179.9 lb

Down 2.4 from last week, down 16.3 overall, 0.4 behind goal after 11 weeks...

Wow, I actually did it. I bent the curve and got all the way to within a half pound of goal. There's advantages to using a rolling 7-day average for my measurement, ie not being so sensitive to natural daily fluctuations. But the downside is sometimes the numbers lag what actually is going on at the moment, ie a good or bad week is reflected a week late in the 7-day average.

So my bad week 9 wasn't fully reflected in the numbers heading into week 10, thus I was looking better than I actually was. Then my recovery in week 10 wasn't reflected in the numbers heading into week 11, thus I was looking worse than I really was. That's the story of the blue line over the past couple weeks.

Regardless, it feels good to see the 170s on the scale. It feels good to be down over 16 lb. My wife had an off week but is still seeing directionally decent results.

Only ran 4 times this week, 13.5 miles, on account of being sick, not counting the 1.5 mi 20 min run-walk I did with my daughter to start a 5K program with her. I am really leaning into optimizing for weight loss and not getting hung up on running mileage, I swear.

EGPA marginally better than last week at 3.29: Mon-Wed A-, Thu-Sun B, interesting daily splits. Restaurant food led to the B days. Still 16/8 and lower carb for the most part. Cheese is OK, a few squares of dark chocolate every other day or so, feel I'm eating in relatively sustainable way, alcohol notwithstanding.

No alcohol of for 11 weeks now, 77 days down, 22 to go, 3 weeks and a day to get to 99, wow!

With just 3 weeks to go, hitting my goal--losing nearly 5 lb in those 3 weeks,--will be tough, but here we go.

not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing ( aggressively codependent yet emotionally unavailable )

"We signed onto this job, we agreed to be public figures, but that does not make it okay to treat people like this little puzzle that they can rip apart and dissect."

"Anything that I post on my social media or I post about here, that's what I'm sharing. If you're seeking out something that I didn't, then I'm upset."

"I haven't talked about or posted about it for a reason."

it's a pet peeve of mine when ppl frame Andrew as hating Aaron and being needlessly cruel to him... bc while yes, their relationship is fractured and strained, Andrew genuinely cares about his brother and wants the best for him, he just doesn't know how to show that in a normal way.

like he might not know how to express it in a healthy manner but Andrew LOVES Aaron, like he truly just wants Aaron to be healthy and safe. It's like, his whole Thing. Aaron is one of the most important people in his life. Andrew wants him around. He'd do anything to protect him.

I guarantee Andrew wants to be emotionally close to Aaron too, he just doesn't have the tools to do that and the thought of letting someone in terrifies him. He also has no concept of what a healthy sibling relationship looks like, so he has no frame of reference to work from.

So Brook's hair remaining after death is absurd, because hair follicles don't extend into the skull, but with the power of devil fruit shenanigans I think it works

Something something pickpocketing is showmanship and slight of hand coming from a place of selfishness and callousness something something when we first meet Jack surgery is also showmanship and slight of hand, it's about the performance, the speed of the amputation is for prestige but it's coming from a place of genuine compassion - the faster the amputation the less pain it causes. Something something same skills different motive.

Multiverse's most mentally stable Sun

He's fine 😁 (lie)

My brother recently got into Demon Slayer so I wanted to make a kny oc for him since I did it before with both me and my sister and never got around to my brother :)

But I started by refreshing my own design because wow?? It’s been 4 years since I first made my kny insert character and a lot of things are now outdated! Not to mention my art has improved a lot, I hope. More details under the cut!

Meet Ebisu Koharu: youngest of the Ebisu family and physically the weakest. They only barely passed Final Selection by hiding for the entire week and surviving off tips from their older siblings. Nonetheless, they still want to contribute, which is why they hold onto a thick, leather bound book that records every demon they’ve ever met in precise detail, with labeled diagrams and scribbled calculations in the margins of different strengths and weaknesses.

After spending a few years on the job, and properly seeing their data contribute to the successes of other demon slayers, they’ve come a bit more into their own as a competent researcher and fighter, though they still do tend to request paired missions with friends and family to act more as a support role rather than a fighter.

The Ebisu family is one of scholars. The eldest daughter Kaoru is a doctor, and the eldest son Shougen is a chemist. By nature, fighting is not necessarily their strong suit, which is why their family breathing style and techniques are all poison-assisted. Of the three, Koharu is the weakest and most averse to combat— they wield a short half-length blade, with more of a smooth ceremonial hilt and sheath than any practical weapon.

182.3

Down 0.9 from last week, 1.3 behind goal after 10 weeks...

Still lost weight, more than I lost the week before, but fell further behind goal. But due to that bend in the curve the last few days, believe I have some positive momentum that could get me back closer to goal over the next few weeks.

My wife is still doing great but experiencing a similar slow down this week too. But we are in this together and will rally.

Ran 18 miles this week, ran 3.5 miles Mon/Tue/Wed/Fri, 4 on Sat, pretty ho hum. It's been so long since I've run long, I sort of stopped thinking about race goals, stopped watching half marathon pace strategy YouTube videos (they're all pretty much the same), now running videos aren't showing up as much in my feed. Started thinking more about strength training though.

EGPA improved slightly this week to 3.24, 0.1 better than last week, on par with two weeks, ago, about 0.2 worse than my performance the few weeks prior though. Struggled on the weekend a bit, mostly on account of convenience, busy soccer Saturday especially: Mon A-, Tue B+, Wed A-, Thu B+, Fri A-, Sat C, Sun B.

Still doing 16/8, still lower carb, still no alcohol, took it easy on the cheese, only shredded cheese on salads and bowls, no snacking on it, still no sweets but for two squares of dark chocolate (back up to 85% this week) after dinner a few times. Restaurant food out of convenience for the most part, we did go out as a family for Mexican on Sunday evening--not out of convenience, but more in a Treat Yo Self way--I did eat some chips, but I got a salad with chicken, not very Mexican, but pretty decent in terms of keeping me on track weight-wise.

10 week, 70 days without alcohol! We were giving amazing 4th row seats to the Orlando City game, came with unlimited food and drinks, food wasn't great, drinks included beer and wine, needless to say we didn't get our money's worth out of the beer and wine. Although a few beers would have been nice, it was also nice not feeling bloated, instead feeling comfortable in my clothes the whole time. On the walk back to the car, they were handing out free tickets to the minor league hockey game to get more people in the arena, we watched the 2nd period, I definitely wanted a beer there.

Thoughts running through my head heading into this next week, evening though my 7-day avg is 182.3, my ending weight was 181, if I kill it this week and lose 2 lb, end at 179, my 7-day avg should be near 180, only 0.5 behind goal. Let's go!

“I used to be a marine”, he says, before he can think better of it. And when he does think better of it, well. He’s already said it. 

Next to him, he can feel Shanks tensing up. He leaves him ample time to cut him off, half relieved when the redhead stays silent. Out of the corner of his eye, he sees him idly tracing the neck of the bottle they’ve emptied. 

“I didn’t join out of some misplaced faith or sense of justice”, he feels the need to point out, his father’s stern face at the back of his mind. “I joined because my brother did”. 

To have an excuse to get out of home, too. With Calugurul about to be shipped off, he hadn’t been too eager to find out if he could withstand the full scope of their father’s attention alone. 

“We were… close, my brother and I”, he continues. And then, because it feels cheap to encompass their relationship with just that: “He taught me to fight. Gave me my first sword”. 

Back when Yoru doubled him in height and he couldn’t fathom how his brother managed to wield it when he himself had trouble raising a simple steel sword.

“He did have faith in the cause”, he says after a moment. Under the night sky, Yoru stays black and void. Even the reflection of the small bonfire they’ve built evades it. “Quickly gained the trust of peers… and superiors”. 

The back of his throat tastes bitter. Why is he doing this? He doesn’t owe Shanks a single thing. Why is he wasting his time trying to appease the redhead’s stupid insecurity about him not joining his crew? 

He sighs. 

“My skills in combat kept me by his side through all of it. That is, until Gyorgy Thurzo became our captain”.  

Can the balanced dog trainers please stop fucking talking about positive reinforcement as if those dogs are not “obedience trained”? A majority of competition obedience dogs I know were trained with R+. Letting your dog wander on the end of a line because you want to do so does not = untrained. It is simply…a choice.

Enough discourse, I wanna post about headcanons

The Vees are a polycule to me, but in a way that I can't even explain without an entire slowburn fanfic (stay tuned. I'm a slow writer). But I will try.

Velvette:

I do adhere to the lesbian Velvette headcanon. She's dating Vox and still occasionally joins Valentino for a threesome with him. When she first joined the Vees, Velvette used to identify as bisexual (and still loves the bi flag colors the most) and all three of them used to date, before Velvette realized that she's a lesbian.

She and Vox are still dating, and they have an open relationship.

Vox:

Vox's response to Velvette coming out was, "So you're breaking up with Val?" Yes, his pronouns are he/him. No, he's not a man. He'd long shed the fleshy confines of humanity and gender along with it.

Vox is aspec, agender, autistic. To me. He's sex favorable of the 'I want to do it for my partner's enjoyment' flavor. Watching from cameras brings him just as much enjoyment, and he watches everything and everyone, living vicariously, a voyer through the screen. As a result of that, he's so so touched starved, but his sense of feeling is muted (the consequences of betraying flesh in favor of the machine). Soft touches to his synthetic skin don't really register, his sense of feeling restricted to mostly pressure and pain, so he's become a bit of a masochist in response because that's something physical.

Valentino:

He just likes sex. He chases pleasure in any form he can find, dopamine rushes from numerous drugs, orgasmic release, the rush of power from crushing someone underfoot. Anything and everything, he'll try it all. And none of it is really enough, so he'll never stop chasing more.

Valentino doesn't consider his relationship with Vox romantic, even if Vox totally does. They're friends, sure, business partners, absolutely, and fuckbuddies wherever Val is in the mood for it. But romance isn't Val's thing. That's hard work, and Val saves romancing for potential new hires he wants to sign a contract with. What Vox and he have is also written down on a contract, joining their businesses together too closely to be parted without blood, but it's not the same. Not to Val. So, he wouldn't call Vox his boyfriend, but he also wouldn't correct anyone who said they were. Vox is someone he can let his guard down with, one of the few people who would never want to get out of the contract their names are signed on. They work well together. That's better than any romance you can get in Hell, Val thinks.

Val and Velvette are catty besties. Pan/Lesbian solidarity and hostility all in one.

THE MONTAGE?? THE KISS?? THE FLASHBACKS?? THE👏DAM👏SMILE👏 SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP WHAT WAS THAT EPISODE I HAVE CHILLS LITERAL CHILLS ILL NEVER FIND ANOTHER PIECE OF MEDIA BETTER THAN THIS

its rly fascinating that when i want to talk about a specific brand of transphobia im an asshole for not phrasing it like a PR team.

but when baeddels are actively transphobic its "just talking about the transmisogyny they face" and its actually just fine that they use slurs meant to degrade and misgender to refer to trans men + use porn terms to talk about us despite saying that using porn terms to talk about them is transphobic and evil + oh they didn't mean it like that.

if i try to talk about transphobia its immediately "piss on the poor website" where every word is under criticism. but on the opposite end even using slurs or being openly transphobic earns some cheers and, well, rare opposition.

i didn't even tag my post with common searchable tags,, y'all just want to be mad because it's a lot more comfortable to see trans men under attack.

if you criticize a few trans women for transphobic behaviour that makes You transphobic for criticizing them. if they call you slurs and other above mentioned things they are not transphobic bc ofc its impossible to be transphobic to trans men.

it's called gousotsu because it's the reverse of sotsugyo - 'graduating' into adulthood - and the entire show is about satoko's attempt to escape this graduation by retreating back to the safety of childhood and how she's regressed in her attempt to heal from trauma.