It’s a metaphor you see. You put the thing that does the fucking in your mouth. But you don’t give it the power to fuck. Cause you just got fucked.

yooooo

I haven't talked Stalkyoo - or even ILY, period - in a LONG while here on tumblr and a lot of it had to do with the funk I was going through, the lack of energy I had and the inability to really gather my thoughts and force myself to be cohesive enough to actually put them down, but like I said, I've felt myself coming alive again, and with that, I've found myself falling back into my comfort zones of picking at ILY and the themes I love, the parallels, the juxtapositions, and yes, all the minute details that make Stalkyoo so special, what it is about them within the constraints of their universe that is so appealing.

We all know I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about the purpose the Shinlyssa flashback serves, especially in serving to illustrate just how deeply Nol has hurt Shinae in doing to her what Alyssa had already done before, and why it's so significant that she is willing to forgive him and let him go at that time. As the story moves on from that night, we know that flashback inserted at that pont serves to help us better understand the things Alyssa doesn't reveal - the implication that she lives in an abusive home, that she is gay, that her desire to be popular is more about filling a psychological unmet need to be loved - as we watch her arc set up for the post-time skip second season.

But crucially, the flashback reinforces that Shinae fell for Nol for the same reason he fell for her: he made her feel special.

Shinae's trauma about her past with Alyssa, head injury aside, was that she didn't understand why. It was that Alyssa was special to her but she felt like Alyssa cast her aside, like the feeling wasn't mutual. Even regarding Rika and Maya, until she finally talked things out, she felt like she was just... there, that she didn't mean anything. Her mother left and took her sister and then what. Never calls, never writes, not even birthday cards or even a postcard??? Of course a child will feel like she was discarded, the unwanted one!

Shinae is so used to feeling like she is replaceable, easy to toss away and forget about, not worth a second thought or glance.

And then comes this earnest, handsome guy SO KEEN on getting under her skin, into her head, earning her friendship, and though it annoys her at first, he grows on her. She starts to VALUE it, his actions. She finds herself missing it when he changes and withdraws, aware of the change but uncertain of exactly what is different. As he pulls away she finds that she's the one doing the chasing now.

He made her feel like she's special. Like she matters. Like there is some kind of great value to her. How could she not fall for the person who made her feel seen when she was so used to blending in and taking up as little space as possible?

The juxtaposition of the Shinlyssa flashback set against Shinae and Nol's feelings finally bubbling to the surface is SO! GOOD!!!! Because Alyssa had such a lasting impact on Shinae! It was a ghost haunting her, following her into high school, clinging to her even when she met Nol. That hurt she carried, that scar she still hides, reminded her over and over how easy it was to discard her, how easy it was to throw her away.

And Nol proved to her (what we know to be true for Alyssa) that it isn't true, that she isn't, in fact, so easy to discard, that she is someone special, that she means something.

To insert the flashback that reinforces why Shinae believed herself so easy to discard on the cusp of Shinae and Nol's feelings for each other finally bubbling to the surface is to reinforce exactly how these two fell for each other in the first place: in the shadows where no one was paying attention, they saw each other, and they cared.

And GOD it's so SO SO beautiful 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭💕

I have a theory about Graydon’s flute as a conductor for magic. I thought maybe it was just that any type of long piece of wood (insert dick joke, ha ha funny ok back to it) had the potential to be used as a wand with enough power coming from its user. But what if this flute is actually a powerful magical item, a là Cherlindrea’s wand? Maybe carved from the same tree, as a thought

Graydon seems to have taught himself all that he knows about magic theory (as a self-protective mechanism, poor thing). I think it’s cooler to have him be a self-made sorcerer, contrasting Elora’s powerful intuitive talent. But if by coincidence he had a magical artifact the whole time, that would explain why he seems to get the hang of magic so quickly. The power’s all him, though!!

today's dracula entry be like

the captain: someone or something is on the ship, taking out the sailors one by one. the men are panicked, on the verge of a frenzy. i fear we may meet a horrible end.

mina: this is the most beautiful place in the world. the valleys are singing and my heart is full, i'm here with my beautiful girlfriend and i talked to a hundred year old weird man. oh the joys.

Hmmm

Punz: "Im feeling like a million dollars 🥰* *soft* *little shy boy* *sunshine*

Foolish: *Austin listen- no I know I'm hot, listen. I'll suck ur dick for 100 points. Austin I'm serious." *winks*

It’s a beautiful disaster

as whumptober has started imma need the twobats authors to bring the angst ™️ im talking hurt/no comfort I want to feel like I'm rawdogging my emotions with a mace with the utter levels of hurt two-face feels and the depth of betrayal and lost Bruce feels DONT get me started on the guilt

Every show needs one thing to make it better every time: homoerotic tension.

laudna's doing all of this and meanwhile imogen is falling down stairs

Happy Birthday to this beautiful, talented, and endearing human. 💜

this extension is making me cry laughing so hard

Delighted by the people in my ask box asking for expressions of fondness and longing as both Omega and Dewdrop gaze upon the object of their affection.

why does JJ have my posture

Sometimes I just wanna say "fuck it", throw caution to the wind and live wildly. Then my anxiety knocks me back into reality lol