"to cure it of sorrow would destroy it" minecraft what do u mean that pain hurts like hell but serves as a reminder that you are strong and alive despite it all and that sorrow changed you but it did not kill you and to take that away would destroy a crucial part of being human

I cannot find the original ask game post fam and determine who’s already asked what so let’s just go with 5 or 24

Hi!!! Trust me I could barely find it either (and who knows if this is the one you were talking about) but I’ll answer both because I can’t help it

5. How do you translate the world of Minecraft to fit into your fanfics when you keep the original setting?

THIS is actually one of my favorite things to do; worldbuilding in general is probably one of my favorite hobbies. I once created an au that was about tommyinnit waking up in an alpha world and has to survive. As he explored he slowly helps the world ‘update’ in a sense, either by encouraging or freeing spirits (his friends, this wasn’t fleshed out as much) or just by surviving. It culminated in him going to the end in a later update and talking to Phil (the end) and Kristin (the world) in a very ‘end poem esque’ conversation. The mechanics of Minecraft being thrown into a real life adjacent world is SO INTERESTING!! I have ideas for probably everything. The dragon, enchanting, animal mechanics, everything. The visuals I have of a Minecraft world in my head are magical and I’m really trying to learn how to paint bc I want to put it on paper SO BAD. Trust me I could rant about this forever especially if I had specific questions. I want to write that fic idea (maybe with Tommy, maybe with someone else since that interest has mostly died down) someday if I can, but I think just the idea of being a player, being love, because the world loves you, is such a magical concept that I wish would be explored world. I also have really fun apocalypse theories for Minecraft because wouldn’t that be so cool (THE BONES. THE FUCKING BONES)

Also I highly reccomend reading Minecraft: the island. It was written by the same guy who wrote World War Z and it fantastically explores the idea of a normal person ending up in Minecraft in ways that feel just so realistic. Hilarious read.

24. What work would you like to talk more about

Oooh that’s hard. I only have one ‘real’ wip rn (shoutout @thesentientmango your a real king) bc with real life everything else has taken a back burner, but I have like six main wips from when I was in the dsmp fandom that I hold close to my heart. But also another one based on the song For the Departed by Shayfer James.

It’s about grian who used to be a watcher but ran away to escape that life once he formed connections with people (evo) and has been in hiding in hermitcraft. One day the watchers fine him, but sensing his desperation they offer him a choice. Either he comes with them, back to his family, or he can stay here with these humans, but he must take part in the watchers and their stories that they will do with his friends (which Grian is well aware what the watchers can and will do). He goes with the second, condemning his friends to torture, because he can’t stand to leave them behind and join the watchers. This begins the life series and every winner gets to keep a much clearer memory of the games (the games are like a fever dream during and after). And then scar wins, and finds out what Grian did, and the watchers find out scar knows, and offer him the same choice Grian did. Wonder what scar took huh

Anyways I probably shouldn’t have ranted about that au bc this post is LONG but I can’t help it. The song is revolutionary I highly recommend and let me know what you think of my aus (wow I ranted about two in one post crazy)

while no one except mobius will ever actually know everything about the ending ur pretty much right on the money about the eye (do play eote when u get the chance cause it goes more into depth on what ur already talking about and its hard to try and talk more about the eye without spoiling the dlc) but going off what is known in the base game: i think the eye isnt really sentient itself and it doesn't have any intent at all. neither malicious or good, its just The Eye and presumably it has been responsible for the creation of multiple universes and will be for multiple more, BUT YET when the hatchling chooses to observe it and create the next universe, the hatchling responded to their world with love so it makes sense the eye would respond back with that same love. because to me its like a reflection of the observer, like if u hadnt met solanum in game there would be no new life in the new universe since the hatchling only ever knew their own species. the new universe is a reflection of what the hatchling knows and cares about, so while i personally dont believe the eye is conscious its still like a connection to the universe itself. i think what really showed this to me is during the ending when everything goes dark and u end up face to face with urself. its self love (seeing urself), its love of friends and family (everyone around the campfire), its love of the universe itself and the universe loves u back (seeing the birth of the next universe). its like the minecraft end poem: u are the universe talking to and loving itself and thats kinda what the game is all about

ohhhh i love this insight.... sorry it probably took me a couple days to see it but yeah what you say about the eye relfecting how hatchling approaches those around them makes a lot of sense!! i actually hadnt made the connection that thats why meeting solanum changes the ending scene slightly. thank you for sharing your thoughts sm!

AND YEAH ive been meaning to play EotE for ages, ive had it in my library for literal months atp but unfortunately im in senior year and it has been kicking my ass so im waiting til summer.... ik the game will make me insane again for weeks and i cannot afford that time investment rn

minecraft end poem ALWAYS goes hard

Remember Orange is The New Black? Not to comment on the quality of the show or the characters in it but there is a scene that stuck to me. It's when the characters give their 2 cents on love and among them is Lorna Morello. And she goes "oh i know so much about love!" But then her face drops and she goes silent. And she is not a particularly good character from a pretty bad show but still that vibe is just something that resonated with me.

I firmly believe that love is the point. Because it really is! And love surrounds everyone I think in many forms, even of a lot of the time we simply just cannot notice it or open up our heart to it. Receiving love is just as much of a skill as learning how to give it. And i might be sentimental but the world itself, while so full of hatred and pain is also ultimately about love too and care and endurance. (Like in the Minecraft end poem.... The universe IS love! It is both caring and uncaring.)

And since I started looking at the world like this and seeking the love around me I started to notice it too. It's things like people remembering things you said or liking the art you made but it's also in seeing strangers happy. It's noticing animals on the street. It's looking at the sky or sea. But even then I just know more firmly than I ever knew anything that I just simply lack love in my life.

I'm not miserable, at least not always and not with good reason. My family loves me unconditionally, at least the part of it that matters. I have friends who understand me on a deep intimate level which is, i know, incredibly rare. I have several people at the institution i study at who are mentoring me and care about my career and my success. And it feels like it should be enough but it's not.

I'm a fundamentally lonely person. I have been lonely, like incredibly lonely for a long time and it just left it's mark on my life on such a deep level where I'm simply not sure if I will truly ever feel not-lonely. And this loneliness has filled me what it feels like a sea of sorrow that even if I'm happy will eventually come back and prevent me from fully enjoying life.

And at the core of this loneliness is what I thought was my utter lack of friends but then I made friends and they do love me but it's STILL there. And while I'm trying to not to think about it's becoming simply too hard to ignore, but what i really miss in life is romantic love. And I'm getting older now and it's starting to bother me more and more that nobody really loved me before in a romantic way. Like at this point i just feel like there is just something wrong with me, that perhaps I'm just not meant to share that kind of love with another person.

So while I do believe love is the point I'm starting to accept that there are types of love that I was never meant to experience. And that makes it difficult for me to stay happy or positive or even hopeful...

About a year ago, I wrote things about my ex that weren’t true. I was just so fucking numb I didn’t know what tf was going on. About a year ago, she was with Alyssa. And Alyssa dmed me telling me I was treating Taylor like shit and I was saying things I shouldn’t be saying. At the time I was hanging out with Shannen and I told Alyssa I was taken, which she didn’t believe. I mean I wasn’t taken. I lied. I lied about everything because I felt like everyone was better off without me but at the same time I didn’t want to feel like I did anything wrong. I was such a shit person. I still can’t believe who I was a year ago. Last year I started my med school rotations. I was happy with Taylor. Then something changed and I just became depressed and I refused to admit I needed help. We broke up. Of course that wasn’t all my fault. But the rest of it was. I couldn’t give Taylor space. I fucking wrote her a love poem. I fucking stalked her on twitter and tumblr. I would type her name in on Snapchat and ig to see if she unblocked me. Everything was a fucking mess. I was a fucking mess. I was so depressed. Not even the gym could help. I was eating like shit and too depressed to workout because I couldn’t stand to be in my own head. But then I got help. I got meds. And I worked on myself. I got better. I tried to heal. But once that started, I realized all of the ducking mistakes I made were it’s Taylor. I saw how shit and wrong I was and all I wanted was her back. Then randomly in November, i was checking like I always did to see if I was still blocked and I wasn’t. I remember writing on here that I wouldn’t reach out to her after everything that happened in hopes she was still reading this and would reach out. That same night I was dreaming about her and tbh I love dreaming about her because it’s like the only connection I have left. But that night it was like 1am. She followed me and dmed me. I thought maybe this was our chance. The next day or maybe a couple days later she asked what I was doing. She randomly called me and we talked for a few hours. Right after that I had therapy and I knew I still loved her. I wanted to tell her so bad. So i did and she didn’t say anything. I tried so hard not to care. But eventually I just pretended like nothing happened. We started dming more everyday. We started being friends on switch and playing Minecraft together and we would talk on the phone. Then over thanksgiving she went to Arizona where I’m assuming she met her current girlfriend. I told her I loved her again. She didn’t say anything. About a week later she wrote me back. I still have that screenshot to this day, 8 months later. It was during the World Cup and all I said was that it was ok. She said she rooted for Messi for me and I said thanks. Then she started posting about Jackie more. One of the hardest things I did was to unfollow her. Eventually I went back to Illinois and I had a rough few weeks. I felt shitty. But eventually I started making new friends and going out more. I became happy. I met J who ended up being my girlfriend. I mean I asked her to be my girlfriend. I told her I loved her first. She visited me in Philly. I’m visiting her in Chicago in a few weeks. We talk about living together and all I can think is why do I feel more brave now to be with my girlfriend than I did with Taylor. Of course it was because taylor was my first girlfriend well my first relationship and I didn’t know what to do. But lemme say I haven’t gone one fucking day without thinking about her. We matched and talked on Snapchat in December 2020. I remember seeing her stories when she was in Greece randomly. I remember always liking when she would check out my story. Then when we matched again September 2021 and started talking again, i was in shock about how it was turning out. We don’t follow each other on ig but not a day goes by where I don’t randomly type in her name. Not a day goes by where I don’t miss her. Not a day goes by where I low key hope they break up because I want her back. That won’t change. It will never change.

and the universe said “i love you”

still thinking about the minecraft poem. it's so wild that it came from minecraft like fr fr. like on one hand, super fitting of pcnj of all people to recite, but on the other, like... did they know it goes fucking hard at the end? like did the developers know just how raw the ending passage of the poem is? like jesus. man. streamer pcnj probably cried when he first got to the credits blind. probably the first words of loving affirmation he ever got that meant anything to him, and then along comes pico being the second person to do so

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wuh oh! oh no! whoopsies! aw beans! dang dang diggity dangadang! fuck you minecraft!

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"and the universe said i love you because you are love."

Those words were the only time he felt a sort of warmth from being told, "I love you".  Funny, really, when he craved affection his entire life, only to never receive it proper.

Funnier still, that the first time he hears those words meant genuinely for him that it's from a video game of all things.

He doesn't uninstall Minecraft after that.  Never deletes his first save.  The feeling just doesn't hit the same when he completes the game on a different file.  Likewise, he didn't think he'd ever hear those words said to him proper.

"I love you."

Such a simple set of words, and yet he yearns for them like nothing else.  And at the same time, he becomes picky with which he comes to value those words.  It doesn't hit the same when fans declare their love for him.  Yet he hears it all the time from them.

"I love you."  Their words bounce off him like a ball hitting a wall.  It fills him with nothing.  He's still as lonely as before.

That is.

Until.

Him.

Ginger hair combed back save for that stray, wayward lock.  Pale, piercing eyes that soften ever so gently when their gazes meet.  A scarred face that offers him the most lovely of smiles when their hands brush together.

"I love you," he says, and that rush of warmth and belonging and love comes back like a rushing river, and Piconjo nearly drowns in the emotion.  He lets himself get lost in the feeling, buries himself in their love as he presses closer to Pico in hopes of conveying just how much he means to Piconjo.

"You're my universe," he chooses to say, context lacking but not entirely necessary as Pico chuckles lowly.

"Then you're my world," he responds, pulling Piconjo impossibly closer as they cuddle together.

And as he stays wrapped up in his boyfriend's arms, that funny, little poem echoes in his mind again.  Silently, he repeats it to himself as he traces little shapes into Pico's arm.

I love you, he thinks, smiling as his thoughts swim around his boyfriend, because you are love itself.

SD ANON BUT I AM 20 NOW! what the fuck ! what the fuck ! i still feel 18! but i am going to the tide pools for my birthday with two friends who are in town! tragic thing about being in college is that your spring break either doesn’t align w high school friends’ or your college friends go to their homes BUT some of my hs friends came back early so i am excited and also like. existentially terrified a bit about my early 20s.

ANYWAYS a ton of things have happened since last time i responded!! i kept meaning to and then another Thing would happen so. car crash poem went over very well my established poet prof was like. i thought you were an english major. and also said she would waive any prereqs for me if i wanted to take her advanced poetry class which !! requires a manuscript acceptance usually!!

soba stir fry was excellent i put in a little too much chili sesame oil but once i got used to the spicy it was fantastic

well see my roommate is 19 and he is now 24. but whatever! she is an adult. the big news is that my other roommates have broken up in a Big Thing that was like. not just a dating thing also a roommate boundary thing. and it is not my roommate’s fault at all. it’s such a long story but basically the other one literally won’t acknowledge she did smth wrong/apologize to my roommate/apologize to me/have a conversation instead of running away every weekend

so. she is finding a way to get out of her lease. good riddance imo she was Something.

also yes!! dishes + stream or dishes + chuckle sandwich is my go to. now that my college doesn’t do gym reservations anymore gym is also where i catch up on vods and videos! have to hide phone screen when people walk past but i am unlearning that

arc 2 arc 2 arc 2 i love your writing and i’m always excited to see where it goes!

lyft. painful. uber is cheaper sometimes but like, i went to two concerts in feb and for one i had to ask someone to drive bc the lyft was a whole 70$ for 20 minutes

also yes! the dead kelp smell i miss it i can’t wait to be near the ocean again like it’s still cold n stuff outside but!! ocean!! i wish i could get an ocean scented candle but like a Real One

agnes hit me so hard every time and it’s so so so good man i just love glass animals ! i have heard heat waves everywhere at this point and it hasn’t gotten old but sometimes you are standing in a sally’s beauty supply thinking about how you know far too many things about why this song is playing.

i missed these conversations! work somehow just has a habit of sneaking up and drowning you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SD ANON!!! hope you have fun at the tide pools, they're so cool! and yeah spring break never aligns istg, I don't have spring break till next week (and I have finals rn I'm suffering)

YOOO that's so cool your prof will let you into the advanced poetry class! so awesome that she liked your poem!

oh god every time i use chili oil i end up putting too much and then i suffer but god soba stir fry with chili oil sounds so good rn im so hungry

that's a lot of roommate drama goddamn. at least the one roommate is looking to move out so you guys aren't all stuck in a very awkward situation! roommate fights are terrible especially when the other person refuses to try and work it out

lmao i still hide my phone when i'm watching streams at my favorite coffee shop. like no thanks don't need anyone to know i'm using my free time to watch a 17 year old british kid play minecraft

SEVENTY??? JESUS CHRIST tbf I guess gas is like. insane rn. but holy shit that's so much

god same i love heat waves as a song because it's a bop but it always makes me think of That and i'm like why...

and ty i'm excited for arc 2 too!! we're finally a bit into it and i'm just like yesss the entire reason i wrote this fic aaaa

i've missed our conversations too but i totally get the busy thing, I gotta go study for finals now OOPS

if one more person uses the argument “maybe you shouldn’t write for validation” then I’m blowing up ur Minecraft house. we don’t write for validation, but after awhile of receiving literally no support whatsoever and looking in the latest feed to find damn near every art piece with at least one comment and 20+ likes (vs our 10+, IF that) then yeah, we start looking for validation because we’re working just as hard as any artist on that amino and reaping none of the rewards. no one is saying that you have to read every story on WA. no one is saying you have to comment on every writing piece.

just stop making fucking excuses as to why you can’t press a like button, it means a lot more to us than you realize, and until you’ve been a writer for 4+ years on WA and have received little to no attention for SEVERAL beautifully crafted stories or poems, then you can’t tell us likes aren’t validating. you haven’t stepped into our shoes and you can’t even BEGIN to fathom how discouraging it is to spend hours, weeks, MONTHS on a piece only to get 10 measly likes and maybe, just maybe, a fleeting comment from someone that didn’t actually read the post, but made an effort to show their appreciation anyways.

now, if you go look on my account, most of my stories have 40+ likes, so I understand how it may seem odd for a writer who’s fareing decently to be so outraged by this, but how the fuck do you think I built my platform? my stories started out long as hell and I was lucky to get 13 likes on a good day. comments were nonexistent. it took me YEARS to get to where I am. I’ve been featured twice and won wotm and there are still times when I upload a story, receive little to no acknowledgement on it, and end up deleting the post and stuffing the piece into my pile of drafts. now imagine how much worse it is for those small authors who HAVEN’T been featured and who HAVEN’T won wotm. this isn’t meant to brag, it’s putting it into perspective. if a well versed author such as myself is still struggling to keep a steady flow of users who are interested in my content, just TRY to imagine how much more difficult it is for those on smaller accounts.

it isn’t hard to press a heart button. y’all just don’t like the idea of appreciating the effort that goes into writing. and y’know? I’m willing to bet that a lot of times, writing takes more effort than art. I’m not saying it’s better than art by any means, but y’all would rather relish two seconds of glancing at a sketch than actually taking the time to digest and enjoy a full STORY with plot and meaning and emotion. now, I understand some people can’t sit through a full story for various reasons, but at this point, you get brownie points for even trying. and the rest of you? just fucking like our posts. that’s all we’re asking at this point. we aren’t urging for you to read our creations anymore because we know that’s too unreasonable of us. and it’s pretty damn sad that we can’t even ask the bare minimum of you people without receiving backlash and hate, when we should be the ones getting our pitchforks instead.

anyways, I’m sorry if I made any mistakes or didn’t make sense or anything, I wrote this pretty quickly & I’m really not in the mood to proof read lmao

oh, and one more thing. stop trying to excuse the lack of appreciation we get by saying “maybe your plot/writing isn’t as good as you think it is.” or “maybe it’s just not interesting to readers.” if I were to go up to an artists who was discouraged about not getting any likes and say “maybe your art isn’t as good as you think it is.” or “maybe people just don’t think it’s pretty enough.” I would have everyone and their grandma up my ass. if you wouldn’t say it to/about an artist, don’t you fucking DARE say it to a writer. we’re creators too and we don’t just want the same respect as artists, we DESERVE IT.

I think we just need named NPC’s in our world.

Lyke we’re kinda getting to it. Kinda not.

(The characters fro the End Poem are my copinglink’s species. We don’t know them personally, but they’re kinda lyke... business people y’know? Successful people. Not celebs per se, but they’re lyke known. Accomplished.)

That’s a good idea.

(So lyke I’m thinking lyke right. So lyke we’re kinda normal. I guess? With being a system or being in pairs and whatever.)

(What if we name them Earth and Sky for green and blue? That would be neat.)

Yeah.

(Idk I’m thinking moirailegence is common in the angel species. Since mindspeak is so uh accessible.)

Hm.

(But yeah no I definitely agree we need NPC’s to get attached to. We need a world that interacts back, y’know?)

(I think that just means we’re not trying hard enough y’know? Lyke to fight against the world?)

(Why would we fight /against/ minecraft, a paradise where we escaped to?)

(Good point.)

(So how do we play off the self conflict?)

(We need ourselves to create our own problem.)

(Hm.)

(Wanna play a break up?)

(What! No! I WILL cry.)

(Okay okay lol)

(But hey. Okay. Romance stuff, right. Soap opera drama?)

(Hm. I’m not sure...)

(Lyke what flaws does your character have?)

(You’re missing the point of my copinglink, Flare ;) )

(Lol)

(But it’s lyke. The whole running away arc, right.)

(But we can’t run away because we like the thing.... so.... idk)

(Just a bunch of failed projects?)

(Oooh!)

(Maybe.)

(We need something smaller, I think. To do from stream to stream.)

(I can’t.... think of doing anything smaller than that. Okay I think lyke. Maybe just. Let’s do it once. And then see how it goes?)

(....Hm.... Maybe.)

~Flare