Ca$h baby, my most beloved asexual darling boy I love you so much, you don't even know, I want to hug you so so much and make it so that nothing bad ever happens to you, I love you and you are valid and I love you and I love you my darling dearest asexual boy <333
anywho have some thoughts on buddy dawn that i never finished until now
buddy dawn fills me with such visceral anger and deep sadness because on one hand he’s how he his. he sees the people around him as sinners, most not even because of their actions but because they dont follow helio, he preaches to kristen about how “all lambs return to the pasture” and he tells her that, no actually, he’s never cast a spell or hurt someone, its helio doing it through him! which is also incredibly sad to me.
i grew up in the south and my town had 10-20 churches, i know that kid. he is an asshole, and he is an inch away from not seeing himself as a person if not for his god. because such a strong denial of his own autonomy doesnt start at not wanted to take accountability for his actions, it starts from being taught that without a god you would be nothing. idk man i know that kid, and its not likely that he’ll ever look at his religion and say, “hey wait, these are arbitrary rules that have been changed or forgotten over years of worship and does my god of the sun and corn really care enough about pre-marital sex to send me to hell.” buddy dawn probably never thinks about whether or not he’s happy in worshiping helio because how are you to turn your back on the god you’ve been taught to think works through you
To be a king who's abandoning my duties and disguising myself as a normal human to enjoy the city and then meeting a badass woman who will kick my ass and immediately falling in love with her. I hide my identity from her and she treats me like I'm a loser I'm a simp so it doesn't matter. I would then have a son with her and I would be so happy but the both of us got betrayed and she was then killed by poison while our son survives. And I'm sorry but i couldn't be there for our son bcs now i have to atone for the things that happened and he reminds me of my beloved wife so much for it to not hurt when i look at him.
SCULPTURES OF ANYTHING GOES AS OPENER FOR THEIR THIRD GLASTO HEADLINER
1. Sculptures
2. Brianstorm
3. Snap
4. Chair
5. Crying lightning
6. Teddy picker (when I get bent over?!! Alex!!!) https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ct4DUGpgtMn/?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== (it’s rather ‘ya’ but we can pretend)
7. Cornerstone (I knew she’d understand instead of thought/she didn’t say that whooo, I just added that for you you’re welcome)
Interlude something about water by Alex on the piano (get this man his water he’s thirsty)
8. Why’d you only call me when you’re high (having mad instead of bad ideas/ plus epic pose)
Shout out by Alex for Space pictures
9. Arabella
10. Four out of five (loving butt slap for Cookie by Alex/ why don’t you come and stay with ME/ effective very effective what a night what a night, yeah man)
Smiling Alex
Angelic Alex
11. Pretty visitors (now’s me chance x3= rushing off to bowl and it’s a strike= happy little Alex jumping back on stage and then his mic was shut off for a sec there 🤣)
12. Fluorescent Adolescent (some kisses and a thank you from Alex)
Oh god he looks so baby in that picture
13. Perfect sense (another thank you 🥹)
Pouty mouth (he does look tired)
14. Do I wanna know (afterwards “astonishing”/ how are you feeling everybody *cheers* well I’m delighted about that)
15. Mardy Bum (thank you/ alright let’s leave the past behind)
16. There’d better be a mirrorball (conductor Alex at the beginning/ hey HEY at the end)
17. 505 (without Miles 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭his first note sounded so unsure/ the in ears only now getting removed gotta be a new record/ thank you for having us everybody it’s the Arctic monkeys/ so predictable I know what you’re thinking whoo)
18. Body Paint
Encore
19. I wanna be yours (Matt and backup sang and played I wanna be yours (second verse)while Alex sang STAR TREATMENT (first verse)/ thank you thank you very much) (for a second we had “Miles” there)(the Glastonbury special surprise; also genius move to reclaim IWBY from TikTok by hijacking it with TBHC)
A video of that beautiful medley
“Who are you gonna call the Martini police the who?”
20. I bet you look good on the dance floor (Matt having mic problems and some vocal ones aswell(sounded like a scratchy throat))
“We are gonna leave you now we can’t stay with you anymore but fank you for having us something tells me…something tells me that you’re gonna be okay good night”
21. R U MINE?
I mean I know it’s basically literally their normal concert playlist apart from that I wanna be yours/ star treatment medley (which was out of this world 🌚;)) but I still loved it apart from that heartbreak with 505 cause honestly don’t care what they play I’m still loving it and having a blast, great tunes great vocals an amazing night spent in front of the laptop screaming along (what if they had planned a different set list (in 2013 Alex said “that’s what we’re gonna do tonight everyone. we are gonna play some new shit. We’re gonna play some old shit. We are gonna play some things that are just Glastonbury specials, do you know what I’m saying”) but due to Alex falling sick they didn’t have time to practice so they settled for their usual setlist?) (genuinely feel sorry for Elton John and his humongous set cause i doubt that anybody can scream along on Sunday still)
And I love how all the real fans can easily agree that it was a fantastic gig while the TikTok fans and dark fruit lovers are whining in their mum’s basement how they didn’t just play do I wanna know and snap out of it in 10 different versions and how dare Alex that his voice and taste in music evolved and that they didn’t try and emulate the phenomenal, seminal career changing Glasto 2013 🤣🤣
WARNING !! do not look at the comments 🤢 you don’t wanna see that shitshow that some ‘fans’ pull but I guess some people just can’t be satisfied cause their own lives are so shit that they have to lash out at whoever is available
… there are 2 testament centric chapters id love to scan even just for my own enjoyment but the thought of taking these books apart makes me sad. Maybe if i just. Squish it down hard enough itll look okay. I just want to have new testament images
reasons I've gravitated to Attack on Titan and Shion's fic in no particular order:
misogyny seems to be the exception rather than the norm (like who has time for that when monsters walk the earth solely obsessed with eating people)
refreshingly chill acceptance of queer characters and relationships; for example, the number of characters who question Hange's gender is exactly zero (in the manga, at least; the anime adaptation made Hange look more like a woman and I will forever ignore that; at least Park Romi does a freaking perfect job voicing them)
the politics fascinate me
angst potential is off the charts
ODM gear (a steampunk-inspired means for short-term flight and rapid direction changes while wielding swords?! that aesthetic is hot af)
older characters have prominent roles
I get to explore "what if" scenarios -- I find canon to be pretty damn fascinating, for characters and for plot (yes even the ending), but there's a specific endgame divergence that I crave
related to the above, there are so many unnamed characters who could have larger roles with just slight tweaks (I headcanon that in the original story, Shion was one of many soldiers who died when Shiganshina was first invaded)
I really really like Hange and their force-of-nature personality
sometimes I wish I could be half as blunt as Levi; it can be super gratifying to write his responses in a conversation
I'm 110% convinced that Levi is aspec, specifically demisexual and demiromantic, so I craaaaaaaave nuanced and careful depictions of this facet of his character (I'm terrified I won't do that justice)
"what if a character tried to seek joy in a crapsack world?" Shion is one answer to this question; my Wardens and Shepards don't have personalities or backgrounds conducive to purposefully seeking joy, so I wanted to dive into an OC who started with this idea as a motivator and figure out how their journey would unfold as a result (it's an idea I want to live by; exploring it through fic helps me process how to approach it in reality)
why didn't I just write existing characters to do this? I wanted to play with my faves, and despite the joy Hange feels when studying Titans, neither they nor Levi could realize this ideal without going OOC, haha
The one question I can't answer is why on earth did this obsession return now with such force? 😅 Perhaps it doesn't matter as long as it buoys more than harms my mental health~