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a little present for you all 🎁🎄
~ teen-elder, all frames
~ lods: 758/512/376/224 polys
~ 2 meshes for thin and thick sleeves
~ 20 swatches
download: sfs ~ drive ~ tou
happy christmas <3
#ts4cc#ts4 accessories#ts4 christmas#s4cc#s4mm#this is a year old don't tell anyone#but i don't think the thing i made them for even exists anymore
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some people think you can’t be cool and cute at the same time. i, however, have a huge brain and am able to recognize that coolness and cuteness are not mutually exclusive and can, in fact, coexist
#tell me why i'm seeing takes from twitter when i don't even use that website anymore. also this is the FUNNIEST possible#thing that anyone could say. it's literally#13 year old middle school boy type shit#''I CAN'T BE CUTE!!! I'M COOL >:((('' you know. LMAO?
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Xenk Yendar doesn't traffic in colloquialisms because he's so old he doesn't know any anymore
#the same way i don't understand tiktok-speak xenk hasn't understood slang in 80 years#speak plainly or shut the fuck up this man has a mission. and a quest. and a campaign. and sidequest. and a—#he's so old every time he drops a colloquialism it's so buckwild and outdated it does psychic damage#he once met a quest-giver's 100-year-old great grandmother and they chattered excitedly for over an hour#the quest-giver can't tell anyone what they discussed because those old fuckers code-switched and they couldnt understand 8 words out of 10#xenk yendar#dungeons and dragons#honor among thieves#by apples#linguistic drift is real and it is the fucking devil#like yeah he's autistic and that's important but don't forget he is also. hella fucking old.#he's seen the rise and fall of entire royal families. he probably remembers when 'bitching' had to do with pouring tea.
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#saw a Dragonlance mention on Instagram and went into a spiral#i read the graphic novels as a kid but that was like#Jesus Christ I'm old#over 10 years ago#so i got an audible subscription just to listen to the books#decided to look at the dragonlance tag and whaT DO YOU KNOW THERE'S A WHOLE MUSICAL#WAS ANYONE GOING TO TELL ME#now i have extra imposter syndrome bc i don't remember much of the books AND i haven't listened to/ watched the musical#fandom imposter syndrome#raistlin majere#raistlin majere my beloved#dragonlance#dungeons and dragons#dnd#tanis half elven#krynn#dragonlance musical#musical theater#i don't even know what the musical is called fuck me
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"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"
#tw suicide#i wish i was joking#i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me??#said something to the emergency room psych#she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended#she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds'#i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i#could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence#is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts?#this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he#could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs#i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the#boy. i have confided in her before she's great)#she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m#to see the psych and escalate care#but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly#it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan#i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access#i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't#there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that#makes sense#ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD#personal#puddleglum hours
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Dick or no dick confirmation Pickles was always going to be trans to me anyways; if he's swingin' somethin that's phallo babes, if he's not then his t-dick fat. What's not to get.
#metalocalypse#jay talkin#I'm sorry they wrote that awful gross little man far too likeable and relatable to on a trans level#for me not to hoot and holler and cheer for the trans pickles agenda#changes nothing about his character arc or any of the show anyone is capable of being the kind of person he is#don't make the mistake of thinking thats exclusive to cis men#his transness wouldnt change that#only adds on an extra layer to him that i think works fantastically.#Listen that dude was rejected by his family driven to drink and drugs young to escape that ran away to be in a band#is called fucking Pickles of all things and refuses to tell anyone his real last name;#over the span of four seasons and two movies he slowly starts to learn to be for others what he never had#he becomes more caring more supportive#it's not a stretch to say he undoes some of the toxic masculinity he's been keeping himself shielded behind#and learns how to be a kinder man.#all of which have no contradictions with him being trans!#In fact it doesn't take much extra thought to find ways a lot of this can line up with some trans masculine experiences#i mean. Did no one else have a younger phase where they swung as far as they could into crass rude and uncaring ways#to try and assert their masculinity only to grow and realise that you can be a man and be more caring.#Did no one else have father issues. 1 800 come on now i know those are both shared experiences a lot of us have had LOL.#at the end of the day this show aired nearly 20 years ago and is finished. we're not getting more of it#so nothing is altered nor changed if pickles is canonically trans or not ok. its fine#i mean hell i dont even need canon confirmation hes trans to me and thats all i care abt#but i think if yr getting suuuuuper weird abt needing him not to be canonically trans you have some issues#and bio essentialist ideals of gender if you think only a cis man can act like he does#again. anyone can be like that. its not exclusive. him being trans would not change him in any way shape or form lol#AND ALSO GODDDUUUGH for once i love getting to see a guy pushing 50 whos depicted as trans#do you have any idea how dire and barren it is out here. we never get to see a trans guy older than 30 and whos not a pristine model#I WANT MORE OLD SHLUBBY SHITHEAD TRANS GUYS IN MEDIA
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#okay like sue me. sometimes i google 'neioo' just because im a nosey bitch and want to see if anyone is talking about my fics#(i just got a comment on awh and like it makes me nostalgic etc. whatever. wanted to see if anything posted somewhere prompted it)#and i havent done this in a while#so please tell me why. WHY am i cited in someone's fucking PhD dissertation#yes the paper overall is about fandom and examining hetalia in particular so it's not like out of left field#but there are two fics total cited and mine is one. AND also there is a post from my fucking neioo blog cited???#like my book announcement one??#and neither of these are cited directly in the dissertation just at the end#so now i feel like im going a bit insane but like okay#i have work i need to be doing and i was reading this fucking dissertation instead#wish i could turn to 15 year old me and be like 'hey there champ. you know that fic series youre day dreaming in your head#that you don't want to write down because you think no one will read it#good stuff. anyway. one day it'll be cited in a dissertation#oh and your grandmother will have read it. have a good day'#...............well. now i need to focus back on work
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becoming someone who genuinely is putting more and more effort into caring about female characters and falling in love with media with awesome female characters has actually made me feel much better
#chuck chatters#like fr i used to hate myself a lot and then i started caring about women and now it's like. wow. i don't hate myself. it's just all i had#o compare myself to were men who i don't want to be#this is awesome why didn't anyone tell 13 and 14 year old me this
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Wow being a vtuber/pngtuber sounds like fun (<- watched one (1) tutorial on how to make a pngtuber, has not made any plans to stream, does not have any proper equipment or a good place to stream)
#ramblings#ok but it does seem fun#however i live in a house with multiple ppl#including a 7 year old who can't be quiet for more than 5 seconds#and a 19 year old who can't be quiet when he's gaming and uses up all the internet#also i don't want to tell my mom i wanna stream and have to explain what all that entails#only for her to most likely say no bc she wouldn't want me to like. talk to strangers on the internet or whatever#like she always does#so. yeah#and before anyone suggests no mic streams i want to actually Talk to ppl. i'm slow at typing#i would not be able to keep up with even a small chat of <10 ppl#i would like to be able to keep up lmao#and our walls are very much not soundproof so if i didn't tell her she would still find out#eh i guess this'll just have to wait until i get my own place
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Trying out animation again despite my complete lack of education in the area. I dunno dude, it's just, so powerful, making things move.
and it's like, obvious I do not know what I'm doing, and that's kind of frustrating
but I have an idea and I'm making it happen and the quality regret won't kick in for at least two years ✌
but even though I got this far with guesswork and basic art skills, there is part of me that wishes I'd taken a class and then maybe I could visualize movement better or optimize this process, or something. 😓 Maybe all I need and certainly don't have much of is practice; animation's too complex to think of it as drawing 2.0. I mentioned this in a discord and someone recommended The Animator's Survival Kit book and it looks interesting.
#does it flicker green for anyone else because it only does sometimes and I do not know why but if it happens to you i am sorry 😰#i'm on caffeine rambling i can try to reupload it later#two years is how long it took for me to look at my kiss animation and go “ehhhh that was rushed”#my deepest regret is about 15 years old now and people make fun of it 😓 oh well#wip#i'm trying to make a whole ass pokemon masters inspired cut scene don't tell anyone
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Almost a full week of Inktober, and let me say 5/6 drawings have been DFO themed... Not a bad thing... But also feels a little bit like a problem, unhealthy obsession, possibly even strange addiction...
#Don't even get me started on the WIP fics/oneshots I haven't finished...#Yeah let's not discuss it#I have a lot of ideas#One of which is like 4 years old... Yes it's also DFO#When i say I've been in and out of this fandom I really mean#I'm in it when I'm not preoccupied with drama in my real life.#I've been in this fandom since 8th grade... And... let me tell you I'm not in 8th grade anymore.#ALSO... If anyone in the void has an idea for day 7's prompt drip I'd greatly appreciate it.#izuku midoriya#all for one#bnha#dad for one#afo#dfo#bnha all for one
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Me: do NOT perceive me in public. I am not here and we all are doing our own thing and I will pretend none of you are here and not even glance at you and be on my merry way and I hope you return the favor. Thank You
Also me: -looks like this-
#cai arts#consequence of this is that i walk fast and don't pay attention to anyone who speaks#bc i have no reason to believe anyone is talking to me unless they get my attention first#anyway someone complimented my outfit and I only processed that like 3 seconds later when i'm walking out a door LMAO#sorry random guy i was not ignoring you and i appreciate you and i wish i didn't have the reaction speed of a 7 year old laptop#don't perceive me unless you're gonna tell me i look dope and inflate my ego <3
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I love when I'm talking to someone and someone else who I don't know like that butts in to ask a really personal question that informs the conversation they are not a part of
#joked to a coworker that shes gonna get in trouble for breaking dress code and ahe asked abt my shirt#and i said i have a special exception and was gonna leave it at that and tell her abt it later when ppl werent around#and my fucking old supervisor who was literally demoted for being bad at their job goes 'whats your special exception'#first of all who was talking to you. not me#so i said i am disabled and constricting clothes cause discomfort and they said 'why don't you just buy plain shirts'#BITCH WHO ASKEDDDD. first of all they do not pay me enough for that second of all they should just comply with the fucking ada#so why are they interrupting my fucking conversation to ask about my clothes#im just too tired and frustrated and stressed for this. theyre lucky there were people around or i would've lost it probably#lol when an ex coworker decides its ok to share what you post on your personal blog with people you still work with#if any of you are looking at this post again stop. leave my blog. its incredibly inappropriate to share a private blog without permission#i don't tell anyone at work about my blog for a reason. this has been my blog/diary since i was 12 years old#i say things on here I wouldn't say irl because this is where i vent thoughts that are harsh. please respect my privacy#and stop fucking snooping on me. thanks.#and please do no not mention anything you saw here to anyone ever. including me.
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Your Weekly TV Guide
On Monday you can expect:
2:30 PM: Original - Concept art
And Tuesday:
2:30 PM: The Stanley Parable
Wednesday:
2:30 PM: Mob Psycho 100
Thursday:
2:30 PM: MP100
Friday:
2:30 PM: Star Control II - Helix
Saturday:
2:30 PM: Dragon Quest IX
Sunday:
2:30 PM: SCII - Helix
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#Weekly TV Guide#What a balanced week :) Don't worry about next week yet don't even worry about it lol#Lots of silliness this week :D#Some kinda-sorta scratchy in that semi-finished/untoned way#Oh y'know what's funny? It's not gonna show up for a bit down the queue yet but lol#So anyone following me for a while - especially on VLH - knows that I doodle with my favourite .5 mechanical pencil#I've had it since I was in school and it Shows lol it is Old and Worn In#And then when I got my .3s that was all I used for like a year - I draw tiny and they feel Wonderful to draw with#But then I started to miss the richness of lines that my .5 can make so I switched back over#Well. You'll never guess what's happened again lol#I do still use my .3s in my alt notebook but I haven't been drawing much in my alt lately! Talking like one doodles a month!#And as is evident I am not a one and done doodle kind of person lol I like to make like fifteen in a given day#So I guess I've been missing it lol - it's so good for detailwork and soft shapes and shading! Feels so delicate <3#My shapes have been feeling weird lately - general construction-wise style-wise y'know - and with my .3 it all just flows so nicely#I get so stubborn about Only Using The Correct Tool but like - I have multiple tools for a reason! Pfft#I'm having fun that's the important part haha I'll point some of them out when they post#Oddly enough it's actually kind of hard for even me to tell the difference by sight - it's much more a tactile feedback thing! How strange ♪
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thoughts on zuko/katara??
(also iroh's original voice actor died, that might have been where signals crossed)
Zuko/Katara had potential from an enemies to lovers standpoint, but to really get me on board, they would've needed more scenes and development together. I also would've needed them to lay off the attempts at Aang/Katara because you could tell they were gonna end up together by the end, so it soiled the idea of Katara ending up with anyone else.
Zuko/Mai took me by surprise when we first learned they were together. I'm honestly not a big childhood friends to lovers stan (and in their case, "childhood friends" is pushing it since Mai was Azula's friend), especially when it starts off one-sided (it gives me Sakura pining over Sasuke vibes and I just... no thanks). And tbh, Zuko still needs to work on himself a bit as a boyfriend (jealousy issues/assuming Mai would like a specific thing because "Don't girls like stuff like this?" buuut he could be quite sweet and attentive, so he just has to iron out a few kinks).
But even though Zuko and Mai don't necessarily wow me from a relationship standpoint, I feel like as far as personalities go, Zuko and Mai might be more compatible since Zuko can be quite explosive while Mai is more laid back.
Meanwhile, Zuko and Katara are both very persistent, stubborn, and confrontational so they might butt heads more frequently in the long run. On the other hand, these qualities can be used to better each other because they'll both speak their minds and won't take any undeserved shit from each other. So it depends.
#tbh i usually hate it when in books/tv shows/etc. ALL the characters end up with people from their core friend group or school#like what. you're telling me that all these 16 year olds get together in high school and stay together forever after that??#they don't meet anyone else in college or in other adult spaces?? hello??#*cough* harry and ginny *cough* lolol#i guess it depends on the couple bc tbh i'd be fine with sokka and suki staying together long-term#but idk if i could see zuko and katara long-term. again. depends.#oh and yes someone else mentioned what happened to iroh's va so that could indeed be what i saw#ATLA thoughts#anon
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#my grandpa is going to fucking kill himself#he is lucky he didn't die#apparently he got into a car accident didn't go to the doctor and spent a month in bed#and then didn't let my grandma tell anything to anyone#she is just as bad ahe just keeps everyone in the dark about everything#her apparently going through chemo ect#she probably had some part in her mother's death#bc she injured badly her leg at 92 fucking years old and she kept her from getting help#to tje point of not being able to get stitches and eventually die bc of some other complications that this took part in#not to mention that she didn't tell her that her favorite son fucking died#my f*ther has some bad memory issues and refuses to get it checked#if i get this old I'm just killing myself it's not worth it#nit for me or my loved ones#i won't let myself get this bad#don't get me wrong i used to look up to my grandpa#but going of the rode bc a fucking truck was generating too much dust#he also refuses to talk to my dad for some reason#i won't let myself get this fucking bad#if i manage to reach 60 i will make sure to not reach more than that#my bloodline is fucking curse and it's all genetic nothing i can do will change it
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