Thank you for exposing tagging me, @first-kanaphan!

I’d like to preface this by saying that I’m not proud of myself, and that Rae’s k-pop hold on me is deep, okay?

(Also, I’m almost certain that this isn’t 100% accurate, because there’s no way that there’s not at least one Ice Nine Kills or Motionless in White song on here, but whatever.)

Tagging @nattawinlove, @pinkkop, @prapaiwife, @prapaixsky, @gayzuko and @slutty-lightbulb! 🤍🤍

If I could hold you for a minute, Darling, I’d go through it again

For @edsbacktattoo & @stedesearring 💕 Show: Our Flag Means Death - Season 1 & 2 Music: Francesca by Hozier YouTube

Funny as hell. Yeah theyre doing great

Omg PLEASE tell us more about the hurt/ comfort after Neil gets back from evermore after being kidnapped

Oh you know the fun parts to brainstorm 👀👀 First I needed to draw some of the comfort so here’s a sketch:

Anyway this is aftg we’re talking about, specifically Riko and Nathan, so once again; it’s rather vague but take care reading on (or skip to the next bolded sentence for the comfort 💕)

I honestly still don’t have all the specifics on what might happen at Evermore! One option is just to make it very similar to Neil’s canon Christmas break, because the angles are similar: in canon, they want Neil quiet and obedient to play exy and not act out against his treatment, and in this au the only difference is instead of exy it’s… violence, essentially. But let’s be honest. This is a royal au, we have to add some things, right

So the main tenant is “they want Abram to do what he’s told without argument”. In my mind that includes being forced to watch every bit of Nathan’s work and then having to do it himself. Of course, Abram is still stubborn and still hates doing it more than he hates anything else, so it takes a long time for him to hurt or torture or kill anyone the first time he’s asked. Usually there is heavy coercion and harm before he touches anyone.

But the point isn’t to get Abram used to doing it, because he’s already as used to it as he will ever be. The Moriyamas’ focus is more on breaking down the stubborn streak and strong moral compass. The best way to do that, they figure, is to take away his personhood altogether. So Abram is never referred to as a person, and instead they more or less treat him like some inanimate weapon or like a dog. A very volatile, vicious dog. Kennels and muzzles and commands and all. Some starvation and sleep deprivation when they decide it’s “necessary”. Even long into his recovery Abram can’t hear a word like heel or sit without his muscles twitching to do so.

So it’s a mix of the dehumanization and punishment. Riko has almost free reign once again, though Tetsuji will step in at times when he deems it’s too much. (Though I don’t think he considered waterboarding/near drowning every time Abram is made to bathe or shower “too much”.) Near the end of Abram’s time, a week or so before he’s either rescued, somehow returned, or escapes, Tetsuji revokes Riko’s privileges altogether when Riko causes some heavy head injuries that concuss Abram and make him lose his sight for a while. It’s not permanent, but it’s long enough term that when he gets back to Palmetto, Abram takes a long time away from most people to recover. He doesn’t trust himself not to act before he can think when he can’t see his surroundings.

Back at Palmetto, it might take most of them a while to realize how bad it was. Day is most familiar with how Evermore works, but he was still high up in the chain of command and respect, so he wasn’t necessarily familiar with the underworkings like that. Abram was raised in the environment, he is horrifically good at more or less acting normal. And when he’s fully awake and conscious, he’s very good at keeping things separate - people can still touch him with enough warning, he still holds conversation when he has to. The worst things come to light slowly - the first time he wakes up in a flashback Abram and Day immediately decide it’s best if he doesn’t stay around Andrew. So Andrew kind of has to watch from the outside and it kills him. He watches when Abram refuses to bathe, but if he doesn’t get clean the wounds will get badly infected, so Day kind of has to make him. But Andrew can’t help - because as Day expects, Abram panics and Day ends up with several bruised ribs and nearly broken fingers. Abram won’t wear high collared or tight shirts any more, and one time in helping the Queen care for the castle’s hounds Abram has a panic attack when he’s accidentally left alone for too long. There are little punctures over his cheeks and nose in a circle across his face. He has a hard time eating around others. Abram never tells them what happened to him, but Andrew and Day slowly figure it out anyway.

As they figure it out, everyone does their best to adapt. While Abram’s still recovering his sight, Day announces himself and most of his movements. He talks all the way through finally washing and detangling Abram’s hair (even after the long time he spends on it, they have to cut out the worst mats) when Abram tells him it helps to hear a friendly voice in a language that isn’t the Moriyamas’. Day talks more often and more softly than he probably ever has in his life, because he’s made himself Abram’s main caretaker. Not to say he doesn’t make honest mistakes, because they all do, but he’s quick to change his behavior.

Then, when Abram’s almost fully recovered his sight, Day lets him stay with Andrew once more. Now it’s not as much Abram watching out for the prince - he will do his job well enough, but sometimes he still has to step back and away because of course he does. And Andrew’s approach is very different than Day’s. It isn’t as much his voice as it is his presence, or when he uses his calm but direct authority to tell Abram to go to sleep, I’m going to be right here. After Abram’s panic attack in the kennels, Andrew discovers that if there’s nothing around to pull Abram into a panic attack he won’t generally fall into one again after leaving the stressor, and Abram finds great comfort in some grounding hold on some part of him. Usually the back of his neck or his hands. He won’t let Andrew hold a knee or leg when they’re sat together, but he will put his weight against Andrew’s shoulder for balance. Little things that Andrew figures out by asking or trial and error. When Abram slips, accidentally refers to himself as “it” or “thing” - words he’d never use normally and sometimes even flinches from - Andrew learns to stay within arms reach, sometimes talking through his and Abram’s schedule. If it’s bad enough Abram might play with Andrew’s fingers and hands while he does, like he’s trying to make sure he can still touch someone without hurting them. This afternoon we discuss plans for the upcoming festival with Day, Captain Wymack, Abigail, and Aaron and Katelyn, and after we’ll eat. Join me in the garden? Always official, non-confrontational events. Slowly Andrew gets Abram readjusted to eating at a table and speaking without seeking permission first.

But again. There’s a lot of possibilities and things are always subject to change or be added, so this is kind of my jumping off point! (And is half of this summarized from things I’ve written? Yes. But I want to have something else polished and posted first so 👀 I hope to circle back to this soon) Thank you for the ask!! 🥰

HEY ANGEL ! If Paper Jam were a human, what would his shape be like?

Like his body type?

He would fall under I would believe the rectangle body type... I think that's the best shape to describe them? That or a trapezoid?

Did a super duper quick sketch of human PJ since I haven't drawn them in a bit.

Hiii, I absolutely LOVE your jimstrade content. I was wondering if you could draw Greg giving Jim bandages and stuff after Jim gets hurt and then hugging him. I'm not sure if you take requests or not but I love your art style. No pressure tho, if you don't wanna. Have a great day/night!

- Jam 🐝💛

aughgf hello hii thank you so so so SO!!! much for requesting and i hope you have a great day or night too!! not sure if this is exactly what you wanted but its all i could come up with sorry

As for the hug

i didnt have much energy in me im so sorry for it being less effort thank you so much again<33

shout out to Animal Jam user Skinteeth for inspiring me to draw for the first time in like 3 weeks.

@starfoozle tagged me to list nine no-skip albums. thank you!!

now. if any of yall have witnessed my listening habits irl, we both know that i have a case of restless thumb syndrome and i very rarely listen to songs all the way through, let alone albums. HOWEVER this is the closest im going to get, especially because i have a lot of these on vinyl and listen to them front to back pretty regularly! i think this is a good mix of stuff i listen to currently and throwbacks from high school lol

outer peace - toro y moi

upon loss - knocked loose (this one’s cheating bc it’s only two songs but i do indeed put it on repeat; it’s my post i can do what i want)

why would i watch - hot mulligan

on oni pond - man man

sidewalks - matt & kim

reptilians - STRFKR

we were dead before the ship even sank - modest mouse

hot thoughts - spoon

rated r - queens of the stone age

tagging: @dragonologist-phd @thedaywedied @lovedeluxe @mildmayfoxe @emsloe if y’all want 💃🏽

WIP whenever

ok so I love when people post their incredible WIPs and I'm like "this is a WIP??? no way" and I'm here like, I took a picture of this crumbled computer paper I was drawing on. (That I folded in half to take home in my lunchbag.) thank you @dasburnfrau for the tag! this is from a while ago because I wasn't sure what January was wearing and also changed what Ruby was wearing >_<

Dee finally succumbed to his grief and laid his bare shell down on top of Lee’s discarded blankets, body pencil straight and arms stiff at his sides. Angie followed him down, clinging to one arm and bawling his little heart out.

—Wow, what a coincidence chapter 14 by @mathmusicninja (aka. one of the best crossover fics ever in the world PLS GO AND READ IT NOW !!!!)

tagged by the fantastic @katsigian thank you bb! 😘

Questionnaire + 5 songs!

Songs:

Pulling from Vice's playlist - he (like me tbh) has a bit of an eclectic taste in music, so beware potential genre-whiplash if you do actually listen to them is all I'm sayin' coz I pulled these suckers at random.

All Of Nothing by The Birthday Massacre

Something Else by Childish Japes & Dave Vives

Willow Tree by Twin Wild

Heart Of Darkness by Grim Salvo & Sect Unit

When You Can't Dream At Night by Dayshell

These are all songs he would belt out while cruising NC with the windows of his car down.

Questions:

Three ships you like: Corvo/Outsider (Dishonored), John Silver/James Flint (Black Sails), Nathan Drake/Elena Fisher (Uncharted). These are ships I've actually crawled through pages upon pages of fic to get my fixes of.

First ship ever: Uhhh probably Rick/Evie from The Mummy. That movie is my comfort film.

Last song you heard: Coruja by Far From Alaska.

Favourite childhood book: All of these very pivotal in my mental and emotional development so they're all being mentioned - The Deltora series, The Song of the Lioness series, aaaaaaaand Tomorrow When The War Began series.

Currently reading: I don't actually read things other than fic, anymore 😅

Currently watching: Sons of Anarchy. I'm very late to this party, but I'm getting a lot of inspiration for Nomad shenanigans (like finding the guy who cut you off on the road just to beat him up - Vice would 1000% do that) and Charlie Hunnam is...basically as close as I'll get to a faceclaim for him, so. It's not that bad of a show either, honestly.

Currently craving: TTEOKBOKKI. Been craving this for years, ever since my fave Korean restaurant in my city closed during lockdown. God, I would [REDACTED] for a massively heaped dish of that rn.

Taglist: who the hell hasn't been tagged yet...sorry in advance if you've already been pinged for this, and there's no pressure to do it if you don't want to.......but I am curious 👀👀

@astarionhistears @cyberpunkmenace @totentnz @breezypunk @luvwich @aldecaldhos @nightcxty @hazellblogs @klept0kid

hiii :)

10 Song Shuffle Game

The always lovely @littleladymab has tagged me in a game of share random music! 😌

Rules: Shuffle your On Repeat playlist and post the first 10 tracks, then tag people (or don't I'm not your mom)

1. Too Late to Dream by The Venetia Fair

2. On revient sur terre by Sidilarsen

3. When I'm Dead by Bear Ghost (and Mab you know EXACTLY why this is on repeat lately. My Horst song fr fr)

4. Little White Lies by Aurelio Voltaire (I play this before d&d each week bc it's one of my character songs for Calamity)

5. Act 1: S2 - New Albion 1 by Paul Shapera

6. A Little Priest from the Sweeney Todd 2023 Cast Recording

7. Vulture by Bear Ghost

8. Rule #34 by Fish in a Birdcage

9. Sleep by Johnny Manchild and the Poor Bastards

10. A Favor House Atlantic by Coheed and Cambria

I tag @doctor-bus @frenzyarts @f4gbutchdyketwink @keeve-trenniis and anyone else who wants to join in!!

8/20 Hydrate Shell Jam 2023 Results

Hello, and I hope today finds you hydrated! If you're not aware, yesterday (8/20) was Hydrate Day, and that means we had the 8/20 Hydrate Shell Jam in the Ukagaka Dream Team discord server!

In 2020, @internetteacup and I made a drink reminder ghost on 8/20, called Hydrate. Since then, many folks have made shells for it to give it different looks! The only """rule""" I've given is that any given shell must be something that could—at least in theory—hold liquid. And folks have taken that idea and made all kinds of strange and fun "drinking apparatus" with it!

So, now I host an event on 8/20 where folks have 1 day to make shells for the ghost! It's a fun creative exercise, it's a really easy way to get into ukagaka dev if you've never done it before, and we have a lot of fun seeing what folks make.

I hosted this event last year as well, but never shared it on Tumblr. You can see the results of that here!

So, with that context given, here are the results of this year's event! We had 11 entries by 9 participants, most of which have dressups of some kind, and a few which are animated.

See all the entries and their download links under the cut!

After the rainfall, by Zichqec. A leaf with water droplets, which sticks to the right side of the screen!

Dollhouse Drinks, by Galla. Tiny pixel cups, which come in a wide variety of colors!

Haiidrate :3, by Okuajub. A cat paw shaped cup, with various drinks inside!

Hot Spring, by StrangelyKai. A nice pixel art of a hot spring!

Hydrate Enhancer, by idk. A shell based on MiO brand water enhancers, which comes in a variety of flavors!

Milkshake, by Aegisghosts. A decadent milkshake, with several flavors, each with their own tasty looking toppings!

Paint Splatter, by StrangelyKai. A splat of paint, which comes in a variety of colors and patterns, and even has instructions on how to add your own!

Planetary, by WhatAPhantasia. A whole entire planet to drink! Comes with an appropriately sized straw, and some other dressups.

Reassurance Bucket, by OdieDogXP. The reassurance bucket from The Stanley Parable: Ultra Deluxe! Comes with a few sticker dressups.

Tiered Bowls, by Zichqec. A set of tiered bowls, which hang from the top of the screen! A dressup can be used to turn the water on or off.

Very Sad Statue, by SmokyCinnamonRoll. A very sad statue which weeps eternally!

i feel like phil made his mew video just for you to put in ur audhd tag

SCREAM so true. @ phil i love you autism king. huge win for phil is psychic truthers too why does their home have a ghost

give me songs for saimon and noa 👀 also i always want to type saimons name as salmon

the saimon -> salmon pipeline is everything to me. there is some kind of metaphor in here but i can't unpack it i yet i just need to swim up this waterfall first

i put together a playlist for saimon and noa earlier :) i think it's preddy fun. here are some of my favorites

^^^ saimon unhingedly coming into his own after he puts together the fragments that he tried to throw away. he absolutely did not have to kill everyone in the room and then try to kill himself, but this was the last best exit strategy of a horrible situation. "I WOULD DO IT AGAIN! I WOULD DO IT AGAIN!"

i want to draw it sometime.

^^^ in love with this cover. mercurial and intricate rituals, just like da boys. also want to draw something about it.

^^^ i was introduced to Survive Said The Prophet just before i made saimon and noa, so they orbit their music now. 🤪 old sond's psychic damage || saimon's psychic damage <- as viewed by noa

^^^ just let me have this one. i dont have enough manic noa music

also some picks that didn't end up in the playlist for one reason or another.

^^^ thought it would be a fun intermission marker. saimon and noa are baaaasically exhuming the world's oldest graveyard. but i think it would fit better into a general "Old Sond" playlist.

^^^ flirted with the idea of adding it because noa gets thrown out of basedt and is deranged the whole way down. but sadren and makame are already juggling this one and it feels weird to give it to his cousin LOL