my hyperfixation on hay day is going strong

Highkey so sad to see Kim's character get butchered by people who see Harry as whichever addict wronged them in their life.

broke: phoenix forged the ace in the heat of the moment in turnabout trump when he realized kristoph killed zak

woke: trucy forged the ace herself, where would phoenix even get a fifth one in that limited amount of time

ray: everyone in this fucking game was playing 10d chess and had pre-planned moves but we can't figure it out properly bc of the numerous plotholes. the game's implications about phoenix's opinion on kristoph during the seven year gap are somewhat contradictory even if we exclude unreliable narration/don't trust every single thing the characters say. also i regularly entertain the possibility that phoenix did kill zak in that fucking bar lol he has every right

Maybe Minecraft is itself a tree that's grown rotten. Or maybe I've simply outgrown it.

(I had a mental breakdown in the tags sorry)

i know that in media you're constrained with things like budget, time slots and stuff, but sometimes i'm just like. my god. the insane shortcuts people take to write "smart / intelligent" characters, especially in plot-heavy stories, always pisses me off. they write them like they're sherlock holmes (bbc version, derogatory) but they fail to realise that even sherlock holmes (arthur conan doyle) was written with a lot of thought, suffered his own subconscious prejudices and had to learn from mistakes.

i guess what i'm trying to get at is—"smart" people don't magically get good at things overnight, the only difference between them and others is how much they're willing to go through to hone their mental acuity. which means when they try something new, they're going to make obvious mistakes, not understand how things work beyond the surface level, and make mistakes in judgements (like when you don't understand something well enough, your analogies and metaphors aren't 100% accurate or concise).

but it feels like there's a assumption hanging over our heads that, as readers, we don't WANT to see the smart one go through the entire nitty gritty of the learning process. we just want to see them do cool things, piece the puzzle together with a flourish, and clap our hands at the end. and in some parts, yes! that is what i want to see! but i am also interested in how they pieced it together. the joy of mysteries is, to me, that everyone is exposed to the same pieces of information, and we're given the chance to try to piece it ourselves. but then the smart character comes along and interprets those pieces of information in a not-obvious way to us, and it's cool!! years of living with a mind that is primed to turn things over in their head, to make sense of things, reveals to us how differently we experience the same reality, and it's wonderful. i'm able to learn from someone who sees life differently than me, and interpret information differently than me!

but right now i'm often left out feeling flat and confused in the mystery-type plots i've seen. the smart person will have been exposed to information we didn't even get the chance to see and interpret, and then they piece things together and everyone in the story claps their hands at the artificial pedestal that's been propped up under that character's feet. explanations of in-setting magic that can be retconned in and out at any point in time, so there's no logical consistency for us to nitpick or understand, so there's no basis to stand on that the story should be taken seriously. plot twists that make no sense as a gotcha. so many things!!

like. this particular example just my beef with g*nshin, so ignore it if you don't agree or smth. but the use of red herrings in the stories piss me off. the red herrings are either too obvious or nonexistent. they always use some random guy acting suspiciously and have the other characters react to it, as if we can't understand it on our own? but like. these red herrings, in the real world, aren't even red herrings. sometimes people just "act suspiciously" just by virtue of being human, not because they're complicit in some bigger overarching plot. sometimes people just stutter because of their anxious disposition, not to hide a guilty conscience. sometimes people are just defensive and irritable because they're a defensive and irritable person, it doesn't mean they're the ""bad guy"" who you need to crack down on and interrogate even further, especially if there's literally nothing that indicates this character is guilty other than their outward appearances.

but like. the smart characters/protagonist almost never get proven wrong. the stutterer was guilty all along and they're just a bad liar. the defensive guy is selfish and obnoxious, they're defensive because they're hiding something, not because it's a natural reaction on having one's sense of privacy and personal space violated.

the game sure loves trying to do nuance with "not everyone is 100% good or bad, we're all Flawed" but they can't put their money where their mouth is. everyone who is not guilty acts in completely transparent and "good" ways. everyone who is guilty acts in completely opaque and "suspicious" / "bad" ways. end of story. how the hell am i supposed to think anyone in this game is smart when they don't even have to use their brain to sift through, critique, weigh and interpret information? what use is there to do so? just use your eyes and ears. the stutterer is nervous for hiding a secret. the anxious is guilty. the angry is scornful.

there's also another rant here about how g*nshin fucking sucks at writing unique and flawed characters, because they like to make everyone the Specialest Guy In The World, but that's for another day.

I do genuinely still find overwatch enjoyable (unfortunately), but goddamn. Every single play session there's someone having a meltdown, or being edgy, or blaming everyone else for the match going poorly. I KNOW that's just the nature of online games but jeez louise.... What in tarnation is going on with these people, i just dont comprehend this "main character syndrome" where you're a perfect angel that can do no wrong and everyone is deliberately scheming your downfall or some shit

I would not be able to survive a Transformers gacha game like y'all have no idea

Sorry abt the lack of art today, last night I finally downloaded the sins of the flesh update and decided to make a new easy mode save to just plow through the whole game

I have been playing almost nonstop TuT”

Past me: "I have a week off so I can do a little bit of my homework every day and don't have to worry about stress."

Present me: *does everything last minute on a Sunday*

Looking through my old posts and, man, I wish I could draw like that again.

I really need to do a giveaway or get some prompts or something to force myself out of this slump... I've just been so uninspired these past months and all ideas that I try to put to paper feel cringy or beyond my measly skill level :/

"oh wow neat stuff going on in skyblock" *never logs in*

You know that post about watching the Windows sleep screen for comfort or when you needed chill? I played Solitaire to win so I could watch all the cards bounce.

Satisfying and mesmerizing as hell. :3

cant believe that when staying up 24 hours gaming with only one 3 hour nap makes me get huge excruciatingly painful headaches. I literally couldn't be healthier smfh

extremely baffled that there was apparently a whole-ass group of people dedicated over the last few months to developing a Genshin bug that deleted people's interactable objects and keeps them from properly playing the game.

like... if you hate the game so much why are you dedicating weeks or even months of your time to fucking with the game and the people who play it instead of just doing anything else with your time?

Love how yami is so goth he just immediately goes for the dark colored dice without thinking that maybe having a variety of different tools in a strategy/luck-based game is a good idea

He's supposed to be some strategic prodigy and yet he didn't choose any colorful dice bc it wouldn't match his AestheticTM

okok seriously I'm going to stop playing prodigy