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mejomonster · 2 years

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Like. While I fully intend for my new fic to be (mostly) a fluff fest

You know I can't wait for Ye Zun to see Ghosts in a haunted village, jump into Da Qings arms, accidentally awaken his own powers and suck a ghost into himself cannibalism style to save them

Then freak the fuck out over WHAT THE FUCK that means for his powers and life and who he is, with the looming threat of people from his past life who might still Be Alive and not particularly want a person like him with his powers to Keep Existing (you know... cause I love that power related angst that only xmen like setups like Guardian allow me...)

Also despite my best efforts at Comedy, already I've happened to write Shen Wei instinctively somehow aware he lost Zhao Yunlan before (because inexplicably to his concious mind he can't figure out why he's So Irrationally Worried Zhao Yunlan will disappear now in the present), and Ye Zun is secretly hiding a lot from Shen Wei to try and protect him from having anyone burden him with expecting him to save the world (like in his last life) which is also a bit um Emotionally heavy

Meanwhile the only angst I Expected fully to be in this fic was Zhao Yunlan coming to grips with Shen Wei's past life over and his new life Technically a new person to a degree and wtf that Means, and the balance between grief and hope inherent in this kind of romance storyline type. Which is present as you would expect but like. I maybe didn't grasp how Much it was going to permeate the Zhao Yunlan pov parts

I think the the root of the matter is simply. I'm good at emotionally weighting plots lol. U can't expect fluff from me without Something tugging the heartstrings like a brick ToT

#rant #guardian #weilan #in my (pathetic) defensr #1. i write the fluff romcom ID want and I HAPPEN to love mystery suspense emotional drama #kinnporsche is romantic comedy to me so. let that explain a lot #so is History 3 Trapped. with its murder plot and gangs. still romcom to me. so #that explains a lot #2 ye zun was a villain in life one the angst just doesnt Magically get fixed lmao. hes got a History that isnt easily #passed #3 its not my fault Guardian drama made ye zuns power cannibalism. fucking guardian makes me put that #warnjng kn every ye zun fic thats canon compliant #guardian drama why did y have to put vore in ur fucking show ToT why did u make me watch that lol

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flamingwell · 1 year

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[Podfic] clipped wings (podfic) I DID IT!!! I GOT BLACKOUT IN GUARDIAN BINGO AND SCORED THE INCREDIBLE LIT LANTERN CINEMAGRAPH!!

(thank you @guardianbingo and the talented @highlynerdy!!)

Here’s all my fills for Guardian Bingo, filled across 2022 and the first part of 2023! Most of it is podfic, but a few fics in there too. Almost all of it is angst and hurt/comfort (especially hurt Shen Wei) mostly has Shen Wei as a central character. Mostly Weilan focused, but some of Shen Wei’s other relationships, too. (I bet you can’t guess my fav character, LOL) Hope you enjoy!

And if you’re interested, you can still join the super low pressure Guardian Bingo by going to @guardianbingo! 1 fill with no length requirement is all that’s required for the Longevity Dial!

[Podfic] what the weave tells you by @elenothar for the “dark energy” square: Zhao Yunlan can’t fucking believe that he first hears about this from Lao Chu of all people. A Dixingren tradition so important literally everyone knows about it? One relevant to intimate relationships of all kinds, including the kind where two (or more) people have bought a house together, saved the world together, have lots of really astoundingly good sex together? Naturally, Shen Wei has never mentioned it.

[Podfic] this offering (cold read with an audience) by @listening-to-thunder for the “war” square: When they're captured by Dixing rebels looking for Hei Pao Shi, Zhao Yunlan is willing to do anything to keep Shen Wei out of their hands—but Shen Wei is determined to protect Kunlun. And no matter what happens they are all alone and far from safety.

The [Podfic] Ouroborous series by anonymous for the “dragon” bonus prompt and the “Ye Zun”, and “SID” squares, which is a series featuring Tiny Dragons Shen Wei and Ye Zun, before, during, and after the war.

[Podfic] all that you can't leave behind by china_shop for the “black cloaked envoy” square: Zhao Yunlan rushed to catch Shen Wei before he fell.

Clipped Wings (podfic and fanfic versions) by Mo_on_racoon and me for the “alternate universe” and free squares: The strange weights move along Shen Wei's back. Heart hammering in his chest, he reaches backward and cannot swallow a cry of surprise that echoes off his narrow prison. His wings. His wings are back. But Ye Zun is nowhere to be found. Zhao Yunlan isn't here either. And Shen Wei is trapped.

[Podfic] held fast in open hands by Eliza for the “alliance” square: Chu Shuzhi thought he saw the inevitable end of his life sentence in the approaching swirl of Hei Pao Shi’s black cloak. Instead, his shackles fell away and he walked into new bonds made of black ink.

[Podfic] The last thing by @laireshi for the “self-sacrifice” square: Shen Wei will save Zhao Yunlan if it's the last thing he does.

(alone) for the sake of a sincere heart (podfic and fanfic versions) by @crystalinn and me for the “masks” and “forgotten” squares: It is all they have ever wanted—the close, near-effortless intimacy they share, finally allowed to flourish under their earnest, if inexperienced, hands. And yet…

[Podfic] Diverging Paths by spinningthreads for the “experiment” square: In one universe the SID arrives in time to protect a terrified student and her teacher. That universe is not this one.

[Podfic] language without an army by nnozomi for the “what we leave behind” square: Shen Wei struggles with code-switching.

[Podfic] fading echoes by velithya for the “betrayal” square: When he comes to, the man is still there – but Gege isn't.Or, Ye Zun, from the cliff to the fall.

[Podfic] shades of black and red (and blue) by @crystalinn for the “secrets” square: Badly wounded, you seek safety. Your robes, dark as night, hide the evidence; your mask, your pallor. Nothing can hide the trail of dark blood in your wake.

[Podfic] you're one to talk by nnozomi for the “milestone” square: Shen Wei’s tendency to sarcasm gets the better of him, and Zhao Yunlan has a revelation.

[Podfic] the life you save by china_shop for the “time travel” bonus prompt: If Changcheng changed anything—if he stepped on a butterfly, or said the wrong thing to the wrong person—it could bend the course of history and undo their hard-won victory.

[Podfic] a bunch of lonesome heroes by @laireshi for the “meeting again” bonus prompt: Zhao Yunlan loved Shen Wei too much to let him continue like that.

[Podfic] till the last one falls by anonymous for the “star-crossed lovers” bonus prompt: The first arrow is a sun-bright blur. You lean a handspan to the left. Your hood flutters against your right cheek as the arrow passes. The second arrow your blade redirects to shatter on the passage wall. The third tangles in your cloak. A possibly fatal distraction, but one there’s no time to be rid of. They’re here.

[Podfic] what you would give by anonymous for the “trying something new” bonus prompt: You know something has changed before you even open your eyes.

[Podfic] the last cup of tea by @sasamelons for the “supernatural elements” bonus prompt: Years after Shen San's death, Shen Wei sees a familiar ghost in the Underworld.

[Podfic] unbearable by @laireshi for the “short and sweet” bonus prompt: Shen Wei is used to pain.

[Podfic] weld by glymr and yue_ix for the “keep on going” bonus prompt: Zhao Yunlan feels it happen. Past and present and future lock into place; role and responsibilities and duty. He’d already known that he belonged to Shen Wei and Shen Wei belonged to him, heart and mind and body and soul. Apparently, their mingled core energies had been one step ahead. Or: an energy bonding AU, based on goss's gorgeous art Wield

[Podfic] Time, to make you grieve by @laireshi for the “acceptance” bonus prompt: He doesn't remember the warmth of Kunlun's arms around him; can't seem to shake the coldness of millennia clinging to him.

#podfic #fanfic #guardian #guardian bingo #my stuff

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morkofday · 3 years

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thank you once again @yibobibo for tagging me ♥ even if, like I said, this is pure torture. I have so many sons that I’ve given up on counting them sigh but here goes.

favourite male fictional characters.

I took it that this meant ten so am going with that (tho am not gonna try and put them into order). am also sticking to all the characters I loved this year. and gonna ramble and add gifs so cutting it here.

1. Liu Sang

The Lost Tomb Reboot/Reunion: The Sound of The Providence

I have so much love for this boy it’s not even healthy. it’s a bit funny tho bc once I started tltr, I didn’t really like him and almost forgot about him as the first season ended. he just felt so annoying and bitter in what I saw him, even if I did get that he had a Tragic BackstoryTM (I felt for him but well. tltr really made him hard to like at first). but then they brought him back in the second season with his sad puppy eyes and inability to handle his thoughts on wu xie and being all touch-starved and pitiful and whatnot and baam, I had the adoption papers ready. he’s wonderful and so strong and so smart and amazing. and liu chang as his actor has been wonderful (and he’s so pretty my god, have you seen him??)

2. Shen Wei

Guardian

never did I expect to just. fall into this hole after a year? I remember what a mess I was when I first watched guardian over a year ago, right after finishing the untamed. I was in shambles even as I knew how it would end. and now I’ve done this all again while also reading the novel and. my love for shen wei, especially bc it’s zhu yilong acting as shen wei? astronomical. I want to write poetry about him and his stupid responsibilities that he chooses to carry silently and his devotion to zhao yunlan and his love for his ppl and his didi and. I hope that one day I manage to write weilan bc I have this one idea and you can come pry it from my cold, dead fingers if it doesn’t get out there (am also super happy about the edit I made bc my god does he deserve at least that)

3. Cloud Strife

Final Fantasy VII

ok so stepping into the video games territory now. I was waiting for the remake like crazy and it was everything to me once the quarantine hit during spring. the game is so beautiful and I felt like I looked at this gorgeous boy once and was ready to give him my heart (tbh am quite sure he owned my heart before I even learned to know him). he is tragic in so many ways (I’ve only scratched the surface of all of his pain I know) and I wish I could just. hug him a lot. he is kind and cares very deeply even if he hates to show it and I love it how remake showed him also just being a human disaster (some of his scenes are just. peak comedy). I would kill for his smile (I have already cried for it a dozen)

4. Geralt of Rivia

The Witcher (The Witcher 3: Wild Hunt)

if there’s one grumpy, brickwall of a man I love, it’s geralt. I affectionately call him “papa wolf” while playing witcher 3 and his voice in it does things to me (I am just so fond of him ok, begone you dirty fuckers). I got introduced to him through the books and adored him in them bc he is so prickly and sarcastic and still so full of love even if he will never admit to it. he is the father figure I wish I could have in real life. (and yes, I’ve seen the tv series (or at least a couple of the first episodes) and it looks stunning but. this is my version of geralt and that’s the hill I will die on)

5. Xiaoge

Zhang Qiling, Daomu Biji (The Lost Tomb 2)

(wow finding a gif for him was a pain, apparently I gotta learn how to gif or?) ah, my dear boy who I’ve ended up just calling xiaoge bc he seems to prefer it over his real name/title/whatever zhang qiling really is. I got introduced to him through tltr where we really didn’t get to know that much about him bc he was just... there. huang junjie was absolutely stunning tho and his soft smiles made me super fond, but only in the lost tomb 2 did I really fall in love with xiaoge as a character. I was surprised tbh bc I didn’t expect it to be this drama? I had so many doubts about the cast in tlt2 but they all delivered! and I think cheng yi’s xiaoge is now my favorite bc he somehow captured that softness and the pain of him? (and we do not talk about that buxun storyline tyvm) tho now that ultimate note is on the way, I gotta say that xiao yuliang does a wonderful job as xiaoge too!

6. Wu Xie

Daomu Biji (Ultimate Note)

(sorry we have to go with a pingxie gif now but maybe it’s only fitting) tbh it’s hard to choose my favorite version of wu xie. I think all of the actors for him have done amazing job showing wu xie in different parts of his life (all of them are very distinct but still feel like the same person) but currently zheng shunxi takes the lead. I really wanted to put the reboot version of him here (bc I love that mature, relaxed and somehow very soft version of him and the angst is phenomenal and the thoughts he has about death... yeah) but I already have zhu yilong’s face here once so :’D wu xie is just one of those characters you cannot not like. he is so strong, so kind, so stubborn, so wonderfully stupid sometimes and in need of careful protection. I also adore it how smart he is and I could listen to him spew history facts for 10 hours straight (even if it was in a tomb full of blood zombies) ♥

7. Jiang Cheng

Jiang Wanyin, The Untamed

my darling boy! my beautiful angry grape! I love him beyond words. I love him in all of his raging, misunderstood, stupid, sassy, constipated, abused, tragic, bitter, big hearted glory. I could write novels about him (and I did and am still writing oh boy) and his love for ppl and his inability to show that love and his loneliness and his issues. I could also write another novel for all of his outfits etc. bc damn, what a fashion king. he is just so great. he owns my soul. he deserves happiness and in this essay I will

8. Isana Yashiro

Adolf K. Weismann, K Project

I rewatched k project this spring bc a) it’s one of my favorite animes ever (it just looks stunning with all the colors) and b) I love yashiro to bits. I remember falling in love with him when I first watched k project many years ago bc he was just so kind and bright. this time though, I ended up seeing another side of him and my god did I cry. he is... so sweet. he cares for others so deeply and is ready to sacrifice so much for them and his love for his two clansmen... yeah. I think I finally saw the tragedy of him too, all the pain and loneliness and insecurity he decides to hide behind his smile and obnoxious personality. he reminded me a lot of myself and watching him made my heart bleed in a good way

9. Qi Tiezui

Ba Ye, The Mystic Nine

(wow am going to riot for the lack of all the gifs hhh) yes, we’re continuing with the dmbj universe that sucked me in big time this year. the drama of the mystic nine wasn’t probably that earth shattering for me as it somehow got boring more than once but I did love ba ye to bits. he was just... so nice? I got it that he was somehow this “comedic relief” in the drama with all of his funny scenes and ridiculous mannerisms but I could see the brilliance of him. he is warm and smart and kind of a romantic too and he cares for all of his friends so deeply? it was also sweet how protective of him his two zhangs were (does that run in the family? the tendency to imprint into one smart but disastrous man and keep him safe? maybe) and I really hope I knew more about him bc he seemed to have a lot of knowledge and a lot of impact to ppl’s lives (I yelled when they mentioned him in ultimate note, I miss him ;;)

10. Dorian Pavus

Dragon Age Inquisition

(yes I’ve been replaying DA:I this year, this counts!) another darling boy! my lovely sass master son! I have so much love for him and his story in DA:I. he is my favorite companion (and his romance is my favorite too, probably obvious in the way am currently romancing him for the third time) and he has given me a lot of strength. the way he stands up against his father, how he’s ready to reform his homeland instead of walking away, how he’s so caring for those he sees struggling... it’s very warming and I feel like I’m safe with him. it feels a bit silly to say that but he really is that comfort character I will seek out when I just want to know am doing fine :’) (and I am so excited to see him again in DA4! probably?)

+ 11. Li Cu

Tomb of the Sea

yes I cheated a bit (with my own rules lol) to fit li cu here. I didn’t really expect to like him or tomb of the sea as much as I did once I started it? I’ve seen leo wu elsewhere before this (battle through the heavens, nirvana in fire) and his face always makes me think about a sad puppy so maybe I just grew fond over li cu instantly bc he was... so hurt? the first episode really slaps you in the face with all of it, showing him being abused, wounded, kidnapped, tortured, used and then just very, very scared and broken. he continues being that throughout the whole drama and I feel like tomb of the sea (or sand sea or sha hai idk) is the darkest and angstiest story in the dmbj universe. I know it deserves to be bc this is a dark time for wu xie but... my darling li cu. I wish him only happiness ;; he was so strong and smart and wonderful in this and it was just so amazing to watch him grow and find his own place in the world just bc he did something himself (even when he got dragged into all of this bc of wu xie) also I support the wu xie adopts li cu -agenda

Honorary mentions:

Zhang Rishan, Xie Yuchen and Hei Xiazi from DMBJ universe. The Twin Jades of Gusu and Ouyang Zizhen from The Untamed. The Iron Bull and Fenris from Dragon Age games. Thane Krios, Kaidan Alenko and Jaal from Mass Effect games. The whole lot of Assassin’s Creed protagonists (especially Ezio Auditore and Shay Cormac). Adam Parrish and Ronan Lynch from The Raven Cycle. Neil Josten from All For The Game. Eduon and March from The Smoke Thieves. Qiling from L.O.R.D. Critical World. Luo Fei from Detective L (played by Bai Yu).

well, with this I can really see that I have a thing for those who are tragic :’D I have a thing for grumpy, prickly and antisocial guys or those who hide their pain behind a smile. maybe it’s bc I am somehow both, even if I can’t show my anger or be mean to others and even if I feel like my smile never sticks either. I just find kinship in all of the characters who are on this list. and I feel like I aspire to be as strong and as kind and as loving despite all the pain I’ve been put through.

thank you, this was so much fun! and sorry I made this so long and so complicated ^^’ but well, there are just way too many male characters I love haha

at the end I want to tag @i-am-just-a-kiddo @ashenwren @kholran @tiesanjiao @lan-xichens @aheartfullofjolllly @manhasetardis and @lzswy ♥ feel free to do this in your own way or not at all! and thank you if you managed to read through my rambling :’D

#tag game #wow this was something #i've been waiting for one #bc there is so much love in me #and this year i've discovered so many #new characters to just gush over #about me #random #edit: added a few characters #and tagged some more ppl sorry #also mobile tumblr wouldnt let me edit so lol

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charles-edwin · 3 years

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One of these days I will bring a happy quote to your ask box, I promise! But for now we're riding the angst train all the way to the station... ;_; Ill have to start a notes on my phone... but yeah when I heard that line I could just picture the gifsets... when i get photoshop on my new laptop i know whats first on my to do list lol and thank you!! :) I work midnights so I have a lot of time with my thoughts and my playlists lmao

nooo it’s okay. when it comes to weilan, sad hours are cathartic. at least we’re allowing ourselves to mourn and express ourselves through music. so it’s fine! keep the angsty lyrics coming! alsksksksk

omg write down all the good lyrics and then make killer weilan gifsets for us to cry over 🤣🤣🤣🤣 sounds like a plan!!!!

oh? i’ve always wanted to work at night! something slow and quiet, just so i could stay awake listening to music and be paid for that 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

you can even make a weilan playlist too?? that would be fire!!!! ❤️💙

#the more the merrier #or the sadder in this case akdkskkd #novaquill #mac tag #mj got mail!

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lansizhuis · 5 years

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Hello! I’ve been seeing a lot of tweets on twitter regarding “Guardian” and was wondering if you could tell me whether that’s a novel or show? I’ve seen a show version I think, but I doubt it’s the same one everyone’s talking about. Thank you in advance, you’re always of great help!

Am I ashamed to admit these asks made me get out of bed so I can get to my laptop and answer this while feeling the keys as I cry over how much I love Zhenhun/Guardian and weilan??? nope

BASIC DETAILSZhenhun/Guardian (i will mostly refer to is as zhenhun) is one of Priest’s (a popular danmei writer) early works dating back 2012 - so it is, originally a novel. It got a live action adaptation last year summer of 2018.

DRAMA/LIVE-ACTIONDue to loads of censorship issues (got pulled out after ep 6 then back again then pulled out for a while when it ended then back again) especially since Zhenhun’s canon story revolves around gods, ghosts, REINCARNATION (pls tell me you felt my tears there), and the like then this was completely scraped off and made way to some mutant/alien thing. OKAY tbh I haven’t met anyone who went to the drama for the plot hahaha I’m gonna go ahead and say it - plot is sht (understandable w/ censorship concerns but still), ending is sht (so bad that priest had to write a mini fix it in her 4th extra about it), cgi is sht (this one was bc they originally had a very rich company sponsoring them hence the amazing OSTs aka pre-prod stuff but then the company went bankrupt whelp soooo), etc. WE ALL STAYED BECAUSE OF WEILAN. Zhu Yilong (played Shen Wei - left in blue suit) and Bai Yu (played Zhao Yunlan - right in uhh rugged clothing lol) had such amazing chemistry!!! They seriously couldn’t have found a better pair to have portrayed our main pair!!! Let me fangirl for a bit bc I love them sfm and I thank their ancestors for reproducing.

And sooo quick facts:

Zhu Yilong: a bit shy and gentle but was actually a delinquent student in the past and he’s super strong af like he does muay thai, boxing, and in short he can snap us in half despite his super duper beautiful face (his face was like made by god as a personal project while mine was passed down to an intern - that’s the hierarchy around here)

Bai Yu: rowdy af bb pls sit still for a moment but was actually a model student who did archery, calligraphy, etc in the past and lol he’s actually weak af don’t let the facial hair fool you hahaha he has delicate looking hands and fans have noted his thin af arms and very noticeable slim waist (bai yu w/o facial hair: literal babey // bai yu w/ facial hair: UNCLE)

Lemme just throw in some of my fav stuff of them:

shen wei at episode xx with an in-love look: this must be.....brotherhoodme, behind my screen: BINCH NO???????

lol that even their script (and da qing) cant handle them

ALSO the producers and staff AND both zhu yilong and bai yu read the novel and worked around the censorship issue really good like that part where zhao yunlan changes his hairstyle midway-ish of the show bc usually when a woman marries, they change their hairstyle so yeah tiny things like that

fans: ugh cant believe weilan cant get married in the dramaharper bazaar photoshoot: we got u fam

It has 40 episodes and ngl I ended up ff so many things starting ep 25 unless my dads were on screen. Oh, and you can watch it HERE. ANYWAY i have to shut up about them now so i can continue on to the most important part aka.....

THE NOVEL*breathes in* I binged the novel so fast it rivaled my MDZS reading hence this is how i know im as obsessed lmao It’s currently being translated HERE by rainbowse7en. THE NOVEL IS EXTREMELY SUPERIOR IN ALL ASPECTS IM GOING FERAL!!!!!!! The novel is waaay more intense and darker and tbh I’m still crying over the fact that Zhu Yilong and Bai Yu could have definitely done novel version had it not been for censorship issues bc they’re that good!

Okay, anyway, back to the novel so quick summary is that gods of the past existed, there’s hell and afterlife whom the Special Investigations Department (SID) deals with and the chief of that unit is Zhao Yunlan. There’s a lot of supernatural and fantasy elements here which is kind of a spoiler if I discuss so I’m letting that go. Anyhow, so any case that’s supernatural is given to SID and we open with a case in a university where *drum roll* Professor Shen Wei is teaching. And so our pair meets and we get intense emotions from Shen Wei who obviously has deep affections for Zhao Yunlan but won’t get close to him. Thing is, Zhao Yunlan is a shameless SHAMELESS VERY THIRSTY man (canonically bi lol) who’s out for this very beautiful Professor Shen.

One of the things about Priest is you get a challenging time who’s the top and who’s the bottom and I was speculating the entire time and yet only getting “;)” responses from my friends who’ve read it before me. Not gonna say much but when it got revealed who was who I LOST IT HAHAHAHA im still laughing about it tbh. THERE’S FOUND FAMILY FEELS FOR SID!!!!!! they’re so dysfunctional and are easily ordered around by Zhao Yunlan when he threatens to cut off their bonus. Every single SID member fantasizes on beating up their shameless boss and tbh I sympathize haha But heyyy, they also love and care for each other. AND YOOO DA QING IS A CAT!!!!!!! i love cats and esp with how he deals with his “useless master” aka our shameless chief is funny af i love their brotp the most!

A disclaimer on my end - as this is one of Priest’s older works, I feel like the explanation on what happened in the final showdown part is lacking. I talked about it briefly HERE regarding the angst of the novel and I still stand by what I said there. It was mostly funny for me when I read it bc Zhao Yunlan’s thirst is an entity of its own. And since a lot of you here already know, I’m a weaksht and cant handle angst so rest assured that anything I recommend has a happy ending~

BC IM SHAMELESS - i had my drama livethread HERE + novel livethread HERE + listen i love weilan sfm i gotta put small novel thoughts HERE

*****

If you’re a visual person like me, I suggest you watch the drama first or even select episodes (again, as I said I’m very bad at watching dramas bc i always fall asleep so at the latter half i ended up doing loads of ff esp since it’s barely useful in the novel). Here’s what’s non-negotiable - if you’ve watched the drama, you can’t not read the novel! It’s extremely waaay better! It fed me the reincarnation trope I thirsted for (im still shaking FIVE THOUSAND YEARS!!!!! and that shen san extra ahhhhhhh) and weilan’s characterization yoooo esp for Shen Wei whom we get to see is [redacted] and yet no matter what Zhao Yunlan would always [redacted]!!! istg this is the abriged version of my thoughts hahaha

#zhenhun #weilan #shen wei #zhao yunlan #zhenhuntext #guardian #zhenhuninfo #anon #answers

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