Sunsets like ✨THIS✨

Keith's replacement vehicle. 2022 Subaru WRX GT. He pick this up 2 weeks later.

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08.26.2022

Sub-i almost over. Technically I still have tomorrow but it is a weekend, so it’s not really a “full” day like a weekday is.

God, I was so scared of this rotation. So scared of the expectations and that I wouldn’t be able to meet them, worried that I’d flounder and be constantly stressed and looking like an idiot. But I am so happy with what happened. Except the COVID, but even that wasn’t too bad.

I loved loved loved my team. Loved loved loved everyone I worked with here. The interns, the residents, the attendings. I was worried about being the only med student; I thought I’d always feel lonely and left out. Instead, I was quickly accepted and I genuinely felt like I was among friends and family rather than just feeling like the med student on the team. Holy shit, guys. This is what people mean when they talk about the community found in small programs. I get it now, and I understand the love for it.

I am genuinely so sad to be leaving. I made friends here. I want to keep these friends. I hope I do. I went out for ice cream with one of the interns today and god, I had no idea that people loved me so much! She told me about people being sad about my month here ending and people being happy when I was able to come back after getting COVID. I had no idea.

I’d still prefer to match categorical. I’d still prefer to not have to move. But holy shit, I really wouldn’t mind doing an intern year here. I think that this has been my biggest growth this month: immersing myself in a small program and truly understanding the family culture. I mean, I probably grew in terms of being able to handle more patients (5 patients!!! I actually carried almost as much as an intern!) and basic medical management even if I don’t feel like I did. But this realization was the unexpected one and maybe the more important one.

I miss these people and the way I was accepted into the family already. Life is full of unexpected happiness.

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Fun update.

I was feeling sick so I played skyrim, it gives me a mental boost. I find it motivating for life.

I've been taking more time to eat healthier, avoiding eating out alone, we still do it as a family probably once to twice a week.

This last week I went on a vegetable kick, I took a 1/3 of a Cucumber, a bell pepper and a big handful of snap peas, for my lunch, and even dinner once or twice and a few Costco protein bars for snacks.

I still have to take 4+ Imodium a day, my stomach symthoms still give me bad days. But I feel a little bit more accomplished and that makes me happier.

I also looked into athletic greens the really expensive green powder, then I just grabbed another green powder for half the price and no subscription that I figured would be ok to try. It just arrived today it tastes ok and ifs full of vegetable nutrients and such. I'll see if I keep that going and see if it is helpful or just gives me cramps.

In the spirit of eating better and self improvement I was making my daughter laugh by doing sqwats with her on my shoulders and today my legs are burning like I did a hard workout. So today I got out my bands and just did a couple sets messing around. Maybe I can make workouts at home a regular thing.

My weight hasn't changed I don't think I just weighed myself for a baseline and I'm at 214lbs the same I've been for awhile. I'm starting to feel happy with myself even if I haven't lost weight.

I bought a cologne and I like it, my girlfriend hasn't commented on it but she apparently doesn't smell things. And her and I aren't close really, we have a kid and we coexist, but she doesn't ever say anything nice about me and when I hug her she wants me not to and if I go for a kiss it's just a quick Peck. So I just feel like we're roommates and if I try to talk about it it doesn't go well. I'm kind of starved for love but I can't do much about it. C'est la vie.

Black and white from #lastnightshoot🎥 with #myhubby❤️ #subi #model https://www.instagram.com/p/CgmMoEbAbuE/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Morning coffee runs

At a big car meet up in 2019

Just pairing away

08.22.2022

so i finally got hit with covid. i can go back on wednesday if i am a) fever free for 24hrs b) symptoms are improving

well, i haven’t had a fever at all and essentially the only symptom i have left is the cough. but boyyy do i have a cough. like hacking coughing fits a few times a day. i feel soooo good in between episodes, but god when it hits.

that being said, i can’t afford to take more time off school because then i have to start making it up and i have an extraordinarily inflexible schedule. sooooo...

here’s the plan.

1. gonna go out the pharmacy tomorrow and get some dextromethorphan gels. because that will be easier to handle at the hospital.

2. keep pocket full of menthol cough drops.

3. big old thermos of tea.

4. prayer that tomorrow is a big turning point and my cough magically goes away (unlikely). however, it does seem that i cough less when i’m mentally stimulated and distracted, so there might be hope?

¿Y este wey con quien se casa?

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