Porchay is on a Coming of Age Journey (a Character Analysis/Meta).

I kind of love how we joke around about Porchay’s “Wattpad” fantasies and his “university au b/l” timeline happening in conjunction with a whole ass mafia storyline, but I’d like to take a deeper dive into what type of story Porchay is actually experiencing.

To me, Porchay is going through a coming of age story. And yes, you might be thinking, “That’s pretty obvious, Dawn. He’s 17 going on 21,” but I think there’s more to Porchay’s rapid progression into adulthood than just heartbreak and mafia crimes.

Particularly, I’m thinking of the term Bildungsroman, which literally translates to “education novel” from German, and means, a story that follows the (moral, psychological) development of the hero from childhood or adolescence into adulthood, through a troubled quest for identity (x). There are several components that make a story into a Bildungsroman story, particularly the progression of these four stages: 1) Loss, 2) Journey, 3) Conflict, and 4) Maturity, and so far, we can trace Porchay’s journey through at least the first three steps.

1)  Loss

Porchay has suffered immense loss right from the start of KinnPorsche. We won’t stay here long, because it’s obvious: his parents are dead, he suffers from a “financial” loss since his family is in debt, and finally, Porchay “loses” his brother to the mafia. Loss and Porchay are like peanut butter and jelly. Loss also forms his sense of morality: Porchay doesn’t like secrets, doesn’t take pathetic excuses as reasons for keeping him in the dark. He’s gone through more than most adults, but he is still quite young; he, like most adolescents, believes people either do right or wrong. So, his sense of morality, at the start of KP, is very black and white. 

2) Journey

It is through these losses that Porchay resolves to work hard and get into university, to begin a journey. Usually, for a Bildungsroman, the journey alludes to a physical quest, which I think Porchay is on as well. He’s been displaced to the Main House at least once, and despite returning home, he does venture off to this bar, which seems like a new setting for him, going by his discomfort. Through it all, Porchay has been incredibly resilient, which I talk about more here. Regardless, this journey is hugely emotional for Porchay as he navigates life without his older brother. However, it is important to note that Porchay’s journey inevitably crosses with Kim’s (which I explain in this companion piece.) Kim becomes his mentor, literally helping Porchay on the journey of entering university, but also igniting another journey altogether: one based on love and intimacy. And we all know how that’s going so far: a literal rollercoaster due to both of their actions.

3) Conflict

Upon all these journeys, Porchay makes many mistakes along the way because of his youth and desperation to emerge (or to be taken seriously) as an adult. We see this heavily in episode 12; Porchay’s cutting his journey as a musician short by not attending the interview, even though he shows great promise. This points to conflict with his future, with his own dreams and goals, or the reason why he’s on the journey to begin with. Just as importantly, he’s at conflict with Kim, the guidance he had through a good portion of his journey, and disappointment is part of the Bildungsroman. I think, though, it’s important to note that while he’s conflicted and angry with Kim, this is still a highly personal journey for Porchay, and these scenes are moments of growth for Porchay. What Kim says is pivotal for us understanding this:

And yes, what Kim says is not what we want to hear, but it’s what Porchay needs to hear. Kim knows better than anyone that actions have consequences; to tell this to Porchay in such a harsh manner is a warning that Porchay is on the cusp of adulthood, and that he must brace himself for what it means to mature.

4) Maturity

Perhaps we should write off Porchay’s physical changes as drastic, teenage angst (though, I think we should point out that he looks alarmingly like Porsche now [sleeves, hair part], the one adult he can rely on). But I think these are changes that are ushering him into adulthood. He’s making these decisions himself. No, they’re not “mature” decisions, but he’s no longer sitting, waiting, pinning. He’s moving. He’s moving the plot too, putting Kim on edge and causing Kim to react. However, I don’t think Porchay has reached this last stage of the Bildungsroman. In accordance with the definition, a successful Bildungsroman means that the character has fully developed, has gone through a moral or psychological change that brings their journey to an end. The “end” of the journey doesn’t have to be dramatic or even culminate to the success of the hero (as 20th century literature has changed this expectation greatly.) So what does maturity look like on Porchay? I would hope it would be some sort of change to his moral compass. I hope these next few episodes tell us that because I want Porchay to mature and succeed in more ways than just a musician and a love interest. I want his sense of morality to change, which I think has somewhat begun, but can and should be further explored in the series.

Another aspect of Porchay’s Bildungsroman that we should look for is whether  he takes music back up again, and if he rejects or accepts being an everyday citizen. Not all Bildungsroman stories end in the acceptance of everyday life or an ordinary existence, but we know that Porchay’s life is changed due to the Mafia; so the ultimate question we should hope to get an answer for (in relation to his coming of age journey) is if Porchay will accept the Mafia as part of his life, and whether that impacts his growth as a character.

EDIT: This post now has a companion piece on Kim’s Coming of Age Journey.

Just remembered that the monster high movie where they were in monster france and everyone had horrible fake french accents and some evil fashion designer lady essentially esnlanved a teenage boy that was her apprentice like she had him locked in her basement designing clothes for her day in day out then she also tried to kidnap clawdeen to make her do the same, that movie apparently wasn't a really weird dream and actually exists

oooooougg. ohhhh my god ohhehgggsgag no way

kind of low effort rain world doodles from andrew cunningham's stream tonight ! if anyone else was there hiii :-)

This has been on my mind for weeks and I talked to my therapist about it today and told my girlfriend about it too so now it's time for me to update the gay people in my phone: I may have schizotypal personality disorder

i hope i die, you broke my heart

I spent 20 years taking everything for granted and then I got visual snow

Nothing is still anymore and while I’m grateful I got 20 years of experiencing the world through a “normal” lens, for lack of a better word, I feel some sort of wrath just sitting underneath everything. Why was I cursed with this constant movement that follows me around?

I cannot be comfortable in low light levels and I can no longer go outside without my eyes being sensitive. I recently started noticing some palinopsia happening as well. Vision is such an anchor in experiencing life. That sentence is so stupid to say but it’s 100% true. And my vision is no longer flawless.

These complaints all seem like nothing compared to what other people experience but I just felt the need to rant and express myself.

I recently took a flight and I LOVE flying. But I couldn’t look out at the soft blue sky without seeing light dots dancing around in my field of vision. I could not admire the clouds without some light sensitivity. I now experience the world less clearly. My amp moves when I look at it. My right ear rings constantly. None of this is severe or extreme but it’s enough.

If you are able-bodied and if your world doesn’t vibrate or constantly move when you look at it, you are blessed. I spent 20 years not knowing about VSS and not knowing how lucky I was to just not experience this constant motion. In my teenage years I wallowed in self-pity and I didn’t know how good I had it.

I hope that we find a cure or treatment for VSS one day. Until then, we will get through our daily lives together. For me, knowing I’m not alone helps. But it doesn’t make it go away. Because thanks to VSS, I have learned that it snows in summer, too.

not to shill for tumblr or be a mobile user on main but i do just wanna point out i think the response to the dashboard clown thing is a little disproportionate, all things considered

like if you just dont like the show thats fine but the way some of these posts are worded very weirdly and acting like its somehow way worse than.....literally any of the other ads? like yea tumblr is a company and not your friend, netflix is unethical and sucks. but like. are we pretending tumblr hasnt had ads for like. horrible fad diets and the fucking trump coin and god knows what else but like this really isnt worse than like. the fact that ppl with strobing triggers are constantly endangered by the ads on this site.

and maybe its super bad on desktop or something but so far this ad campaign has actually been one of the less obtrusive ones vs their other ads, imo. I dont think ive really seen them in between the posts on my dashboard? (hard to tell bc I try to automatically ignore those anyway) but like it feels like most of this ad campaign has been. a little fictional character at the top of the dashboard. and like. a separate dashboard "tab".....that i dont have to look at, and i dont. and its fine. i barely even noticed it. i probably wouldnt have thought twice about it if everyone hadnt started complaining about it. if tumblr wants to do more ads that are just dashboard tabs that I dont actually have to look at and arent interrupting my main dash i think im fine with that actually. like. obviously no advertisements are better than ads but like i dont have a particular problem with the structure or honestly even the content of this ad. its for a show that i might be intrigued to watch honestly. but its also not being targeted to me personally based on data harvesting its just blanket targeting to everyone.

again, id prefer no ads, but if we're going have them: i would actually prefer it be for things i might be interested in, but without the data harvesting to do it. if i HAVE to see ads, this is a way that i dont mind as much.

Y'know as someone who's experienced medical delusions it becomes uncomfortably easy to recognize ableism (? is that the right word) towards it...

"anyone who believes they are a werewolf and can transform into a giant dog because of a celestial body should be openly mocked and laughed at"

ooooooorrrrrr people experiencing delusions should be given a safe and comfortable space to voice said delusions and have them corrected or be put on medications that help correct them??? Maybe let's not laugh at people for mental health conditions???

//honestly i could write a whole thing about lambda’s encounters with monsterfuckers and how much he heavily dislikes them

young tatiana is so cute. she's giving speak now vibes with the hair ❤️🥺

I didn't notice that before, but yeah she kind of is.

Jack is getting ready for her "Imma Let You Finish" speech.

'I should really stop starting new projects' I say starting yet another project literally nobody asked for, myself included

if you have any info on a google doc, please have that listed somewhere so i can log out of my account before i access it

Stares at the sekai writers with my big wet brown eyes. Pls don't forget abt how Kanade hid the fact that she met with Mafuyu's mom from them and that Mafuyu knows abt that now

what mutual am i (made by me cause I thought it would be fun) ASK GAME

[Picture ID: A drawing with 12 circles all different colors and labeled different things, bullet points follow under them.

the first circle is a deep purple with light purple glitter particles. It's labeled "purple glitter" and the bullet points under it say: "fabulous", "I love your aesthetic very much", "you do have an abnormal amount of microplastics in your blood though".

the second circle is a neon green with a lighter green wave around it. it's labeled radioactive. the bullet points for it are "some sort of creature", "you give bioluminessence vibes".

the third circle is a medium pink with dark green leave and a stem on the top. it's labeled starberry. the bullet points are "I think we should bake together", "flower crowns possibly".

the fourth circle is a light seafoam green labeled seafoam green. the bullet points are "maybe a little snobby", "calm yourself", "I don't know why I still follow you tbh", "Maybe I'm just reading you wrong".

the fith circle is multiple colors, in order from top to bottom: very light blue, sky blue, yellow, red, black, purple, pink, to light pink. it's labeled do you like the color of the sky. the bullet points are "you're always on tumblr", "hits post limit daily", "you should go watch some tumblr history videos if you haven't already".

circle number six is a brick pattern labeled throwing bricks. the bullet points are "you're my resource for all of the things happening in the world", "probably really punk or at least an Anarchist".

circle number seven is a red panda's facial fur pattern labeled red panda. the bullet points are "so soft", "very small", "you're so cute", "my favorite silly".

circle eight is a light off white color labeled cu- I mean creme. the bullet points are "Hey there", "I mean you wanted to-", "slash jay".

circle nine is a deep gold color with a light shine to it labeled stay gold. the bullet points are "book reader", "how do you read so many", "pretty cool", "also a nerd".

the tenth circle is a medium purple with a light purple heart in the center. it's labeled my favorite purple. the bullet points are "you're my favorite person on this hellsite", "why are you here, you're so nice", "are you a people pleaser".

the eleventh circle is a bright pink with pastel pink stars labeled barbie dream house. the bullet points are "nostalgia.", "do you live in the past I swear you do", "are those rose tinted glasses comfortable bub".

the final circle is a black color with a red blood splotch. it's labeled Gerard Way in the 2000s. the bullet points are "popular mutual", "I think you're pretty neat and also kind of scary", "probably really sweet but I'm still intimidated". /.End ID]

for like a little over four or so years now I have been experiencing tumblr vicariously through pinterest screenshots and now I think its finally time to graduate to actual tumblr user ! ! hi guys I am ready to start tumbling aroung