#this scene can cure depression btw
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Rough thoughts on the movie in no particular order now that I have a moment:
Going in with the heavy hitters 'cause I can't stop thinking about it but Lui's claims that he is the first person to ever partner with a Digimon are unsubstantiated and lack hard evidence - also, unless it was explained in Kizuna and Tri, I'm pretty sure Digimon Adventure contradicts this?? (I'll check into this when I have more time, don't @ me).
The implication that Ukkomon made all of the Digimon hostile towards one another so that the Digi-Destined would fight to defend themselves and therefore Lui is nonsense and even if there is nothing to directly contradict it in Adventure and 02, I'm gonna hard pass on that canon because it lends itself too much to the idea that all Digimon would just be wholesome and good if not for Ukkomon making them fight and that feels like it excuses the things that Devimon, Piedmon, MaloMyotismon, and the other villain Digimon did or removes their free will?
Also, have I mentioned what Lui said didn't make sense???? Lui might be closer to Tai's age so it's feasible he could have become digi-destined around the same time as Tai but DUDE, Owikawa and Cody's dad discovered the Digital World and Digimon when they were kids????? AND THAT WAS AGES BEFORE LUI WAS BORN. It just doesn't make sense unless this is some alternate universe where that didn't happen or Lui is a time traveler or something (which is possible they did time travel...)
Speaking of, I'm so interested in the implication that Lui went back in time and talked to his mom about his younger self and she seemed to snap out of it for a second, like, if that was a permanent change do you think he created another alternate reality in that instance?
Moving on though, Davis. DAVIS. Seeing him in the film cured my depression. His reaction to Lui's mom was so so so Davis and I felt so strongly about it and then Ken's immediate "we can't we could ruin our own future" response is exactly how I've always imagined a time-travel AU would go between them.
ALSO: DAVIS AND KEN. The flirting. Ken just straight up grabbing both of Davis hands. (He's so COMFORTABLE WITH HIMSELF NOW) Ken throwing himself off Paildramon after Davis. I'm LIVING. The little high five they did to congratulate themselves. Ken's remark that summoning Paildramon was a little much seconds after I was like "wow that's so gay and unnecessary". Both of them were just so on point in this film. Davis was upbeat and optimistic and just believes the best in people/digimon so hard and when his tendency to charge in got in the way Ken was there to mellow him out so he didn't do anything rash.
Yolei did feel kind of off for some reason in the film but that might have been because I was so excited for the film that I couldn't pay attention to everything that was happening. I was only able to see it once and I missed so many things I know it. I can't wait for it to be released physically so I can own it and just rewatch it a dozen times.
Speaking of Yolei, though, I cannot believe the film framed her like Uhura trying to come between Kirk and Spock (which is comically absurd btw). In nearly ever scene possible it's Davis, Yolei but slightly offset and then Ken beside Davis. Like the animators are desperate to push the Kenyako narrative, like, clearly they know about the Daiken feelings being very strong with fans but they were trying to visually remind us painfully hard that, hey, actually the pairing is Kenyako. But buddy did that feel forced and it's probably why Yolei felt off to me.
J U S T I C E F O R C O D Y. That's all.
THEY COULD HAVE LET ROBBIE DAYMOND DO A TERRIBLE TEXAN ACCENT!!! THEY SHOULD HAVE AT LEAST TRIED!!!!
Kari actually didn't have very many major lines in the film I felt like but I loved the little scenes of her at the beginning, actually, though, she was kind of just there next to T.K. the entire time because the film also framed them together so hard it's SO WEIRD THEY AREN'T CANON.
T.K. though. God he was just so T.K. in this film. The trauma of losing Patamon in Adventure and then whatever happened in Tri like. It was just the most T.K. thing to do and say when they were talking about what they had to do. But also, I loved whenever the cops showed up and Davis goes "WHAT, HOW DID THEY FIND US?" and T.K. was like "ARE YOU KIDDING!???? YOU AND YOUR BOYFRIEND SUMMONED A GIANT FLYING MONSTER!!!!"
Honestly, this movie was everything I ever wanted really. About three minutes before we went into the movie I was talking about ghost game with my friend and how I wished it hadn't been for kids because it had such great and frankly horrifying concepts and everything was just sunshine and rainbows for children and nothing bad ever really happened which was disappointing.
And then I watched The Beginning. This movie felt so much like coming home from the start because I felt like I knew these character's so well (I lost count of how many times I sat in the theater and said a thing, only to have one of the character's also say the thing a second later), and everything was so bright and nice and then it became an eldritch horror show.
Let me tell you, when I watched the trailer for the first time I said to my friend "dude what was with that trailer??? The music????? Why is it so sinister???" and, despite that, I still did not see the horror coming and neither did anyone else in the theater. Everyone and I do mean everyone went very still and quiet and tense the second the first hint of bad began. We were all so unprepared and it was very upsetting.
As I was leaving the theater, I heard a woman fighting with her husband over having brought their very little daughter to see the movie. The mom clearly thought it was a fun kids movie because it was animated and whoever is in charge of American films absolutely thinks all animated movies are for kids so it wasn't rated which is how the film industry always handles anime films.
They seem completely incapable of understanding that animation doesn't equal child friendly. Watching it, though, it's never been more clear that a Digimon movie was for older audiences than watching The Beginning. Like, this film was not for kids. This film was for us. The setting. The themes. The fact that 79% of the entire movie is exposition/dialogue...
When the little girl's dad asked her if she liked the film as it ended, he sounded strained and his wife was complaining that the film was going to give her nightmares and while his daughter said yes, she liked the film it was in a way that you could tell that no, she didn't really because she had no idea what was going on - it was bright and colorful and there were cute characters sometimes so that was probably fine but she couldn't have been older than six so it was probably very boring for her.
That is one of my few complaints about the film, actually. It was nearly all talking and exposition. I wish there had been more action. I wish it had been a little more light hearted and goofy at times. The eldritch horror/really messed up part of the movie felt like it went on forever but that might have just been my lack of prepardness for it. I was just so shocked even while my brain was like "yes, this is what we always wanted I AM LIVING" - also because I imagined that kind of awful, dark underbelly of the world of Digimon existing for the character's I already know and love.
Nothing is going to stop me from headcanoning that Davis reaction to Lui's mom being The Worst was so immediate and visceral because he's dealing with his own trauma from his mom's refusal to accept that he's trans, okay?
I didn't care a great deal for Lui and Ukkomon obviously disturbed me to no end - I know it wasn't Ukkomon's fault, they didn't know better but also it's fair to say that I was scarred for life about Lui's parents and the baseball bat scene and I would probably like Lui a lot more if his story weren't all conjecture and exposition. Also he was so negative (understandably) and was such a downer the entire film, honestly, thank god Davis and his endless queer energy was there to breakthrough to Lui and help him see the light of queerness friendship.
Anyway, did I mention Lui's claim that he's the first ever human to partner with a digimon doesn't make sense to me? I've thought about it a little more and, fine, maybe it's possible that Lui could be the first person to partner with a Digimon but the idea that everyone else became Digi-Destined because of him and Ukkomon still doesn't sit right. Oikawa didn't get a digimon until he was an adult and died and so even though he knew about Digi-World he technically didn't become Digi-Destined and the Digital World could have existed for ages before anyone partnered with a Digimon. Those things aren't mutually exclusive, I have to remind myself, but it just doesn't feel right to me and their claims being baseless seems more legit.
Okay, I'm done, that's it for my rough thoughts on the movie, I think. They probably won't get any clearer. I'm gonna use the film to further my Trans!Davis/Daiken headcanons for sure though.
One last thing though and it's that my friend said he hated Lui because Lui took away from the 02 kids and I had to remind him that Willis exists in Hurricane Touchdown and the majority of that film is Willis and Davis talking/fighting and the other kids just existing. It's not some wild new Digimon format to have a new Digi-Destined to center the plot around.
And speaking of the plot, a final thought is on the bit where their Digivices weren't relevant anymore. That isn't off-brand either actually. I don't like that they disappeared because I have an emotional attachment to them but I understand that the narrative was not needing to prove their bonds with their Digimon and therefore anyone can have strong bonds of real friendship with or without a Digivice aka being Digi-Destined - it also makes sense with the whole "we didn't need the tags and crests to Digivolve our Digimon because our real strength comes from within" narrative that the OG Digimon Adventure established. The Digivices and tags/crests were just tools to remind them of their bonds with one another.
Anyway, that's it. I'm shutting up. This post got so long I'm sorry but also if anyone wants to share their thoughts on the movie or my bad takes but in a fun way that's cool feel free. I'm always here to talk about Digimon and how this is gonna influence all my future headcanons things but seriously don't @ me out of malice. K THX
#Digimon 02 The Beginning#The Beginning#Digimon Adventure 02#Spoilers#Davis Motomiya#Ken Ichijouji#Daiken#Yolei Inoue#Cody Hida#Yukio Oikawa#Lui Ohwada#Ukkomon#Digimon Adventure#T.K. Takaishi#Kari Kamiya
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Hello! do you have any cherik fic recs?
i have . so many. (pukes and cries) this is gonna be long but to start off i'm gonna give you my ultimate faves of like. each iteration. so i can be insane. i won't make summaries bc im bad i will just tell you how insane i am.
general thing that none of these have a sad ending or triggering topics bc im. im . I Like Happiness
-curses that can't be lifted by sotano: see. this is about cherik early comics canon right. when they just met in haifa. AND OOOOOOO GH oGH oghghgOGOH I LOVE LEAVING COMMENTS. I LEAVE LONG COMMENTS. I AM VERY ILL IN THE BRAIN WHEN IT COMES TO LEAVING COMMENTS. BUT I LITERALLY STILL CANT FIGURE OUT WHAT TO SAY IN THIS BC I LOVE IT SO MUCH. LIKE ILL COME AROUND EVENTUALLY OF COURSE. BUT IVE READ IT LIKE 50 TIMES AND ITS SO GOOD ITS SO GOOD IT MAKES ME DERANGED i was reading it yesterday again. as i do. and i had to close the tab bc it made me so unwell. i'm so normal
-afterlife by anna: this fic is so good but for my mental health it's in shambles. You don't get it. i'll be pacing around my room thinking back of scenes in this and im like ALRIGHT. PAUSE TO THROW UP AND CRY. EVER SINCE IVE READ THIS I HAVEN'T BEEN THE SAME DO YOU UNDERSTAND. IT'S POST DAYS OF FUTURE PAST AND THAT MAKES ME SO ILLLLLLL I LOVE DOFP SO BAD AND I LOVE CHARLES IN IT AND im like oh man i need something to make me cry and puke and shit myself and cure my depression im gonna read that fic again. And i do it. and i am cured. after i cry myself out to this i am so normal again
-someplace that is green by mugsandpugs: oh my god. Also bad for my mental health like (pucnhign myself) YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. it's technically x-men evolution but if you know cherik you'll understand it either way so. just. wow. erik can fit so much trauma. I can fit so many emotions. i can be so mentally ill. IREAD IT SO MUCH LIEK THE SLOOOOOWWBWBURRNNNNNNNNN AHH AHH AHH (PUKES AND CRIES) AHH WANDA AND PIETRO. AH. DEAR GOD. U DONT GET IT !!!!!! THE WORLDBUILDIGN!! (curls up and cries)
ok yeah. i'll put under the cut all the other recs i have sorry for being unwell
you should read everything by ao3 user sotano btw. not to be demented or deranged. but they never miss. everything they ever write is so . Oh my god. U dont get it. im ill. i will buy them a house
-tabula rasa by o2doko: the telepathy exploration of this goes so fucking hard
-fair verona by ha_neul: i love gender so much you don't ungerstand trans fics are the world to me they really arre
-tesselation by nekosmuse: oh my god. i mean it's a popular fic so it's probably been read. BUT THE SLAY. GOD. THE WRITING. PUKES AND DIES
-travel advisory by penknife: SORRY FOR RECCING 2003 FICS BUT FLOGOGHGOGOGH THE 2003 PEOPLE GOT IT IN WAYS NOBODY ELSE DIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
-no capes by dedkake: this just hits all the spots of needing lighthearted comedy and keeping the magneto / professor x dynamic i so desperately crave. i love when authors play around with their identities while loosely sticking to canon hehe
-all these miles (just to get back home) by isthiswhatiam: you gotta read everything he posts tbh BUT this one is my personal fav i love post dark phoenix u_u
-in dreams begin responsibility by kass: im telling u the pre 2011 fics go so hard. and for what. My god. uim ill it's so good
-sweet by sadbigchungus: its so good. Do u know how fukcing hard it is to get krakoa cherik content. hard. but this hits all the sweet spots i love it so much it's so good
-a good night's sleep by insertsthmeaningful: Can i just say this author writes so much good fic and i am absolutely obsessed. as well as im obsessed w post assassination in xforce cherik like aoghogogjogghOGGH
-the way it travels in and keeps emitting light by populuxe: it's OGHGOGH i love reading this one. it's so hard to find fics that actually talk about disabilities and this one does it SO well and erik is SO perfect in this fic im sick!!
-a nice boy (the family matters edition) by pocky_slash: i don't wanna talk about how hard i cry when i reread this one i might have family issues of sorts.
-a winter's journey by red: i love old cheirk so mcuh it makes me want to eat my ownf oot
-the trouble with trilbies by obstrinatix: I LOVE. OLD MEN. CHERIK
-& other words by questors: this is so good like the worldbuilding genuinely floors and runs me over until im nothing but an useless dough
-necessary downtime by unforgotten: i . old cherik. Ogjjgjkrlgjlslkfd
-bug on a plate by lindstrom: ANOTHER ONE THAT ACTUALLY DESCRIBES DISABILITIES SUPER WELL AND DOESNT SHY AWAY FROM THEM ITS A HITTTT AND MIDDLE AGED CHERIK JUST HTIS DIFF SORRY
-the last love song and testament of charles f xavier by midrashic: u know what i said about liking afic so much u cant actually bring urself to properly word the comment so youre just waiting and waiting to properly say smth. Yea thats me w this fic too. why's it so fucking good. how am i meant to word my emotions. but hey if i got around to commenting on Afterlife i will to this
-one second and a million miles by madneto: nothing has ever put me through such a slowburn like this fic like it was so insane and crazy i felt like god was slapping me. PLUS. IRENE AND RAVEN ARE IN IT......SLAY!
-bloodbound by ikeracity: u know i didnt care about vampire fics until THIS ONE. WHERE I WAS LIKE. OH. OKAY. THEYRE GOOD ACTUALLY I SEE THE LIGHT IT MAKES SENSE NOW.
-the golden mean by somuchmorethanyouknow: IT'S SO GOOD OK. THE WAY I WISH THIS FIC WAS CANON JSUT BC IT WAS SO GOOD. THE GENOSHA BUILDING OF IT ALL. MY GODDDDDD! I LOVED IT. SO PAINFULLY GOOD. THE WRITING OF CHARLES AND EIRK IS SO EXCEPTIONAL BUT SO IS EVERYONE ELSE IN THE FIC TOO. AH
-make me stay by lynds: well. what can i say. who's to say no to a little telepathy play. sorry for liking bottom erik. as if it's my fault
-before you attempt me (fair warning) by kianspo: i read this one time i was really sad and i shouldnt have because i started crying about never being able to find a love like the one in this fic. anyway it's super good
-everything about it is a love song by pocky_slash: its bad for me. old cherik makes me go through itnso much. i cant believe ill never find love like this
-feels like you're mine by annejumps: Sorry for bottom erik enthusiast. AS IF ITS MY FAULTNTO HAVE SUCH GOOD TASTE
-because it's you that sets the test by equestrianstatue: [DERANGED NOISES] IM LIKEBSO CASUAL ABOUT THIS FIC IM NOT EVEN MENTALLH ILL.
-special studies in mutant topics by populuxe: my ao3 bookmark says "filed under fics i read while having a mental breakdown and saved my mental health" you can bet its so good and sexy and Oghgogngntnntnngng i will have to marry this authors writing style. SUBBING TO THIS AUTHOR ISNT ENOUGH I HAVE TO BUY THEM DINNER IDK
but also the sex thing: this fic ruined my ability to watch dofp. no matter how many times i watch it ill be quoting this fic along to it
thats it. for Now. i actually have more but some of them are just the real popular ones so im like. Yeah youve read it. BUT THE REST MIGHT BE FOR NEXT TIME. I GUESS. SORRY. THIS GOT OUT OF HAND
#asks#I love fanfic and i love talking about fanfic and i love writing fanfic and i love fanfic.#touches this post. mental illness#cherik
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can you explain for dumb about haru and covering his eye in bed pls? &I love your posts ( ˘ ³˘)♥
Idk I've just seen quite a lot in animes when the "dark side" prevails over the "light one" or someone what I call "splits" or doesn't want to feel anymore, they show it like that.
Like for example in Hakkenden there was a dude, who lost part of himself (his shadow) and they were like yinyang shit, where roughly one was only the soft feelings part (he eventually only saw with the right eye) and the other was the dark ruthless part.
And it was also same with Akashi's eyes from KNB, when he turned into bokushi (I mean left one lit up).
And while there's not really explanation for why right eye is the "feelings" one and I saw some debated that maybe its the eye of the sun/eye of the moon thing, I think maybe it's because they call the right side of the brain the "emotional" one, while the left one is more about being rational (robotic, emotionless). So when the left becomes "main" it means someone shoved his emotions elsewhere (I'm guessing?) xD
And btw in some dramas too I've seen the right eye representing the soul and vulnerability (Idk why exactly again).
So after Rin lost and ran off and Haru couldn't find him, his not-resolved ptsd returned, so during the race with Albert he was vulnerable and he has those flashbacks to times when Rin left the 2nd time, that constantly haunt him that led to 4 years of depression. They show how Makoto couldn't help him and we see from Haru's memories that "Albert" is looming over him since these times already.
That's bc as we know Albert represents the "I don't want to feel" thing and apparenty "appears" when Haru's heart is in jeopardy (aka when Rin is gone or he's scared to lose him... shocking info lol). So we see little Haru is already "glitching", while missing his heartu (that red-haired one xD).
Glitch-glitch Akashi style.
Haru realizes that Rin is the "cure" during the race, he thinks of him and a clear drop of water appears among the black water Albert created:
and then Haru's able to break free from the "dark magic" (lmao) and finish the race.
Thats why later under the sakura Haru tells Rin "the feeling during the race with Albert scared me, but the reason I found the strength in me to keep fighting.. was you." (yeah, you can cry here).
That's why I said about the bed scene.. bc after the race when Rin avoids him and not in the hotel and Haru is scared that its this shit again, as he lays alone thinking about everything and after being exhausted by the Albert's dark water thingy, his hand covers his right eye (the feelings) and the right part of the room is in the dark.
Then Makoto interrupts Haru talking about Albert and how his swimming is not his swimming anymore bc he has to play with kids asap and when Haru is left "all alone", his right eye lights up with purple and Haru covers his left one and for a moment it seems like he "can't see" with the right one:
until its back to normal, when he gathers himself up thinking of something (-one? xD) as he turns in the direction of the sakura:
so he goes there to calm himself and remember what (who?) makes him happy when he swims. Tells Rin that he's his "cure" from Alberto and how needs him to be with him. And then Rin delivers a final blow and Haru's ptsd fully kicks in and he says everything he wanted to say for a while and goes "fuck this feelings shit" ("I don't want this anymore" xD), and then Rin leaves with Haru's heart...
bc they're both deaf, I guess T_T
I mean, in this case its all just a metaphor for stages of his feelings, thats all, bc that way its easier to be on the journey with him :)
as if we couldn't guess who's his drop in the ocean, a change in the weather, a rain in the desert lmao
So now he's gonna be emotionless patootie for a bit :(
P.S. I still laugh a lot about those arts where he puts on purple contacts just to piss him off, bc his favorite love of his life precious eyes that are Haru's soul are his weakness and Rin is like "ahhhh NO YOU DIDN'T" "YES I DID" xDDDD
P.P.S. They showed it like Rin really just took his heart a long time ago and didn't even fucking return. And now its only there when he is there lol. I mean, the audacity!!!
#answered#anonymous#rinharu#harurin#free! the final stroke#anime#free!#nanase haruka#so if anyone has other guesses for why right eye dm me haha
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Me: *watches the Tropical Rouge penultimate episode and final episode, feels moved but underwhelmed*
Me, barely an hour or two later: *has crafted a concept for an extremely painful fanfic in which Manatsu has a rapid nosedive into depression because of her (now repeated and ongoing) memory loss, there’s a scene in which she tries to drown herself at that area of the aquarium they all hang out at but she is unable to drown because of her residual precure powers*
Me by day’s end, not even a half day since I watched the episodes: *has plotted out a nearly 20 chapter story that I’ve slotted into the overarching cosmology of my Pacrim Owlphibia AU. The climax involves Laura rebelling against Gran Ocean after meeting back up with Manatsu and she destroys the memory erasure machine in her Pretty Cure form. Laura does. Manatsu is comatose in the hospital at the time.*
In other words, I watched the finale today. And with my brain being the way it is, I immediately went “how can I make this hurt more?”. Why am I like this? I love it, but goddamn do I have a tendency to make everything… darker. There’s better words to describe it but I’m essentially a combination of King Clawthorn from the Owl House and Monika from Doki Doki Literature Club when it comes to fan fiction. These characters just cannot exist in my head without contracting depression. Also I made Manatsu trans but I literally don’t have it anywhere in the 20 chapter version, I’d have to do a rewrite of the season a la the rest of Pacrim Owlphibia. My Amphibia fic within the Pacrim Owlphibia has like 155 planned chapters and that’s without the season 3b stuff. And the amphibia fic is 1a out of 15 currently named installments, with many other less defined stuff in the works.
I have a massive issue with scope creep.
Btw I did cry at the finale, but I cried more when I was planning my version so…
Also one of the reasons why she got clinically depressed so quickly in this AU is that the memory erasure machine sucks up a bit of motivation power as a side effect of the procedure, and the amount of motivation power lost is greater the harder you cling to the memories being stolen. Also Manatsu was awake when she first loses her memories so the event is traumatic and also lets her know that her memories have indeed been stolen.
Also, around the time I started planning Manatsu to get suicidally depressed I realized that I could, and in actuality was, having Manatsu’s depression arc be a parallel to the witch of destruction’s fall into being the witch of delays. So that hit me like a truck.
#pretty cure#tropical rouge precure#pacrim owlphibia au#my posts#precure#I also include an idea I can’t believe NO ONE has done yet. but I’m not saying that part.#like seriously how the fuck did no one think of the thing I’m not mentioning????#tw suicide mention#I’m conflicted if I should post this to my main and also in the tags…… but like… I’ve already written it so„ into the tunglr it goes I guess
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, LITERALLY WHO LOOKS AT NICK FUCKING RUSSEL AND GOES “mm yes, take my autism”
THIS IS AN ISSUE
WHY AM I LIKE THIS
whatever its too late now! you get to hear me talk about it to avoid writing it!!
So, i’ll be explaining the show for you newbs who dont watch power rangers like a smart person (as in the not watching it is smart).
Power Rangers Mystic Force is, obviously, power rangers. It’s got the standard team of five with superpowers and weird biker-looking uniforms.
If im honest, PRMF is literally just power rangers but with like fantasy magic.
It follows Nick Russell, the new guy in town. He’s a biker and he’s got this tragic bs backstory about how his parents abandoned him (update: they work overseas, they adopted him and like do not vibe with him) and he travels, living with family members and how he never sticks around long enough to make friends. We know he’s staying with his sister, and about nothing else.
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Nick Russell is actually really important, of course, he is the Red Ranger and if we didn’t have the leader be angsty what kind of Power Rangers would we be, am I right? (i dunno i havent watched other power rangers in like ten years)
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But we’ll come back to that.
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There’s also Charlie “Chip” Thorn, a hyperactive hyperimaginative redhead with a love for fantasy and superheroes. He’s eager to join the team and loves the idea of quests and fighting villains and shit. He’s the Yellow Ranger, with Lightning Powers.
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Vida Rocca, the ‘bad girl’. She has this one strip of her short hair that she dyes and may I just say when I finished the show a third time I couldnt not think ‘yO HER HAIR CHANGES TO SHOW HOW SHE FEELS ABOUT THE RANGERS’ but lets be honest thats probably bs lol. Anyways, she’s a DJ and she loves music, she’s the Pink Ranger (who hates pink for most of the show) with Wind Powers.
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Madison Rocca, the ‘good girl’. She’s Vida’s sister, and she like following the rules and she enjoys recording her friends to make little videos for them to look back on when theyre older. She’s hesitant and cautious, but will do a lot to make sure her sister is safe. She’s the Blue Ranger, with the power of Water.
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Xander Bly, he’s cocky and thinks hes all that, and flirts with women like every chance he gets. He thinks he’s super handsome and amazing and probably has a superiority complex for one reason or another. He’s the green ranger, with Nature Powers.
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Not rangers include:
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Koragg, one of the big bads who (SPOILERS) later turns out to be Nick’s father and Udonna’s long lost husband. Early on in the show he can telepathically communicate with Nick, which gives Nick these really really bad headaches, great for angst, it’s used as a bit of a plot device through a lot of the show and ngl I love it cause angst.
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Uhh forgot her name but there’s the Vampire Queen who has bat wings on her hips and is in a full leather body suit. She’s kinda boring.
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I forgot her name as well but the Vampire Queens daughter, who later goes on to save her mother because she realizes that the Rangers are the good guys and she’s on the wrong team.
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Udonna, the kinda ex White Ranger and a very powerful sorceress, as well as the Ranger’s trainer and Claire’s aunt.
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Claire, (SPOILERS) who turns out to be the Daughter of Udonna’s sister, who was more powerful than her and sacrificed her life to seal the gate to what is essentially hell. She’s comedically bad at magic early in the show, and acts a lot like a comedic relief.
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The Master, aka The Big Bad that the evil guys are trying to let free. Koragg before he became Koragg was trying to kill him and succeeded in trapping him further than all the others. He’s some weird tentical creepy muscles-showing no skinned weird i dunno i think i repressed this cause i forgot what he looks like lol.
Alright, so those are the characters. Now let me explain the plot.
Nick rides into town on his bike and is usually found set up outside the record shop that the rest of the Rangers (yet to be) work at. Btw, theyre all teenagers, but I think this takes place in summer cause we never see them go to school.
Anyways, this old man calls for somebody to help him, and says that his brother and him were walking through the woods and somebody grabbed him, and he needed somebody to go looking for his brother. Nick, not being apart of the town to know they have rumours about dying in the forest, offers to help.
Xander tells him the woods are haunted, he ignores the man saying the man needs help so who gives a shit about some rumours, and then Vida is like “i’ll help too,” and Chip joins in cause he thinks its gonna be some awesome quest. They make it out to the forest, and Maddie and Xander join them, (”Xander I told you if you ever took my car I’d rearrange your limbs!” -Vida, episode one).
The man is like super ominous and her vanishes once they get into the forest, this creepy witch lady saves them from some bad guys attempting to attack them, and then throws brooms at them that they fly off on.
Time skip not actually in the show but im losing steam so we’re moving on. Eventually, they make it to RootCore, aka the base of operations, and meet Udonna and Claire. Udonna is this super powerful sorceress and the White Ranger, and she trains them. Claire is her apprentice who is comedically bad at magic.
She hands out wands to them, they go to leave, get into a fight, all of them but Nick believe in and use magic, Nick leaves the forest, Udonna fights Koragg and loses her staff aka her White Ranger magic, and the Rangers are left in charge of saving everybody.
In the end, Nick goes to leave and ends up showing up anyways to save the rangers from Koragg and embraces the magic, becoming the Red Ranger.
That’s the gist of the first episode, and the rest is kinda just “fight the bad guys, discover random secrets that make a surprising amount of sense for a show like this, fail a couple times, do some weird shit then end on a happy note”
WHICH BTW THE ENDING? FUCKIN WEIRD
The fantasy creatures integrate with Humans, Vida dyes all her hair bright pink, Nick fucking leaves town and this is the weird part. Because for one, Nick wanted to stay with his friends it was obvious, but for two; the way he left was w e i r d . He, Udonna and not-evil-Koragg who I forgot the name of, leave together.
The end scene is Nick riding up to the edge of the rode on his Motorcycle, then it slowly pans out to show Udonna and Nek (im just calling him Nek as in not evil koragg now) on bikes as well?? one of them asks if hes ready to go and they ~ride off into the sunset~
For one: THESE ARE AGE OLD SORCERERS WHO HAVE VERY LITTLE IDEA ABOUT HUMAN TECH?? HOW DO THEY KNOW HOW TO RIDE??
For two: dID THEY JUST HAVE THESE BIKES RIDING AROUND?? AND THE HELMETS?? DID THEY SHELL OUT A BUNCH OF MONEY FOR THIS?? LITERALLY WHAT???
anyways, great show! youve gotta watch it on some.. less than legal sites but shh its okay shhhh. It used to be on Netflix but like yaknow, its gone now. Either way, it’s a great show in my opinion! Like I mean it’s bad cause Power Rangers, so to most who are looking to critique there’s probably shit acting, and there’s a lot of not needed grunting in battle, the effects are shitty and the costumes are kinda depressing, but it’s still enjoyable!
Random Facts--
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Vida hates Pink, despite being the pink ranger.
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Chip, Vida, and Maddie have been friends since either kindergarten or elementary school, i dunno about Xander.
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They all work at a Record Shop/Music Shop together, and their boss is an idiot but kinda entertaining.
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Vida turns into a vampire for about two episodes, and Chip is the one to figure it out.
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Maddie gets turned to stone because Nick essentially calls her useless and shy, and so she went out to prove otherwise, and got caught up in an attack.
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Chip opens a weird black bottle he found after a battle and some weird thing comes out and attacks him, he spends the B Plot of that episode quite literally dying with his soul being eaten and climbing a mountain to get the cure.
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Koragg has a really dumb moral code about how he only fights with Honor and refuses to kill the rangers most of the time because its “not honorable” for some reason or another.
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There’s an episode where Xander gets this really really ugly and big zit right on the tip of his nose, and he uses this perfection potion Claire made for plants. He proceeds to turn into a literal tree and be depressed.
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There’s a Troblin, the child of a Troll and a Goblin, named Phineas who’s very entertaining and I like this. By the end of the show, he ends up dating the daughter of the Vampire Queen which when you think too hard about makes no sense.
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Nick turns into Koragg at one point late in the series. I completely fucking forgot how, but he does lol.
#power rangers#mystic force#power rangers mystic force#tw swearing#swearing tw#probably#caps tw#tw caps#infodump#i love this show#can you tell?#infodumping#v fun to talk about#its a great show#anyways im gonna make another post now and talk about#my fic
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Fire Emblem: Three Houses Thoughts
As someone who has always enjoyed JPRGs (thanks FFX) I kind of went into FETH knowing I would probably enjoy it. It’s character driven! It has different classes for each character! You can romance a character of your choice! There are goddesses, ultimate weapons, dragons, and a magic system! How could I not like this game?
The thing about FETH is it didn’t really throw any twists or turns that I couldn’t have predicted my way but the conclusions were still satisfying. The story was good but not in a ‘woah, change my life’ way. It did its job but its not FFVII or Tales of Bersera good in my eyes. No. It’s the characters and their individual stories that kept me playing.
I played Verdant Wind btw so there will probably be some spoilers for this route in my notes below.
You can’t really speak about Verdant Wind without first mentioning Claude. He’s the House’s Lord and the person you chose to align with at the start of the game. I chose The Golden Deer because of Claude. I’m not ashamed to admit it. I spoke to all the students, liked the look of some of them, felt meh about others, but when it came down to the choice I had to go with my gut feeling- this guy feels down to earth compared to the other two. I feel like he would be a laugh to hang out with. Plus he’s pretty.
I wasn’t wrong. Claude speaks to others as if they are his equal... because they are to him, and part of that also means that he isn’t afraid to make fun of his classmates or even his rival houses. Claude is top bants, and of course he remains pretty up to the point of the time skip- where he looks straight up handsome. Golden Boy indeed.
But my favorite thing about Claude- and the rest of the characters really- is that what you first see isn’t what is really going on. Claude might speak causally with people but he is extremely mistrustful of people at the beginning of the game. He keeps all his cards close to his chest under the pretence of being a ‘schemer’ but while he does have a sharp mind the real reason for this is he doesn’t trust others to take him and his goals seriously. He’s been treated as an outsider his whole life. Been discriminated against. Moved from pillar to post at the will of the nobles and seen discrimination happening from the other side as a result of this. Which is why his route is perfect for him. In between Edelgard, Rhea, and Dimitri, Claude is the third party, trying to make the best of a situation and struggling to see both sides. He wants to gather all the information he can because he would hate to have a wrong opinion due to trusting the biased opinions of others. He finds the truth for himself.
But Claude doesn’t stay that way. Yes, his goal from the beginning has been to tear down the wall separating Fodlan from the outside world but.... ironically he had to tear down the wall within himself that was separating him from others as well. Claude at the end of the game is a very different person to the Claude at the beginning. He is open to Lorenz and Hilda’s suggestions, willing to share his plans with Byleth and others, up to the point where he reveals his ultimate goal to the others and they stand by him. Nobles, commoners, Crestbearers and Crestless. Claude truly becomes a leader in that scene. He inspires in a way all leaders should and leads by example.
And it’s not just Claude...it’s all of them: Hilda, Lorenz, Leonie, Lysithea, Ignatz, Rapheal and Marianne all develop over the course of the story (especially if you do their Supports) and their development feeds into both Claude’s and Verdant Wind’s story.
Let me talk about Marianne for a second. I honestly didn’t think much of her to start with- oh here’s another ‘I’m so sorry’ fragile girl- I thought- I’m sure she’ll stay exactly the same, the way they always do.
Nope. Marianne is a mess. She’s a severely depressed, suicidal, living from day to day, barely taking care of herself, mess. I like that the game highlights this as her being utterly unhealthy. It’s not edgy goth girl, or cute shy girl, it’s Marianne being a danger to herself. The game writes her despair as being rooted in her Crest (the cursed Crest of the Beast) but it is ridiculously easy to read this Crest as a metaphor for Mental Illness. She’s told to stay away from others because of it because she might hurt them. Her father suffered from it before her and it was passed down to her. If people knew the nature of her Crest they would shun her as something dangerous and untrustworthy. And lastly, it is achingly clear how much she wants to be freed of it... even if that freedom costs her life. I’m reading it as a mental illness metaphor and I’m sticking with it.
But its her supports that bring her back to life. The people around her speak to her in various ways befitting their character (I like this too) and each one highlights something different that they see in her that is admirable and good. Rapheal admires her affinity with animals. Lorenz admires her quiet nature. Ignatz recognises how easy it is to appreciate the small things when with her. Claude recognises her strength in being different. Etc. etc. None of these things cure her but by being around people and seeing that they don’t reject her but accept her instead her shell begins to crack. Maybe it doesn’t have to be this way, Marianne begins to think. Maybe there are small parts of myself that are not only tolerable but... wanted in others. Maybe I don’t have to apologise for my existence.
It’s hard to say when Marianne truly turns a leaf because much like real life, change doesn’t happen in one moment, but it’s important to recognise that she does change. She still has the Crest at the end of the story (read Mental Illness) but she noticeably is able to speak her mind without apologising, able to offer her help rather than shying away, and most importantly able to laugh. It’s amazing how vocal Marianne is after the time-skip. She’s still Marianne but a healthier person. And I love her for it.
I won’t go over the other characters as I’ve spoken plenty about my two faves but I do love them all. Yes, even Sylvain. Can’t agree with his methods but I do understand and empathise with his reasons. And people are often like that.
Going off characters and into other things:
Gameplay-
I liked it but made the mistake of choosing Normal. It was ridiculously easy by the mid-way point. I would defo play on Hard in future games. However I love the strategy of choosing who fights who, when to draw someone back, when to use Gambits etc. Also love the class system. Pegasus Knights go brrrrrrrr.
Music-
This is a ‘it does its job’ for me. Nothing really stood out asides the final boss theme. But it didn’t annoy me or get bland so there’s that!
Monastery Life-
Pre Timeskip- Was fun. I liked trying to recruit students and finding lost items and doing all the support raising stuff. It was a nice break from battles.
Post Timeskip- Eh. Not enough students around to justify it tbh. It didn’t bore me but I did find myself wanting to go back to battles, story, or supports.
Verdant Wind story- I like this route for its lore and for how it mirrors Claude’s character. I did not like last minute villain even if I liked his theme. I was kind of surprised Sothis never came back?? Killing the students I didn’t recruit was fucking cruel. Have no idea what happened to Dedue. Maybe he went to the Bahamas for a long holiday after losing out to the kill.
I want to play the other routes to understand Edelgard/Dimitri/Rhea’s viewpoints but I do feel like VW is a complete story in itself. You don’t need anything else but Claude really. Why get messed up in politics and Crest shit when you can try to end racism, right? Who the fuck cares about that other stuff.
Anyway in conclusion this game to me succeeds for two things- compelling character development and compelling character relationships. I’m kind of astounded tbh that the writers wrote so many characters and yet made them all compelling in their own ways.
I bought a Golden Deer shirt because I am so invested in these characters so they’ve got to be good.
#fire emblem:three houses#verdant wind#claude von reigen#marianne von edmund#golden deer#video games#fire emblem
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tl;dr - Eric Wallace has no idea what he’s doing with The Flash, either the character or the show.
Let me make something very clear - I like Eric Wallace’s work in comics. Mister Terrific lived up to its name. He knows hos way around the characters. This isn’t a case of some Hollywood guy coming in a thinking he knows better than 80 years of writers and fans.
One of the biggest problems started as far back as season four - all the fucking murder. The season-long arc featuring The Thinker had a maddening pattern - introduce an interesting new character, sometimes an innocent person with newfound powers, sometimes a new villain, but it didn’t matter, because The Thinker would find them and kill them. No point getting to know anyone, they’re dead. And it was maddening. The Flash kept getting handed loss after loss, and things just got less and less fun. And doubt not for a moment, that is what I am looking for on this show - fun.
Now as an aside, I have to lay some of the blame here with Geoff Johns. When Geoff brought Barry back in the comics, he was the one who made the decision to change his life story, and place sadness and trauma at the center of it. And what’s worse, he saw fit to leave it there, even after it was revealed it was put there by the reverse Flash. So, there’s that.
I’ve already gone on about how much I hated the season finale from last year, and yes, I’m fully aware that much of it was out of his hands. but part of the reason it was so bad tied in with the way the whole season was paced. There was no joy - like with The Thinker before, the new villain was handing the team losses left and right, and there was absolutely no hope in sight. I grew increasingly enraged last year when they wouldn’t give Flash a single reason to feel he was making progress. I kept hoping week after week that they’d end the “Iris in the Mirrorverse” subplot, not only because I wanted there to be some sense of “we’re turning the corner” to the narrative, but simply because I wanted it to fucking end.
But then, after endless episodes of no success, everything was resolved in one single episode. Yes, it was done by Barry appealing to Mirror Monarch (Thanks for not going with “Mirror Mistress” BTW) and her humanity, even tho we learned only like the week before that she WASN’T human, but whatever. But after a whole season of build-up, the last episode was an out of left field mess that started and ended faster than you could even process. Iris’ return was given like five minutes, and the resolution of ever single plot thread from the whole season even less time. Some were resolved with less style that Doc calling from from off camera “Hey, everyone, Duke’s out of his coma!”
I think I can summarize my single biggest problem with the show in recent seasons in one word - pacing.
Eric has been packing the show with So. Many. Subplots. And he gives none of them space to move or time to breathe. Subplots with real potential interest wither and die, and one that should be one-and-done are left to annoy us for weeks.
Case in point - the “Death of the Speed Force” plot could and should have been a far more interesting and up-front story. But it had nothing to do with the main story at all, and seemed to exist for no reason other than to put another stumbling block in Barry’s way. And I get it - when you have a guy that can run at light-speed, every episode could be three seconds long if you don’t give him a reason to not just run.
So, let’s take all of these thoughts and apply them to this season so far.
First off, All The Fucking Murder is back. After Barry convinced Abra Kadabra to stand down and maybe even become an ally...nope, no point getting interested, the Big Bad came along and just killed him. Now, did he HAVE to die? Nope - he could ju8st as easily just gotten really really injured, so much so that we wouldn’t even see him again all season - that would have been enough to make the point. But no, let’s just kill him - that’s how you do thing in comics, right?
Secondly, the pacing problem is back. The idea of trying to force Frost to take the meta-cure had the potential to be a positively riveting idea - the ACLU should have been in that courtroom as soon as it was presented as an option. It could have been a b-plot for weeks, being played as an analogue for SO many social issues. But nope, he shot his wad in one episode.
Meanwhile, what SHOULD have been the A-plot of the episode, the sudden and inevitable betrayal of the personification of the Speed Force was pushed to the rear, and dropped out of nowhere in the last scene. Which once again puts us in the same place where Barry will be at odds with powers and abilities. Yawn.
The only saving grace is that allegedly rather than a single season-long plot, the show is crafted as shorter “graphic novels” for like six to eith episodes. So at least we won’t have to wait the whole year for it all to end, and hope against hope that maybe the next story will be better.
But based on past performance...I’m going to remain depressed.
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For young men (Part 1)
In my latest lockdown induced depressive episode I have been meeting some new people online. They are all young, male, mostly heterosexual, very nice and extremely considerate. However, they also are often afraid becoming a burden, insecure in their appearance or social skills, and often struggling with mental health. Given this, they are also usually extremely afraid of never finding themselves having sex or getting into a meaningful relationship in the late stage neoliberal capitalist dystopia we find ourselves in.
To be honest I didn’t understand them at first, especially their obsession with sex. But the more I am thinking about it, the more I realize that we are united in the same dynamic of seeing sex or love as magic verfication of... What?
Growing up, I used hookups as a way to prove to myself that I am worth something. I thought that my value was defined by men’s desire. I originally in writing this wanted to show my perspective from the other side of the same coin, but after realizing how much of an undertaking that would be, I decided to start with the two most common answers from men used as justification to why they think they won’t get laid. These are things I find will help these kinds of people out, but as a great thinker once said...
“I can’t mom you through this one, boys. You are on your own.” - Contrapoints
(I link songs I like through out btw, the underlined text are links you can click on)
Foreword: Social factors
The average age of first intercourse has been rising in the US. Teenagers have less sex than ever before. These changes will affect you. In teen movies and shows charakters often experiment with sexuality before the age of 18. Everything else is played as an abnormality. If we compare ourselves to this misrepresentation of teenage sexuality, of course we seem like the losers.
“The proportion of young people who have had sexual intercourse increases rapidly as they age through adolescence”. It’s very likely, at least from my view, that you are just going to grow out of the awkward zone of wanting intimacy but not getting it. Just like you grew out of other things, such as bad musical taste or that one gaudy outfit. Don’t stress over this one specifically either.
Adolescence is weird for all of us. Even if your first encounter is after college, let’s be real here: having such a good thing in your own place without your parents looming or having to share your room with a roommate you barely know is so much better anyway.
The Ugly fuck too
A common answer to my question why they think that they will never have sex is that they are “unattractive”. The implication being, that sex is the prize for looking a certain way.
But is it? We are so used to the perfect, porn-ready bodies in the media that we forget that the Ugly fuck too. We never see the foldes of fat and skin, never see acne warriors or moles, never see people who actually look like us.
In the movie “The Parasite”, there is a scene where the husband of Gook Moon-gwang, the former housekeeper, is implied to have sex. (the clip, starts at 3:00) It gave me weird feelings of discomfort, as the illusion so stereotypically found on the silver screen was not present. These two characters are not pretty. They look old. She is fat and he is a balding skeleton. They are not special, and that’s okay.
Being fuckable does not equal beauty. Being fuckable does not equal beauty. It was a terrifying thought initially for someone like me who defined their value over beauty & their beauty as being fuckable. It might also be a scary thought for someone who doesn’t think that they deserve love and intimacy because of their looks. I promise you that you still deserve love! Sex did not cure my problems with my appearance, or the fact that I based my self-esteem on the way I look. It will not make you feel normal. It will not make you feel better, prove your worth or even give you more self esteem in the long term beyond the initial rush of dopamine. It is not a caravan to fulfillment.
Beauty is a concept that is based on exclusion. Allow yourself to feel the pain of being excluded, of not reaching the impossible beauty standards and the disadvantages that come with it. Allow yourself to feel the fear of not being “man enough” and be happy in spite of it.
“Patriarchal masculinity teaches us to control our pain, but it can block us from experiencing the grief that is part of a full life. Chasing pleasure and controlling pain is patriarchal. Opening ourselves up to joy and grief is to be fully human.”
”Those of us in that skinny nerd category are especially prone to thinking that we aren’t “man enough.” [..] But the more I talked to men, the more convinced I became that almost all men at some point in their lives don’t feel man enough. Even the men I thought were the “real men” were scared.
That’s not surprising. Masculinity in patriarchy—that is, masculinity in a system of institutionalized male dominance—trains men to be competitive, in pursuit of conquest, which leads to routine confrontation, with the goal of always being in control of oneself and others. But no matter how intensely competitive one is, no matter how complete the conquest, no matter how many successful confrontations, and no matter how much one stays in control—men are haunted by the fear that they aren’t man enough, that they can never stop proving their masculinity.” - Robert Jensen
Stop comparing your appearance to other men’s. Start talking and bonding with them over your undoubtably shared insecurities rooted in society’s relentless toxic masculinity. Unlearning the things you’ve been indoctrinated into since conception is damn hard. I am still in the middle of it personally, but I promise you it is worth it. It will improve not only your relationships with other men, but also with yourself and that one girl you’re pining after.
There are a ton of resources targeted at women about self acceptance, but not many for men. Robert Jenson comes from a tradition of critical men’s groups. Even though I don’t agree with him on everything, he manages to scare most men (especially the kind I mentioned in the first paragraph) to their core, but also improves their lives drastically with his kindness and radical ideas. I implore you to look him up, and try your best to keep an open mind.
“A person who functions normally in a sick society is themselve sick.”
The other most common answer to the initial question was “being socially maladjusted”, implying that sex is something you earn by behaving a certain way. It is ingrained in the way we talk about love. “Deserving love” is the best example. Neither love nor sex is a product of work. Love and intimacy are a lot like sleep. It is a slow but unconscious process. You slowly work into it, with no idea of what comes next, and then, after an agonizingly long moment, you’re there. The fall is not often expected or easy, is always exhilarating, but never the product of conformity to anything except comfort with who you are.
I do acknowledge that social settings can be weird, existentially unsettling, and full of unseen complexities. This is especially true if you are neurodivergent and / or struggling with mental health. Being neurodivergent or struggling with mental health goes against the impossible, hegemonically masculine standard of always being in controll. It’s a common cause behind feelings of emasculation. Disregard that feeling, and remember that you deserve love, no matter how manly you are or are not, no matter how you behave.
Learning social settings are lot like learning to skate. In the beginning you will be covered in bruises, but with enough effort, you will be better at it. The chance of mistakes will get lower, but never zero. You will always have awkward situations, but that doesn’t mean that you are bad at them. It just means that you have room to improve still. Maybe consider getting lessons or joining a skate crew.
We tend to hyperfocus on the accidents. Think about how many nice conversations you had over the internet, text or otherwise. I ask you to value them. Value these positive experiences, value your friendships and acquaintances, value the people supporting you, online and offline. We tend to hyperfocus on meaningfull longterm friendships, just like we hyperfocus on love. Value your social enviroment, value someone who just made you feel ok for a moment. You are socially adapted, because you have a social enviroment you feel comfortable in, where you have relationships with people. The depth of a relationship is not messured by time, nor by physical touch. Being mindful of your feelings for the people around you can make you realize that you are less alone than you thought.
Some Tips
If you want to make friends additionally to that, here are some tips from someone, who is bad at social clues:
Join a group with a common interest or struggle: Book clubs, activist groups, selfhelp groups, they are great settings to meet new people and you already have a topic to talk about :)
If you feel save about it: Being open about your issues can help other people adapt to you and understand you better - especially in early on in relationships.
People sitting at the bar or smoking outside are generally more open for conversation
Don’t be afraid of getting rejected: They don’t reject you, when they reject a conversation with you. The reasons people don’t want to talk to you is very diverse. Stay respectful and polite.
Don’t expect to much: No one owes you a long conversation. A smalltalk is perfectly fine.
Learn to make compliments casually and learn to compliments that aren’t based on appearance.
Find a common ground (politically, a interest ect.) and talk about it
Take a improv class, seriously TAKE A IMPROV CLASS! (there are online ones, and sometimes it’s even free)
Here are some youtube videos by Anna Akana with more tips. (1) conversations, (2) how to be a better friend, (3) overthinking
Here are is a piece about being bad at relationship I liked.
Footnote: Trophies and muses
“We do not want to do the work of helping you to believe in your humanity. We cannot do it anymore. We have always tried. We have been repaid with systematic exploitation and systematic abuse. You are going to have to do this yourselves from now on and you know it.” - Andrea Dowkin
Behind the whole obsession with sex is often a distorted perception of women. Just remind yourself that women are human? Access to female bodies is not a human right. We are not trophies to push your ego. We are not there to inspire you or heal you. We are humans with agency. We desire love and being loved, just like everyone else.
I am tired, but I believe in your humanity...
xoxo,
aestheticritique
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FRUITS BASKET EPISODE 14
Oh man, the screen cap for this episode is Tohru crying. I’m so in for it, aren’t I?
- SHIGURE WATCH: Why didn’t he go to Kyoko’s grave with the rest of them? Isn’t that lowkey impolite? What came up? Did he feel that if he were to go his frosty heart would truly melt completely? Hmmm... 🧐
OOO! New opening! It’s energetic and fun! I like the metaphor of the sunshine after rain and how that relates to the zodiac and Tohru. I like the character themed umbrellas. It’s all cute and fun. (Although, I am still dreadfully in love with ‘Again’, sorry)
- I love how much Tohru’s friends look up to Kyoko! It’s really just nice and I like how throughout this episode they kind of are there to keep things light and positive for Tohru knowing that this must be crushing her inside. Good friends! Everyone deserves good friends :)
- I too would love to see present day Kyo meet Kyoko! Any period of time interaction actually... (a boiling pot is bubbling within my heart in anticipation...)
*computer voice* Heart Stability has dropped down to 80%
- I love (love in the way of appreciating the work put into the anime) that Momiji’s accent drops when he’s around his mother and it just further highlights that he puts the accent on and the german phrases as a way of acknowledging and feeling closer to his mother. Even though she doesn’t remember him, he always will! Ok. Heart stability has dropped down to 50%
- Although it’s kind of nice how his mother still seems to care about him. Even if it is in the most general way.... Trying to find the positives, guys
So... this has kind of been a thought for a while, but the whole thing about using memory erasure to ‘cure’ people of their sadness is kind of... hmmm...
I get it. This is an extremely peculiar situation but this situation and also Kana’s situation both read to me as depression (in Momiji’s mother’s situation ‘post partum depression). And both depression and suicidal thoughts can be stemmed from one root but also a lot of the time that root tends to have many branches. So, would their depression really be ‘fixed’ by memory erasure? Life can be full of traumatic incidents, they can’t just erase someone’s memory every time a situation comes up. It feels a bit... irresponsible. But tbh, we’re talking about the Sohma family who aren’t the most emotionally healthy nor emotionally conscious group of people so...
- Also, I just clocked that this is a big reason as to why Momiji and Hatori seem to have such a close relationship! Although, it must be tough on Momiji knowing that Hatori was the one to take away his mother’s memories. And I also guess Hatori is trying to atone for it by being an additional parental figure in Momiji’s life... (a little bit of a reflection of a character that will be introduced probably at the end of this season... ahem.)
- But Momiji’s outlook on loss and his situation with his mother is so healthy! (Maybe too healthy) And emotionally mature! And he’s just trying so hard! I’m crying through my typing. Also...
Heart stability has dropped down to 40%
- Yuki has been clocking that Kyo has feelings for Tohru since the spa episode and I love it
- I was considering not doing an outfit appreciation this week cos it just felt so emotionally heavy but OUTFIT APPRECIATION: To both Uo and Hana. Hana as usual is coming through with the gothic queen realness, also love the dramatic flair of the veil and how it’s used later... And Uo! With Kyoko’s jacket! Just super badass and I love it. I love both of them in this episode. They definitely got together before this and agreed to just make sure that Tohru is happy and ok and keep the energy positive and I love it! (It’s a tragedy that they’re not romantically involved with each other)
- Although I do worry that Tohru has clocked this energy and is putting on a happy face to comfort everyone else and not let anyone worry about it. This was the first anniversary and she didn’t get a chance to cry. As someone who’s been there, it’s a bit... worrying
oh SHIT. (Btw, cinematic realness. We only expect the best from Uotani scenes) I am not ready for... newly adapted scenes. I quit. I don’t wanna play anymore. Heart stability has dropped to 10%
- I also love Uo just constantly reading the Sohma boys from head to toe and getting it 100% accurate.
Heart stability has risen to 40%
Waiit...
(I TOTALLY THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA KISS HER. BUT THIS IS MY NEW LAPTOP BACKGROUND ANYWAY.)
Heart stability has dropped to 0%
I can’t. I’m not ready. I’M NOT READY. FUCKIn- CLOWNING OVER HERE.
Well... clearly I need to recharge. And I have no idea what next week is gonna bring but I’m sure I’ll find out either through the tag or my memories of the anime/manga dripping through the bag of soil they’re in right now. Phew. Anyway... how about that new Spider-Man film, huh? (It was aite)
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Breaking The Wheel
A Summarized Analysis of the first three books of HoxPoX: House of X #1&2, and Powers of X #1
Ok so, I’ve been working on/thinking about this for awhile now, mostly because life just keeps interrupting and so I haven’t had the time to just sit down and finish it, but also partially cuz I’ve been struggling with the form I want to put it in. Honestly you could write multipage analyses of EACH of these books, as well as the Stuff they share and conflict over, but I’m going for something more condensed than that so that I can FINALLY move on to just reading the rest of the series! In later posts I’ll be getting into specific themes and instances of symbolism, but first I just want to get my basic observations&guesses abt the series(which everyone else has already read X|) down. So here we go:
Resurrection/Rebirth:
HoX#1 opens with the XMen emerging from some sort of plant-eggs. My guess(which is p much confirmed for me since I’ve read Excalibur #1) was that this is a resurrection. There’s a heavy cthonic tone to the whole Deal, and Xavier is visually placed in an ambiguously parental/godly role to the XMen as they emerge. Of course, in our culture resurrection and rebirth are heavily conflated and so the symbols INVOKING resurrection here --egg shapes, trees, chrysalises, golden light-- are all ALSO symbolic of fertility and rebirth and, as I love puns&multiple meanings, I absolutely think that’s important too. Beyond informing the action of the page, on a meta level this is obvsl also a powerful thesis & statement of intent for X Men, a long-running and hugely popular comic book property: a declaration of both reviving a moribund past, and the intention to do something new with it. The decision to bring back old costumes and classic art styles, and to center it on long-forgotten locations, plot points(like Krakoa itself), and typically overlooked or underwritten characters(like Moira McTaggart and Mystique’s supporting cast), absolutely suggests a dedication to this task, and the intention to accomplish it moving forward.
Cycles:
Related to this is the importance of repeating, “inescapable” Cycles to the work. HoX 1 moves from this scene of resurrection to scenes of planting and plant growth which cycle through both seasonal phases and phases of the day. HoX 1 then carries this forward by taking place over the COURSE of a single day.
PoX 1 repeats this with cycles of Time and information gathering: Mystique delivering the usb from Damage Control in (Year 10); Rasputin and Cardinal retrieving & delivering information from The Nexus in Year 100; The Librarian trying to recover information from Cylobel(a mutant bred, rebelled, then captured by the sentinels), now part of the Mutant Library, in Year 1000. This is supported subtly in the art of all three books(but made explicit in the opening scenes of PoX 1 where Moira meets Xavier) through cycles of color: Green/Teal, Gold, and Purple. The symbolic meaning of the colors are various and contextual, I’ll get more into it later, but the basic foundation seems to be Green=Naivety/Beginnings/Ambiguity, Gold=Power/Knowledge, Purple=Death/Endings/Rebirths. PoX 1 ends with Beginnings: The Librarian fondly regards an Eden-like Zoo for what remains of “pure-strain” homo sapiens, and Rasputin(a mutant freedom fighter in Year 100) delivers her information just as Mystique did in the first section after the introduction of the book.
Hox 2 continues and solidifies the pattern of cycles. It ends were PoX 1 began: with Moira and Xavier’s meeting at the fair(a mobius double helix reach around, perhaps :p). It begins with Moira’s birth and a recounting of her first, entirely human, life. It continues through the cycles of her lives and deaths as she grapples with her Groundhog Day existence(a personal struggle which parallels and microcosms the larger struggle within humanity over mutation), which in a tenuous way seems to be narratively structured around the stages of grief. First she isn’t aware&trying to understand what’s happening(denial), then out of resentment of what she has lost from her first life, she rejects mutation and tries to “cure” it(anger), then seeks coexistence, and increasingly tenuous proposition over lifetimes(bargaining), before giving up in despair and wallowing in mutually destructive conflict(depression). The color symbolism is retained: The sickbed where her resurrection powers manifest is bathed in gold light, her first human childhood surrounded by naive greens, with the death/rebirth of her 2nd life gestated in wombly fuschias, and continued with a pink-purple dress in her 2nd toddlerhood. The sentinels, the mechanical agents of death throughout her lives, are purple, as ever.
However, HoX 2 ultimately struggles against, and seeks to subvert, the cycles even as it repeats them, suggesting to me that Escape is the ultimate endpoint of the series. While HoX&PoX 1 are told from within the cycles, HoX 2 is an outside recounting of them. At least one of Moira’s lives seems to be missing, likely hidden, and the end of another is obscured in eternal war. Moira breaks the 4th wall to discuss her mutation, and it’s impact directly with the audience; literally displaying her ability and desire to break out of the cycles. Her actions within each cycle are either to carry information between them, or motivated by what she’s learned from previous ones, thereby breaking the boundaries btw them and flattening out the cycles into a single linear narrative. In fact by the time of the series, by her 10th life, ending the violent cycles of her lives and deaths(and thus, the cycles of intrahuman conflict over mutation) is Moira’s declared and explicit goal(and HoX2 presents the series as the story of Moira). Her 10th life is canonically either her last or second to last life. In the “stages of grief” model, the last stage is “acceptance”; synthesizing and integrate one’s grief and loss into a new, healthy life. Both narratively and thematically, HoX 2 positions HoXPoX as a Dune-scaled epic narrative; not as the story of a particular conflict, but as a Historical narrative; as the story of structural patterns of behavior reinforced by instinctive dispositions, repeated throughout time, and one attempt to escape them for something better.
Ambiguity:
The narrative takes the point of view, and thus also the side, of the mutants, but that isnt to say it presents the mutants as unquestionably the “good guys”, or the human-AI alliance as necessarily the “bad guys”. While the forces of ~Human Purity~ and supremacy, those rejecting the shared humanity of mutants(Orchis: a mega organization of Marvel’s secret societies&black-ops orgs), are clearly presented as fascist, both visually and narratively, supremacist talk ALSO abounds on the mutant side which, when combined with trophically sinister visual cues suggests the mutant-nationalist sepratist project contains its own dangerous contradictions(further lampshaded by setting one of the major plots of HoX 1 in Israel, thus drawing parallels btw the two). Meanwhile the AIs, who carry out the Purists’ genocidal campaign, are presented as a sort of blameless technological inevitability; aware of the wrongness of what they do, and yet unable to stop doing it due to their programming. In this way, I suspect, they are meant to act as a commentary on the mutant-non-mutant conflict itself; on the way in which humans(both mutant and non) are primed to reject each other as fully human by both instinctive impulse and cultural structures emphasizing competition-based interpretations of evolution. I suspect this is even further and more directly lampshaded in the series at two points: In HoX#1 with discussion of “the cro-magnon problem”, and in HoX#2 through Moira’s off-hand reference to this idea in her 4th life(when she first decides to give Xavier and coexistence a shot). The idea both times that other homo species were “wiped out” by competition with Homo sapiens because they SEEM to no longer exist, but this is a false conclusion. In rreality genetic studies show significant admixture of the other homo branches within the sapiens line. The reality of pre-historical hominid interaction wasn’t genocide, but synthesis. The inability to conceive of this(in other words, the inability to conceive of all homo sapiens as equally human, and mutants as a new evolutionary stage; the drive to cling to “ethnic purity”) is, I believe, the core problem the series will posit drives human&mutant conflict, which needs to be gotten past in someway. Obvsl this guess could be wrong.
Alright that’s the first post on my read through of the first 3 books. Like I said I’ll be posting more detailed analysis later.
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I bet metas are gonna justify Dean's word as him being hurt. Bitch, even if you're hurt you can't say such things to someone you care about. And especially because of someone you tried to kill but suddenly don't and now you act like a concerned daddy.
Hi darling! Under the cut it goes because LONG AF RANT. Sorry that I didn’t reply sooner, I was in a bad headspace almost all day and I have to put some thoughts in order first…
The metas right now are all over the place. Throughout the year they were babbling about characterization and the progression of the characters’ story lines and how they were growing up, and how mature the arcs were and bla bla bla. NOW they are comparing that scene with season 6 like it’s a good thing to have 1.a repeated and hurtful story line and 2. Dean regressing to be an abusive idiot. Btw not sure now if he ever stopped being one, more so when I read in an interview that ackles was portraying Dean as John all these years, big yikes! it even makes more sense how much hatred he puts into this kind of interactions with Cas, after all he IS an alcoholic with tons of issues that the show is always glossing over or laughing about like: “haha! Dean is on a bender again!” I used to love Dean, don’t get me wrong, and in an alternative universe or with better writers he could’ve been a fantastic character. What we had today is a man that has violence/verbal abuse/alcohol as a coping mechanism and is really hurtful to see that, because yeah John 2.0. Of course I blame the writers, not Dean, he’s a construct, a fictional character that had so.much.potential. oh well…
But I digress. Going back to metaland, they really don’t know how to justify things: “Dean is hurt! so he’s lashing out, and this IS SO GOOD GUYS! so good to destiel! Because imagine the level of ANGST! and how THAT is going to pay off later! o.m.g. I’m living!!!” Which I really find disgusting af because I’m sure if they translated this kind of interaction into a real life relationship or even into other show’s ships, they will be making posts about how toxic being with a person like that is, and shouting to the skies HOW WRONG it is to fetishize something like that. They like to complain about how the codependency between the bros is toxic, but when it comes to Dean and Cas: “IT’S SO GOOD THAT DEAN IS TREATING CAS LIKE THAT! OMG!”…And they act like that because it’s THEIR show and they have to justify horrible writing and repetitive stories, they accept how Dean is lashing out AGAIN towards Cas and what’s even worse, embracing it and celebrating it. It’s just a disgusting way of writing meta, because they really are not seeing the issues here, they are blind by the power that the justification of a ship that is, at this point, one of the biggests things that the show has to keep on going, brings them.They know they have to keep the wheel rolling, because as tptb stans that they are, they feel like it’s a must, to defend every little, or in this case big, fuck ups the writers do. Also because bobo! wrote the next episode and bobo can do no wrong!
There’s also the matter of being powerful in fandom, which they absolute love. Because lbh there are tons of people hurting right now that take the metaland as the last resource of hope, trying to find at least some light at the end of the tunnel when, sadly, there’s nothing…. It’s a gross form of manipulation and they know it. But they don’t care.
Also the dismissal of Cas’ pain and mistreatment over and over again in Dabb`s era show us how little they care for him or how much THEY DO NOT WANT a story that really elevates Cas as the independent being that at this point he should be. It’s easier to write and write about an, at this point, almost non existent ship, to maintain the status quo of how great spn is and how amazing their showrunners/writers are with the subtext. Which is a complete lie as we already know. Now on its 14th season spn doesn’t really need that kind of angst, they have it in spades, this is nothing new and nothing good can come out of it. So to say that people “don’t understand drama” like I read some meta saying, it’s really just dismissing how pointless the whole issue is, to only preserve, first themselves, second their lies and third a show that should be so much more on the end of its 14th year. They write about spn like it’s show that is on its 4th or 5th season, when in fact we already have seen this trope so many times before throughout the years that we are either bored or angry or both. So the “people are stupid and don’t understand drama tropes like we do because we are smarter!” is totally invalid. Even if some people are not into analyzing shows/movie tropes, that doesn’t mean that they are not smart to recognize a move that is only bringing angst for the sake of angst and doesn’t bring anything new to the table. It’s horrible that they are treating people that are angry about that promo and what could potentially mean, as having a lesser intelligence just because they don’t agree with them. At this point these metas are turning into bullies and what’s worse treating everybody like they are beneath them, only shows how biased, opportunistic and dismissive they are. They are just willing to say ANYTHING to fit their writings and opinions, when they have been proven wrong over and over again.
Remember how they were all for the angst! after Cas’ death on season 12? They were just repeating over and over again how good of a thing it was for Cas to be dead and not to even be on screen later when he came back, “because that gave Dean an opportunity to grow and appreciate Cas more, and it gave Cas and also the opportunity to be reborn and be “cured” of his depression!”. And? Did anything of that came to pass? Here we are with a Dean that is even more aggressive and toxic than before, and a Cas that still hasn’t found his place, is depressed af, calls himself a “thing” and doesn’t care if he dies for Jack or for the bros because he doesn’t value himself enough. And still takes shit from the bros, especially Dean, over and over again, instead of confronting him and saying some truths like it should have happened years ago. He’s been called a dog, a pet, he is powerless when the story calls for it which is almost all the time, he gets shouted at for things the bros have done in the past too or for even doing nothing at all, and the story line is back to season 6. Look how great the angst helped things progressed characterization wise! But sure, let the metas call people stupid because they don’t understand the drama! tropes…. Give me a break.
And yes, we can say that MAYBE the promo was misleading, but really was it? the more I look at it the more it looks like Cas is taking Dean’s shit again, without deserving it, “you’re dead to me” or not, this kind of drama adds NOTHING to the story, much less for Cas, it’s only, a. a bait for the people that like when Dean and Cas are punching each other and find that romantic or b. it could also be the last nail in the coffin for destiel. Because there’s no doubt that they have been burying it since season 13 at least. How convenient when spn is going into his last season this is… Not that I care much about destiel at this point, for me it has been dead in canon for a long long time, Dabb just made the bait bigger to keep audiences coming back. That promo showed us how much they like to play with bs like that.
TL:DR In the end what this kind of metas show to this fandom is how little consideration they have for other people that don’t read the situation as they do. And how they are willing to even call people stupid or idiots because they have another point of view. I don’t see anything smart about their writings and justifications, I just see desperation, arrogance and a great deal of denial, that sadly other people are copying from them and going through fandom policing everybody who dares to say: Cas deserves better.
And ffs he does deserves SO MUCH BETTER.
Sorry it got long as usual, but as you can imagine, I’m pretty mad.
I send you a hug.
#nigaki#venting#ranting#replies#ranting replies#these metas can go fuck themselves#also they are in this toxic circle of everything is amazing with the show when they know very well it's not#but I guess that they enjoy they power that lying to this fandom brings them#when they fall from their high chairs is going to hurt like a mf#and I'm going to be here to see it#you can't call people stupid or incapable of reading books (yes some of them say that) because they don't buy your lies#the arrogance is strong in these ones#don't like don't read#opinions#long post for ts#dirt for ts#anti metas bullshit
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The Weekly Rundown (10/07/18-10/13/18)
Sorry so late! I’m getting caught up on articles. Almost there :) Time to rundown what I’m watching, loving, hating and everything in between! Spoilers ahead!
God Friended Me (”The Good Samaritan”)
Confession time: I didn’t pay very close attention to this week’s episode, but Miles and Cara continue to be adorable. Pretty sure I ship it.
Manifest (”Turbulence”)
I’m not really feeling the chemistry between Josh Dallas and Athena Karkanis. However, the chemistry between Melissa Roxburgh and JR Ramirez is smoldering.
Josh Dallas is my blue eye baby who makes me feel all the things. He conveyed so many emotions without saying a word in the scene where Ben and Grace discussed the man in her life. WOW!
I want to believe Grace is in love with Ben and not Danny (because it's Josh Dallas and that's all the reason she needs), but I'm not buying it... yet
The whole twins being different ages is a never ending mind bender.
Seriously though what did Ben do for a living?
The Gifted (“coMplications”)
All I want is for Marcos to hold Dawn forever and snuggle with Lorna. Why can’t I have the things that I want?
But seriously though these Marcos and baby scenes are killing me.
Marcos fighting the Frost sister’s mind control was amazing. He was ready to tear everything apart to get his Lorna and his baby. SO HOT.
Andy, buddy what are you doing? Sure, they gave you a better hair cut and cool clothes, but Reeva is crazy. Tell me you know that boy!
I’m having trouble understanding why Reed didn’t want to tell his wife and daughter his powers were coming back. He has two mutant children! They tried to equate Lauren’s fear of “coming out” to Reed’s but it’s just not the same. He was her parent and he hunted mutants. She legitimately feared her father’s rejection. Reed isn’t in the same situation at all and I see no reason to for him to be lying to everyone for months.
Kate hugs Reed once he tells her the truth, which is nice, but were we really expecting her to reject him? Did the writers forget they have two mutant children?
The Gifted blew past all the build up to Clarice and John’s relationship and now they’ve sewn the seeds for the break up - in the third episode. This whole “Clarice is a spy for the Erg and lies to John about it” storyline is only going one place. John is doing his fair share of lying and pushing Clarice away. Needless to say I am unhappy with how this relationship is being handled.
F.B.I. (“Green Birds” and “Prey”)
Finally got caught up on F.B.I. I thought “Prey” was a much stronger episode than “Green Birds.”
I am so glad they cast Sela Ward! I love her. Her character is much more likable as Maggie and Omar’s boss.
I’m here for Omar doing hot things because Omar is hot. I feel warm every time he talks about his military experience.
Still a little iffy about this show, but I’ll stick with it for now.
This Is Us (Katie Girls)
The depth of my hate for Jack's father knows no bounds.
"Or you can stay and I'll kill him." Honestly, I was okay with that option too Jack.
Randall is a mess watching his brother's movie and I stan this bromance so hard.
I am really freaking glad Randall is taking Kate on because I AM SO MAD AT HER.
Well that conversation swerved quickly. Stay on point Randall.
Okay well now we're off on a whole other thing and Kate is crying. Good grief children.
Not sure how Randall & Kate's discussion became a fight about adoption. The point was to discuss Kate's insensitivity regarding her remark about being the only person able to pass on Jack's genes. How did she turn it into Randall's insensitivity about her miscarriage?
Beth, Miguel and Toby having a group text to discuss their messed up in laws is AMAZING.
Randall is terrible at apologizing but also WHY IS HE APOLOGIZING?
I'm trying to hang with my girl Kate here. I've had a miscarriage and it's devastating, but your personal pain is not an excuse to be hurtful to others. Understanding where Randall was coming from was not a long bridge to cross.
I am so relating to Kevin putting the pieces together regarding Jack's service.
Beth got fired? NOOOOOO. My Beth!
Toby's reaction to Randall showing up was gold.
KATE AND JACK ARE DREAM SEQUENCING AND I AM NOT OKAY. Btw Jack could you advise Kate to stop being such a jackass to Randall? Thanks bro.
Awkward Rebecca and Jack is the worst. You are soul mates kids. Get it together.
Jack wants to marry you Rebecca and have lots and lots of babies. You are his dream.
I hope Randall and Beth have 9 months of savings. Suze Orman says you need 9 months of savings.
Marriage is never 50/50. But I think Beth and Randall have been going 90/10 for awhile and it's time for that ratio to shift.
I love how the writers find commonality in their characters in ways you never thought of before. Randall and Toby sharing their struggles with depression and anxiety was such a beautiful way to bond these characters
Kate wanted to marry Mark Paul Gosselar. Same girl.
"You came across the country to say you are sorry. That's the most Dad move ever." HELLO KATE. NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN. You could have added that he didn't need to apologize and you are the one who is sorry but I don't want to editorialize too much. Carry on.)
Rebecca pulled a Jack Pearson on Jack Pearson. EPIC.
Marry you the man who does dishes.
A Million Little Things (”Save The Date”)
HOLY. FREAKING. CRAP. THEY. ALL. FOUND. OUT. That was fast y’all! Wow!
If we’re blowing past the big affair secret does that mean we’ll find out the reason John killed himself? It’s an annoying mystery. Cough up the answers, show.
All the awards to Grace Park. She’s been sadly under utilized on this show until now and boy did she come out swinging. The scenes where she confronts Eddie and Delilah were amazing.
I cheered when Grace slapped Eddie. I have no sympathy for him. He’s cheating because his wife is gone at work all the time? It’s called a mortgage jackass. Guitar lessons aren’t going to get it done.
It irritates me when people act like they have no choice in who they sleep with. Eddie is walking around like falling in love with Delilah was an accident. Listen pal you are a grown ass man. You made choices. Own it. Cheating is such a mean thing to do. Nobody is forcing anyone to stay in these marriages. Get a divorce before you go hopping into bed with someone else.
I’m only slightly less angry with Delilah but that’s only because her husband jumped off a building. Her scene where she screams to friends to ask if she was the reason John killed himself was gutting. Guit is a bitch.
By the way, even if Jon made his peace with the affair it doesn’t make the affair okay. Also, nobody asked for Katherine’s opinon. Pretty sure she’d tell everyone where to stick if if they’d did though.
I feel like Gary is representing the audience in this episode, i.e. me. I don’t think the writers needed to muddy the water with Gary’s issues with marriage, his parents divorce and his birthday. I understand Jon and Delilah were his shining example of marriage bliss, but we didn’t need to make this about his childhood trauma. His anger was warranted by itself. Delilah and Eddie did an awful thing.
We need to move it along with Maggie’s storyline. She’s the friends-with-benefit-rando-friend-everyone-just-met-but-pretend-like-they’ve-known-her-since-always. Her impermanence in all of these people’s lives makes the level she’s included in things... odd. Let’s get the cancer out in the open and solidify her relationships - particularly with Gary.
Blindspot (“Hella Duplicitous”)
Jane's hair is long. That's how ya know she's evil again
Seriously how do they not know Remi is back? She's so cranky. Jane is much more cheerful. Also, I feel like her voice is three octaves lower.
Remi can fight with samurai swords. Who knew? A list of all of her skills would be great.
Do I call her Remi or Jane y'all? I'm going with Remi for now.
Remi's impression of Jane being worried about Kurt was pretty spot on. Well played evil one.
Anyone else enjoying Remi looking all murdery every time anyone mentions Roman is dead? Same girl. Except I'm sad Luke Mitchell isn't on the show anymore not murdery because that'd be weird.
Jane's dying except she's Remi so like that's a double dose of suck.
Oh score. Cure. This is like Elena being vampire. They'll fix it. I ain't worried. Imma gonna get Jeller babies. Or should I say PLEEEEEEEEEASE give me Jeller babies.
OH MY GOD SHE'S HALLUCINATING ROMAN. Luke Mitchell IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so here for Roman being the crazy voice in Jane/Remi's head.
Sorry Remi. Your super evil terrorist group is canceled. Sorry not sorry girl. Watch Season 1-Season 3 and catch up girl.
Two Sandstorm operatives is more like a club than a terrorist group, but okay Remi. Gotta start somewhere I guess.
It's weird that the cure is re-erasing Remi's memories but also let's re-erase Remi's memories. I ain't a fan.
Damn. Blake is dead? That... was unexpected. Okay so now I'm imagining that Blake and Roman are happy in heaven together. Leave me to my dream.
Kurt is scared... I love you my cupcake.
Wiping her memory and meeting Kurt Weller was the best thing that ever happened to Remi because she's not nice and Jane is awesome. Kudos to Blindspot for reinforcing their central love story while also wreaking absolute havoc on it.
Is Zapata evil now? Is everybody evil now?
Weitz is director. Ugh.
"You can't keep watching me all the time." Girl, he does that when you are totally healthy. Kurt Weller giving Jane fuzzy bunny stares is the show. Seriously, someone show Remi S1-S3.
Haha. She squeezed Kurt too hard to hurt him. What a bitch. Also awesome.
Zapata's smile when she sees Reade on TV. Girl go home.
Rich and Patterson are gonna cure Jane using Santa magic and it's gonna be friggin awesome.
Reciting the wedding video is creepy Remi.
Noooo.... don't break out Mama Shepherd. She be crazier than you Remi and at this point that's saying A LOT.
#manifest#this is us#a million little things#FBI#god friended me#the gifted#blindspot#the weekly rundown review#weekly rundown reviews
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☆ woeful pressures ☆
pairing: daenerys targaryen x reader
fandom: game of thrones
anon request: hi can u do a dany x reader where the reader is from a noble/royal family and dany and her have been lovers since childhood but what dany doesnt know is that the reader has been pressured all her life into being like perfect royalty and its really getting to her and dany tries to stop her from like jumping off a cliff?? ik its a harsh topic so its okay if u dont write it :))
notes: TRIGGER WARNING (suicidal thoughts/attempt)
— dorhaven is a made up place.
— btw, the ending is kinda trash. I didn’t know how to end it.
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The Kingdom of Dorhaven exceeded any written or artistic interpretation expressed based on its beauty. It appeared unreal at times, a fantasy unworthy of everyone who did not reside there. Everything in the region exuded absolute charming allure; the magnificent scenery, vast seas of peculiar cornflower-blue, rare species of flora and fauna, and the breathtaking indigenous people and their culture.
Daenerys was extremely grateful every time she was invited over to meet with the royal family of Dorhaven. They had been incredibly kind to her ever since her youth, taking her in as their own in her time of need. And they trusted her. From the past to the present, they promised their loyalty to her cause of creating a harmonious Westeros future. In a time where loyalty is constantly questioned, Daenerys was absolutely thrilled of having allies who were nothing but loyal. It certainly didn’t hurt that Dorhaven had the most beautiful princess in all of Westeros history.
Y/N was the exact symbol of sexy and graceful. She was everything everyone could ever want, including Daenerys. The Dragon Queen fought tooth and nail to get the princess to notice her and eventually court her. And once they did begin a relationship, nothing but utter love and worship spurred by it. Daenerys entire dream of sitting on the Iron Throne was because of you. If Cersei wins the war, Dorhaven, an incredibly rich region with extremely fertile land and numerous of wealth advantages over the other important cities of Westeros, would be under her command. She would purge the untainted area with her hateful, envious, and selfish agendas. The peaceful Kingdom of Dorhaven would collapse and become a nostalgic memory of harmony and prosperity.
Daenerys and her allies would stop at nothing in order to keep that disgusting possibility from occurring.
The unusual colored seas crashed against the tan cliff, foaming after the sudden impact. Daenerys had been watching it for quite some time from her bedroom window until you walked into her line of sight. It was such a serene sight, calming Daenerys and ridding of all the worries of impending, inevitable wars. An adoring smile set itself on her lips and after a few moments, she removed her eyes from the scene in order to give yourself some privacy.
He eyes did land on her untidy desk in which she decided to clear it up since you would be coming over later. You disliked disorganization. She shuffled between opened and closed letters from Tyrion, Jorah, and even Jon Snow. She knew each of them would be worried since she did go to Dorhaven alone without any sort of Dothraki guards to protect her. She would respond to them later after another day of rest since she wanted her attention solely on you.
When Daenerys was just about finished with cleaning, her hand grazed over a sealed letter from you which was addressed to her. With curiosity eating at her, she delicately rips open the seal and begins reading what you wrote.
My Love,
It has been over seven moons since I last saw you and the weight of the world seems not only to crash on your shoulders but mine as well.
It seems rather pathetic to even compare my troubles to yours, but when have I ever been short of being pathetic? You have several wars to worry about, as well as your inevitable coronation as Queen of the Andals and the First Men. No one would be prouder than I would be. However, I do not believe I would be attending such grand occasion. It would not be right for me to taint such a glorious moment.
Seven Moons. Seven moons since I had last laid unclothed against your bare chest. Seven moons since I had last kissed your lips with such fiery passion that the gods themselves have envied. Seven moons since I whispered indecent words that left you shaking underneath my touch. Seven moons since I last felt at ease and worthy.
The pressures of being royalty have finally have caught up, my dear. My father is ill and my mother grows old. They speak of my coronation date, which set to the near future. I am not ready for such event, for the responsibility of protecting the Kingdom and all of its inhabitants. The mere thought frightens me. I am not you, Daenerys. I was not destined for a prosperous reign where everyone loved me. I am supposed to be hidden in the shadows, behind my family’s fortune and your increasing success. I am simply unworthy to be anything more.
It is easier to be rid of me than pity me. And with my final action, I will undo all the burden I bestowed upon my family, the nation, and most importantly, you.
This is my last goodbye,
Y/N
Daenerys throws the paper away from her as if It burned her. She clutches the fabric around her chest, wanting to hold her heart in order to ease the pain. Quickly dashing to the window, she observes the extremely small distance between Y/N and the edge of the cliff. The tears she had been attempting to hold in, suddenly releases as Daenerys begins sprinting towards her depressed lover.
She felt utterly devastated and blamed herself for Y/N’s overwhelming sadness. You had been incredibly helpful throughout Daenerys road to vengeance and rightful claim to the Iron Throne. On numerous occasions, You had helped her through self-loathing and mental breakdowns. There had been so many times where she wanted to give up and settle down in Braavos or Meereen, but you would bring her back to a state of ease. She credited all her success to you and all the late night reassurance.
And yet, when you needed her most, she disregarded it. She never observed the way you were too tired of simply activities or would excuse yourself from dinner. She never noticed the fact that it was her doing all the talking with you simply listening and not interrupting her in awe. She began noting every single behavioral change you exemplified and silently reprimanded herself for being immensely obtuse.
But right now, all she needed to do was to protect you from yourself.
─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───
The wind whipped gently around you as you took steps toward the edge of the cliff. You peered down, watching the unidentifiable creatures bask in the cool foam the waves created. Their delightful purrs used to make you smile, but now, it doesn’t stir a single emotion. Nowadays, nothing made you emotional.You were tired and no extensive sleep schedule would cure it. Only one thing would, which is exactly why you were at a cliff. It had taken you months for the courage to actually get this close to the edge. All you needed now was a few moments of bravery to jump, or at least walk off.
However, now that you stood at the edge, inspecting the view down to your ultimate final destination, you hesitated. Did you really want this? It appeared to be a good idea days ago, but not anymore. Was death your desire? No, it wasn’t. You simply wanted to escape all the pressures of being future Queen and head of your house. It was a terrible burden and no matter how much your family attempted to mask it, it was clear as day. Your parents wanted to continue the legacy, but you believed you would be the cause of its downfall. No, you felt unworthy of having the responsibility of protecting the nation.
If you tried running away to any of the Free Cities of Essos, you would be discovered within days by family comrades. And no one in Dorhaven would even dare attempt to cross the Narrow Sea to start a life in Westeros. So you were stuck in a life full of redundancy and complete sadness.
Only one thing would keep you from slipping from the depths of eternal loneliness and it came in the form of violet eyes and platinum blonde hair. Daenerys kept your small ember burning longer than expected. She was the sole thing that made you emotional. She was able to love you and cherish you beyond any fathomable idea.
All in all, she made you feel worthy.
Oh lord did she stir up emotions that you didn’t believe you had. Just thinking about it made you tear up because within a few moments, you would never be able to hold her in your arms again or gaze into her unique eyes. That alone made you completely fall apart.
Your knees buckled underneath you as you sobbed into your hands, desperately wishing for the utter depression to vanish. However, the edge of the cliff began rumbling, the sudden weight causing the limestones to shift in the wrong direction. You tried scrambling to your feet but the movement only caused the stones to crumble quicker and before you knew it, your body had fallen off half the cliff. A strangled cry released from your throat. All attempts of you hauling yourself over the stable land was impossible. Your weak hands could barely hold onto the jagged rock that was slowly piercing your skin as you applied more pressure.
It made you no longer want to die.
“Help!” You screamed out. Your hand began to slip, the rock cutting into your hand, allowing blood to trail down your arm.
The Ancient Gods answered your pleas and sent an angel down to save you, to help you through your time of great need. It was the exact thing you dreamed of every night.
Daenerys violet eyes were wide with complete terror written across her face. She grabbed both of your arms in hers and roughly pulled you up to the top before dragging your a few feet away from the edge. Although you were in pain, the gigantic hole in your hand is a clear symbol, you were extremely happy to see your beautiful lover.
She was crying, her violet eyes shedding tears of both sorrow and happiness. She cradled you in her arms and you couldn’t help but reprimand yourself. You decided to just leave the life you had without any thought of who you might hurt. Daenerys didn’t deserve that type of heartbreak and you hated yourself at the thought of it.
“Daenerys,” You whispered, breaking apart from her arms to gaze at her face. You rested a hand on her cheek before releasing a stream of tears. “I’m sorry.”
The Dragon Queen stared at you with complete confusion and sadness. “There is nothing to apologize for. You have done more than enough and you are worthy of everything. Worthy of your family, your kingdom, and above all else, worthy of my love.”
A smile, a genuine smile graced your lips for the first time in months. You nodded gently, wanting to say something, to reassure her that you wanted to live as long as the Ancient Ones would allow it. But the words you wanted to say caught in your throat. Instead, you laid there with your loved one rocking you into blissful content.
────── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ────── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ──────
word count: 1, 871
published: december 27, 2017
edited: n/a
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i bash shrek the third to cope with my depression
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the semester is almost over but, the stress I feel as I watch the giant dumpster fire that my life has become is still the same as the first day of the semester. In order to cope with whatever’s going on with me I decided to settle on something I am familiar with and know that I am going to have a great time regardless.
So here you go, a review of Shrek the Third list you did not ask for from the number one Shrek 2 fan
(Next week I might do a ranking of the Shrek Franchise but if my quarter life crisis gets worse I might do a Dreamworks film breakdown instead)
Shrek the Thurd
As a true Shrek fan I would like to keep my brand out of this film’s reach. The worst thing to happen to Shrek and Shrek franchise overall. I wish they left this film in the basement right where it belongs. These are all basic stuff you would hear if you asked about the movie to someone who is passionate about Shrek. Not that I don’t agree with these claims but let’s talk about why Shrek the Third is the worst movie of the Shrek Franchise.
After Shrek 2, an almost perfect sequel, they had to go ahead and ruin the universe they expanded perfectly.
Let’s lay down what Shrek the Third added to its universe to see how they fail at it. Fiona has a cousin, they travel with a ship, there’s a highschool and apparently Donkey went to highschool and college(???). None are actively expanding the universe and I am not even talking about the ridiculous use of Prince Charming as a villain. As it does not hold up, he’s too weak of a character be on his own. Maybe he could have been the secondary villain again and it would have worked. The celebrity cameos are probably the worst thing about this movie. You cast Eric Idol to make your movie funnier how can it backfire this bad? Princesses are annoying except Larry King’s Dorris she could never do wrong. I am not going to talk much about Timberlake’s Arthur because I hate him hate him hate hate hate him. Arthur has the same sickness Justin Timberlake suffers from. The main character syndrome. Arthur two minutes into knowing his character delivers an unprovoked inspirational speech about something I don’t care about. I also don’t buy how he’s getting picked on dude is perfect all around.
It is not even just that.
The jokes are the worst the franchise has ever seen. Some jokes were a bit morbid in the first films but the third film is just fart and barf jokes only a kid would laugh but no, even when I went to see it in the cinema as a kid I did not laugh at it. Another thing the franchise is known for is the song choice. The first two films are great examples of how to use music in movies this disconnected from real life. The start of the movie uses Royal pain and it is BRILLIANT. It mirrors the scene where shrek is at his lowest moment in the second movie and when I say it is perfect its an understatement (but its so perfect that I know it was unintended). The music fits perfectly to the situation of Shrek but the scenes that accompany the song are painfully unfunny and boring. also caught in 4k shrek murders someone ohboy. The next song is live and let die and I don’t know how it correlates to the funeral scene. The rest of the music for this film is too irrelevant to comment on so I will skip them all except... the use of immigrant song how can you start out with a great song but then switch to an entirely different inferior song? make it make sense.
I thought the death of King Harold was appropriately placed and that becoming a king would be a great challenge for Shrek’s character since he’s obviously not cut out for such duty. And you know Shrek’s entire concept is built around ‘giving people who think they are not deserving of a happy ending happy endings’ so it seemed to me that the existence of Arthur would work great for a concept like that but I guess I was wrong.
There is one good scene in the entire film though. And it is the single correleance the third movie has with the previous installments. It is quickly ruined (1.30) but carries the soul of the previous Shreks perfectly and it is the Shrek we know and love. the single good 3 minutes 20 seconds scene in a 93 minutes of pure garbage... it's a win.
This movie marks the point the Shrek franchise stops being a movie and becomes a brand that is only focused on selling more toys. If you were to erase this movie’s existence today, nothing in this world would change except maybe for the better.
Shrek forever After doesn’t even acknowledge the existence of this movie. It has a baby montage at the start and you’re caught up with basically everything Shrek the Third had to offer. Dare I say it, Shrek the Third is the Cars 2 of the Shrek franchise. The first Shrek was once the first ever Academy winner for a motion picture even got nominated at the Best Adapted Screenplay award in 2001 and now.. yeah...
Shrek franchise may be ruined for good (especially with the 5th movie being in the works according to unreliable sources) we at least have Shrek memes and Shrek 2 to keep us going during this hard times.
Also when is watching Shrek 2 over and over again going to help curing my quarter life crisis I am kind of in a hurry right now...
(btw every time you watch the ‘I need a Hero’ scene my life span increases by 2 years)
#shrek#shrek 2#shrek the third#yes i am obsessed with shrek#sue me#you cant#if you think the third movie is a great instalment#thats on you#thats a YOU problem#not mine#dont cry in the mentions#shrek the thurd#im kinda funny#you should follow me#or like my posts#fuck you shrek the third#you aint shit#donkey#puss in boots#and#fiona#didnt do shit in this movie#fuck you justin timberlake
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I was tagged by the super kind @elven-sentinel, thank you a lot! ♥ c:
1. What is your favorite scene from any Dragon Age game? You can pick also one from each game.
Ending of Trespasser. I didn’t disband the Inquisition and when the Inquisitor quotes Cassandra and she smiles, that’s the best thing ever.
Also, at the end of DA II, Carver going “I’m proud to call you sister/brother. That’s gone unsaid too long.” I love Carver so much, ok.
2. Templars or mages? And why?
M.A.G.E.S.
because basic human rights, man.
3. What do you think? Solas can be redeemed?
After I beat him with my Inquisitor’s severed hand, yes.
4. Favorite TV series? Favorite movie?
Red Dwarf, Doctor Who, Black Books for the series. And movies: The King’s Speech, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, What We Do In The Shadows, and every movie adaptation of every Discworld book ever, honestly [there is sadly, never enough]
5. Name a song which reminds you of something from the past.
HURTS - Rolling Stone [weird story talk following: I used to listen to this when I was feeling really really down. I was such a human mess back then, suicidal, depressed and shit like that. I wasn’t really feeling like myself. But I love that song so much. Once I really felt like running from everything and I was walking home from the school and I started listening to it and I was crying but I really didn’t mind. I just walked home all the way - which is a long one btw - because I wanted to get it all out. People were passing me while I was crying and my make-up was a mess, shit like that, but I didn’t care, somehow there was only me and this song and it was the first time I looked my problems in the eye, the first time I allowed myself to feel, to embrace it all. And it didn’t cure me ofc, but it was kinda special. Because when I was able to cry, I somehow felt alive, because I was feeling something again. I can’t really explain it, because I was utterly devastated, completely down, mentally wrecked, etc., but somehow, I felt free. Ugh, I shouldn’t speak about this probably, but whatever. Music means a lot and it often comes with stories like this stupid shit here].
6. What school subject you appreciated the most?
History! Also arts.
7. A book that inspired you a lot?
Kenn Follett’s World Without End. Also Discworld series.
8. You have any pets?
I have two cats and I love them to death.
9. Traditional food or exotic food?
Traditional! I’m super picky in this.
10. Lightning or thunders?
Thunders.
I already did this way long ago, but if you want, my questions are here [I doubt it, tho].
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The way fandom characterizes certain characters...
Bothers me. I usually don’t speak out much against this stuff, preferring to ‘rectify’ these kinds of issues with fics of my own, and my own take on these certain characters. Characters that the fandom, for whatever reason, has decided that they don’t like and will portray them as terribly as possible.
Now, most of the time, this is done by warring ships. Those, I don’t particularly care about. Shipping wars have lasted forever, and I will easily write a fic or two about this kind of thing to fix my inner disquiet.
Parents, on the other hand, are the other. And this makes it so much harder for me to personally fix. I don’t know if it’s because fanfiction is written by a large number of young people, or what, but it’s clear that some of these authors can’t seem to recognize that problematic parental figures are not always abusive pieces of garbage with no redeeming qualities.
I have mommy issues the size of Texas. I know this. It’s typically the reason why, in my original work, the mother figures in my works are never the problem parent. It hits too close to home. I write what I wish I could have had. Which is probably depressing and a little pathetic, but it is how I’ve coped for a very long time.
I read an embarrassing amount of fanfiction. Typically because I am super Gay(TM) and have to depend on either dead ships (fucking bury your gays trope can go light itself on fire in a fucking dumpster) or crack ships. Either way, I’ve gotten ridiculously good at perusing and finding virtually anything I could possibly imagine by learning the most common ways people tag, summarize, or title their works. Usually, I will go into a specific fandom, read through the most recently updated stuff first, then get into the most kudos’d/favorited stuff next, then go into character tags, and then finally start searching additional tags or search terms for things that didn’t quite cure my itch for certain topics. This typically takes me a period of two weeks or so. After I’ve exhausted everything I could imagine, was interested in, or what was available, I leave for about four to six months, and then come back to start the process all over again.
Like I said, I read a shit ton of fanfiction. And I learn how the fandom thinks in broad strokes. There are fandom versions of certain characters. They are, for the most part, in character, but there’s this odd ‘fandom’ spin that writers of fanfiction have either created themselves or have latched onto and that thing will permeate throughout the entire section of the fandom. Be it a quote, behavior, or personality. One example would be Maggie, in a shit ton of fics, will find some way to mention that she’s a “detective, Danvers. I detect.” Like it’s her motto rather than a witty one-liner she said one episode and never mentioned again.
But that’s the most minor example of this issue. The most extreme would be the way the fandom characterizes Eliza Danvers. Now, I know her past. I know that she was hard on Alex. It was a plot arc that hit uncomfortably close to home for me. A mother who is far too hard on her eldest child and charges said child to take care of their younger sibling(s) to the detriment of their own well-being. It is a form of emotional abuse. One that I have, unfortunately, lived myself. Also the sheer, crippling fear of failure or of being a disappointment to said mother that Alex feels is another plot point that hits too close to the mark for me. The fact that Eliza acted as she did is not the issue I have with her role in fanfiction.
No, I have a huge problem with how most writers completely ignore her character arc and her continuing development with Alex and act as though she is still as awful as she had ever been at her worst. A low point that we only get the barest of glimpses of on screen in season 1. It’s maddening. Why? Because if my mother ever looked me in the eye and told me that she was proud of me and made a mistake in how she’s been treating me for the past several years, and then took steps to fix the problem, I’d fucking.... Shit, I don’t even know, guys. I’d be fucking ecstatic, to say the least. Because Eliza Danvers has been working on easing up on Alex. You can see it in what little we get of her in season 2.
(I may have also searched high and low for Alex and Eliza scenes on YouTube in order to find out if their relationship did indeed get any better. It did, btw.)
We can see the start of this in season 1, first of all, when Eliza breaks Myriad’s control over Alex by telling her how proud she and Jeremiah are of her. Without framing that pride around Kara. She specifically spoke only about Alex in that scene.
Season 2 Thanksgiving is rather telling in that Alex is still stressed out by her mom. And I don’t think that is because of any particular ugliness Eliza has shown her recently. Mostly because of her continuing actions in this season, but one also has to consider that, perhaps, Alex only got drunk in order to come out to her mom because she was emotionally scarred. This kind of trauma just doesn’t evaporate overnight. For god’s sake, Alex is like 27-28 and she still has a crippling fear of disappointing her mother. That’s not healthy, and it’s not something that will fix itself over a short period of time. I do not think Alex acted as she did because Eliza is still trying to be as hard on her as she used to be. (Not that I think she immediately turned perfect either, but that she has likely been working on being better.) But that’s not going to make a difference on the kind of emotional toll it has taken on Alex over the past 14 years.
And this suspicion of mine is further supported by just how freaking great Eliza was when Alex did actually come out to her. Eliza made some very specific word choices in that conversation. Alex has forever had an inferiority complex as far as her mother is concerned, but also as a more general flaw in her character. Eliza specifically calls her exceptional for a reason. I think she’s perfectly aware of how terrified Alex was to come out to her. For one thing, if she missed that Alex was really fucked up on Thanksgiving, then she’s super fucking blind because an infant could have spotted how hammered Alex was. And I think she did, because Eliza says that she knew Alex had been trying to tell her something. Not us. Not everyone at Thanksgiving. Her. Then there is the fact that Alex was moved to tears over her coming out, and that she had to choke out her fears that Eliza wouldn’t accept her. I mean, you can’t be any more clear than that in giving your parent the message that ‘you’ve made me really fucking terrified over whether or not you even love me.’ Eliza has proven to be very observant over these past two seasons. I don’t think she missed that firework display of insecurity that Alex set off there.
Then there’s the Danvers Family Reunion dinner in 2x14. First, we have Eliza giving Maggie a hug right off the bat, didn’t even blink an eye. I have no doubt that the only reason Alex went through with her extremely quick, yet hesitant, kiss on Maggie’s cheek right before that was because both Kara and Eliza supported her. She was stressed about Jeremiah in that scene, not Eliza, and I think that speaks for how their relationship has improved since her coming out. In that same episode, after Mon-el acts like an ass and accuses Jeremiah a few minutes later, Maggie is the first to bring Alex down from her anger, but if you watch Alex throughout the whole background of that scene, specifically as Jeremiah is walking Mon-el out, Alex is being comforted by Eliza. Again, more support that things are better between them. Alex could have easily stuck with Maggie in this scene. TV rarely does anything by accident. Eliza and Alex in the background together in this scene was done deliberately and it was developing their relationship further through body language. Specifically, I believe Eliza and Alex were facing each other, and Eliza was rubbing Alex’s arm in comfort. Doesn’t get much more clearer than that.
(Also, who the fuck accuses somebody of suspicious activity at their fucking family reunion? I know I’m behind in Supergirl, I’ve honestly not watched a ton of Mon-el simply because he is not a lesbian nor a sister of someone on this show. I am not about to unilaterally label him as a terrible person or anything because I know next to nothing about him. But for real. This scene gave me a bad taste in my mouth for him. Time and place, dude. Presumably, you at least have J’onn’s phone number. Call him up after dinner and share your concerns. Privately. Away from Jeremiah’s celebrating family. Jesus Christ.)
Anyway, the next thing I’m aware of, as far as Eliza scenes are concerned, is when Jeremiah goes through with the betrayal. She rushes into the DEO, and goes to Alex to comfort her. Kara is conspicuously absent in their conversation. She’s having her own conversation, but Alex was just in that same conversation with Kara. She was called away by Eliza by name. Eliza didn’t call out for both Kara and Alex. Just Alex. Because she probably knew that Alex would take Jeremiah’s betrayal much harder than Kara would.
I don’t know. I see this a lot. The 1OO have fanfic writers shitting on Abby. Vampire Academy has folks dumping on Janine. It seems parents are a sore spot for most folks. Trust me, I get it, but personally? I prefer to see these relationships improve, as they do in actual canon. (At least as far as Supergirl and VA are concerned. I have no idea about Abby and Clarke’s relationship because I didn’t get far enough in to find out.) Because it gives me a bit of catharsis that, even if it’s fiction, at least somebody is improving their relationships with their mothers. Because God only knows how much I want that for myself.
Whether its stories that repeatedly have Eliza holding Alex to ridiculous standards, standards she’s seemed to have abandoned for the most part in canon, or if it’s a high-school AU and they make Eliza really fucking homophobic (???? Like, that didn’t even happen in the show? Where does that come from????), there’s a lot of hate out there for her. And it bothers me. Because it’s extremely unlikely that I will be able to write something of my own over this subject in Alex’s voice. That’s the only way I’d be able to do it (because it would be Alex’s POV that I’m the most familiar with on this subject), and if I tried to go through with it, it would bring up a shit load of emotions that I am currently not able to deal with at the moment. This is a rare occurrence for me. I’m not used to having this kind of idea in my head and not being able to actually sit down and write it. I’ve compartmentalized a lot of shit I feel about my own mom, and even writing this rant has got me thinking too much about our relationship and the disappointment I know she will feel towards me very soon.
Okay, end of that paragraph. Can’t get into that. I don’t know. I don’t expect this to change anything. People will write what they will. I guess I’m wondering if I’m the only one who even thinks about this. I’ve been on a fic binge, I’ve seen this phenomenon a lot recently and it’s hit close to home and I’m feeling a bit fatigued over it. I harp on my less than perfect relationship with my mom enough in real life. I guess it feels more like a punch in the gut when I’m reading fanfic, have gotten like six chapters in, and suddenly “LOOK! LOOK HOW TERRIBLE THIS CHARACTER’S PARENT IS! aREN’T THEY THE WORST????” Like, yeah, I guess.... Because these scenes are almost always over the top. There’s no nuance. No one sticks up for anyone. It’s typically a scene of the parents just shitting on the kid, and geez. As if I don’t already live that. I suppose this is how some people vent, but ohhh. It’s definitely not how I do it.
Maybe I’m just a tad more sensitive about this than usual.
#Supergirl#Alex Danvers#Eliza Danvers#A rant about how fic writers ignore the development between these two#like their relationship is not at dumpster fire anymore#do people see these scenes and ignore them??#Or forget??#Again this is another rant
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