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urlocallesbiab · 1 year

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for a long time i couldn't settle on a precise timeline of when exactly do dirk and todd each fall in love and then realize the feelings, and what do they do about it, and now i think some things have finally clicked into place

for dirk, it's the instant he meets him. it's a nebulous feeling then, somewhere between boundless excitement about a new friendship and a giddy crush, too large and joyous to be fully examined and understood; it simply is, and it's fuck-off happy.

throughout the next few days, he gets pangs, deep and fluttering and breath-catching pangs, when todd agrees, helps out, acts brave, accepts, when todd chooses him, despite everything; but it doesn't fully settle until that day in the woods. they're so close, having actually great time, side by side; they nearly die together; todd's hands are soft on his face — and it washes over him, crystal clear, decisive, as he sees this man stand before him in full light, open and honest and ugly and trusting and raw, the truth simply reveals itself to dirk: "i am in love with this man. i love him."

but still, it's more of a friendship to him at that point; having a friend is so new, incredible, mind-blowing, and todd's platonic affection is so dizzyingly tangible, and "i am your friend" is everything dirk could have ever wanted in his entire life. he is perfectly, absolutely happy, and honestly doesn't wish for anything else.

then he's alone; he's alone for quite a while, and he begins to want. he fantasizes about what he can't have, and since he can't have anything, he thinks about everything — his desires reach further, encompass more; the dreams grow more frequent, more tender, closer. "he's perfect" with a hopeless, breathy, utterly-in-love edge to it.

and finally they meet, and god, the want does not go away. s1 is a crush developing into a bright, sure love, and s2 is love developing into a lovesickness; s2 is when dirk pines. he casts yearning looks after todd; can't help but think, forlornly, unthankfully, "oh, but what if he kissed me. what if he kissed me. oh, please, please"; reaches out to catch todd's hand and never does; puts space between them, bristle and brittle and too-close-to-something; hopeless. he gets awfully drunk, professes undying love, makes out with todd harder than he ever did in his whole life, and in the morning pushes it all away and under the rug; it was all magic, wasn't real, didn't count — not in the way dirk wanted it to count. and then altogether too many awful things happen, and he mostly worries about that.

when todd is back by his side, it is such awesome undescribable joy, there's no space for anything else; they're alive, alive, alive! and they scramble to stay alive quite a bit, after that. when dust and horror and otherworld strings settle, it's neither peaceful acceptance nor painful longing; dirk is happy, warmly fully brightly soaringly happy, and also hopeful. he wants some things for himself. he's not fully sure how to go about that, but he does, and he will.

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for todd, there’s not a certain moment of falling; it's all a mess, frankly, a whirlwind, an ugly mix of apprehension and annoyance and hatred and trust and excitement and lies and truth; it's too much to think about. he doesn't have a perfect understanding, or a good label, but he does have a ratty t-shirt, a dry mouth and a swoopy stomach, determination, and some earnest words. "i'm here because i'm your friend," — whatever it might mean between them. it means everything.

then it's even worse of a mess, despair, sleepless nights, running, chasing, some shapeless feeling haunting him, some vague suspicion rising in his stomach, restless, a romance growing and snapping, settling into a soft "lets not talk about it", some vague suspicion tensing in his chest and lungs, something, almost; and then, somewhere inbetween seeing dirk in the middle of some fucking field and losing his mind with delirious glee so badly he just screams, and making an indignant face at the question of "you blew up life for this?" (what, like he wasn't meant to? like there ever was another option? like there's any life worth living that isn't this?) — somewhere inbetween that, it becomes, suddenly and fully, so very clear. he is in love.

it's a simple feeling, one he doesn't examine, because there's not much to examine; it's bright as day, calm, steady, existing. he doesn't feel guilty about it, or conflicted, or pained: frankly, he's got more important things to worry about. he folds his hands around dirk like a hurt bird, gentle, careful, gives him space but coaxes him out, confronts but comforts him, plays their little jokes and gives their grand speeches, stays just behind and dashes forward, saves him, saves him, saves him, with all he's got. he speaks his mind for dirk, honest (almost; to the plea of "why, why, why—", "this is all for amanda" is a good lie, an almost-truth, stable, a reasonable choice). he does, with all his heart, the right thing.

even when they kiss, he almost doesn't feel guilty — if he scrunches his eyes real hard, he can nearly convince himself that it's all magic's fault, that things happen, that dirk has (should have) probably forgotten, that it's alright; that he shouldn't bother his best friend with all these weird feelings when dirk's mentally struggling and that he won't, that it's okay, really. soon enough, he's got much worse things to worry about; and much worse things to actually feel shameful over.

when dirk swoops back to save his life, radiant, this gets maybe a little bit harder to control. it's still devotion, steeled, forged, but maybe a little more fervent, with grasping touches and unchecked decisions and unfiltered words; affection spills out of him, unbound, bold, feverish, when he looks dirk in the eyes. it's unclear whether dirk sees it or not; it doesn't matter at all.

they emerge utterly victorious. they celebrate, and hold each other, and todd doesn’t have the space anymore to pretend that he would choose anyone, anytime, over dirk. the future before them is unpredictable but so hopeful, so promising, and he feels alright, truly, actually alright; and his inhibitions feel maybe a little bit cracked under the exultant weight of everything, and especially dirk's hand. he'll figure it out, he guesses. honesty is the game.

and i don't know yet what'll happen in my version of s3, but that’s for Sure the season where they confess and get together, though not without drama, obviously — a lot of drama, as is due.

#dghda #dirk gently's holistic detective agency (tv 2016)#brotzly #dirk gently #todd brotzman #dghda meta #(i think?)#vikarambles #vika's personal dghda tag #i love me some run-on sentences it's a stylistic choice #ugh i just wanted to jot down some timeline points but it grew into some vague Writing Piece and took 2 hours to write down #and now ive got only 4 hours to sleep before the alarm. good fucking lird #these gay men will be the death of me #writing

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mwagneto · 6 months

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FUNNIEST WAY TO DESCRIBE THIS SHOW

#WHY DONT YOU AS A MAN FIND TREASURES IN OTHER MEN AND MAYBE YOU'LL CALM DOWN !!!#literally obsessed with this oh my goddddd #me when the show about gay men is described as a show about gay men 🤯#<- copying that from dms coz like OMGGGJFJJGJFFJ.... men will literally love each other #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #our flag means death

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softbeanofexistentialcrisis · 9 months

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the way alex is fucking blushing, an uncharacteristic look on his face

the way alex looks down, as henry looks up

THE WAY LIGHT COMES FROM HENRY TO ILLUMINATE ALL OF ALEX'S SMILE

fellas i don't think I'm surviving this im gonna be frank with you

#red white and royal blue #rwrb movie #henry fox mountchristen windsor #alex claremont diaz #firstprince #nicholas galitzine #taylor zakhar perez #Prince henry #queer book #gay men be the death of me what else is new

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pinetreevillain · 6 months

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Meatgrinder Part 13: END

THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO HAS ENJOYEd DEATH OF ME: MEATGRINDER THIS OCTOBER! It was a personal project, one I’ve had since 2016, and I’m REALLY REALLY happy I was able to soend time on it to such wonderful and warm reception :D i hope to be abke to continue DoM next october :)

Etsy, Patreon, Ko-fi

#my art #comic #halloween comic #death of me #meatgrinder #father ross #sol #demonic possession #demon #gay men

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bevsi · 8 months

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my Japanese teacher asked me if I watched Nana

#bevfoolery #it’s good but not gay enough for me ok. Listen. I’m frustrated to death by the men in it

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gaypirateslife4me · 3 months

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This is my Roman Empire.

(Pic credit: https://www.instagram.com/p/CszNjBESxRh/?igsh=MTRmdWhiZWhwOGxscw==

And huge, massive thank you to @jazz-penguin for tracking down the original source - you're a real one!)

#con o’neill #kayvan novak #ofmd #our flag means death #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #roman empire #tiktok speak #ask me my type in men #its this picture #thank you Taika #vampirates gay workplace romance comedy #it sells itself

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mazyb0i · 1 month

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Autistic lovesick boyfriend surprises adhd touchy boyfriend with a waist hug 💚💙

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its-malarkey · 2 months

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I finally finished Death Mark 2. Good game, good game :))

#I wanna talk about it so baaaaad but no one I know plays Death Mark #and I don’t wanna spoil it for the people that are still going through it #BUT GOD ITS KILLING ME I WANNA TALK ABOUT IT #yashiki did not disappoint. mashita did not disappoint. i loved seeing them interact #I love my two gay men #and from what I’ve gathered it takes place 4 months after death mark #AND AROUND THE ENDING OF NG #I haven’t looked at the extra content in detail but I think it’s just a little teaser for stuff to come #maybe DLC??#BUT it’s set us up for a crossover with NG!!!#death mark 2 #death mark #yashiki kazuo #kazuo yashiki #satoru mashita #yashita #spirit hunter ng #shibito magire

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sonnetforbonnet · 4 months

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"Works for spiders, works for men" is kind of a metal line, right? That's not just me? I audibly exclaimed "oh shit" after Stede said that.

Honestly, that whole episode had me cheering from the moment Stede escaped from the rope to the moment he closed the curtains. I love incompetent Stede, but competent Stede is where my heart lives. Get off my ship, unhand me or bleed, we're taking back the Revenge... someone get the goddamn smelling salts.

#our flag means death #ofmd #our flag means gay #stede bonnet #works for spiders #works for men #but what works for me is stede taking care of business

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friendlyneighborhoodkobold · 7 months

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I AM SO FUCKING SICK OVER THEM. LIKE OMFG!!! Please my little gay heart can’t take this PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD GIVE ME WHAT THEY HAVE.

#our flag means death #screaming #omfd spoilers #omfd season 2 #our flag means gay #i’m so fucking gay #please for the love of god someone kiss me like that #omfd s2 #omfd #gay men

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edgygayguy · 1 year

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Manslut, manwhore even

Link to artist here: https://www.pixiv.net/users/26829615

#not my art obv #I'm truly tragic #Cap rarely gets fanart thats just him #he's always with the major or sum #and then Pip is always with Seras or the hellsing crew #let me enjoy my men separately from their more important plot wise characters #hellsing #hellsing ultimate #hellsing ova #hellsing fanart #not my art #fanart #pip bernadotte #gay #gay as hell #it's been a while since I made a post with so many tags #anyways if you're down here please peay with me for more solo pip love #i love you to death Seras but please let your malewife go and play outside #*pray smh

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caeran · 6 months

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Dead captain and sad lieutenant :(

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skellydun · 1 year

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the amount of times I've almost accidentally sent people my gay zombie apocalypse story instead of their workshopped resume is way too many times for me to be comfy 👍🏻

#me: im 3 resumes behind i can do tHIS covid brain work #my laptop: attach recent file?#me: sure it has to be their resume right i just worked on it #my laptop: it cant be gay men fighting for their lives surely #me: surely #me two seconds later: RECALL EMAIL RECALL EMAIL #lots of love i wish for death 🤟🏻💕❤️

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mwagneto · 7 months

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the fact that almost every character in ofmd is specifically a gay man is seriously so fucking special like usually a show will have 1 character from a minority group and then that character has to be every single thing - a person the straight/homophobic audience can accept and even like, someone that deals with their issues the way they "should" be dealt with, someone who's not too much of anything but simultaneously everything because every expected trait has to be displayed at some point or another.... versus this show with its massive cast of characters who are all able to embody specific (and extremely varying) ways to be a gay man where all of their journeys and personalities and approaches to their sexualities are so unique to them but so true to people that exist in real life........ i wish i could express this better coz it's such an incredible thing to see it genuinely makes my chest hurt with how much it means to me

#I'm literally forever thinking about that interview lauren faust gave abt how cartoons will #usually only have 1 girl and then that 1 girl has to be every single thing #like she has to be smart and kind and athletic and loud and pretty and cool and funny and every other trait ever #so when she got to make MLP she finally got a chance to have an all girl main cast and that #gave her the chance to make them really feel like unique people because they finally #had the space to just exist as girls without having to be The Girl. so they could have like. specific personalities #LIKE IT'S LITERALLY THAT BUT W GAY MEN IT MAKES ME SO ILL...... IM GATHERING ALL OF THEM IN MY ARMSSS #i really really wish i could explain this better #like omg when izzy is telling lucius how to deal w his issues they're both gay. when ed is reminiscing w fang they're both gay.#literally clawing at the walls they all mean so much to meeeeeeeee #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd meta #i guess ????????#also YES i know there's characters that arent gay men but that's kinda part of my point too #like even in media where there's more than 1 token lgbt person they're always #different identities coz the writer needs 2 different things to explore #instead of exploring how 2 people with the same identity might differ in a thousand little ways #and they also always lose that sense of belonging together that's so essential here #like ohhhmy gof oh mygod they're literally all gay in some way. massive found family of gay ppl....#it's just that i think this show is mostly abt exploring themes of masculinity and mlm so most of the cast being gay men makes cents

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celestialholz · 1 year

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So, The Harvest...

Oh, you thought I wasn't coming back for you after spending five hours on Surrendering Sunflora, did ya? Thought you were slipping under my radar? Guess again, my spicy little friend...

The Harvest is of course Brassius' other named Artazon sculpture, and it tells its own compelling narrative, because... well, of course it does, have I taught you all nothing? Imagine this guy does something straight for 0.3 of a second.

Fellow gay theorist mini Holz will be demonstrating these for you today:

For simplicity's sake, we'll call these A, B and C respectively. Now, I've commented before that C is the perfect example of The Harvest being part-Brass, part-Hass and part-Arboliva, because of its colours, spikiness and form, but what's a story with only its ending?

And so, if one must be relevant to types, so must the others.

This is, as were the Sunfloras, allegorical. I've had to take the meanings from these, as representations of their types. But I've said it before and I'll say it again - this is what artists do, and this is also what people who makes game do. They ask you to consider their minds at the time of creation, and that's kinda of my whole deal, ripping that shit open like it's a goddamn Christmas present.

We start, therefore, with A. A's colours represent the Fire and Electric types - a passion, a spark, a zest and a joy in living. In colour theory, yellow is happiness, and red is fire - a blaze of emotion. And yet, it's circled by pale blue 'olives' - in Pokemon terms, the Ice type, and a type our dear Brassie is weak to. This is his beginning - creativity, smothered by the cold of depression. We know he was saved by Hass, which leads us to...

... B. B is saturated now in Ice - the cold has crept in, the depression and illness is defining him more than the joy in art. Except... now it's joined by pink. And this pink is damn close to the Psychic type, a type filled with knowledge, mental strength, and sunshine allegories - Solgaleo and Solrock, anyone? Or, you know, a man who looks far too much like a Sunflora...

B, therefore, is Brass finding Hass, at his lowest ebb. Hass is getting under his skin, showering him in praise, showing him that he's worth all the self-belief and self-confidence in the world, healing him... which is where the Dragon-type indigo comes in. This time, Hassel orbits him; he circles the outside, understanding, encouraging, boosting that mental strength by showing Brass how worthy and brilliant he is. Which leads to only one conclusion...

... C. C is harmony. C is the man we find before us in the game, the end product of all that boosting, all of Hassel's kindness - the confident, established artist, the man who has allowed colour and vibrance back into his life, orbited now once again by Electric olives - the spark's back. They almost look like miniature suns. Imagine that...

Grass and Dragon, in perfect complement.

Where this gets even more fascinating is that whilst you can find several versions of each colour variant in Artazon, the first place you encounter them is in the central plaza - and whilst A and B host a confused couple, each wondering where their love is...

... C stands separate, unconcerned.

Because C? C is anything but alone. It doesn't need one to wonder where the other is - they're right here, and they always will be.

Just to put the cherry on the cake of this adorable saga, though, we must head a town over. Game Freak so deep in their lore mini Holz has to cross Paldea to piece it together. Fucking spectacular, you funky little company.

Welcome to the central plaza of Levincia instead, where we find this homosexual lassooing his own C on a digital ad board with his own whip. And what's he lassooing it away from? The purple - or, in this case, the Poison type.

... You know, that one type that infects, that creates toxicity. One of those other types Grass is weak to. Nothing toxic will destroy this harmony, not on this man's watch; he will never regress back to the darkness and the depression whilst he has that Dragon beside him, whilst that spark remains.

#ephemeralartshipping #hassius #hassel x brassius #hassel #brassius #pokemon scarlet and violet #... these men will be the fucking death of me #that moment when you realise artazon is even MORE OF A LOVE LETTER than you thought it was #this is why this game is glitchy as fuck #the devs were too busy crafting flawless gay lore #they're so valid

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pdqsketch · 5 months

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Hello folks! I found this old scene acted by Antonio Banderas, and I thought it'd be fun to do a little Puss in Boots storyboard to it!

Audio: "Delirios de Amor" (Delusions in Love)

#puss in boots #pib #puss in boot the last wish #the last wish #death #wolf #furry #storyboard #gay #it's funny cause like #i don't even really ship these two?#but the audio just kinda worked out so well that it's whatever lol #and i get to draw men kissing so it's a win for me :)#Youtube

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