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kyros-tha-soldier · 3 months
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If you support the ongoing Human genocide in palestine, DRC and Sudan or you are a "nUWUtral cutie patootie oooooh i am so neutral I don't care 💅💅💅" type of person and STILL be a fan of one piece ...
Then I've got bad news for you
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Your ass is reading too fast or you're too damn dumb to understand what the story is about. Either way get off the fandom and shut up forever
#If you don't like this post then boohoo I don't care#Human lives are precious no matter the color or gender or beliefs or religion#And that's what Oda is trying to show but some of y'all are very very dence and can't understand that#“B-But i enjoy it” yeah ok cool but you also automatically enjoy seeing people dead and seeing kids and civilians dying#I have been supporting the cause with my friends on my priv instagram and the amount of OP fans who are pro genocide like?????#Bitch get your shit together and go watch paint dry... Or don't; paint is too precious for your ass#“all lives matter” until it's about black people or native americans or Balkans or south asians or Inuit or Quechua or Homeless people or-#-Latin Americans or Arabs or Holocaust survivors or Central asians or chechens or Tatars or Rohingya or Uyghur-#I could go on forever! But y'all go “all lives matter” the moment a black person says “black lives matter” because let's be real for a sec.#You say “all lives matter” and you know DAMN well you don't give a single shit about those lives as long as they're not white#The hypocrisy is showing baby and it's on you if people hate your guts for it#Also... Support Palestinians by donating to Palestinian aid services; E-sims; Palestinian owned businesses and damilies ❤️#Same goes for the Congolese and Sudanese ppl. Send them aid; donate; help the artists and people who speak for their cause and speak up ☝️🙏#There are some very trusty organizations out there to help but I can't link them since I'm afraid some of them can turn out to be scammers#I'll try to find legit ones#As for anybody who wants to come and whine about me becoming “too political and whiny blah blah”-#You can eat shit for all i care 🤗🥰🤩#Unfollow if you disagree I don't give a damn#free congo#save congo#DRC#I STAND WITH CONGO#FREE PALESTINE#غزة العزة#غزة حرة#فلسطين حرة إن شاء الله#جمهورية الكونغو الديمقراطية#الكونغو#السودان#Sudan
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zanderlisle · 5 months
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Because I struggled to find information on the Sudanese genocide, here's a collection of info I've found, complete with sources and ways to help.
Note: Most of these stats are coming from October of 2023, and numbers have climbed since. Content warning for genocide, war crimes, sexual violence, and more. Please correct me on anything you notice is incorrect.
In April of 2023, the Rapid Support Forces attacked Sudanese Armed Forces bases across Sudan. including the Sudanese capital Khartoum with a population of 6,344,348. While this was initially described as a war between the RSF & SAF, it quickly became a matter that murdered, injured, & displaced millions of civilians. The most notable of the casualties - actress Asia Abdelmajid, singer Shaden Gardood, and former football player Fozi el-Mardi with his daughter Alaa. el-Mardi's wife. Zeinat Ahmed Othman was also wounded by a bullet.
There have been over 9,000 deaths, 12,000 injuries, and 5.4M displacements. There have been a total of 55 foreign deaths from the countries of Ethiopia (15), Syria (15), Congo (10), Eritrea (9), Egypt (2), The USA (2), India (1), and Turkey (1). Journalists and humanitarian workers have been injured, killed, and/or detained.
As of July, there have been 88 reports of sexual assault against women in Sudan blamed on the RSF. Activist Hala al-Karib stated that war rape had become an everyday occurrence with both fighting parties participating.
Over 1.3M people have fled Sudan as refugees. "The UN Office for the Coordination of Humanitarian Affairs said that 1,200 children had died from disease outbreaks in refugee camps in White Nile State since May. In Central Darfur, the head of the Hamidiya refugee camp said at least 43 children had died in the camp since July. UNICEF also estimated that the conflict had led to the number of children being out of school in Sudan to rise from seven million prior to the fighting to 19 million in October 2023." - War in Sudan 2023 Wikipedia
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An imminent epidemic of cholera and a collapse of the healthcare system - How to help: donate to SAPA at https://sapa-usa.org
Women are at risk of sexual violence (especially in areas like Darfur) - The Darfur Women Action Group has a donation link AND sample emails to send to your officials They also accept volunteers with media experience
Menstruation doesn’t stop due to war. - Donate to provide Sudanese girls and women with menstrual products
Another IMPORTANT organization currently providing direct medical care in a few states including Khartoum
will hopefully update with more reliable links or resources Also check
@Hometaxsd on Twitter (X) and eyesonsudan.net for other reliable donation sites
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https://bbc.com/news/world-africa-65284945…
https://bbc.com/news/world-africa-65467934…
https://bbc.com/news/world-africa-65585746…
https://apnews.com/article/sudan-war-military-rsf-conflict-khartoum-f12975eb72c830ed86ed6a7a49e9658d…
https://dabangasudan.org/en/all-news/article/violations-against-journalists-in-sudan-war…
https://reliefweb.int/report/sudan/dtm-sudan-monthly-displacement-overview-october-2023…
https://english.aawsat.com/home/article/4296896/diplomat-says-15-syrians-killed-amid-clashes-sudan…
https://theguardian.com/world/2023/may/07/eritrea-accused-of-forcibly-repatriating-civilians-caught-up-in-sudan-fighting…
https://abcnews.go.com/US/2nd-american-dies-amid-violence-sudan-state-department/story?id=98877370
dabangasudan.org/en/all-news/article/more-than-40-children-die-in-central-darfur-camps-as-fighting-escalates…
https://dabangasudan.org/en/all-news/article/19-million-children-in-sudan-are-out-of-school-says-unicef
https://www.aa.com.tr/en/africa/turkish-toddler-killed-in-ongoing-clashes-in-sudan/2875179
bnnbreaking.com/breaking-news/egyptian-doctors-killed-in-sudan-conflict-buried-in-backyard/…
https://bbc.com/news/world-africa-65821597…
https://africanews.com/2023/09/19/un-raises-alarm-over-child-deaths-in-sudan-as-health-crisis-deepens/…
https://aljazeera.com/news/2023/7/2/fighting-reignites-between-sudan-army-rsf-in-khartoum
The linked source is a more detailed Twitter thread of Sudan's timeline starting in December 2018 by Kandakat_alhaqq.
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starlightshadowsworld · 5 months
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Why do you reckon you want to be a hero so bad? You'll stand up for any cause be it the Palestinians refusing to move on or a frog you found out of water. You're not gonna change the world, you're insignificant and you will always be
I dunno why do I stand up for causes like this?
Could it be because my family originally comes from a part of the world that has its own parallels to Palestine?
Or is it just that I'm simply human and seeing other humans suffer on such a mass scale as the world's powers turn a blind eye, horrifies me.
Maybe it's both.
Maybe it's more.
I know that I can't change the world.
I am one person, one voice in a sea of millions.
But you're wrong when you say I'm insignificant.
Because I amplify the voices of others, I spread news and do my best to bring light and hope to these causes.
From those far my knowledgable, from those who have that reach and power.
And if I can spread that to one person, and they can pass that on or join in the boycotts or just inform them of something they didn't know about.
Than that's all that matters.
We live in a society that thrives on ignorance, on the prioritisation of comfort and imperialism which uphold white supremacists.
And lead to the suffering of others like the Palestinians, like the Sudanese, like the Congolese.
It's important to recognise that, to challenge it so we aren't complacent.
If I can do something, even if it doesn't have a big impact its better than nothing.
We might not be able to do much but we will know the truth that the world tries so desperately to hide from us.
Which stops us from falling for their lies.
It was said a man protested the Vietnam war by standing in solidarity outside the white house with a candle.
A journalist came up to him and said "Sir, do you really think you are going to change the policies of this country by standing out here alone every night with a candle?"
The man replied "I don't do this to change the country. I do this so the country won't change me."
It's people like you who make others sharing their voices feel insignificant.
If my voice didn't matter you wouldn't care to try to silence me.
If our voices didn't matter the world wouldn't be trying to censor and silence Pro Palestine content.
I'm no hero.
But you most certainly are a villian.
Free Palestine from the river to the sea.
Free Congo.
Free Sudan.
Free Tigray.
Free Haiti.
Free Hawaii.
That all indigenous folk have their land returned.
That all colonial colonies are made independent.
And free every person who has ever suffered from the lasting effects, both directly and indirectly from colonisation and imperialism.
I hope you all find peace during your lifetimes.
I stand with you, holding my candle.
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lukah-o · 6 months
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as exhausted i am trying to stay afloat and as much as i want to ignore the world around me, it simply would be disgusting and awfully ignorant of me to ignore the countless horrors people all over the world are facing just so i can wallow in the comfort of my little bubble that america and other western powers provide. this isn't about me or us. this is bigger than us. they deserve to be heard, their lives, actions, and deaths remembered, and their resistance to be not for nothing.
i wish them peace and true freedom and equality.
I feel utterly hopeless and helpless, sitting in front of my phone while simply sharing tiktoks of these horrific events (Palestinian and Sudanese Genocide as well as the Congo Silent Genocide). I simply have nothing else to say that others haven’t already said.
To the people who have died, may you rest in peace. To the people who are fighting back (in whatever form that may be), may your actions be not for nothing.
To the people who are just simply trying to survive, may you see the day your world isn’t filled with the sounds of bombs, the cries and sounds of pain and anguish of your loved ones and neighbors , the smell of death, worries that this will be your last day.
You will not be forgotten. None of you
To the world leaders, the people who support their oppressors, and the people with influence and affluence who, too, are in support of their oppressors, may your evil deeds be turned around onto you TENFOLD. May you experience hell on earth. I hope for that with all my heart. I hope you all suffer. You will never be forgiven.
It pains me to know that you all will never face any consequences for your evil and inhumane actions (as we’ve seen countlessly from history). People in power never suffer. They never have. But I hope with everything in me that you all suffer so much so that you wish for death.
Do not stay silent. Do not ignore their suffering. Do not be complacent in the genocide, ethnic cleansing, enslavement of human beings. Share every article/tiktok documenting or speaking on the matter. Call your representatives! Make sure their voices are heard.
FREE PALESTINE
FREE CONGO
FREE SUDAN
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perrysoup · 4 months
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“Perry, why do you share funny/random stuff with the genocide stuff, do you not take it seriously”
Let me tell you a disgusting fact about me: if I did not use these other things in my life, I would literally kill myself. I am nothing compared to Palestinian strength. To the horrors they have been dealt, they rebel with the simple act of living.
I would fail at that.
I am not strong enough.
I don’t imagine I ever could be.
Each day I live in awe at their persistence and am disgusted with my weakness. To know I am not brave enough, strong enough, anything enough to be a millionth of what they do.
I post from the disgusting privilege I have to not be worried about being bombed, that my father or mother or bother or nieces or nephews or grandparents will be shot for the crime of not already being dead. I will fail give it the full consistent attention it needs, instead resorting to other things to calm me and allow me to enjoy that privilege.
But I’ll do what I can. I’ll say what I can. I’ll protest what I can. I’ll fight what I can.
Standing with the status quo is standing with genocide. Standing for neutrality is standing with the oppressor.
Do what you can, no matter how small. We owe the Palestinians, the Congolese, the Sudanese, everyone being forced to live with their horrors.
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Whats happening: brands are exploiting congos natural resources for profit. There's unethical labor, internal displacement, ethical cleansing, and war crimes
How to help congo:
-sign petitons
-spread awareness
-email/call senators (email the same person multiple times to get their attention, calling is the best option. There's a lot of scripts online to follow!)
-donate to organizations (I've linked some!) [Truly, every single donation counts. No matter how small, no matter if you donated one time. You still gave you money to help other people. Giving a penny can make a difference]
- don't buy/support the following: apple, google, Dell, Microsoft, and tesla are the companies doing the worst (NOTE: some people's work or school makes them use products from these companies, most commonly google, Microsoft, and Dell. Please please please do not come after them w/ hate. Ita very hard to find jobs right now, at least in the US, and most people use their school laptop for personal use. There's always a story)
-buy from congo brands/small businesses
Whats happening: the Sudanese Air Forces (SAF) and the Rapid Support Forces (RSF) are both fighting for power over sudan. The violence has caused many internal displacements all over the country. The displacements have led to ethnic cleansing.
How to help sudan:
- sign petitions
- email/call senators
-donate to organizations
-spread awareness
-don't buy/support: any brand that uses/makes things out of gold. Most of the time it came from unethical labor
Feel free to let me know if I got anything wrong, or provided unreputable sources!
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deramin2 · 3 months
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I've started actively blocking people who are like, "Either you care about every problem in the world so much that it destroys your ability to cope with or you're a fake ally and complicit!"
It breeds scrupulosity OCD, as in explicitly seeks to induce a debilitating mental illness in people to perform purity on social media. It's also totally ineffective from an activism stand point. It spreads you so thin that all you can do is share social media posts you haven't fact checked. No one actually has time and bandwidth to care about everything. Our brains were never built to hold so many relentless horrors. We burn out and can't handle any of it at all because we do actually have limited energy.
If you want to be effective instead of performative, you have to pick one or two things to really care about and put your energy into really understanding what's going on and what steps we can take to make that better. Sometimes those are incremental inadequate steps because that's what you can persuade people to spend resources on right then. But those changes can matter a lot to people on the ground even though it doesn't fix everything. And then you fight for the next step. And slowly you change things. Sometimes you win big. (And then spend a lot of energy convincing people that isn't a discrete happy ending and you have to keep fighting for more.)
I highly encourage people to pick issues that aren't getting a lot of attention and need hands the most. You can also think about how a fight you're not focusing on is intersectional with what you are doing and how to support other groups through your work. Like if you're working on supporting your local queer community but are concerned about the Sudanese genocide, you might see how your resources or networking or grant writing skills can support Sudanese immigrants coming into town. Or work to support organizations like Doctors Without Borders that has over mission but supports many places through it.
Which is not to say you ignore everything else in the world and go into a bubble. But you have to forgive yourself for being human and having human capacity. You CAN'T know everything. You CAN'T absorb every horror of the world. You have limited time to actually work on things. Being a witness can be useful, but if all you have time for is watching the horrors helplessly then you aren't actually helping. Absorbing less but doing more is way more effective.
There's certainly something to be said about who actually gets attention and help and how that plays into biases and people only helping themselves or their in group. But destroying your ability to cope with the world to the point of constant guilt spiralling is not an effective solution to that problem. If you want absolution, care more about less.
So I'm done with internet armchair activists who think guilt tripping will change the world. They're not just useless, they're actively harmful. Don't follow people just because you think you deserve to be yelled at constantly to absolver your sins and keep you on the straight and narrow. Figure out how you can make a real impact in people's lives.
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drowninmiserylake · 3 months
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i feel the bubbles around me popping. everyday is another day i progress out of this capitalistic mindset. less and less i give a fuck about who is wearing what and who is dating who. i become bewildered maybe even infurtiated. these bubbles popping around me the glass box around me shatter as i step out. i enter the truth, more and more i’m aware, less and less i am entombed in deceit. the problem is everyone else i love, or like, or tolerate, or dislike they’re all seperated from me. behind glass that won’t shatter no matter how much i slam my fists they rebound back. the glass barely shakes, the glass whispers soft thuds that they can’t hear on the other side. people more obsessed with selena gomez and hailey bieber subtly shading each other, more obsessed taylor swift and travis kelce, more obsessed with everything bigger than them, the glamour of the capitalist world that dangle and shines like the prettiest diamond a child from Congo could muster up with their delicate fingers. the same delicate fingers that you and i have. i’m sick to my stomach everyday. i become more disconnected with this world that America is. how is nobody tired? how does nobody give a fuck about a genocide? why are justin bieber, selena gomez, taylor swift, travis kelce, kylie jenner, hailey bieber, beyonce, kim kardashian etc etc why are they all more important to you than innocent Palestinians, Congolese people, Sudanese people???? the more i disconnect with consumerism, the more your silence and your mindless adoration inspired by para social relationships leads me to disconnect with you, with everyone else around me. silence will always be complicity. i mean how do none if you care that a lot of us live pay check to pay check but you’re here glamourizing people who have pricate jets and spend 100k a day. everything is sick and twisted!!!!!!
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dazedasian · 16 days
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dylsexai · 2 months
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Biden is committing genocide. In what world do you think he'll care about the rights of the LGBT rights, abortion rights, immigration rights, or even just basic civil rights. For that matter, what do you have that he wants after you vote for him. Once he gets elected to his second term, you have nothing he wants.
I promise that whatever policy that is so important to you that you are willing to overlook genocide will not be delivered by Biden. Whatever happens, you will have to live with it.
There's an old sudanese proverb about buying a cow from a thief and then complaining that it is a painted donkey. This is what you should have expected from a thief .
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atomograd · 3 months
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the strike is not over. i hope people double down, actually, and continue to strike; as we approach the final day of our beloved bisan's initially demanded week, i imagine many of us feel a sense of relief. relief, that we can return to "normal," resume our consumerism, unpause our work and school.
i don't feel relief. i feel dread.
i'm not going to act like this post will exclusively be seen by people who haven't suffered - it is being written by someone who has, but the fact of the matter is this: i am not palestinian. i have no known palestinian family. i have never been to palestine, and an amount of people engaging in the ongoing strike fall into one or more of these categories. this post is for them, for me, because many of us have not suffered as palestinians have. many of us have suffered genocide, colonisation, starvation, and torture, yes, but not the way palestinians are right now.
if you feel relief, if you feel like the end of your obligation to strike is the light at the end of the tunnel, if you're looking forward to no longer rationing food and necessities, if you're desperately waiting to obtain your medications and access healthcare, if you are anxious to begin seeking new employment or housing... if you will soon have to begin salvaging your life due to the consequences of striking, and you cannot wait for the twenty ninth to come, please.
please. understand that the people crowded into gazzah, actively dying of starvation, disease, sniper bullets, tank treads, imprisonment, exposure, lack of medication and medical devices - the people we strike for, have no "end date." please, look back, especially those of us who refused to risk their lives to stand in solidarity, and come away with this:
you cannot fathom how much people are suffering in gazzah. you cannot understand it by seeing it, by hearing it, not even by holding your friends as they weep for their martyred families. if you feel desperate and afraid, if you don't know how you're going to make it to next week, if you have to seek emergency care, shelter, or food because you participated in the strike... let that centre you. let that put just how privileged we are, even at our lowest, most marginalised, most endangered. even when it nearly kills us, we still have more.
i'm not undermining anyone's suffering. i will die if even more thing unbalances in my life and i'm of numerous colonised people; i know where you're coming from when your response is to recoil from this post, to anger, to "YOU don't know what I go through." and that is my point, that as hard as we, as you, may have it... we haven't even scratched the surface of the depths of human suffering. i am asking you to think about why you recoil, why you anger. i am asking you to look beyond your nose or feel beyond your fingertips, to accurately place yourself on this spectrum of pain.
to let that acknowledgement drive you forward. let it enrage you, not at me, but at the zionist occupation and its allies. this can end for us. we can pick up our lives, even if we never achieve the degree of comfort we had prior to striking. palestinians can't, not yet. not unless we keep acting in solidarity with them. not unless we embrace a willingness to make sacrifices, and begin to make them.
landback for everyone. palestinians will be free to return to and live in palestine. yemenis will flourish in abundance. the congolese will achieve autonomy, free of enslavement and genocide. the sudanese will triumpth over genocidal rapists.
all that's left is to ask ourselves one question: how much are you going to sacrifice to make it happen?
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fancylala4 · 4 months
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How dare I talk about Sudan
Yes I have ties to the land
But I am safe from the evils of war
I didn’t grow up there, it’s not my homeland
Yet I am Sudanese, I must try
I want to try
To talk about this pain
Holding on to memories of a time
That exists no longer
I saw the video
Of the place I used to live in
It looked the same every time I visited 
It didn’t matter who lived in it
Now I don’t recognize it
A foreign place it has become
Trashed, destroyed, things bent and strewed upon the floor
I don’t want to see the other videos
‘Don’t wear another culture’s outfit, they will get upset. We’re trying to hold onto our culture especially now that we can’t return.’
The little one
She was born there, I remember everyone taking care of her
She is five now 
The last time I visited Sudan she was a babe
It’s how I remember how long it’s been before the war
She may never visit her birthplace 
She won’t miss it though
Because she can’t remember it 
She was so young
I hate how the media won’t talk about it 
As if it’s not important enough
As if our pain isn’t important enough!
I don’t know what to say about it
I don’t know if it’s even worth remembering what Sudan was like before the war
Especially now that it won’t be the same again
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favroitecrime · 5 months
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Do you believe that the Israeli children murdered are culpable for the crimes of their government?
I think we both agree that Palestinian children and Palestinian civilians are not valid military targets, despite what Netanyahu and the Israeli government may claim, but do you believe the same applies to children who are being raised in Israel?
gonna need you to point to where i said otherwise bestie
but to entertain the question(s) in full:
I’ve overstated how much I believe children should never be victims & sexual violence is also never excused. I’d never stand & advocate for the lives of Palestinian (& Syrian & Congolese & Sudanese & Armenian & Puerto Rican & Polynesian &&&&) children whilst simultaneously wishing unwell on another group of children.
But there’s a lot of things I hate about this framing & it’s that first and foremost, the children are not the only ones that matter here. What good is saving the children if they’re stripped of the elders of their family? What good is sparing the life of a disabled Palestinian girl in Gaza being wheeled from the North to the South by her father if you’re going to arrest her father and leave her stranded to be saved by other passer-bys? What good is saving the children if they’re wishing they died along their parents?
Second, not only are the civilians not valid military targets, they’re not targets at all. None of them deserve to suffer. None of them deserve to bury their dead in mass graves. None of them deserve to be killed whilst seeking shelter in schools, hospitals, mosques, churches, etc. None of them deserve to starve for days on end & no water in sight. None of them deserve to watch their mass graves dug up and over 100+ of their loved ones’ bodies being taken away by israeli forces to god knows where (likely the skin bank, where they harvest Palestinian organs for their own). They deserve none of it. Hamas could be in every damn room in every damn building and it still could never justify anything, let alone being military targets.
Third, it should shame you by now to STILL shift the narrative to israel & israelis whilst discussing Gaza or Palestine. Enough already. It’s been 41 days. We’ve condemned enough. The conversation cannot be redirected to straw-man arguments & questions meant to what? Pull out a scandalous answer? Was I expected to say yes I see the kids as military targets? What’s your next step knowing my answer is no?
Finally, the government lied. The israeli government has lied repeatedly. They’ve been putting out numbers of their victims ranging from 1200-1500 and just announced today that they’ve overstated how many of them died because it turns out 200 of those bodies were bodies of Palestinians. Which begs the question, if they were so torched and barely recognizable, who did the torching? Why did they silence the interview of one of the survivors as she says that the IOF were largely responsible for the death of multitudes? Why is it they’re interviewing soldiers who were on duty that day who’ve said their orders were to target anything that moved? An israeli plan was mass killing everyone at the music festival because the orders were to go for anything that moved.
Mere days after the initial invasion/“attack”, one of the women who was held in her home with her children went on an interview and said they didn’t harm them at all. They stayed for two hours, one even politely asking for a banana, before quietly shutting the door behind them. Her youngest was so undisturbed they kept tapping away on their tablet. Hamas may not be complete angels, but they’re not barbarians. They’re not savages. Children would never be their main targets, nor targets at all. Any dead children were either caught in a crossfire or much more likely killed by the IOF.
I reject the narrative that I, or anyone else in defense of Palestine, agree with the death of children (no matter who they are). I reject the idea that I, or anyone else in defense of Palestine, would be okay with acts of sexual violence being committed to anyone. And I refuse to cover up the atrocities happening in Palestine with any sympathies you expect me to extend to israel.
Children should never be victims. Including Palestinian children. Free Palestine. 🇵🇸
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groundedintruth · 4 months
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What I'd do for one last drive
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The longest hugs my dad and I share are always the ones where one of us has one hand holding onto luggage. The ones that arrived two hours too early and waited at the airport's parking lot just for that moment.
As a child, I couldn't picture my dad without his car. And sitting in the passenger seat, I followed him everywhere. Tagging along for a quick trip to the store I had no business in or a longer drive to the fish market, ready to grab my free juice box from all of his store friends, offering giggles and very few words in return. Sitting in the backseat of the car, too young for the front, I gradually shed my speech impediment, one "ra rajjul" at a time.
My tongue tie didn't stop me from suggesting different destinations. Sometimes we'd take a detour and end up at the arcade or a stationery shop where I'd refuse to leave for hours. And that wasn't the only reason for my dad to go out of his way. He is the most thoughtful person I know. He remembers everything and everyone.
And whether it was climbing a bouncy castle or racing a motor car too big for my size, my dad was always there telling me to get back on no matter how many times I fell.
More than anything, my dad loved to teach, albeit sometimes preferring his way of doing things. And I was always just as stubborn. I never really studied for exams as a child. The real learning happened in conversations with my dad, his endless questions about my day at school guiding me to internalize the entire curriculum through our talks.
My dad loved music. He loved driving to Al Kabli and sometimes silence. And you could never guess what he'd prefer or what was on his mind. When his health was deteriorating, my dad never complained. Instead, he kept asking about our health. As reserved as he is emotional and filled with bursting love.
One of my early childhood memories is running back in excitement and fear as my dad launched a homemade firework. I've picked up his love for adventure, for music and for documentation.
In many ways, I am my father's daughter. We express love in the same way– through thoughtful gestures, penned words, and when words fall short, through music. My dad has scattered pieces of paper and a secret emerald notebook full of things he'd never reveal.
His life was marked by early loss and constant moving. At only six years old, he lost his mother. He spent his childhood between his aunt's house and his dad's, his late teenage years at Wadi Sayyidna, and later left Sudan to pursue dentistry in Yugoslavia (Khartoum universities didn’t offer any dentistry courses back then.)
After returning, he spent some years working in different cities in Sudan. Then in the early 70s, he moved to UAE right when it became a country. And as a proud Sudanese immigrant, he refused to ever become a national of the country he spent half of his life in, a sentiment that I - until recently - struggled to understand.
And so I spent my years between UAE and Sudan, but I don't remember ever visiting with my dad before he eventually retired. In fact, I don't remember my dad ever taking any holidays. Yet again, spending a portion of his life alone.
Years ago, when I learned more about his life and asked "So, you were always living away from family," I didn't realize then that I was becoming like my father – someone who loves food but only enjoys cooking when there are other people to eat.
More than anything, my dad wanted to spend his last years in Sudan and now he is buried in the land he refused and I need a visa to visit his grave. And being away from home, my mind is filled with countless unasked questions, echoing in the silence he left behind.
A few days before he left us, my mum asked why we don't write each other long posts or letters expressing our love. And I agreed that as a family we just don't do public displays, that we like to keep to ourselves, maybe out of fear that it'll leave us if it leaves us.
And I found myself thinking maybe I will when one of us leaves. But the truth is I can't. Just like my dad, I write things out and don't say them. Just like my dad, I am full of emotions that I like to keep to myself.
But something about airports, about leaving and arriving, brings it out anyway.
It doesn't matter where I'm heading; at every airport visit, I rush, ignoring the vibration of my phone, and it's only at the boarding gate that I finally relax, hearing my dad's voice on the other end, telling him I've managed not to miss my flight once again.
For the first time in my life, I'm sitting at the gate quietly, not on the phone, not reading and not listening, just sitting on autopilot and unsure of how I made it here.
So who will edit photos of airplanes with our names and رافقتك السلامة to share in the family group chat? And who will tell the mornings what to bring with each new dawn?
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bluest-planet · 5 days
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Getting real sick of the "vote blue no matter what crowd" and im not getting into the nitty gritty and all the nuance about that fuckin argument here bc i have actual shit to do, but baseline is the whole fuckin system is corrupt and there is no lesser evil here. Just evil. Even at the smallest government levels. And they aren't even trying to hide the fact theyre the same with different colors when some '''blue''' candidates literally promised to shit like harsher border control and threats on migrants. There is no true risk reduction here, or imaginary lives being saved anymore. And even then, people are justified in the hard place they've been put into, between two poisons, to put as much pressure as they can for change. Bc it does feel a bit scummy to try and save ourselves before Palestinians, the Congolese, Sudanese, Armenians, and so many more. Where is the Solidarity? (Sorry i forgot, people dont care about black and brown lives when it comes down to it.) Everything is connected, we are not free until Palestine is free and vise versa.
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