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awhst-alt · 3 years

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I HAD THE BEST BYLER DREAM LAST NIGHT AND I REALLY WANNA SHARE IT WITH YOU ALL

it's so long (literally 2k words) so im gonna put it under the cut haha <3

so basically this would take place after mike and will start dating or something, idk exactly the time frame (i picture them being like 18 or something and this is the summer before college) and will goes to this summer arts program for like 2/3 months (i dunno how long american summer is but something like that) and its all the way far from home so there is dorms and stuff and he's "not in hawkins anymore" (no pun intended)

mike and will decide after will finishes his school they'd go to college together (cuz they're gonna be comic book artists together bc thats boyfriend shit) so throughout these months he's practically just waiting for will (<333333)

so one specific scene i remember from my dream involved will and mike getting off the bus to the school and then they hug and then mike grabs wills hand and brings him behind the bus and then he gives will a biggg kiss bc he won't be able to kiss him for 3 months. then they say they love each other and will gives him another quick kiss and is like "two kisses". they agree they'd call each other every day.

so will goes inside and mike goes back on the bus and goes home.

and basically the whole day is a whirl, until the end of it, in which mike is sitting in the kitchen near the phone waiting for like 3 hours for will to call, and will doesn't end up calling.

AND THEN IT GETS SPICYYYYY

so meanwhile at the arts program will asks like the front desk or something if he can call mike and they say phone is offlimits and they don't let him call mike

so then will goes to sleep and he's paranoid that he thinks mike is gonna hate him or something like that

mk than the next day in class there is this girl (they didn't reveal her name in the dream, ill call her stella) so stella is basically looking at will the entire class but will doesn't know it

so when they exit the class stella's like "hi" and will says "hi"

then stella says "i like your painting."

will is like rlly weirded out so he goes "thanks?"

"i um- hope this doesn't sound weird but i have no friends, do you want to be mine?"

"sure"

and then end of scene (this does not sound like a normal conversation but it's my dream so it doesn't have to make sense"

so BACK AT HAWKINS mike is still sleeping even tho it's like 3 pm because yk depressed boyfriend shit but then the PHONE RINGS and mike gets out of bed frantically and goes to the phone and he picks it up and is like "will?" and then it answers "it's el, idiot"

i feel like this is important for context but el speaks english very well now and hoppers back and she lives with hopper and not the byers anymore. ANYWAYS

el says "how's will?"

mike says "idk he didn't call"

"he didn't?"

"no, he didn't"

"okay. well maybe he will call later"

"yeah mb"

"wanna come over"

"ok"

so mike hangs up and gets changed and goes to el's house bc they r a couple o' besties and when he gets there it's like a therapy sessions bc mike usally talks to will every single day and he can't for like 3 months (unless will calls, but he's not going to) so he accepts he's gonna be depressed for 3 months and he's just talking to el about how he's gonna miss him so much and no be able to see his face and that shit

so el's like "well do u wanna do something to take ur mind off of him"

and mike's like "no im not gonna replace will" (I SCREAMED IN MY DREAM SRSLY)

but than el says "okay. guess im gonna go to the mall by myself" (ig starcourt is rebuilt by now)

and than mike bolts up and is like "fine"

"we can by something for will"

"okay yay"

so then they go to starcourt yasss!!

anyways back at the art school will is having lunch and stella is with he friends (even tho she said she doesn't have any friends) and one of her friends is like "omg did you see _____ he's so hot"

and another friend says "YESS! but ____ is cuter"

"what abt u stella? who do u have ur eyes on"

she says "byers" BUT NOOOOOOO WILL IS MIKES MAN

and they say "ew that kid who came back to life"

she says "yea. but he's cute, and shy, and once i wrap them around my finger i can get them to do anything"

so then she goes to sit down next to will at lunch

"hi will"

"hi"

"hru"

"im good"

"okay. good." and she gets upset because will goes ask how she is but she keeps her urging rage inside. and than they have this weird conversation and will is uncomfortable the whole time bc shes all like flirting with him and will is seeing someone obvi

but then she puts a hand on will's shoulder and he's shaking and then says something (idk what it is it wasn't explaining in my dream) then will stands up and runs to the bathroom. so he's just sitting in the stalls crying.

okay back at starcourt this part wasn't shown in my dream but im just gonna make up that mike and el go looking around starcourt for something for will (sort of like the mike/lucas/will montage where they were looking for stuff for el) and then i guess they find something for will and i don't have the slightest idea what they could have got for him BUT THEY GOT HIM SOMETHING GOOD

so mike's all happy but they'res still that depression inside of him lol

so fast forward a week, it really isn't explained but ill just make up that will still hasn't called mike, and he's super sad and all sleeping in but decides to look through his good ol binder full of will's drawings and in the arts school will and stella have a few more interactions im sure which are still very uncomfortable

okay so it's lunch again in the cafeteria and somehow will and stella are talking again but somehow it ends in stella kissing will and will like pulls away immediatley and is like "what is wrong with you!?"

and she says "what?"

"i'm seeing someone!"

"oh i uh- i didn't know."

the whole cafeteria is staring at them

so will's freaking out almost on the verge of a panic attack "idk what to do, he's gonna hate me and-"

"he?"

will has the look on his face like shit shit shit oh fuck no

"you're gay?"

"i-"

and will runs off once again. and everyone in the whole cafeteria knows that he's day and ofc with everybody being homophobic will knows it's not good at all bc everyone's gonna bully him

so then the next day he goes to class and the teacher is like "does anyone care to tell me where ___ is?" (it would be like a math question like 'where x is' but in art idkkk) and then the teacher calls on "will? can you tell me where ___ is?" and they'res a pause and then the teacher says "or perhaps you'd want to find your boyfriend instead?" (giving me anne with an e vibes prolly cuz i did a rewatch last weekend but i won't explain more in case some people haven't watched it but) anyways will stands up from his seat, everyone is looking at him, and he's shaking and so concerned but then he goes "fuck. you" badass will yeaaaa thats my boy

so then he runs out of the classroom and out of the school in a really cool montage way but then he realizes he's like 2 hours away from home but he runs and runs and he goes to a random bustop (it's not even garanteed if it takes him to hawkins but whatever) he gets on and tries to go back to hawkins.

and soon enough, he gets there, and immediatley goes to the wheelers because he needs to see mike and apologize for everything. so he's at the wheelers, and rings the doorbell, realizing he's still in his uniform lol but karen answers and mike is upstairs in his room sulking (i picture it would be 8 pm by now) so will asks for mike and karen calls mike. mike groans obviously because he doesn't know it's his boy, but he comes down, karen gets out of the way and as soon as he sees will they have a really big hug and it's super sweet and my heart UFHEIOSKA

mike says his usual "are you okay?" and mike is still confused as shit but will says "i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry" and mike says "you don't have to be sorry for anyrhing" but will says "ill explain"

so then they go to will's room, side-by-side on his bed and will starts explaining everything

(this is mostly improvised by me but it's still pretty similar to the dream)

"i hated it."

"the school?"

"yeah. there was no you, (mike blushes lmao), everything was terrible, i felt so lonely, they didn't let me call you-"

"what?"

"they said the phone was off limits. i wanted to talk to you so bad and i thought you'd hate me"

"i could never hate you, will, even if i tried." will smiles

"and then there was this girl, and she hit on me and i didn't know what to do bc i'd be the face of the school if i told her i was dating you and was gay and today she kissed me"

"WHAT"

"im sorry im sorry i didn't kiss back and i was so scared bc i never was in a relationship before and i was so scared it was considered cheating-"

and mike LAUGHSS

"what? mike? what's wrong?"

"if you don't do anything back, it's not considerd 'cheating'"

"oh. good. are you mad at me?"

"what? no! no never!" so mike opens his arms and says "come here" so will and mike hug or something like that and then mike says "do you need me to beat her up?"

and will says "you can't even beat eggs. besides, your noodle arms wouldn't be able to do harm to even a fly"

so mike laughs and says "i'm glad your home"

so will blurts "i cursed out a teacher"

"you? cursing?"

"yes."

"might have to start calling you a bad boy now"

will just smiles and says "i love you"

and mike says "i love you too"

AND THEN END AND IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF BC I LOVE THIS DREAM LIKE I CAN'T BELIEVE MY BRAIN THOUGHT OF THIS BUT IM OBSESSED

ALSO ONCE I FINISH WYBMFFAE ILL PROBABLY WRITE THIS INTO A FULL BLOWN FIC BUT AHIHFUSAH

edit: i have no idea what mike did with the present him and el bought for will but i guess they ended up giving it to him lol

#byler

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uberoll-oystercrackers · 2 years

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heyo, i'm just here to say thank you for your lars/larsadie content, it makes me so happy that someone is still passionate about them! i miss seeing them in my dash so following you is a treat! also your art is great, hope you have a great day/night <3

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 UMMM WOW! this was the absolute sweetest thing to wake up to in my inbox?? you're thanking me but now it's my turn... thank you. it's such a pleasant surprise that ppl are following this blog at all, enjoying these characters with me. i have been like, extremely larsadie-brained for years and it's honestly showing no signs of slowing down lmao. but i have fun here. 😎 like genuinely so glad that you have a nice time following me! and omg... my drawings? you like myyyy drawings specifically? aughghghhg... you are... just so nice 😭💜💚🧡🥰!!!! thank you that's. so sweet. im not used to getting compliments on my drawings from strangers so excuse how geeked i am lmao but srsly wow!! thank you so much! that is so flattering to hear. also HELLO you are the first non-anon ask this blog has ever received and also the second ask i've gotten in total so: shoutout to you for that. 🏆

you can tell how excited i am from the frivolous and unabashed gaggle of emojis used in my response. but yEAH yes. yes. being passionate about larsadie... it's my daily reality. rip me but my divine eye is open. i have like, so many ideas and several au loose storylines that i want to get out there some day SOME how. im hoping i'll be able to sooner rather than later but yea! stay tuned! i usually post my own drawings on the weekends so i really hope you continue to enjoy. i'm also considering taking larsadie requests pretty soon if that's something you're interested in... 👀

anyway again tysm for this ask this really made my night to be real with you. i hope you have a great night/day too!! ☀️🌒🌟

#ube rolled out #gothedwardelric #this was truly just SO nice wadda hell!!

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thurst-day · 3 years

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content creator year in review 🥳

tagged by: @wabisaba @defgyus @gotseventeens @offtodef @jaebam

✨first creation of 2020✨

so i made this whole stan acc on ig, twt, and ofc tumblr just for the sevens and how i found a reason to start drawing again also learn to make gifs because of them 🥺

✨most recent creations of 2020✨

i saw this euphoria trend on twt and i decided to made my simple version of that

✨one of your favourite creations of 2020✨

i probably said it in the tags already but my netflix movie poster edit really made me want to watch them as a series

✨a creation you're really proud of✨

i think these two fairytales themed birthday post of jinyoung and jeonghan because i really love the style that felt so magical

also my amerithaikhong edit (manifesting to really happen in 2021 lol)

✨a new style you tried this year and work that uses it✨

this collage art that are a mess and kinda ugly lol but never seen someone else doing it and it's just my brain tryin' to be c00l

✨a creation that took you forever✨

this halloween one idk why it took forever maybe because i made a lot of mistake and the creative process behind it and also this DYE cover drawing that took 3 days to finish

✨your creation from 2020 that received the most notes✨

srsly i thought everyone would ignore this but i'm glad they didn't because my sunshine's birthday deserved all the notes

also this jinson gifset that i forgot to watermark which someone probably already took it as theirs lmao

✨a creation you think deserved more notes✨

this got17 album cover switch because helloo i thought ahgacarat would be so many lol and i worked hard on it :')

and this wonwoo edit maybe because i posted it on the wrong time

✨a new fandom you joined and creation you made for it✨

i didn't have any tags for them but here one edit for each group, seventeen and monsta x

also @bamshine kindly introduced me to ace because i fell in love with their cb pictures so i decided to make something out of it

✨a creation you made that breaks your heart✨

ofc it has to be minghao's one bc it was probably the most beautiful gifset i've ever made??

✨a 'simple' creation that you really love✨

this triplets jackson, kinda went viral on twt i guess, well a king indeed

✨a creation inspired by someone else✨

this tarot card which the inspiration one was 100x better but i really tried like the yugyeom's one is my fav skshk

✨a favourite creation created by someone else✨

i need to re-search it again because my dumbass never save anything but from the moment i first saw this nbtm art by @youngjaes, i fell in love

✨some of your favourite creator this year✨

@defgyus @jaebam @presenteyesonyou @yuqyxom @offtodef @lilliumaura @joshuahong @iiasha @soonhoonsol @smallkore @allthelxves @inutilement @delicatecy @sunnie-dk @kyeomshine @youngjaes @wabisaba @gotseventeens

But seriously i never thought in the first place my creations would get any notes or attention at all but yet here we are. This side blog hasn't even a year old yet but i'm really grateful and amazed by people i met in this site. Thank you for supporting my works, i'll make something again in the future and i love every single one of you! ♡

#you guys made my 2020 #im really glad i got into kpop in 2020 #also got7 was the best thing that happened last year #forever thank you ♡

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cruddyborderlandstheories · 3 years

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Please gearbox I am begging you just change the techspert mod's unique skill... it is so useless with Zane's current skill set at higher levels- and higher levels are when players are mostly going to be using legendary gear

The disparity between class mod usefulness via the unique skills in this game is soooo bad. In bl2 for example I could equip a legendary mod and get +5 in the listed skills the VH already has that I know work and want significantly buffed, because the tier 1 skills on each character were still pretty useful. This game you only get +5 across all listed skills which is fine cuz then u get the unique effect, the obvious draw this time around, but some of them are baaaaad

Tl;dr: I cry but also suggest class mod reworks? That are probably op with the current anointment system but shhh we'll fix that later too. I promise (ʘ‿ʘ✿)

I know it isn't just Zane who needs class mod buffs or reworks (I've seen some pretty bad Amara ones too, I'm sure Fl4k and Moze have some rough mods as well but I have less experience), but as a Zane main with the newest patch, hsgahakwygdiwjdks

Every sntnl build atm already has the drone out constantly without that mod, there's no reason to use it as the skill buffs in this game are not significant enough to warrant it, and the unique skill is useless. The difference between techspert or cold warrior and a mod like Seein Dead or even the executor mod is really sad. Only way the first 2 are viable is if ur playing at early levels and get a lucky or vending machine drop. But u can go to handsome jackpot and get an infinitely better mod there if you've got the dlc cuz the drop rate is incredibly high. I don't get it, those types of mods are basically just filler for the loot pool? Which really shouldn't happen with legendary gear when you have a ton of randomly generated guns for that purpose which is one of the highlights of ur marketing for the game.

If they wanted the mod to be useful for lower level characters who didn't spec into duration skills and don't grind until max level, fine, I guess? But the mod can still be useful for lower level characters AND higher level characters. Maybe change the skill to all of Zane's action skill durations/cooldowns get reset on kill? That'd be an incredible buff and keep the spirit of the mod intact. Hell it'd even buff the barrier since it buffs that trees skills ANYWAY. Srsly tho why it have a zoomer buff if it is a barrier tree mod. I don't get it. It's forcing a very specific playstyle cuz the +3-5 skill buffs are only really useful when u already have 4-5 in a skill outside of, like, brain freeze. If it gave a +5 in every skill like bl2 then I could see using it with zoomer without having to go down under cover but it doesn't soooo u have to get very lucky with the 1 skill u want to use?

Also. Cold Warrior is such a bad mod. I used it a bit after release at level 50 Zane bc I was trying for a cryo Zane and it was okay, but now at 65 with Mayhem 11, it is so bad. Why the random Dots. Zane isn't even supposed to be the elemental character beyond cryo unless I'm missing something Very Important. He had the shock damage when not targeted skill, but then they changed that to cryo (I'm actually a bit salty abt that, shock is great for shields as cryo is not as effective). Regardless he's not the DoT character and giving him a mod that applies random DoTs to frozen enemies is so out of left field. It really feels like a copy of Amara's mods but worse cuz Zane can't buff DoT damage (not that those types of Amara mods aren't Bad themselves, per se, but at least they fit her playstyle and skill set) beyond getting gear that buffs it, but that's trading off potential weapon or AS damage for elemental damage and... No thanks. Not when it's a Random element and not when Zane isn't even supposed to be the DoT character.

Cold Warrior would be a cool (ha) mod if it did other stuff to frozen enemies tho. For example, this is all off the top of my head, not even my job to think about stuff like this:

Allow him to insta freeze enemies using a melee attack with a short cooldown and give him double melee damage to frozen enemies. Give him +25-50% bonus cryo damage/efficiency to all damage dealt with the mod equipped ('oh but 25% damage is outshined by anointments' FUCK YA ANOINTMENTS THEY RUIN BALANCING). Release a free frozen heart nova when Zane is damaged to 50% or lower health that restores health and shields for 25% damage dealt by the nova with a 5-10s cooldown. If you want to keep in spirit with the mod's red text, which honestly I'm starting to think was the main driving factor in the creation of this mod and NOT making Zane a fully realized VH, all cryo damage dealt by Zane has a 15% chance to deal double damage in another random element, with a short cooldown (10s?). Like the hydrafrost gun (I believe that is the one). If ya think that's broken cuz of the current anointments in the game, come join us on the dark side where we advocate for anointment nerfs and character buffs for better balancing of the main game without dlcs.

Anywho, giving that mod Fuckin' Anything creative to buff his skill set instead of tacking on random stuff that has nothing to do with his preexisting skills. That'd be great and it could allow for more builds.

Similarly with the techspert mod, again these are off the top of my head and I literally cannot do testing as I'm not a dev:

Kill Skill: Kills have a 25% chance to refund all AS cooldown and reset all AS duration (least unique but it'd at least stay near to what they wanted the mod to be and would be far more useful during end game as it acts like an actual kill skill- the hexagon can even be Zane's class mod as a tiny icon, it'd be a real cute). As this mod buffs skills in the barrier tree, I'm gonna assume players are using the barrier action skill with this mod: the barrier gains 15% amp damage and amp damage is converted to bonus shock damage. When deployed, the barrier releases a shock nova that drains the shields of enemies near Zane and replenishes his shield by 25% max capacity. The barrier gives Zane 20% bonus reload speed and fire rate (held or not, does not matter). 1x per AS duration, Zane can hold down the barrier deploy key to end his barrier skill and release a cryo nova around it that instantly freezes enemies nearby (so you can throw down ur barrier and use it like a remote bomb for Calm Cool and Collected).

Iunno, some of these prob wouldn't work in practice, but literally anything other than "hey this class mod is Calm Cool and Collected but somehow worse even without the requirements" is good enough for me.

Changes pls :(

#Also change Cold Warrior pls? And maybe give us numbers on the executor mod? Pls #borderlands #borderlands 3 #Cruddy rambles

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dammit-stark · 4 years

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my favorite au is pirate au! owo

I’ve never written a pirate au so when I started this I thought I was gonna have so much trouble but yo this was srsly so fun!!! honestly this was probably my favorite I’ve done out of all these aus what a party I should totally explore this au more wow how neat thanks for requesting it hope you enjoy

DROP YOUR FAV AU IN MY INBOX AND ILL WRITE YOU A FIC

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The world expects them to be enemies.

Naval officers jeer in their direction when they’re around, their own crews watch one another nervously like they’re expecting a Texan standoff at any minute. They’re pirate captains, diametrically opposed. They’re supposed to be enemies.

Nobody knows they share a bed.

Nobody knows they write lovely, verbose letters pronouncing their love with long feathered quills, signed discreetly with their initials at the bottom when they’re away from each other for weeks on end. Nobody knows that at nights when they’re apart, they look to the stars and find comfort in knowing that their opposite is looking at the same skyward landscape.

It happens when they’re docked between jobs.

At midnight, Steve will climb aboard Tony’s ship, the stars shining between the slats of wood like a light made from whispers as he blindly finds his way to the Captain’s quarters.

“Tony?” He whispers into the dark, shutting the door as quietly as possible. He listens for the lock to click into place before feeling his way toward the bed.

“Steve?” Tony calls out. Steve’s eyes begin to adjust to the thin film of moonlight that makes its way into the tiny room, and he begins to be able to make out Tony’s sleepy form on the bed, “That you?”

Steve gets into bed behind him, the same as every other night. He folds himself around his rival captain, feels the heat of his body through the absence of physical separation between them.

“Yeah,” He whispers into his partner’s ear, finding more ease in this bed than he ever had in his own empty cot, cold and lumpy and utterly Tony-less, “It’s me. Go back to sleep.”

Tony hums affirmatively and lets his body fall away into somnambulation, comfortable in knowing that Steve is wrapped around him, as far from an enemy as he can be.

Most nights, Steve leaves before dawn.

More and more as the nights draw on, there are close calls. Early birds whispering on the upper deck that Steve barely manages to sneak around, nosy insomniacs poking around beneath deck. Nobody knows what they do in the privacy of their cabins. Nobody knows what they are to each other, and they avoid the question, hidden contentedly under the sweet blanket of night.

It’s easier to be known as enemies, safer. Pirates do not hold on to lovers in the old stories, and the tragedies aren’t just fabricated for the sake of interesting plot points. It’s safer to be known as enemies, tiptoeing along the sea and the slats of their ships, kept safe under the dimness of night.

Every day it gets harder to leave Tony’s bed.

When it goes awry, though, it’s not because they overslept. It’s not even dawn yet.

Steve is rocked violently awake, and by the time he’s blinked his eyes open, Tony’s on his feet. Steve sits up fast.

“What was that sound? What’s going on?”

Tony’s eyes are dark and serious, and Steve can physically see his brain working in methodological circles. That’s the difference between them- while Steve works with gentle, coaxing words and a bulky brawn when the need arises, Tony is all cerebral, thinking and theorizing his way out of every situation. The capacities of his mind wow Steve constantly.

“We’re under attack,” Tony says, slipping his boots on over his holey socks. Steve’s moving across the tiny room to do the same, lacing the front of his pants up tightly, pulling on a shirt, and moving for his own pair of boots, when Tony stops him, “No, you should stay here.”

Steve doesn’t want to. He wants to help, he what’s to fight, he wants to- he wants to protect Tony. He wants to protect his heart.

“I can help. I-“

“Nobody knows,” Tony snaps, harsher than he means. Steve knows it’s because he’s worried about the ship. Steve would probably be the same way. Hell, Steve would probably be even more of an asshole, but it stings anyway. Just a little bit. His breath feels shallow in his chest.

The sounds of boots stomping on the wood above their heads make the whole situation feel so much more urgent. There’s whooping and hollering, the vague clash of melee weapons and the blunt thump of a blade hitting wood.

“Nobody knows about us. And nobody can know,” Tony repeats. His inhale of breath is soft, and Steve clings to it, “Just stay here. Please.”

Steve obediently sits down on the corner of the bed. He doesn’t like this.

“Fine.”

“Good. I’ll- I’ll be back for you. Just stay down here, don’t let anybody see you, and-“

The door slams open with a crash.

“Captain!”

Both Steve and Tony turn to face the intruder, an instinctual response to the use of the title.

They’re both surprised to find that it’s a member of Steve’s crew- and he’s pointing a sharp cutlass at Tony, pressed way closer than comfortable for sharp things and Tony’s neck to be in such a close space. Tony slowly puts his hands in the air, a show of peace.

Steve stands quickly, nearly hitting his head on the low ceiling, “Pete?” He says slowly, like he’s talking a man off from the edge of a tightrope that’s destined to be met with the hungry jaws of a float of crocodiles, “Kid, what are you doing here?”

The young pirate has big eyes, it’s the thing that always worried Steve most about him. Those big eyes of his. They give away how naive and innocent and so fucking young he is. Now, he flashes those big eyes from Tony to his captain and back again.

“We’re saving you, cap. We’re saving you from the enemy pirates.”

Steve sighs, “You attacked Tony’s ship?”

“Tony? Oh, Captain Stark. Yeah, we’re rescuing you,” Peter looks between Steve and Tony again, his head whipping back and forth. It seems to dawn on him for the first time that Steve is completely at ease. His Captain doesn’t look the least bit kidnapped, “You weren’t in your cabin. We went looking for you, and now we’re here. This is a rescue mission.”

Steve takes a step toward the young pirate, wraps his hand around the kid’s at the hilt, and pushes until he pulls the long blade away from his lovers throat.

“I don’t need saving,” Steve says gently, “I’m here of my own free will.”

Steve and Tony watch as Peter’s eyes flash continuously between them. It’s almost starting to give Steve a headache, the obliviousness, the slow piecing together. Thankfully, Tony was never a patient man either.

“Oh, fuck this!” Tony says suddenly, then he reaches over, seizes Steve’s face with two grabby hands, and kisses him. Intimately, sweetly, seriously. In front of Peter. In front of the potential of the whole world.

When Tony lets his fingers fall away from where they had entrenched themselves into Steve’s temples, Steve’s speechless.

So is Peter. Poor, young Peter.

“So you’re-“

“Yes, Peter,” Steve says gently, “I wasn’t kidnapped. Do you understand?”

Peter nods.

There’s a thump above them.

“Shit,” Tony curses, “They’re still fighting up there.”

Steve grabs Tony’s hand, just because he can at this point. Caution to the wind and all that. Their other way backfired. Let’s try this way.

“We gotta stop them before they destroy your whole ship, Stark. Come on, let’s go.”

“I swear to god,” Tony mumbles. Peter follows behind them, his oversized blade hanging limply at his size, “If my ship is damaged even the slightest bit, Rogers, you’re fixing it.”

And so Steve guides Tony into the gray light of early dawn, fingers intertwined. When they emerge together onto the upper deck, all fighting ceases immediately.

It’s almost like somebody pressed pause on the whole scene, the whole world turning to witness the two supposedly rival captains, together.

The last thing in the world that they are is enemies. And now a little more of the world knows. The only part of the world that matters, at least. The pirate world. Their world. Their ships, their crews, their family. Their love is known.

#Pirate au #drabble #stevetony #Tony Stark #Steve Rogers #Iron man #captain America #this was SOOO fun #also peep pirate!peter hehe #i cannot emphasize enough how much i enjoyed writing this

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istheresomebodywhocanimagine · 5 years

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Champagne (SMUT)

anonymous said: I don’t know if you’re taking requests or if you’ve already wrote this but I’d love if you could do something about deacys fingers, like you make a bet that he can’t make you cum with only his fingers or something idk Just anything 😂 Thank youuuu

(a/n: i srsly rewrote this like three times and i’ve hated it every time but i cannot let myself delete it again so HERE IT IS fml this is the best i could do ily for requesting deacy tho he’s so cute. an actual angel)

“I’m just saying, champagne is not the first drink I’d think of when my girlfriend says we’re having a night in. I was expecting… I don’t know, not champagne?”

You giggled and laid your head back against the couch as John, your loving (and wine drunk) boyfriend, rested the base of his wine glass on your thigh. You were draped across his lap, half-watching a movie, and halfway through a few bottles of champagne. Tonight, you’d invited him over for a fun little night in, and now you were regretting it as he continued to give you hell for buying champagne as the drink of choice tonight. Apparently, it made him twice as sarcastic as he already was, and far more talkative.

“If you don’t want your champagne, I’ll certainly take it, babe,” you finally said, reaching for his glass and receiving a shocked look and disgusted noise in response, his glass moving out of your reach as fast as you’d ever seen John move.

“I can handle myself, thank you,” he retorted, hiccupping a moment after saying that and covering his mouth as he laughed at himself. “I’m not drunk, I swear. It’s the bubbles.”

“Wow, John, you lightweight,” you teased, finishing off your glass and standing up with a little difficulty, having to pause when you’d fully stood up. You felt dizzy, and John laughed at the horrified look on your face, pulling you back down onto his lap by your hips and grabbing the champagne bottle off the coffee table for you. He reached around you and poured the last of the second bottle into your glass, kissing your shoulder after he sat the bottle back on the coffee table.

“What were you saying about a lightweight?” he asked, drawing out the word lightweight and topping it off with a shit-eating grin. His hand went to rest on your thigh, his long fingers splaying out over your skin as he rested his chin on your shoulder. You were situated comfortably between his legs, your back resting against his torso and hand resting on top of his.

“Oh, shut it, Smart Mouth,” you whined, intertwining your fingers with his as you took another drink of your champagne. The bubbles tickled your throat as you drank it, but you didn’t mind the sensation. Champagne was one of your favorite drinks, even if I did make John one cheeky bitch.

He just made a smug noise and nuzzled your shoulder, watching the movie over it as you quietly twisted and turned your intertwined hands, admiring his fingers. You’d always loved the way he played, his fingers able to create magical, deep basslines that blew you away. He was quite a talented guy, but the magic really happened in his hands, more specifically, his fingers. They were rough, coarse almost, but that was to be expected when he played as much as he did. Also, you thought it gave them character. By comparison, yours were soft and small, John’s hand easily dwarfing yours as he gave your hand a gentle squeeze.

“Something wrong with my hand, love? Is it too sweaty?” he asked, rubbing his thumb over your knuckles and making you smile contently.

“No, just admiring your hands,” you stated plainly, as if it was obvious.

He laughed doubtfully, resting his head against yours and raising an eyebrow. “Oh? Are my hands admirable? Do tell, love.” As he shut up to let you speak, he nuzzled your hair, kissing your jaw gently and humming happily at the smell of your perfume.

“I love your hands, Deacy, is that odd? They’re so important; they make so many great songs.”

“Well, my hands thank you very much,” he chuckled, his nose grazing against your jaw as he dipped his head down to ghost affectionate kisses down your neck. In between kisses, he murmured, “My hands also told me to tell you that they can do much more than make a great song or two.” After that, he gently nipped at the soft flesh of your neck, making your stomach do a flip as you realized the champagne was doing more than just making him mouthy.

“No offense to your hands, but I’m going to call bullshit,” you countered, testing his patience as you felt him pause for a moment, his lips barely brushing against the spot he’d just bit. After biting your lip, you tested him even more. “What makes them that special? Yeah, you can play a mean bass, but other than that? Doubtful.”

He chuckled at that, setting his glass to the side as he moved his lips back up to your jaw, pressing kisses along there. Meanwhile, his free hand was sneaking up to your throat, not applying pressure, just resting there as he casually kissed along your jawline, taking his time.

“Don’t doubt me, love, my fingers can work you far better than they can work a bass,” he suddenly murmured, goosebumps raising on your arms as you shivered a bit at how his voice suddenly dropped. John was getting better about dirty talk, and you loved it. He’d been so timid when you’d first slept together, but a man has needs, and with your coaching, he’d gotten better about vocalizing those needs and letting you know what he was thinking.

“Prove it,” you replied, sounding a bit more cocky than you actually felt. John wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you back flush against him, and you could feel the outline of his bulge against your ass as he nuzzled your hair again, his hot breath raising more goosebumps. “I bet you can’t get me off with just your fingers.”

After a small moment of silence, he chuckled lowly and lightly traced his index finger along your collarbone. “When I win, what do I get?”

“If,” you corrected, chewing on your lip as you shifted your hips a bit, purposely grinding back against him so that his breathing became a bit more labored. “If you win, you get whatever you want.”

“Tempting,” he muttered, pressing kisses along your shoulder and considering the offer. His hand came up to cup your jaw, and you pouted slightly, as you wanted to speed up his decision. You knew he was going to win this bet, but he was taking his sweet time getting to it, and you were beginning to get antsy because of how turned on you already were at just his words and kisses.

You took one of his digits into your mouth and slowly swirled your tongue around it, sucking gently. Groaning at the sight, it was his turn to shift his hips uncomfortably, as that had turned him on way more than he’d expected it to. He pulled his finger out of your mouth and turned your jaw so that you were facing him, his hurried kiss that came next confirming that he’d agreed to the bet even if he hadn’t said so.

You kissed back eagerly, parting your lips and letting him slip his tongue into your mouth. This position was sort of uncomfortable for you, but you didn’t have the chance to focus on the discomfort long, because John was lifting your hips to pull your pajama shorts off, taking your panties with them. He disconnected his lips from yours and instead pressed a kiss to your shoulder as he snuck a hand under your shirt, running a calloused thumb over your nipple and making you hum in appreciation. He slowly massaged at your breast as his free hand snuck down to start rubbing your clit agonizingly slow, applying just enough pressure to make you whine softly, needy for more.

Your hips lifted up slightly to meet his hand, but he was quick to press them back down, pinching your nipple gently. “Patience, love,” he murmured, kissing the base of your throat as two of his fingers rubbed your clit in slow, languid circles.

You soon got your wish though, as John moved his hand down to slide a finger into you, his thumb taking over rubbing your clit as he curled his finger inside of you, a soft moan tumbling from your lips as he started pumping his finger slowly. Feeling John grin against your shoulder, you turned to bury your face in his hair this time, needing something to ground you in reality as his fingers deftly worked at your core and simultaneously toyed with your nipples.

When John dipped a second finger into you, you gasped and reached up to tangle your hand in his hair, gripping it lightly as your hips bucked a bit at the sudden sensation. He groaned softly at the feeling of you tugging at his hair, your quick, short breaths tickling his ear and making him dizzy as he tried to focus solely on pleasing you.

“Oh Christ, John,” you breathed out, your free hand resting on his forearm as your nails dug into the skin lightly, urging him to go faster.

He only half-smirked at that, his mind just clear enough that he pulled his fingers out of you and slowly ran them along your sex, teasing you and making you whimper at the loss. He then began rubbing your clit quickly, the pace change throwing you for a loop. You moaned his name and let your head fall back against his shoulder, the movie on the TV long forgotten as he trailed open-mouthed kisses up your neck.

After a moment, he pushed his fingers back into you again and he pumped them quickly, tracing circles around your nipples with his free hand as your back arched in pure pleasure, unable to vocalize just how much you were enjoying this. Words wouldn’t form in your brain correctly, John’s touch alone able to undo you like no one else’s touch ever had. You felt his ring brush over your nipple and you shivered at the feeling of the cold metal against your sensitive skin.

You felt pressure building up in your lower stomach area as John’s hand massaged your breast, his fingers curling inside you and hitting just the right spot to make your fingers curl up even more in his hair.

It was obvious to John that you were getting close too, your breathing becoming even more ragged as you grinded up into his hand, needing release quickly. So, he removed his fingers and started rubbing your clit in quick circles, applying a good amount of pressure to drive you closer and closer to the edge.

“Just let go, love,” he cooed, ghosting his lips back up to your jaw and pressing a kiss to the junction between your ear and your jaw. You whimpered softly, barely able to nod before you hit your climax, a strangled moan of his name escaping your lips as you came. “There it is, that’s my girl,” he murmured, watching as you trembled and let out a string of curses until you’d ridden out your high.

Ignoring the mess you’d just made on the couch, you let out a small sigh and turned your head so that you could press an affectionate kiss to the corner of John’s lips. He smiled lopsidedly at the gesture, pulling you in for another quick kiss. “I love you, John,” you murmured against his lips, eliciting a pleased noise from the back of his throat.

“I love you too, Y/N. Let’s get you cleaned up, yeah?” He reached over and grabbing some tissues so he could at least attempt to clean up the mess on the couch. That stain would be a bitch later, but neither of you were regretting it, at least not at this moment.

Once he’d done that, he went to clean you up but you grabbed his wrist, and he looked at you with a quizzical look in his eyes.

“No point in that,” you murmured, giving him a devilish grin as you turned to straddle his lap. Your fingers toyed with the hemline of his shirt, and a knowing smirk graced his lips as he pulled you in for a kiss that wasn’t the first and wouldn’t be the last for that long, champagne-fueled night.

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danfanciesphil · 6 years

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hello! i was wondering if you have any tips for me since youre studying creative writing rn and im kinda in a writers slump. i wrote fics last year but then depression got to me and i stopped. i wanna find inspiration again but im lost and i dont know how to start writing again. im also scared that people will be mean when i post. also i read birthday sex a while ago and loved everything! its truly a masterpiece

hello, i sure do have some tips for this! everyone gets blocked sometimes, don’t worry yourself over it. Check below the cut for my protips (lol)

1. Don’t beat yourself up! Sometimes you’re not up to writing, and it can’t be helped. As I am fond of reminding whoever will listen, writing is kind of like self-torture in a lot of ways. It’s emotionally exhausting, because you’re essentially drawing on your (often painful) memories and experiences, and channeling them into a work of art. Sometimes your brain won’t cooperate, and it’s okay. You need to be in the right frame of mind. You haven’t lost any talent, you’re just tired. Try again when you’re in a better mood.

2. Write what you love. Quiet that little voice in your mind that is asking who will want to read whatever you’re writing. It doesn’t matter. If you write something you want to write, your passion and creativity will shine through it, and people will learn to like it. Have you ever clicked a fic thinking ‘:/ im not sure this is my thing’, but then it’s written so amazingly that you end up loving it? I’ve had that happen a bunch! I’m really picky with reading fics lol, so I often start one assuming im gonna hate it, but then fall in love.

3. Prompts! When you’re stuck for an idea, prompts are a lifesaver! I really recommend this reddit thread for when you don’t know what to write. Or, if you want a purely phan prompt go to @phanfic and look at their prompts tags! Not only do prompts give you a jumping off point, but they also guarantee you a reader! The prompter is going to want to read what you write, no question! They’ll likely be so happy that you chose to complete the prompt that they’ll love it regardless!

4. Fanfiction. This is a broad one, but what I want to say here is that fanfiction, to me, is the world’s best training ground. Think of it like the colosseum - you are a gladiator. You have these characters to play with, and an empty stadium to fill with whatever you want. Literally anything you can imagine. It’s daunting, sure, but the point is, go nuts! Try out that mermaid!phil au you’ve been thinking about on and off - see if it works! If it doesn’t, drain the colosseum of water, and put dnp in fucking tents on the side of everest. Try everything! Write write write, explore your talents, find what your strengths are!

5. Daydream! Fantasise your tits off, srsly. My secret is that I plan all my storylines as I’m falling asleep. I make it play out like a movie in my head, I imagine what they’ll say, how it will happen. Then, the next day, I’ll write it out. There’s nothing stopping you from making up this stuff in your head, so dream about it over and over, refine it in your mind until it’s how you want it, and then write it down!

6. Beta’s are everything. I’m gonna be lame and shout out my absolute fave @manschester for being the loml and the greatest beta a girl could ask for. Find a friend that likes your writing, isnt afraid to be honest with you, and will help u out with writing. My fave thing to do with Nova is open up a google doc of mine or her latest chapter, send her the link (or vice versa) and either she watches me write and comments/edits as i go, or i do the same for her. it’s honestly the most helpful thing ever to have someone else’s eyes on it. It also helps you to feel confident about posting! Beta beta beta.

7. Patience. You’re not gonna go from 0-100. I’m 23. I’m pretty happy with my writing atm, but I remember feeling that way at 16. And if I look at the stuff I wrote when I was 16 I crrrringe. You’ll improve with time and practice. You just will. UNLESS you don’t keep at it. The best thing about the phandom is how fucking awesome and supportive it is as a community. There’s no better place to share and improve your gift. People will always want to read about our faves dip and pop. Just let yourself have the small victories at first. Treasure each comment, each nice review. And keep going.

I hope any of this helps!

And thank you so much for being lovely about Birthday Sex, I’m so happy you liked it :D xxx

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ourlittlebitofnothinguniverse · 6 years

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All for the video game ask. (do I need to mention only if u r comfy w/ it at this point). Love you!!

alright u done done it now bitchhhhhhhh are u READY 4 THIS SHIT (dshfa;lkj thamk i am so pumped ur my biggest enabler) i already answered a couple of these for anon but i’ll go ahead and answer them here as well

1. First game you played obsessively?hmmmm i wanna say the legend of spyro the eternal night? i played it so much i could beat the whole game in four hours. i’ve heard lots of ppl actually hated the legend of spyro trilogy but honestly they can suck my ass i loved them

2. A game that has influenced you creatively? Writing, drawing, etc.uh besides my answer for anon of skyrim not many games have actually just straight up influenced my art style but i’ve been playing this game called Fe (not fire emblem just Fe) and i really want to draw fanart for it bc it’s super cute if that Counts as influence?

3. Who did you play with as a kid?if this is meant in terms of co-op games nobody bc we didn’t have anyif just in general, my sister for the most part. i’d watch her play things like resident evil and she’d help me with the hard parts in medievil and crash bandicoot warped (read: racing levels)

4. Who do you play with now?myself lmao i don’t rly like co-op and multiplayer games and i prefer to play most games by myself

5. Ever use cheat codes?like i told anon, no bc i don’t know how they work and i’d probably only use them for the sims anyways

6. Ever buy strategy guides?not really? once we bought the collectors edition for diablo II when i was little and it included the strategy guide which i stayed up all night to read (bc i had run out of other reading materials in the house) but like i don’t really use them idk

7. Any games you have multiple copies of?the sims three and i know you know the reason why but in case anybody else wants to know: i didn’t know they had actually completely changed the game since i had played it last probably a decade ago so i bought it @ walmart this year and then i got mad bc it apparently SUCKS ASS now so in search of a copy of the original version i bought a second one from amazon bc the Image being used WAS of the original case but it really was the new version so now i have two SHITTY SHITTY VERSIONS of a game i used to love that i will never play bc it’s shit except maybe i will bc apparently it has real life music in it just replaced with sims language which is amazing and this response is far too long for the question but i asked u if u were ready so u signed up 4 thisi also have an xbox version of it tht i got for like christmas or smth years ago and a,,,,,, ds version??? that i got last year bc somebody was selling “the original version of the game including every expansion pack” for only like $30 and it definitely said disk version but when i got it it was this Pre-owned Dirty Ds Cartridge Covered In What Looked Like Strawberry Jelly and when i tried to contact them they shut their page down so there’s that which equals four shitty shitty copies of the sims three and i will never be more mad about anything than i am about this

8. Rarest/Most expensive game in your collection?uh well back when i had a job i spent A Lot of money (to me it was a lot) to get the collectors edition of the last guardian so that would be my most expensive. other than that i would have to say one of the hardest to find (maybe not rare but not common)games i have currently is medievil for ps1 bc it took me like a week of searching to find a copy in good condition online for sale bc i rly wanted to own it again since we had to sell all my old games when we moved to oregon which sucked bc we had a Bunch of cool games (mostly early ps era)

9. Most regrettable purchase?did you see my rant about the sims three for answer 7? yeah

10. Ever go to a midnight game release or stand in line for hours?never lived in an area where that is A Thing

11. Have you ever made new friends from playing video games?i wanna make a homestuck joke here (srsly probably not like i said i don’t rly do any type of co-op or multiplayer games so)

12. Ever get picked on for liking games?not really?? is that a Thing?

13. A game you’ve never played that everyone else has?uh idk literally any COD game, basketball games, Fallout games, overwatch, anything that’s co-op, shooter games or sports related etc idk i’m a simple fellow these types of games don’t appeal to me

14. Favorite game music?idk what this means? like genre-wise??? idk abt stuff like that i just like good game music but i’ll tell you the fuck what, hiveswap music fuckin SLAPPED

15. If it was a requirement to get a game related tattoo, what would you pick?fuck shit idk man i don’t rly want a tattoo maybe uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh smth that could be vague

16. Favorite game to play with your friends IRL?idk rip lmao

17. Ever lose a friend over a game?Nah man i can’t even imagine smth as dumb as that unless they’re screaming racist or sexist slurs bc then friendship is terminated but otherwise like wtf it’s just a game,,,

18. Would you date someone that hates gaming?i mean?????? sure????????????? they don’t have to game with me??????????? unless they tell me I can’t game bc they don’t like it in which case Bye u controlling piece of shit

19. Favorite handheld console?u kno those games that used to come in sonic happy meals? yah (jk uh i don’t have much experience w/ handheld consoles besides nintendo ds-es and they’re cool)

20. Game that you know like the back of your hand?like i said i played spyro the eternal night so often i could beat it in four hours so probably that one.

21. Game that you didn’t like or understand as a kid but love now?the only games i didn’t like as a kid i p much still don’t like now

22. Do you wear game related clothing/accessories?i am Poor

23. The game that you’ve logged the most hours into?currently skyrim or stardew valley

24. First Pokemon game?I didn’t get to play any pokemon games until this year actually but i got myself pokemon y and ultra sun so those are my first two! although you Could technically say pokemon go bc i played that for the first time like One month before i got y and ultra sun but like idk if tht counts so *shrug emoji*

25. Were you ever an arcade game player?i never lived where arcades were a thing tbh

26. Ever form any gaming rivalries?Why

27. Game that makes you rage?there’s this absolutely adorable and INFURIATING game called so many me that’s a puzzle platformer but the controls are so ridiculously precise that it’s absolutely the WORST to play bc unless you do it just right at just the right millisecond you will die over and over and over

28. Ever play in a tournament?nah

29. What is your gaming set up?the livingroom tv and my mom’s xbox one or my bedroom with my ps4 i got for my birthday and my xbox 360 that i got like 7 years ago

30. How many consoles do you own?alright so If ds-es count i own,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, roughly seven? i have my new ps4 i got for my birthday last year, my 7 year old xbox 360, another xbox 360 i bought from a kid @ school, a ps1 i bought last year for the Nostalgia that’s in rly good condition, a rly old ds lite a rly old 3ds and my new pokeball 2dsxl. i would also say that the ps3 my aunt left when she died is mine bc my mom never used it and she had bought most of the games For Me and Her to play together anyways so the idea that she left it to my mom is,,,, Weird but my mom claims it was left to her so Shrug emoji

31. Does the 3DS and/or Virtual Boy hurt your eyes or give you headaches?“virtual boy” i love it omg. uh not really i don’t use my ds-es that often bc i don’t have a just wild amount of games but when i do use them it doesn’t rly mess w/ my brain or eyes too much

32. Did you ever play a game based on your favorite show/cartoon/movie/comic?probably not?

33. Did you ever have any bootleg games or plug-n-play games?i don’t think so tbh

34. Do either of your parents play video games?my mom does but she really only plays like three games (the newest assassins creed, skyrim, and stardew valley)

35. Ever work in a game store? Or do you have a favorite game shop?nope

36. Have you ever shed actual blood, sweat or tears over a game?man have u ever heard of brotherhood a tale of two sons? mom told me abt it and she didn’t warn me abt how it ended and i had to leave the room and cry bc it broke my heart

37. Have you played E.T. for the Atari 2600? Do you think that’s the worst game ever, or do you have another nomination?i didn’t know that was a thing

38. A game you’re ashamed to admit that you like?i can’t think of any tbh. oh wait i take that back sonic unleashed it’s terrible but i love it

39. A sequel that you would die for them to make?maybe not a sequel but they rly need to come out with another stardew valley type thing or maybe expansions or smth so that you can talk to and befriend more ppl and stuff

40. What to you think of virtual reality headsets or motion controls?never been able to try them but they look super fun and i can’t wait to see how they improve the technology

41. A genre that you just can’t get into?multi-player games period. also first person shooters and sports games. there’s more but i can’t remember the title of the game bc i don’t know what genre it would be lmao

42. Maybe it wasn’t your first game, but what was the game that started you on your path to nerdiness?i assume this means game related nerdiness not just my inherent nerdiness in general so probably the very first spyro game

43. Ever play games when you really should have been concentrating on something else?all the time my dude

44. Arcade machine that has consumed the most of your quarters?none

45. How are you at Mario Kart?probably shit i’m not good @ steering in games

46. Do you like relaxing games like Animal Crossing or Harvest Moon?i love them! i have like 100+ hours logged into stardew valley and i only got it in like november of last year

47. Do you like competitive games?not really

48. How long does it take your to customize your player character?so long. i either have to make them gorgeous or beautifully hideous

49. In games where you can pick your class, do you always tend to go for the same type of character?yah tbh lmao. i have like eight thief stone khajits in skyrim rn

50. If you were a game designer, what masterpiece would you create?i have a Lot of ideas and not all of them are good

51. Have you ever played a game for so long that you forgot to eat or sleep?forgetting to sleep, yes. forgetting to eat? no

52. A game that you begged your parents for as a kid?i was a very sheltered kid i didn’t know about new games coming out when i was little bc we didn’t have any way for me to find out About Them. i’m making up for it by begging as an adult for ni-no-kuni II and the new spyro trilogy remastered

53. What’s your opinion on DLC these days?depends on the game tbh some of it is good and a lot of ppl who make mods are rly talented but sometimes the big companies just make dlc to make more money so it can be rly shitty so it’s kinda a 50/50

54. Do you give in to Steam sales?heck yes rn i’m waiting for house flipper to go on sale bc i’ve been waiting for it to come out since i found out abt it

55. Did you ever make someone you hated in the Sims and did mean stuff to them?no my style of playing the sims was more along the lines of make a hundred houses that are all P Much The Same House and making a hundred familys and never playing literally any of them hadflskja;sdfjdslkhja i just liked building stuff and that’s why i’m pissed abt how much they changed the sims three bc it used to be Way Better

56. Did you ever play Roller Coaster Tycoon and kill off your guests?we didn’t have it but i did have zoo tycoon and i’d release the dinosaurs sometimes

57. Did you ever play a game to 100% or get all of the achievements?legend of spyro the eternal night

58. If you can only play 3 games for the rest of your life, which ones do you pick?uh!!! that’s too much pressure and i would get so bored playing them for the rest of my life even if i loved them so i will not choose

59. Do you play any cell phone games?sort of? i’m big into abyssrium and i like viridi if those Count?

60. Do you know the Konami Code???????????????????????? guess not

61. Do you trade in your games or keep them forever?keep them forever!

62. Ever buy a console specifically to play one game?i got the last guardian before getting the ps4 does that answer ur question? (jk that is not the only reason i wanted and got the ps4 but it was One big reason)

63. Ever go to a gaming convention or tournament? nah

64. Ever make a TV or monitor purchase based on what would be best for gaming?not really? i just use whatever i currently have bc i am lame

65. Ever have a Game Genie, Game Shark or Action Replay? Did it ever mess up your game’s save file?nope

66. Did you ever have have an old Nokia with Snake on it?not a nokia but we had this one handheld thing that had a bunch of games in it that included snake i just can’t remember what it was it had like letters and numbers and it needed like regular batteries and you could only play the games that came programmed on it

67. Do you have a happy gaming-related childhood memory you want to share?i cannot think of any right off the top of my head even though i know i played a lot of video games and loved them when i was little. hm it might not count as like a gaming-related childhood memory and more of just a memory of a game but we did have one really interesting little game that i absolutely loved i think we only rented it but u were a scientist who could turn into a mouse and it was absolutely amazing i loved it i have no idea what it was called hm

68. Ever save up a ton of tickets in an arcade to get something cool?not really we didn’t have arcades around where i grew up

69. In your opinion, best game ever made? there are a lot of rly good ones i can’t choose a best game

70. Very first game you ever beat? like i told anon i’m p sure it was crash bandicoot warped

WHEW this was rly fun thank u for enabling me it took me like two hours to answer this i’m so happy. ilu 2 man hope ur day has been rad!

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freshfromthegraveyard · 6 years

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Bullying.

Super random.

As a kid who was bullied less by other students and more so by teachers.

I was bullied for my brain not matching my exterior. Being an embassy brat, when I came to the US for school I often was and still act like a foreigner in my own country. But I am a blonde white girl. So this was never well received. Not grasping certain things was seen as an act, or attention seeking. If I had the nerve to correct a teacher on something about a country I lived in. I was shot down in a publicly humiliating manor to ensure I knew my place. If I looked like someone from that country I gurantee they would have actually opened up the floor for me to discuss my homeland.

When I did start gaining weight due to an emotional trigger. I did still for some reason always maintain confidence in other areas. Like I knew I was getting chubby and fatter. But was like meh, whatever I'm still smart, funny and can draw. Heck I'm still a beast in PE. Running sucks but I can still do other shit. So I wasn't always picked last. I still had friends. If my weight was mocked I kind of got it and was like yah I did get fat but I can loose it. I was always active so it was never hard to lose a lil chub. Sadly I did go way past chub into super fat town and man losing that shit was hard and daunting. Still was the same me no matter what school I went to. Still made friends.

The only people I got super offended by when they made fun of my weight was the teachers. Because again, your an Adult picking on a kid. That is a low blow a cheap shot. Remarkably my bad grades have nothing to do with being fat. I don't go home and be like oh donuts well no time for school work. I will always have a learning disability, and a massive sleep disorder. Meds do help. I hate being one of THOSE people who fall under the excuses department but it is like night and day. It is not as simple as stfu and pay attention. I even got mad at myself thinking I was dumb because of this. Like yup, those honors classes you take now are just because of the meds. Your actually an idiot. Why do you take those AND a special class, why do you still take your tests in the library or have to read in total silence? Your dumb that's why! So I went off my meds to prove a point. The point wound up being my grades dropped and everything was so much more of a struggle. The stress was awful. It was the stupidest thing I could have done to myself. But just in case other generations feel that learning disabilities are cop outs. Please know. They aren't. Infact some people get tested for adult learning disabilities and it changes their lives.

Anyway, on back to bullying.

At one school, when I was first gaining the weight. I still had friends. I was still given the frog eye because of my white girl forgienerism, thankfully at that time I was in a private school and the teachers did not bully me about it because new flash private schools get military brats. Though I always had to write papers on countries I hadn't been to. Good call actually.

But here is the kicker. Though my bullying did not really start until public schools. Again I cannot stress enough that what was done by teachers was far more damaging then anything some kid could say.

I did, possibly unlike some bullied.

I always noticed who else was bullied.

I'm an odd lil bird in that, while I could be entirely self absorbed and be all about me. I remember who and why other kids for bullied.

I bet most people will think since I got bullied for being plump I only root for body positivity of the plump sort. You couldn't be more wrong.

The ONE person who had it the worst at the private school, was a tall lanky girl. She wanted the same thing all us girls wanted. To be like the cool girls at the time. She was thin due to her incredible metabolism, and her height, she was shy, and due to being made stand out, only getting shier. She was one of the first people I remember talking on my first day of school other then Rosemary a girl who just was genuinely cute and nice. I've yet to meet a Rosemary who wasn't. I get a whisper from a fellow student not to talk to this thin girl too much. I'm like.....why? Their like, well she's just kind of strange. I'm like, I'm new, so logically I'm gonna be the resident strange kid for a while. But how is she strange exactly. She just seems quite. Their like exactly. I'm like, 11 and confused af. I'm like, wait why is being quite weird in a bad way? Before I could spit most of that out the teacher agree on my suggestion of being quite. Being a embassy brat, I had NO probably striking up new convos with perfect strangers. Ie kids at a school I just met. Before the hell that was HS. I was anything BUT shy. When you move around a lot you need to make friends fast. That and I was born not giving a shit and thinking I was the shit. Before the weight gain I assure you I was cute as hell with attitude to spare. So I was not entirely wrong.

I didn't let this why is silent bad thing go. I still talked to this mysterious thin girl. I sat with her at lunch. Prior to that I kept asking why her just being quite was bad. They said it just made them uncomfortable. I did ask the obvious of did it ever occur to you guys that you treating her weird makes her silent. Their like no she came that way. I couldn't argue because a lot of these kids did know eachother since kindergarten so ya know. They maybe right even if it is wrong. In case you have not guessed. Being raised an only kid, overseas you have bennies of being treated like an adult and being more logical then a kid the same age. Hence why I sound more adult in this story cuz I always was even if I still enjoyed childish endeavors *Like I still do*

Here is the heart breaker. The thin girl at lunch enjoyed my company. I made her laugh a lot that day and got her talking *novel concept when you reach out to someone* at the end of lunch though. She said, this was nice but ya know you shouldn't really hang around me the other kids will black ball you. I'm like yeah, I don't care. She's like no, you should. I appreciate it, but another group has tried and the other kids make life hard on them. I'm like well I extra don't care. I said your kind of in luck. I don't stay at schools very long so by the time they do that to me I will probably be moving. Plus being the new kid I will be resident weirdo for a while. I can play dumb for a long time and befriend the black balled.

I told her which, I don't get why. I said, being shy is the last reason someone should be pushed aside. Granted it took me a few times to get you to talk BUT I gotcha damnit *swearing in Catholic school woot* *at a whisper less woot*

So I made friends, with the very group she spoke of who had made efforts to friend her. I also was friends with other groups. Including 2 class clowns, 2 twin black girls who too me for forever to realize they were twins. I had one jerk kid who ironically was a pretty chubby dude to be so judgy about me being a chubby chick. But I still was friends with thin girl be damned. Needed a book shared in class and no one would share with her. ME! And don't be fooled our one class clown never had a homework buddy because surprise ppl thought he couldn't be serious. ME! I think the funniest thing that happened at that school was rainy day recess where class was divided up for games. Started up with normal dictionary teams. Then Okay Megan is really good at this, let's pair her with the one person who isn't. Okay still really good at this both drawing and guessing. Let's make the team's be class vs Megan. It's only fair. Sorry it still amuses me. My one glory day.

Back to bullying.

Though at the private school, bullying was far minimal. and kids really had to be imaginative. Since we all wore uniforms. Kids had to be like, well they make us laugh, but he's probably not serious about his hw. Woo. Wow. Lame. She's too quite. So lame. She's too smart. All of these are so damn lame. And let's face it none are bad qualities. Sorry the kid finds hw boring and is a quick whit. You actually have to be smart to be fast in humor. She's quite. So she's reserved and actually nice if you reach out. Your only too smart if you can't use your book sense.

Now, public school. Girl was made fun of for being too thin, having the nerve to go through puberty *ie acne* and also was very shy, if not stand offish, not dressing nice enough. If anything, id say she tried to look her worst regardless of what students said. I could go on about warning signs this child had. My mom caught them instantly. Did the school? NO

Turns out she was being molested by her stepdad. Like, srsly. My mom met her once and got it. Oy. So sad. I have a lot of guilt for not being able to communicate better with her though.

Anyway, another girl, got made fun of for having big boobs which she hated especially during PE. I don't blame her.

Yet another girl made fun of for being too thin. She was petite and had all brothers. So she was small and mean.

Another girl was shaped more like a guy and strong. She excelled in some PE sports but still made fun of.

Guys, same deal. If they had curly hair that's a pain to style. Chubby but not good at sports. And idky other kids care if you are good at grades or not? Like, we all have the same hw if you can spell congrats. Some ppl have dyslexia so ya know kindly fuck off.

Why does a grade make you popular or not?

It's odd to me. It's like, you need to get good grades but not TOO GOOD cuz then your too smart and it's also weird. Public school bullying. Lawd have mercy. Talk about a new level of awful.

Again, I was attacked publically by teachers. Who decided I was infact fat and stupid and somehow cheating at art?

I had art taken away from me as it was a distraction. Since I was bad at reading out loud all of my work was to be delivered in this fashion. I corrected a teacher on some foreign affairs, as he got locations, pronunciation, law, and well just a fucking lot wrong about a country I lived in for so long. I held myself back on so much but it was like he was getting everything confused with an entirely different country. For one thing he was still mentioning a city by it's old name. Like omg update

your book man!!! When I finally sad something he blew a stack and made sure everyone in the class was aware of how fat and ignorant I was.

When I told my parents. Boy did they come undone. At the parent teacher conference this same teacher said "if Megan would put down the donuts and study this wouldn't be an issue" yah my dad pinned him to a wall by his neck. Mind you this was after he had already

Made repeated digs at me, my family, and pretty much anything we could stand for. My parents also made the argument that if a student was a concert pianist or a ballet dancer. Would they take away their craft? No. So why take away my art? Both piano and ballet are considered art. Needless to say this battle of the teachers vs parents and all the horrible things they said and did was not over. Two shrinks were involved, and the state was called in. Their shrink and our shrink. The shrinks wound up agreeing and asked the state to come in for a learning disability test. Hence me first getting diagnosed. The shrinks also needed the teachers to understand something. They brought my mom in, since the one teacher now feared my father *not that my mom couldn't take him* the teachers sat down, the shrinks showed them pics of me thin and active and the dates. They show me chubby then thin again due to being an active kid. They then ask when my recent weight gain started. My mom didn't even hesitate she just took off her wig from cancer to reveal her bald head and said about when this happened. She said she was studying to finalize some culinary school work at a local college. She said she knows her daughter felt food was an emotional way to be close to her. My shrink said. Sometimes fat is better then too thin. You can lose fat. You can't undo the damages of too thin if bulimia sets in.

So you'd think the teachers would back off. Ha. No. That one male teacher persisted that everyone has problems and I needed to suck it up. I was now all of 12. He loved making fun of me. I also noticed, though I was his favorite to pick on. I was not alone. He hated anyone who could not read out loud flawlessly. He hated anyone who was not athletic and bragged about his triathlons to this day I get an eye tick around the word. Friend of mine was a solid A student. Read flawlessly outloud. But guess what she had some small kid pudge on her. The second her history teacher went into his class. There goes her straight As. She got a B- in his class. Never on tests with multiple choice, just written work and general performance. Ya know subjective stuff. Not shady at all. Mom got wind and had enough. She sat in his class one day. In my friends class no less. Not mine on purpose. She sat their and made fun of him the way he did us. She's like hey kids, I know this guy makes fun of all the students. Let's make fun of him the same way. Isn't he kind of short? Like really short. I met his wife, he must use a step ladder to kiss her. He's also bald. Notice how he only keeps pictures of himself in tight triathlon clothes or old pics with long hair. Think he's compensating for something?? Who keeps pics of themselves on their desk!?! My husband has his family. Self centered much?

And what's with those triathlons anyway?

We notice you hate fatties. Were you a fatty? Do you run from calories? Did a fatty break your heart? What is it? Why do you hate them So? She's like, actually, it doesn't matter. Whatever your problem is it should not be taken out on children. My mom continued. She's like, ya know why he picks on you kids. One your the only people smaller then him. Two he is to cowardly to stand up to other adults. My husband pinned him against a wall and his eyes nearly popped out of his head from terror. Yeah. All talk this little fart. He obviously was livid talking over her saying she can't do this, he's calling the cops for trespassing.

Apparently when she opened the room up to the kids to pick at him they had a bunch of weird shit they noticed he does. One kid said he's just jealous because everyone likes his wife as a teacher better. That's why he made her stay home with the kids or keep having a kid. She's like everyone liked her? Whole room was like best teacher award every year!

Lol this dude didn't speak for days he was just fuming. It got better when, guess what my mom met his wife and put on her best cute, sweet innocent lady routine. I remember walking to our truck, douche teacher behind me. *cuz of course I had to stay after in his class for some kind of punishment*

His wife was all smiles at my mom, looked over at him with such a look. My mom had an evil smile looking at him like. Checkmate mother fucker. I sat in the truck, waiting for her. Dressed daper. Smiling. She sets behind the wheel, we drive off. She's like well we tried the proper channels first. He made me play dirty but I assure you the war is over.

So, turns out, his wife was a loved teacher BECAUSE she had a lot of patience for her students and taught both standard and kids with learning disabilities. So to say she was understanding is an understatement. I mean, my mom didn't know this when speaking to her. It was actually a whim, when she saw her while waiting to pick me up and just got to talking.

Anyway, the point of this INSANELY long post.

Is as a kid that was not so much bullied by peers as much as by teachers. I also was not always bullied about my weight as much as just being considered an attention seeking liar THEN my intelligence and weight was thrown in for extra damage.

It is true, the book by its cover. I am still a foreigner in a American white girl body. I still have some wires crossed. I still don't know all customs or referrences. My spelling is bad. My accent isnt. Family was 2 people. My perspective is Global. Africa, Asia, an American Farm is my background.

Bullying, just cuz I got fat. Doesn't mean I didn't see the people who got made fun of for being too thin. Before I stopped struggling in school. I noticed kids got bullied for their grades. As if the school and parents are not going to add enough pressure. If you have a talent that is not a sport or a musical instrument. You are not of value. Which is funny in a society that worships actors and models. All of whom rarely look a thin like they look like now in school.

There have been a lot of school shootings over the years. I remember when Columbine happened.

Remember early on in my status of the thin girl? Regardless of people telling me again and again that I would be some social pyria for being nice to her. I still did it. Over and over. I did more to make myself look stupid then she ever could have. Nothing ever happened to me because of her. Even if it had. I wouldn't have cared. Because I had a friend in her. We would at least be weirdos together was my logic.

If you make the effort. More then once. Because some shells are really hard to crack. Because some people have been hurt a lot. At least you tried. In COLLEGE none the less. My roommate and I met quite possibly the most socially awkward creature alive. We tried repeatedly to make friends or at least make peace with this creature. To no damn ivale. Senior yr this person asked me why no one likes them. I told them that wasn't fair because we all have made efforts to involve them in groups, shinnangans, hang out, we even through JUST them a birthday party. We have all made the effort. It's a two way street. I said basically you want friends like robots. You want us to turn on when you want us and power down in an instant when you are done with us and offer nothing in return. You also cannot be rude to ppl and expect forgiveness when there is really no foundation or trust built. We can say honest things because we know that friend is a friend and is sincere and cares for our best interest. You tend to think blurting out something offensive saying no offensive it's just my opinion and smiling is some how okay. It's just awkward.

So in that particular occassion. 4 years. My friend and I, as well as others. Genuinely tried to make friends or something with this person. Some people just want or view friendship differently. They may find a perfect fit later who is not you. But DAMNIT you tried. With bullying I just want people to reach out.

And if you see someone IN THE PROCESS of being bullied. Get off your ass and intervene.

Believe it or not, confusion is a great tactic.

Say 3 ppl are picking on a kid at lunch in your school. You could approach and interupt. You do not have to get personal. If they pick on you next. Point that out. Like what tools they are that that is all they can do. Bring friends over to help break it up. Honestly when I say confusion is a great weapon I mean it. Make up gibberish and start talking like that. Speak another language the bullies won't know. Anything that will just frustrate them and make them leave. Essentially your goal is to not engage with them, be as annoying as possible and make them leave. Another strategy is to be as agreeable as possible, so sickeningly friendly that they also lose their momentum. Gauge your situation, the energy and see which would work best. They sound absurd but diffusing a situation is far better.

The key is, don't sit by and let someone suffer.

Don't join in. Also guess what. As juicey and fun as gossip seems especially in school. Guess what, it's usually lies and incredibly harmful. If you partake you are an accessory to bullying. Shocking I know.

Learning how stop gossip in it's tracks when you are young is a great life lesson.

Sadly you will run into gossip at all stages of life. So stopping it, ...as best you can. When your young. Can safe a life!

The thing about gossip. If people don't have good dirt on someone, they will make shit up. Movies like Mean Girls and Easy A point this out. I've heard gossip about myself or friends and some is almost laughable how ridiculous it is. But going up to someone and being like hey is it true this that or the other. Or treating them different all of a sudden. As if we also don't hear the whispers.

Gossip is just a form of bullying. So think about it as being an accessory to a crime. It is equally as serious. Like a crime, you have the power to stop it.

So many people talk of the mass shootings, what about the kids who are as young as 8 taking their own lives due to bullying.

I really cannot stress enough, to please, if you see someone being bullied. Help that victim in the moment. Step in, bring back up. Be confusing. Be nice. Be whatever it takes to save a life or lives.

Also it is clear the bullying is caused from something. Usually bullies are being bullied themselves or have some sort of problem.

I remember reading one story of a bully who came unhinged over the smallest thing. Would lie in wait and actually burned another child with scalding hot water. Now that story was a case for mental illness. Which brings me to a situation. If a person is a bully and being bullied by someone else. Like another sibling, a parent, or so forth. That is rough because really not everyone can afford counseling which is what that would require. Next if someone is displaying violence due to a mental illness that too would require counseling, psychiatric and possibly medication down the road. All expensive.

It's not fair that mental healthcare of any kind is a luxury. When no one chooses to have mental health issues. Most insurance companies only allow so many visits. Not nearly enough to scratch the surface of a garden much less the human mind. Plus if medication was involved, that is such an arguous process. Any mental health medication is a huge battle of trial and error and all medications take a while to get into your system. For one to be properly judged for mental health, has to be in your system long enough for you to have had your moods elevated. Essentially were you challenged at all in 6 months time? Did you have a reason to get angry, or be depressed. Anything to trigger mood swings to see how the medication altered your brains reaction.

I mean damn. That is a lot to wait for, and rarely does the first shoe fit.

After working in a local ER. I realized how sad, and how many holes are in our health care system. How long people have to wait to see anyone. How long for a room to become available. How short your treatment is.

At the same turn. When you come across none feeling bullies. The type they tell young kids to kill themselves. That hound them every day and night. Stalk them on any outlet they can find. Because they have nothing better to do then bring one person misery. When do they become accountable?

I do believe some bullies need help to stop the cycle. I also believe some have shown signs that they live a charmed life, are not bullied themselves and show no signs of a mental illness. They have admitted to just being board. *maybe the mental illness is in the path family ;>_>*

Anyway, for those few bullies that qualify. I just wonder if they should be held accountable for say a wrongful death. If the person they taunted or catfished killed themselves.

I often think that because bullying has no consequences that that is why it continues.

That if it had something truly scary to face. Maybe then kids would cut the shit.

We all know, those who have been bullied. That if you talk to an authority figure. Absolutely NOTHING happens. You still get bullied.

ladies. Hahaha isn't that rich?

And what of those rare occasions where those teachers where beaten by students on a gang like scene? What then?

Or in reverse in my situation? Where I was bullied for the majority of my life BY the faculty. Who do I turn to in a school and say, your staff is picking on me?

My last job had a bullying situation.

It was unbelievable to watch unfold. It wasn't even in my department per say. In the employee handbook it said they took bullying seriously. They had a senior staff member who was a out of control bully. She had great work history, but I guess her head got too big. She bullied everyone something awful and they lost countless people due to it. Here's the thing, while she did EVENTUALLY get fired for bullying. It took a while. A lot of new employees where very honest about why they were leaving. Many current employees made it known that all the reasons things never progressed or moral was low was bullying. Apparently this was brought up in staff meetings but went no where. It finally came to a head when they got a new boss on the floor, and a long time employee moved from one department down to that one. I guess her statement was more believable then that of new employees saying I'm leaving because I was bullying.

The thing that bothers me is. A why would a new employee lie? A new employee wants to fit in. They want to do there best. They have to learn the motion of the ocean real quick. They wanted that job. I doubt they wanted to leave that job so quickly. For one it never looks good on a resume. Do you know how defeating it is to be bullied that bad into leaving?

That is why I find it sad they did not listen to the previous statements. I understand that for a bullying case to stick. I guess they needed plenty of evidence. I know they certainly had it.

But in the case of schools. A friend of mine teachers whee toddlers. From babies to 3yr olds. And she has told me how early they start bullying.

Back to my statement on whether it's mental illness, they are being bullied elsewhere or if nothing at all is wrong. Are factors. Because listening to her. She has seen all three that young already and it's like wow if you can catch it that early. Again we could save lives on both sides of the situation.

Sorry random memory lane. Coupled with some random thoughts about current events.

#bullying #mass shooting #stop bullying #suicide #help #overseas #mental health #children #teens #young adults #gossip #don't be assholes #morel of the story

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abscessedanxiety · 6 years

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srsly AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i KNOW that like people in generally, i should just proudly be myself and do my own thing in art. my art is my art and that’s the only thing it ever needs to be.

BUT i just can’t help myself from feeling inferior again and again when i see others doing cool and wonderful art and it looks to me so much better than what my art would ever be. the character designs better and more unique, the techniques better handled and everything just so much more intriguing and amazing and aaaaaaa better in EVERY WAY

and then i feel like worthless garbage. it’s like my brain doesn’t know how to admire and appreciate other people’s works without simultaneously putting myself down and seeing my own works as mundane and boring since they’re so normal and less admirable to myself.

i think one of the main points in this is that i can never see my own art as so special as i see many others’ art. mine are too familiar and sadly depend on my own effort, which often makes them lower quality and makes me bored with them. i can’t feel the same way at my own character designs for example, i can never look at an oc of my own like “OHMIGOSH THAT’S SO COOL I LOVE IT” bc... although i may love some my own ocs and my drawings, it’s not enough to make me actually feel good and confident about them.

every time i get positive feedback on my art, i’m so happy!! it’s the biggest thing that makes me feel like what i do is worthwhile. it’s much harder for me to motivate myself, because i keep blaming myself and i can’t escape my own thoughts and feelings. but when someone tells me they like my art and see it as good and soulful and unique, it feels so good. a person who doesn’t have the same biased viewpoint on my art as i do can perhaps see something i can’t. and that is priceless to me.

i just wish i could hold on to that feeling. but it doesn’t work. i can’t. i don’t see the things i want to see in my art nor can i lie to myself about my own feelings.

#personal #vent #artist problems #angst ahead #beware

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kakihoden · 7 years

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1. What kind of food can’t you stand?: FISH, especially Fried Tilapia. I dunno. I loved fish as a kid, but now just the smell of it makes my stomach churn. Oh, and broccoli. GDI the first time I tasted it was traumatic :’D

2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick?: losing my pencils -- for a person who draws often losing these babies is kinda ironic, isn’t it?

3. Have you got any useless talents?: Uhm.... I can sleep anywhere. LOL

4. If you could be really really good at one thing, what would it be?: drawing.it’s literally the oldest hobby i have so :/

5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking: real people?! okay, dumb question. i kinda view people’s faces as equal, but there are particular people who stand out. i love looking at Eva Green and Angelina Danilova. my girl crushes :v

6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid?: doodle doodle on the wall; wait for my mama’s angry call :’D

7. What is something you’re proud of?: uhm... I dunno. I don’t dwell much on myself on a positive light, so I haven’t really thought of the things I should be proud of. Unless it means something else? IDK lels

8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate?: being self-righteous, or being too self-important. I tend to act cold towards people like these cuz duuuuuhhhh. I’d rather treat you like fart than say mean things cuz people like these aren’t really worth getting work up over.

9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower?: Back when I was a youthful optimistic fellow, I have, indeed proven myself able to be a leader, but now I just wanna be a follower. Energy-saving mode on unnecessary things :D

10. What kind of student are/were you?: When I was in high school, I was the overrated student. And it sucked because teachers placed high expectations against my will when in fact I am the lazy student who relies on stock knowledge to get through school life :v

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life?:Yes.*blushes*

12. Name your most irrational fear/aversion: I used to run away at the speed of light at the sight of anything worm-like. >___<. I once accidentally touched a worm and it felt cold and slimy it was disgusting I literally threw a fit (LOL), but now I can tolerate them. Just... stay away within a one-meter radius D:

13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable?: a looottt.

14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties?: I don’t drink alcoholic beverages to the point where I get wasted. But let me tell you a story: when I was a kid, Mom gave me a quarter kilo of grapes. I finished it in one sitting, but I got drunk so I hit my head on the door knob when I tried to stand up. I wonder what kind of drunk I am now? AT PARTIES? NOOO... I just stay at corners and try to avoid having to party. It’s not the party that’s bad, it’s the socializing. :’D

15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone?: I fall in love with 2d men easily. And yes, it takes quite some time for me to trust someone nowadays, cuz I learned my lesson the hard way.

16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends?: just one close friend is enough. I get tired of people quite easily.

17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak?: *glances around my work area* Yep. I’m a slob alright. But that’s only when I’m too busy on something. Otherwise, you’ll often see me arranging my stuff here and there.

18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy: a view of the sunset in a large window from a high place. and where a contrast of temperature is at its best <3

19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday?: I’m not that fond of kids because the kids in my neighborhood are brutal. They call me pancit canton (instant noodle) because of my hair :’’’’’’’’’D (I’m a 23-year-old bullied by 5-year-old kids)

20. What was your favorite book as a child?: I didn’t like reading, believe me. I learned to read quickly because I wanted to get away from books as fast as possible. LOL

21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about: uhm... mobile legends and despacito :x srsly what are those

22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated: what is. IDK... ಠ_ರೃ

23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose?: I’d be with Hitsugaya Toushiro! (then will secretly glue us together again before one month ends LOLOLOLOL) Taichou! <3

24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday?: I want to travel a lot to old places. Ah... it’s a life-long dream :3

25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat?: I’m a peace-loving person, and I’m weak at arguments so I keep my mouth shut and let my brain become noisy until my thoughts settle down instead of speaking up.

26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in?: I live in a cave -- what even is the latest fad today

27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for?: I was low-key emo back then but it only manifested in my music preference because I was keeping up a good school image. Now when I look back at that “shiny and brilliant student” facade I wanted to smack my younger self in the head (btw, my music preference never changed).

28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable?: Bravery. It can take you far if you have it. I admire brave people.

29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? (For instance, people always get you things with ducks on them because you like ducks, etc.): I don’t receive gifts anymore (too bad, will you give me a gift? XD) but my godmother often gave me dresses and clothes, and blue items cuz she knew blue was my favorite :3

30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones?: I speak Filipino, English and not that fluent at Japanese (and currently taking a crash course at Bahasa Indonesia)

31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside?: I’d choose countryside in a heartbeat!

32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving?: none in particular.

33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else?: I do not like too much attention. I do appreciate it when someone notices me but if I get too much of that, it wears me out.

34. Favorite holiday?: Christmas!

35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously?: there are days when I just go with the flow, but when the situation calls for it, I spend a night planning my days, especially trips. Yup.

36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? (A tv show, book, series–anything.): Final Fantasy Advent Children. I’d love to experience that doki-doki when I see Cloud in action <3 and my nightly walks back at the province. The moon-lit road home, the fireflies, the silence, the nature -- I’d love to go back there and spend a good vacation. Plus the residents are really friendly

37. What hobbies do you have?: Drawing, procrastinating, sleeping, procrastinating, reading manga, and did I mention procrastinating?

38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have?: what even -- then it’s not called superpower anymore, but rather just “power” LOLOLOL. I wish I could shut down my nose when someone farts XD

39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you: that I’m not actually intimidating and that I am indeed Filipina.

40. Something that took you way too long to figure out: how to answer this. also, still trying to figure out how I’ll dissect my building. -_-

41. Worst injury you’ve had?: I fell down the stairs when I was a kid and it damaged my knees. Now both knees hurt during the cold season.

42. Any morbid fascinations?: I like drawing gore?

43. Describe your sense of humor: dark! as a result of my depression, my jokes tend to be categorized as black comedy LOL. Also perv. :v

44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose? I wish I was born in Japan, or renaissance England (^◇^；)

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at: time management (/ω＼)

46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through: College. Why the hell did I have to pick Architecture major of all things? But I learned a few things so okay.

47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? (Neither tattoo can be removed or concealed with makeup, and the ugly tattoo will deeply offend anyone who sees it.): ugly tattoo. I don’t like having stuff on my face

48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist?: I’m a pessimist irl. I’m actually a depressing human being hiding behind my drawings online ﾟ.+(〃ﾉωﾉ)ﾟ.+°

49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you?: that I’ve inspired them. Ah truly a ray of light in this dark depressing life of mine (￣∇￣) .+°

50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you: my silence. me being silent to them often means I’m mad, or brooding, or being a bitch. LOL NO. that’s just my face ᕕ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ᕗ

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