying to bite. Turning him around roughly and slaming him over the nearest surface gets you vitriol filled cures thrown at you. "Stay fucking still damn it." Fyodor kicks out at you trying to get you off making you lift him and slam him back down harder knocking the air out of his lungs making him more pliant.

Once he reluctantly stills a bit, you waste no time in ripping his pants and underwear off, paying no mind to his writhing and cursing for you to hury up. You grant him his wish shoving two fingers violently into him dry and fucking them in and out roughly. He's still loose from when you fucked him this morning. He thrashes in your grasp as you undo your pants just enough to force yourself into his empty hole making cry out.

He's given no time to recover as you aim for his prostate abusing it till swears turn in to desperate begging "It's alright I've got you my little slut. I know you need me to break you down. That's what you needed isn't it?" Fyodor whines and then nods shakely before licking his lips to speak "Harder please God, harder... need it to hu- *Ah* hurt!"

It was sweet in a pathetic way, he can never just ask you to fuck him like you hate him he has to make it a game otherwise his dumb little mind gets all twisted. That being said you indulge him and take a fist full of his hair shoving his face into the counter putting your weight on his body as you fuck him harder. It doesn't take much longer for him to cum. You follow not long after. Running your hands soothingly under his shirt over his sides as his body trembles in the aftermath.

what's your opinion on fanfics about dnp? (more in a way of do you think that it's crossing boundaries and/or being parasocial)

i'm of the same mind of dnp in that phanfic is fucking incredible. it's an important and valid way to express yourself, as well as a building block of our community. i don't think it's crossing boundaries, as it's fiction. i don't see it as parasocial either--you're writing for you and others like you. most people don't want dnp reading their fics, it's not for them in a sense, it's for us.

i think dnp are extremely aware of fanfic and its value and place in community. they've always encouraged it, appreciated the support, and given us space about it. they're not ones to make videos about it and mock fans for it (which happened to some of our lovely fic writers here writing for other yt fandoms, and i'm so sorry about it). dnp are fandom culture people. they've written fic themselves! and published it in their book!

the word parasocial has been twisted lately to imply any fan support is unnatural and should be shamed, which is complete fucking bullshit. making art is always important and valued. and it is necessary for your existence as a human, but also for the thing you're a fan of to thrive.

the parasocial side comes in once you start believing you know this person. and that you're their real friend. when in reality, they do not know you specifically, and you are not their friend, you are an audience member.

so a parasocial relationship only occurs when people start crossing boundaries (digging for not publicly available information, contacting people in their personal life, showing up to their house, etc). which, is absolutely nowhere close to real fan behaviour.

tl;dr: phanfic is great, i love you fic writers, parasociality is a problem but not one that we have

I feel like everyone felt like this when romancing Astarion:D

Ryne and Gaia are like. Such good parallels and foils to each other it makes me just a little insane.

Like Ryne is sweet and caring and she always wants to help others and make them feel better even to the detriment of herself because she has seen and known suffering and doesn't want others to have to live like that too. If she can make someones life better, even if just a little bit, then she will. But she also puts everyone elses well-being and feelings so far above her own that she often ends up trying to help in a way that doesn't actually solve anything because it still ends up with someone hurt (such as trying to properly fuse with Minfilia knowing it might end up with herself disappearing). She's not a doormat, but she does have some people-pleasing tendencies.

Gaia, however, is the exact opposite. She's prickly and sarcastic and thinks of herself and her needs first and foremost, everyone else is secondary. It's not that she's cold or uncaring, she doesn't ignore people's problems, she just doesn't see them as her business most of the time (A product of being raised in Eulemore most likely). She doesn't consider the long-term outcome of what she does or says, she lives solely in the present and the future is a problem for when it happens.

These opposite traits also play into each other. Ryne inspires Gaia to care more about others and Gaia inspires Ryne to prioritize herself more. Gaia makes Ryne live more on the moment without thinking solely of what the future will bring, and Ryne makes Gaia think more on what her life will be going forward and to actually consider what she does and says and how that affects things. They feed into each others good traits (Ryne's caring nature and Gaia's sense of self) while also helping them deal with the bad traits (Ryne's people-pleasing and Gaia's aloofness).

Their pasts are good paralells too. Ryne was isolated and lonely until Thancred took her away but even then, he was distant and emotionally neglectful, so she ended up lonely in an entirely different way. Gaia had a family and caretakers that she wasn't particularly close to, but after the 'Fairy' started talking to her they got even further away until she couldn't even remember them, and the 'Fairy' was the closest thing she had to a friend even though it was what isolated her to begin with. Ryne had constant companionship but no support, and Gaia had 'support' but no companionship.

Even just. Regarding the whole identities thing they are just. Perfect. Ryne has lived with Minfilia's shadow on her shoulder her entire life and never got to learn who she actually is. She thought that she had to become Minfilia for her life to be worth anything, that it's the only way her existance is justified. The person closest to both her and Minfilia(Thancred) indicated(in her mind at least) that he wanted Minfilia to be here in Ryne's stead(which wasn't really the case but she didn't know that). The only way to get her out of that shadow was to remove her from the identity of Minfilia, hence why her new name is so important(as well as the hair and eyes being her natural colors instead of Minfilia's all too recognizable ones).

But Gaia didn't even know about Mitron or Loghrif until Eden. She had the 'Fairy', but to her it was just some voice in her head which was nice enough to her. To her, Loghrif is just some lady Mitron loved, she has no real connection to her. She has a connection to Mitron, both as the 'Fairy' and as remnant feelings from Loghrif, but none to Loghrif herself(aside from the obvious reincarnation stuff). Gaia has always been her name. It may have been Loghrif's originally, but she is so far removed from that identity that even for all of Mitron's effort to 'return' her to Loghrif, it'd never work. Loghrif is Gaia, but Gaia is not Loghrif. Simple as that.

Eden's story works so well because Ryne and Gaia are opposites in that specific way that compliments each other, rather than pits them against each other.

So uhhhhhh It's no secret that I really REALLY love the Final Fantasy franchise (it's my favourite video game series of all time), so you KNOW I got the FF6 Reference in Undertale sooooo---- uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh------- Final Fantasy 6 opera scene Mettaton sprites anyone? UHYGDSHDS I GOT REALLY BORED OK?

For anyone who doesn't know the opera scene, here's both Final Fantasy 6 and Mettaton's HJGHDGFSDH I am not normal about this LMAO

it's so good, I love them both so dearly aaaa