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I keep forgetting to draw…

Also I never knew that there was even a single color photograph of my grandparents' wedding in 1952. I've only ever seen the ones in black and white. Don't they look beautiful? Didn't I just come from the most gorgeous people?

don' dweeblog

#the one mass fanon I do NOT buy is how the malpractice dept is found family. #have you. SEEN this show?????

i have seen this show and i can say without a doubt that the malpractice department is definitely found family. because i know what their families are like.

saw an old lady on the bus with bright blue eyeshadow on that was smudged off on one eyelid like she had rubbed her eye and forgotten she had eyeshadow :-) reminds me of my great grandmother

fit of horrible sobbing so full of mucus i had to emergency strip and use my sleep shirt as a gigantic hanky. i do not feel better and have a pit in my stomach that won't leave but at least i am dealing with grief in real time for once instead of locking it away for several years however it does feel like the vault busted open and now im dealing w like. all of it at once. so that's cool

just rambling about what’s happening, sorry i don’t remember how to do the read more on pc it’s been just a lil over a week since my mom got admitted to a hospital, in that time my partner’s grandma ended up in one as well. but for different reasons. we will get more info tomorrow about her. i’m seeing my mom again tomorrow, i already was visiting her 3 times. i will try to call a doc but i think she might be on a leave, was 2 days ago at least... nobody else can give me more info sadly. she’s been a bit worse last time i saw her that’s why i wanted to talk. but overall i think she went there at the right time, her episode wasn’t as intense and wasn’t going into abstract concepts or self harm. i was def more prepared this time and not everything was falling down on my head but it’s still hard and i’m still tired and stressed. i remain hopefull as always, this is the only thing i have left. also my partner supporting me so much everyday is huge help. idk what i would do without him. and everyone being kind to me and buying my art and all... it’s rly so much and i can’t thank everyone enough. i wish i had energy to do some gift art but i barely have time or energy for my work. 

Aita if I stop being loyal/loving towards my brother after he repeatedly joked about how I control our dad and “keep him on a leash”? (Our dad has dementia and I’m his sole caretaker)

verdict: no. if he wants to have a say in how your dad is taken care of, then he can step up and contribute. and if you don't want to hear jokes about it he should stop? just seems like the decent thing to do.

Hot take, but Mother's Day is for mothers and mother figures. It's not for single dads, 'cause they already get their own day (the same goes for single mothers on Father's Day). It's not for pet owners, 'cause taking care of a pet isn't the same thing as raising a child. It's not for deadbeat or abusive mothers, because they suck. It's not for women who want to be mothers, but are not yet/have never acted as a mother figure to anyone. And it's not for women who have no desire or plans to become a mother, but want to be recognized because they feel left out. Mother's Day is for women who did the work to fill the role of a mother in someone's life, whether they are their biological mother or not. And a person's inclusion in being celebrated today should be determined by the person/people for whom they acted as a mother, and not by random strangers trying to make sure everyone feels included on a day that isn't for everyone. Not everyone wants to celebrate Mother's Day, and that's okay. They can just not celebrate. You don't have to contort the meaning of the day to make sure everyone gets a reason to participate. If your mother sucks and there's no one else in your life who stepped up and acted as a mom for you, you don't have to wish anyone a happy Mother's Day. You can just order Chinese food.

lars- n. e. ways

best brownies in the known universe (at least, according to my grandma)

some year and a half ago when i was getting ready to move out i combed through all the family recipes that lay lost to time and one of the ones that i found was my grandmas brownie recipe. idk where she got it from (nor can i ask cause she has dementia) and its a printed out email she sent to my mom in june 2000. but by george these the best brownies i have ever tasted. would she be pleased that i am sharing this recipe with my vast following? absolutely.

YOU WILL NEED:

5 tablespoons butter (unsalted) 1 ounce unsweetened baking chocolate (or as much as your heart desires) 2/3 cup unsweetened good cocoa powder 1 cup sugar (white) (superfine preferred, normal works fine) 1 cup sifted white flour (can use gluten free) 1/2 teaspoon baking powder as much cinnamon as your heart desires (your heart needs to desire at least some cinnamon. its essential to the recipe) 3 egg whites 1 egg splash of vanilla extract (again, non negotiable step!)

preheat your oven to 325 degrees. grease a square baking pan (9x9 preferably).

in a small saucepan over medium heat melt the butter and baking chocolate. while that is melting, sift together the flour, baking powder and cinnamon into a small bowl. once the butter and chocolate is done melting add the cocoa powder and cook it together for 1 minute. add in the sugar and stir. it will get very thick. this is correct.

set that aside to cool. while thats cooling take a large bowl and put in your egg whites, egg and vanilla. beat it up with preferably a whisk but you can use a fork if youre fresh out of whisks. once the chocolate is cool enough to not scramble your eggs dump it in the eggs and mix it together. add the flour in gradually and keep mixing until its smooth and happy.

spread into your greased baking pan. put it in the oven for EXACLTLY 18 MINUTES. very crucial step. they will come out slightly under done. that is what we want. as they cool they will continue to cook in the pan. we dont want them to get hard and sad. they are not good when they are hard and sad. do not overbake them. you will be sad.

slice them up and as the official last step on the original recipe says: EAT ENJOY AND MAKE MORE! (theyre very good with mint chocolate chip ice cream)

Why did I have a bad/good dream at the same time 🗣️… well, the only good part about the dream was that Megan and I became friends trapped in a subway and ended up duetting r&b songs 🥺.

Uggggghhhhh

My grandad's back in hospital because he got worked up about my Nan's memory issues and then argued with my mom about her care and my mom's pissed off at my uncle as well because he and my grandad made plans without asking for my mom's input (who is the only medical professional in the family) or asking nan what she wanted and my nan is upset because she's scared and feels like it's all her fault for needing help um lmao it's probably a good thing we're not having Christmas dinner as a family this year

sooo glad im moving next month

Also I know its very hard to be a 911 operator and like ur trained to keep people calm and collected and to reassure people on the line it will all be okay but when i had to call for what i thought was an attempted break in she did not help whatsoever in fact i felt so much more stressed cause i didnt believe a word she said cause she sounded so unsure