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tofixtheshadows · 1 month

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So I've been thinking lately about how Mithrun is Kabru's dark mirror (more on that another time- it needs its own post), and I thought it interesting that one of their parallels is that they were both cared for by Milsiril, but in opposite directions. She took Kabru in as her foster after he was orphaned and tried to convince him not to become an adventurer. On the flip side, she helped rehabilitate Mithrun specifically so that he could rejoin the Canaries.

And I kept wondering: why?

For Kabru, obviously she loves him a whole lot- despite any other shortcomings in their relationship, I do believe that.

So I get why she tries to convince him not to go dungeoning, and, failing that, at least prepares him as thoroughly as she can.

But why help Mithrun? She used to hate Mithrun, but after realizing what a secretly twisted person he was, she actually thought of him more positively (oh, Milsiril). So it wasn't as if she held the kind of grudge that might motivate her to make his already-depleted life even more miserable by sending him back to the dungeons. And it wasn't that she felt bad for him either, since she didn't visit Mithrun for the first ~20 years of his recovery.

The Adventurer's Bible says that Utaya was the impetus for Mithrun returning to the Canaries, but Milsiril is the one who made the trip to see him and tell him about it.

Why would Milsiril work so hard to get her old coworker back into fighting fit? Why encourage him to return to such a dangerous lifestyle, when she was the one who chose not to mercy-kill him?

That last panel is such a crazy thing to hint at and then never elaborate on. Without it we could have just thought that Milsiril wanted the Canaries' work to continue without her, even if it seemed out of character. I think some people even assume she's just a natural caretaker as a foster mom and handwave it to include nursing Mithrun too. What could Milsiril's suspicious motives be? What does she gain from Mithrun joining the Canaries that isn't an altruistic desire to see dungeons safely sealed? Feeling a sense of responsibility for the work she left behind isn't an ulterior motive.

My theory is: Milsiril, knowing that Mithrun was empty save for the burning desire to face the demon again, wound him up like a clockwork doll and pointed him back at the dungeons.

Hoping that he'd eliminate the biggest threat to Kabru's life, before it was too late for him.

Milsiril the puppetmaster.

#Dungeon Meshi #Dungeon Meshi meta #Mithrun #Milsiril #Kabru #btw I'm working with the only translations I could find sorry #so keep that in mind #like it just seemed WEIRD to me #that gloomy introverted Milsiril #who left the life of a Canary behind #decided to do this Canary-adjacent work of helping this guy #maybe the queen made her do it because so many people died and they needed more Canaries idk!#but why would anyone pick Milsiril as a life coach? I really think it was her own choice #it's so interesting how we get these hints of a downright sinster Milsiril #I really like the complicated relationship she and Kabru have #struggling to fully humanize him from her elven perspective #but still taking him seriously wrt: his fears over being a monster or his desire to go to a party!#crazy stuff there #everything about Kabru and adjacent to Kabru is insane what a character #musings with Dea

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anewp0tat0 · 7 months

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I tried but not very hard to see what the anniversary date was, and i decided to just prepare myself for the 16th or the 18th... it was the former. so, as always, but this time truly by accident... happy belated 17th birthday Black Butler!! I truly hope this year is amazing for us.

this year, I decided to use an idea I had wanted to try for a while but I never thought I would be able to pull off. and I still probably couldn't in the best way.... but regardless, here is a made up last chapter scenario.

you can also see this comic on webtoon here. whatever your fancy, if you please :>

#I don't know if this thing makes any sense or if it means anything at all. or if it looks like anything actually carefully put together #but hey it was nice! so I hope it brings a little bit of pleasant feelings... or terrible ones idk #i was going a page a day fully intending to finish by the 13th the latest but yeaaa things came up. but whatever this is the last day that #I'm in america until some months later so it's still a special day for me! so it still counts. and also do specifics really matter so much #at this point #sadly while I wasn't rushed this time I did intend to use the remaining days i had to revise the visuals framing and diologue. so I'm not #100% confident. but c'est la vie #kuroshitsuji #black butler #kuroshitsuji fanart #fanart #sebastian michaelis #ciel phantomhive #digital art #and... I would be absolutely lying if I didn't try to put just a little bit of dadbastian undertones in there. it's what I do #but I think it's up for interpration. after I decided that I was gonna draw in my own style instead of trying to replicate yana's(as fun as #that would be) i decided to go crazy

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gideonisms · 1 year

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how much of the vitriol everyone felt for each other on the ninth was due to the fact that they never saw the fucking sun

#i'm not saying sunlight would fix harrow i'm just saying that ever since the sun started setting at 5 pm #i've been anxious about things unlikely enough to make me sound crazy if i said any of them out loud #i've also been anxious about things that have a chance of happening in the worst possible world. and things that might happen eventually #and things that happen regularly.#and things that happened once to someone i know #anyway my point is that the sun will go away and then your mammal brain will decide to project a perpetual ambiance of doom and despair #the vibes were not good on the ninth and i think they should have installed a sun lamp or 3 though admittedly #sitting under a grow light has not done much for me

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alchemicaladarna · 29 days

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All the soulfire posting on the tag makes me so happy because yes!! They are found family!!

They're family in the sense that when the whole world in and out of the game was rooting against them, they were there for each other- and they supported each other above all else. And that's all they needed to pull through.

Now, let's talk about the day GGN was eliminated. A lot of people criticize the team for not trusting Tubbo, their own leader, but really, I think that proves how good their team dynamic is, and a testament to Tubbo's leadership as well. Also if I remember correctly, all teams were supposed to be eliminated if GGN wasn't? So yk, it was kinda the right decision overall. For me, a good team dynamic doesn't stem from an unquestioned devotion to one's leader- but rather, a cooperation between the team that includes trust and communication. But trust doesn't just come from anywhere because it has to be proved- it has to be earned. And this day and Tubbo's determination overall, proved that he is a good fit to be a leader. Soulfire trusts each other's skills and cooperate with each other, and unite the team even when the odds are stacked against them. Another fun thing to keep in mind was a lot of the team members had hostile relationships before the event, but the hardships they faced in purgatory literally changed them and established a mutual respect and friendship a lot of them still have for each other months after the event.

One of the things I loved about the event were the post-purgatory podcasts or Tina, Tubbo, and Bad just chatting after the server closed. This is where the co-leaders title came from because they would strategize together and plan what they needed to do for the next day. That, or they would simply try to comfort each other if they lost that day. They were simply doing their best, and that was enough.

The time they spent with each other, in that cozy base, just trying to survive another day changed a lot of relationships and strengthened many more, and that's why I'll forever be a Soulfire fan.

It's the lasting impact of this family they found when it was nothing but cold, dark, and unforgiving. despite how terrible it all was, the love was there, and it still is, and will always be.

#qsmp #qsmp team soulfire #qsmp soulfire #qsmp tubbo #qsmp bad #qsmp tina #tinashould actually be the queen of purgatory- they would all be suffering more had she not decided to make tea #i miss them so muchhh #also i go crazy everytime sohlhunters interaact like u have no idea the hold they have on me XD

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duskneko · 8 months

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People who depict Nick as being really lovey with Lynn are really funny bc like

bro does NOT want to be in a relationship

#all saints street #nick hoult #like i'm p sure most of those people have only watched the donghua and never touched the manhua #i mean don't get me wrong i like nick/lynn too but like bro is absolutely NOT lovey #bro just wants to get dicked down by an angel #most lasting relationship he has is with the reaper guy tumblr would go crazy about them if they read the fucking manhua #anyway i was rereading ASS and decided to go through the tag #anyway Nick Hoult is a fucking gringefail bisexual bigender failure

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crowskullls · 3 months

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Minute said “I am not your puppet.” In his SMP civilization video and I ran with it.

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obihoe · 3 days

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YAAASSS KILLING VIOLENCE AND UNASHAMED BLOODLUST

#he really just did this huh. INSANE to me #i also for the first time actually watched this with subtitles and .. man. i missed So much of his craziness as a kid #at some point he's like 'is that all u got? i want more i wanna see some blood' like go offffffff sdfsgsgsds #insane to me that they just let this happen (the jonin konoha as an institution etc) like #there is a guy here who openly lusts for extinguishing the other kids' lives ... if kishimoto wasnt so anti killing off characters #he literally could have killed so many characters LOL or he would have killed lee during that short phase before lee decided #to open another gatw #*gate #when gaara just kicked him around the arena and bullied him #he couldve just done his sand coffin jutsu and bam lee wouldve exploded all over the place SGSGDGS #anyways he's a sicko i love him #posts #gaara #also i just. found this in the drafts sfsgdfds. but it still does apply

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fromtheseventhhell · 7 months

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people really think emilia was the one who stopped jonsa from happening??? 🤡

You have to understand, at the time the show was airing Jonsas were fully convinced that their ship was going to happen. When it didn't, instead of just acknowledging that they were wrong they turned everything into some big conspiracy theory💀. They claimed Emilia complained to D&D and that's why it didn't happen, even though if she had that kind of sway she would've 100% used it for her own character. They decided that HBO just got "nervous" and chose to give Jonsa scenes to Gendrya, which is why we got a sex scene for them. They even briefly blamed Kit before deciding to hyper-analyze every interview he had and deciding that he was subtly giving us Jonsa hints. According to them, everybody was conspiring to erase Jonsa. That's what happens when you build your ship off of nothing though, you have to be a bit delusional to make it work.

#ask #anon #anti got #anti jonsa stans #they were fully convinced it was going to happen and it was so crazy to witness #why are Jonsas so delusional? cause a majority of them came from the show and decided it was canon based on nothing #and then decided that George would give them the ending they wanted so they started misinterpreting the books too 🥴#Emilia was like yeah I'm good with my character's complete destruction but I draw the line at Jonsa 🤡#this is why I say the books coming out isn't going to stop them they're just too delusional

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finhere · 7 months

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If I had a nickel for how many times there’s a character named Arthur who has a dead child and ex partner, a massive guilt complex because of it, is a murderer, is constantly on the run from the law, and has a complicated relationship to a guy named John I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot but-

#it weird that it happened twice etc #Arthur Morgan #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #arthur lester #malevolent #bonus for the fact that some posts I see on here could EASILY apply to either of them #only one of them is a valid ship tho #iykyk #I’ll explode you with my mind if you tag this as morst0n #faroe and Isaac parallels go crazy #john marston #John doe #john malevolent #Arthur Morgan would crush Arthur Lester in a fight tho #but I can’t decide if they’d hate each other or not

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blitzkennedyrieg · 4 months

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Idiot

#rhythm doctor #rhythm doctor fanart #ricky art #i love drawing richard while thinking about how funny of a move it was to decide to start using tumblr again and #completely without warning #renovate my blog from being rockafire explosion themed to being WW2 themed #was not thinking about how funny that would be because i was just like "i'm not going crazy over the rockafire explosion right now hold on #richard hugh

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good-beanswrites · 1 month

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I already brought this up, but for quicker reference:

Order of Attack: Mahiru nightmare sequence about Kotoko's attacks. Gotta round out the guilty trio.

Feel free to not prioritize this. :D

LISTEN, I CAN'T BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR THE ANGST THAT YOU REQUEST (<- made myself sad over Mappi and worries I may be in trouble for this one). Obligatory "I don't hate Kotoko and think she's very complex but from these character's pov I had to make her solely scary I'm sorry." And of course I was prioritizing this 👀👀👀 I really loved your nightmare sequences, I tried to make one that completed the set but was still unique!! Thank you for the request >:3

TW for referencing her bf's suicide, and descriptions of the attack injuries

“Aw, come on, you can tell me~” Yuno turned her attention away from where she’d been helping Mahiru with dinner. “Both Fuuta and Amane have had nightmares about her. Hell, I’ve had a nightmare or two about her. I won’t think you’re a mean person for admitting it.”

“I’m not lying,” Mahiru insisted. Her lips rounded into a little pout.

Yuno studied her expression. The girl had a way of really looking at someone when she wanted to. Sometimes it was a wonderful feeling – her gaze could be full of understanding, warmth. You were seen. You were heard. She saw you for all that you were.

But in times like these, Mahiru found herself shifting under the pressure of it. Yuno was truly seeing her. She could see how Mahiru’s smile was frozen in its forced shape these past few weeks. She could see the way she flinched at loud noises, or how all the blood drained from her face when Kotoko’s voice echoed from the room next door. In waking, there was no doubt Mahiru was afraid of her. In sleep, though…

Yuno took her hands in both of hers.

“Then… what do you dream about?”

—

Mahiru was in the woods. She was running, her feet bare, her breath hitching.

At first, she thought she was fleeing something. Danger and death loomed around her. The trees closed in. The canopy plunged her into darkness. The branches reached out to tear at her flowered dress, or snag on her hair. The trees pressed close to suffocate her. She grabbed at her throat.

At some point, it became clear she was running towards something. A figure came into her view, just ahead. Though he didn’t appear to be running, she couldn’t catch up to him. She had to. He was in danger. She had to get to him. She had to stop him.

He entered a clearing up ahead. Mahiru could just barely see into it. She tried to scream out, begging him to stop, but no words came out of her wheezing mouth. She could stop everything, she could stop all of this, if only –

She burst through the clearing. The figure, now a young woman, stood in the center. She faced away.

Mahiru tried again to tell Kotoko to stop, but it didn’t matter whether or not she could speak, now; it was too late.

On the ground below, between tree roots and scattered leaves, lay two small bodies.

Mahiru’s hands flew to cover her mouth. Her legs grew weak with horror. There was blood everywhere, and bones bent at wrong angles. Fuuta’s limbs were twisted and limp. Amane had curled herself to cover her face, blood streaming from between her fingers.

Kotoko, too, had red-stained hands. She surveyed her work with pride.

“What… have you done…?”

Slowly, Kotoko turned. Mahiru wanted to turn around and run before those bloodthirsty eyes could land on her. Her legs stayed frozen in place even as her heart raced in her chest.

Kotoko met her gaze. Then, she gave a gentle smile.

“Thank you.”

Mahiru stumbled back a few steps.

“You let this happen.”

“No…”

“You did. You could have stopped this, but you didn’t. Thank you.”

“I-I didn’t –! This isn’t – ! I thought –”

“You knew this was going to happen.” She spoke a familiar name, and Mahiru shook her head violently. “You knew what he was planning. You had plenty of chances to stop him. You didn't. You knew what I was planning. You know how to calm people down, how to bring groups together. But you didn’t speak to me once about it. You wanted this to happen.”

“I didn’t!” She said it frantically, unsure if she was trying to convince Kotoko, the two beaten prisoners, herself, or someone else. “I didn’t.” The statement was true, but it didn’t change anything that Kotoko had said.

The forest closed in. Kotoko reached a hand out, beckoning to her.

“We make a good team, don’t we?”

“No…”

Mahiru was struck with the thought that she didn’t want to take hold of such a disgusting hand, only to glance down at her own. They were just as slick with blood. She let out a shriek.

It was Amane’s. It was Fuuta’s. It was his.

Mahiru’s legs finally gave out on her. When she looked up, Kotoko was still smiling.

“So… who will be next?”

—

Mahiru slipped away from Yuno’s grasp.

“Oh, don’t you worry about little old me!” She turned back to their work. She brushed her hands off on her apron, giving them an extra swipe for good measure. “I promise, Kotoko isn’t the villain in my dreams.”

#milgram #mahiru shiina #yuno kashiki #kotoko yuzuriha #i kept it in the order i got everything but i was definitely thinking of it nonstop adfsdf #im forever crazy about mahiru's murder-through-inaction theme #since all of the others were pretty direct even if accidental #i firmly believe she knew what her bf was planning and didnt stop him/actively said shed join him because she didnt know how to handle #the situation properly #and if she prides herself so much on being good with people and making friends and bringing people together i wonder if shed feel #responsible for not deescalating kotoko beforehand #plus the more immediate survivors guilt that if she was just in the other room maybe it would have been her and not fuuta/amane #at first i wanted to work in more mv symbols (birds cake carousel horses) because i love wacky and surreal dream sequences #but it got to be distracting when i was planning it out lmao so i decided to stick with the two major trauma moments #vibing on my trip rn but i had just a few lines of this one to finish so i wanted to post it when i had a few minutes...#though now i need to go and pretend im not crying over mappi 😭😭😭😭😭#drabbles #order of attack #(to go back and make it an official tag later)

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plangentia · 4 months

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group holidays are always fine in theory until people begin to grate on you on day 2

#namely my roommate #i just want to do things alone or not at his instruction !!!!#like i didn't want to go to bed now and i can hear the others fucking around outside #but he said goodnight all and shut the door so i guess we're going to bed #but we're not going to bed are we bc he's doing his full belly laugh every 30 seconds #hnnggghhhg #this is just a little vent but i'm so tired #and the two of us are never apart!!!#i love him but only in small doses #and i was not asked if i wanted to room with him. it just. got decided.#and i get why. it makes sense for a variety of reasons #but he's just driving me a little crazy #okay that's more of a vent than i thought it would be. i'm going to go for a walk tomorrow by myself i think

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a-r-a-h-a-s · 10 months

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The faithful handshake in prison

Day 7 of @dukexietyweek - Soulmates

#imagine going to a protest getting arested meeting hot barely dressed crazy man? hallusination? in the holding cell #he then randomly shakes your hand your soulmark starts to grow and you almost die coz even though you now know mating habits of octopuses #and you even shared a few about spiders #you still dont know his name and now youre soulmates #imagine getting arrested for throwing a homophobe out he window and then painting all of his things rainbow meeting hot quiet emo? ghost?#in the holdig cell then after telling him your best facts about octopuses and hearing the most amazing things about spiders #you finally decide to shake his hand and introduce yourself #in the most amazing way possible of course and then your soulmark starts to glow #remuses soulmark would 100% be on his ass #fight me #sander sides #i read it in some fic and adopted it ito my headcanon #sander sides fanart #virgil sanders #dukexiety #remus sanders #anxiety sanders #tss #duke sanders #dukexietyweek2023 #vimus #dukexiety week #remus x virgil #tss remus #tss virgil

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comas-are-for-sleeping · 3 months

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cannot wait for the amount of self confidence it would require to wink at anyone i caught staring at me

#i wore a skirt today #and like lowkey big step for me rn the gender dysphoria demon in my head has been goin Crazy lately ngl #(i wore it bc i knew i was gonna be talking to Hella trans people today)#anyway so like ppl were staring bc i was wearing a bomb ass fit yknow #i dont go to a fashion school any effort is lowkey crazy #also stg everyone decided to dress crusty today and i just was not aware of that #anyway #i just pretended they were staring at me bc they thought i was hot #or at least that i looked like a boy wearing a skirt #and yknow. it worked #i did not feel crazy self conscious #gaslighting myself until i believe that not everyone thinks im a piece of gum at the bottom of their shoe #but yeah i want to get to the point where if i see someone #but ESPECIALLY if its a straight (passing) guy #that i just wink #bc the POWER move that would be #like what are you gonna do about it #oh you like this face? kay ;)#rambles #gender stuff #(ig)

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artemidesarrow · 10 months

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I’m happy carmy gets to experience this relationship outside work but at the same time it’s so clear that he’s no way near ready for a relationship. He can’t divide his attention between claire and the restaurant, he has no balance and I haven’t finished the season yet but I already know this is going to screw up everything.

#like I just see him leaving syd and the restaurant to go hang out with Claire and I mean fair u want to hang out with the person u like but #he needs to learn to divide his attention between the two #he’s opening a restaurant that is probably the worst possible moment to get into a relationship #and I get he wants to be normal and find a way he can have fun cuz he has none in his life #but he should just think about going to therapy #also Claire is really cute and nice and probably she would be the stabilizing force in his crazy life if it was any other moment #and I’m so pissed on syd’s behalf #they’re opening a restaurant and he’s never there #they should’ve decided the menu together and yet she is doing everything alone with Tina #same with the plates and napkins and everything #if she goes off she gets my full support c #the bear fx #the bear fx spoilers

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mcybree · 4 months

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Random limlife Scott rant, GO!

I got this ask and decided that I’d give it my best shot but got so mad on my skim through some of the moments I remembered that I gave up.

#Okay im half joking #I got angry enough for me to decide that writing a post without careful consideration would probably lead to an inaccurate little ramble #I need to like. actually sit down and watch limlife and do a full overall analysis #because the context for how scott acts each season is so important. a skim just wont do #The reason I dont have notes on him to share with the class already is because when it was coming out I was pretending that—#Scott grew as a person after 3l and I wanted to believe that so badly I started making stuff up about memory erasure and limlife being—#dubiously real so that I could look the other way when scott started being weird about jimmy again #I was like yeah they barely remember it thats why scotts being uncomfortably weird about jimmy this season #not because scott doesnt think about jimmy like a person and just wants to hear him say words that make him feel better about his—#rough relationship history #not because the idea of jimmy gaining independence from him makes him feel insecure or anything #sighs. sorry im just saying things. again its been a while since ive watched it so I need to actually. Yknow. Watch it before making posts #Its just crazy how he treats it like proving a point more than actually caring #“I mightve given you the 30 minutes last week if youd said love you” he wouldnt have. he was already leaving when he said it #he’s literally just trying to get him to feel bad about not saying it #pretty sure he kills jimmy in the same episode he lets jimmy kill him. Like. He doesnt really care like that #He just likes to pretend that he does. He is going through the motions of caring #Its like he needs to believe jimmy still needs him. in like a possessive way. Its really weird man #I will say though since I see this a lot: I dont think him singling out tango in the 30 seconds scene was intentional #because if im being honest. I dont think he sees the ranchers as anything serious #He assumes tango was just putting up with jimmy bc he had to. He doesnt think tango actually cares about jimmy #in his mind no one actually cares about jimmy. because if scott struggled to care about jimmy and Scott is known for being an amazing ally #that must mean everyone else struggles to care about jimmy. If that makes sense #rant over I think. tldr limlife scott analysis postponed until I get my life together enough to be able to sit down and watch forthree hour #bree barks so fucking loud #asks

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